Wednesday, December 30, 2009
I've been blogging lesser and lesser.
Perhaps, the problem is my computer.
And the worst problem is my internet.
I'm really fed up.
Gotta launched a complaint to pacific net.
If it doesn't get better, I wanna change service.
I don't care. I'm not gotta pay.
Lousy service.
Anyway, been really busy taking care of boyf.
He's recovering soon. I'm so glad.
Feel a very strong achievement.
When I finally can see himself washing his hair.
Hahaha. And he even tried cooking for me.
But gave up cause it hurts too much.
Still feel glad la. Plus been feeling loved.
But don't wanna think or expect too much.
Cause I don't know when it will change?
Don't wanna put my hope high up,
And see it shattered again.
I learn the hard way. Ha.
But these few days I really feel loved by him.
Nothing fanciful of surprises or gifts.
Just the way he kept wanting me. Ha.
And the way he hug me.
It's been really long since he really hug me.
Plus he would keep wanting to hug me.
It's been so long. But I'm glad it's back.
Really hope all these would last.
But well, hope when he recover,
He would still treat me like this still.
Haha.
Feel the loved.
School has officially started.
Been pretty bored.
Everyone is on holiday still.
But why tp chose to start early.
Crazy people who set the academic calander.
They ought to learn from other school.
I'm like still feeling of holiday mood.
Where got mood to study you tell me!
Okay la.
Want to go already.
Byebye.
Loves.
12:32:00 AM
Friday, December 25, 2009
I drove honda stream today.
It's like so big can.
Baby's dad car is seriously so different.
So much different from the one I drove.
And, this is the first day driving.
I feel so insecure.
Furthermore, the traffic is so heavy.
And I'm like first day please!!
And driving an auto car. My goodness!!
It's like first time driving outside.
First time driving on an ezpressway.
Hahaha. And stupid baby kept commenting.
It's making myself feel lousy la.
Saded. But whatever.
I don't like honda stream!!
It's so much bigger la.
Christmas eve was normal.
Nothing to comment.
I fell very sick during camp.
Till now, I'm still feeling sick.
Drank my medicine already.
It's making myself drowsy.
Must be the medicine.
That caused my driving.
Haha. Super excuse.
Whatever.
But really first time what!!
Saded. Don't care kor.
I wanna drive his van.
Muahahahaa.
okay, enough of complaint.
Next time then I elaborate more.
I gotta sleep already.
Goodnight.
3:28:00 AM
Friday, December 18, 2009
I really hope it stays this way.
Even just for the Lil tiny bit of things.
I would appreciate a lot a lot.
Simplest things are the one coming from the heart.
Thank you so much.
But all I hope was things to stay this way permanently.
don't wish it would change anytime anymore.
For second time, I'm gotta announce that,
I've passed my Tp!!!
The feeling is Shiok.
Wanna find cheong t c,
But he finished classes already.
Don't know if he working night shift next week?
I think he's the best instructor la.
Know what.
I thought I would fail.
Cause throughout the 3 revision lessons.
I've been doing badly. But the 3rd revision,
Cheong t c say I might have a glimpse of hope.
If only, I check my blind spot!!
Hahaha.
So it kept coming to my mind.
Now I'm feeling so happy.
I got my lil driving license.
Can't wait for that card to come!
I've another card coming in for good.
Now I know the shiokness of having cards.
Camp tomorrow.
Was supposed to upload photos of yesterday.
But well, after camp then.
See you back on 22nd december Ya.
With a lot a lot a lot of loves.
Driving rocks!
12:34:00 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
DRIVING LICENSE.
Come to mummy. =D
LOVES LOVES LOVES!
WOOOOOOOOOOOT.
OUTING TIME.
Let's go out with car. =D
5:33:00 PM
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
And the picture shall speak a thousand words. =)
I didn't post everything. There are more in FB.
Try looking for Zeming's photos ya. =D
I looked damn retro, damn lok kok.
Furthermore, I really looked funny lah.
I hate the big flowers on my clothes. =/
It's like so over done on the clothes.
Well, see for yourself.
Yeah, Zhenyu & Fuzhong acted the Monks. HAHA.
Super anyhow Monks sia. They drink coke.
They play around, they kick around. LOL.
So not decent monk sia. LOL
Only the old monk look more decent to me.
But he's just the actor. LIKE SERIOUSLY SIA.
The actors damn good at acting, when they act.
I STUNNED. =.="
Ok this is my first time seeing such a big video camera.
LIKE seriously. =/ Okay I'm sua ku. FINE~ LOL
Yeah, my sisters.
I really looked crap lah. LOL.
I like this. hAHAHA, 6 sisters share a husband.
The Wei Xiao Bao, but he yet to find his 7th wife.
The princess. HAHAHAA. Lousy him.
Think princess dont want him. =x
Super classic picture. I like the scenery.
The Japanese Soldiers, but why do they looked like toy soldiers to me. =/
Okay, that sum everything up.
Been busy the whole time over driving.
So no pictures. Perhaps tomorrow?
I'm going out with Shiying & Genevive and Siewhui.
So yeahhhhhhhhh, girls nights out. =X
K BYEBYE.
I want to have fun, joy and laughter.
AND WHY AM I SO FAT.
Angry.
Okay, I said I dont want to scold vuglarities already right.
Luckily, I didn't even type the damn word.
Was about to type it, and then I quickly stopped.
HAHA, this is the first step to success.
Baby little action made me feel loved today.
Okay lah, better than nothing. Loves.
This is another first step to success. HAHA.
Hope it stays this way.
Perhaps it feels really small to others,
but it meant a lot to me. =D
But seriously, he's like so shiok.
I been helping him throughout today. =X
Washing his hair, wiping him, wash face.
HAHAHA. He really poor thing lah my love.
Okay lah, I want to sleep already.
Gotta wake up super early to accompany him to polyclinic.
Don't like how he suffered. =( Really seriously don't like to see him like that.
Pray hard, he would be safe next time.
Okay bye.
1:31:00 AM
Monday, December 14, 2009
Say that I always force him to meet me.
Then how about him, because of friends.
When did we actually went dating last time?
That's like more than half year ago pls.
Aiya, forget it la.
Say I very irritating always follow.
Shit kind of boyf.
Seriously la, don't bring me out.
try to acc him to meet friends,
So he can go out with both.
But look la. Seriously.
I cried Damn badly in Bukit panjang.
Was crying worst in bus.
Lucky I have friend who are there.
Just because his friends say I troublesome.
He also join in the fun, like seriously.
I really hate this kind of guy.
I think he's the worst boyf ever.
Seriously. I'm like really give up hope sia.
Look how he treated me. I never say,
Doesn't mean I've forgotten.
For your information,
I remember everything,
Every single particular thing.
I won't forgive you.
Totally not.
I can smile and laugh with you.
But my heart has already died.
You're not the boyf I wanted.
I want a boyf who love me.
Won't do things to upset me.
Know why I always find you in your free time.
Cause I freaking scare you two time again.
I'll never forget that pain you ever gave.
No matter how I tried to forget,
The things you do, just never seem sincere.
How could I trust that you want to work it out
I'm tired.
extremely tired.
You're seriously,
gone case.
Empty promise. Insecure.
No caring for me.
no dating.
Not sincere.
Forget it.
If you dare to do those things to me,
Then don't be irritating to stop me from telling
I think I've tolerate enough the nonsense.
I won't tolerate anymore.
Don't love me then forget it.
I don't think I ever need people to hurt me.
if you say you would change,
Then freaking mean it.
11:49:00 PM
It happened rather recent. I guess a week ago?
I was really bored because baby was sleeping.
And I lied beside him, then he woke up.
And we started chatting.
Then suddenly he asked me,
eh, you never go catch the person meh?
Then I huh? Catch what person?
*Blur look*
Then he continued
"There that person who sell chewing gum"
Then I was like stunned, what chewing gum person sia.
LOL, In the end he suddenly shocked also,
then he was like saying, eh what am I talking.
HAHAHA
Then I kept pestering him to tell me,
but he don't want. LOLOL super funny.
I think he dream talk throughout with me loh.
Only realise it when he shocked dao that he anyhow talked.
HAHAHHAHAHA!
Super cute lah. =D
K BYEBYE
11:57:00 AM
Yeah, now the only one attached.
So the extra one become troublesome.
Just don't like this feeling.
But well, what to do.
Ultimate choice is others.
Friends or partners.
Different people as different perspective.
Some thinks that the friends are much more important,
whereas others are thinking that the partners are the more important one.
Who knows.
Who would care.
Who would bother.
Nahhhhhh~
Time.
Spare some time.
Rather letdown.
Sighed.
11:00:00 AM
I don't like to see that pissed off face.
Just don't like to see baby's being impatient.
Don't know why, it just makes me feel roar.
After chatting with Alicia of her problem,
made me thought of my ugly past,
and I just really feel agitated about it.
I can really really really forgive every mistakes,
but I would never forget any mistakes. Never.
No matter how much I tried, it just won't help.
Got even more pissed off when baby joked.
Was hoping he would like say NO can't.
But well, I know it's a joke.
But at that moment,
that rage, that anger,
just make me wanna stomp off.
After stomping off, called them to like join us,
but baby didn't want, so was feeling even more sian,
like meet awhile sia. After that, then I realised it's because his arm was painful.
I really really really didn't know, until he reached home,
and he gave me that irritating voice and conversation.
Kept kapping my phone norh.
Say what don't want to talk at all.
Like what sia.
=X And being the mean me, before baby left,
and baby stopped at the traffic light that time,
and you know what I do, I pointed middle finger at him sia. =.="
What the crap I did. -.-"
Seriously lah, how mean can I be sia. -.-"
Like super mean cannnnnnnnnnn!
But I was angry at that time la.
DAMN MEAN LAHHHHHHHH!
Why did I even do that sia. -.-"
Angryyyyyyy at myself.
And when did I become so vuglar.
I think I became damn vuglar,
started from school. =/
Cause I always got pissed off with don't know who.
And I would just automatically said, "FUCK YOU".
I only scold vuglarities when I'm very pissed off.
But, I got pissed off for so many times,
it just become like everyday term sia.
BADDDDDDDDdd~
I gotta change myself.
Like seriously honestly.
K, no more F-U-C-K already.
Ha, that's all I ever scold. =/
Okay, perhaps Asshole too. =/
Okay fine, I change that too.
K OTHERS NOT COUNTED AH.
I didn't scold already k.
I only at most scold TA MA DE. =/
K let me curse for that lah.
If not next time angry, then
EH &*(#$&@(, I can only use icons. =/
Anyway, don't bother to see where I go.
Heh heh, don't want tell you leh.
HAHAHA, no lah, I spent the whole morning & afternoon with SBM.
Helping out our dear Shixiong in his FYP. =D
Acting is really tiring lah, I really don't like to be an actor.
It's just not in my blood lah, some people really can act well.
But, I really can't. Abit abit, I feel damn tired.
I hope the videos goes well.
I'm so proud of Shixiong being the director.
HAHAHA, been playing a lot with Pearly.
Act scare, run around. Hahaha. Crap sia.
Okay lah, it has it's fun and exhaustion equally.
But still, I don't like the exhaustion that comes with it.
After that, took Zeming's car back to Bugis and meet up with the others.
Then dinner with them, and met baby & gang.
After chatting awhile, they left.
So, I went to sit at one corner and chit chat with Alicia.
Didn't know she went through so much. =)
Relationships are sometimes a hazard.
Nah, I never like hazardous stuffs.
I think it really needs the guy part to do his part.
I mean, girls can only do that much into this relationship.
Ultimately, to maintain it and balance it, it's still the guy call.
If they are not bothered about the girl, then why bother?
Just hope baby could like change for the better.
That's all I ever wished already.
And also his quick recovery. =)
Time to sleep.
I'm really really tired.
Waking up at 6am is no joke.
I haven't been waking up at this time,
since like god knows when.
Not including camp though.
Okay byebye.
Don't make me lose all hopes,
before it's too late.
12:24:00 AM
Thursday, December 10, 2009
But no money alr then how.
Can't even buy christmas present.
Broke till like that.
Still what to do.
I want to work just for money sake.
That's so like not much motivation for me.
I really want my grade 8 practical cert.
But I failed again and again.
If I passed, I would have teach piano now.
Sickening.
This is the last time I would believe he change.
Not the short term one, but long term.
Don't disappoint me. Not again anymore.
Hate to have hope high up,
And smashed on floor the next moment.
I just know what I want now.
And I know I would go for it.
Happiness is within reaches.
I believe I've never been a demanding girlf.
I just wanted quality time with boyf.
But he always either sleep his time off,
Or just watching tv.
We never sit down and talk anymore.
That how I miss the past.
Reminiscent the past is all I can do?
Is it? Mr boyf?
Sighed.
Whatever it is.
I'll just wait for that long term change.
I'Ve given enough time. Don't make me wait.
Loves.
12:10:00 PM
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
No matter what I do,
no matter how much effort I put in,
No matter how much I've change for him,
No matter how much I love him,
It just nothing.
Really worthless to him.
Say so much for what now.
Also don't feel like saying about this relationship.
It's just getting pointless.
He won't change.
No point.
He love his bike more than me.
He want to ride fast and say I troublesome.
He hate it when I move alot.
I really tried not to move alr.
But still, how responsible can a guy be?
Forget it.
He wants his freedom back.
Then take it back.
won't be bothered about him anymore.
Don't waste my time be sad over him.
I won't waste all my time on him anymore.
Gotta get back the life I used to lead.
He's the one who stopped me from going Sbm.
Now he's the one who wants me to go back,
Just because he wants to be with his friends.
How nice?
Forget it la.
I would hang out with my friends.
he wants me to not care about him.
I would do it.
Don't regret for the things he said.
Now, I would wash my hands off.
He ruined the relationship when I tried so hard to maintain it.
Whatever it is.
He don't care what.
Ruining it or not,
Doesn't mean anything to him.
Because I don't mean a thing to him.
Not being emo.
I just feel exhausted to do so much for a relationship which doesn't mean a thing to the lover.
Nothing. Yes nothing.
Pathetic it is.
never mind.
There's nothing better to talk about.
Me being demanding then think twice.
Who was the one that Heck care totally.
If asking from a lover to show his love is too much.
Then what's too little mean?
Simplest thing for love.
Still nothing to him.
Then never mind.
Where's the Wanling I know.
I hate how he changed me.
And now wanting me to change back.
He always giving the call to this relationship.
I'll wash my hands off.
Do anything he liked.
Just treat me as transparent.
I would do the same.
Love and hate.
It's just a thin line between.
I love you alot,
But I hate you a lot too.
Not care. Not bothered.
Don't make me hate you even more.
11:48:00 PM
On some random day,
I went out for supper with Weiqiang & Veron.
Pretty interesting, cause I brought them to Ice Cube.
And we were finding ways to reach that place.
Being the smartest Veron, she lead the way correctly sia.
I think she anyhow hamtam, but still correct sia. LOL
I think Weiqiang trying to be second Andy,
giving stupid expression. =.="
Veron forcing Weiqiang to take Cookie and cream.
SUPER FUNNY, die also don't want open mouth. HA.
*Slurp Slurp* MINEEEEEEE WAFFLES~
This one is super nice too, Veron's one.
This stupid banana dropped into Weiqiang's slipper,
and he just took up his slipper onto the table and slip the banana out.
Damn gross. =.=" Super unglam.
After that, we went to eat durian in Geylang.
But I forgot to take picture. Was pretty tired already.
Cause I had a presentation that morning and woke up like 6am?
And I went home like 4am? It's about a day without sleep.
So omg. Wanna die.
Maybe that explained my bad skin nowadays. =(
And again, another outing before exam.
i'm like so gone-case. I don't study when exams come.
That's like the worst thing anyone can ever do.
But I did it. Damn!
On a side note,
I had fun though.
HAHA!
Ninja Assasin was great.
Like seriously great.
Rain's body was OMG HOT!
Oh ya, did I mentioned.
ANDY FETCHED ME LEH!
From my place over to his place.
I wanna die lah, the way he rode.
Especially the way he cut in between lanes.
MY GOODNESS!
All I can do was to pray really hard. =/
I didn't even dare to open my eyes,
it was closed for sometime in the expressway.
Weiqiang said I should opened it and feel shiok.
SIAO ONE LEH!
We reached Andy's place.
And he saw his cat, Pickle!
Damn cute, the cat kept meowing to him.
So damn sweet, like realise the owner is back home.
I went to purchase a cat's food and fed it to her.
SO CUTE NORH! Ahhhhhhhhh~
I'm never a cat person.
I guess everyone knows it?
I loved dogs more than cats.
But this cat is really super cute.
So friendly and sweet!
After Andy's place, we headed to buona vista for meals,
then to Tiong bahru for movies - Ninja Assasin.
Super cool. Then, headed over to Flyer.
Flyer finished and I went home.
They went Yishun dam!!
Damn. HAHA.
Also not fun one lah.
Go there sit around.
Chey.
HAHA.
Kk pictures.
Weiqiang, Andy, Anthony, Baby, Ah Song.
I still think Anthony's R1 damn nice. HAHA.
That time Alicia said the wheel of the bike is big,
then I say ya lah, bigger than my head.
Then she said, it's like bigger than everyone's head lah.
LOLOL! I didn't realise. =.="
Poker in the middle of nowhere. HAHA.
But fun lah, never gamble lah.
just play. If not I gotta lose to Alicia again.
HAHA!
Kk. Marks the end.
Exams are over pretty fast,
and now I smelled Freedom.
However, there's this stupid Ader,
that was postponed to Wednesday,
that cut my freedom away.
Damn. Felt so terrible.
Baby's nights out tomorrow.
I hope he has time to meet me.
I want to watch Zombieland with him.
Haha.
Oh ya, FOR A BIG NEWS TO VERON.
I trimmed my eyebrow already.
No need drag me to trim anymore.
HAHA. My virgin experience to trim eyebrow.
I had one pimple over at my eyebrow,
so when the person tried to help me pulled the eyebrow,
I was like trying to tolerate the pain.
Hmm, first experience, alright lah.
Tolerable pain for me, not very pain.
Hope the next time round would be better,
not be pain at all. HAHA.
I liked my new eyebrow.
Woosh. HAHA!
But do I need to buy eyebrow pencil or something?
Don't need right? Won't feel awkward right.
HAHA!
Okay lah, I'm starting to be vain.
Damn. Okay. Bye.
This laptop is making me feeling hot.
Pimples outbreak time.
Damn it. Hate my skin now.
BYEBYE!
I need an early sleep.
TO clear away the pimples.
Bye.
1:15:00 AM
Sunday, December 06, 2009
I blog this post using phone.
Supposedly to study, but well.
I went out again.
At least Ytd I did studied over at Wq's place.
But not today at all.
I still went to watch Ninja Assassin.
We went buona vista to eat.
Then head for movie with the usuals.
Jessin and alicia joined us too.
Damn good. Alicia super entertaining. Ha.
After that,
head to flyer and played poker.
Saw bike gang I supposed. Hahaha.
More than 20 bikes over there,
feel so inferior. Next, home sweet home.
Got to study. So no choice.
While they went to have rounding..
So not cool without me. Hahaha.
Oh well. Study come first still. Ha.
k bye.
Pictures tml.
The bikes are in it. Bye.
2:22:00 AM
Friday, December 04, 2009
Love.
You expect it to be easy.
You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies.
You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it.
You expect him to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away.
You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans.
But that’s the thing, love isn’t a plan.
It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it.
Love happens, and it is so incredibly messy.
2:16:00 AM
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
I MISS WORKING FOR SINGTEL.
OH DAMN!
Like damn long loh,
actually can find them for job hor.
WHY I DIDN'T THINK OF IT!
School is coming to an end soon.
Tomorrow is the official last day for my term.
Yay, no more Ader & ITPM.
The feeling is so woot woot.
HAHA.
And project has ended.
Now we are left with the portfolio.
And 3 tests.
Woot.
Can't wait.
Gotta start working.
I'm thinking of going to arcade to work.
Or should I just turn back to banquet.
Next term is a much relax term.
Friday is off for me.
And I want to work.
Cause this term without working.
I'm so damn broke.
Pathetic.
I want to shop for year end sale.
But I don't have money. =(
Damn sad.
Hais.
Suan liao.
What to do.
Road is I chosen one.
No one will understand one.
Haha. Don't bother to guess.
K byebye.
Time for supper.
10:10:00 PM
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
OMG, I feel really fair and skinny last time leh.
YOU SEE my cheeks. Like damn skinny sia.
WHY AM I DAMN FAT NOW.
Oh damn.
I got to stop eating lah.
Duhhh, but I'm like can't help it and kept eating.
And I miss partyworld with Liangjian & Raymond & others. =(
Also also lijie & gang & my class & Amanda & blablbalblabla.
Whoever who had gone singing with me.
Omg, last time was like everyday also sing norh.
Crazy sia. But I like.
Now I know why I got so much money,
I seldom watched movie at that point of time.
I was the most outdated about movies one.
I don't shop as often but window shopping most of the time.
Now, I don't windowshop, don't sing.
Only movie, and I'm so broke.
Guess movie is an expensive hobby.
On a side note,
Ader test is postponed to Wednesday.
Yipeee yipeeee wooooooooooooot.
LOLOL.
Okay, but time to fight for SA & FIM.
Gotta only go out during Friday to meet with boyf & friends.
The rest of the weekends are to stay home and chiong.
My happy time would come. =)
Can't wait for holiday.
It's gotta be TP TP TP TP 1
i'm less than a month time now.
Waiting to be less than 2 weeks time.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
Can't wait.
May devas let me pass my tp.
May buddha let me pass my tp.
Poppi ahhhhhhhh!
K BYE.
9:04:00 PM
