Monday, July 30, 2007
HUSKY =D Cute Cute !
So, Shanyuan tried to save boyboy from being bullied and he carried him up and Tadah, there goes his white shirt. LOL ! He had been complaining about it for the whole day alright. XD ! So yeah, my boyboy is so unfriendly to other dogs and yet he's always so friendly to human. -.-" Whenever my friends come to my house, he played with them. If some burglar is to come to my house, I think my boyboy will play with him. =.="
I think Golden Retrievers are damn cute please.
Alright, this isn't Heuer or Tiger. I really like Shanyuan's Heuer & Tiger ! I mean they are really so clever and they listened to all your commands unliked my little boy. -.-" Oh man, Boy you disgraced me. =(
I'm going to bring boyboy for a ear wash soon. =D I wished my brothers will take care of my boyboy for this year. =( I'm so busy and I hardly have time for myself. Sighs !~ Boy ahh ! I will dote on you more when I finished my O's. Just another 3 months, hang on my boy. =D
I finished my composition. I think I screwed this composition up because I really have no ideas to write on the topic - Silence. Never mind, I won't be doing anything tomorrow except to study hard for my Amath Block test on Tuesday. Then after my Amath test is done, I will study hard for my Emath Paper 2 test. =D In the mean time, I will do my D&T too.
BYE ! LOVES ! BOO ! MISSES !
12:06:00 AM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
I love you.
Your presence made my day.
Yet your absence told me to move on.
But still, I miss you.
I want to see my phone rings again.
I want to see your messages again.
I'm out soon to bring my little boyboy out to play with Shanyuan. Bye.
My portfolio is still left undone.
My composition is still left undone.
Damn it.
Laaaa~
12:38:00 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
It's a long way to go, I felt like giving up.
Sorry, please refrained from reading this portion. It's full of profanities because I had all the anger inside me which had been accumulated for 4 years. Yeah, 4 damn years. Don't mess with my life. I make sure you get hell. Don't pollute your mind with my profanities because you doesn't deserve to. Only the bitchy teacher is the one who deserved everything. =D Stop reading from here. If you are the loser, please continue reading.
So, we had a traumatize scolding from a typical crazy bitchy teacher who I had been hating for years. Yeah, years. Correct me if I had been wrong. But I'm sure I won't be wrong that I had hated her for years. Yadah, I know hate is a strong word. But tell me, how am I not supposed to hate such a BITCH. Right at this time of the year, we are rushing and panicking over our studies and that damn arse teacher came and ruined our schedule. What the hell is this teacher trying to meddle with our life. I had that urge to go straight up to the principal and start complaining whatever shits she had given us all these years. She claimed that we had done nothing to make guides proud. Oh so that was what you had claimed. So all those prizes we had won, all the tough dance practices we had been through just to get the damn prize which we don't get to share a little of the prize at all ? What the heck is this GUIDE doing. Yes, I'm damn against with this whole damn thing. YOU KNOW HOW HARD WE HAD PUT IN AND YET I GOT A B3 for my CCA points ? SUCKER !~
I know I shouldn't use profanities to describe the feeling inside me. (I deleted it as I know there were many young people who were reading it. Don't learn from me. It isn't a good thing) But hell, that was actually what I had felt. You know shits? It's even worst than shits. We had been through all the shits and yet what we had now were still shits. Shits after shits. You think we are happy? No way man. You think the world is still going round ? No way man. You think we had so much crap time to do your crap stuffs? No way man. I tell you bitch, you jolly well fuck off from my damn life. I aren't your slave. I aren't someone who is borned to be scolded by you sucker. Who do you think you are from the first place. You were nothing to me. Nothing at all. You know why we are still acting like we care for guides ? Because, we just wanted our Testimonials to be printed nicely. But I know, our testimonials will still be the same. You were just another loser teacher. I can't believe you were a guider. Someone who is supposed to teach us to be a better person. Yet what you gave, aren't what we wanted. You gave shits. Even during the camps, I had loads of things to smack you upside down. Yet, I chose to keep it inside me. You are a teacher, I chose not to say in front of everyone. Do you still remember the day when I shouted at you about you trying to maligning me? You think I don't dare to scream at a teacher ? Try daring me, I make sure I do it in front of you.
You ruined my life. Yeah, you were the one. You will get all the bad karma you deserved. And you better do. BITCH, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE !
Alright, you may start reading again. =D
So, we had Moggallana dinner yesterday. =D 3 Words - Fun, crappiest, wonderful. You knew we were all woeful but yet, we are wonderful. =D I believed all these dinners would definitely strengthen our bonds. =D All those Moggas who were busy and due to circumstances, you couldn't make it for the dinner. It's okay. =D There is always the next dinner. :)
Then, I woke up early today. But yet, I was still late for the Math lesson. -.-" I didn't do the math after all. I was trying to finish up my D&T. I spent the whole day trying to finish up with the help of Ivan, Evelyn, LiangJian & Zeyan. Thank you. I sincerely thanks all of you. =D I will work hard and not disappoint anyone. :)
Alright, I'm supposed to get back to work now. Goodbye. Please sms me if you need anything. Though I won't be replying the messages often due to my stuffs that were left undone, had been piling up.
BOO.BII.BYE.BEE.BOO
xP
9:37:00 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
So, I managed to do up the two drawers for my D&T but, there's some problem going on now. The damn drawer just doesn't fit into my caskets. That was great. Hell. So what am I supposed to do with that unfittable drawer. -.-" Damn it. And there was some kind of hilarious stuffs happening when I was doing the drawer. Mr Azman requested Zhong Xun to come over to help me. Then, we kept being disturbed by them. LOL ! There was even one time that Bryan was walking near us and Mr Azman shouted, "Bryan, why are you disturbing the two of them?" LOL ! Kerwin came to us and started singing the "Tian Mi Mi" song with a off tune tone. All the stuffs were seriously funny. Luckily, we knew each other. So, we were just laughing at all their stupid actions. LOL ! Funny day yeah. xD Zhong Xun was really nice to help me to hammer all the nails in. Thanks loads ! =DDD
After School, I went to the library. It has been such a long time since I was there. All I could do now was to rush through my D&T. Damn it. D&T is wasting so much of my time. I should have took up another subject then. Sigh ! Just before all the shops closed, we went to the Suntec City hoping to get the handle of the drawer. In the midst of the journey, we saw Alvin. He will be back. I urged the day to come faster. =DDD
Tell me, who doesn't have friends who come and go ? But trust me, the true one will stay. Those friendships which lasted for years are the one that I treasured the most. Definitely, I will love the new ones too. =D
I'm tired already. My eyelids are shutting. Well. Goodnight then.
BOO.BEE.BYE !
The absence of your presence kept you away from my mind & my heart.
I'm trying to get you off my mind.
But still, I miss your presence which lingers around like in the past...
Contradicting and meaningless.
11:44:00 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
It was just another usual day. I felt really intolerant of my own emotions. Awhile ago, I was rejoicing over nothing. Then the next moment, I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs and perished from this world. God damn it. I think I'm insane. Yet, my sanity were lingering inside. I'm contradicting myself. But that's what I am. I love to be ironic. I don't know what has been bothering me. I never get to find the root of the problems. I just don't know what I am feeling blue for.
I went to find my mum in the afternoon. I just felt like being loved. I was feeling so blue that I just could not stand it anymore. So, I went to find mum. It was great to feel like a child for mum to dote on. Seriously, I really don't know what has been going on these days. I just felt so emo. Yeah, that's the word - emo.
Sighs. I wish I could have know what has been happening around. I know nothing. I felt nothing. I see nothing. That's aren't what I wanted. I want to feel something. I want to know something. I want to see something. I just want to feel that I was a human not some empty shell which was left to rot. Suddenly, I just felt so empty. Freak it.
I aren't going to be online. I aren't going to return any calls. I aren't going to pick any calls. I aren't going to return any sms. I just want to be alone yet I don't feel like being alone. It was all such a complicating feeling inside. Honestly, I screwed my life up. This feeling wasn't great. I felt so sickening sick.
I just want to be a little girl again.
Dote me please.
I always hope to hear the ring from my phone with your messages.
Please get well soon. I miss you.
7:49:00 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
I found this picture extremely cool. :)
School was boring. I had been sleeping for most of the lessons. I'm like so tired and the lessons were so boring. So, I just seize the time to take a nap. We took a Emath Class Test Paper 2 after school and I'm worried. I didn't study at all. After that, I met up with Andrina. We wanted to wait for Yinghui but she was waiting for her friends. So we left first as we were afraid that the tickets would be sold out. Sorry girl !
Yaa.Baa.Yee.
Harry Potter is so damn cool. I want to learn magic too ! I want to study in Hogwart too. I want to make friend with them. I want to play with all the nonsense things that the Welseys had made. Ahh. I want to re-read the books again. I'm so into the magic world now. I miss reading the book. And yeah, my sister-in-law had finished reading the last book and it's my turn to indulge in the magic world. =D
I'm back to my portfolio world first. Hell.
Oh yeah, I bought Donuts for my family. I'm such a good daughter/sister. xD Most importantly, I love them all. =DDDD DONUTS REALLY ROCKS. I want to indulge myself with donuts too. Ahhh. Can I burn my books away so that I can rest and play now? Ahhh~ Life sucks.
10:21:00 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
I screwed my Amath test up. Yeah, and I'm so tired right now. I don't know what the hell is happening to me. I had been terribly a procastinator for such a long time and I'm not doing anything about it. Time to really feel so guilty but yet I just wanted to laze around. Sighs ! I screwed my sleeping time. I screwed my study time. I screwed everything. Shame on you.
I had been feeling rather blue lately. I don't know what's been bothering me up but I just felt so sickening sick. And damn it, I was late today. It's the second time of my whole life that I had been late for school. Hell. It isn't a good sign at all, it isn't...
Oh yeah, I met up with Shanyuan for awhile to look at his Tiger & Heuer. Cute ! But boyboy is cute too ! At least, it doesn't come hugging me. xD ! He always looked at me and then give me the I-want-a-hug look. xD ! I still love boyboy. xP
BOO.BAH.BYE
I'm sick of this whole damn thing of my life.
6:41:00 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
I love Yinghui. Of course, I love Andrina! But the photos we took very very blur, next time we take more alright. :) I LOVE ANDRINA =DDD
I love the four of them. LOVES ! Look at that fish on our head. Damn cute XD !
Kaiwen Made in Singapore while I'm BORNED in Singapore.
I love the Jellyfish. They are extremely cute. :)
Colourful Stadium. :)
I love Fireworks ! :) I had always love them ever since I'm young. =DDDD
My day was spent at the SBM with the guys. :) They were really really crap. And, please allow Fuzhong & Jianyong & Hangqi to be safe. Let that crazy girl to stop her nonsense please. Such prank aren't funny, it wasn't at all.
We played lan for awhile and some of us went for Subway. Then, home sweet home. :) I suddenly miss reading Harry Potter. I love the time when he was still a kid. And, we are going to watch it on Tuesday. Many said it wasn't as exciting as it was supposed to be. Well, I won't put much hope in it. :)
Alright, I'm really tired. :) I did nothing today and I'm feeling very guilty. Night. There's Amath test tomorrow. I'm bound to be DEAD! Pray hard for me. It was just some simple test - Matrices, Sets & P&C. ROAR ! I need to rush to get at least a drawer done for my D&T artefact tomorrow. :)
I don't want to think about you anymore.
11:26:00 PM
Yeah, the small small me. XD ! It was taken with Yinghui's handphone.
I woke up extremely early today for the Effective Writing Skills. Then I joined the Physic lesson which was great and I really love the way Mr Eng had taught us. :) Next, I joined the chanting & meditation session and went off for NDP.
Seriously, this year was the best NDP that I had ever attended. I love the Jellyfish, Motorkite & the fireworks the most. :) Most of all, I love the bag ! The bag was the best of all in the entire series that I had ever went for. I'm really serious about it. Don't trust me, you can ask the others. :) I must really thank Andrina for the tickets. You rock girl !
I enjoyed myself alot today. :) Pictures tomorrow. =D
BYEBYE ! :)
12:12:00 AM
Friday, July 20, 2007
So, I was really busy with my D&T artefact recently. I was trying to get the wood to do up the drawer for my table, but to no avail. The teachers were way way too busy to be bothered about me. =( So I was pratically, doing my sanding and cleaning off the pencil marks. I know it's pathetic but I really need the teacher to help me. Toh Wee was really nice to stop his work for awhile and to help me to measure the pathetic drawer measurement. I think my artefact sucks big time. Simon was demoralising me and I got all so demoralised. =(
I took a long way back home instead of the usual short cut home. I was daydreaming. I was thinking all about what had happened from last time till now. All the little little things changed. Most importantly, I miss the friendships that I had a few months ago. But well, things do change right ? Things changed. Circumstances changed. Character changed. People changed. All these changes were inevitable. Nobody can stop it from happening.
I had been really busy messing with my studies & SBM stuffs lately. Been sending a tons of messages out and I think my bill is going to explode sooner or later. The last one was exploded and mum started to nag at me. She had quitted her job due to some circumstances and yeah, from now onwards, I will have to be as thrifty as I can. =( I don't have extra money anymore. Anyway, it doesn't make any difference since I had never gotten extra money from my mum. =D Seriously, money are hard to earn. I really want to work but I can't possible throw my studies aside right at this cruicial time of my life. I haven't start my revision and I'm still doing my D&T. See how pathetic life is ?
I accidentally killed a little life on Wednesday. It was the snail. I just heard a cracked sound and there it goes, its life was gone all because of me. I'm really very sorry. I was standing there apologising to it and hoping that it will be borned in a better realm. I know I looked really retarded to stand there and look at a snail. But look, I'm really very sorry. =(
Night. Bye. Goodbye. Goodnight.
I miss you.
I want the friendship that we used to have.
We no longer talk to each other anymore.
I'm starting to miss everything.
Everything that was a wonder to me.
Most importantly, I really miss you.
11:13:00 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Usually, when people were lost or something, I don't usually look into the article. Yet, right now, I felt the anxiety of what they felt when they lost someone they know. Vicky, be strong. We are all behind you. :) Remember your Ultraman Spirit !
Felicia, where are you now? Go home now. Everyone miss you.
I was out with Rainer, Zijie & Calvin yesterday to study.
I was out with Yinghui today to do my D&T.
I really need help for my D&T.
Can anyone be nice and help me?
I'm dying from the portfolio.
I hope it could burn and I will be happy.
But please, allow it to be marked before it was gone. :)
I had summarised my entry. :)
I had plans for tomorrow.
I had plans for Saturday.
I had plans for Sunday.
I had plans for Monday.
I had plans for Tuesday.
I'm currently so busy now. Please pardon me, if I don't reply any message or return any calls. I running against the time. Time is limiting. I have yet to finish anything. Things will be better. That's all I could wish for. Yes, wish... That was my only hope.
Goodbye.
11:37:00 PM
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Oh yeah, I'm growing fatter.
Time to lose some weight.
I shall blog tomorrow.
I'm extremely tired today.
Night.
12:10:00 AM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
It was so much of a surreal dream inside.
School was as usual. Nothing much to be blogged about. After school, I went to do my D&T. Eugene helped me a little. Then, Kaiwen came. After that, we dropped by my house and picked my Portfolio with the other stuffs. We had dinner and headed over to SBM. That idiot Lawrence cheated our feeling. =( Firstly, he told me he will be there at around 5pm. So yeah, I called him and he told me he will be there at around 7pm. When we reached SBM and it's already 8. I called him again, he told me he will be there at 9 definitely. -.-" In the end, he didn't turn up at all. LOL ! I knew it please ! It seemed like Kaiwen & I can forsee the future. I said that he will definitely be late and Kaiwen said that he might not be coming any more. xD ! Great !
Alright, I dedicate this whole paragraph to Kaiwen. xD He is so great to come over to help me and not leave me in the lurch. Great friend indeed !! Luckily he was there with me at SBM, if not I will be left there all alone waiting for Lawrence. -.-" Kaiwen, go go go ! You rocks. xD ! Today, I almost met up with 3 Wen. xD ! Kaiwen, Ziwen & Zhenwen. xD ! The wen-ness day. But well, Lawrence didn't turn up. =(
Yadah, Blah-dah, La-dah, Lo-dah...
I had finished blogging. I'm so so tired. That damn driver had caused me to suffer from a serious headache. He was driving so fast and after that accident, I had a phobia of high speed. -.-" Yet, he drove so fast. Alright, I know he doesn't know about this phobia, so fair enough. But, he kept giving sudden brake. That damn driver...
Random: I broke my last finger's nail while washing my clothes. It hurt so badly please. -.-"
Stop messing with my heart.
Namo Buddhaya
Namo Dharmmaya
Namo Sanghaya
Felicia, where are you? Come home soon. May devas protect her from all harms and bring her back safely. May she be safe & sound please.
11:25:00 PM
I made myself useful today. We had 4 tests today. In the morning, we had Alkane & Alkene test. Then, in the afternoon, we had the New Southwale English Test. Next, it was my major Listening Comprehension. Well, let's not talk about it.
I went to the library to do afew pages of my D&T. I'm feeling so proud of myself today. :) Then, I did the Moggallana Admin stuffs & do up my Chemistry file. =D
Okay night. I'm tired now. Bye.
12:00:00 AM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
My dear friends, don't forget yours too. :)
*Pray really really hard*
10:46:00 PM
I miss you.
I scheduled my piano lesson to the Wednesday one. So, I was at SBM with Kaiwen & Liangjian to do my D&T portfolio. Kaiwen was extremely nice to come all the way to SBM to help me but ended up he was playing DOTA =X. LiangJian was extremely nice to help me with the printer ! If they weren't there, I think I might just die. -.-"
After that, we were thinking the place to go, so we came out with lots of it. But, everyone has plans on. So, I'm just so bored. -.-" I went with Yinghui to Bugis to get my Mabelline Masacara and she went off to meet her dad while I'm home. :) It's alright since I'm feeling a little lethargic after I managed to only sleep at 4am yesterday. I screwed my sleeping time up. =(
The entry for this week will be a short one. I have so many things to do yet so little time to finish them. =( Sigh. Someone please share this load with me. =( I wish I can just have a magic wand and get everything done in a minute. But look, this is a reality. Fat hope wanling !
I'm a little sick right now. I think I'm getting fever and my nose had been running for a hundred mile. Sighs~ Life do suck. Yet, we have no choice. That's life.
It's still do hurt.
I hope it would all be beautiful.
Yet beautiful don't come with reality.
Reality is never a thing that we wanted.
Are you out of my friend list ?
Or are you still there?
I don't know.
I miss you.
7:29:00 PM
a> 
Yeah, these are the photos that were sent by Yinghui. :) Yay! I seriously have no pictures anymore. Nevermind, I shall take tomorrow. :)
I had been really busy with my portfolio. I seriously don't know how the hell am I going to hand it up by 20th July. VictorTeo was trying his best to help me. Zeyan was telling me all the strategic to an A's portfolio because she scored an A ! Zekui was draining her brain to help me but she couldn't. Kaiwen & Hanpei was helping me out with my Design Situation because I lost the whole damn file the other day. I was busy doing all the subtitles and I wasted tons of time. You know, I can just use that damn computer to get everything printed out. Damn it. I might be taking some MC and finish the whole portfolio. I want an A !
So ya, my day was being spent this way. Nothing interesting. Initially, I was supposed to study today. Yet, I don't think I even have that time to really get on with my studies. This week got to be real tedious for me. Nevertheless, I will try to finish it by this week. After all, Zeyan could finish within 3 days and scored an A, why can't I ? However, my damn artefact is dragging my mood so low. I haven't even finish it.
My schedule for tomorrow is full. In the morning, I might be spending my time all on my portfolio. Then, I will be at SBM having the Math Tuition. After that, I will be heading home for my piano lesson. When the lesson is done, I will spend a little more time on my portfolio again. I'm going to be a loser student for this week and I won't be doing any homeworks except my portfolio. I know it's not a good thing but I really couldn't find time. And so, BYE !
At least I did blog. xD !
I love the people who love me. :)
Thanks for being there for me when I needed.
12:45:00 AM
Friday, July 13, 2007
School was alright. Nothing had happened. I was very tired throughout the whole day. Initially, I wanted to skip the Ernest Wong's workshop. Yet, Simon wanted to go then he said that since Mr Azman will be back only after 2.30pm. So, I went for the workshop. There was a part where Peter asked us to relax. I was relaxed for a moment and then the next, I was sleeping away. -.-" I was seriously very tired please.
The whole day I was feeling so agitated. Cramps after cramps. I hate the time of the month. =( If only we girls don't have to go through such stuffs. I'm having serious moodswing now. Don't try to piss me off, if not I will make sure you will get it thrice. :)
I guess, I will try to finish at least a quarter of my portfolio by tonight. I don't have time anymore. I have to hand everything up on Friday. However, everything was still not ready yet. How am I supposed to hand in soemthing to the teacher? I hope teacher will be as kind to give us a few more days grace.
I'm going to catch some sleep before starting my major tasks. :) Next week will be a busy week for me with some catching up with some friends & my D&T. :) Alright. Night !
Namo Buddhaya
Namo Dharmaya
Namo Sanghaya
May Felicia Teo Wei Ling be back home safely.
It hurts to look at your eyes and know that you don't care.
6:59:00 PM
Felicia Teo Wei Ling
She was on the 12th July, Wan Bao Newspapers Page 3 article. She has been missing for 13th days. People, please help to pray for her, just a little act of kindness will bring us miracle. No matter which religion you are in, we have the same common hope - to have her be back home safely. Please spread to your friends, your relatives, your whoever who can help. Pray really hard. Please bring her back home safely.
Come back home soon.
12:43:00 AM
I like the cool effect. :)
One thing that was a piece of good news to me throughout this two years was that, I had finally passed my Social Studies Test. Alright, I know it was just some typical class test. But, it's been so long that I had ever wishing for a pass. Yet, Mdm Ernie still claimed that we are as good as failed. Such a demoralising sentence from her. -.-" Well, I don't give a damn. As long as I know I had passed and I will continue work hard to a better grade. :)
After school, we went out together to celebrate YingHui's birthday. Andrina was with us initially but she had to leave early as she was being grounded. =( Nevermind, we shall go out the next month. :))) Anyway, we were shopping in the Wisma when I received a message from VictorTeo. It wasn't a pleasant news. Around the same time, I received Eugene Cher's message. He said that Felicia Teo was on the Chinese Newspapers. So at that desperate moment, I was trying to contact him but he didn't pick up. Then, the three of us just doesn't care and ran to the nearest 7-11 to get the newspapers. There it was, I saw the article.
I'm going to blog another one concerning about Felicia Teo. Please pray for her. Please please. There's nothing we could do now except to pray. That's the best and only option we have right now. May she be well and happy. May she return home safely.
For those who know her, or don't know her,
please no matter which religion you are in,
please pray for her safety.
Everyone is worried about her.
12:17:00 AM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Life is hell right now. Many things are happening. My dad, my mum, my schoolworks, my friends...
Dad is in trouble now. Freak that damn person who accused him that he had used the walkie-talkie when he was just picking it up. Bastard. My dad was so sure that he didn't use. They wanted to check if Dad was using the walkie-talkie at that time but to no avail. Then that guy knowing that he was in trouble if he were to accuse that Dad used it, so he kept claiming that my Dad was using it. They still have to continue investigate the case further. They say if the guy wanted to sue my Dad, then that's it. We will see each other in court. If my Dad lose the case, he will have to go to jail. Damn it. My dad was freaking not in the wrong at all.
So, picking up the walkie-talkie was a wrong is it? It wasn't even a phone at all. Who say looking at it and picking it up was a crime? He was even waiting for the traffic light. It can't be a wrong at all right ? If my Dad was to go to jail, I'm going to do something about it man. I can't tolerate to see my Dad at this age still have to suffer. What the hell is this world going man. Dad say, if we can, we will migrate. Yeah, that's it. I will migrate. I'm getting enough of this shits. Was that the consequences we get to live in such a safe place ? Was that neccessary to catch him even when he was just picking it up. Tell me, if you drop something, will the damn of you go and pick it up. It's human instinct to pick it up. Unless you are that freaking lazy, you can just heck care about it. Hell.
For my friends, things have been going haywired. Please don't worry about it. Things will get better. Sometime, hecking care of something will do you good. Letting it go is better than holding on when it gets too tiring, too draining.
We haven't been talking for the past few weeks.
You were gone, weren't you ?
I really miss you.
The days feel like years when I'm alone.
I felt like crying.
5:28:00 PM
When a girl is angry, don't ask her whats wrong.
Think of the answer yourself. A girl does not like to say the reason.
When you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back and smile.
When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you
she wants you to hold her hand.
When she wants a hug,
she will just stand there.
When u break a girl's heart,
she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.
When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long more will you still be with her.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine,"
aftera few seconds, she is NOT at all fine.
When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games with her.
When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl says she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that
When a girl is mean to you after a break-up, she wants you back,
but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever.
Guy Facts: ( I don't know if it's true)
When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you.
When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you.
When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong.
When a guy says, "I'm fine."
after afew minutes, he means it.
When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.
When your laying your head on a guy's chest,
he has the world.
When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday,
he is in love.
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it.
When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done.
When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.
Guys are complicated species. :)
5:18:00 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
I'm a happy girl. You know why ? It's because I had passed my English Paper 2 which I had often failed. I even scored a 29/50. My Summary saved me. I was one of the top for Summary please. :) However, I'm still not satisfied with the grade I had now. I need at least a B3 for my English. Well, there's still hope since I haven't get back my Situation Writing. :)
We had a impromptu Math Test in the afternoon. I didn't study. So, I left two questions blank. That was so pathetic please. I'm going for a nap before waking up to do my Portfolio. I need help please. =( Someone help me !
I'm rushing for time to finish up my D&T. Bye. :)
May you be well and happy.
5:39:00 PM
Monday, July 09, 2007
I love these girls.
We went through many conflicts. We went through the hardships. We had been scolded together. We practiced hard on the dance together. We do things together. We get rebellious together. And most of all, after being enemies for several years, we are still great friends. :) That's a blessing in disgust after all. Loves ! Understand that, you do matter in my life. :)
My Artefact is almost done and I'm going to rush through it by this week. My deadline is due on 20th July. I'm yet to start my portfolio & my artefact wasn't finished yet. It's going to be a tough week. How the hell am I going to finish the artefact when all I can expect was a lousy grade for it. Pathetic~
After school, I went to KK Hospital to visit Yinghui's Mum. She's so great please. xD ! And I mistaken Yinghui's Cousin for an uncle you know ! It was so damn embarrassing. I still called out loud " UNCLE ! " Oh my buddha please ! Then, her cousin sent us to Plaza Singapura and I bought my stuffs. :) Time to give my nails a buff. But somehow, I might wait till the 'O's are over.
I had been getting hungry all day long. I told my mum that it's a good sign ! It means that I'm going to grow taller soon ! Yay ! xD Please allow me to grow taller please. I want at least a 160cm height please. :))
I'm hungry again. Yet I'm lethargic right now. I felt like studying but I'm not in the mood. Sighhs ! I'm feeling weird. :) Mixed emotions perhaps. Maybe I should do my portfolio first. :)
BYE MY DEAR BLOG. :)
In life, things don't always go the right way my dear. It's just part of the life.
Girl, I hope you overcome it soon. :) LOVES !
P.S: I scored 18/30 for my English Composition. I'm rather disappointed. I wanted to aim for a higher grade but I'm just stucked at the 18/30. Maybe I should take LiangJian's advice. :) However, my teacher had left me a comment : A engaging plot with a lively style of writing. :)
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9:46:00 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Attempting to take a photo failed ! That hand came so sudden ! Stupid FuZhong!
Kaiwen !! :DDDDD
Early in the morning, I had piano lesson. My rabbit was seriously sick. So, we brought her down to the third floor. In the end, she died. =( I'm like almost crying out please. Ying Hui was there. She told me, that's life. Yeah, life. May she be borned in a better realm. Then, please learn to get out of this samsara please. I don't want her to suffer anymore. The way I see her when she was breathing so slowly hurt me. Sighs.
After that, we went out to shop for a little while. I bought a shirt for Rainer for his present. :) Hope he liked it ! I went to his birthday celebration. Ging Hian was there ! It's been like 789342 years that I had last seen him. I really miss the time when we were playing around during the time when I was working. I miss working. That was the only time that I really get to know many people, earn money & get to play. :) I found out, I wasn't the type to stay in office. =( Maybe Marketing suit me since I really like to talk alot. =D
I was reflecting upon myself on my way back home. It was disasterous. It seemed like I really changed alot. I don't know how to change myself back. Thinking back, I'm like a girl who really laughed so much. I really mean those typical girl that really laugh when they want to. Yet, I don't know all these while, am I really laughing from the bottom of my heart. When I started to grow up, things get more complicated. The people I get to know, the place I had gone to, the conflicts that I had to go through, the love problems that I had entered... There were so many things. When I was really young, I thought growing up was a fun thing. Yet, when you been through it, when you walked through it, you will know it's not a fun thing. But, it's still part of the life yeah.
Sometimes, when I quarrelled with my parents, I always felt so guilty after that. I sweared we had lesser argument these days. We quarrelled almost everyday last time. However, it had turned better now. After learning the dharma, I understand that I owe my parents so much, so much so that I could not repay them at all. They gave me so much love. I don't know if I will be able to take it if one day they were to leave this world. Mum was ill these days. No, not the fever type or anything. Her leg was swollen. It was a bad one. It was so painful that she had to sit down and that she cannot stand for long. I know how she felt. After that accident, I couldn't even walk at all. I sleep all days. Now, my mum is doing the same. Yet, her MC was due on Saturday. She had returned to work today. She wanted to quit but her boss doesn't allow her to. Reason being was that she was a good worker and that he don't want to lose her. I strongly agree for her to quit the job and stayed home to take care of us. However, when I thought about her staying at home, I will be sure that she will be so bored. I'm so busy with my 'O' level. I was always away from home and I will stay at library till 9pm. When I reached home, I get changed and I started playing the computer.
The Computer has been using up almost all my days and time. It kills my family bonding too. Yet the addiction was so overwhelming. Maybe it will be good if I just come online on the alternate days.
Oh ya, I really hate people who think so highly of themselves. I despise such people. Disgusting. I hate people who gives insults to people when they themself wasn't that great either. :) Look at yourself before you start criticise others. Put yourself in people shoes, if you were them, don't you feel freaking hurt ? Don't assume things when you don't know any. Don't think you are that great, when you aren't. Look around, you aren't any better. =DDDD Nah, I'm not against you. I'm not trying to find troubles. That were just the words from my heart. I'm truthful. I'm honest. And that's me. So be it. And don't worry, I had forgiven you.
I'm gotta get to sleep and wake up really early in the morning. I mugging hard from tomorrow onwards. Ciao to my MSN. I maybe online due to some temptation. But please please, kick me off from the computers with anything ! Studies are my priority now.
Good night. And Bye!
Who was really there when I needed someone ?
11:36:00 PM
I'm trying to act Retarded. :) I love them. Andrina was away as she was talking on phone. Be happy alright !
Maine.Ling.Mao. They are really cute people. xD
Sentosa today ! We took the Monotrail for the first time. I think it looked like some MRT and the way it function was exactly like a MRT with an Ez-link card. Well, I didn't really take pictures in the Sentosa because I was busy playing in the sea. Initially, I didn't want to go down to the water but the guys kept push me, so I told them "WAIT!", then I ran to the sea. xD Good thing of being in the water is that, I realised my wound was recovered, except that it wasn't fully recover.
After Sentosa, we had Pastamania ! I haven't been eating it for such a long time. And, I'm dead broke. I'm left with 60 cent in my wallet and I think it's the most pathetic thing I ever had. It was my first time being so damn broke. It's just the seventh. Thank goodness. It's 9 days more to another allowance taking day. I'm going to suffer.
Birthday Party tomorrow. Before that, I'm meeting my friend ! :) Should I bring my books along ? I need to study though but, I really don't want to study during a Party. You know, party are meant to play and stuffs, and if I'm going there to study, that would be so "Great".
Oh yeah, I went to watch Transformer with the Moggallana's Guys yesterday. It was a great show. I shall rate 10/10. I love the stupid robots.I love the ultra stylist cars they had. xD I love the way they tried to hide under the block when the parents were looking out. It was damn hilarious please. xD Anyone who is free, please catch it. You won't regret it. =D
12:36:00 AM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Chemistry Papers were still alright. At least, I know I won't be killed by it unliked the other papers. I didn't even study at all. I wanted to wake up early in the morning at 5am but I didn't manage to pick myself up from the bed. I just want to sleep till the cows come home !
I went to the Singapore Polytechnic Open House today. I had decided to really get into the School of Business. For the start, I will have to do it well for my Combined Humanities, or I will say "Bye" to my dear course. After speaking to a number of lecturers, I think I know which really interest me. There's a number of new courses coming out during September. Yet, I'm still very interested in my Business. There was one course that was Applied Drama & Psychology. The career opportunities include - Library Officers, Social Worker, Youth Worker and so fro and so on...
I had decided to put the IT courses as my last choice for my 'O' Level. However, I really have to do really well to have the confidence to get into the course I really want. Freak it if I really don't do well. I might as well go die. So ya, I'm left with 4 months. Go go go ! I'm so motivated now. Just 4 months to go and I will have my freedom back !
I'm going to get some sleep before Sentosa tomorrow. Before that, I will promise to really make full use of the Math Tuition Teacher that Anghwee had gotten for us. :) And, please allow us to have good news by tomorrow so that we will be able to play till we high. :) Felicia Teo, please go home soon. Everyone is so worried for you. Please return safely.
Rainer Papa is having his birthday party on Sunday. So, my schedule for this week is fully booked. :) I miss the time that I really talk to Papa. =(
Sometime, when we stopped by a place, memories start flashing. You know all this while, the stuffs that you had been acting out infront of me, it is just plain stupid. I am no more jealous now. Or it became numb, I don't know. It is just that I looked down on such guys. :) Initially, it was so hurting that I could not take it. But now, I think I don't feel anything anymore. I just despise you for being such person. It isn't funny at all. It isn't...
When you gone...
12:03:00 AM
Friday, July 06, 2007
I don't know about this. It's for you to judge.
12:05:00 AM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
I aren't that dumb afterall. xD
Anyway, I didn't study for tomorrow tests which are Geography & Chemistry. Good luck to myself please. :) I regretted going to the campfire but I don't regret going because it's fun to be with my guides people. :) Yadah yadah...
Felicia Teo, please return home soon.
11:55:00 PM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
I don't know if this help even by alittle bit but hey people, please keep a lookout to my friend named Felicia Teo Wei Ling. Her family & friends are worried about her. If you happened to see her around, call up Victor ! If you are my school friends who don't know who is Victor, you can contact me too. Please please please, we really need help.
Click here for more information.
http://poww.livejournal.com/97634.html
Click here for her frienster profile.
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=3751447
Please help us. It's not something funny nor it's a prank. It's real. Believe me please.
10:00:00 PM
I took my English Paper 2, Physic & Chinese Oral today. All I can say is that, it was atrocious. I shall not put high hope in it, especially my oral. I couldn't even speak well for the passage & conversation. I was just so nervous that the words inside me don't seem to come out. The examiner even have to ask the other examiner if it's alright for me to go or stay to continue. Please, I think I had really done so badly for it. 3 more days to go and I will be free from the exams. :)
There will be English Paper 1 & Mathematics paper tomorrow. Pray hard for me. Or rather, pray hard for Victor. To console myself, it is just a block tests just like other tests, I shall really do well in my O's and not be bothered or demoralised by these little little tests.
I'm buried by books.
9:34:00 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
I'm officially broke now. My bank was left with just pathetic 30 bucks for the rest of my 2 weeks. Seriously, I don't know where do all the money goes to. I just merely spent it on foods & drinks. I didn't even get anything when I was doing the shopping. So, where did the money go to ? I had decided not to get anything like the tops I had been eyeing for a long time. I don't think I have the chance to wear it anyway. Afterall, my weekdays & Sunday are dedicated for my Studies. While my Saturday is dedicated to my beloved SBM. So where can I find the extra time for the shopping and stuffs? Maybe just a short while after school or something and not a Shopping Spree where I can really do my shopping, you know those shop?
It's just another 4 months to my "O" level. The more I started to think, the more I'm getting afraid of it. Fear, anxiety, confusions... All the mixed feeling is overwhelming. I don't know where am I heading to. I was just lost in somewhere. Yet, I had planned for my post-"O"level periods. I'm planning to get a job and work really hard and earn as much money as I can. Then, I shall wait for the next Great Singapore Sale. This year was a rather disppointing one. You saw that big big signboard outside indicating SALE with 20% - 50% discount. Yet, when you walked straight in, you see there was only a pathetic corner with sales. -.-" Bugis Street doesn't even give any sales. Zara & Mango had only a small corner at the side. I think it's pathetic seriously.
I'm still not done with my Note-taking yet. Right after the Block Test, I'm going to start straight for my Note-taking. There is no time to spare. I love to study. But I hate to have exams. I just don't like the feeling of having that fear inside me of not doing well. You know it sucks!
Right now, I'm still rather worried. Please please please please, let her return home safely.
Braincells are dying.
11:54:00 PM
Block Tests tomorrow. I have nothing to blog now, please just allow her to return home safely.
My wish : Bring her back safely.
10:41:00 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
Few days back, Moggallana & Rahula went to Lim Chu Kang to help to clean up. Initially, it was atrocious. Then later on, everything was packed nicely. =D Good job !
And my freaking brother just want the computer right away and right now, I'm stucked in the middle of this post without finish writing what I wanted to write. My brother is back to the way he was liked last time. Freak~ Hell~ Please allow him to go out all night long. He always don't allow me to finish up my thing and made me stucked in the middle of nowhere. Hell.
That was so great. Loser~
10:55:00 PM
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9:46:00 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
I'm currently so lazy to do anything. I'm feeling alittle blue. It's really hard to live on lately. It's like everything was going in such a fast pace, I could not even take a breathe at all. Maybe people were right, once Term 3 starts, I'm off from everything. I was trying to look okay but I know I was not. Yet, I don't know why people know I doesn't look okay now. I mean, I really tried hard to really just hide this feeling inside me, at least proved to me that my effort does pay off please.
I had a dream today. It was pretty upsetting one. After I woke up from the dream due to some phonecalls that woke me up, I couldn't get back to sleep anymore. I was tired. I wanted to know what goes on after that scene, but I just couldn't sleep.
Schedule for today will be dedicated to my Moggallana house. Maybe I will be back early since I really want to do some studying. Block tests are coming on Wednesday and I have not done anything yet. Great. Alright, I will try to be discipline later and do some studying before I play with them. :) Main motive of going to Jowell house later is to talk to her mother. :) So yeah, I hope the Mogga can be understanding alittle for us to go there. =D And, Forester had left the house. Farewell. TakeCare. Join us for any activities, you are welcomed. :)
I don't like my life now. But that's only life. We just have to live it. I will be gone from MSN soon. I might uninstall it to overcome my MSN-life nature. If you need to find me, get me through my cellphone. I on it for 24-hours. :)
I'm off now. Let this unhappiness inside me be gone. May all beings be well and happy. I had overcome the hatred towards everyone. "If you get angry first, you are the most nasty person in world" -Ven. Bodhi- I will learn to love everyone and their flaws. :)
Bye & bye & bye & still bye....
11:08:00 AM
Smiles, can never be a real one if it never come from the heart.
I had been rather busy this few days. Block tests are around this coming week and I'm yet to study. How lazy can I go ? I had suddenly lose the motivation to really continue on studying for it. I mean, I really hate to study. I really hate to bury myself in books. My mind wants me to revise but my body doesn't want me to. I had been rather restless lately. Having any moment of free time, I would take it for sleeps. I dragged myself to school and anywhere. I just want to lie on bed and do nothing. I just want to, but I know it wasn't realistic at all.
I had been rather emotional lately. Maybe I should put it as emo since it sounded nicer. There had been many things happening right now. I seriously want everything to be alright. Hopefully, things will turn better. That is the only things I can wish for right now.
My legs are getting real better. But I don't like the patches that had been cast on my legs. I wish it will turn better too. Please don't leave any scars because I really hate scars. Please. I felt like having an haircut too. My hair is so long right now and I have the urge to really curl the ends and make it looked gorgeous. Dream on. I don't even have the time to really go on a shopping spree. So curling up my hair doesn't make any difference. I want new tops & bottoms too. I need cosmestics too. =(
Alright, good night and bye.
I hate dragging my days. =(
12:54:00 AM
