Saturday, August 29, 2009
Pretense.
In life, we learn to pretend.
Pretend to be happy.
Pretend to be hurt.
Pretend to study.
Pretend to do work.
How long more should one pretend.
Can't take it any longer.
I want nothing at all.
Just my dad's health is enough.
Nothing is worth more than him.
Please.
Just when I needed someone...
Sighed.
Going to SGH later.
Sighed. Things would be fine.
It's not I hope. It's definitely it would be.
And it must be.
Everything would be good.
I need to go soon.
Couldn't get much sleep.
And I doubt I had at least 2 hour sleep or so.
Couldn't sleep wel at all.
Sighed.
Bye.
I broke down after I reach home.
Because...
I was scared.
11:19:00 AM
Friday, August 28, 2009
Found this photo like damn long ago. HAHA.
I think I look damn alike with boyboy.
He is holding one yellow ball whenever he wants to play.
While, I'm covering my mouth with a yellow thing too.
HAHAHA!
I love boyboy!
He had been barking since just now.
He's so afraid of thunderstorm.
So cute.
Third day of Practical Lesson.
I got the same instructor as yesterday.
He said I'm damn good lah. HAHA!
Damn happy !
My changing of gear and speed adjusting,
and braking and stuffs are very good.
HAHA! Happppppppppppppy!
Then he said, I can go out drive next lesson already.
No need stay in circuit. Happy. =D
But okay lah, I got bored of inside circuit.
But that's what we need to do for school.
Every single lesson also must go one. LOL!
Driving is damn fun!
I want to get my license soon.
Then I can drive my parents out to eat,
and bring boyboy to go out and play. =D
And also also, go out with boyf,
we would not be restricted.
Tomorrow Timbre @ Substation. =D
Can't wait, next drink would try something else.
Sex on the beach was good man.
Have I posted the Timbre pictures? HAHA!
I think I didn't right. =/
Oops.
Alright. would do it soon. :D
I PROMISE PROMISE.
=)
Loves.
September is a huge loads of event. =)
4th, 7th, 9th, 16th. =)
Chiong ah!
I want to book TP lahhhhhh~ =(
Bye.
1:08:00 AM
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Damn funny. We were selling Kachiang Puteh.
Then we took it to take photo,
and these were what happened.
Edmund did that to Zhenfeng.
HAHA. DAMN CUTE.
Alright,
i kinda miss the time to town.
I want to go down.
Any?
And I miss IceCube's Icecream.
Shanyuan! WHEN!
Brought daddy & mummy for a movie.
Where got ghost. HAHA!
I'm glad they enjoy it.
Alright, second pratical lesson was fun.
The instructor said that I learnt very fast,
and I have a very good controlling of the car. =D
I'm happy. =)
I hope to finish it as soon as possible.
And I've been realy tired lately.
I don't know why either.
I WANT TO GO TOWN.
I'm bored of my current life.
Sian.
11:44:00 PM
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Mixed feeling.
Different world.
History is repeating itself.
Can you leave me alone.
爱了，累了，困了
曾经爱得轰轰烈烈
你是我生命中的快乐
开心也是因为你带给我
If only, if only, if only...
If only there isn't any external factor...
If only there is a time machine to go back...
If only there isn't such a different types of life we lead.
我们都知道彼此心中
这份爱从没停过
我们也把彼此放在未来的荧幕里
看着快乐慢慢的接近
可是
一切变了
Last Warning.
11:43:00 PM
Please help.
Visit her site to understand more about her & family.
Her mum really go through a lot a lot.
If you have the capability to help,
please do help.
If you do, at least give her some encouragement.
You can look at her own site to understand about the family background.
She really go through so much, born without a father.
Because the father went off with her mum's good friend.
Damn it man. Freaking slut. =/
She was only 7 months pregnant,
when the husband wanted to divorce.
Sighed. Why could this happen to her.
And before she thought that she had ended her ordeal,
her baby girl suffered from cancer at the age of 4.
Please help.
Side tracking.
Exams are over.
Piano exams are near.
Got to practice my ass out.
TeoHeng with classmate after exams.
It was a blast. Full of screaming.
And I can't forget the Boom Boom Boom.
I really love Taylor Swift.
She is oh-so-gorgeous.
Can't wait for practical lesson tomorrow. :)
Finally, I'm starting my lesson.
I can't wait to drive & get my driving license.
Wait for me.
Loves.
Bye.
Was I expecting too much?
1:35:00 AM
Monday, August 24, 2009
Sometime in life,
it's all about letting go.
Life's too short to make yourself miserable.
It's just never ending.
All comes from the start of lies.
Mark my words, I believe so.
I'm just tired.
I tried too hard.
2:32:00 AM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I like this photo! Cause he kana outcast. HAHA!
Then he like statues like that, we take photo with it.
Or is it that we are statue, he take photo with it? =/
All these photos were during National Day again. HAHA.
The others were late, and this was the first part when we were waiting.
And we took self timer. HAHA Fuzhong down there emo with my umbrella.
But he took some, and disturb our photos. HAHAHA!
I seriously don't know what am I doing.
Shit. damn unglam. -.-"
HAHAHAHAA! I kept laughing. LOL!
KANASAI. This is evidence. LOL!
K everyone started to go crazy. Walk toward my cam. =(
We all dont know why chatting leh. =/
ALL DAMN UNGLAM CAN!
OKAY SERIOUSLY, the photos are damn unglam for me.
HAHAHAHA! Forget it. LOL! I dont know it was so unglam.
Until I already uploaded it up to my blog.
And I waited so long to upload it to photobucket.
SO BETTER Not TAKE DOWN.
Forget it.
Unglam jiu unglam.
LOLOL!
Anyway, I've been really lazy lah.
Exam is starting on Friday.
And I haven't even done any study yet.
I'm like so dead, goned, and died. =/
K bye.
1:39:00 AM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
These were taken during National Day.
That was like quite some weeks ago?
I still have a hundred plus of it.
All random, candid.
Most are unglam.
HAHAHA!
So in order to confidentially hid all the photos of all the unglamness of people.
I shall wait till I got time then I post everything up. =/
That's like hmm, quite a few weeks more. =/
Roar, I want to pass piano.
I want to passssssssss!
There's lab test tomorrow.
And I'm like haven't study yet.
I've been playing the stupid computer for so long.
Somemore, lying down on the bed & play computer is shiok.
I want to start WOW again.
Damn sian already.
Time for some game soon.
But EXAM FIRST.
PIANO EXAM.
Anyway, I'm like seriously ought to start study now.
But I've been so lazy now. How? Tell me HOW!
Lazy pig.
Kbye.
MOTIVATE ME !
11:35:00 PM
It's all about self-conscience.
Don't make me hate you.
For putting me into such situations.
Only my true friend understands me.
You don't. Then shut up.
Define ying shui si yuan.
Don't forget what it takes for you to be today.
Don't forget where it was to bring you through today.
Gratitude. You taught me.
But what's now?
And for you.
Enough is enough.
If you cares more about yourself.
Then don't try to pretend to be good friend with me.
I had enough of your nonsense.
On a side note, yesterday the public talk was good. =D
After that, slack with Kianchong outside,
updating our life.
Next, we went over to Mac for like 20 mins?
Then I went home with Yinghui.
Home sweet home. :D
K now. Tomorrow is test.
SIAN.
kbye.
3:14:00 PM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
BABY BOY! I love him damn much.
I tell you, he's like my life lahhhhhh!
Everytime go somewhere,
the first one I think is him.
HAHAHA!
BOYBOY LOVES!
Yinghui!
Lao BU!
EUNICE!
Andrina!~
She always bully me. =(
HAHA, these photos are like way long ago.
I think the cutting of the paper is like more than a month ago?
I wanted to take Evelyn & I doing the cutting paper also.
BUT! my camera went low battery at that time.
It don't love me. =(
Yeah, it's weekend now.
I shall just enjoy my life man.
We can't always stress ourselves.
Weekdays stress finish,
weekend play. HAHA!
That's my motto man.
I hate to do work over the weekend.
I mean, weekdays you chiong chiong chiong.
Weekend is time for destress and enjoyment.
Alright, going to SBM later for meeting.
Then maybe drop by Junxiong birthday?
I don't knowwwwwwww!
Then maybe come home practice piano?
Or maybe start studying for Kondo test?
HA!
Don't know narh. LOL
Come back then see how.
Time pass faster okay!
And seriously, Mrs Ho said correctly.
The week would pass by real fast.
And my current week had passed by so fast,
because we were too busy with all the projects,
and every minutes count to us. HAHA!
That's why, when you are really busy,
you would feel time pass.
So fast that I'm already ending 2.1,
heading towards 2.2.
I kind of look forward for the next semester.
Some people know, some people don't.
Then that's too bad.
HAHAHA!
I shall make your heart feel itchy itchy.
Eh, definitely not because next semester would be easier.
Your head ah, LOL next semester would be tougher.
But it's all about...
Don't tell you.
LOL!
K bye.
1:53:00 PM
Next time then talk about.
Got myself into trouble by helping my friend.
And I still feel so innocent about it. Damn.
Futhermore, I just felt like shit man.
My friend told me, you always faced with such stuffs,
sometimes, you would just face shits when you help people.
But never go against your principle, just keep helping.
It's just about test. To see how setbacks would affect your mindsets.
Sighed, but WHY AM I GETTING MYSELF INTO THIS THING.
I did not cheat, like seriously.
Sighed. I just so worry about the 0 marks.
Life is just so stressful right now.
On a bright note,
School has end this week.
It's study week this coming week,
but I'm having all kinds of nonsense,
of having the Kondo lab test & BIS lab test,
and then having the last paper next next week.
From then on, I would fully concentrate on my piano lesson & exam,
and then go for my driving license. In the mean time,
I would take up part-time job.
Whenever I look at other couples,
I see how sweet they were,
I see how sweet the boyfriend had treat the girlfriend,
receiving gifts & flowers & showered with love.
I just remember how things were at the start.
Sighed.
All the sending me back even how stupid it was,
to put me in a cab and then ride bike behind the cab to send me home.
It was just so sweet to me.
How you would always want to satisfy my cravings,
when I wanted to eat subway & you would bring me to BPP.
Sighed.
And at the start of the relationship,
how you surprise me with that Agnes B wallet.
When we were only together for a week or so?
And there wasn't any special event to give me gifts at all.
& how you would always plan to go where,
making the day fun for both of us.
Sighed.
Sighed.
Now it's all about friends.
Why do I felt a urge to cry when I see all the couples out there.
Is it me or us? Was I jealous, was I admiring them?
Sighed.
Good thing never last.
Was that so ?
Or was I too stress up?
Sighed.
Friendship, some friends are worth it.
Some friends are not worth it.
But I treat all my friends equally well.
And I just hope they would do the same.
In life, reality set in, bringing the problem in.
I dont know why, but I just feel so shit.
At times, I just wonder,
why am I treating some friends so good for?
When all I get were shits and shits.
Metta, I should learn to have more metta.
They say, you would have to choose your friends wisely.
I want a friend that would share and care.
I don't mind being the friend to be there 24 hours.
As long as the friend have the heart to be good friends.
And weren't care the circumstances, the environment factors.
Just concern about this friendship.
I thought we were close?
But after what I had heard.
It wasn't, anymore.
Sighed.
This, I had realised, sometimes ago.
But, I just bottled it up.
Maybe, bottling it up would do all good.
On a side notes, I went out with SBM friends.
Watched the Xia Dao Siao. Haha.
Quite a comedy & horror show.
Seriously, quite funny somehow.
I want to bring my parents to watch leh. =D
I really really really want to. :D
Also, I had fun with Yinghui & Rhandhir.
Talking about some stuffs. HAHA!
Seriously, I miss the times.
I miss everything.
2:12:00 AM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I was looking at the news about the Taiwan stuffs.
It actually really shocked me so much.
I cried while watching the news.
It was so heartwrenching.
You see people suffering.
You see how people don't know what to do.
You would never ever understand these feeling,
unless you were there. & you lost your loved one.
Maybe one day before, you were happily chatting with them,
in the living room of yours, watching TV and stuffs.
The next day, everything was gone.
Your family, your house, your memories.
Gone forever, it was just empty.
I didn't know how to describe the feeling,
but I actually understood how they feel,
and really feel what they were feeling.
Furthermore, people were coming together,
volunteer are sarificing their lives to help.
Three guys even ended up dead because they help.
Yes yes, some people would think how stupid are they to help.
But you didn't know how hero were they.
What if you are in the shoes of the victim,
how much you needed all these heroes to help.
And they were died because of all of you.
Furthermore, you would not understand how many people they had saved,
before the plane crash or something. Sighed.
I don't know why, but I really hope to do something.
Though I'm really very broke now,
but at least something that is able to be done?
Sighed. Actually, we don't need all the luxury goods,
we don't need all the materialistic stuffs.
What we needed, were just peaceful life,
and the world of peace, with no disaster.
And you weren't be living in uncertainty,
where you realised, everything were so fine the day before,
and the day after, everything were gone.
Gone with the wind.
Sighed.
Can I cry for them?
Hope for more people to be saved.
Hope for the deceased to be reborned in a better realm.
Hope that the heroes of the group would be in safety while helping.
Lastly, hope for those people that had been saved to be able to withstand the suffering.
Life is suffering.
Yes, have you understand it clearly?
11:16:00 PM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
It happened on the National Day where we were celebrating.
We were talking about relationships.
And Randhir told us about his cousin.
Yes, the love that I admired those were the one who loved silently.
They really give their love so much that they don't expect anything back.
They just wished for the happiness of the one they loved.
Even at the expense of them getting hurt.
As long as they see their loved one being happy,
they do anything just to give them their happiness.
I know the feeling of loving someone and you can't get them,
because I had that feeling a few times, and that feeling sucks.
But as long as you knew that they were getting the happiness they wanted,
you just feel happy for them.
That's the highest love that you can ever find. =)
Okay, I should shut up.
There's FOM tomorrow.
And please don't mark me on my plagatism.
I didn't copy like seriously, it was just coincidence. Sighed.
So busy this week.
I shall tell you why.
Tuesday - Brochure deadline
Wednesday (Today) - Derivatives Presentation
Thursday - COTS Presentation & FOM Exam
Friday - BIS Lab Test
Monday - Derivatives Lab Test
Tuesday - Derivatives Project Submission
See, everyday is a submission.
Tell me how not stress I am.
When then I have time to really sleep.
TELL ME! =(
11:33:00 PM
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Everyday so busy.
One project down.
I like my brochure alot.
Hope my hardwork pays off.
Somehow, I feel that my language in that brochure sucks.
Siao liao. =/
Like finally.
I'm left with 2 presentation & 2 exams.
Damn it. Let me die can you ?
I've never been so busy till I wanna die.
I have so many things to do, like what the hell.
Spare me please.
I really need some sleep.
My head is really aching so badly.
Sighed.
Bye.
11:38:00 PM
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Happy Birthday Singapore!
Alright, had been a super long weekend.
And I haven't been updating.
Don't blame me.
I really like to write my blog.
But I have got no time.
Last time is everyday write blog.
Now is everyday write report.
Like what the hell.
Seriously, I very busy till I want die.
I'm having Derivatives Presentation this Wednesday.
And guess what, I haven't even done a bit of anything.
Dead gone died.
Time to start to do soon.
It's so scary you know.
I'm like dying already.
I haven't even do anything.
How nice?
Anyway, it was crap man,
like real crap of the whole week.
Cause I've been really busy the whole week,
till I don't know what's happening any more.
Not even for any of my projects.
I just blindly do it.
I'm so gotta died this semester.
Because the whole time,
I don't understand my test,
I don't study for my test,
I haven't even got time.
And I hardly eat now.
Cause I really have no time. =(
It was that bad. So hectic life.
Although I didn't eat now,
I lost one kg only. =(
Saded.
Anyway, been watching a lot show lately.
I watched Overheard already,
sad ending. =(
I watched GI Joe,
great show like seirously.
I watched UP,
it was really funny.
But dad & mum was damn noisy.
Till I got complaint from the people beside me.
So paiseh. =/ Sighed.
Stupid kor kor,
sit infront somemore.
Sighed.
Lucky I sat beside the others,
at least when dad & mum talk,
I can ask them shut up LOL.
So now, nothing much already narh.
I just updated my whole week of life.
SO BORING LAH.
I GOT PHOTOS TO UPLOAD CAN.
Like a hell load of them .
All the photos from Timbre.
All the photos from Paintball.
All the photos from ShanYou.
Like what the hell.
I own so many people photos.
I don't even have time.
People, help me upload to facebook leh.
SIao liao lah. =(
K bye.
I wished for 24th August to come.
Then I can finished everything and start my Driving license. =D
K bye.
1:59:00 AM
Thursday, August 06, 2009
I finished one project.
One down.
I did until 3am.
So nice.
Luckily the lesson for tomorrow is pretty short.
There are more to go man.
Sian. I hope I did right for my brochure though.
Very scary leh, I want to maintain my A.
I want to quickly finish with all my project,
then I can start revising for my FOM.
I'm just a little teeny weeny bit to A.
My Cash Project is cui.
I got B for the report.
Jialat man. No more A.
I miss Jonathan's being the leader lah.
Like seriously. =( Stupid 6 man team,
throw us aside. =(
My hands are pretty numb.
I don't know why.
I'm very scare of piano exam.
Like seriously very scare.
I really hope I can pass this time round.
Last chance.
K super busy.
Bye.
2:51:00 AM
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Dad saw boyf & I,
and he's smoking.
He told me not to hang out with such people.
I got so frustrated,
and scolded baby wan ba dan.
Sighed. He got so angry because of that.
Then how about me?
Sighed. Our relationship is gotta get tough man.
I don't think he would be able to go through my dad that stage.
Sighed.
Life is getting harder each time.
Sighed. Can I just have my life stop at this moment?
Projects are accumulating into a mountain.
I got so many deadline to meet next week.
3 projects, 2 presentations, 1 test next week.
How to finish?
Why can't anyone just be a little sweeter or nicer to me?
Sighed. I just wish for someone to be there,
when life just get too hard.
Kill me please.
12:00:00 AM
Sunday, August 02, 2009
Last chance.
快乐时光不长久
I miss the past.
Where you treated me right.
Things weren't the same anymore.
你总是不在乎我的感受。
11:31:00 AM
Ownself save down your photos ah. =/
Paintball time.
There's still more photos.
But I very lazy to load up everything. =/
Sighed.
I went for movie with boyf & gang yesterday.
This movie rocks big time. HAHA.
We laughed from the start till the end.
I shall give it 10/10. HAHA.
it's seriously funny.
After that, I went home to rest arleady,
while they still go over for mahjong.
boyf always have mahjong then forget me.
Sighed.
bye.
9:16:00 AM
