佘婉菱; 我的世界;我的生活



Saturday, June 30, 2007

http://ashleyisourangel.blogspot.com/
A blog which tells you that life is impermanence. You never know what will happen in the next moment. That's life. =( I read and I cried.





It hurts to see that photo of you.


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Thursday, June 28, 2007

It was pretty upsetting that things turned out this way. I didn't know. I swear I really didn't know all about it. Just when I got to know about it, it seems like something had crashed my heart, my hope. I don't know how should I be describing this kind of feeling but it is truly hurting. If you are the one who gives up hope and then find it back again, then you lost it again. How would it feel ? Great ? Hell ? I don't know ? They never believe what I say. I can sacrifice anything to save the family. Yet right now, I don't know if all this thing were worth it anot. They often tell me that " Shit Happens ", but I was trying hard to be perfect in their eyes. I can never do it. They don't allow me to. I was demoralised. I was upset. I was lost. I felt confused. All this while, the outing and the stuffs that happened in the holidays, were it just plainly my illusion or they were hiding their hard feeling towards me. I am really lost. If all that means, I will quit for good, for their happiness. I'm serious right now and do not ever doubt me if you know nothing about me. You guys never had know anything about me anyway. All these while, thank you for everything.



I have no mood to blog further. The same old feeling comes back and I could no longer withstand this unbearable pain in me. It hurts. Take me away.




Whenever I wanted to press the sent button, I stopped.
I don't know why, but I started pressing the delete button and delete it all. Yes, all.


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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I LOVE MOGGALLANA !
Woeful but Wonderful, We are the Moggallana.


Pictures will be up soon. :)


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I came out with a list of stuffs that I wanted to get during my Shopping Spree. But well, I don't think I can get everything at one go since I'm really damn broke now. Well, it's just a list, I don't really think it is a must to get everything right now though. Most of all, I think the Anna Sui's perfume is the most expensive among the things I wanted to get. Sighs~ Never mind, I shall get it after my pathetic 'O' level. :)


White Shorts
Topshop's Tank Top
Topshop's Top
Black Long Sleeve Shirt
Slogan Tee
Mabelline Mascara
Anna Sui Secret Wish
The Face Shop's Liquid Eyeliner
Pollicini's Handbag


Ahhh~ I think I will get the Mascara first before getting the other stuffs. I had planned to get one thing each month so as to save a little money to keep up with my shopholic nature. :) Ahhh~ I really want to shopping. =( You know I had been dreaming of having time to shop for a long long time and yet, I'm still stucked at home - burying myself in books and die!~


Life's been so boring. I miss holidays. Please please please, please get the hell 'O' level to finish as soon as possible and I will be happy forever. :) You know the word "happiness" ? Although it's not eternal happiness but at least it could keep up with the temporary happiness in me. I miss the town~ I miss my Shopping Khakis. I miss everything ! Books, burn burn burn ! I hope there is some miracle that would burn all the books around the world so that we wouldn't have to study anymore ! Dream on man wanling ~ -.-"


I haven't been doing reflections for quite some time. You know, books after books ~ Maybe it's time to do some reflection and reflect upon my actions. After reading "Our Buddha", I really miss the time when I really look into myself and think. I mean, I really changed. I watched the Camp Video and there was a dharma part where Ven. Bodhi was giving her speech. I had always looked up to her. The way she speaks and the way she gives her dharma talk, I really liked it all. It feels good to listen to her talks and I had always been looking forward to it. But this time round, I wasn't there. I missed it and that was the chance I missed. =( She said, "When you get angry, You are the most nasty person." It's true and I think this should keep it inside me to forbid myself to get angry unneccessary.


Oh yeah, my dearest brother wants the PC back. :) I shall cut down on the time I have on the computers. My dear computer - BYEBYE ! xD ! But, I will still love my blog and I shall update every day. :) You know I love you and you should know it well. :)


I saw an EyeCandy in school ! It's the new teacher ~ Aha~ =X I think he looked really cute. Don't you agree with me !?! I don't care, I just felt that he looked so cute with that smile. YAY! I love going to school ! =X



We aren't talking in schools anymore. Sighs~


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I screwed my sleeping time. -.-" All right, when am I supposed to complain that I'm tired when I had just slept for 4 hours. It's already 1AM and I'm stucked here trying to get to sleep. Great.


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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Aries - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
You're quite the charmer. You've got the wit and attitude to attract almost anyone you meet.Out spoken and honest, any date knows how they stand with you.Fearless, independent, and willing to try anything twice - your dates should expect the unexpected.
Your negative traits:
You tend to be vain, and you expect your partner to feed that vanity often with complements.Hot tempered and impulsive, you've occasionally ended things ... only to regret it later.You're obsessed with being the best, most loved girlfriend or boyfriend your sweetie's ever had.
Your ideal partner:
A risk taking, free spirit like yourself - who can keep up with your latest wild child antics.Someone stylish, attractive, and fit... who can keep you attracted for months.Is hard to get - and lets you pursue things. You prefer to be the chaser, not the one being chased.
Your dating style:
Wild, unpredictable, fun, and daring. Your ideal date may involve a couple motorcycles or naked skydiving.
Your seduction style:
Honest and direct - you have no need for romance or much foreplay.Show off. You like to show your lover how you're the best ever.Ambitious. You often like to go all night - or aim for multiple orgasms.
Tips for the future:
Start to believe in second and third chances. You don't have to dump them so fast.Savor the process. Sometimes the best part of falling in love is taking things in slow motion.Let go of comparisons. If someone's with you, then you've already one. Stop worrying about exes.
Best color to attract mate: Red
Best day for a date: Tuesday


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Pardon for my lack of post. I had been really busy here. School has officially started and I really don't like it. I wore slipper to school and it made me feel like I'm really some alien living in some other planets. You know, I never like to be unique in this way. So yeah, when can I get back to a normal typical wanling that lives in Bugis?


I had been trying to finish up my D&T project but it seemed like an futile attempt. Firstly, I went for D&T yesterday and I didn't do much because the teachers were busy. So never mind, I went there today and Mr Azman wasn't in a good mood. He started screaming us off. Here I am, I'm back at home already. I had done nothing in the past two days. Good job man~


Chinese 'O' level Oral is coming. I'm having it on the 4th July. People, please pray hard for me to get a distinction for it. :) Block Test are coming up and I'm so packed right now. There is a CIP programme going on tomorrow. We need to head over to the neighbourhood to collect the newspapers. :) You know, I think I'm so lucky. I grouped with Nicholas & Ziyou. The two strong guy and a weak lady. xP Get what I mean ? I don't have to carry the newspapers. xD !


I think I needed to study badly from today onwards. It seemed like I had been slacking around for the past few weeks. I have no ideas why I'm so lazy lately. I just don't feel like doing anything and just sit there and rot. Yeah, rot~ I miss the time when I really lie on the bed and rot. -.-" Pathetic eh~ But it felt great if I really have the time to really just rot. =(


Promise promise promise please ! I really have to work hard ! Someone please motivate me ! I really lost my motivation. I'm quite lost right now. I think I shall push others aside and start worrying about my academic than the usual stuffs that happened. I don't really care anyway. They are all the same. They never changed. I shall give up trying so hard. After all, it doesn't really make any difference. :)


Having too many commitments tire me out, I shall officially get right straight at the things that are important now - my priority. :) Don't try to assume this post anymore because nobody is going to be able to guess what this post is all about. Don't assume because I hate people to have assumption when all they know were nothing. :) Let me forget everything that is happening please ~


I hate it. I hate it. I'm still hating it.
I am all that a loser are. :)


I'm depressed~


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Sunday, June 24, 2007

I just watched the Camp Video. It can be seen at www.sbmyouth.org ; Click on the Camp Site and you will be able to see the latest Camp Video. I think it's great. Although I didn't really do much in this camp but it's really heartwarming to see the campers having their fun. Which means, many people will join SBM and get close to the thriple gems. :) It's great, really. :)


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Horoscope for today;
You'll run headfirst into a bunch of emotions today -- go slow and process them.


It's been a long day for me. I had piano lesson in the early morning because I decided to have it earlier so as to be able to get down to SBM for a little while. After the lessons, I went to SBM and the usual stuffs goes on... We had LAN after SBM. I think I'm quite suck at Counterstrike~ We finished the games and most of them went home. Finally, I managed to have a chit-chat session with VictorTeo and it feels great. So yeah, he was updated on a lot of stuffs. :) Moggallana : Woeful but Wonderful.


I felt lost. A sudden surge of loss came through me and I tried to cover it. I'm rather down these days so well, I will try not to stay close to anyone at this moment. There has been a few incidents that had been happening one after another. I surrenderred. I'm not good enough and I think I should leave. Yet, some part of me couldn't let go. I'm not trying to swell on all these stuffs but it has been happening one after another. How am I supposed to be able to get out of it? It seemed like it had been a part of me. A part of me that I'm loser. I'm all that doesn't matter. I had this uber negative image of myself and I'm never satisfied with the way I am. At this stage, I don't think I will be able to pick myself up. So, who am I now? Or rather, Who the hell am I? I was so stressed up over all these issues that had been happening. And it was great to feel that, I should be the one who leave. I don't know why am I crying and I don't know if these tears were worth. My presence was not needed anyway. At least, that was how they made me feel. I will leave for good.



I don't know how to carry on blogging. Let me be, please. My horoscope spells it all. Thank you for being so accurate. :)


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Saturday, June 23, 2007

Sometime, when you don't speak. Nobody will take you as a mute person. Speak the right thing at the right time. We were happy a while ago and now, we were unhappy. Whose fault ? Your fault !~ Thank you for your BIG contribution to this little mini group of us. :) And I'm freaking hell not happy with the words that were out that day. We were there with good intentions. Don't bloody judge us when you don't even know what we were thinking. For your information, we were damn disappointed with this place. Yeah, the place where we called home a long ago. But now, everything was messed up. Yeah, messed up~ Why are we still doing there ? Because, we had faith in what we were doing. We know what we were doing. We understand one another well. Do you ? Or it has never crossed your mind that you are insulting us ? So what is this place called about ? I don't know anymore. Thank you for making me realise that, I had lost it. If you have any problems with me, come straight up. I don't think insulting the people around do you good anyway.


Heh~ I'm just pin-pointing somebody. Well, I'm not gonna speak who was that or write it here. :) Too bad~ If you are guilty with it. Yeah, that's you. :) If you are not, don't find troubles here. HELL~


I aren't happy with it. Please don't come near me. I'll bite ~ And, I'm absolutely serious with it. :) This post was written not because of anger. I had already cooled down from it before I write this post. So yeah, I was just unhappy with the way it is. If you don't understand it, then leave it. That's me? Remember? Take it or leave it because I don't give a damn. :)


For my friends : Hey, I still love you though ! This post is just dedicated to some other people. :) Don't worry about me, I'm fine. Alright, at least that was what I hope for that I'm fine. :) My legs are healing and thank for all your concerns. I'm very much appreciate that. And I think, all of you rock my world. :) Misses~


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Thursday, June 21, 2007


I think I looked so unglam here. Who will look nice when they are crying. -.-"


I took this picture from SLY ! :) Credit shall go to her. :) This was what happened when we had an accident that day. We went to the clinic and went back to the campsite. Zeyan was dressing WenCai at that time. So Pearly was helping me out. :)) The wound was bright red at that time ! I think it looked so much better than now. -.-" I still prefer Red than Black. But I shall prefer the healing one than the painful one. =D I think it looked so much better when I was in camp you know ! You shall find the difference in it. Is it the air was cleaner at LimChuKang than Bugis ? -.-"



It was taken when I was having Camp ! I think it looked so much better !


I think it looked disgusting~ Damn~ -.-"


See ! Why did it get worst when I was back home? -.-" I wished the Bagua thing will start dropping soon and then I will be ready for school ! Ahhhh ~ I hate school ! I hate to wake up early ! I hate to study ! I hate to see books ! I hate to see him ! I hate to have those eyes looking at me. =( Sigh~ I think life is a hell now. Or rather, I had pushed myself to the hell. -.-"


Whenever I started to remember the words he said, I don't know if I should be angry or sad. Yinghui told me that I was supposed to be angry. But why do I felt so sad rather than angry ? At least it was alright now, he doesn't really cross my mind anymore. Yay ! :)


We had some Moggallana management issue. They were leaving. I was seriously feeling very sad. But yeah, no choice. :) House of Mogga - Woeful but wonderful.


Ahh never mind. Goodnight and bye ~


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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

You know, I'm sort of some honest people. If I don't like you, please look at my face, I showed it all. :) Just too bad, I couldn't put myself so low to be a hypocrite you know? So yeah, that's why. I often wondered why do people have to give excuses to act as if they were innocent ? I mean, you know you aren't at all, and so why do you still have to find excuses for it ? Hello, at least I don't take that. I don't care whoever take those excuses from you, but look at me, I don't and never will I take it.


My wounds are slightly better now and the black solid things are starting to drop. Hopefully, it will drop by school then. I don't want to wear slipper to go school though. So yeah, pray hard for me please ! I was out for library yesterday and Moggallana Outing today. I felt like I was some kind of alien. You know that big patch of ugly wound had caused me to be of the center of attention in the crowds. I just felt so uneasy when people were looking at me. I mean, I didn't want that big patch thing to be there right. Why must all of you have to look at me like I'm an alien? I aren't alright ! So, I tried to walk as fast as I could to look as if I was alright but it hurts alot though. It was Fuzhong's birthday celebration today, so there was no reason for me not to go. Friends' birthday are the most important events, so I just have to join in no matter what. =D That Forester stepped on my foot today and I almost cried. -.-" I sweared it was painful !


So yeah, I shall be good from now and stay home for as long as I can. My legs are suffering. =( But at least, it's been quite long since Mogga had fun right. :) I miss Mogga ! Jowell was not here today ! She was there but I wasn't there. Yet when she wasn't there, I was there. =( I miss her~


I need to study. Someone please give me some motivation to study! Please enlighten me. =(


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Monday, June 18, 2007

Ahhhhh! I think I'm quite bored. It's been a week that I had been staying at home all day long ! Please look at the last three word - ALL DAY LONG ! Oh my heaven ! If you know me well, you would know that I can never stand staying at home. And yet, I have to stay at home during this pathetic holiday. I think I sound pathetic or do I make some sense that I sound pathetic. -.-"


The first few days when I reached home from the campsite, I was pratically doing nothing at all. I couldn't even walk even for that pathetic few cm from my bed to the computer. Then after I got slightly better, I began to lie on the chair while chatting on MSN. And it hurts my back so badly, I decided to just forget it. -.-"



FORESTER !!

Yeah, I miss SBM~ =( Although it's merely a week that we had seen each other, I missed them. It's like I missed the entire camp too ~ When the thoughts of it come by, I got depressed again. -.-" I miss my Moggallana ~ I hope it will stay like this forever. But reshuffling is coming, I assume that some people will be dropping by into Moggallana. Yeah, that upsets me too.


Anyway, relationship these days are rather so hard to handle. When the feeling comes, it just came. It just get so complicated some times. Yadah yadah yadah... Forget it, don't ask me. Please allow this feeling to fade. :) I have enough of his cold shoulders. :)) He doesn't even care for me as a friend. What a friend ya~ :)


I will like to dedicate this post to all the people who cares for me. :) Thank you for all the SMSes, the messages, the Testimonials, the tags & Msn... Thank you for everything. :) I greatly appreciate for the concern. :) And many people miss my presence. Thank you for remembering me! :) I seriously don't know how to thank all of you but I'm seriously very delighted when I received all the constant care. You are greatly treasured by me, my friends. :)


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Sunday, June 17, 2007

You know what ? There's a retest tomorrow. And yet, I'm not prepared for the test. Furthermore, how the hell am I supposed to walk to school with a pair of pathetic legs now ? Dad isn't free to pick me up either. So, I'm going to suffer to get to that damn school. Why didn't I asked teacher to have the test on 21st. -.-" Why did I agreed to have it on the 18th ? Damn it ~ I have not even started studying for it and hell, how am I going to do the test ?


Sighs Sighs Sighs. Many people had been telling me that it might leave a scar. And yeah, I'm damn sad. But seriously, I'm fine. Thank you for all the concern. I haven't been a perfect person. How I wish I didn't go for the ride out of playfulness. If I didn't go for it, I will be able to study and I will be able to go out and have fun. While Chufeng will be able to have his NS now and not hope that he could have it earlier. Sighs~ I caused everything. And I blamed myself for everything. I don't know why, but I just felt so troubled for the past few days. When I was on the road with Dad in the afternoon, somehow I got scared. Sighs~


Ahh forget it~ I'm in deep shit. I don't know where to start studying. I was trying to search for the list of topics to study, but I had troubled doing that. -.-" Ahhh forget it~ I'm turning in now. I shall try my luck tomorrow then. Life is a hell now!~ And I damn hate it when I had problem walking around. -.-" But well, that's what I created, it's my fault. Sorry my dear legs. =(


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Saturday, June 16, 2007

I had nothing that could excite this little blog of mine. But something that for sure is that, I had photos of my leg. Well, I think the left leg is slightly better than the right one, so I'm only posting the right one. Yeah, you know I'm just so lazy. You can't possibly blame a injured patient like me right. :)


Oh well, if you are afraid of blood and stuffs, please do not look at it. And, I seriously think it looked like BaGua. You know the red meaty thing that we had during the Chinese New Year ? It looked more like a burnt one though. It was much more bright red yesterday, so yeah. I swear I didn't put any thing on the wound, so the black part was just my meat or stuffs, I don't know. I felt it looked seriously grossed. Please forbid from scrolling down if you are eating....














































Those red & black solid are my hardened blood, flesh & pus. The pus kept coming when I was on my way home from the campsite. So yeah, the injury became worst when I kept walking around. The wound kept splitting and my blood kept flowing. The bad thing is that, it's the time of the month now. I just hope some blood will still stay in my body. -.-"


I must thank Yinghui & Amanda for visiting me for the past one week. Without them, I will died of boredom. Many had told me that I'm counted lucky, I had only injuries. What if death cast upon me ? You know, I was just told of impermanence of life. I was just so afraid of losing the things around me & the people around me. Yet, it never come across that, I'll lose myself one day too. I was thinking that if that day, I was dead, how many regrets do I had ? There were so many things I wanted to do too, so it's like I'll tend to treasure life more.


Nowadays, kids had been acting emo. Suicidal thoughts often come across their minds. I admit, I was once a part of them. But, I grew out from that. I learnt a lot of things throughout my this 16 years. Maybe I should put it to use some day.. For now, I shall sneize every minute of this time and make it like there's no tomorrow anymore. Seriously, when you almost get so close with death, you will understand what I meant. I might just die right there on the road.. For the next few months, people will grief and moan.. Yet after a year, you are just out of their mind. Maybe, they don't even remember such a friend that exist and passed by their life. But well, that's life. We just have to learn to accept that that's life. From now onwards, I promised to treasure every moment. :)



For those people that hate me - Good job. Yeah, it was my karma that I ended up in this accident. I was playful. I was insensible. Say all you want.. I don't give a damn anyway. Afterall, I rather use the time to love the people who love me than to waste the time on people who don't love me. Aren't I correct ? You were just another passerby in my life anyway. You think I'll care about the things you talked behind me ? Aha ! Small girl, try harder next time. :) And I'm writing this short paragraph for you, it's not that I'm against you or something. I just want you to learn. If not, you will learn it the hard way. I believe that after you realised that I had an accident, you will go around speaking evil about me. :) Thank you for your efforts. You know what goes around comes around ? =D May Buddha bless you. :)




I'm satisfied with my life now although I missed him. :)


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You know what hurt most is to wish to have him/her to care for you after you had that accident, and yet to realise that he/she doesn't even bothered. Furthermore, they continued to do things to hurt you and finally, you give it all up. Then, you realised that everything was just hell. Even for that care as a friend from him/her and you just won't get it, you realised that, hell yeah, you loved the wrong person. I swear that was the lowest part of my life. I had never been so low before. At least I could have say that those times I had in the past wasn't as bad as this time. It was so much worst now. I had to bear the pain for both sides. All I wished for was to have him showing some care but well, fat hopes. So yeah, I got all my friends and those who were there, I'm so glad I had all of you. I'm so going to treasure all of you. Thank you for sacrificing your sleep to accompany me.


Hell, my wounds are recovering now. Yet the itch that had been lingering around killed me. It was just so irritating. First, the pain kept coming and now, it's the itch that kept coming. You know how bad it felt to have that big patch of itchiness going around you and yet you just couldn't scratch it. -.-"


I knew who cares for me and who doesn't... Thank you for acting like you care. :)


As for him, I guess I'm giving it all up. It was the disappointment that he gave. No, not that I'm petty that he didn't care about me at all. It was the bit and pieces that combined up into a huge disappointment. It was not once, nor twice, nor thrice.... There were uncountable time that I felt so sad because of him. At least I know, this was enough. I swear I was seriously sad...




I will learn to look forward and smile.


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Thursday, June 14, 2007

I'm slightly alright now. After this accident, I really learnt alot. This lesson will definitely last me life long. Sometime, you really have to experience it, then you will really learn from it. I don't know why, but I felt that the emotion pain is so much greater than the physical one. I know I had caused alot of problems to people. I know I had disappointed many. I don't know how much sorry could cure it all. It's like, I really regret for every thing that had happened. I ought to be more sensible. That day after the accident, I held back all the tears throughout. When I tried to sleep that night, I couldn't. Both the emotion pain & physical pain was too overwhelming. So, I went downstair to find Yinghui. Then, we sat at the staircase throughout with Zhenglin, Eugene & VictorTan. I cried all the way. At that time, I was so helpless, I blabbered everything out.


I cried because I remembered all the faces they gave me. The angry one, the disappointed one, the upsets one... I told them I don't care anymore but in fact, I care. Nobody understands.. Never mind. I'm sorry for all the troubles I had made. I'm sorry for disappointed all of you. I'm really sorry.


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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

I got into an car accident. I won't be blogging till I recovers. Bye. Sorry to people I had troubled. I'm really sorry. I'll be good from now onwards. Takecare.


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Thursday, June 07, 2007

I'm so exhausted after the whole day. I had surrenderred. I slept throughout the journey home. Mum tried to wake me up but I just couldn't open my eyes. In the end, she took quite some time to wake me up while I'm still happily sleeping inside the car.


The day was spent just like the other days. I went to school for Chemistry, D&T then went to SBM. Although it seemed so simple but in fact, there were so many things that I had to do within this 24 hours. Damn~ It isn't easy at all seriously.


I'm feeling so tired. Goodnight. I will be away from 8th June to 12th June. Anything you need help, please contact me through my cellphone. I'm not sure if I'll be blogging tomorrow, so ya, goodnight for now. :) See you guys on 12th June. :)


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Wednesday, June 06, 2007




I spent my whole day & night at three various places. Chemistry, D&T & SBM. Yadah, I know my life is so boring. But, tell me how could I make it exciting when all of them are such time-consuming activities? Great Singapore Sale is here and I'm yet to do any shoppings. -.-" Something that is going to make my mood go even lower is that, I'm officially broke. :) Sighs, I'll have to wait till 16th when I'll be able to get my monthly allowance. That's the bad thing about getting monthly allowance instead of the daily one. :(


D&T was tedious today. I was trying to fix the hinges and I took 4 hours to finish it even with the help of YaoMing & ZhiQiang. -.-" I thought D&T was fun but now, it isn't that fun anymore. =X Mr Azman kept raising his voice and I seriously hate people who raise their voice. So, I'm turning back to Mr Suhami to help me again. I have to finish everything by tomorrow if not, I won't be able to finish it anymore. I hope nothing goes wrong tomorrow. :) I'll try to fix everything and finish it up. Even I still cannot finish it, I must have finish it at least three quarter of everything. :) If not, I seriously don't have any time anymore. I've been staying back in school to finish the artefacts everyday and I almost die today. I was so tired that I stood there and rot. Eventually, Yaoming & ZhiQiang came over to help me. :) Thanks !


SBM was fun today. I learnt to take out nail today. Although it was very tiring, but I still managed to help a teeny weeny part of it. :) Zhenfeng stood on a nail today. Blood was everywhere. =/ Seriously, I've a fear of blood. =X I hope he is alright now. :)


It will be a very rush day for me on Day Zero. Sighs !~ Camp is coming and I'm looking forward to it. :) I hope it's going to be fun. There's so many things I'll have to get tomorrow for the camp. Ahhh~ I hope I'll be able to have all the time. =(



I want to finish up a piece of my holiday homeworks today. I want to pack up for the camp today. I'm going to have a late night sleep tonight again. Sighs ~ It's always the same thing going on and on. =(( Suddenly, life is getting hectic all over again. =( All right, I will get going now and sneize every remaining minutes I have today. =D


P.S: Pardon me for my brief entry. I seriously had run out of time for everything.


I've learn to forget you. :)


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I'm still halfway through my D&T. I have no confidence to finish it by this week, but I'll try my best to finish it, for the sake of my SBM, friends & me. I could hardly have time for myself at all, please spare some time for myself. After doing the artefacts, I met up with Lawrence. We saw VicTeo and he joined us. Then, we began our hunting. :)


Lawrence wanted to play Arcade so we accompanied him. After awhile, I joined Yinghui and went to Suntec to get our camp stuffs. :) Yadah, yadah, yadah.... dots dots dots. Alright, I'm done with my day. =X Sorry, I'm just so lazy to blog about anything.


I have to learn to change myself now. :)


I'm nice if you treat me nice. *smiles* I miss Mabelynn, Irene, Justin, Jason & Dion ! Arghh, my EVENT PLUS clique. =( Where are all of you ! I miss the time when we had Sushi in the Burger King on my last day of work. *Roars* I miss meeting up with all of you. Ahhh ! When I looked back, working isn't really that bad anymore, at least I get to meet up with them often. :)


Camp is coming in 3 days time. I wanted to finish up my D&T before the camp starts but I think it's all futile attempt to have that wonderful thinking. At least, I hope to finish at least about 3/4 of it. *Pray hard* :)


Some Random stuffs - I went to the market to have lunch with Nicholas, Ziyou & Jiasheng. So, Ziyou wanted to skip the D&T lesson but Jiasheng was very determined to go for it. Ziyou was trying all his means to psycho Jiasheng to go home with him while Jiasheng kept trying to psycho Ziyou to go for the lessons. Nicholas & I just kept walking to the school. In the end, Ziyou had no choice but to join us for the lesson. xD ! Silence can still bring some help too instead of wasting the saliva on trying to psycho Ziyou to go. =X This is what we had meant, "Silence is golden".


So it's Jashawn's birthday today. I had wished him and we had chatted alittle about studies. I didn't know that he could study so well. =X When we were together, I often have to question him this and that about math. Some of it, he had totally forgotten about it. While those that he had taught me, had seriously carved inside my heart. =X That's why, it's always good to have a boyfriend. When the two of you broke up, all the things you had done together, you will remember. =X So the moral of the story is : Get a boyfriend who can teach you in your studies and then asked him to break up with you after he had finished, so everything will be carving inside you forever. =X Just kidding !


Ahhh, tired.. :) Nights ! I had killed my FIRST person in DOTA after a couples of games. Tsk. =X


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Monday, June 04, 2007

I'm not blogging tonight. I've been too sick. Some random stuffs - I didn't know that Jinghao & ZhiQiang could shoot people so well. Tsk. And, I had changed my character in the skit, but I'm supposed to be pulled away on the hard ground on the actual day too. Tsk. Nights~


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Sunday, June 03, 2007


I just want to feel loved.


Please allow me to be rebellious. I've allowed you to come into my mind again. I wanted to get rid of it but you just walked into my mind so naturally. I didn't purposely let it come across my mind, you just came. I've been feeling blue because of the various stuffs and partly, it was you. No, you didn't do anything wrong. I just missed you. I'll try to let all the tasks to take over me, so I'll be able to tuck you out of my mind.


I've been watching youtube for the whole day. LuoZhiXiang is just so cute. My obession for him has increased greatly. Now, I know what criteria I wanted in a boyfriend. I could find everything in LuoZhiXiang. He's just so perfect. But well, fat hopes !! At least, the way he love a girl, could let me get so obessed with how he handled a relationship. Aha, but to other girls, just too bad. He's mine. =X *Imagination*


At night, SBM people passed by my house and they saw my dad & me. That was what Chufeng had said, but Wencai said that he only saw my dad. Yeah, that's what I called Fated with the SBM people. :) I believed that the friends I made there could last life long. Let's hope it comes true. :)


There's school tomorrow. Damn~ I hate school. I hate waking up early. I hate to be sick. I hate to drown myself in books and died. I hate everything I had in school. Tsk~ Schedule for tomorrow will be School, D&T & SBM. My life is so simple now. I want something special to happen ! I want to do loads of things. I want to shop, I want to play, I want to do anything I wanted now. But, I couldn't find any time. SBM camp is coming up. People are getting so busy over it. I can't sit there and do nothing at all. School is killing. I didn't expect it could be such tormenting being a typical Secondary 4 teenage girl. Something to be able to console me is that, at least I could have some time out with my own friends. Usually, I will be spending my Saturdays with the guys. Somehow during this week, they were busy, so we didn't manage to meet. =(


I'm turning in now. :) Nights my dear~







I hate to sit in the corner and pretend I don't love you.


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Saturday, June 02, 2007

I'm sick. It felt terrible. I should have stayed home to rest. I hope I don't die tomorrow. I've been really quite down on luck recently. I don't know why. But hell, I can't do anything at all anyway. And, I'm feeling freaking like hell with the burning sore throat and the feverish body. Life's been not so great recently. I'll make it better soon. I guess I didn't have enough rest & water and that's the reason why I felt sick today.


I'm so sick. Someone please take away my pain. =(


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I'm rather tired now. We stayed overnight yesterday. John was accompanying me the whole night. He taught me how to get out of school by doing something to the gate. =X So we ended up, we had MacDonald in the middle of the night. :) Some creepy stuffs happened, I thought I was the only one who heard it. But when I asked all of them the next day, they had the same experience with me ! Damn~ I hate to have camp in school. Initially, I thought it was my illusion, but when the second time I heard the weird sound, I know it wasn't. So yeah, some weird stuffs happened to Huiwen & Dawn. Liked their Walkie-Talkie went out of battery so quickly. I told them old block is not a good place to play but well, seniors still wanted to go on with it.


I was stationed in the basketball with RongYan. We were so frightened when the game started. Imagine, the two pathetic girls were sitting in the middle of the basketball court. -.-" But then, the NCC guys came and had their basketball match, so we sort of had some company. =X I sweared, I'll never scare people in the old block anymore, it's not funny at all.


John was trying to scare me with all his stories. I don't know if it was true, but it's better to believe than to not be bothered. My cellphone's battery ran out, so we ended the talk. I was sitting with the guide sisters. I heard some sound, so I thought it was just illusion. Everyone went quiet. I thought all of them heard it, but suddenly someone talked and then they continued their conversation. -.-" So, i really thought it was my illusion. The next time when I heard it, I just pretended I did not hear anything. SzeHui said that she saw some shadows in the computer lab there. Luckily, I didn't look around. I didn't want to look around at all. The one and only time that I saw "thing" was enough already. But ended up, I heard the sounds. -.-" Damn~ I really hate camps which were held in school. Please do not give me any such camps anymore.


I'm so tired now. Yet, I still have to rush down to SBM to help out with the camp stuffs. I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm sleepy. I'm drained. I'm fatigue. Ahhh ! I'm so sick that I didn't join the guides for the remaining games today. I felt terrible please. Roars ~ Oh right, I'm supposed to get prepared and join them now. :) Goodbye~


I'm lost.
What are you thinking about?
What are you driving about?
What was all those about?


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