Saturday, May 31, 2008
when I just kept falling.
Today was insane.
Beyond god-like. LOL!
I kept sleeping and sleeping.
& yes, beyond god-like already. =/
Was supposedly to wake up early to study,
but guess, I'm going to turn my biological clock to night.
I'm going to study at night till morning. =D
Since I had wasted my morning sleeping.
I'm clever to think of this. Oh man~ LOL!
Anyway, yes yes yes~
I'm perfectly fine again.
Last night, I was tragic.
So tired, so headache,
& yet, I couldn't get to sleep.
I remembered I went to blog after everything,
& then I walked to my bed, then lie on it,
& zzz... -.-"
Must be I had this daily routine that I'm supposed to blog,
but I forgotten to blog last night, so I couldn't get to sleep. LOL!
I was seriously headache,
mind malfunction,
backache,
goned.
But but, after the crazy amount of time I slept.
I'm fine now!! Finally, I compensate for sleeping only 3.5 hours last night.
That's why, I slept everything at one go.
I slept for 16 hours. GG~
I can't believe I kept sleeping and sleeping.
Till I was gone in somewhere, & I woke up. =D
Luckily, I didn't sleep till I never wake up. -.-"
Alright alright, I'm going to study till 6am today. =D
I'm happy happy girl today, because I had slept enough already.
Term test next week. =(
I hate school all of a sudden.
But that's the time after term test,
means crazy holidays. =D
Sometimes, I just hope,
I could stop thinking of you.
But that's when the time,
when you came into my mind.
10 years down the road,
will we still remembered how it all started?
8:50:00 PM
will just work out pretty well at the end no matter what.
I'm so god-damn hell full now.
I was so god-damn hell hungry just now. =(
When I'm seriously hungry, no food came.
When I was used to the hungry-ness, food came.
& not just one food, but many many food. LOL!
So, it's my ordered Fried Rice,
& then came Shanyuan's buns,
then came the Taro Milkshake,
then off we went for Satay & Chicken Wings,
& then supposedly to be home for Fried Carrot Cake,
but I was already god-damn hell super full. =(
When I was whiny about me being hungry,
no food at all, not even a teeny weeny bite. =(
What a bad day. =( I know I'm getting whiny,
but I just want to rannnnnnnt. =(
So I'm really really tired,
slept for 3.5 hours,
& then worked for 13 hours,
went to Eastcoast there to eat,
& then home.
I was so so tired.
I was being whiny about it.
Because I'm really tired.
But when I lay on the bed,
I couldn't get to sleep because I'm so full. =(
What a day~
Anyway, nothing much about working,
just something very amusing and interesting for you all to know,
is that, I can study in a lanshop!! :DDD
Initially, I wanted to study, but lost the mood,
but I ended up going back to my books.
So I was sitting at the counter trying to study,
& I studied for about an hour plus. =D
But I was too tired, so I dropped the idea after that.
Yay! At least I studied a little teeny weeny bit. =D
It's really interesting how I studied in a lanshop,
when the lanshop is seriously noisy with all the games sound.
But, I really studied there. :D This proved that, I can study anywhere. =D
I'm a pro man~ LOLOL!
I'm feeling really fat,
I hope to stop eating so much. =(
I'm feeling so sinful, I ate till I'm so full.
So full that I couldn't get to sleep.
Karma~
It's already 2.30am & I'm still not sleeping.
Which means, I had already make it through 24 hours without sleeping.
GG. =(
It's not about different schools they are in,
It's about the efforts they put in for the relationship.
It just takes two hands to clap.
My mind is not functioning,
so kthxbye. :D
1:54:00 AM
Thursday, May 29, 2008
& the past is always so beautifully tattooed.
I sweared I'm seriously really very tired.
Did my research on my project last night till 4am.
Great ah, super duper great ! =D
& woke up really early to get my textbooks.
& met up with my project mates & finished up with CMSK. :D
I was damn screwed up.
I did nothing in the role-play,
just smiling & said one sentence,
& then off I go. LOL! So useless can~
Then the poster, I think it's damn screwed up too,
cause we aren't supposed to exceed the A3 size. =(
But now, it's too late. (Too late to apologize, too lateeeee)
Anyway, I was damn lucky, because I forgot to bring my memory cards,
which consists of my presentation slides, my microsoft words, my excels.
& luckily, lecturer wasn't going to go through our presentation. =D
Ti gong poppi me. =D
So yeah, rushed to meet up with Rainer papa. =D
We went to gym to run. :DD I got exercise okay!
Liangjian, I got do something for jianfei-ing now okay!
But, my weight is horrible still. =((
I ran till the machine asked me to stop. LOL!
Next, home sweet home.
& I'm here rushing for my project still.
It's already 2.21am, & I'm supposd to wake up at 6am later. =(
I'm so going to be gone, dead, died. =(
Never mind, I will survive tomorrow. :D
I'm optismistic! Go go go ! After all, tomorrow is fun day. =D
And, this weekend going to be damn dragful, studying weekend. =(
Term test is next week, I'm so going to be a Z grade student. LOL!
Okay, byebyebyebyebye! :D
When you don't have hope,
you won't lose hope, & thus,
you will never face disappointment.
Will memories be faded till,
it will never leave a trace anymore?
10:44:00 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
this pain we're going through.
Hello, my dragful day was over. :)
It was really a dragful day. =)
But it's all over, over over over. =D
I can't believe I survived it. :D
& supposedly to do project,
but we were waiting for Jonathan,
till 6pm, just nice when brother wanted me to go home. =(
So yeah, I'm back home again. Got to start my project soon.
Anyway, CMSK projects are due tomorrow. GG!
BPM project is due on Friday. Double GG!
At least, one project is down - SAS. =D
& Friday I'm going to work. :D
I see money money money! LOL!
So which means, I have to rush through my project tomorrow. :D
I can do it !! Don't care, even can't do it also have to do it. LOL!
Tonight will be another dead night.
I will be really crazy over doing the project again. =(
& for no reason, I'm proud of that idiot pig. LOL!
He studied so last minute, still can score that high.
I mean, he's really powerful can can can!
If it's me, I would have died of exhaustion,
& I will just go & sleep without studying. LOL!
He can be worshipped to poppi I can get good grades. LOL!
I'm still trying to figure out what should I be doing during my holiday. =/
I have no jobs, I have no activities, class chalet is cancelled.
So what can I do then? Whole of two weeks you know!
I suddenly miss that idiot fatty.
I don't know what to do,
like always, always and always.
So I just leave that feeling hanging,
& wait for that missing feeling to disappear.
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moments gone I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
I'm torn apart,
I'm falling into pieces
8:35:00 PM
It's already 1.45am,
& I'm still doing project now.
& lesson is starting at 8am later.
Which means, I have to wake up at 6am later.
& then which means, I'm left with 4 hours to sleep.
Then best thing is that,
I'm going to have lesson continously for 8 hours.
No break, no rest, nothing at all.
Then, I will be continuing the day with my project mates,
doing all the projects & blahblahblah.
Then I'll have to do BPM project through MSN at night,
since Jonathan & Nicholas are different group with me. =(
See, now I know we must have the same group for all modules,
if not it's really difficult to cope with so many groups. =/
Something cute is happening in my house,
there's really really big lizard in my house,
hiding behind the shoe cupboard.
& it's like running in and out.
When I looked at it, it will run back in.
It's not for one time, it's for several times,
& it's still doing the same thing now.
Bo liao~ -.-" Like I will go catch him like that.
OKAY, I WANT DIE ALREADY.
My whole body is aching already.
Kill me please! Roar.
Goodbye. Goodnight. Goodmorning.
1:44:00 AM
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
not anymore.
Sighed. Sighed.
Kill me please.
Suddenly, all the projects are due.
BPM, SAS, CMSK.
Exams are next week,
SAS, BPM, PRSP, BBFin, ISFUN.
Sighed, I hope I could just scream.
& we had fun in BBFin class today.
We had a cute lecturer, =D
& we even went to have a break together,
& we kept dragging & dragging the time.
We went back to have some "ghost" story,
but it was a joke in the end. Damn cute!
So tomorrow will be a tedious day for us,
no break for the whole day from 8am - 4pm.
Great, damn super duper great huh~ =/
I can't believe I'm going to survive 8 hours continously.
Buddha bless me please. =(
& we are supposed to take a CDS module,
I'm quite interested in taking up the psychology,
but I'm also very interested in Japanese. =/
I'm fickled-minded. I just hope the CDS module,
will not drag my class till 9pm. If not I'll ROAR!
I'm going to suffer from Wednesday blue. =(
I just hope to have fun & get over with polytechnic life. =(
Anyway, on a brigher side, I got full marks for my Finance Quiz. =D
Which is 10% of the total marks for this semester. =D
Happy happy happy-ing. =D
I want to be a Z grade student.
But I'm so lazy. -.-" Loser~
& I had been eating a lot a lot lately.
I can't wait for Thursday to come.
Because wednesday is going to be really crazy.
So I just have to pray hard for Thursday to come faster.
& then Friday !! =DDD I guess I will work hard in my cabal on that day. xD
Life is so stressful all of a sudden you see. =/
Xiaoxiao had quitted from my course.
Dennis was still thinking if he wants to stay on. =(
I hope everyone will continue to stay.
I don't know if I'll make it, but I hope I do.
I'm still wondering if I should rebond my hair not. =/
I should rebond right, tell me I should. =/
But, my hair is rather straight still. =/
& for your information,
holidays are coming. =D
I can't wait, I can't wait. =D
But what am I supposed to do during the holidays. =/
Oh well, whatever. -.-" I'm a loser. -.-"
Sometimes, I just wished,
I could come across your mind for once.
8:50:00 PM
Monday, May 26, 2008
I think I'm crazy alittle here, crazy alittle there.
Alittle bitchy over here, alittle bitchy over there.
Alittle whiny over here, alittle whiny over there.
I was still wondering,
what if I see that Edward.
I mean, I treated him so badly enough.
& I sweared, he's the only one whom I kinda "slapped" him right at his face.
Saying all the nonsense, doing all the craps, acting one asshole.
Everyone cares for their reputation, so yeah, I was wondering how should I face him. -.-"
Sometimes, I wondered, how many people had been really honest in their blog?
I had been really honest in my blog, no matter be it sad/happy/pissed/jealous/loved.
Because it's just part of my life, & this blog is part of my memories storage.
Yet, I got criticised at times for being emo/act... or whatever shit.
Just because I'm really emo at times, yet I don't understand why having that act either?
Whatever it is, I'm just me, myself & I.
I'm like that, I'm trying hard to change for the better.
So give me time.
But still, I felt like a bitch still.
I'm feeling really guilty for treating people like that. =/
I mean, it's really unlike me to say things that ugly. =/
I still don't understand why he would be so suay. =/
& the thoughts of having to maybe seeing him some day killed me.
Oh my buddha!~ Please pray hard I won't see him. =/
I wondered if it's in the past life, he's someone I hated or what,
& thus this life, even by knowing him for few days,
he irritated me within that few days, & I gave him shits.
Next time, people don't try irritate me.
I'm afraid I will start being a bitch or say ugly things again.
Maybe certain people like those closer one can try irritating me,
because I'm nice to my close friends. =DD
BUT NOT STRANGERS~
So don't try. =/
Roar, I'm feeling guilty.
Really guilty.
AH~ =( Sighed.
This proved that,
I'm unfriendly to strangers.
But but, I had once worked in the service line,
so I should be nice to everyone you know!
No matter how unfriendly the stranger is,
but now, I'm the one who is unfriendly to stranger.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
Forget it,
I want to roar.
I'm still nice. =/
Tell me I'm still nice. =(
I feel so bad.
Really that bad.
And what worst,
is that nsk's sick.
& yet, I can't do anything,
because I'm just not fitted to.
I hope he recover fast.
Just because I'm really worried.
Sighed. I still cares too much.
Imissyou.
9:49:00 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
I'm confused.
I'm unhappy.
I want to know what I wants.
I want to know where I'm heading to.
I want to know what's my feeling now.
But I can't feel it any more.
I saved a post up.
After publishing it for a few minutes,
I changed my mind & saved it up.
Perhaps, maybe I'll post it up tomorrow.
But it will be published as today's post.
Anyway, side track alittle.
I think I had treated Edward very badly.
Because I just disliked people to sweet talk me,
when I barely know the person at all.
Nah, not the girl who falls for sweet talk. =)
I been acting like a materialistic girl to get him off me.
If people who knows me well, they will know I aren't one.
I hope he just hates me for that. :)
Because, I never like to lead guys on.
I wanted to be straight-forward to reject all his dates,
but I was so lazy to explain why I weren't want to go out with him.
I just felt sorry for treating him this way,
after all, I barely know him for few days,
then I started treating him this way. =/
I think that day, I was kind of emo.
& he came in the way, trying to sweet talk.
& I replied everything in a bitch manner.
I'm feeling so oh-my-goodness when I think back.
So, I felt sorry for treating him that way.
After all, it was my moodswings. =)
But, well, I don't care anyway.
If he thinks that I'm a materialistic girl,
by all means then, since I don't really care.
I knew him from the lanshop,
so if anything that I heard of about me being materialistic,
I will know why, & I will just laugh. HAHA!
Don't judge me if you don't know me well. =D
Don't try to agitate me when you barely know me well. =D
Because, I only treat people whom I know well. :D
I don't understand myself either,
been shutting people off my life.
Don't like to make friends anymore,
don't want to be nice to strangers anymore.
I'm weird.
I'm starting to hate myself,
for being a bitch that day.
I ought to be nice to everybody.
Sighed, I lost my motto in life.
Arghh, I can't believe I'm that bitch.
I don't know what I'm feeling now.
Call me a weirdo. Sighed.
kthxbye.
9:49:00 PM
Friday, May 23, 2008
of the unforgettable memories.
Three disasters today!
Firstly, I forgotten to check up my stock.
I'm currently doing a project that's on stock listing,
so whoever who wants to buy stocks, you can seek advice from me. =D
But I'm still a beginner on trying to look out on the stock & predicting the change.
For your information, I'm currently doing on the Singtel, please don't buy Singtel.
It will be dropping for the next few days, & I meant really bad drop for the next few days.
You will be losing out if you are going to buy that.
& right now, many companies are having a drop in the stock.
I'm still trying to look out for the reason why it had such a bad drop. =/
& now the problem is, I forgotten to check my stocks.
I missed today, which will affect my graph charts. =(
Secondly, I had missed my E-learning assignment handup timing.
I didn't even know there's anything to do for it,
nobody tells me you know!! I guess I'm the only one who haven't done it.
& if we don't hand in on time, we will be marked as absent.
So kiam sia one can! So my pretty attendant is spoilt.
Chey, I might as well don't go for any lessons now.
since it's no longer a 100% attendant anymore. =(
Lastly, is that my screen protector is so pathetic now.
During the IT show, wanted to change screen protector,
but Lionel was not free, so when he's free, I'm not free. =(
& now, I really need to meet him, because my screen protect cannot make it. =(
Anyway, I changed my name already. :)
I changed into a new IC too, & the picture sucks big time.
There's so many detailed to be changed - School, Oriental, Singtel, Bank...
I'm just so lazy to go and do everything unlike my brother who had done it in a day. =/
Caught "What happens in Vegas" like finally. =D
Shopped at M)phosis for a little while as it's having a big sale,
but I bought nothing except a pair of slippers. =/
Wanted to get the bag, but had second thoughts.
Next, went to ClarkQuay to look for mummy,
did some facial thing & I think it's so damn cool.
I became damn fair after the whole treatment.
But, after awhile, I became tan again when apparently it's already night. =/
I don't know why, but maybe I'm bound to be tan after all ?
Or was it that it's all in the mind ?
Anyway, wanted to go out after that,
but I was kind of lazy & brother ordered pizza. =/
Fattening again, food makes me go gaga over it,
yet it's making me growing so fat. =(
Oh yeah, I had succeeded in retrieving Weijing's account. =D
Yay-ness. :D I'm happy happy happy. =D
Weijing, remember to change everything. =D
I was thinking of what Melvin had told me about Ahguas.
It was damn funny when I thought back everything things he said.
Damn crap, damn cute, damn nonsense ! LOL!
I want to see ahguas leh. =/
4.13am,
I'm still so awake.
Roar you, I miss you.
Fallen from grace,
picking up the pieces,
I know, I was never good enough.
You have got the prettiest girl around,
you have got the skinnest girl around.
& me, I was just nothing special.
Sometimes, I miss you too much that it hurts.
How long will I be stucked here?
When can I move on from this place?
When the nights come, I know I'll miss you the most.
IMUETUNKAINSK.
[edit]
Sometimes, why you can't understand people's feeling?
This world is not about you & only you,
people are facing problems, troubles.
Why can't you be a little bit understanding,
& do what you are supposed to do,
not the nonsense.
After all, how much have you understood the whole situation?
People have their own stands, but stands must be compromised with understanding.
With your actions, you are hurting people. So why are you still doing it?
I'm starting not to understand the people.
No, not anymore. I just wish people to stop hurting the people around me.
I don't mind how people hurt me, I don't care.
But, don't touch the people whom I care. =)
[/edit]
I've always been waiting,
through the nights.
9:54:00 PM
I just realised, this will be my 1,994 post.
6 more entries will be my 2,000 post. =D
& I had been blogging for more than 4 years already.
I didn't change my url at all, right from the start.
This blog contains all the nonsense, blog wars,
unhappiness, happiness, relationship with Jashawn,
break up, flings, friendships, studies, hardcore period,
'O' level times, results, bad times, turning bad,
every little single bits & pieces of my life.
Interesting eh~
From a girl who used twits,
to a girl who used proper english,
to a girl who started using singlish,
& then back to a girl who use proper english.
From a secondary one girl,
going through all the nonsense of growing up,
turning to the wrong side of my life,
& went back on a right track.
Changed so much throughout,
learning so much in life.
Walking through the tough time,
walking through the hard time,
walking through the break up,
walking through the conflicts,
& now, I can look back as a part of growing up. =)
I rocks because I rhythm. LOL !
Anyway, supposedly to do project online,
but my group member didn't online. So weird. =/
Or is it my MSN lag or what so ever. Weird.
I'm unhappy. =( Because I like to chop chop finish things.
I don't like to drag things ! So I should finish homework by tomorrow. =/
I hope I stop procastinating, I'm such a slacker. Roar myself.
AH! I just remembered I forgotten to rephase the CMSK stuffs.
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ & now, everyone is offline. Best~ =.="
Oh ya, did I mention that I skipped lecture last night. =/
I want to go Business Finance cause I loves math. =D
But but, still have to skip it though. =(
I'm a good girl, my attendant are all full,
except this time round, I skipped one lecture. =/
It's something big deal alright, cause I'm scare it becomes habitual. =/
3 years of self-discipline by myself is tough,
I have to wake up early by myself,
take the bus on time & reach school on time.
Ah, so tough can~ 3 years !! If one month two month still possible,
but now I just go to school for a month, I'm a loser. -.-"
School was even cooler today,
I went to school for pathetic two hours. =/
& CMSK are crap lesson, like English lesson like that. =/
Was suprised to receive his message after his call.
Had fun disturbing him & scare him with all the possible things though. LOL!
Next, went lab to play CS but bingru snatched from me. =(
the computer damn powerful can, even more powerful than lanshop. LOL!
I think I can official put that place as my favourite spot for game. LOL!
Next time break time, I know where to go & not go for food. =D
Food is making me really really fat. I don't even dare to weigh myself any more.
Oh ya, I was thinking should I go for rebonding.
If I should go right, I will be going on this Saturday morning already.
But I really don't like flat hair. Especially those really pathetic flat hair.
I think rebonded hair are boring, yet I'm loving it at the same time.
I told you I'm a weirdo. I kept contradicting myself forever.
So should I rebond not? =/
Sometimes, I still wondered,
why did I hold on so tight?
You could just be any other guys,
who leave me in the lurch,
who left me behind.
& I could just walk away,
as fast as you left me there.
Yet, I held on.
Don't understand the reason why,
except that love that grew in the heart.
The trip down my mind,
you found yourself there.
1:16:00 AM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
tagged by her.
01. If you had a chance to go out with the person you like and your favourite celebrity for the whole day(separately), what would you do?
-Firstly, with the person I like, err. anything? As long as having him..
-Secondly, with my favourite celebrity ? I'm not into those celebrity lah~ -.-"
Maybe Wuzun? But I'm not into those, going out with them or what,
at least not to that extent of being so crazy about them. =/
02. How do you feel now?
-Mixed feeling. A moment happy, a moment upset.
03. If you can fulfil one wish , what would it be?
-Hahaha. If wish is to be said out, it won't come true. =P
04. Who are you thankful to?
-My family. :)
05. Important wishes for now?
-Told you if wishes are to say out, it won't come true. =P
06. If you can turn something in the past back , what would it be?
-themomentwithim.
07.What are your main priorities now?
-I lost my meaning in life.
08.What makes you happy?
-Idon'twantosaybutit'sobviousit'shim.
09.What do you wanna change in you?
-To slim down & grow taller. =DDDD
10. What song can represent your feelings now..?
-话题.
11.What type of person you hate most?
-I don't hate people. :) Hate is a too strong word.
I just dislike people who lie. :)
12. Are there anything you wish to confess now?
-Heshouldunderstand. & I love you to my family. =D
13. What is your definition of a dream house?
-My dream big big one. =D Big big house. LOL!
No lah, just something very pretty. =D
14. Who will you go to when you are feeling low one day?
-Anyone who comes across my mind. :)
15.What you hope to achieve?
-My diploma certificate. =D I'm so lazy,
I'm afraid I will start slacking & failed all my modules. -.-"
16. What age do you wish to marry?
-Errr, I don't know? See when the timing is right. :)
But I want marry within the age 20+ range. =/
17.What do you regret most in your life?
-I have far too many regrets.
18.Who made you angry for the passed few days?
-Hmmm, can't think of?
19. Would you prefer to hang out with your boyfriend/girlfriend or your friends?
-Will balance up. No boyfriend now, so don't have to ask.
20. You missed that him/her because of...
-Everything.
Instructions: Remove 1 question from above , and add in your personal question , Make it a total of 20 questions , then tag 8 people in your list ,list them out at the end of this post . Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged .Whoever has the tag will have blessings from all..
Tagged
Everybody. xD!
Cause I want to spread the blessing,
to everyone and may you be well & happy. =D
11:20:00 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
it just find its way back to my mind again.
It's been a long day, a very long day.
From 8am till 9.45pm.
It's more than 12 hours please.
I hope I just died right there.
I just don't understand,
why lecturers want to squeeze & packed my Wednesday?
When my Thursday is so free, & I just have to go to school for 2 hours tomorrow.
Isn't lecturers trying to be funny in one way or another ?
Anyway, I found myself so weird,
I actually enjoyed sleeping late. =/
I don't like to sleep early you know!
Even though my lesson starts really early the next day.
I just don't like to sleep early no matter what. =/
I think I'm a weirdo, worship me. =/ LOL!
& I went to Singtel Concentre for some training.
I'm like almost died of exhaustion, & boredness.
The whole thing was so dry, I was drawing throughout.
So catch up with my ITshow clique & home. :)
My phone died on me halfway through.
& I had this thought coming through,
that if he will call me at that time?
But somehow, thought he weren't call me that early.
In the end, it was true that he did call,
but my phone was off, sighed.
Blahh, reached home.
Did nothing & still procastinating.
I had been a slacker lately.
& term test is coming, I'm doomed.
Sighed. It's already 2.11am,
& I still can't sleep, oh gosh.
Roar you.
Each time, I looked into my phone,
in hoping that you're the one that called.
Each time, I logged onto MSN,
you're the first one who I will look out for.
In everything I do, you just seemed to be,
at the back of my mind, imy.
Ambiguous thoughts twirling in the mind.
You just never know.
11:14:00 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
I wondered if you ever remembered me being by your side.
School was fine.
Nothing much to elaborate about.
We had a great time laughing over nothing in Finance class.
& lecturer was laughing with us. :D Damn cute.
Accompanied Shiying to take a long bus ride to Payalebar.
Wanted to have some Smelly Toufu, but I was meeting mum,
so give the thoughts away, & we had Touhua. :)
Then, went to Raffles Place to look for mum. :)
Guess, I'm getting a laptop soon?
Don't know if I really need it though.
Still thinking of whether I need it anot.
If not, I rather upgrade my desktop to a better one. =)
I'm starting to lose my appetite more.
I don't know what's happening to me. =/
I hope nothing major happened. :)
I just don't feel like eating that's all.
Anyway, my term test is coming.
It's on 2nd June - 6th June. =/
I will be having holidays from 9th June onwards.
Don't know if I want to join SBM camp though.
It's on 10th - 12th June. We shall see then. =)
Sometimes, I wondered so what I say I miss you.
So what if I say I still love you as much.
Do you even care? It's drifting, it's fading.
Will you even bother ?
Guess you had found someone else,
because I wasn't the one who accompanied you through the nights,
because you never contact me as often as the last time,
because I was never good enough for you,
right from the very start.
I'll learn to walk away.
I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.
In you, I missed everything.
In me, you found nothing.
9:32:00 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
First disaster - Police warn SMS panic mongers
By Azaraimy HH
The police yesterday warned those who cause panic among the general public by disseminating false alarms, saying that those responsible could be charged under the existing laws. Following a recent false alarm through mass SMS, ASP Mohd Shari bin Hj Ahmad, Assistant Public Relations Police Unit of the Royal Brunei Police Force, urged the public not to take heed of any hoax aimed at frightening people.
The false message that was rallied through the SMS stated, "As a precaution, all hand phones tonight must be switched-off, according to Metro TV. On 11 pm tonight, there will be a large radiation wave that is dangerous to human beings, which will be captured by all handphones and all transmitting devices. Tell all your friends not to place hand phones on your head. Please forward."
"The SMS is not true and public must not worry and panic. Anybody spreading this message could be charged in court for sparking false alarm," ASP Mohd Shari said.
I got an SMS from James, saying about having to off phone at 11pm due to what radiation wave. So I went online to check it out, & found out it was a crap crap thing. =.=" Lame shit.
Second disaster - Spree Cancelled after 2.5 months
Hi Wanling,
JJS has failed to send out the goods after so long.
thus, we have decided to cancel this order with the supplier.
It has been taking too long. We will bear the necessary costs charged by the supplier.
Thus, you can either choose to refund or to use the credit for our new may sprees. (:
thanks!
I think I had been far too patient to wait for my tops & bottoms to come. I waited for 2.5 months. I thought it was alright, until yesterday, I emailed them again, but they said they went oversea & will be back on the 13th May, when it's already 18th May already. Crap shit. So, I just told them to be truthful about my spree. Wah sian. =( I really like my tops & bottoms alot. But money come at the right time. =) I guess I will choose to refund. I should find other spree dealer then.
Sian~ I don't like today. =(
Anyway, I went to SBM for awhile.
& now I'm home again. =D
I'm thinking should I do my own homework,
or should I copy from my classmate tomorrow?
Aiya, lazy to do today. =/ Tomorrow copy then. =/
Oh my goodness, I'm a bad student. -.-"
Anyway, my whole day is spent nua-ing at home. =/
Felt so great to nua at home. =D
Blahhhhhhhh~
& I was chatting with VictorTeo about prostitute since they went yesterday.
LOL! Damn cute for the ways he described about the girls being display sets. LOL!
I think guys who pay sex for those "public toilet" are stupid. LOL!
& I can never understand why guys want to go for prostituding,
when they have a wife at home. =/ Lousy guys~
&&, we said about the Changi Ahguas.
I remembered Melvin telling me about the spiderman thing. LOL!
Damn gross can~ But I still never get to see an Ahgua before. =/
Someone brings me to Changi leh. =/ I sound so what-the-heaven. -.-"
But no, it's eye-opener okay ! What a word. -.-"
大開眼見~
Okay. School tomorrow. =(
I don't understand myself,
for loving you that much.
11:22:00 PM
I can't stand being so bored at home. =/
Alright, supposedly to do something today!
Wanted to bring parents to go SBM to pray,
but, we ended up not going cause it was too late.
So, supposedly to go for movie after that,
but the movies were so not nice~
I wanted to watch the what what in Vegas one!
(Suddenly I can't remember the movie title =.=")
Then then, they went to watch already leh. =(
Then I want to watch Doomsday,
but they say the timing too late already. =(
In the end, no conclusion.
No conclusion = no movies.
My goodness~
So, brother suddenly said he want to go Wu Ba Bie Shu.
Which I have no ideas where the place is,
but he say I went before leh~
Still have photos as evidence leh.
Bluff one norhhhhhhhhh~
But sister-in-law didn't want to go,
& I wanted to go, brother wanted to go,
but she still don't want to go. =(
So we ended up not going any more. =(
I'm so bored lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
You might as well kill me now. -.-"
& I have got homeworks~
But no mood to do at all. =(
Life in Polytechnic is so boring. =(
I thought life in Polytechnic is so slacked,
but no! Don't be bluffed by those black sheeps.
They bluff people one~
& term test is coming you know!
I haven't even start studying.
I don't even know how to study.
Like it's our first test you know!
How to study you tell me. -.-"
One shot term test in that week.
Siao one leh.
But but, on a brighter note,
HOLIDAYS ARE COMING.
wooooooooooohooooooooo~
But do what during the holidays. =.="
Roar you~ ::Bite::
Ahhhhh, I can't believe,
I'm such a no-life girl. =(
&& I don't like PRSP. =(
Teacher say, "No MSN during lab session."
If not she will confiscate our Matric Card.
Lame shit one norh~
Alright alright, I think I should go eat,
& stop complaining so much!~
But but, you know, working in lanshop,
won't grow fat one you know !
Cause I have no appetite there,
I don't feel like eating,
no mood to eat,
so I ended up having one meal.
But that one meal, I still got leftover.
Which is the first time I had leftover. =/
So which means, can lose weight. =D
I hope these two days,
I lose about 2kg?
Enough already. =D
& I'm so broke now. =(
Shikai said next week will give me pay.
But at least, still got pay next week.
You know, the Singtel people,
giving me only during 5th of every month leh.
Then I suay suay worked on the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th May.
So ended up, I must wait till 5th June then take leh.
If I rely on that only company, I think I starve to death already. =(
CMI lah~ =( I need to find jobs soon. =(
You know, I got the urge to rebond my hair,
but after second thoughts of having flat hair & boring hair,
I don't want to rebond anymore, yet I like straight hair.
& my fringe is irritating me. =(
& for your information,
you only know how to criticise,
you only know how to comment,
you only know those nonsense,
you keep thinking that you were right,
I say you, but have you even keep that in mind?
& now, you are trying to comment about me,
do you think you even up to it to comment about me?
When you yourself, have not even put any effort,
in caring about the people around you.
All you know, was to comment people,
criticise them for being what what what.
You yourself ?
Stop calling yourself a true buddhist,
you disgrace the teaching of the Buddha.
Stop saying that you understand buddhism so much,
when in fact, you know none. =)
Start caring for the people around you,
& start understanding the situation,
before you start all your nonsense. :)
I go rest & get ready for candlelight later. =)
See you my dear blog. :)
ilu.
4:42:00 PM
Great. :)
Today was nice.
Firstly, it wasn't as busy as yesterday,
but it means, sale wasn't as good as yesterday. =/
Anyway, I was trying hard to play cabal.
But I don't understand, why it's always so fated that,
I'm not supposed to play cabal while working. =/
Because each time I started to use my aura,
or I was doing some dungeon quest or what so ever,
or I'm fighting some killer monster,
customers come. =/ So I had no choice,
but to leave it there~
& when I went back to play again,
It's dead already. =/ So I got the penalty.
& the penalty kept increasing till it was so terrible.
I can't believe that I'm that lousy. =/
But still it wasn't my fault. =/
It's just fated that I'll be good & not play. =/
So, I kept trying all means to do something.
Wipe the table, clean up the place, make it dustfree. =/
& was telling Dickson about the VIP room,
so ended up, wiping the table & cleaning it up.
It looks more like a VIP room now. =D
I even wiped the door. =DDDDD
Pretty shop now. :D
Alright alright, time to sleep. =D
& Lijie & gang are at lanshop now. =(
When I just left for awhile, they came. =(
I was too tired already,
almost fell asleep while waiting for dad to fetch me.
While in the car, dad was talking to me,
I can hear him talking to me,
but once my eyes closed,
I went to sleep already.
Yet, I opened up my eyes to talk to him again,
& when I closed my eyes, I sleep straight away.
Okay night.
Sighed. I just never understand.
12:20:00 AM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Working in lanshop is so busy.
But it's damn interesting,
as you meet different kind of people.
& some uncle is so, err...
But well, that's part and parcels,
the different kind of people that I will meet. =)
I was so bored. =(
There was one little boy,
came over and said,
Where's Shikai korkor. LOL!
Damn cute can, like it's been so long,
since I heard people calling people korkor/jiejie. LOL~
Blahhhh, bahhh, sighedd.
Sighed. Why do I still kind of get upset over you.
I just miss you, & our late night calls.
I don't want to see memories fading,
even though it's starting to fade.
& we are drifting really apart.
Yet, the feeling kept lingering around.
Tell me how do I forget you,
just tell me how did you get over us?
When I couldn't even bear to let you go,
while you had already left me long ago.
Why do tears still fall,
when I see the changes from the past.
What is it in you that I loved so much for,
& what is it in me that you are starting to shun away.
Why the more I tried to hold on,
the more it's getting further apart.
Why even after so long,
my heart still aches at times.
I thought I had gotten over it.
I thought you were out of my mind.
I thought I should let you go.
I thought I should move on.
But, when the memories come back,
& haunt me so bad that it kills me.
Maybe some day, some day when you had come to realisation,
& memories started to haunt you so bad,
showing that our chemistry, our bond, our love,
was tarnised by you, you'll understand my pain.
Or perhaps, you had never been bothered at all, never.
& I was the only one still lingering in the past.
So tell me, how did you get over us so easily?
I want to learn to be that ignorance, I want to.
Perhaps, from the start, you didn't love me at all.
It was just a lie, wasn't it?
Perhaps, you will never realise that,
I loved you so much that it's killing me.
You will just never know,
because you have stopped,
understanding me.
While I had slowly understood you that much,
I'm starting to trust you that much,
yet, you are getting further away.
Why did our love turn out this way?
Or, was it even love in the first place?
To be exact, it was all a one-sided love.
I hate you for making me suffer.
& I hate myself for loving you.
5:35:00 PM
Friday, May 16, 2008
I love my hair. =D
But this picture,
very act smile like that. =/
Can't see my hair, but still,
it looked more natural smile though. =D
And my hair is growing so fast. =/
So yeah, CCN day went well today.
Saw my ex-boyfriend again, like so random.
he was busily serving customer, so didn't disturb.
Helped out in my stall, & went to play DOTA.
But didn't get to play, cause they want the lab.
So we went off, and went to help out again. =D
Next, we had interview. One word - Tragic.
Kept being "shoot" back, & we didn't know how to react.
& that lecturer give us that irritating face.
Make us felt so &*(#$@&^*! ROARING. =(
Went off to meet up with Dickson,
& headed over to lanshop.
Played my cabal for awhile.
I think it's been far too long since I played.
So I kept dying. =( Dying & dying.
Then they create a wanlingx & disturb me.
Still say it's siahwanling can. Kiasinang.com
But was kind of pissed, cause initially felt so pekchye,
that I kept dying & dying & dying. & come out with stupid wanlingx.
LOL! But my anger come and go so fast, I went LOL again. -.-"
Blah, next learnt about the procedures, the things to do in lanshop.
Will be working there for the next two days. :)
Want play game? Come find me !!! :D
But don't ask for free game,
cause I'm not the owner of the shop!~ -.-"
That means, I can't alright. -.-"
Hor hor Liangjian & people. -.-"
I'm working at 8am,
& now I'm still here blogging.
It's coming to 1am already.
GG~!!! :/
I knew it, but I still went all out for it.
Put in my all for you, just you.
Ended up broken, shattered.
No you didn't care, not at all.
I should have known better.
I have no one to blame except myself,
just myself, no more, not at all.
Why do I still smile when I see your name appearing?
& why was it so coincidental that, when I take out my phone,
your missed call was just a minute ago.
Why do our chemistry blend in so well?
& why do I love you so deep,
when I ought to move on.
I should stop letting emotions,
to control & overwhelm me totally.
You just never understand.
No, never.
11:59:00 PM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
because you never know the person who is holding it,
would smash it into pieces, million of pieces,
and you will never ever put it in whole again.
Been feeling really insecure.
Yet, I really don't want to feel this way.
Didn't know what to do & what's happening right now.
Felt really neglected & at a loss.
Always felt so paranoid that's he's been driving girls.
Since, I never get to know what's happening in his life anymore.
Didn't want to ask him anymore, & should stop bothering.
After all, I couldn't make him stay.
& I don't know if any girls had stepped into his life.
He wasn't there to give assurance any more.
& why do the heart still gives that sting of pain.
Like it's still hurting that much.
Like what it has been like last time.
Just how much do he care?
I don't know.
I miss him.
& miss the things,
we used to do.
Sighed.
Why do I always stucked right here,
when I ought to move on & get out of here.
10:56:00 PM
what's on your mind.
BOO!
My goodness,
it's already 2.30am.
& I didn't realise that.
Been sleeping really pathetic hours,
& been feeling really lethargic,
not feeling well...
Anyway, was rushing through my powerpoint slides,
& when I realise I had finished it, it's already 1.30am.
Tried to upload it & sent it to my own mail, but to no avail.
I don't know how either. =(
So, I just let it be, & leave it to load,
while I went to iron my clothes.
Since there's interview tomorrow,
means formal wear again, I hate it. =(
So yeah, after finishing ironing,
it's 2.20am. & now, it's still uploading.
I've been waiting till I'm going crazy.
I kept yawning and yawning.
But it's still yet to upload.
Siannnn~ =(
Yesterday had stomach pain,
today I had head pain.
Full of pain-ness. -.-"
Alright, I think I'm clever.
I went to take my handphone memory card,
& store my files in. =/ That's the easiest way out now.
Since I need my sleep, & it's coming to 3am,
while I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow again.
Damn you~ Sighed. =(
I just wonder...
If only...
There's always one question,
that will never gets the answer.
2:25:00 AM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
It's up to both of them to keep it going.
Overdue & Random photos again. =D
Vesak Day. =)
Spot the difference in the keyboard. Look Carefully.
It's one of the favourite computer that I used.
Not because of the keyboard, but because,
it's one of the usable desktop in that lab. Pathetic.
So, spot the difference. =)
LOL! =/ I'm not the one who did this.
I'm not being vuglar here. I just found it interesting that,
people had took out the letter & put them back,
forming a vuglar word there. -.-"
The three emo guys in my class. =/
Damn smart right. =D
Yay-ness! =D
Okay. Today was crap.
I forgotten what really happened.
But second lesson was cancelled,
& so we had 3 hours of break.
Got into the lab, & started sing song,
study, play around, talk, sleep. =/
MSN in that lab was pathetic,
after not using the MSN for a while,
when you go back to use it again,
it will say that the message,
could not be delievered to the recipients.
Crap right, really damn super crap ~
Lesson ended. Loads of crap things happened.
Did some project after school ends,
& we went to slack at Mensa.
After that, went to look for my formal wear.
& then couldn't find any, & now home. =D
Wanted to pack my room, but was feeling so lethargic.
& today test was great, though I had one stupid mistake,
& I hope teacher could give me that mark. =(
I hope I wasn't wrong in any other things beside that though.
& if teacher give me that marks, I'm so going to have full marks. Woohoo~ =/
My 10% of overall, my efforts didn't go to waste. =D
yay-ness. :) But that stupid one mistake,
is painstakingly taking away one mark. =(
Anyway, been feeling my english suck big time.
Guess, I need to start reading newspaper.
Start blogging with those chimology words again. =/
But I hardly remembered any now. =/
Used to have a rich vocabulary,
used to have no problems when it comes to English.
Friday is CCN day. =(
I hope everything ends faster.
& there's interview on Friday,
means formal wear again.
Shitty shit. I hate to wear formal.
Like, I'm looking so damn old. =(
I just don't like it please. =(
Anyway, I want to rebond my hair. =)
But I'm so damn lazy to do anything now.
& furthermore, I don't know where to rebond.
But I really really want to rebond. =(
Need to go and work soon. =(
I'm so damn broke,
how to go for rebond. =(
Supposedly to change name today,
but well, postpone to Saturday.
I hope it was good. =)
But, well, decisions had made.
I'm going to paint my room to pink soon. =D
Have not gotten ready with the paint,
the furniture and everything. =D
Wait till everything clears out from my room first.
Then I shall decide what furniture to buy. =D
& I'm so going to paint my room door also. =D
But, I don't know what colour should I paint. =(
Mum was so afraid that I wanted those super pink,
but I assured her that I only wanted light pink,
which looks really really like baby pink. =D
Can't wait to change my whole room. =D
Can't wait to have my own room. =D
Can't wait to have the room all by myself.
Anyone wants to stay over, also never mind. =D
Yay-ness. Happy-ing. =D
But thinking of the moving all the furnitures,
the shifting of everything, the position of the furnitures.
Oh my guan yin ma~ LOL!
By the way,
there's Oh my god,
there's Oh my goodness,
there's Oh my buddha,
so now, there's Oh my Guanyinma! LOL!
Said by Chinyong. So cute right LOL!
Alright bye.
Sometimes, I just miss the cute time with you.
& when you were the only one, who give me smiles.
11:17:00 PM
Melvin the lookaliked Lishengjie. 1.91m okay!
& he taught me alot alot. =) It was fun to know him lah. =D
13th April. xDDD
Okay, I know I looked funny here.
But these are the guys in my group.
Yingying & Shiying went to change before we remembered a photo.
Boyboy dancing with his bone & welcome us home. Cute hor!
He & his stupid sleeping style. Forever that cute.
Saw this cat on the car, it was said that,
cats bring good luck charm. LOL!
That was superstitious, but I don't know though.
So yeah, saw it at Aljunied Carpark.
Went over to take a photo when Shikai & Songhe were washing cars.
It was sitting like that when I took the photo, so damn cute can!
Blahhh, today was tragic.
We did a lot of stupid things.
Discuss over the models making for BPM,
went through it, got over it. =D
I was feeling really that moodless the whole day.
Teacher started to lecture me for my attire,
not really lecture me, but kind of saying about it,
cause I wore shorts & slippers to school.
I had no make up on, I was so moodless.
I don't even feel like dressing up at all you know.
I feel sian until that kind of stage where nothing interest me. =(
So yeah, blahblahblah, got over with school.
Before that, received a message from Dickson.
Supposedly to accompany him get the speaker & go grandlink.
But, I needed to study & do some homeworks first. =D
So just accompany him to get the speaker & home.
I'm feeling so lethargic,
so moodless, so sian, so nothingness.
Sighed. Life is so boring for me now. =(
Nothing matters anymore.
But but, Shanyuan being that "cute". LOL!
He sent me all the numbers of those counselling centre.
He even gave me the pregnancy one. -.-"
He even gave me the Mental Hospital one.
LOL! Damn cute lah~
I'm not to that extent of going crazy.
Not to that extent of committing suicide.
It's just that, I found no purpose in life.
Like living so aimlessly. So boring. =(
Life is about some fun, enjoyment, excitement.
But I found nothing. =( Sian~
Especially when I still have to cope the stress of studying.
Don't know if I can ever do well in it though.
Finance Quiz is set tomorrow, 10% of my total.
I hope I make it through & passed it well. =D
I don't know. But I did study. =D
& I'm sure about it. =D
Just that I hope I remember,
every single things that I had learnt. =D
Tomorrow is boring.
After school, I guess it's project?
& then it's home time. =(
Well, got to finish up all my homeworks.
& tried to catch up myself in my piano.
It's lagging real behind. I'm suck at my piano now.
Don't see me being a Grade 8 student,
I aren't any better to a Grade 1 student, really.
It was that bad, really that bad. =)
Okay bye.
It's already 2.08am.
& i'm still here blogging.
When I'm having a quiz tomorrow.
& I have school at 9am.
I need to wake up by 7am.
But, I'm feeling so hyper now.
Since I slept for a while before waking up to study.
I'm a good student, at least for once. =/
Okay bye.
& goodnight. =D
Finally after so damn long,
I got to say goodnight for once.
No longer GOODMORNING. LOLOL!
But it's still counted as goodmorning right,
since it's 2am. -.-"
Alright fine.
BYEBYEBYEBYE~
1:34:00 AM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
we will never understand what's pain is all about.
& thus never treasure the good times that we had.
I don't feel like myself anymore.
I felt so weird all of a sudden.
Like I don't belong to any where.
Like I've lost everything at one go.
Like I'm leading a new life, & I'm kind of withdrawl from that.
I never like changes, so I kept my heart close.
To stay in my comfort zone, to stay safety.
Emo periods, I guess.
Moodswings suck big time.
Read a book today,
about girls being too insecure,
& thinking too much all the times.
That's why, I hate to be a girl. =(
I hate to feel insecure about him.
I hate to feel insecure in my life.
Why do such problems are included in a girl?
Can't all these be taken out of a girl?
To be a perfect girl,
to be a not-troublesome girl.
Perfectionist I guess.
Just wanted to be slim.
Just wanted to be not-so troublesome.
Just wanted to stop bothering & kpo.
Just wanted to stop moodswings.
Just wanted to stop insecurities.
Just wanted to stop thinking.
All these are killing me.
Just wanted somebody to be there.
But I finally understood,
& realised that,
I'm all alone.
Sighed.
Sometimes, I just miss you too much,
that it's getting out of control.
Sometimes, I just wished you could be there,
even for that little while.
Loss in the sea of words,
I should stop being a burden,
& shut my damn mouth shut.
How I hope, you could understand,
these feeling that I'm going through.
I'm just feeling so insecure in everything.
Sighed, where's my securities in life?
I suck big time, really. =(
Roar myself.
Kbye.
Just before the sunsets,
bring me the light.
10:59:00 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
where it belongs to you and me.
Sometimes,
I just wished,
I wasn't there.
Sometimes,
I just wished,
I weren't be holding onto past so much.
Sometimes,
I just wished,
things go right for me.
Sometimes,
I just wished,
I'm able to give everything up.
After all, it used to be my second home.
It used to bring joy to me.
It used to be one of my priority.
Why do I felt so strange there?
Why do I felt so out of place all of a sudden?
It's no longer, where I belonged.
It's no longer, the used-to-be.
It's no longer, being even there.
Haven't been myself lately.
Felt really childish lately.
Don't know what I'm thinking,
don't know what I wanted.
I remembering myself,
being able to tolerate anything,
able to tolerate what he gave,
able to tolerate people's attitude,
able to take all the nonsense.
Yet, I don't see myself doing it anymore.
The problems lie in me.
I got to start reflecting now.
Guess I was just too naive.
I can't stand myself,
I'm just too childish now.
It's time to grow up.
Reflection starts. =)
Sometimes, I just miss your calls,
that lasted through the nights.
If only.
You just never understand.
11:46:00 PM
Hello.
I had a good/bad news.
I'm changing my name.
Yes, my own real name.
Not the cabal, not the maple,
not the O2Jam, nor the audition.
Kind of don't bear to change my name.
After all, I had used it for 17 years.
& people are so used to calling me wanling.
& I love my name so much, I'm proud to be wanling.
But, because of this name, it changes my fate.
I don't know if it's a good or a bad news though.
But well, don't try to change my mindset,
because I had made a very big decision,
to change this name, I don't want to be fickled-minded anymore.
So in case, you are trying to ask if I believe such things,
yes, I do believe, just that I don't know if I really want to change.
But, after discussing with my mum for so long,
so, I have decided to change.
My new name will be updated,
when I had really changed it. =)
No worries, I will change it some day this month.
Because, it was said that, I will met with an accident during July.
& the person was asking me, did you met any accident last time?
Then I was like, "how you know?" LOL!
Then she was like, "you will get another time this July."
*Shocked* Sian-ness~ Sighed~
So, she asked me to change my name by this month.
Because, there's a lot of things later after May.
So people, don't try to change my mind.
Not at all. =)
& it was said that, after changing my name,
many things will start to change,
& my brother had changed his name officially.
He is no longer Weiwee, he's Chuanghwee now. =/
Sound so irritating name though. =/
But, his cheena name is nice - Quanwei
So yeah, he got his new IC.
So yeah, I'm going to get a new IC too.
But it's like so stupid, I just got my IC for two years,
unlike my brother, he had gotten his for eight years. =/
Big different~ Four times of mine can~
His IC is even cracked. =/
Alright, went out with Sister-in-law to get formal wear,
but couldn't find any that I liked. =(
Then, met up with Rainer to go over to Orchard.
Wanted to go down to grandlink after that,
but Lijie they all didn't have car. =(
So yeah, kind of reluntant to go,
& because I'm going for Vesak @ Orchard today.
So, I was procastinating at home, as usual please~ =/
Then, went out for supposedly rounding session with Shikai & friends.
But, they went to wash car first. =D Interesting~
Songhe's car damn shiny after washing. LOL!
Blahhh, mum called to ask me go home early. LOL!
When the time was already two plus. =/
& that mum said I need to go Orchard early tomorrow.
& she's going Malaysia early tomorrow. LOL!
Like no linked. =/
So yeah, since Shikai they all are going to so far.
Then, I decided not to join them.
After all, I need to wake up early today.
So yeah, was being sent back LOL!
On the way home, damn cute lah~ LOL!
& blah, I'm awake now. =)
Woke up at 8.30am automatically.
& now, I'm still at home, when the events start at 9am?
Blahhhh, I'm so lazy to take a bus there.
I hope I can drive too. =(
& oh ya, was chatting with Shikai about materialistic.
He said, all girls are materialistic, NO LO~ =(
I remembered seeing this in some other people blog.
Do not choose who to say yes to based on superficial things like money, looks, cars, etc..
If you are even thinking of these things, you have not fallen in love yet.
That's why, not all girls are materialistic.
Some girls go for love, instead of material things.
If I choose to love someone for their money,
one day, I will definitely get tired to be with the person,
& having him around me, I get even more annoyed.
So what for going for superficial things,
when it don't last at all.
Perhaps one day,
they might lose their money,
they might lose their looks,
they might lose their cars.
Will you still even looked at them,
saying that, you still love them.
The answer is so obvious.
No.
If you love someone,
for who they are,
for what they are,
accepting their flaws,
understanding them.
It's called love.
Not material love.
I sound so love-counsellor. LOL!
But, I sucked at the things called love.
Oh well, don't ask me why.
I just sucked at it. =)
But I know, when I'm in love.
I will accept them for who they are,
even accepting their flaws.
After all, no one is perfect. =)
So yeah, I won't go for guys just because of material thing.
It's nothing in my eyes. Material things are impermanence.
One day, they will be gone.
I don't mind loving a guy with nothing.
I don't mind worrying for a guy with their spending problem.
But I just hope to be with them through the time.
& in hoping that, they will change for the better.
Like, have control in their spending problem...
If you can stay with him through the darkest days,
& when their brightest days came, due to circumstances,
you have to leave them, that's still love.
But if you can only stay with them through their brightest day,
& leave him when they are in their darkest days,
that's not love, it's just material love. =)
So girls, what type are you?
Stop being materialistic,
many guys had looked onto all girls being that.
Just because of a black sheep, we got all that stereotyping statment.
Don't be that black sheep ahhhh. =/
Not fair norh~~
Okay, it's already 10.30am.
& I'm still here typing away.
My goodness. Okay bye.
I'll try to blog tonight with pictures,
if only I had taken. =D
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE.
P.S: I got one really red pimple on my cheek. Irritating.
Roar you. SO OBVIOUS CAN!~
I just hate the time of the month. =(
New name.
New fate.
New life.
The old one,
will never be forgotten. =)
The rain covers my pain.
9:40:00 AM
Friday, May 09, 2008
so can you.
Sighed.
If only,
we can freeze that special moment.
I should stop thinking.
Stop reminisicing.
It's all gone, gone with the wind.
Somehow, I just wish things,
will still stay the same, just like the past.
Maybe I should learn to care no more,
just like how he care no more.
Why do memories still haunt?
I thought, I had gotten over it?
Sighed, in actual fact,
no, not yet.
That chemistry.
That bond.
That love.
3:19:00 AM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
You'll react emotionally today, but so what? Don't suppress it. Feelings are truth.
In Detail
You might have an unexpected (and perhaps even a tad bit embarrassing) emotional reaction to something that is seemingly innocuous today, but so what? Don't suppress it. You need to let your emotions come out in full force right now. Show people that it's not such a bad thing to have human emotions. You can't be a robot all of the time. Celebrate the fact that you are in touch with your feelings -- it is a strength to show them, not a weakness.
Sometimes, I just wished horoscope wasn't that true.
I finished blogging & then, I saw this horoscope.
Damn, why must it be so accurate.
I lost my sensibility,
clicked onto the Message history,
when I'm supposed to forget it all.
I read through everything.
From the day, how it all started.
Till today, so much of the changes.
I can't accept changes, especially this one.
I still don't understand, how things ended up this way.
No longer did I tear anymore, but my heart still aches.
Feeling kept coming back to haunt.
Understood that, he wanted to end it all.
So, I moved on.
Yet, I didn't know,
feelings still will come back again,
when I get reminded of the past.
Though, I wasn't his everything in the past,
but, I was at least something to him.
& that's was enough, I'm contented.
Just so easily contented & loved.
However, inevitably that things do change,
I was nothing now.
& now, I miss the past,
when he still says he love me for once.
when he still miss me at times.
But now, it's all one-sided love from my side.
& that's everything is fading away.
His love & my love, it's going to go to nothingness.
Everything is blurring away soon.
Sometimes, I just hope,
time stopped right there and then.
& our moment, will still be there.
Moved on, girl.
PERIOD.
" And it's hard to watch things change when all you want for them is to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go but you keep holding on and when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad but all you can do is push them further and further away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it but if it didn't really matter you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it. "
We recognize a true love
When we realize that the
Only one who can console us
Is the one who caused the pain
如果有一天你能到我的心里去
你一定会流泪因为那里面
全是你给我的伤悲
如果有一天我能到你的心里去
我也会流泪因为那里面
全是你的无所谓
9:15:00 PM
After last night's project discussion,
& today project discussion.
My mind is so drained now.
Like so heavy, yet it's not.
Headache time. Sighed.
My head really very heavy.
Roar you. =(
I hate projects. =(
KBYE.
12:16:00 AM
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
& the truth unkempt.
School was really long today.
Did my project last night,
& I slept quite late.
Yet, waking up,
I felt so refreshed.
I'm a weirdo.
After that, blahblahblah,
everyone wore really formal.
I have pictures. =D
I want to post it,
but I'm using my sister-in-law's laptop,
so it is not possible for me to upload my photos,
into her laptop without her permission right. =/
Blahhhh, interview went well.
Next, met Jacklyn & Dickson for Iron man. =D
It's damn cool, like watching ultra man like that. LOL!
Back to childhood time~ =/
Met up with Yuanyi too. =D
Tried to find her dress,
but to no avail. =/
& blah, home.
My school starts at 12pm tomorrow. =D
Usually, it should be starting at 2pm,
but we had make up lesson, so it starts early.
Yay, I see longer hours of my sleep. =D
I have ulcer on my gum.
So painful. =( I hate ulcer.
Why do ulcers kept finding me?
I drank a lot of water already. =(
I did not eat unhealthy food already.
I want to lose weight. =(
Can somebody tell me how?
& I had one ba-ru-ku on my head.
Dumb me, I was finding my stuffs,
& then I banged onto the wall,
& now that ba-ru-ku is damn painful. =(
It seemed to be really big you know.
& whenever I press on it, it hurts so bad.
Will I become more dumb anot? =(
& I'm god-damned broke. =(
When is my pay coming in ?
I guess, I really need to turn to banquet again.
So bored, who wants to join me to work again? =(
& I'm starting to like my SAS grouping. :D
At least, everyone makes an effort to do something. =D
& we always have a lot of fun during discussion,
as we slowly get to know each other & laughing at their habits.
I'm so afraid of falling sick.
Because, I don't know how to apply leaves,
I don't know how to hand in MCs.
I know, I'm damn noob. =/
But, no choice. I'm new to school.
& friday, I'm going to the fortune teller thing.
I hope I stop hearing negative issues from her.
She said, my life is a rather good one.
So, let's shall see. =)
I don't know what to blog anymore.
My life is so boring.
I guess lesser and lesser readers will come now. =(
So, I won't be earning any nuffnang?
And and, why isn't the nuffnang giving me advertisment now?
Why why why why why?
sometimes,
I just wished,
nobody reads.
Sometimes, I still wonder...
Oh well, sighed.
You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through
And rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
To be that strong...
So baby, won't you try as hard as you can
To put my broken heart together again
10:41:00 PM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
been feeling really sian yesterday.
No mood to do anything at all.
Didn't really finish up my work.
Didn't really go through my notes.
Didn't even bother to do anything.
I'm just feeling so sian.
Guess, it's because of that file,
and it caused my whole day to feel sian. =(
So much negativity in myself, tsk tsk tsk.
Oh ya, I went through my folders,
& I saw the screenshot that I had took,
during the time when I was crazy about Maplesea. =/
My items are damn good can, I have lollipop too!!
But now, I don't have it. =( I'm so pathetic.
I have no money at all, no money. =(
& I look so pathetic, with those gears. =(
My character used to look so cute can. =(
Curse that person who hack my account,
I hate you for life. Curse you~ Roar you~
Sighed, I'm feeling so sian still. =(
I have been feeling sian these days.
Must be feeling too fat already,
& PMS period I guess. =(
Moodswing sucks big time.
But I'm not feeling moody,
nor feeling happy,
I'm feeling really moodless.
Emotionless, nothingness.
Bought my formal wear top,
but my skirt really doesn't match it.
Guess, I have to look for another skirt again. =(
Anyway, my class guys were damn cute today.
The three I-N-G girls are busy printing the notes away,
while they are playing Too-Too-Train. *Fainted* LOL!
& you know how they played? They played in the lab with the arm chairs.
Damn cute, I even took a video down. The next class, which is just a window away,
saw what we had done, & too, took the video down. LOL!
Miss Sarah even came over to our class, to say we are a bunch of funny people.
So proud~ LOLOLOL!!!
Sighed.
Blahblahblah.
Okaybye!
10:10:00 PM
Monday, May 05, 2008
were the shadow of you.
BOO!
I'm so lazy to get online. =(
Been very lazy lately.
Been so lazy to do anything.
Been lazy to eat, been lazy to study,
been lazy to sleep, been lazy to walk.
Now, I'm so lazy to type my password to get online.
Best~ I'm just so lazy, even such small thing can be so lazy.
But, I'm really really very lazy narh~
So yeah, today my file was lost,
search high and low for it.
Shiying & Yingying accompanied me to find,
couldn't find it, was so upset. =(
Cause all my notes were inside.
& all my assignments were inside.
Best time of the year please.
So yeah, went for lab session,
I was damn whiny~ LOL!
So Jonathan said he will accompany to find it. =D
We went many many many places you know!
But to no avail, no offices see any of my file. =(
After that, we went Cheers.
I saw Jashawn~
Chatted awhile.
It's been so long since we chat face-to-face.
Memories came flashing back.
But, it's blurred. :)
Blah, went to lecture,
& I was still feeling bored.
Cause I have no notes,
I lost everything.
So yeah, slept for half an hour.
& I'm feeling damn afresh. :D
After that, Xiaoxiao came to me. :D
She was holding my file!
She said it's Joyce who found it. =D
Thank you very very much. :)
If not I would have died, dead~
So yeah, been a good girl for the rest of the day.
After that, met up with Liangjian & headed to Newton. :D
So blah, & home. :DDDD
I'm lazy to post photos. =(
But there's so many photos right now. =(
AhhhhhHH~ Roar-ed everyone~
The chapters unfolded,
yet ended.
10:52:00 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
are the ones that nobody can explain.
Yeah, it's my last day of work. :D
No more complaints of leg pain anymore. :)
No more complaints from the stupid Singtel.
& no more hours of procastinating.
I can do something meaningful now. =D
So yeah, everything is over. =D
I'm happy happy. No more standings!!
No more waiting for the day to get by. =D
I have a lot of pictures. =/
Tomorrow!
I show you how tall that Melvin is.
1.91m giant, he's not human please. =/
There's school tomorrow!
It's something that I don't want. =(
It's something that I dragged to do. =(
& there's so many tutorials. =(
But never mind, after school,
I'm going to see an arahant. :)
I hope to see what's my past life is. :)
I hope it's something good. =/
& Dickson owe me an BotakJones,
due to a bet. xDDDDDD
I always win in such bets. xD
I never play cheat okay. =X
& I just remember to blog this,
I have two friends with same initial,
YLJ - Yee Liang Jian & Yang Li Jie! LOLOL!
So cute huh~ =DDDD
Who has the same initial as me?
SWL~ :D
& I'm damn irritated,
cause whenever I come back for my MSN while working,
I always see it as being signed out, or conversation closed. =(
I don't know who are the one who kept closing my conversation,
& who are the one who read my conversation. =(
No manner~ Roar you. =(
Ended up, I don't know who replied,
& who didn't reply, & whether he did reply. =(
So upsetting I tell you ah!! =(
Because it would be tonight,
that I would fall for you, over again.
10:37:00 PM
my phone off by itself last night.
I don't think I had touched it you know. =/
& furthermore, it was placed beside me,
there's no reason that I will touch that off button.
& I don't understand,
why I woke up so early,
just to realise my phone is off. LOLOL!
The first thing when I woke up,
is to look at my phone,
but when I tried to slide it,
nothing comes out. =/
So I assume it's off,
& I went to on it,
then it hanged !
So weird~ =(
Or or, did I sleep walking,
& then I went to off my phone?
You know my phone is my everything,
I won't off it unless the battery is flat.
And, what makes my phone off ?
SO WEIRD~ =(
Who touched my phone?
Kiasinang.com
Anyway, it's the last day of working.
I kind of miss my working mates.
They are fun people alright,
we go for lunch & dinner together.
We waste a lot of time together.
We watched TV together,
we played internet together.
& we helped each other when customers are there. :)
Actually, working can be fun,
if only we gets to sit down. =/
Sighed, I woke up so early,
means I will get tired early today. =(
That's quite bad you know. =/
Never mind, I shall try to finish some homeworks,
before I go to sleep today. :DDDD
Monday will be draggy for me then,
since our lesson are 9am - 6pm.
& I'm finishing work at 9pm. =(
I assumed I will reach home at 9.30pm.
By the way, I had learnt to multi-task. :D
I can do a lot of things at one time now. =D
I'm so damn efficient. xD!
Missed.
Time to bath. :)
Working the last day. :D
Anyone who comes to Suntec City,
come find me. =DDDDDD
Byeeeeeeeeee. :)
8:48:00 AM
Saturday, May 03, 2008
The three Mascoste. Brandon is the stupid red one. LOL!~
Cute right cute right ! They damn sexy I tell you! =X
Wear the super duper tights which shows their sexy legs LOL!
Tiffany! :)
Qiuyan! :)
Sharon, Tiffany, Kym. :)
Sharon, Kym & me. =D
Yayness ! :)
I have been working these few days. :)
I'm working at Suntec City's Entertainment Centre,
it's outside Carrefour to be exact. :)
So, these are the people I'm working with,
except that I haven't take with the guys.
Melvin is really tall, I will try take picture with them tomorrow. =D
Melvin is 1.91m alright. =/ I'm like a dwarf standing beside that giant. =(
& Sharon is my primary school mate.
It's so coincidental that we are working together. =D
& Kanglong saw me while shopping with his parents.
During the IT show, he also saw me.
& now it's the second time working for MioTV,
he saw me again, wearing that stupid shirt again. =/
He's bound to see me wearing stupid shirt please. =(
Anyway, today was really tiring.
My leg aches really badly.
And I just realise, I haven't get my formal wear. =(
I'm busily working everyday, how to get it. =(
& I did stupid things today, kept disturbing the mascoste.
I don't know how to spell the mascoste. =X
Anyway, I kept beating their head. =X
They are damn cute I tell you.
Especially Brandon, I told him to dance,
he will dance on the spot which makes the mascoste doubly cute. LOL!
& I'm feeling really fat,
I want to lose weight please. =(
& I'm damn broke again.
I'm a poor girl. =(
I'm trying to find a way to save money,
& to lose weight at the same time.
But I only get to find a way,
is to not to eat at all.
But it's so unhealthy. =(
I'm glad, he tried to quit.
Alright, goodnight. :)
11:39:00 PM
Friday, May 02, 2008
I want to post pictures,
but but, I always ended up using my brother's computer.
Since it's much better than mine, & I won't tend to do other things,
like sorting out my things, downloading some files,
& then kept wasting a lot of time,
when I'm supposed to just do homework.
At least, for my brother computer,
I will just surf blogger & at most friendster.
So things will be done faster. =D
Anyway, I was so bored today.
Since Qiuyan went over to Redpac to find Roslina.
While I kept running there to find Lijie too. LOLOL!
The place was so deserted the whole day.
Nobody at all, I can even dance there.
But morning was terrible,
starting of work, received a call from Valerie,
it was regarding our job performance.
Singtel people sucks I tell you.
But I don't understand,
why I always have fate with Singtel.
I kept having Singtel job.
CRAP~ =(
Anyway, I guess my blog is really very boring now.
Because, there's no picture uploaded,
my life isn't as happening as last time.
Been working this few days,
don't think I can think what I want for now.
There's a number of things I really want to do,
there's a number of things on my mind,
there's a number of things I had answer to my questions,
but everything and everything, I'm not going to blog it down for now.
Perhaps, give me few more days, I might blog it out after thinking about it.
I'm so afraid that, I will sound so fickled minded again.
Kept wanting to do something, yet kept procastinate it. =/
I tried to think about first,
and I need time to reflect upon my actions.
I really really really, don't know where's my life leading to.
I have no ideas, what life is all about. It's so meaningless.
No enjoyment, no hardworking, no purpose in life.
Life is just so, useless seriously.
Anyway, interview is coming up next week.
I'm damn stress over it, because a lot of works are undone.
& I'm still using my four days of holidays to work in that Singtel.
But at least, I'm earning money, I see money coming in again. =D
So yadah yadah, blahhhh.
Tomorrow is a weekend you know!
It's so going to be really exciting. =(
I don't like it. I want to watch more movies there. =X
By the way, I watched Secret there too,
I'm inspired by Jay Chou to play my piano again. =D
But, I'm so lazy to touch my piano. =(
Poor piano~
& yadah blah, & bye. =D
Blogging is getting boring,
like my whole life is a routine,
nothing special about it.
No game, no fun, no enjoyment,
no exciting things, no problems and everything.
Life is really really boring, meaningless, useless. =(
Yours truly,
wanling.
10:50:00 PM
but I saved it as a draft again. =/
I'm just don't know what I'm thinking.
Anyway, working is fun today.
Because I get to meet all kinds of different people.
I saw Ellis & Qiuyan in Singtel again. =D
At least, there's someone whom I know is working together.
So, I got to know the people working around me too. =D
Melvin kept telling me his experience with girls. -.-"
While Ziqin told me about his studying life.
& about his family stuffs blahblahblah.
I kept onlining during work lo.
So boring working, but it was nice that people come find me.
Like Jonathan, Clement, Nicholas & Cheeren came down. =D
So nice of them. =D & Yingying sent me a message regarding of a job tomorrow,
so I referred Lijie to work since the pay is good. =DDDD
Great ah!
Sighed, actually I don't know how to post already.
Nothing to post about, except working with the others.
Quite fun, so fun, people are nice.
However, we got complaint from Singtel.
I really don't like that company,
Sighed, when can I get out of it. =(
I mean, at least the people there treat us nicer.
So yeah, I guess I should go sleep now.
Just hanged up & goodnight. :)
12:39:00 AM
Thursday, May 01, 2008
I'm so damn pissed off with my SAS lab teacher.
She just don't understand my group of people.
Kept assuming and assuming,
I hate people assuming.
She better not downgrade us just because of personal issues.
Damn irritating idiot piece of moron fool.
Roar you. Damn angry~
Then Dickson also moodswings,
suddenly replied me with that sms.
Roar you dickson! LOL!
So yadah, went lan. =D
My cabal is officially level 35 now. :)
I'm so happy happy happy. =D
I can wear my powerpowerful stuffs soon.
Anyway, I was thinking about the fortune teller thing,
don't think it's quite accurate for me though.
Shall thought it through some day.
& I shall blogged about it some day.
Oh ya, during the period when I was pissed off,
I received a MMS from Shanyuan,
it's a photo that he had took somewhere near IMM,
and it was a building with NSK there.
LOL ! Damn cute.
I saw my SWL,
& now there's NSK.
Actually, initial are easy to find.
Been thinking about me & him stuffs,
I got an answer from myself.
My head is malfunction.
Shall blog some other day.
So yeah, working tomorrow. :)
Anyone who is free, you can come down to find me. =D
Goodbye.
I have to start doing homework tomorrow.
I'm a good student, remember? LOL!
I shall blog tomorrow.
My mind has stopped functioning for the day.
The day is way too long, and it's full of studying stuffs & games.
I can't think any more. It's fully drained. :)
So byebye. :)
I shall go and do some meanigful thing,
better than wasting my time coming online & blogging.
So yeah, goodbye my dears.
12:19:00 AM
