We had 2.4 km road run in the morning. I think I'm the first 30 or first 40? I don't really know but Rainer said I had passed and I'm about the first 20 or 30 but I don't really believe it, so I think I'm just first 30 or 40. Next, I went to have breakfast with the guys. ChengLong was the crappiest person I had ever seen. He had been doing the talking ever since we had bought the food. Then, when he started to stop talking, I felt weird so I asked them why is it so quiet suddenly. He added that everyone needed him so much, once he stopped talking then everyone will want him to talk again. Crap right ! xD Kelvin didn't really shoot him for all his words but I was the one who had been shooting him ever since we just know each other. xD ! He will always ended up speechless and I'm feeling so proud of myself. xD ! *hope he doesn't read my blog* =D


They went off to Kelvin's house and they tried to convince me to join them but I didn't. I went off to meet LiangJian and passed him the Popular Card. After that, I went home to sleep ! It's not that I'm so pig that I needed so much sleep but it's because of the night before. Although I closed my eyes but I wasn't sleeping at all, I was dreaming. I wanted to sleep and my mind told me to go sleep but I just couldn't shut that dream off. I went on dreaming for the next few hours till I woke up and I was extremely tired. -.-"


After I woke up, I went to bath and meet up with Lawrence since he's heading to SBM and he's at SimLimSquare. We went over to fix the computer and then we were late for SBM. Suddenly, I felt that riding bike is so fun, especially when he rode in the expressway. xD ! So, when I joined Moggallan for discussion, I was uber blur about it. I told Hangqi that I didn't want to present but he just didn't want to present too. I disgraced myself since I don't even know what am I doing at all. -.-" Crap ~


Anyway, I was uber disappointed today. Well, not those who has commitment for school or whatsoever, the attendant for Moggallana had dropped abruptly. I'm not blaming any people who have commitment. I understand everyone has other stuffs so I can't forbid them to go. I don't know what to do. I smsed them about the issue but only afew of them were trying to help to pull the attendant up. I don't wish to see excos questioning VictorTeo about the attendant, so I need to do something about the attendant. I was disappointed since I told them to make an effort to come down and some people could use the time to go out with friends and stuffs. Well, I really don't know what can I do now. There must have some problems somewhere, I need to fix that problem. =( I hope they change...


Oh well, I'm tired right now. I WANT TO SLEEEEP ! =D I'm meeting my library tomorrow. xD !



I went to read Clorine's blog and saw the video that we had took before the retreat. Truly maddness ! xD ! We were supposed to go for a retreat but we looked like we were on vacation mood. We even watched "Hot Chick" right before the Retreat. xD ! How crap can that be ! xD ! I'm missing the retreat ! I hope to go there again ! Hopefully, mum and dad will come with me. XD !


Please just leave me alone... I'm not someone you will want to know.


PIANO TOMORROW ! BYE ~


Oh ya ! I've received my first birthday present by Amanda Sim Li Ping - my beloved 12 years of good sister! =D Her present was still with me. =.=" Anyway, thanks sister !

11:20:00 PM

Friday, March 30, 2007

Yeah, I went to library =D Next, I went to meet up with my aunt & cousin. My second brother came after awhile. So, the four of us were chatting and then that waiter was so irritating. We were talking by our own and that waiter was pratically trying to attract our attention and kept cutting into our conversation. My cousin and I were giving the -.-" look but he didn't stop at all. We had our peace after we got our food. My brother said that he felt like he didn't have any sister anymore since I haven't been at home for days. Then, I told him that it's because I went to the library and he said that whenever he reach home, he could not see any soul of mine. Seriously, we haven't been chatting like that for few months and I missing the time that we shared everything. =D I love my second brother so much. :)


Aftermath, I went to find Amanda ! Yeah ! I had forgotten to bring up her present ! Then, we were chatting and chatting and I told her about my love life. It's so wonderful please. =X I was saying about weirong and then she said that I should get another guy. XD ! So, I told her that I had gotten another guy who is Jashawn and then he played me. She added that I should get another one then. xD ! She hasn't been liking weirong from the first glimpse and uptill today she still didn't like him. xD ! Nevermind, weirong is still the nice nice guy in my heart. xD ! So, we were chatting everything under the moon and I felt soooo better. xD ! Thanks Amanda ! She had been my ever great great greatest buddy ever since we were 4 years old ? I miss the time when we meet up to play together. xD ! It's all right since we no longer indulge in the barbie world.



I'm sooooo tired ! There's 2.4km rum tomorrow. I hope I can survive in it please. Go go go !


*Goodnight*

11:31:00 PM

I broke down~ =D



Sighs ~


I don't need birthday, it's suck. =D Hope sister-in-law had fun in her chalet. =D Let it be ~ I hope she doesn't read my blog. *sighs* Birthday ahhh~ It's just another day, I rather have a good relationship with my sister-in-laws. Chalet ~ Forget about it. Waste of my time. I had straighten out my thoughts, I hope she doesn't mind if she sees the previous post. It's just some words that was caused by disappointment. =D I still love my sister-in-laws ! xD *cross fingers* Please don't let her see my blog. xD !



Behind every smiles, there is something that you never get to see.


There were so many things that others doesn't see. Don't judge anyone because you don't know what actually happen to them. Don't bother to understand because you never get to. You never know what happened behind the scene. =D I'm not saying about myself, I'm saying it in general. LOVES ! =D


I think I'm not happy. *sighs* It isn't just one factor which makes me unhappy, there were other factors that had stolen my happiness as well. Forget it. I will be okay.

6:41:00 PM

So, it's finally a Friday which I can start to get my rest after a week of hectic stuffs. I don't know how to put everything to words. Perhaps, I'm just don't know what is happening at all. Things just happened so suddenly. Studies after studies, tests and tests, homeworks piling up, friends, relationship... Seriously, I really don't know what should I be doing now. I just need a break, a break from everything. Everything just happened at one go, I can't take it and I don't think I can take it. Just let me get out of this world, I don't know why should I be feeling so stress up when I shouldn't be. Whenever I started to think about it, I get so upset over it. I just want to runaway from this place but I can't, I have my responsibilities. Don't talk about my life, it's getting so terrible.


Anyway, I found something so hilarious. I didn't expect to have someone not to trust me. Take it or leave it. You don't want to believe it's the truth that he had said, then by all means. I don't give a damn anyway, it's not my relationship afterall. I used my time just to accompany him to get you YOUR presents, you said that we were out together for other things. Oh please, don't you think it isn't fair at all, especially to me ? He was out of ideas what present to give you and then what have you been doing? You was just thinking of all those nonsense. He spent so much money on you and then you got so materialistic. I didn't say because it's not my problem but right now, it's getting so out of hand. I used the time which I can study just for your presents and you can treat everything this way. Hilarious eh ! Stop asking him to spend the money on you when you know you just using him, you know what's karma? I shall just let you be, it's your life anyway. It's not my problem and I shall wash my hands off. Stop being so materialistic, it's getting you nowhere.


Initially, I was planning for a chalet on my birthday. And then, my sister-in-law wasn't free, so they are not going to get any chalet for me. They are getting one for my sister-in-law's birthday which means it's her chalet. Then, I won't be able to invite my friends anymore. I had heard before that people celebrate their birthday earlier but not people who celebrate their birthday way later. Her birthday is on 25th and mine is on 13th, it's such a big different please. Freak it ~ Forget about it. I'm not going to host any activities anymore. It's getting so disappointing when you can't get it. By all mean, it's her chalet, I don't give a damn anymore. I suggested for that chalet for our birthday but now it became her birthday. Disappointing~ Sweet 16 ? Forget about it ~ It isn't sweet and it's not going to be sweet. So what it's on a Friday, it's just another day. I hate birthdays, I have always been hating it ever since then. Don't have to wish me on my birthday, it's not going to be a happy one. I shall plan to go library and STAYED THERE or I will go home and sleep ! They said we should go out for some dinner or something, FORGET ABOUT IT ! They won't remember and it's just another dinner, what so special about it. I really hate birthdays ~

Freaking hell of 13th April.


13th April 1991

Get the hell of that date out of my calender.


OFF TO LIBRARY ~

4:36:00 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

HEY ! Oh my ! I'm bound to fail my Emath test. I can't even do any of the questions in that paper. Buddha bless ! God bless ! Devas bless ! I think I really need loads of blessing now. Been so worried about my studies ever since I came back from retreat. *sighs*


We had our Chemistry Pratical test and I was all alone. Don't worry, I'm still happy since I had the advantage to finish it the fastest. I had time for some nap before handing up the paper ! xD I had fun with Chemistry Pratical and I love pratical ! I love doing D&T's pratical but my planning hasn't been done. I was having some commotion during D&T. Those guys were so hilarious please. They kept trying to get my number but all my guys friends were uber good and they told them to get it themself. so they kept asking me and I kept direct them to my guy friends. xD ! Nevermind, I still need their help for my D&T soon. xD I hope they don't mind that I didn't give them my number though. It's just number please ! I don't think they are that petty ? I hope so~ =DDD


Alright, I'm leaving for Library now. BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE!


It's Friday tomorrow ! Yayness ! Weekend ~ HERE WE GOOO !


There's no girlguide tomorrow, library library I'm coming for you again. xD ! *Sighs* Saturday is our Road run, anyone wants to bring bike there to help me cheat ? xD ! Road run~ I hate Road Run ! =(


Yayness ~

5:17:00 PM

I want to grow tall ! I want to get rid of all my fats. I want to ! I want to !~


I have been skipping my dinners lately and I had been eating so little these few days. It's not that I purposely skipped my dinner but it's just that I'm so full that I don't want to take in any food anymore. My bag had been stuffed with all kinds of junk foods. I even go to that extend to have some sushi in the library. xD ! I love chocolates, I love sweets. It's all those sinful little things that had been the culprits for my fats. Oh my~ I need to cut down but I just love them. I need chocolates to lessen my stress. =D Alittle stress is good for health but too much stress will lead me to hell. xD !


I'm sooooo tired. I think I'll have to study tomorrow. Goodbye !


Library tomorrow ! I miss the toasts in the library. xD ! I miss the tables, I miss the air-condition and I miss everything in the library. I'll really have to go library tomorrow. I cannot be lazy anymore and I need to work hard for my O's. O's O's O's ! Terrible O's ! Nevermind, at least I love my library so much that I will be spending most of my time there. However, I need time to go for my shopping sprees ! I want new tops, I want new bottoms, I want new shoes, I want new bags, I want this, I want that, I want everything !


If you want to ask what can you get for my birthday present.


Please get me the whole of BUGIS STREET ! :DD

12:27:00 AM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

I'm back from the movie ! I shall put both my thumbs up for that movie. Turtle rocks ! From now onwards, I will officially start to like Turtle & Onion !! Oh my, don't you think that they are uber cute ! Especially the ninja turtle, I like the orange one. He has all kinds of stupid actions and dreams. And he has made my day so much. =D I was laughing all the time because of him. Then, their master was a rat and it's a uber cute rat. So I was telling my brother and my sister-in-law that the rat was very cute and my brother told me to bring it home. -.-" Anyway, I was super hyper today and I kept disturbing Noel & Alwin. xD !~ Then, I was disturbing my sister-in-law with all kinds of stupid stuffs. xD ! Seriously, I think I have been making alot of noise ever since I met them.


I want to watch Mr Bean ! I shall mark it as the next show that I'm going to watch. Perhaps, I will be watching it with my sister-in-law and my brother again !!


There's Emath test tomorrow and I'm still blogging. It's already 12am now. I'm starting to feel the tension for the test tomorrow. I'll have to burn midnight oil to study for my test tomorrow. I haven't even touch my homeworks and I'm feeling sooooooooooooooo tired. Sometime, I really wish I could just die. -.-" Life has been so troublesome and there were so many things left undone. Each time I flipped open my notebook, I will start to frown. There was a whole list of stuffs and I don't think I'll be able to finish during the weekdays. There were remedials & guides which had been occupying almost the whole of my weekdays. My Saturdays had been devoted to SBM and Sundays are the only day that I could spend the most hours in the library. I know this had been getting more and more pathetic but I really have no choice. I really hope everythings will end as soon as possible. I don't think I can take it any longer. -.-"


'O' level is coming in approximately 6 months time. When can we truly have our holidays ? I want holidays please !! Please give me my holidays !! I'm going to sacrifice my June holidays for my O's. I hope all these will eventually pays off please. I'm so worried about my prelims because I want to get the opportunity to go into the first three months of the JC. I want to feel what is it like to be a JC student. xD ! I will then make my choices whether I should go JC or Polytechnic. So, I need to do well for my O's. Everyone isn't looking forward for graduation but I'm so so so looking forward to it. xD I want to end my Secondary School years. It had been such a disappointment ever since I stepped into the school. I hate the school rules, I hate to study the stuffs that I don't like.


I ought to study now =D Goodbye~


I love O's.

(Don't think that I'm crazy, I'm just trying to lie to myself so that I will love something that I weren't love.) xD !

11:44:00 PM

I'm sweating like hell when we were having the training for the G.O.H. Seriously, I don't like it. I don't like the sun. I don't like the sweat. However, I like the time when we were marching out. We were so smart please. XD ! It's always good to be inside G.O.H. since we were the last one to march out and the first one to march back. xD !


So, I think I'm failing my Amath test. I had totally forgotten all about it and when first period came, Mrs Lim was reminding us that we are having Amath test after recess. So, I was like so stunned and then I turned back to Ziyou and told him I haven't study at all, I'm so so so bound to fail it. Then, my instinct was true. I'm so sure that I will fail it because I really couldn't do that paper. No doubts that I was able to do the last question which was Linear Law but it's just freaking 11 marks please. The whole paper was upon a 40 and I'm only getting 11 ? What the hell is that marks. -.-" I think I'm so so so disappointed in myself. I was so emo after the paper and I kept repeating to Ziyou that I will fail my test. =( *Sighs*


I had totally forgotten about my chemistry paper too. At least, I managed to do the paper despite that I won't be scoring an A or something. However, I need an A but it's just freaking class test. I need to do something about my studies now. Suddenly, I'm feeling that I had been idling for such a long time. Studies was totally out of my mind and I just agreed to my Brother that we will meet up for movies later on. -.-" I'm so freaking disappointed with myself. I ought to do something about it seriously. I've been playing for the past few days and I'm so guilty about it. -.-" I just need to study !


I'm watching Ninja Turtle later on with my brother. I hope it's a nice show if not I will start cursing and swearing if it had wasted my time. However, it was so nice for my brother to treat me for the show. xD I'm so glad that I have two brothers who had been doting me ever since I'm a kid. My brothers are the best creatures in the world. xD Alright, my dad and mum are even better than them. xD I'm in love with my families and my little boyboy. I hope he will be able to be with me till we grow old. My dear dog, may you live up to a hundred age.


Homeworks after homeworks. Tests after tests. I'm going bonker over studies. After been missing from school for the past few days, I been missing loads of stuffs lately and homeworks had been stacking up like a mountain. I was telling Anghwee about it and he said I should study hard and not get distracted. *sighs* Well, this is the last year and I will study hard to get over with this.


BYEBYE ! I'm going for movies ! Yayness ! However, I'm left with that big big stacks of homeworks. Someone please burn it for me =DDD


Someone send me something scary.

No matter what happen if you fall in love with someone even if its someone that you cannot love. Please love the person even til you died because its hard to find someone you love.


-.-" I think I know the person who send me this because the number look so familiar. However, the message just came so suddenly. It's like we were not talking about any relationship stuffs and I just received this message. Seriously, it's alittle teeny weeny bit of eerie. =X


Ok ! GOODBYES !


16 days to sixteen birthday :D
13/04/91

Thanks mummy for giving birth to me and it's me !!

6:52:00 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

You know what ? I had been stoning over here for the past few hours and I think I'm wasting my time away. My boyboy had been barking beside me for the past few hours and I don't know what do he wants from me. He just kept giving me those kind of pleading look and I really don't know what do he want. My homeworks are rotting in my bag and I haven't even take it out at all.


I think I might have to sleep late today again. I need to clean alittle teeny weeny bit of my desktop and start finish all the unfinished homeworks. I need to send the admin stuffs. There's guide tomorrow, I hope there won't be anything cropping up to make us depressed.


I went for stationary sprees after school and I bought so many things that it cost a total of 18 bucks. -.-" I didn't even buy any books and it's just those few pens and papers and it could add up to that much of money. I was shocked when I was counting the total payable. However, I still love to buy stationary. =D Initially, I went there to get my Amath assessment but I couldn't find it at all. It had been out of stocks for such a long time and I don't understand why can't they just get afew stocks just for me ? =( So, I bought my study cards too. Don't be surprised if you seen me holding afew cards and trying to study from it. =D I need to make notes.


Things to do within this week.

Start making notes on the Study cards
Start doing TYS
Finished up all the homeworks that were supposed to be done


I think it will be a rather busy week for me as I need to rush through my works. I haven't even finish those that were supposed to be done and new one adds up. I had to sacrifice my Wednesday & Friday just for guide. I hope we can step down as soon as possible. I need a break ! Nevermind, I'll be more than happier when 20th April reached. =D We can officially concentrate our studies.


Shanyuan has a gathering and he's bringing his Golden Retriever. I'm supposed to bring boyboy there too. I hope boyboy will not be bullied by them or rather I beg boyboy not to bully the big dogs. -.-" If he really does that, I hope he survives the trip. LOLS !


Kiwi & Justin & I are having dine-out to celebrate Justin & I's birthday. LOLS ! I hope this birthday will not be a sad one though. =D I wanted to have a BBQ or something but I was too lazy to organise one. I'm so lazy to book the pit, I'm so lazy to get the foods. So in conclusion, I didn't have anything on my birthday. That is alittle saddening but I'm fine with it. xD ! I wondered who will remember my birthday ! xD Birthdays are the most amazing thing in the world because you get to know who will remember your birthday and who will not. We can't blame those busy people because I'm one of them. =X I kept having thing slipping off my mind because I have so many things to remember. However, I had still gotten them the presents too alright ! =D LiPing's & Amanda's & VictorTan's birthday presents are still with me. I hope I don't accumulate too many presents to be on hand. =X


I'm so tired and I ought to go to bed. Goodbye !


17 days to my Sweet Sixteen.
somehow I don't really look forward to it. -.-"

9:11:00 PM

I WANT TO RANT !!!!

I wanted to go library after I returned from the Popular. Then, I think I saw a person who lookalike WeiRong or perhaps it was him. I don't know. It just seems to be him but I couldn't be sure of it. Our eyes met but we looked away after awhile. It was that moment when I just feel so sad. I was with YingHui and she knew about our relationship. However, she didn't take notice of that guy so she wasn't sure if it was him. Then, we were talking about my relationship with WeiRong. I was telling her that it was 27th March 2003 that we were together. I added that it was .... It was exactly 4 years ago! I think it was him because we often met when it was around the date when we were together. Whatever it is, he had got back with the girl that had lasted the longest with him last time. I didn't even realised that it was today that if we were still together, it will be 4 years. Crapppppppppp........


I think it's so stupid to think about him because it's all OVER... *sighs* I think brooding over it is so pointless. I had been brooding over it for 4 years. To be honest, I still have that teeny weeny bit of feeling. But tell me, who does not have that teeny weeny bit of feeling for their Ex-boyfriend/Ex-girlfriend? I took 3 years plus to get over that the guy who will be holding me will be different and so, I accepted Jashawn and it became a tragedy. Anyway, I totally lost the mood to study and so, I stayed at home. I think I will waste this day away but don't worry, I will still do my homeworks.


*sighs*


It feels so good to have him as a boyfriend though. =D But well, it was all over..



I'm okay. bye~


Anyway, I saw Justin and Kiwi today ! It was just a coincidence that I saw them after they got off the bus. =D Justin wanted to get me a Ipod Nano for my birthday but it was so expensive that I told him not to buy for me. =D It's so expensive and I really don't wish that he will spend so much money on just my present. Then, Kiwi said that he will give us a treat. So Justin & I decided to buy Sharks' Fin, Bird Nest and Lobsters when we go out to have grocery shop before our dinner. xD ! Who asked him to have that karmic link with two april babies. xD ! I still have no idea what to get for Justin... Nevermind ~


So I'm sound emo in the top post but well, I'm alright now. That's the thing about learning dharma, I can get out of emotional state as fast as I can. xD ! You know, I was reading the newspaper and then they said that it's a trend to be emo now. Oh my, it's such a weird trend. There were several people who cut themselves just to follow the trend. -.-" I can understand if those people who cut themselves when they had depression or something but I can't understand why people cut themselves just to follow the trend. -.-" Don't try to act emo my dears. -.-"


BYE ! I'm having piano lesson now. =DD

5:45:00 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

I don't know what to say now. I didn't have fun when I go school today. Partly is that we had changed place. I know it's been a week but I'm just not feeling happy with the seat. Firstly, Nicholas & I were far apart so we couldn't have our usual gossips. Secondly, I'm alittle away from the OHP and that I just don't like to sit away from the seat. Thirdly, my place is alittle near the door and I really don't like the seat. I hope Mrs Lim will start to change our seats again.


The next thing that I don't like to have school is that I feel that Retreat is so much better than school. So, I'm so reluntant to get back to school. Especially when they said that she wanted to take me out of the G.O.H when I bloody hell did not come for one session of the G.O.H training. It's so freaking unfair to me. I don't know what the hell is she not happy with me but I can't do anything. I was reasoning with her that I was sick and I didn't even come to school. She can't expect me to crawl to school when I'm so sick. I had even missed my lesson and she wants me to go under the sun to suffer more. That's so unreasonable. Whatever it is, I know she do read people's blog but I don't know if she reads mine. I don't think I'm in any wrong not to come for training when I'm on MC. I didn't even come for school when it's much more important than CCA. Seriously, I do like guilding but sometimes people makes it like guilding is so all so complicated and then I start to get depress over it. I don't know why should I have that kind of feeling. We tried so hard just as to give all our best for our CCA and then we always get all those nonsense stuffs. We thought when we become the seniors and take over our dearest guide, it will be better but it was otherwise. It was still all the same. From the time when we were Sec 1 till the time when we were Sec 4, we were still giving all our best, hoping one day that the teacher will know that we were trying hard. Whatever it is, we can only hope, just hope... It was just a glimpse of hope for us. =(


Anyway, I'm starting to be in love with onion. No, not those that we eat. It's those that we had for our emotions for MSN. I mean, it's so cute please. Don't be surprised if you caught me using it because I just couldn't get myself out of the addiction of the Onion. =D


I'm getting myself some nails decoration from the online sprees. I haven't been getting any stuffs to pamper myself. There were alot of clearance sales in Bugis Street and I only get to know it today. The shoes were so cheap and the clothes are going on a 50% discount too. I need to shop so much. I haven't been shopping for such a long time. I need a shopping spree soon !


I was craving for Starbucks coffee and I was just joking with my brother that I wanted to have Starbucks coffee. Being a sweet brother, Alwin and him brought me to Starbucks coffee. We were making a big hoo-haa at the Starbucks and I think I'm the main cause. There was this lady who was sitting beside our table and decided to change her place when we got so noisy. We were playing and laughing all the while. On my right side was a guy who was reading, he had been looking at our direction for almost all the time and I just pratically stared back at him. I just hate people to look at us like we are some kinds of aliens. I know you are jealous that we were having fun. xD ! Don't be, you will get your fun soon. =D


Alright, I think I should end here before I start to have my orders from the person. I have loads of things to order, I hope I don't spend alot of money on it. =D


18 days to my Sweetest Sixteen. LOVES LOVES LOVES !

8:36:00 PM

It's 1am right now. I have missed the time that I had set for myself to sleep. I'm left with just that pathetic 5 hours to sleep again. I hope I don't fall sick. Please don't let me fall sick. Falling asick is getting so frightening that I'm so scared to miss school. 2 days is enough. No more missing school for me anymore.


I haven't been getting in touch with my books for such a long period of time that I had totally forgotten how do I write a Speech Essay. I don't know what to do now. I haven't finish my Math homeworks and I don't think I can finish by today. I'm so tired and I really want to have that sleep now. It will be so nice if I'm on a holiday now. Back to reality, I'm not having anymore holidays until June. That June holiday will be another tough holiday where I will spend most of the time camping in the library.


I miss Retreat. We totally have no idea of the time. The time that I had spent there was even faster than the other days I had. It was just 3 days and I'm starting to love that kind of life. It was so simple. Whatever it is, I still have to come back and face all the stressful works. Especially some crap stuffs which had been happening for the past few months and I'm getting so frigging tired of it. Although I don't say so but it's freaking so tiring. I think it is really enough and I don't want to be bothered about it anymore. Just get me out of those shit and let me lead a much peaceful life please. I don't want any troubles in my life again.


It is always so difficult to have someone who truly understands you. Be it your friend or whoever it is. Nobody will truly understand one. Nobody understands the complicated stuffs. It was tough. When it comes to understanding one's situation, many will start to misjudge. Nobody is perfect, I know. I don't think I'm a very simple-minded person. So, don't ever have to understand me. Nobody understands it afterall. Don't misjudge my words, don't act as if you know me. To be honest, no one will know me. For I am who I am, I know myself better than others. I'm alright with people disliking me, for I know I'm not perfect and I won't be perfect. I make mistakes, everyone makes it. I start to hate all the people around me. I think I had gotten enough of people who had misjudged my words, my actions and me. Please just let me be alone. At circumstances, it's good to be alone. Leave me alone...


Emo-listic

12:59:00 AM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

I'm back from the Retreat. Seriously, it's a good opportunity for me to have the time to go there to have the practice and get in touch with the triple gems. Ven. Mahinda is a funny bhante. Although he wants us to have some noble silence but he will still try to make us laugh at time. During my first day there, I miss my boyboy. I miss my family. However, something that surprise me is that I did not miss my handphone at all unlike the others who missed their phone. Then, count me unlucky or what, I had my period. -.-"


The second day, I had the terrible cramp which makes me roll on the bed. It's not really a bed since we had taken the precept to have no luxurious sit, so we had only a wooden plateform where we put the sleeping bag over. Then I slept on the hard and stiff wooden plateform where it makes me start to miss my bed. It's so nice to have my bed with me again. =D


There was absolutely nothing for me to complain over the retreat though I was ill. However, I wasn't as ill as ever. I still remembered on our way to Alokarama, we had fun in the van. =X We were watching "Hot Chick" in the van and you know what, we were supposed to be on our way for a retreat. XD ! When we were halfway there, our van's tyre puncture. So we were forced to get down the van and we started our cam-whoring. We just didn't seem like we were on our way for a retreat but for a holiday. xD !


I want to go for a retreat again ! The air over there were so fresh that I started to love the place. However, there were many mosquitos and I think I attracted lots of mosquitos because pratically Zeyan & Yinghui were beside me, but the mosquitos were just aiming at my blood. -.-" It's still fun afterall since the mosquitos' reflexes were very slow and I started to play with them. xD ! There was one mosquito which was trying to suck my blood through my nail so I was laughing when I saw it.


I think I couldn't get use to Singapore. When I was back, the air was so filled with dirt and smell of fuels, I almost died. However, Singapore rocks our world. Their services were so efficient that we just took afew minutes to have our passport done.


I need to rush my homeworks now. *sighs* I think it's a terrible, horrible thing to be doing when we were just back in Singapore. I'm still swelling in that nice and calm feeling over there and then I need to get back to work again. *sighs* Anyway, I had fun when we were on our back to Singapore. I was jumping around in the bus and chatting with different people. Pearly is so cute please, we were talking about relationship and then LiangJian said that I still couldn't put down on Jashawn. I will try hard to put him down. Meanwhile, I must rant ! WeiRong had a new girlfriend ! *sighs* We were together 4 years ago. XD ! I know that seems to be very long ago but I'm still feeling so weird when I heard that some girl was with him. =( Jashawn is nothing ! He has been so flirt ever since I know him. Bastard ~ *censored*


=D I'm a happy happy person ! One thing that I'm so scare of is impermanence. =( I need to rush my works now. I miss my library ! I'll be going to library tomorrow ! See you my dear !


Oh ya, I had my report book back. I got almost all my Class Test failed. I'm sad but well it's over. At least, I had my Common test achieving a better result. =D However, it's still not up to my standard yet. I need to buck up!


Class Test

English 46
Chinese 54
Amath 46
Emath 30
Science 53
Humanities 44
Design & Tech VR


Common Test

English 57
Chinese 54
Amath 58
Emath 70
Science 54
Humanities 31
Design& Tech 62


If I were to compared both of it, I did such a average grade. *sighs*


English 46 to 57
Chinese 54 to 54
Amath 46 to 58
Emath 30 to 70 =D
Science 53 to 54
Humanities 44 to 31 =(
Design & Tech 62


I need to study so hard =(

10:08:00 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

I went back to school today ! I'm so so so happy to get in touch with books again. I think I have gone insane after having to be locked inside the house for three days. Sleeping and eating had been my routine for these three days. So tell me, how could I control my addiction to go library. -.-"


Ziyou scared me. I thought there were loads of homeworks but there weren't alot though. I hope I could finish by tonight please. =D It was fun to be back in school. I had fun during the D&T though my brain shut off when it was the time to think about my artefacts. I think my artefact is the worst of the worst of all the artefacts please. Miss Tan couldn't even thought of anything to console me except to tell me that I can work hard for the workmanship. *sighs* Well, nevermind. So, Nicholas accompanied me to sit outside the workshop to try to measure my length of my artefacts. As we measured and measured, we started to do what most teenage had always been doing, procastination.


I was so hyper during D&T and I was pratically jumping all around. -.-" I think I should just come out with one artefacts and then work hard on my folio. I don't think my artefacts will earn me alot of marks so I really need to do well in my folio and my test paper. =D So, I'm going to start my artefact as soon as possible.


I haven't pack my bag ! I haven't do my homeworks ! I was helping YingHui for the retreat stuffs. Then, I bathe my boyboy and I went out to accompany YingHui to get her shirt. I better limit my time to do all the stuffs needed by 11.30pm and I will sleep as soon as I lie on my bed.


I love school ! *blabbering* Sometime, it's good to lie to yourself that you love school so you will tend to try to love to go to school. Don't mistaken me, this is a good lie my dear. At least, I will TRY to tell myself that schooling is fun and I am left with those pathetic few years of schooling. I'm so reluntant to enter into the workforce. The holidays were fewer and all they do is to work and work and work. Now, I understand why do adults alway complain about working and they will start complimenting to have the chance to study. Then, they will go about telling us why nowadays that the kids do not treasure this chance and yadah yadah yadah....


So, this is what teenagers had been saying that their parents are naggy. My parents USED to be that kind of parent who goes about ranting about working and stuffs but they had cut down so much. Being a good child, I learn to listen to their ranting and then start ranting to my blog. xD ! This is a good way of communication with parents alright ! xD At least I did my part to communicate with my parents and I had realised that being a mummy's girl or a daddy's girl is so wonderful. =D Treasure you parents when they are still around, this is what I can say to all my peers. I know at my age, we do yell at parents but I had changed. =D I love my parents so so so much please. =D


We are getting back our results tomorrow but I couldn't get it tomorrow. Mum will be taking it for me. I hope teacher will not comment too much on it. At least I passed everything but still, it's still not a very good result. My big brother had been telling me that I might go to ITE if I don't study harder. Well, I will prove to him that I will be able to get into the course I want in Polytechnic. Since now, I don't have any other factors which will distract me from my studying. =D


Mrs Lim was saying about Relationship for our CVE lesson. Once we got a break up, it will lead to a break down. This is utterly true. I remembered after Jashawn initiated the breakup, I cried immediately. At that time, I'm still in chalet. Being in Chalet supposed to be a happy occasion and we were supposed to be rejoicing over my grandmother's birthday but I was crying. -.-" Alright, I know that was crap but it's all over and I had gotten over. We can't do anything except to move on with the life, with our life. Friends make a very big impact at that moment. I think I stopped my breakdown after afew days as I had many many friends who were there to tell me all the facts and stuffs. It's good to have friends around you when you had a breakup. =D But still, I had ShanYuan & Janelle with me when I was in the Chalet and they came to find me. =D How sweet ? Very uber duper sweet of the two of them. =D


Oh yeah, I almost forgotten to write about that rubbish Chinese Oral. Chinese supposed to be one of my easiest subjects but I was talking rubbish to the examiner. I almost tear at that moment. The conversation was about Blog and I'm supposed to know alot about blog but I was absolutely talking rubbish. I even started to use english to tell teacher about Blog. Oh my goodness ! I screwed my Oral pratically. Don't comment about it. Don't ask me about it anymore. I think it's a shameful thing to screw up a easy task. I think I'm lousy. =.="


I had ranted for more than an hour. I think it's enough. This will replace the next few entries for the next few days. I won't be blogging for the next couple of days. I'll be back. I promise. =D




Farewells ! Bon voyage. I love you my dears ! Pray hard for me that nothing will happen alright. Goodbye !~


我真的不明白世界的每一个人。没有人了解我。我也不需要任何人来了解我。因为，是没有人会了解这些年来，不同人所给我的不同的痛。其实，我以不在乎了。因为，这世界原本就是假的。太假了，我受不了。

9:06:00 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Procastination. Perhaps, I have been wasting my time sitting infront of this computer typing away. I really can't put my mind into studying at this state of mine. I just couldn't really see what I'm typing and I'm so afraid if I might need a pair of spectacles soon. I don't think I'm having any short-sighted or anything. I just had my vision blurred yesterday, so there must have been something which makes my vision blurred but I don't know what is that thing. I hope I get better tomorrow.


I think there might be a whole chunk of homeworks thumping me down tomorrow. I don't know how the hell I am going to finish but I will try. I think it's going to be a very burned out week for me after I returned from the retreat. I can't possible bring any stuffs to retreat and I'm still having that hell loads of stuffs. I hate to be sick.


I have been ranting ever since I started to type this entry. At times, I really pity my blog because she had been taking all my ranting and my nonsense ever since it's opened. This blog had been with me ever since I'm Secondary 1 which means it's already 3 years ! I bet there will still be a long road ahead for me to keep this little online diary. It gets pretty interesting when all of us grew up and then our little kids will start reading our online diary while we read theirs. xD ! I think it's still quite a long way to go and I have been thinking so much. -.-"


It's Chinese Oral Prelim tomorrow and I didn't know it's a prelim now. My voice sounds alittle odd and I hope I don't screw up my oral examination tomorrow. I hope I can survive this two weeks before I start surrenderring again. I think I might extend the number of hours of my studying time and I should start doing my Ten-Years-Series now. I'll be missing loads of fun times after the retreat and I'll be concentrating on my studies after that. I will be online for an hour and you could only spot me in that hour time. Once the clock hits 11pm, I'll be in bed. I don't want to screw my health again. It's so suffering and it's so frigging waste of my time.


It's just 7 months to my 'O' levels ! 'O' levels, here I come ! I had secured Nicholas to teach me Emath. xD ! He's so cute please. He said I'm his TianShi and I cannot fall sick. He added that I'm from deity and I could just go on living without eating or drink. xD ! Goodbye ! I miss school ~ =(


I think I'm kind of getting enough of the disappointment. Farewells~

9:32:00 PM

I don't think I'm alright still. My vision seems so blurred. I hope it's just the side effect of my medicine. I hope nothing is serious. I'm having a slight headache too. Well, I really hope nothing is serious since I'm going for retreat soon.


I'm craving for pastas so mummy went to cook pastas for me. I think I'm the most fortunate girl in the whole wide world. =D I love mummy! Mummy had also said that she will get me a laptop when I go Polytechnic but I don't think I want to waste too much of her money. =D


I think I should stop blogging for the moment. I can't really see what am I writing. I kept seeing very blurred images. bye~

6:49:00 PM

There's Chinese Oral tomorrow and I just realised it. -.-" What a wonderful week ! It's a bad way to start a school term. I had mine bad way to end a school term and then I had gotten another bad start for a new term. That was such an exciting one ! Seriously, I'm so so so going to be dead after returning from retreat. There's Amath test next week and I haven't even learn the stuffs I'm supposed to learn. This is utterly the crappiest week I ever gotten.


I think I'm not happy.


hais ~

4:47:00 PM

I got a 2 days of MC. So, my blog was on holiday for 2 days too. Initially, I was supposed to go and see a doctor when it was on monday when I fell very ill. Dad didn't have time to fetch me so Mum wanted to bring me to the doctor but I was having a bad headache. Then, being such a sweet mummy, she wanted to piggyback me but I didn't want since it's going to be so tiring for mummy to do that. As a result, I suffered the whole night.


The next morning, dad brought me to the doctor. I was having low blood pressure, alittle fever, cough, flu, headache. -.-" That was pretty exciting eh? The doctor wanted me to drink 100 plus for the replenishment of the water inside me. After that, he gave me a 2 days MC.


I still remembered on monday, I was so sick when I was in school. So, I didn't turn up for remedials and went home with Roxann. I was pratically dragging myself home. -.-" Seriously, it's a uber tough job alright. So, this proved that I'm strong. xD !


Seriously, I felt very guilty. I haven't been studying for the past two days. I was sleeping all the time. After every meal, I'll just lie on my bed and sleep. I hope I don't get fat just because of this. The doctor had banned me from using computer and asked me to just keep resting and resting. Thus, I didn't even have time to come online or anything. After being so sicked for the past few days, I ought to tune my body clock to like sleep at 11pm. I think it's a need since I can't possible get sick for every few weeks and taking MC every now and then. I don't want my studies to suffer due to it. =(


Mum said she will be worried if I go for retreat since I'm still not that well. Then, I have been missing 2 days of lessons and if I were to go for retreat, I'll be missing the third one. Oh my~ If only I'm sick during the holidays, there won't be anything for me to worry anymore. This is oh so suffering ~


I want to go retreat ~ I hope mummy allows. She said she will be so so so worried and she was trying to change my mind every now and then but I just wanted to go. =( *Sigh* I smsed Anghwee and he told me that if I didn't go, I need to pay 50 bucks for the transport since it's booked. *double Sighs* Terrible, horrible, vegetable ahh ~ It's not good to be sick at this time. -.-"


*sighs*


There goes my 50 dollar or my another day. I hope mum allows me to go... I don't want to waste anymore money of theirs. =D


*sighs*

11:48:00 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Mug mug and it's still mugging. I went to the library for the whole day again. At least, I managed to do those teeny weeny bits of homeworks. Math really killed me. In that few hours time, I couldn't even finished the 4 homeworks. I kept having funny numbers and I started to just get so demoralised till I don't feel like doing anymore. -.-" Yadah, Yadah, Yadah.... I'm done with my day in the library. xD !


I'm down with a flu, cough, sorethroat and alittle feverish. I don't think I'll be able to concentrate tomorrow. Usually, I will just mug till the time when library closed but I slept for a hour and I'm still sick. -.-" I just don't feel right. I need an early sleep tonight. I'll hope I will be able to stay for the lessons tomorrow.



Bottled feeling,
Nobody knows,
Stop telling me,
It's enough.
I had enough.

I might just blew up one day.
I might just break down one day.
I'm getting sick of it.



I'll leave one day, just one day...

My limit is up. Freaked it. Nonsense life.

10:33:00 PM

I was extremely tired today. I don't know what the cause but I'm just feeling tired. No reason, no cause, it's just plainly drained out I guess. Furthermore, I don't feel right when I woke up. I was having a cough and sore throat and I think I'm getting sick soon. I hope I'll be able to make it to school on Monday. I really don't want to miss any lessons. I'm not going on Friday and I'm dying to go school. It was a big deal not to go school since it will be a hell loads of topics I won't be able to catch up. I hope I don't die when I come back. Seriously, I think I might just be burned out this term. There were so many things to be done, the girlguide trainng which we will be having it for two days a week. Chinese 'O' level is coming up. The camp Ehi-Passiko is coming up. Mid-year examinations are heading us. I think I'm gonna be drained when June Holiday comes. 2007 is such a suffocating year.


I'm having problems with my studies again. I don't think I can cope now. It is going to be tough and it's going to be extremely over-draining. I really don't know how am I going to cope my studies especially my Combined Humanities. It's an F9 and it is something that discouraged me so much. That F9 was a crap. I was awarded zero marks for both Social Studies & Geography for my second questions. Mdm Ernie said that it was out of point. -.-" Oh well, forget about it.



I just want to scream out loud in this middle of the night,
I was figuring out what's going on.
Please let everything be settled,
It was done,
It was hurting.
I had enough.
Goodbye~

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.



I'm indulging in English Songs.


Love me Or Loath me.
It's all the same.
Cause, I don't give a damn.
=D

12:17:00 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007

D&T was extremely fun today. I met them at the Kallang MRT and then we headed down to Alexander's Ikea. The Creative & Innovative was alright, I thought it was like some kind of extremely creative type but I was being proven wrong. -.-" However, there was one which is rather creative. It was like some kind of seat and when you sit down, the light will be on and then you can start your reading already. Then when you get up, the light will automatically off. Isn't that cool right.


After that, we became some pathetic teenagers where were eating cup noodles at the roadside. Many passerbys were giving us those puzzled look and we just continued our meals. I was craving for pastas but there were none. The pastas at the Ikea's restaurant was for kids and the guys were psychoing me not to have it. So, I joined them for cup noodles. Unlike Hengyu who ate KFC all by himself while the others had cup noodles. At last, we still had fun eating the cup noodles at the roadside. =D


We went back to the Ikea to meet up with Miss Tan and we headed back home together. It was fun squeezing in that small little car and we almost suffocated. I had fun with the guys and Miss Tan. =D


I wanted to buy Boyboy's bowl which cost $0.50 which is so cheap but mum said I shouldn't waste money on it since Boyboy had one already. There were so many things I wanted to buy when we were at Ikea. I want a new wardrob. I want pretty chairs. I want pretty glass. I want customised glass. I want everything in the IKEA. Someone please buy me an IKEA please. =D My sister-in-law wanted my brother to buy the Carrefour because she claimed that she will be having unlimited food forever. Then we started to tell her that once she finished the food there, there won't be any replenish since she had bought the whole Carrefour. So, I wanted an IKEA since I won't need an replenishment at all. xD !


I think I'm going sleep now. My eyes are closing. I wanted to do my homeworks before I start falling asleep but I don't think it's an ideal decision since I'm really very tired now. I haven't been having a good rest for the past few days and holidays are ending. Why do time pass so quickly? I wondered do the school conduct any night remedials? I remembered when I was Secondary 1, the Secondary 4s had their night remedials. I want one too ! Can we just studied till the next morning? It will be fun to have everyone to study with me at night. Though I know that most likely that many of them might fall asleep halfway through the night. It's still fun not to have lessons after that night though. xD !


Be my bad boy,
Be my man,
Be my lover,
But don't be my friend.

You can be my bad boy,
But understand,
That I don't need you in my life again.

Be my bad boy,
But understand,
That I don't need you again.
No, I don't need you again...

You once make this promise to stay by my side,
But after some time, you just push me aside.
You never thought that a girl could be strong,
That I show you how to go on...

When will you come home,
When will you be mine.
I waited for so long,
Just to see you smile.
So tell me why do all these feeling in me,
Calling upon your name.

When will you come home...


I hope the stuffs that I wrote weren't be wrong. I was just typing out the lyric while listening to the song. I'm so talented please. I can type as fast as the song goes. =D Anyway, it's two different song though. I just took the meaningful part. =D


7 more months to my 'O' level ! I can't wait to enter a new phase of life. =D



28 days to my Sweet Sweet Sweetest Sixteen. =D

11:15:00 PM

It was such a close shave. I wanted to give some excuse for not turning up for the Commander Selection. However, I went for it since the others are going for it too. I didn't know that my memories are so good now. I was trying to memorise it last night and I managed to remember everything. =D Anyway, I was damn happy when I'm not being chosen. No, I'm not trying to console myself, I was seriously very happy. I was praying so hard when the result was out. I was praying that I won't be chosen. Afterall, I had been so demoralised and I don't think I have the confident to do it anymore. Though Nigel had been encouraging me when we were on MSN yesterday but I'm still feeling so low. Well, who cares. We don't care anyway. Huiwen was in ! =D She doesn't really want to be in, let's hope she will be able to be allowed by Mr Lai to leave from the key appointment. =D


We had Kway Zha after we finished our guide. It was the first time I eat the pig organs. Though it seems scary at the start but it turned out to be very nice. =D I must thank my guides for teaching me how to eat it. If not, I won't be able to eat it when I'm not with my family. XD ! LOVES !


I went shopping with my mum after the lunch. It has been a long time ever since I went out with mum. She was so sweet please. She waited for me at the MRT for 1 hour. I mean, I was having my lunch but she said she will wait for me though. =D I love mum so much !


I'm going for D&T stuffs later on. I shall have a short nap before I start fainting later. I was having a very bad headache in the morning. No choice, I really need the sleep. I hope I won't be late for the meeting later. =D




Techno Techno Techno ! I know Miracle had been a very old techno song but I just love it. =D



Miracle

Boy meets girl.
You were my dream, my world.
But I was blind,
You cheated me from behind.

So on my own, I feel so all alone.
But I know it's true,
I'm still in love with you.

I need a miracle,
I want to be your girl,
Give me a chance to see,
that you were made for me.

I need a miracle,
Please let me be your girl.
One day you see, can happen to me.

I need a miracle,
I want to be your girl,
Give me a chance to see,
That you were made for me.

I need a miracle,
Please let me be your girl.
One day you see, can happen to me, can happen to me...

Day and Night,
I'm always by yourside.
Cause I know for sure,
My love is real,
My feeling yours.
So take a try,
Don't need to ask me why,
Cause I know it's true,
I still in love with you.

I need a miacle,
I want to be your girl
Give ma achance to see
That you were made for me

I need a miracle,
Please let me be your girl.
One day you see, can happen to me.

I need a miracle,
I want to be your girl,
Give me a chance to see,
that you were made for me.

I need a miracle,
Please let me be your girl.
One day you see, can happen to me. Can happen to me...


MIRACLE !

3:01:00 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I was in the library for the whole day. Yes, it was the whole day. I was there ever since 11.30am. Initally, I was alone but Mabelynn joined me and left after awhile. We were catching up with all the happening that had passed in the last few months and then some stranger just slammed the table so hard. It's not like we are talking that loud. So, I slammed the table back. xD ! I know I'm evil but who cares. Mabelynn was telling me that Aaron and Lynn was up to something. xD ! Aaron that arse, he said he will help me to get my pay back but he didn't. Arse! Manosh didn't managed to get his pay back. That company is not intending to give him back the pay anyway. I pity him. We were on the same boat. However, I think I'm much worst than him. I've finished those 30 days and yet I can't even get my money back. Manosh had left with just that few days and he didn't managed to get the money. If the two of us are to compared, I think I'm the worser one. =D


So I stayed in the library till 9pm. Seriously, I was deadbeat. I couldn't even figure out what those mathematics anymore. I think I'm dead soon. I can't even understand what the question want me to do. Amath is cool but it's scary when you couldn't understand it. Initially, I wanted to study at home after I leave library but I ended up at home memorising those stupid commands. It's such a waste of my time. Yet, I still have to do it. It's causing me to have a bad headache now. I used too much of my braincells today and I hope it will replenish by tomorrow. =D


My brain had malfunction suddenly. I don't even know what I'm doing now. -.-" It's like I just was like staring into blank suddenly and I didn't even know. I think I need an early rest now. My homeworks are still not done yet. What can I do now? Can someone save me from all this terrible stuffs? I think I'm going crazy sooner or later.


I'm on a diet today. You know why ! Because the library doesn't really sell any food except the toast. -.-" So I just had two toast for the whole day when I'm in the library. I must have lose loads of fats today. Library had helped me to gain weight and lose weight at the same time. When I'm overloaded with titbits on a particular day, I'll be growing fatter on that day. So, when I'm not loaded with any titbits, I might have been starved. -.-" However, I'm not starving myself today, it's just that I'm not hungry at all. -.-" I hoped I didn't suffer from any eating disorder please. At least, I ate something alright ! =D


I'm so frightened by the 'O' level now. Chinese 'O' level is coming and I'm still doing nothing here. I think I'll be dead. Please pray hard that I'll be able to get an A1 for it. I'm starting to feel that I'm frigging scared by the little teeny weeny stuffs now. I have been feeling so tired for these past few days. Although I wanted to wake up early but it's like I just couldn't get up on time. I think I might be getting late on the first day of school.


All right, the headache is killing me. Byebye !


29 days to my SWEET SIXTEEN !

10:49:00 PM

Justin, please don't buy please. I will get it myself. =D I feel more happy when I get it myself alright. =D Thanks to you so much. I never regret knowing you at all. You care for friends more than yourself. Please use the money for your phone alright. =DDDD


PLEASE !~

12:48:00 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

So, I'm still feeling a slightly giddy whenever I started to recall the rides I had today ! Anyway, it's a good way to destress myself. =D Something that amazes me was that they said it's a "Largest Theme Park in Singapore". However, it was such a small one. I don't think it suits that word "largest" at all.


Anyway, I got wet after playing that "bumpy car". Junhao kept shooting me. I looked so pathetic please. My car was such a lousy one till the gun isn't even working properly. That's karma. -.-" I cut Junhao's queue and I ended up with a lousy car. -.-" Fine !


I signed up for retreat for the next Thursday to Sunday. It's time to put everything out of my mind now. =D I will be trying to catch up after the few days of disappearance from the "world". I'll be at library again. I haven't been to library for this week and I'm feeling guilty. It seems to be so weird not to be studying when I'm supposed to be. It will be alright because I'm making my way to library tomorrow. Time past, school is reopening soon. We just have that pathetic one week break. I'll be going crazy anytime during Term 2. Chinese 'O' Level is in 2 months time. I'm going to scream like mad when the time comes. I better secure an A1. Please let me get an A1.


I think I caught a cold. Bye ! It must be that bumpy car's fault. XD My nose had ranaway now. I don't think I want to continue blogging.


Library tomorrow ! My dear library, it's been awhile for me to see you. Tomorrow shall be the day ! I'm going to revise as many stuffs as I can in that 12 hours ! I know I'll go crazy mugging so hard but I really have no choice because I hasn't been touching my books ever since last friday. I don't even have any time for the next few days to touch my books again. So, I can only do it once and for all by tomorrow. =D SEE YOU MY DEAR !


I'm officially broke. =D I'm left with zero dollar in my wallet. =D I can't wait to get my allowance again. I have been spending my hongbao's money for the past few days and I'm getting guilty. I shall mark a stop on my spendthrift habit. Byebye !


Justin, please don't buy alright ! =D I know you do read my blog at times. Please don't buy please. You can draw it but please don't buy it ! Please alright ! We shall start planning where should we go when it's our birthday. xD ! Kiwi will have to spend a bomb soon. xD ! I miss the 2 of you ! Although we have a big big age difference but it's just feel so good to be with you guys. Two of you have always been teaching me loads of stuffs and I really miss working in Raffles City. =D The best thing in working for Events Plus is to get to know nice people. That was the best thing I have ever gotten in life. The first job teaches me how to love kids no matter how spoilt they are, I will definitely have my way to get them settled down. Then, this survey jobs help me in my speech and it lets me get so close with the businessman so as to learn the way of how they reject people. The best of this job is to get to know the nice people. =D It is still not a regret for me to work in this lousy company, it was still alright. =D


Seriously, I have so many friends who care for me and I'm feeling so blessed. Initially, I thought I was some loner in this world but in fact, I'm not. My piano teacher even treat me so good all along and I didn't notice. So many little things that I haven't been stopping my quick steps to look it. I'm really loving my life so much. I better do my good deeds because I'm blessed and I should bless others too. =D


I had taught Boyboy a new trick again ! =D I LOVE HIM !



I'll be your friend to rely.

When the whole world is gone, you won't be alone.

11:47:00 PM

I don't think I like that 360 degree of turning stuffs. During the first trial, I screamed so loud till all of them could not take it especially Junhao. He sat beside me. He wasn't scare at all please. So I was like grabbing his hand so tightly till my hand went numb after I came down. -.-" I think he might have gone deaf at that moment. xD ! That was the first ride that we had took when we entered the theme park. They told me that it was just some warm up. I didn't know that warm up will be that exciting huh!


Well, the first trial was still alright but the second time, I got the 360 degree till it overturned. -.-" Please blame that Junhao, he chose that machine. I told him not to choose it but he assured that it was alright. -.-" Oh please, I shall not believe him the next time. xD ! Before we went for our second trial, there was this old couple who had accompanied their granddaughter there. They joined her please ! They were so old and yet they are even more daring than me. They didn't even scream at all. The grandmother just looked so perfectly calm. I really look up to them. They almost sacrifice their lives just for this little granddaughter. -.-" So, I promised myself not to scream since it's the second time. In the end, I didn't scream at all. It was Junhao who was screaming away this time round. xD ! However, I bottled up the screaming and I ended up feeling nausea. -.-"


I want to play that Banana boat but we just didn't have any fate to play it. -.-" However, we played the "Go Kart" for two times. The second time was the most exciting part because the whole game was just the 7 of us. =D Ian & Felicia played the Banana boat so they didn't get to play with us. =( Well, we still have chances to play again ! =D


We were playing one of the games and we were in the mid air. Normally, we will start screaming right? I was sitting beside Junhao, Ian & HangQi. You know what they were doing ? They were playing "scissors paper stone". -.-" I was screaming away please. -.-" Stupid people made me look like I'm stupid. xD !


We spent our whole day there despite the time that we went out to have our lunch. The expense is still alright though I rather take the money to go and have some dine out in the Sakae Sushi. =( It's over and we had fun. =D It was scary and I'm so scare till I almost tear. -.-" At least, I had managed to overcome that phobia. =D

It was fun to have them around. =D Jowell didn't make it but I still love her. =D


Photos are here. Oh ya, HangQi had cut botak head. xD !









That HangQi is acting as though he is camera shy please. He and his botak head !!




Ian & us ! =D



Fel, Fel, Fel... =DDD She's so cute please ! She and her wide grin look cute. =D



Junhao & I scratched Ian's leg till it leaves a scar and Fel said that it was cool. xD



Ian's Heartshape butt. xD




4 of us ! Ian was the photographer. =D


I shall write another post later on. =D LOVES !

11:02:00 PM

I have the urge to just blog some nonsense stuffs. Rahhh~ Seriously, I run out of things to blog. I don't even know what to blog now. I just feel like blogging so I just log into the account. I always have the habit to just log into this account whenever I'm bored. That's why you might see that I blog more than once in a day. It's so cool to blog please. Not only it helps in the english, it helps in keeping my memories. I've always been a forgetful girl, so little bits and pieces of memories, I don't really remember. Keeping a blog is just so cool. From the girl who typed LiKe ThIs, to the girl who typed liikee thiis. I know it's horrible but it was nice at that time. However, when I looked back, it looked crap.


Yeahhh, Escape ~ Go go go ! I hope it's funnnn~


Byeeee~

11:32:00 AM

Hey I just found out that most of my friends like to say "someone in mind". -.-" I told you I don't have that "someone in mind" already. -.-" Bahhhh~ *poke you* Go away !


I had forgotten to write some big big news. My brother is getting a lappy for my sister-in-law. Oh my ! I felt like marrying now. =X It's so bliss to have your husband doting on you so much can ! The reason of my brother getting the lappy for my sister-in-law is that her computer has always been snatched by her siblings. He just bought her a set of computer and then he's getting her a lappy now. Oh my ! I'm so jealous please. I can't deny that I'm jealous. I better get a boyfriend who can dote me like how my brother dote on his wife. Perhaps one day, my expectation will be so high till no one can reach it. Blame it on my two brothers. They had been such a perfect guys. If only I could marry them, I would have. xD ! Just kidding !


I want a laptop too ! =(

12:36:00 AM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

You want to know how sweet Alwin is ? He went to do me a wallpaper but I doubt I'll be putting it. Firstly, I'm not that self-obession till I have to put my own photo as wallpaper. However, I still greatly appreciate what Alwin had did for me. =D Thanks dude ! You rock !




I know I looked extremely terrible here but it's alright. I don't care. xD


I went to library and completed just two of the homeworks. I know it's pathetic but I really could not figure out what is happening in the Prbability 3 & 4. It's so confusing please ! It's alright now, I understood what is happening already. I still prefer Amath than Emath. Emath required so much thinking to be involved till at times I started to think too much till I got that question wrong. -.-" Amath is such a straightforward question. I make sure I'll score A1 during 'O' level. I need to secure 2 A's for my Math. I remembered my primary school's teacher who had been telling us to never drop math, be it Amath or POA. I shall heed her advice. Uptill today, she's the one and only teacher who had made such a big different to my life. She's my dearest Mrs The. I hope she is still around in Stamford Primary School. I always had the lady luck to get good teachers when I'm in primary school. That's why my results are always pretty good. =D That day before I left the school after receiving my PSLE result, she told me something that I will never forget. She told me to choose the right path for me to walk. Once I take a wrong turn, it will be the end of my future.


I wished I will be able to see her during the Teachers' Day. It's been 2 years that I haven't had the chance to see her. I miss her !!


I need a hair cut soon. My fringe is so long till I'm getting so turbulent by it. I have to keep pulling back my fringe behind to prevent it from poking into my eyeballs You know it's so irritating to my eyes when it's sore? I need a hair cut as soon as possible. Yet, I don't want to cut it anymore. If I cut it short, then I won't be able to clip it up. Then those fringe will be lingering at my forehead and then pimples will start popping again. *ROARS* MADNESS ! Nooo ! Oh well, I know I'm fickle-minded but what can I do? It's either this or that. Forget about it, I guess I'll just clip my hair once I reach home.


Boyboy is so cute please ! When he got tired, he don't lie down at all. His head will just keep dropping and dropping till it's so low and then we will start wondering what is he doing. Whatever, he will be my beloved boy forever. =D No one can replace him please ! Not even Wuzun alright ! xD


After celebrating the birthdays with Enghua kor & Huiwen. I just found out that my 16th birthday is coming ! It's just in a month time ! I'm excited over it. Finally, it's the time that I need not sneak into cinema and to sneak in the pool fusion or anything. It's like so cool please ! Alright, those who had already had their 16th birthday afew years ago. Shut up ! xD ! I know you are going to start boasting to me that it's already so many years that you doesn't have to sneak into anything anymore. So, SHUT UP xD ! I don't care. *Roars*


I'm going Escape tomorrow ! There was once that my wishlist was to go Escape. However, I took it down because I don't think I want to play those scary stuffs there. =X For your information, I'm afraid of rollar coaster. xD ! I like the time when we go up but I always hate the time when it's zooming down. I will definitely scream my lungs off. =X I hope my voice doesn't break tomorrow. If it's break, it's even better. I got a reason not to do the command for the Parade Commander. It was discouraging enough.


Anyway, I got so flare up with people who got angry over money matter. Shit you. Get the hell out of this world. I doubt no place will want to keep you. It's just money, mind you. You can earn it back anyway. It's not like you need the inheritance to survive. Why must there be a conflicts between brothers because of inheritance? Don't they remember the times when they were together when they were young. No doubt that money is a temptation. It's still money right. You want it ? You may just ask anyone to burn it for you. It's not like you can bring the money into your grave right. Brothers broke off just because of money. Sons wanted to break off with their father and sue the father just because of inheritance. That was so amazing right ! Don't they remember how much do they had gotten the love from their brothers and dad? Luckily, my brothers and I don't have such problems. It's just money. We don't care. We can earn it ourselves. Perhaps, the next time we might just donate most of the inheritance away. It was nothing please. I know it's our dad's hardwork but it's better to donate away and let him gain the merits right. Afterall, it's his hardworks. It should pay off eventually too.


I love my family. I hope nothing will happen to this family of mine again. I love love love you guys so much.


Anyway, I had sorted out my thoughts. I won't be joining them for the job. So what if the pay was such a tempting one. It was from the donation stuffs. People donate it just for the sake of the people, not for the labours. Forget about it. I will rather get a proper job and earn the money through hardships and sweats. That will be enough. I shall not go against my principle afterall. =DD


*Excited* ESCAPE !

Let's escape into the ESCAPE !

10:24:00 PM

It's so amazing to know how unlucky I am. I wanted to go home after the D&T consultation. So, I went back to Bugis. The weather was pretty hot at Aljunied but when I came to Bugis, it was raining. So I had no choice but to ring my mum. My mum didn't want to pick up the call, she wanted to help me to save my hp bill by calling me back after that. So after it got engaged, my hp went off. -.-" I tried to find public phone to call my mum again but the rain stopped. So, I crossed over to Bugis Street and then it started to rain again. -.-" I'm stucked in the middle of nowhere. Cool right !


I had Amath & Emath's things to do today. The whole class went back. I was late. I thought some other people will be late but it proved me wrong. -.-" Everyone was so early today ! Aftermath, we went to Bugis to eat. Then Nicholas, Roxann, Hwee Hian & me took neoprints. It's been like such a long time that I had taken neoprints. I guess the last one that I had taken was with Irene. xD !


Anyway, it turned out rather good. Nicholas was complaining that he looked stupid in all the photos all because of his hair. Then he say he didn't even comb his hair before taking the photos. I told him that there's no different if he combed it. He added that he will look handsome after combing it. Crap right ! xD ! He always borrowed the mirror during the class. I'm not even as vain as him can ! I hardly even take out the mirror just to look at myself. It's always him who made me to have so much troubles to take out that mirror. xD ! I hope he buys one mirror soon. If not, I will buy him mirror for his birthday. xD !


There's so many things I wanted to do but I had very limited time to do. Sometime it's so hurting to know that you have to give up something just for another. I don't know which is more important to me. All of them are important to me. I had a chat with Tohwee and he was helping me with my D&T. Then we were talking about ventures and guides stuffs. So I told him I don't have time to join Ventures. Alot of things are taking alot of my time. I can't find time for another thing again. I shall see about it once I finished with my O's first.


I don't know where to go tomorrow. Should I go to Escape Theme Park to play or should I watch movies? =( I don't have piano lesson today ! Mr Wong is such a good teacher. I told him that I had to do some stuffs in the library till 9. =X The fact is that I want to study till 9pm so as to not to rush or something. Then he told me that not to worry about it and he will extend the time on Sunday. Oh my buddha ! Where can I find such a good teacher ? I better treasure him too ! Most probably in a year or two, I won't get to see him again since I'm finishing my Piano course soon. =( He had been my teacher for 9 years ! Amazing right ! He had been seeing me ever since I'm a little kid. xD


Alright ! BYE !~

5:43:00 PM

Many people had been asking me why did my cheeks had been so red. -.-" My neighbour walked past me and asked me this question. Irene & Dion asked me this question. Enghua kor & Huiwen asked me this question. Irene&Dion's colleagues asked me this question. -.-" Why are everyone asking the same question. I really don't know why. Perhaps, it's the sun's fault. It had burnt me so badly. We had been standing under that damn hot sun for 3 hours. I can even get minus four grade even by standing under the hot sun. That was extremely crap can.


So, for your information, I love my rosy cheeks. xD ! My neighbours had told me that it's a good thing to have rosy cheeks. =D Yeahh!


我只想要快乐

12:04:00 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

I got demoralised in the morning by Mr Lai. Can you imagine ! He said that he will grade us from 1 to 10. Guess what grade did I get ? I'm sure no one will be able to guess it ! I scored ( -4 ) please ! It's minus four alright ! Damn it ! How bad can my commands be to score that kind of points. That was the worst insults that I had ever get. I was extremely demoralised but I didn't show out. Well, afterall forget about it. I didn't even care please. All I can say is that biasness is involved. So, I shall forget about it. I rather march in a squard than having to memorise those crap stuffs. If Mr Lai has ever come across my blog, please be kind alright. It was an insult seriously. I know all the teachers do look through the students' blog. Well, by all means. Take a look at the things I wrote. I don't care. Afterall, these are the feeling coming from my heart. I know people will start to say that if I'm supposed to write some bad stuffs about teachers. It's unfair. Well, it's up to one to judge. We can't change their thinking of any teachers. It's all about them. It's not others' fault. Get the facts right !


Let's drop that topic. It was nothing at all. I don't give a damn now. So, I got better after having the lunch&dinner with Enghua kor and Huiwen. We had an early birthday's celebration ! I love kor please ! He spent so much on us ! Anyway kor, please be remember not to dirty Chamomile. Thanks for everything ! Thanks for booking the reservation just for us. Thanks for celebrating the birthday for us. =DD














Aftermath, I went out with Irene & Dion. I miss them so much. Jason was not with us. Hopefully, he will be able to join us after he recovers. Please get well soon alright. Dion had been telling everyone that I'm Jason's girlfriend. How crap can he be ! It's just because that I mentioned Jason for two times and he got jealous. xD ! So, Dion had decided to open a white ribbon just for "Dion's abuse". xD ! Anyone who dares to bully me, you will be abused by me. xD ! I pinched him, I tickled him. Dion's reaction was over-reacted so it's kind of funny and he made me laugh. On our way to Bugis Street, their colleagues saw me. You know what they remembered me as ? They remembered me as the "Ah-Lian". -.-" I don't think I look like one please ! I'm such a good girl. Why must they label me as "Ah-Lian" ? They will get it once I start working with them. xD !


I got the urge to go for work. It's such a pathetic thing to do is to shop with your friends and knowing that they can just buy anything without looking the price. You know how much do they earn one week? They earned 1K for a week. That's pratically more than the amount of money my mum has been working hard for. I'm still taking into consideration if I should work for them. I shall see how it goes during the June holidays. All right, we will be meeting again when Jason gets better. Something to be rejoicing about is that I had managed to secure them for the Camp Ehi-Passiko. I'm hoping to be able to play with them in the camp ! Irene, Jason & Dion, I'm so so so going to love you guys.


Bahhhh, there's school tomorrow. I have to drag myself out of bed again. Lesson is starting at 9am which means I have to wake up at 8am. It's such a long day tomorrow ! I've to stay from 9am to 4pm just for Amath, Emath & my D&T stuffs. After that, I'll be out with the guys !


Oh ya, I have to complain something. I wore heels yesterday and my foot was in pain. Then this morning, we have to wear the boots and the pair of boots are so small that it eventually hurt my foot so badly that it started to have bruise. I'm pitying my foots, it has been hurting since yesterday. I wore heels today again. At least, I feel tall. xD ! That's something to be happy about can !


I want that bag that I had seen in "The Wallet Shop". I shall not think about it at this moment. I didn't even have time to think about anything yet. I was squeezing all the slots for my friends' outing. Perhaps, one day I might be meeting two of more friends. This holiday will be the one that I have to meet up those friends whom I haven't been seeing for quite some time. So, I'm really sorry to all my friends whom I couldn't make out time for you.


I've got loads of blisters now. Bye ! I'm suffering so much ! *Cries*


I love Enghua kor & Huiwen !

I love Jason, Irene & Dion !

11:13:00 PM

I went for some people's wedding whom I don't know at all. I was supposed to head over to library but I still ended up in the wedding. Well, what can I say? They are so damn sweet please. They have been together for 7 years ! Their love will definitely be so strong please. Then, the groom sang song for the bride to everyone. That girl must have felt like she has been the most happiest girl in the world. xD ! So sweet can ! I like the bride's pretty eyes. It's so nice to see people getting married !! I want to get marry too !! Wuzun, where are you ! -.-"


Well, it's going to be a tiring day tomorrow. I hope nothing happens. I haven't even started memorising the command at all. I'm so so dead. Well, I just wish that Mr Lai doesn't need us to shout the command tomorrow. Please please please, Mr Lai please be nice to me !


Oh well, perhaps I'll be updating my blog with pictures tomorrow. I'm so so so tired please. BYE !

12:56:00 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Remember the times, your childhood time? How often do you get contented in life? Little bits can make you be in a high-spirt for the rest of the day yeah? Remember the time when your mum banned you from eating excessive sweets or chocolates? You cried, you scream. Eventually, she gives you. You were contented. Remember those toys that were placed inside your drawer? Do you still remember how you gets it ? You cry for it. Mum & Dad bought for you. You were contented.


When we were young, we got so contented with life. Just that small packet of sweets and those toys can bring you happiness. So what's now ? Life was so demanding after we grew up. We get all kinds of nonsense. We always met with problems. It's been so long that we have ever feel contented in life. I really hope I could have make the time stop. I could have just be contented of life. I could have love my dad & mum more.


I was watching a video about parents. Seriously, all parents love all their kids. Although they don't say, we all know. Those small little things that they care for us, it shows. Treasure what you have now, you will never know what will happen in the future. Impermanence, remember?


Life has always been a bitch. Take it or leave it. It's all the same.

3:21:00 PM

My wishes came true. My piano teacher isn't free today. He will be coming on the Tuesday's night. So there goes my night life. =( Perhaps, I'll be meeting them again after my piano lesson? I don't know. Let shall see how it goes that day.


I have the sudden urge to like perm my hair? You know those curls that's right at the ends? I don't like those "maggie-mee" style of hair. I prefer those natural curls. I was doing some blog hopping and then I came across some people with gorgeous curls. Oh my ! How I wish I can have those. But well, I still love my hair all the same. =D It isn't so straight till it looked so fake. Many had been telling me that they love my hair because it looked like natural straight hair. =D These compliment had made me flew up the sky can ! I love my hair.


I miss going to town. I miss shopping. I miss dolling up. I miss doing all the things I want. It seems like I'm leading a life full of books and books and books. Boredom kills me. Once I'm bored, I flipped open my book. Alright, I know I seems like a nerd or something. But I do make sand castle in the air at times. I miss my so-not-so-no-life life. =X But I can't do anything, it's my important year and I can't waste it like that right ?


Oh right, I haven't been playing friendster anymore. I think I will be letting it to rot on it's own. Grow more fungus and mushrooms alright ! Perhaps, it's a good thing that I had been neglecting it. So that I won't have any chances to take a look over at Jashawn's friendster or Weirong's one. You know it hurts to know that they have a new girlfriend or something. Weirong had been contacting his ex after the breakup but he didn't contact me anymore. =(


I need shopping sprees soon. I have so limited T-shirt. I just realised it after having to go library everyday. I just put on a T-shirt and a pair of shorts and headed there. Yet, these few times, I realised that I had been wearing the same. I have tons of spaggetti and some baby-doll tops. Yet if I'm supposed to wear those to go library, it looked weird. I'm not having some shopping trips there ! So, there's no point wearing some "town-ing" clothes there.


Oh ya, Dad had been calling me a "Condominium Tai-Tai" xD ! I mean it's so cute to have that kind of names yeah ! I'm so proud to have it. xD ! Hopefully it comes true please. Then Dad tell me that I should be a "Bungalow Tai-Tai" than a "Condominium Tai-Tai". Afterall, "Bungalow Tai-Tai" is richer than "Condominium Tai-Tai". Well, I know many will be dying to know why did I get that nick. Firstly, it has got nothing to do with having a rich boyfriend or stuffs like that. I told my Dad that I'll aim to earn five thousand a month then I'll be getting all the good stuffs and providing them their needs. So yeah, Dad requested that I should marry to a rich guy and be a "Condominium Tai-Tai". Then I joked, "Not a bad idea anyway!" xD !


So that's how that name came about. Well, rich guy and a faithful one is hard to find nowaday. I hope Wuzun marry me. So, I'll be rich and I'll have a faithful one. Since he has been our hot topic for these few weeks, he must be damn famous now. So, if he done anything wrong, I'll be able to know it through the newspaper. Isn't that wonderful ! Unlike having a rich boyfriend and one that is not famous at all. If he did something behind my back, I weren't know anything at all right ! xD ! All right, it's enough. xD Wuzun will be mine till I get a boyfriend. =D No choice ! I can't possible imagine myself having to hold my boyboy's hand please. =.=" So, I take Wuzun to be the actor in my life alright. =D *Think too much*


So, back to that "Condominium Tai-Tai". Will anyone wondered why I preferred to be "Condominium Tai-Tai" than a "Bungalow Tai-Tai"? It's because I rather stay in a Condominium than a Bungalow. xD ! Don't you get scare in the night and having a so-damn-big house with you alone ? Condominium is still the best choice please. Well, I still aspire to be work hard for myself. You never know what the guys will be doing afterall. If I placed all my life on him, it will be doomed. What if he get a mistress or something? No one knows it yeah ! xD ! My dear girls, believe in yourself and not your boyfriend/husband. Expect the unexpected. =D I'll be a "Condominium Tai-Tai" myself. xD ! Dad, I love you. =D


Thanks for changing to a better Dad. Thanks for ferrying me to school early in the morning. Thanks for cooking us a meal every Sunday. Thanks for taking care of my boyboy when I'm not around. Thanks for leaving that bitch. Thanks for everything. All this single bits and pieces will be a part of me. I love you, Dad !


Mum, thanks for being so sweet to wake up early in the morning even on your off-day just to wake me up. Thanks for accompanying me to have dinner whenever I want to have a dine-out. Thanks for taking care of my boyboy when I'm not around. Thanks for saving this family. I love you, Mum ! You guys have been the greatest of the greatest please !



Yeah, I shall be off now. I should be getting up to bed again. My eyes are closing again. Sunday are a day meant for sleeping. At least, it applies to me alright ! BYEBYE !

10:12:00 AM

I know the solutions to my problems. I shall have a good rest these few days and then I'll start to do what I'm supposed to do. I guess, I was too stress up. That's why negative thoughts are coming up. Yeah ! I need the rest badly ! Luckily, it's my holiday. If not, I'll have to take MC and then bear the consequences by having to try very hard to catch up with them again. I'm deadbeat seriously. I really have to treasure this few days before I return to that stressful state again. =D I hope by that time, I won't be stress anymore. My body is tired and I know it. It's like my mind is telling me to study harder but my body has requested to stop. I think I want to sign up for the retreat. I really have to take my mind off the books. If not, I will suffer for the rest of the year. Please pray hard that there's enough space. =D


I love love life ! I'm not going to let any setbacks to obstruct my happiness. It's mine happiness. I'm not going to let anyone snatchs my happiness away!


Anghwee was right. We should get ourself out of the down period faster than others. Afterall, it's part and parcels of life. Life is full of ups and downs. I'll learn to accept everything. =D Byebye !~


I want to sleeeeeeep late tomorrow please ? Can I can I ? Well, there's piano tomorrow. I hope the piano teacher forgets about it and then he won't come tomorrow. Yeah ! Oh well, fat hopes !


LOVES !

12:34:00 AM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

I wanted to cry but I can't. I have to be strong. It was tough. It was enough. I have no one to turn to. Nobody will understand it. I avoided it. I get away from it. I just want to cover my eyes to stop myself from seeing it. I hate changes. I never like it. Yet in life, we have to change ourselves to suit the surrounding. I have to learn to accept changes. Don't bother about me. I'll be back again. It was discouraging to have everything that way. I just seems like I don't belong there anymore. It just don't. My heart sank. I have never felt like this for a long time. The pain just seems like the one that I have gotten after that break-up. It was hard to take it. I have learn to accept all these things. It was life. It hurts me to see how things had turn out this way. I really wish I could cry and let all my burdens down. I just want someone to assure me that everything will turn out alright. It worries me. Idon't want everything to be this way. I really don't.


Tommy Page - A shoulder to cry on

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take you down,


It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you by your side,


And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,

When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there.


All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on


Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
No matter what is said or done
Our love will always continue on


Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
When the whole world's gone
You won't be alone
Cause I'll be there!

And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....


It's a good song to share.


I hope there's one.

11:17:00 PM

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Siah Hwan Ling
Formerly known as Siah Wan Ling
Sweet 18
13th April 91
Friendster

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Cravings;

Great boyfriend
Driving License
Diploma in Piano
Iphone 3GS 16GB
Blingbling Iphone Cover
Philip Epilator 3 different caps Cotton On Flowery Dress
Cotton On White Tanktop
Cotton On Blue Stripe Dress
Cotton On Highwaist skirt
Nerdy len-less spectacle
Diana Lomo Special Edition Pink Camera
A weight of 40kg
Zara White/Black Spaggetti
Join a Dance course
减肥减肥!!
FBT orange/Silver/Pink shorts
SugarLink Dress
Nintendo DS Lite Red
Rebonding



Plans;

New Blogskin
Paint my room
Pack my room
Pack my wardrobe
Get a wardrobe


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;AhMeiJie ;AmandaSim ;AmandaGoh
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;Caiwei
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;Cherie ;CherieSiah ;CherieTan ;Cherrian
;CherylJie ;Cherise
;ChuFeng ;Clorine
;Deidrrea ;DianaTjoa ;DianaSiah
;Dion ;Dolly
;Eddie ;EngHuakor
;Elaine
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;FeliciaKang
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;Huiqing ;Huiwen ;Huixuan
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;Jen
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;Junpei
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;Loves
;Mabel ;Madeline ;MaryAnne ;Meng ;Mingfei ;Moggallana
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;Reuben ;Sarene ;Sariputta
;Selina ;Sharol ;Sharon
;Sherman
;Shervonne ;Shixiong ;Soukuin
;Stefani ;Tina ;Ting ;Tingting
;Tohwee ;Victor ;Vincent ;Vivien
;Wanlin ;Wanling ;Weijing ;Weimin
;Weiping
;WeitingJie ;Wencai ;Wenting
;Wesley ;Xianwee ;Xiangyu
;Xiaohui ;Xinyi ;Xiumei
;Yichin ;Yiting ;Yilin ;Yinghui
;Yingting
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