Sunday, March 25, 2012
Where I had landed myself in,
I deserve it.
8:32:00 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
It's so amazing, so many things had changed.
People grew up, changed, learned and experienced.
Funny thing is that, everyone seemed to be together as one last time.
How many of us had a different route to a different future.
Some had children, some are married, some are still studying and some had found a job.
Can't really imagine myself having a kid or getting married. Gosh.
Totally out of my mind.
Amazing.
1:24:00 AM
You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way and sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness & sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe & comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen... Let yourself fall in love again, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right too.
Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish.....Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.
Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday....
Was it worth it?
12:35:00 AM
Monday, March 19, 2012
Lately been so busy with my work, school, projects and all sort of things.
Been leading back what the kind of life that I had years ago, that I think it's a little madness.
I'm getting old, but every weekends were fun, enjoyment and laughter.
However, definitely I have also took time to take care of my dad too.
That I'm falling sick now. Sighed. :(
Guess I have over-estimated myself.
I am not so super woman after all.
Really need a lot of rest.
Cause I'm really extremely tired...
Good night!
12:59:00 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Recently been doing some reflection on my past and what I have been doing recently.
It's a little amazing isn't it? Like you grow so much, so drastic.
And I've been listening to a lot of songs lately,
different songs have a different meaning,
which secretly linked to a different person.
I've been thinking like why time has passed so quickly.
I'm already 21 this year, from a teenager to becoming an official adult.
If you asked me if I am happy that I have grow up, I would say no.
It's so funny right? Like it's only yesterday I have just started this blog.
I still can remember vividly every single little things that had happened since my teenage life.
I was telling my Uni classmates about my life, that I had an accident when I was 16.
I even showed them the pictures. It was horrible. Seriously, the most painful days of my life.
I really don't understand how I manage to pull through it, because the pain was like hell.
School these days have been really fun.
I'm really glad that even though I didn't join full time, and had enrolled into part time.
I had my fair share of fun and joy like a typical Uni student.
My classmates are fun, and we had been like sticking together.
We kept having a lot of outings, like bonding session.
It makes me think of the time I had with SBM.
You know it's so amazing that one moment, you are so close with this group of friends,
and the next moment, you suddenly drifted all together with this group and had a new group.
Life is so funny at the same time. You know that's why I believe in impermanent.
I know this wouldn't last, and that after graduation, we wouldn't be as close as like now.
So I chose to spend more time to enjoy my Uni life.
After all, all these time would pass and sooner or later, we would all be busy with our life.
Now that we have all started working, and are still schooling together.
We have the same topics on work, jobs, school and stuffs.
Sooner or later, we would all get married, and everyone would be busy with their life.
And my close friends, I can foresee that we would still hang out, but not as often like now.
It's like you are watching everything fading away slowly, but you just try to treasure it now.
As for dad's health, it don't seem to be good.
I'm trying, we are trying, we all are trying.
We are trying to make him stay alive,
yes, he isn't helping himself.
He still goes on with his unhealthy diet, like eating whatever that comes into his mind.
Yet, we are all trying to make him understand that at this time of his life,
strict diet is really important, like total strict diet.
But, you know my dad, he loves food, just like I am.
He just can't be bothered and continued eating whatever he likes.
Worst of all, he don't listen, and we are trying.
It's like we, children are trying to make him understand the seriousness in this situation,
but he, himself is trying to shun from the reality, being self-denial about his health.
What are we supposed to do, what am I supposed to do?
Can someone tell me? We tried all ways, really all kinds of ways.
I even thought of asking Venerable Bodhi for help.
It's like you are watching your dad slowly seeking death,
you know the seriousness in this situation,
but no matter what you are trying to tell him, he don't listen.
He still goes on with his usual lifestyle, do whatever he likes.
You know, it pains me, it really makes me feel hurt that I'm watching my dad,
from a healthy man to a real skinny man now. He no longer has his muscles and stuffs..
He looked weak, like real weak, and I don't know what to do.
I still want him to see me getting successful in my career,
get married and have some kids for him to play with.
Though I know, marriage would come later,
I wanna totally focus on my career,
I wanna buy a condominium to let them stay.
I want them to enjoy life, to really totally enjoy life.
But now that I have started studying,
I have my commitments to do,
I can't give him all my pays even though no matter how willing I wanted to.
But I need to pay my school fees, yes I'm paying my own school fees - 19k.
If anyone thinks its gotta be easy, no it isn't.
Yes, the advantage of paying your own school fees is that,
you have no worries after that.
You don't have to worry about graduating from the University,
and you need to start worrying about how to pay your school fees.
But still, I gotta suffer like this for 1.5 years.
Sighed.
Alright gotta stop here already.
I need to go to sleep.
If not I gotta be like the same like today,
only waking up at 9.10am when I'm supposed to start work at 9am.
Good luck. LOL
Good night!
1:05:00 AM
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
2012 is coming, we may not know what it would bring.
But we need to welcome 2012 with a bright and warm heart.
Time to face any obstacles that life is going to bring to us.
I know, before any year ends, we need to set our resolutions.
But, I just couldn't find any time for do it. Well, now here it is.
My year 2012 resolution.
1. I won't let anyone hurt me anymore. I just want to live for myself.
2. Study hard, work hard, commit hard. Ensure there's enough time for all commitment.
3. Do the things that I deemed right, not gotta let anyone choose my next step.
4. Be independent. Time to really endure the time where I have to eat alone, see doctor alone.
5. When I start something, I need to do it with my all, even means draining myself completely.
6. Ensures that I'm being aggressive enough in my sales for my mortgage loans.
7. Bring SanityDesire to a greater level. Strive my best for my studies.
8. Treat my friends better, make sure that I don't neglect any of them.
9. Spend more time with my families as much as possible.
10. The most important, stop being messy!
11:53:00 PM
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Hello everyone!
Just a photo to make sure you all remember me. LOL!
I think this blog is really dead man.
Just decided to enter my blog and read some past history.
It is damn hilarious to be reading your own past.
I started blogging when I'm 13.
I was taught blogging through Junting kor.
We used to be damn close godsister & godbrother.
But ever since he graduated, we were not very close anymore. :(
So here it is, this is the blog and the URL that stayed for me for 7 years.
I merely figured out everything by myself, including the blogskins.
I feel like a genius man HAHA!
Anyway, life has been good so far.
Except for some personal family problems.
And I have started out my part time degree.
Really hope I could get a first class honors.
And have I mentioned?
I have moved on to OCBC Mortgage Specialist.
Not really a Mortgage Specialist now.
But I'm still learning. So yeah, a Mortgage Support Officer.
And again, because of my age of only 20. I couldn't do what I was supposed to do.
I'm being placed like every where to do admin. Ha!
However, it was a great experience somehow as I moved around and get to know alot people.
I have an online boutique too.
Although it wasn't as fabulous as those famous one.
But really, trust me I'm trying my best to do what I love. :)
This 1.5 years would be tough for me as I started managing every single things.
But I don't want to give up any of it.
I love my blogshop. I love my job. And I needed that degree.
Its like a stepping stone of everything in my life.
I'm just doing my first steps and this is the choice that I have made.
I should never regret it. Instead, I should work even harder. :)
Oh ya, I had my first dinner & dance in OCBC at Resort World Sentosa.
Great experience, great companion, great MT mates.
I know nobody blogs anymore as we have facebook and twitter.
So do I. I stopped blogging ever since my laptop was a crap and my desktop died on me.
And I picked on many other hobbies which made me who I am today.
But blogging is an essential, because it keeps memories.
7 years of memories. Can you imagine that?
Woah, feel like a ten-year series somehow.
And I feel that I'm growing old.
Yeah, growing old is a part and parcel.
But I feel that I am satisfied with my life so far.
However, somehow or another, I feel that this life is too short.
I have only lived 20 years and I have completed my teens.
NK & I went to watch a movie, "You are the apple of my eye" last night.
It was a really really really great show. Brought back many memories of my life.
Didn't imagine that my secondary school life was the best part.
I was still hoping to grow up faster then.
Anyway, regarding that show, it was really fabulous.
The storyline, seem so real, like our life playing.
However, I still haven't meet one guy that has brought me so much memories yet.
Of someone who has been having an ambiguous relationship yet didn't manage to get together.
Hmmm, maybe its NSK. But yeah we contacted back as friends, good friends.
No feeling at all. Ha! Its like we don't even bring the past to talk.
Ha if I were to talk about it, I would have felt cheated man.
But it's all the past. Nothing to talk about though. Ha!
Well we are good friends now.
Meeting up for some supper some time.
Feel good to be friends again. I don't like to have strangers-friend.
But well, really hope NK would woo me again HAHA!
Cause I feel that our relationship is really stagnant.
You know girls... We want a doting boyfriend, one that cares for us.
Put us on top of all their priority and treat us like a princess.
Well, sadly I haven't experience it yet. :(
I have so many priority in life right now.
I hardly have time for rest.
My life was all about studies, work and blogshops.
I love busy life, and have always love to keep myself busy.
But sometimes, I hope to have someone for me to rely on too.
Feel goods to depend on someone on someday, and doesn't have to care about anything.
Oh well, shall stop here before I get REAL emo.
Hahahaha! Enjoy ! You can read back my past history.
Everything is on the left.
I shall start on my next essay writing for my studies.
Degree is not easy, I swear. 1.5 years to complete.
Jiayou Siah Hwan Ling. :)
4:54:00 PM
Monday, September 12, 2011
Join the banners ! :D
8:45:00 PM
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Hello,
do support my blogshop ! :)
Shall do it all my best ! :)
9:03:00 PM
Hello,
do support my blogshop ! :)
Shall do it all my best ! :)
9:03:00 PM
Back to blogging. Heh Heh~
Today it's a Hari Raya Public Holiday.
Ever since I've started working, I been looking forward for public holiday all the time.
I really hope every month has at least 2 or 3 days of public holiday, life is gotta be so good. :D
I been really busy with working and my blogshop.
Soon, school would start. I have enrolled in UCD degree.
Really hope that my results would be at least Second Upper Honour.
If there's still people who is reading this little blog. :D
Check out www.sanitydesire.weebly.com :D
Although I know there are a lot of blogshops outside.
I would never climb up the first top few blogshops who have been famous for so long.
But, I want to end somewhere. At least somewhere that is good.
My previous blogshop has to be stopped.
Oh well, but I was really glad that my website went well.
Business was really good and I was so glad that things were at the top.
However, some time things might happen so yeah, expect the unexpected.
I'm gotta climb up again with my new blogshop.
Launching of collection. :)
Gotta revamp my business management,
shall start from where I deem best. :)
Best wishes to all !
I shall head back to watch my Zui Hou Jue Ding Ai Shang Ni.
Been watching it for the past one week, so addictive.
I'm at my last 3rd episode already. :(
Fast and furious.
Okay well. Goodbye~
7:52:00 PM
