Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Walao..
I tell you ah,
I really really almost died.
Walao. I don't want take motorbike anymore.
Last time, no moreeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Kiasinang.com.sg/motorbike
Alright lah, actually it was me who suggested baby to ride bike send me home.
So as to help him save money from all the cab fare and everything. Tio bo!
But ah, walao. I risked my life. LOL!
However, seriously, he rode it at a super duper slow speed.
But still, I think pavillion in a bike is not in my blood.
No more bike ever since that accident.
Enough already narhh~
I used to like the wind hitting onto my skin,
but now, walao when the wind starts to get slightly bigger,
I knew he rode a little faster & I got scare a little bit more. LOL!
Guess, I really have to wait for baby's driving license.
Since I won't be able to overcome that phobia anymore. =/
Bike kills. Cause it almost kills Chufeng & me. LOL!
I know it's kaykiang lah that time.
But still, phobia lehhhh~
Even Chufeng also don't want learn bike anymore. LOL!
Kiasinang.
Because my heart almost stopped just now.
Tsk. I'm so damn loser. LOL!
So yeah, went SPCA with baby & zisiang.
Damn bo liao lah that place.
Waste time one. LOL!
Don't think of going,
it wastes time only.
But I like that dog - Monty.
It's a cross Husky. Damn cute.
Blahblahblahblah.
We went Toapayoh,
had our lunch there.
& back to baby's place.
Slacked slacked slacked.
JinQuan came & slacked.
Dinner & watched movie - Painted Skin.
Okay lah, the movie quite nice lehhhhh.
But but but, the guys say not nice leh.
Why ahhhhh~ =/
Quite dragging lah the movie.
Like the person keep cry, then cry so long.
Walaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~
Then bike home.
Kiasinang.com
LOL kk loh.
Bye!~
12:49:00 AM
Monday, September 29, 2008
since the pictures take up a lot of space. =)
Enjoy eh!
And most of the time, I'm not in the photos,
since I'm the photographer. =(
No photos of me. =(
Okay lah, anyway,
since I"m the photographer,
I didn't bother about my image lah. LOL!
Since I won't be captured anyway. xD
So down with all the messy hairs.
Just bear with it lahhhhhhhh~ =)
Lawrence, Wencai. =D But my hair damn messy. Tsk.
ZHENFENG & AUNTIE =D
Hong Tou Jin & The Kachiang Putehhhh~
MICHELLE & CLORINE. =)
My hair forever messy one. -.-"
HELLO! =) Look at lawrence's typical smile. Damn cute!
Chufeng bullied me! The typical ah beng in the 50s-60s. =/
Yet I still look very very happy leh. -.-"
Ding Ding Tang. :)
Kaiwen looked really like he's carry heavy things,
but but... Raymond... =.="
Tingting&Clorine!
Looked damn opiang~ =/ Raymond Kaiyi!
Group photos! :) Cute horrrrrr~
MR DU ZHENGLIN! :)
Kaiyi looked damn nice here. =D Candid shot ehhh~
The typical policemen in their shorts. xD
The couple. And see the malt candy on Lawrence. xD
It's so typical him norh~
Fallen angel doing massaging? =/ Wrong era ?
Hong Tou Jin, Kachiang Putehhh~, Waterboy.
Typical Ah Bengs bullied Chen Jian Ping?
Policemen catching the ahbengs. LOL!
SMART AH ? Cause I took this photos one. xD
YeowChong the waterboy. :)
Kachiang Puteh & Icecream gangs. LOL!
I think this is the best shot I took yesterday. =/
Cute sisters. =)
Finale. :)
Random shot of my boy! :)
And anyway, I didn't join SBM in the PKS. =/
Couldn't wake up you seeeeeeee~
Walao. I think I'm CMI now.
My alarm didn't ring. Tsk.
So people, view my SBM's blog,
and you will understand what they are doing. =)
Yes, publicity for camp ! Camp is coming~ =)
www.sbmyouth.blogspot.com
Next, met up with them at Junction 8,
Alvin came over to fetch me & off we go. =D
Had Pastamanias with the rest & talking session start. =)
Yeah, all the comments came out. LOL!
They say I'm an emo girl.
Okay lah, not so emo already leh. =/
Cause after the NSK thing. I think I'm so much happpier can.
Just that, I really miss the SBM past mah~ =(
And and, they say I looked perfectly fine when they see me,
yet always read my blog, I'm so emo loh~
Then I start to ponder,
where got people showed people that they are sad one.
Tio bo. Siao de. Imagine whole day with a sad sad person beside you.
Walao. -.-"
Then then, NSK thing has passed for few months.
Nothing much to comment about that.
You'll know if you see my past post. LOL!
Damn dramatic sia. The trauma LOL!
But aiya, what's bygone let it be bygone. =)
So now, I just realised.
Many people reads my blog,
and then from there, they knew how was I.
LOL! But no more emo already lahhhhh~
Walaoooooooooo~
And yeah, after everything,
took bus with Pearly & Xinyi.
I'm the last to alight at the last stop.
Damn uber sad. I reached so early loh.
Waited 2 hours for baby~ LOL!
But never mind lah,
at least I did myself meaningful,
I bought my hair accessories,
and went to borrow some books.
& off to the interchange to wait for him.
Luckily, I have my books with me,
imagine no books with me,
& I'm to wait for 2 hours.
Walao, I rather you kill me.
Blahhh, went over to his place.
Watched TV, sleep.
Then meet JinQuan,
& home. LOL!
Time flies lah. =/
Okay byebye. =)
SPCA tomorrow with baby. =)
Who wants join,
call me norhhhhh~! =D
Bye!
12:59:00 AM
Sunday, September 28, 2008
I'm feeling very dead after the whole concert today.
And yeah the music for our 50s-60s are great. =)
"你，我一见你就讨厌，再见到你我就更伤心，
你要带我走，我就跟你把命评"
LOL!
Yeah, took many many photos.
But I guessed, it's rather too big.
& I didn't install any photoshops anymore ever since my formatting.
So yeah, got to be very very boring post again. =/
But I just posted a few photos, at least bring a little lively to my blog. =)
And I tried to upload photos now, it seemed that it's taking donkey years to be uploaded.
Tsk. How long more siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
And seriously, I think I look like ghost. =.="
Cause, the costume really looked terrible on me,
but yet I still gets loads of good comments. Weird.
I still feel terrible in it. Tsk.
Oh ya, did I mention about F1?
F1 is irritating the hell out of me.
Luckily, I didn't go and work over there.
If not, I got to be the one who curse and sweared!
For the whole of don't-know-how-long, you just hear "EEEEEEEE-UUUUU~"
Tmd. I tell you, it's damn damn super duper thriple quaduper irritating like hell!
Okay lah, I can admit, initally I got the anticipation to watch.
But when you watched already, and you see what it's liked,
and the noise it poduces are definitely hurting your ears,
and you still continuous seeing the same thing over and over,
I tell you, that's when you start to curse and swear.
Damn bo liao loh~ Watch one time enough already!
Or rather, watched for a few minutes, it's enough!
And and, I want to watch Quarantine.
I want to watch Mirrors.
I want to watch Disastrous Movie.
I want to watch Plaited Skin?
Looked like a lot movies to watch.
But well, wait and see how loh.
And Monday, going to watch Disastrous Movie with boyf.
hopefully, that movie is a nice nice nice show. =D
But I want to watch Mirror also leh. =/
I want to watch Quarantine also leh.
I want to watch the what skin leh. -.-"
Okay lah. Like very waste money. =/
Hmm, actually I have nothing to blog about.
It's just that I had been helping out in Hong Lim Park today.
The chairs killed me. And the most chairs I can carried at once is 7.
Nah, haven't try out with 8 chairs yet, but I think 7 is already very zai leh. =/
You can anottttttttttttt~ Tsk. LOL!
And, sighed. After the continous of carrying chairs for the past two days,
bruises are accumulating on my hands now. But it's alright. =D
And I tried to blog long long post already.
It's still not yet done yet leh.
I want to sleep already leh.
Tomorrow I want to try go PKS help leh.
But walao, the stupid photos not done.
How to sleep...
If not, you all tomorrow then see lah,
I leave my computer on to let it upload.
Okay okay? Set set?
Aiya u all also don't have any choice,
because choices are set by me ! LOL!
Don't care man. =P
K bye!
See you!
12:33:00 AM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
My first reaction was that,
he didn't understand me enough...
But my second reaction was that,
I wasn't understanding so much more.
I felt upset last night,
because there were too many emotions to handle.
Life is ups & downs. Emotions comes and goes.
So I just told myself I'm upset & then this upsetness will go.
& I went to sleep... Must be moodswings period you see.
But when I received his message today,
There were quite a number of thoughts.
However, everything just goes right back at my problem.
So yeah, tried to put myself in his shoe in all aspect.
Understood the problem, and well...
Hopefully, things will get better.
Whenever things cropped up,
I always tell myself, it takes two hands to clap.
I hope, at least in this way, I will try to see the problem in me than in him.
Oh well... =)
Hong Lim Park later.
Got to take a lot of photos back. =)
But I'm oh-so-tired.
& the sun is so bright today.
I really don't like the sun. =(
Sighed~
Oh my. I'm not gotta drop back into the emo periods.
Tsk. Back to myself soon, no worries. =)
On a brighter note, tomorrow is his bookout date.
Like finally after so many donkey years like that. Tsk.
& I seriously hope today is a fun fun day with pictures taking,
because I got to give it a miss to my SBM sharing today. =(
But well, got to make full use of my day. =)
I got to be happppppppppppppy...
It's all in the mind isn't it? =)
AND BYEBYE! :)
10:43:00 AM
things are smacking right in my face now.
I remembered funerals that I had went,
no hard feeling, just felt upset for friends who had lost their family,
but now, I'm the one who is going through the pain of losing a friend,
I don't know how people handle this kind of feeling,
but it still dawned on me very badly of the meaning - impermanence.
Perhaps, Liwei is the first person who I had knew,
and being quite a good friend with him, he left...
I know, as a buddhist, we have to let go.
Mabel's blog:
"Then I recalled, what Venerable Bodhi taught us:
It's not that Buddhists do not feel sorrow upon the loss of their loved ones,
it's just that they are able to turn over at a faster rate than others.
Thus, they are not above sadness,
but able to let go of these negative emotions and move on faster than others do."
Life still goes on.
People have to move on one day...
I watched the camp videos today,
missing the once really close bondings in the past,
but things do changed when time goes by...
Just as I watched the camp videos,
I realised many people had left our youth group.
Junhao, Alvin, Liwei, Fiona, Zihui, 4 mentors...
I don't know how others felt when they watched the videos,
but each time I watched the videos, it lingers back memories...
And that reminds me, impermanence...
& I, really miss the past.
Been feeling very down lately.
I don't know how to describe the feeling,
but I just don't know how to start talking about it anymore,
I don't even feel like blogging it down anymore,
like I'm losing the ability to blog already.
Sighed. I just feel down, no reason then...
& for baby side, can hear from his tone that,
he's unhappy and everything.
I tried putting myself in his shoe today.
Think a lot a lot already...
Sometimes, I really appreciate how much he sacrifice for me,
& I always felt so demanding like for everything.
Every single little bits, I do notice...
He knew I didn't like to take motorbike,
he decided to give it up for the sake of me.
He knew I didn't like him smoking,
he tried quitting for the sake of me.
He wanted to get himself inked,
but I just didn't like, & he gave the thoughts up.
He knew I preferred him not to chao geng in camp,
he worked really really hard for it in camp.
I really appreciate his efforts in everything.
& the least I can do is to listen to his advice,
to go home early, to not skip my meals, to try not to go out so often...
Perhaps, it's my paranoid, it's my insecurity.
Or maybe, I was just so down these days.
But from the tone of his, I felt upset...
Sighed. I don't know.
Never mind.
He'll be booking out on Sunday.
Sighed. Shall see how till then...
No matter how hard life hits me,
time waits for no man.
I got to treasure everything.
Because, I had learnt a hard lesson now.
Maybe, people just never learnt,
until eventually, they're faced with problems.
Humans take things for granted,
we thought things could be there for ever.
We always take things for granted,
we always bear grudges,
we always live with regrets...
No doubt, I used to bear grudges,
I used to dislike this person, that person.
But eventually, I realised, things just don't happen one sided.
It takes two hands to clap. & life is impermanence,
don't waste your time away hating any one.
When you are left with nothing,
by then, you'll then realised,
you used to have everything,
but you lost them...
& now, I really appreciate everything,
I have my friends with me,
I have my family with me,
I have my boyfriend with me.
But I also have to realise that,
one day, things will just go.
People lived, people died...
I don't want to take anyone for granted,
I lived my life up, I just got to love every one of them.
No matter, how much grudges I used to have beforehand,
but things do change as time goes by. People do grows up...
I've let go of every hatred, I've learnt to love every one.
I'll never forgo any one of them.
& I really thanks to my karma,
that I can get in touch with the dharma,
which brings me to learn so many things in life.
It's buddha who taught me to become who I am today.
I thank him for that...
Even if, one day I leave.
I want to leave with no regrets.
Perhaps, saying about leaving...
People will start to say "choy!choy!choy!"
But, life is uncertain, death is certain.
We just have to accept the fact,
accept the reality, accept everything.
Live like there's no tomorrow.
Because, you'll never know,
when you'll just leave...
I'll try to go back to SBMyouth,
it is the place where I grew up,
it is the place where I learnt my dharma,
& it is the place where I forge so many lifetime friendship.
For those who cannot find a purpose in going back to SBM,
perhaps, look into the past, it's the place where you used to grow up,
where you used to learn so many many things, where u used to help people.
Perhaps, you can find back the purpose. =)
Sighed. I'm still feeling so down.
Oh well. Till then, goodbye for now. =)
12:00:00 AM
Friday, September 26, 2008
I was doing some reflections while watching our past camp videos.
Shall blog more later after my dinner. =)
Sighed.
I guess I upset baby.
Reflection. Put myself in his shoe...
I realised many many things.
After dinner. =)
Goodbye.
5:33:00 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
The Temperance card suggests that my alter ego today is the Mediator,
whose superpower for negotiation lies in my innate ability to create the right chemistry
within a particular situation. I am a continual work in progress. I strive for equality,
balance and compatibility -- driven by my innate sense of fairness.
This provides a certain degree of predictability in my actions,
and is my recipe for success. As in all things truly worthwhile in life,
love is an art, sketched and painted atop a canvas of mutual respect.
Such a foundation allows only for the occasional brush stroke to cover
a mixed message or misunderstanding, and avoid use of the paint roller.
Take it one day at a time, valuing all things with such an openness as
to provide not only the proper balance, but to allow for proper action when needed.
___________
I feel very lazy to blog nowadays.
Anyway, so yeah, sent Liwei for his last journey,
couldn't hold back the tears at the Mandai Cremadatory,
everyone felt really really sad I believed, because everyone cried out loud.
I really tried to hold back one, but it just kept flowing and flowing.
The sight of seeing him going into the fire, and the door closed.
Sighed, you won't know how it felt unless you're there.
Liwei, Takecare.
See you again soon,
let us walk the dharma path together.
Life still goes on.
Time wakes for no man.
Treasure the people around you.
So after everything, went out with Zhipeng & Yinghui,
Zhipeng left to meet Selina Daddy, & we continued shopping.
Did not buy anything much leh, not much for me to buy. =/
So next, went home to bathe and met up with Amanda,
we went over to Liang Court's Partyworld.
Very very zai leh the place. =)
I got pictures one leh,
but now not using my own computer,
so I'll be uploading tomorrow. =)
Anyway, so baby called.
Sighed loh, saded...
Never mind.
Shall see tomorrow.
Hopefully, he did it...
And boyboy is so cute,
he kept want to come near me,
kept wanting to climb on to my lap,
and sat on it while looking up at me. =/
So cute lah seriously. =)
Boy's loved. :)
I'm hungry,
but I scare of fats.
So yeah, better no more supper. =/
But I missed my supper time leh. =(
Everyday go out eat supper one leh.
So enjoying life lohhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Aiyo, contradicting.
Manjusri Tomorrow. =)
Then meet Justin!
HUNGRY ALREADY. =(
Everytime meet Justin,
is like going out to eat one leh. Tsk.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
Okay byebye.
1:06:00 AM
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Out with Lijie, Jonathan & Sam to look for Alex. =)
Alex's fried fish bee hoon damn nice. =)
And we had a long long chat at the coffee shop,
the guys kept drinking & smoking. -.-"
I gotta die early. 2nd-hand smoke is fatal. LOL!
And we were talking about life,
there's so many things we talked about,
& Alex actually stayed in Aljunied.
He says he knew all the Aljunied people,
since everyone is linked one. LOLOL!
If not, then the others are too young already when they started all the nonsense.
But everyone has grown older & much more matured,
things that aren't supposed to do, they had also learnt. =)
And Lijie & Alex wants to have competition,
to see whose funeral has the most people. -.-"
Cute lah, but aiyo... Tsk.
Yadah, headed over to Shanyou Counselling Centre to have meeting,
had dinner with them, & we're meeting tomorrow. =)
Sighed, tomorrow is the last journey for Liwei,
we gotta see you tomorrow Liwei. =)
Please move on. You'll always be remembered. =)
You'll always stayed in all our hearts because you're special. =)
And hopefully, we'll come across one another again,
and walked this dharma path together. =)
Baby called at night,
but he's damn pissed off with his don't know who, platoon commander?
Well, didn't know how to calm him down leh, but eventually he's fine.
I don't know what to say also, felt so useless & helpless lah. =(
I hope tomorrow is gotta be a fine day for him though. =/
Baby, don't do anything silly I tell you. =(
And and I was watching at 11pm's show at Channel 8,
there's a lady who's called Wanling leh,
but walao, she's very bitchy one leh,
so materialistic, don't want her son because of wealth.
Walao, such woman also have, and so suay same name. -.-"
Okay lah, I know it's show lah, but walao still walao. LOL!
Luckily I changed name already, I'm officially - Siah Hwan Ling.
& I'm taking respect of my name. =DD
&& that Wenhui damn sweet loh. LOL!
He treat the Kaixin damn damn cute loh. LOL!
Okay lah, I know show again lah, but really mah. -.-"
Okay lah don't care already. I waiting for my Qian Nu You Hun already. =/
SO OK THANKS BYE ! =D
Sighed. Liwei...
Takecare, farewell.
See you tomorrow for the last time.
You got to overcome everything, every single thing.
You'll always be the friend that I'll never regret having.
Goodbye.
11:23:00 PM
Very true,read diary below. LOL!
HER DIARY
I asked him what was wrong - he said, " Nothing." I asked him if it was my fault that he was up set. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry.
On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behaviour; I don't know why he didn't say, "I love you, too." When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to Do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched TV. he seemed distant and absent.
Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed. I decided that I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep.
I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep. I don't know what to do.
I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.
My life is a disaster.
HIS DIARY
Today Man-U lost to Liverpool . Shit.
[[Extracted from Lawrence's email]]
11:20:00 PM
make me laughed until I want faint.
When can we actually have serious talk? LOL!
Oblivious Whale... says:
my ex colleague say if i tall enough she will jio me
Oblivious Whale... says:
hahahahahahaha
Oblivious Whale... says:
damn funn
Oblivious Whale... says:
funny
Oblivious Whale... says:
i still got market value
Oblivious Whale... says:
like a product is saleable
HwanLing - You're always remembered, Liwei. says:
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
Oblivious Whale... says:
but got defect
Oblivious Whale... says:
hahahahahaa
Oblivious Whale... says:
short
Oblivious Whale... says:
lol
HwanLing - You're always remembered, Liwei. says:
LOL u cannot lah. u gotta be thrown away soon if u dont' find one
HwanLing - You're always remembered, Liwei. says:
then become expiry one
HwanLing - You're always remembered, Liwei. says:
LOLOL!
HwanLing - You're always remembered, Liwei. says:
expired*
Oblivious Whale... says:
hahaha
Oblivious Whale... says:
tmd
HwanLing - You're always remembered, Liwei. says:
when's ur expiry date ah
HwanLing - You're always remembered, Liwei. says:
LOLOOOL!
Oblivious Whale... says:
out of fashion
Oblivious Whale... says:
hahaha
Oblivious Whale... says:
no expire..
Oblivious Whale... says:
its out of fashion
Oblivious Whale... says:
then wait another 10 years.. then retro... hahaha i in market again
1:25:00 PM
Haha, but well, guess was just all in the mind.
Perhaps, is that I miss baby a lot now.
And we've been talking lesser,
since he's using his friend's phone now,
his battery had went flat already. =(
& he had to save up some battery for few more days later. =(
Another 6 more days, I miss you.
Oh ya, did I mentioned?
Baby bought an Agnes B wallet for me,
before he left for his NS the other day.
I'm waiting for him to complete my wallet with our photos. =)
He's really really really very sweet. =)
Sighed. I really miss him.
Faster faster come out please. =(
Baby's trial run tomorrow.
Good luck to you.
Love you.
I hope he has a long admin time tomorrow. =(
Sighed. =(
I don't want to get insecure.
12:40:00 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Was browsing the MSL's blogshop,
and got linked into another blogshop,
and linked linked linked, become blogshopping.
But didn't have mood to really look into details,
until I saw this phone. =/
Damn cute.
But $245.
Waste money.
But I felt like getting.
But damn bo liao loh. =/
My whole body damn aching norh.
But I really don't want to sleep so early.
Since I really don't know what to do tomorrow. =(
I hope everyone is doing fine with the loss.
Images of Liwei is still vividly inside my mind.
Sighed.
On a side note, I'm having muscles now.
My arms are so painful now, & baby too.
He did so many pull ups & pumping.
Guess, both of us are really working hard in life. =.="
He says, time pass really fast in NS. But not for me what~
My whole body is aching. =(
And, I'm so proud of my boyf.
You know, his platoon commander will train him,
to get the best recruit during the POP. =D
And baby is working hard in his IPPT,
if he gets gold, he can book out early. =D
He said for the sake of me, he will go for it.
Wahaha! I tell you, I'm damn blessed. =)
And baby is like doing a lot of things for the sake of me,
he has not been smoking for 5 days now,
just because I really didn't like the smell.
And when he felt like smoking today,
he thought of me, & decided not to smoke again. =D
You tell me, how do I don't love such a lovely boyf. LOL!
Can't wait for your bookout! =D
Okay lah. It's getting really very late.
If I don't sleep somemore,
I guess he will kill me.
Somemore, my dark eyes circle is really so bad now,
and my eye bags are really really quite bad lah. =X
But never mind, at least I see time passing & money coming in.
Okay goodbye.
Liwei, how're you now?
1:50:00 AM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
You're always in our memories.
Liwei.
The AH Team.
With the mentors.
SBM Youth with our Liwei.
Girls with Liwei.
Teo Li Wei.
Rest in peace.
Rebirth in a better realm.
Condolences to Liwei's family.
I miss you who kept disturbing me,
You're always saying "Shorty!"
Or you're always, "Eat grass one!",
then I'll go about "Oi, eat branches one!"
He's always the one calling me shorty,
And I'm always calling him, "Giraffe!"
Like always shooting him, so tall for what. =(
Now, there's nobody for me to shoot anymore.
Liwei, Where are you now?
I told myself not to cry when I'm at his wake,
I really really really tried, but when Bhante gives speech,
my tears dropped. I really miss all the time,
when I became his arm rester.
And when we were walking in to look at him and gives our respect,
I cried even badly, I couldn't believe the one who suffer from cancer,
is our dear Liwei. It's been so long since I last seen him,
I went to Shanyou a few times, but I always didn't get to see him.
Liwei & I are fated to be friends,
because when it's like sometimes,
I still spot him and Cherngshing in the crowds,
and when I'm playing Viwawa,
we happened to be in the same game,
without each other knowing !
While he was using Reignn as his nick,
I was using wanlingx, so I was guessing was it him?
Because he had been using that for DOTA,
but I didn't dare to ask, and he asked if I'm from MJR.
Jackpot! He's the Liwei I knew.
I miss the waterbombs which are always so accurate to hit my head,
whenever I see him, he's always bullying me.
Liwei. Sighed.
Please reborn in a better realm.
You'll always live in our heart,
you'll always be in our memories.
I will always remember you this giraffe.
I hope you have end your suffering.
May the merits and aspiration,
will lead you to a better birth.
I'm sorry, I cried just now.
I really didn't want to cry,
but the tears just flow.
I'm sorry.
Please do not hold any attachment,
we hope you can have a better born.
Liwei, may you be well and happy, please.
Liwei,
You're always in our heart.
Life still goes on...
As a buddhist,
we should learn to let go,
life is uncertain but death is certain.
___________
I'm very tired.
Last night work till 4am,
and today I have work at 10am,
should have stayed in house,
but the room so smelly.
Signed off early with Pearly,
did tea ceremony, new experience.
Home.
Life still goes on.
Takecare my pals.
Life is just so precious.
Life is just so fragile.
Treasure everyone, really.
You never know, who'll be the next one.
Been too many deaths lately,
I'm starting to get afraid of another death.
Please, let all the people around me to be safe and sound & healthy.
People, take good care of yourself, really.
Life is really fragile.
Sighed.
Goodbye.
6:48:00 PM
Friday, September 19, 2008
He say for the sake of me leh...
Loves. :)
Anyway, I guess I'm gotta be so dead,
I eyed on many many things in blogshop.
Walao, shouldn't have been so kaykiang go see see look look.
Now, that's the consequences lah~ -.-"
I scared later I used all my pay for all the shoppings,
then I really really eat grass with my baby. -.-" LOL!
Anyway, I told him to share share grass already.
So that's should be fine. LOLOL!
Aiyaaaaaaaaa, Roar.
I having muscles ache already.
Too long no work, that's the pain.
But no pain no gain leh~ =/
Later still got work leh.
Wo de tian ah~
Luckily I listened to Lijie,
don't book so many days at one go,
if not confirm will die one.
& I really die. LOL!
I want go sing song,
eat good food,
meetup with pals leh.
But work work work.
Next week, I have already booked,
I booked the whole Monday to Friday,
Tuesday will be leave out to meet up with Laykheng,
& at night I'll be going for the Shanyou's concert meeting. =)
Zhenglin, I give you face hor, I go okay ! LOL!
And Saturday will be the concert already,
I hope I won't be that dead tired after working so long.
And and, Sunday will be baby's bookout. Woohoo~
Like finally~ LOLOLOL! Okay lah, time really flies lah.
And I'm working on this Saturday. =D
I see money money money.
I'm thinking of continuing,
but that will miss SBM. =/
Aiya, see how lah.
& actually,
I'm thinking of having a job in Bugis Street,
but their pay over there is like really quite low,
yet, it weren't be that tedious after all. =)
Some more, it's so near to my house. =)
And we can find own friends to accompany us. =/
Weren't that be really fineeeee~?
Aiya, see how also lah. -.-"
I need to go work in 15 minutes time. =(
got to endure endure endure through all these shits. =(
& oh ya, did I mentioned last night's event was crazy.
They kept jamming the food & we end off the wedding at 10.20pm.
Normally, we end very very late one leh, yesterday I died. =/
Char Lee still say it's shiok. =/ Siao one norh~
I so long never come back,
suddenly jammed until so fast,
I don't even have time to think,
don't even have time to care,
I just anyhow clear food. =X
Bobian loh, the girls eat so slow.
Somemore suzanne no space.
So bobian lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. =(
My arms are aching lah.
Tmddddddd~ =(
Pain si ren.
And and, RAYMOND THAM & YEE LIANG JIAN,
THIS SUNDAY GO OUT EAT LEH~ =/
I want eat lehhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
I miss eating lehhhhhhhhhhh~
Let's go lehhhhhhhhhhhhh~ =(
Liangjian call Raymond can?
You two plan plan leh. I working~ =X
And jio anyone who wants to join along. =)
And and, I want to bring home another Yorkshire Terrier,
I've got the really really urge to do so. =(
But I cannot go out of my mind. =(
Later mum will kill me for that you know?
But I really wish boyboy have another playmate. =)
Like that he will be as crazy as Angel. LOLOL!
The jungle dog so cute loh~ =D
Damn cute lah I tell you.
The other day, wanted to go SPCA with baby,
but we met up very very late & SPCA closed at 5pm. =(
Never mind, we still have chances. LOLOL!
Go there see see look look, see got what cute breeds.
I want to be a voluteer there leh, last time want help with Mabel,
but I no time, somemore she say the dogs there will bite one leh. =/
Okay already.
Time's up.
3.27pm.
Got to walk to Oriental now. =D
Boyf, misses.
Friends, misses.
MEET ME LEH~ =/
2:56:00 PM
I'm back from work,
and it's 4.28am now. =/
In an hour, it's baby's wake up time.
Nowadays, when he waking up time,
it's my sleeping time you know not. =/
I agreed with him that I'll sleep early already.
But still, I didn't. Roar ! =/
Anyway, today he can't blame me either.
Because I have work till 2am,
and we all slacked at marina square there till 4+am.
I'm still not feeling tired at all you know not.
I'm so proud of myself. LOLOL!
But yesterday, I never sleep early, it's my fault lah. =/
I also still kay kiang, go sms him early in the morning when he wake up. LOL!
Like that, he confirm knew I sleep very late one norh. =/
Oh ya, I'm damn proud of my boyfriend I tell you.
He's damn zai loh, cause he got a zai girlfriend. LOL!
No lah, jkjk. It's just that he got first in his whole platoon leh.
Seriously, I'm damn proud of my army boy lah. LOLOL!
NS kills people lah,
that's why I kept telling others,
don't find army boyfriend. LOL!
It will kill you lah. =(
But never mind.
2 years, will fast fast over.
And awaiting for him to POP. =D
He said, if he go OCS ah,
3 weeks confinement leh.
Tmddddddddddd~ -.-"
But never mind lah,
if he really go OCS ah,
I got a super duper zai boyfriend lah. LOLOL!
But he say he also can chao geng leh,
he can geng more MC to accompany me leh.
But I should be understanding. =)
So I told him don't geng lah.
Aiya, actually, we think until so far,
he still haven't finish his first two weeks. LOL!
He's not in even for a week yet,
yet we think so much already.
And Veron damn cute loh,
she reminded me it's 9pm already. LOL
And she told me 9 to 10.30 that period very busy one leh. =/
Luckily got stoppage, then at least can message him for awhile lah. =)
Anyway, I don't quite get use to working again.
So tiring norh, I wished I could die straight away ah. =/
But never mind lah, 不要跟钱过不去 =/
And, today is quite fun leh the turnover. LOL!
All the nonsense craps shitty. =/
Okay lah,
I should go prepare to sleep.
I can't wait for my dearest bookout. =)
He's gotta be really tired,
but I'll always be there for him. =)
Promised him, I'll accompanied him when he bookout. =D
And he got a long long bookout lah. xDDD
Happiness eh!
Oh ya,
I helped many many people book for next week schedule,
I really hope Ziyou can work with me.
& this Saturday, I'm working with Grace. =D
Yeah, it's a last minute booking one,
they needed a lot a lot people.
So I decided to go ahead and help,
since money lehhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Who wants to work Oriental with me?
& I saw many many people today leh. LOL!
So damn long since I last worked with them loh.
Then damn funny lah, our food presentation,
we all damn stress. =/ Lalalala~
Okay loh.
Byebye.
4:28:00 AM
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Fr3b has come out with a variety of samples now. =D
It's really really good. Please join me in this. :)
You get to experience all kinds of things. =)
And there's many events coming up for it.
It's free & easy to sign up. :)
User-friendly lah. =D
________________
I miss them. (:
Partyworld time. :) Lijie & Jonathan (:
Yuanyi's brown eyes. =/ Kiasinang.com
Pet Farm. Tiger, Heuer & Angel all inside. LOL!
My chocolates xD
Tsk. Boyboy always don't give me cute pose. =(
Anyway, I really love him. =)
Tekong's bed. So zai right. Like chalet like that LOLOL!
Tekong's scenery is nice lah. =D
Before her piercing. =D I know I look very weird here.
No make up lah. =/ I shuang can already. =/
Hiroshi's pierce. =D Zai one okay !
Most of the time, I don't dare to look.
So yeah, only few few pictures. =/
Yay! Lao Ma's turn. =/
Like very kiasinang right. =/
Eh, you see that needle poke-ing through not.
Kiasinang I TELL YOU! Tmd. I see also scare. -.-"
The two brave people. =/ Rock on~ :)
Hello earthlings,
Yeah, gotta go work later. =/
Boring, my dear also never work anymore.
And not many people are working there anymore,
so it's gotta be so boring. My Oriental pals,
I'm back to Oriental already,
you all want work, tell me eh. =D
Come back accompany me leh. =(
Somemore fast cash. =D
So no need eat grass. LOL!
Anyway, I packed everything nicely already.
& I'm bathe, prepared, everything also done.
Nothing much to do already leh. =/
Now waiting time to pass. =/
Or should I go back to sleep for another hour?
Aiya, tsk. -.-"
I'm feeling tired lately.
Like every now and then I'm tired.
So weird. I don't know why either. =/
I'm just tired lah. =/
Roar.
And sighed.
Never mind lah.
Tsk. Bo liao one me. -.-"
I just want to enjoy my life. =(
But time really will fly man.
& I'm starting to miss a lot people.
I miss Enghua brother.
I miss AmandaSim.
I miss Laykheng.
I miss my used-to-be Mogga.
And perhaps tonight,
I'll jio VictorTeo for supper. =D
After work mahhhhhhhh~ LOLOL!
But also don't know he sleep already not. -.-"
I also don't know what time I finish work. -.-"
Okay lah. Later then see how lah. -.-"
Oh ya,
I just realised,
many strangers read my blog.
They even tell me not to be upset. LOL!
I mean, heh heh, I just checked up my friendster lately. =/
So sorry strangers, thank you for encouraging me. =)
And thanks for those who wished me to be happy,
I'm happier now. =) Really.
Those who knew me well,
you can ask them. =)
I'm really happier now.
Just a little upset,
cause I miss my dear. =/
P.S: My dear girl, last night I chatted with you about it.
Move on. I don't want to see another similar mistake.
& of course, I don't want to see you getting hurt. =)
It's his loss for not appreciating you. :)
Okay.
I shall rest for awhile,
before I go for work already. =(
I miss my dearestlove. =)
Baby, you're loved so much. (:
12:56:00 PM
