It's been exactly a year.
Nostalgic.

So many things had changed.
Impermanence.

:)


Happy 2009! =)

5:41:00 PM

Roar.

Actually, I'm so touched. HAHA.
SBM people came over to look for me,
and we sat at the playground chatting.
So nice. It's been so long since I last chatted with them.
Really miss the time. :)

And I was stupid, kept being lied by them,
and I still didn't realise it was a lie. Stupid me.

Anyway, it's nice to meet up with them again. :D
Will join them more often if possible. =)

I'm so damn sian sian sian now.
Tomorrow there's drawing of lots.
Damn bo liao loh, go there just to draw lots.
Hais. Waste my time. Just for that little thing,
going to school and wasting so much time.
Roar. Waste time.

Baby had a damn high percentage of going to oversea.
Like damn super duper high loh, only 2 or 3 of them staying in local.
What the heaven right. We gotta be seprated in different country.
Long distance relationship, I wandered can we survive not.
However, he said I can go over to Taiwan to look for him.
Or he can come back to see me.

Like what he said, people take cab, take bus, take train to meet boyf,
I have to take aeroplane then can see him norh. Even further trip...
Then he was telling me of his plan of trying not to go oversea.
But I really don't like the plan... Sighed.


Anyway, we shall take one step at a time,
who knows, maybe he won't be going. =D
Just want to look forward to my new year eve.
It's a brand new year, 2008 gotta be a memories.
While 2009 gotta be my future, I hope it's wonderful.





Sometimes, I pondered...
Period.

1:16:00 AM

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Sighed.


I'm feeling damn upset.
My handphone drop into the toilet bowl.
It's my beloved handphone you know anot.
No more phone already.
I have no more cameras.

Everything seemed to spoil lately.
My desktop and my phone.
It's all gone.

Maybe, I wasn't as contented last time.
I kept wanting more and more, wanting hard disk & camera.
Right now, I only want both of my handphone and desktop to be well.
But I know, my phone is beyond repair already.

Brought my dearest phone to Nokia Care Centre,
and the person was really really nice in helping me,
but when they opened up the phone,
she said it was beyond repair,
since the motherboard had corrosion already.

Toiletbowl leh, you know how irritating it is anot.
Tmd. I never felt so unlucky in my whole damn life.
Maybe yes, the time when I lost everything...
My hard disk, my this my that. Sighed.
Gotta work more and more this time.
No more resting days.

Sighed.
I just wish 2009 would be better for me.
It's the last second day of 2008 and I met with such things.
How unlucky can I go ? Tell me?

Never mind.
It's the end of 2008.
Time to look forward to 2009.


My New Resolution:
To be a good daughter.
To get my grade 8.
To get a good result.
To be a good girlfriend.
To lose weight. Haha
(It's been years since I said)
To balance up my commitment.
To take good care of my health.

My 2009 Wish:
Happiness. :)
Family to be healthy and wealthy.
Boyfriend to be happy and healthy.
And hopefully boyfriend weren't be sent oversea.
Studies to be damn super duper zai.
Friends all happy happy.
SBM people will learn more dharma, and apply it in our life.

I should be contented with what I have.
My desire for material things are killing.
If I didn't keep buying and buying,
maybe I would have saved up a lot of money,
and now even spoiling a phone doesn't kill me too.



Thanks for people who had been consoling me.
It's alright. I'm fine. :)


I never ask for more,
I just wished to have you beside,
when the time that I needed someone the most.




I just felt like crying.
Forget it.

Give me a better 2009.
Please.

7:50:00 PM

Damn it. I'm gotta died.
I haven't finish up my written report yet,
and I'm feeling so idiotic right now. Ha.

Kill me please please please. Ah.
Gotta go to school for some talk and meeting,
then I'm going over to meet Dickson to get Jacklyn birthday present. :D
Gotta meet them all later. I'm so excited. Ha.
It's been so damn long since I meet them.
And I really mean, damn super duper long you know.
Ha.

I realised, I have so many commitment.
SBM. Boyf. CCA. Family. Friends.
Gotta know how to have time management.
No worries. When you get used to stress,
stress is just another motivator to you. =)

And I'm gotta continue with my report. So yeah.
Kbye. =D

My blog is boring.
I gotta do something about it.
Ha. =D

9:38:00 AM

Monday, December 29, 2008

P.S: Click the Nokia advertisment for me. :D
Thank you very much. =D



Sighed.



Had a tiff with baby again.
This time round, it's worst.
His words like piercing through my heart.
Sighed.

He said, don't force him to make me choose between SBM or him.
Sighed. I almost died thinking of it. Crazy quarrels.


Sometimes, I still wandered,
why do we quarrel so much over SBM.
SBM is the place I had been going there since years ago.
Sighed.


Anyway, don't want to write more anymore. Ha.
It's just obstacle, gotta get it over.


I still haven't start with my report.
I'm so damn lazy. Teacher is so damn bo liao.
I gotta anyhow do and hand it in. I don't care.
Roar.


I gotta start doing my work again.
Oh ya, I changed song today.
Quite nice ah. 3 new songs are up. :D
Enjoy ya.

I want to upload more songs,
but first, I have to wait for my desktop to be fine.
It's so irritating without desktop for me.
I prefer using desktop than laptop.
Since laptop is so weak, I don't want to burn it. =(


Alright. Nothing more.
I love you baby.
No more quarrels. :)


Kbyebyebyebyebye.

10:11:00 PM

Roar.


CMSK SUCKS.
You know what.
I have another project to pass it in.
And you know when the deadline?
Tomorrow. WHAT THE HELL.
SO last minute.
Damn.


And what's more,
MY CORE, was stucked in the desktop.
AHhhhhhhhhhh i'm going crazy. Damn.

Anyway, on a lighter note,
I'm able to cash my voucher later.
That's a happy occasion.

But still, Roarrrrrrrrr.
And and, I'm starting on my new blogskin.
I don't have any idea on doing a new one.
I want it pink again, to match my wall. Ha.
I tried different colours already,
like light green, grey, but I still don't have ideas.

And most of all, I don't have enough pictures to do up a good blogskin.
I used to have it all, but it's all in my desktop. So curse and swear.
Without my desktop, how to do many things? Hais.

And Brother asked me to get a new computer.
Since he said that the one my sister-in-law had,
was damn powerful, and you know how much it cost?
900 dollars only you know!
SO cheap.

If I'm getting that,
I have my brother to fix for me.
So how nice it is.

But first, I'm broke.
Officially broke,
and eating grass.

Hahaha.
I need to work.
Like seriously,
but baby say don't go back Oriental.
=( But Oriental good place to earn alot money.
Ha. Don't care.


Alright, mum has cooked.
I'm going to eat and then bathe,
then heading over to Oriental for money.
Yay-ness. :D

KBYE!

1:03:00 PM

Hello.
I know I haven't been blogging.
Ha. But what to do, it's quite some time since I touched a computer.

Anyway, so I've been busy playing and playing with the remaining time.
However, I realised, this week is an E-learning week. So no school still.
Ha. I'm so dumb can. Luckily I didn't realise it tomorrow.
And I have good friends to be there to tell me. :D
Thanks people. :D

I can't even remember when's the last time I blogged?
Err. The JB one? So yesterday I went to school for OH training.
Next, went home and get changed then headed to SBM.
And it's time for CHALET. :D

I was so excited.
Because we were back home.
It's Cranwell Bungalow.
That's where I had my first SBM camp. :D
It's been so long since we returned there. :D

I was extremely tired, since I haven't been sleeping.
So I slept for an hour or so in the room while the guys were playing.
Then went out to dance with the others. Ha. Damn exciting.
Eat, play, chat, sing...

After the activities,
we had committee meeting.
SBM's people had grown up,
everyone had to take up a role in there. :)
That's how interesting things can change.
If compared to the previous years,
I think SBM had gone through a lot,
and had grown up a lot over the years. :)

After the meeting, headed to the bbq pit to eat.
Chatted again, and still chatting and still chatting. Ha.
After that, went in to the kitchen there, sat down and chat.
Chat chat chat till I don't know what happened, I fell asleep.
Ha. Baby called me then I wake up. Ha.

After that then I realised, only left 3 of us sleeping on the floor.
Ha. All the others gone already. =(

Woke up, trying to find space to sleep,
in the end couldn't find any. =(
Blablablablabla, woke up by everyone,
then bid goodbye to all of them.
And went into the room and sleep.
Ha. So nice, got the comfortable bed.
Slept and wake up and help moved things.
Lorry back to SBM.

On the expressway,
our pot's lid flew. HA.
Damn funny, luckily it didn't hit any cars.
After SBM, Home sweet home.

And met baby at his place.
He cooked eggs for me.
Cause he made me angry.
HA.

He will only treat me good when I'm upset/angry. HA.
Say what, want buy ice cream for me, want buy hagen daz.
Then say what want cook eggs for me, cook how many also can.
Then still say what we shall go out watch movie, blablabla.
Ha.

And he's nice today,
he cooked eggs for me.
Before the dinner, I told him I want tang yuan,
and then after the dinner, he really cook for me.
Nice right! LOL!

But I'm getting fatter.
He's always feeding me.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Kk, I'm tired.
I have no school for this week.
Wooooooooooohoooooo~ Happiness.
Damn my desktop for screwing up.
My projects are all in there.
Damn it. Roar.

Okay. Done, and bye. :D
I'm really extremely tired now.
Yawned afew times, but I want to compete my blog.

And I blogshopped many times.
I want to go shopping.
I don't care, I gotta cash voucher tomorrow.
I'm damn extremely broke.

And I want go shopping because,
it's year end sales, everywhere is sale-ing. Ha.
I want, I want.

And I forget to bring my dye for baby to help me dye.
Roar lah. Hais. =/

Kk bye.

12:22:00 AM

Friday, December 26, 2008

Hello.
I'm back from JB. :D
Had fun over there you know.

I want to go over to City Square again.
Went over to many many place.
Jusco, Tesco & City Square. :D
Bought lingeries, grocery...
And I bought my dye hair chemical.

I was getting bored of my hair.
I wanted to perm, but many say it's ugly.
So yeah, gotta dye it then, but the colour is limited.
In the end, I chose one red brown.
In fact, I have no ideas what's the colour. Ha.
Since what it attracts me, is that it has a lot of treatment. Ha.

I'm just afraid my hair will turn too red. =/
That means, I'm damn ready for CNY. =/

Anyway, I really had fun in JB.
I want to go again...
And I want to rebond over there.
But the rebonding rate there, is expensive.
But well, it's better than nothing.

Initially, I wanted to have my hair dyed in salon,
but then, in the end I realised, I need about an hour.
So I didn't want to trouble mum... =/
If not, sit there damn bo liao one norh.

So in the end, she bought me chemical then.
She didn't like it, since she wanted to buy organic one. Ha.
Anyway, I had asked boyfriend to help me to dye. :D

I bought donuts for baby.
But, I didn't come out in time to meet him.
So yeah, don't know if can be kept anot.
Or maybe I shall buy others donut for him.
I gotta feed him till he fat too.

Who asked him feed me till I so fat.
I got to return him too. Ha. Feed him till fat. :D
However, I don't know if the donuts can survive till Sunday.
Since I can only meet him on Sunday. =(

I'm going to TP tomorrow for Open House training?
Then, next I'm going to head over to SBM.
Then we are going over the Changi Chalet.
Woooooooooohooo. :D

Stayed over again.
Ha. I think I hardly stays home lately.
That's a bad thing, I think old habit is coming back.
But, I haven't been playing so much for quite some time.
So don't complaint niaaaaaaa. Don't careeeeeeeeeee.

Then Sunday, I'm meeting baby. :)
He's going to dye hair for me. :D
Then maybe I want watch Hotshots?
Ha. Monday starting school already.
SIAN.

Kbye.
Need to wake up early tomorrow.
Sian. Sian. Sian. Sian. Sian. Sian lah.


K lah, I go sleep already.
Goodnight. Sweetdreams.
Goodbye. =)

11:32:00 PM

Blablablablabla.



I want to have more sleep.
But I don't seem to going to have more sleep.
My dark eye circles, pimples, eyes bags all coming out.
Sad.

I should have slept early today.
But walao. And these two days haven't been sleeping at at all.
Then tomorrow sleep abit more, then saturday cannot sleep again,
since SBM having chalet. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Guess I'm turning super ugly soon. Sian.

And I'm getting fatter.
Went back to Oriental,
and people started to say I'm getting fat. Sian.
Complaint to boyfriend, and he said it's good thing.
Walaoooooo.

And Andrina bought me a christmas present,
a sign with - No Whining. =/
HA. But cute lah. This means,
I whine too much. HAHHAA.
Don't whine anymore.
Kbye.


HA.

3:15:00 AM

Roar.
My desktop is down.
I'm using my laptop now.
And I can't post any photos now.
Damn it.


Anyway, I didn't take any photos anyway.
So yeah, maybe take a look at yuanyi's blog?
Ha, we had the act-twit pictures on lorry.
We were so bored. So Fel & I started acting twit.
Both of us took our turn to think of the pose that we want.
Damn funny. I think it's damn er xin.

So I was reading her blog in boyf's place just now.
And I saw the pictures, quickly covered boyf's eyes.
So er xin pictures. HA! I wandered how twit survived.
Ha. Shho kutex w0rxz.

www.gorgeous-littlethings.blogspot.com


Ha. Oh well. Nothing much these days.
Been busy working and working and working.
Had a lot of fun after working, but it's tiring lah.
First day, I was doing the drink server for vip server.
Damn tiring. Nobody wants to give in to do drink server.
Damn sian, in the end I give up, just do drink server.
Cause the three of us were damn messy in it.
Felt so screwed up. Ha.

Blahblahblahblah.
Tuesday working,
I was the free man.
But the worst man.
Cause I was damn tired.
Ha. Kept helping the new staffs.
First time carried the sharkfin's tray.
Kiasinang.com

Anyway, better than we get a normal table lah.
So don't hiam better. But my legs were super painful.
After working, out for supper again. Ha.

Monday was out with Aaron, Lijie & Yiying.
We walked to Kopitiam at doubty gaught there.
Then Yiying came over my house to stayover.
Tuesday was out with many people,
Yiying, Tingting, Aaron, Yinan, Xing Gui, Kayak, Chloe. :)
We went over to Makan Sutra.

Yiying's phone was cute.
We were beside DXO,
so the music was damn loud.
And her phone was in the clubbing mode.
She dropped her phone that day,
I accidentally knocked onto her,
and she dropped the phone. =(
Then, her phone became clubbing mode already. =/
Damn cute.

After our meals,
we cabbed over to Pool Fusion.
Then they played pool,
I played abit, damn loser me.
So I didn't play anymore.
Sat there and play PSP. Ha.
And I was shivering there.
The aircon like damn free one.
Outside was raining so heavily,
yet the aircon inside was damn cold.
Roar.

Next, blablablablabla.
Home already. Ha.
Christmas eve, met boyfriend after he booked out.
We went out to meet up with Veron & gang.
The guys were talking about their army life.
4 army men sit together, you say leh?
Can talk about what sia. Ha.
Then the girls, talk about nothingness. Ha

Blablablabla, went over to Ian's place.
Played. Chat. Played guitar hero, Chat.
Ha. I miss the last year one, last year was much more fun.

We chatted from the past to the present to the future.
Then there was one time, we were talking about the the past,
with Yuanyi, Yinghui, Forester & Andrina.
And I remembered, that day last year,
Forester & Andrina and I were talking about the same topic.
Ha. damn cute. We were wandering if few years down the road,
will we be talking about husband/wife & kids already. Ha.

After the activities at Ian's place,
boyfriend came over to fetch me,
and cabbed over to his place.
I was having headache norh.
Guess two days of not sleeping is killing me.
And dad was complaining that I haven't been going home for so long.
Since I've been staying out late everyday. =/

Slept all the way till the cows come home.
And he cooked for me. Ha. Sweet boyfriend.
BUT STILL. I want complaint.

Yesterday, he cooked for me.
I request for one egg. He don't want give me leh.
BULLY ME NORH. Don't want give me egg eat.
Say what not good for health. =/ Tsk.
Then I request for two eggs today,
he also don't want give me. =(
Saded.

Anyway, his cooking skill is good lah. Ha.
But don't praise him, later he will fly too high.
Ha. After that, went over to meet Jinquan for another round.
Then slack at the playground for awhile and back to his place.
Next, he sent me home. =D

But he scolded me in bus. =(
Because of the accident that was one year ago? =(
Sighed. Made me feel upset again, because it remind me everything.
Sighed. Actually, I didn't mind about him scolding me.
And I didn't mind about the accident,
it's because I was the one who kay kiang one.
But is how guilty I felt after the accident...
I mean, I really troubled many people after the accident.
I'm sorry to those who I had troubled.
Many many thanks to all of you. :)
I still remembered who were there,
when I need them the most. :)

Alright, I'm back at home.
Yiying & Aaron dropped by my place,
and then slacked awhile and they went out to join the others,
to have their steamboat dinner...

Didn't join them,
since I don't want to grow fat,
and I'm going Malaysia tomorrow. :)
I want to go shopping.
It's year-end sales you know.
Roar roar roar roar.



Baby is sweet today. :)
But, he bullied me too. =(
Sighed, really don't like it,
when he scolded me for anything. =(


Anyway, it's time to sleep.
I need to wake up at 8am you know.
Baby is waking me up tomorrow. :)
Like finally, it's been so long since he woke me up. HA!
Nowadays, he have to wake up early to go for his army.
It's a good thing after all, haha!

I like his 8 to 5pm.
But means, he gotta spend a lot,
on transport, going out...
Ahhhhhh. Not good not good.
But good good good also.
AIYA. -.-"

Kbye.
Little bit too long for this entry.
Congrats for reading till here leh.
You are so damn zai. HAHA!

BYEBYEBYEBYE.



The world is so small.
You'll never know what will happen next.
You'll never know who and who is your who and who. Ha.
Guess, this is part of growing up. :)
Cheers. Take care. :)

12:11:00 AM

Monday, December 22, 2008

I had fun reading sbmyouth blog. Ha.
I always ended up smiling after seeing all the smiles.
I think this camp is a pretty tiring camp for me,
cause all I remembered is washing a lot,
and scooping a lot food, and running here and there.
And my legs were pretty tiring on the third day.
The pain was exactly the same one when I worked.
But I couldn't figure out why would I feel that way...
I mean, I really so busy till I didn't realise.

But I was glad, Vicky allowed us to play for some games.
Ha. If not messing is gotta be only inside kitchen,
that would be so boring. Ha. But at least, we got the chance to go out.
Though some things were screwed up after we went out. Ha.

Actually, whatever things we had faced,
and how much we had been through,
it's all worthwhile to see the smiles. :)

http://www.sbmyouth.blogspot.com/
Campfire pictures up. Ha.





Baby baby posted to 8-5.
Woooooooooohooooooooo.
But... I got a super bad news from him.
Initially, I thought his bad new was just confinement.
BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOO~ =(

He might be posted to oversea.
The longest he'll be posted is 1 year.
1 year leh. Say long not long, say short not short.
1 year leh. Walao eh. =(

And he might be posted out right after Chinese New Year.
Walao leh. You say leh. Sad anot. =( So fast norh.
ONE YEAR! Walao. That mean this one year,
nobody celebrate valentine with me,
nobody celebrate birthday with me,
nobody celebrate his birthday...
Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Army sucks.
Like that hor,
I rather he don't 8-5.
Wah sian...
What to do.

Anyway, he's out tonight.
But I'm in tonight. HAHA.
As in, I got work tonight.
Sian-ed. But money rocks.
I can't take my no-money day anymore.
Damn sian, want shop cannot shop.
Want go out also don't feel like go out.
Super sian de norh I tell you...

But means later must work work work.
Got to chiong these two days,
since I'm only working for two days. Ha.
I got loads of activities this week norh.
So fun. Ha.

Kk. I got to rest more.
If not tonight how to chiong?
Kkbye.

10:54:00 AM

Saturday, December 20, 2008

ChristmasMood...


You know what,
of all the events in the 365 days.
I only liked christmas, not even my birthday. Ha.

Don't ask me why either.
I just liked christmas,
maybe because christmas has a special feeling.
Ha, or maybe the weather is always so cooling and nice.
Or maybe the air that smelled differently?
Ha, I really don't know. I just like it. =)


So yeah, baby's place.
My cramp was killing me.
I hate the time of the month.
I was rolling in his bed loh. -.-"
In the end, he cooked maggie mee for me,
then after awhile I went off already.
He's angry with me again. =(
*doublepokehim*

Took bus with Cherngshing, Raymond & Zhenyu. :D
SBM TIME. :D We were uber early. :)
Chant and start debrief.

Nothing much.
Just unhappy with certain issues.
But it's alright. People have eyes to see.
Don't think I will have to say anything. :)
You know yourself best.

I don't want to comment too much in blog.
Ha. If not later blog war how. =/
Not so childish lah. Ha.

So yeah, after that,
train to Hougang,
went over for brother's housewarming.
But I went very late, so I went there to clear food.
HA.

Played Wii, but got bored.
Played DS, but got bored.
Played computer, but got bored.
So in the end, I slept on brother's bed.
Nice nice. Big big bed.
Haven't got to roll around in big bed for long time.

Now I'm home.
Too bored already.
Ha.


I like the weather.
I want to go out for a walk.
Guess, tomorrow, I want drag baby out,
to accompany me breathe in night air.
LOL! Sounds weird.

But seriously, the air at night,
is very very very nice.
I like I like.

Baby booking in soooon.
His one week block leave,
like he no need to book in anymore.
Like ORD already. HA.

Anyway, he's booking on Monday.
Just like Wufeng, Maomao, Ernest & Zhenglin.
So fast, everyone booking in already.
But, I hope baby got the 8-5pm. HAHA!
Like that good what. Tio bo!
We two also happy. Ha.

Okay lah. I need to start packing my table.
Kk byebye. I want to start packing my wardrobe too.
But I'm really very tired you know. =(

And my cramp's pain is not going away.
Hais. Very upseting. =((

Anyway, I did something meaningful.
I cleared about two cabinets of my wardrobe. :D
Left about two more to clear. :D

The others are left to put into the box,
and sent it to my stupid brother.
He always don't do his part one.
LOL! Suan ler.

Blablablablabla.
Actually nothing to write already.
Guess I go to sleep already. :)


Goodnight.



Sometimes, I just wandered.
Have you thought of my feeling?




Daily Tarot Card.

The Moon card suggests that my alter ego is the Magnetic One,
whose superpower lies in my innate ability for reflection, and that of turning the tide.
Today I feel like a natural woman. I am a goddess that reflects the mystique and
magnetism of women, rising above all boundaries. 'This too shall pass.' Shining brightly,
I will overcome empty promises in the dark and dangerous liaisons.
Enjoy the thrill of the hunt and the drama when your forces of
attraction are at their strongest.

10:48:00 PM

Baby's place. :)

Alright, been to baby's place.
We went over to NTUC to buy grocery?
Bought crabs and stuffs to his place,
and oh ya, especially ICECREAM. Ha.

Watched Hotshots. SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI.
I still stucked at Series 7. 9 more to go. HAHA.
Baby finished watching already norh.
Super erxin.

Anyway, SHUAI LAH SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI.
And baby today cook Chilli Crab leh.
But killing of the crab, I....
Don't know. I feel weird.
I really don't want to eat live things anymore.
As in, I don't mind picking those dead one,
but asking me to kill things that are alive,
just for the sake of my stomach,
I can't do it. =/

Watched Hotshot again after dinner.
Then before watching it,
he was watching his The Guardian,
so I was damn extremely bored.
So I camwhored in his room. HA.
REALLY BORED MAH! =(

Then slacked, watched the fish,
watched the guinea pig, watched tv,
watched him reading the newspaper,
and then home. HA!

Okay, nothing already. Roar.
I'm bored. =(
Meeting baby first tomorrow,
then SBM, then brother home. :D
Housewarming for him tomorrow. :D

Baby got his posting already.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
He damn cute lah, he so happy norh.
He still tell me how much he wanna go sispec,
yet he didn't get in leh, he still so happy. HAHA.
But now he is posted to damn slack one. ALSO GOOD.
HAHA, more time for me. HAHA. =/

His friends all say him,
why chiong so much,
yet got into one slack one.
HAHA. =/

K LAH. BYEBYE.
I go already.
night. :D

12:16:00 AM

Friday, December 19, 2008

OHYA, I weatched IPMAN with baby just now,
We went over to Weiling place to see her dog,
and then cab down to Bugis for movie. :D

The Movie damn nice nice nice nice nice.
It's baby's idol you know! :D
NICE NICE. Shuai!

The whole movie,
I shall rate it 10/10.
HA! Cause it's really nice.
If you like action pack lah.
And the war time, it's scary.
Sighed.

Love love love. :D
Knight.

1:57:00 AM

CEP SUCCESS!


After water water game...

2 Botaks HA!


First day rah rah-ing. To cheer camper up. HAHA!


CAMP CAMP CAMP!
Actually, I don't have the photos.
I only kop 3 photos from sbm blog.
http://www.sbmyouth.blogspot.com/
Not much photos of me lah,
cause been busy in kitchen. HA.
But I kept asking Yuanyi to take me.
HAHA =/

Anyway, camp is tiring.
Helped a few times for the game team,
had some great laugh throughou.

Like for example, on the first day,
we had the pouring water,
and throwing waterbomb game.
HA, Hangqi & Ian was disturbing the camper,
I laughed like mad. HAHA. Raymond was a joker.

Next, I just remembered being very busy,
and then ya, second day, we were busy,
helped Zhenglin for his game,
then blablablabla, busy with food again.
Then night game was damn funny.
Anyway, some weird things happened,
cause we were standing at the grey zone.
But oh well, it's over. Guess it's just my eyes trick. :)

On the third day, was playing the wargame,
nothing much funny, ha, I just knew Raymond got owned,
He fell onto the ground. And I also carry little kids and make muachi.
HA, roll them on the mud. HAHA. Little nicholas damn cute also.
HAHA. He stoned there after he was rolled.
Kids are cute lah. =D

On the forth day, we took lorry back to crabfarm & SBM.
and the lorry almost killed our VictorTeo. Damn that uncle.
Almost died of heart attack when I saw it.
Like damn loser, we are paying him loh.

So blablablablabla,
took cab with Zhenyu & Raymond.
Went over to boyf's place,
cause we've been quarrelling for 4 days.
Roar. 4 days in camp, all 4 days quarrelled.
Hais. =(

But well, it's sort of settled.
As I hope...


Alright, these few days been with boyfriend.
Cause he's having his block leave,
and if I don't accompany him more,
we gotta quarrel more again. =((
I don't like it. I don't like it.
Sighed.

Sometimes, I was wandering,
people still having honeymoon period even for one two years.
Ours already quarrelled so many times. =((
Hais. *Pokeyou*

Anyway, I'm starting to miss CEP now. =(
CAMP CAMP CAMP CAMP CAMP CAMP.
There's a number of post-camp activities. :D
Can't wait. :D

But I scare boyfriend angry again. =(
*Pokeyousomemore*


OH ya, auntie made oneh-oneh, damn nice.
Ha. Many many food damn nice from auntie one.
We cook many many eggs too. Guess around 500 eggs. :D
Anyway, I also learnt how to cut watermelon after this camp.
Ha, I know I very loser. But I really just learnt it leh.
I didn't know how to do. But after a few trials. I LEARNT IT.
Somemore, I taught Evelyn leh. HAHA.
Initially, I had a hard time doing it,
it's Yinghui telling me of her ways.
Ha. :D


And and, I had changed my blogsong to christmas theme.
My current playlist will be back next time lah hor. =/
Don't care you. Now christmas time,
I want christmas atmosphere. :D
Anyway, one more week only.
CHRISTMAS!!

Baby brought me christmas present already.
He so mafan one, cannot buy this cannot buy that. Tsk.
Anyway, got something on mind already lah. :D
So can lah hor. =/

And Bingru is going to Japan soon.
I told him to help me check out my DS LITE RED.
ANYONE GOING JAPAN, tell me alright. :D
I want buy DS LITE, I hope it's cheaper there. =D

Alright lah, I going sleep already.
Goodnight lah hor. :D

12:33:00 AM

Thursday, December 18, 2008

CAMP IS OVER. :D



But well well, I'm back I'm back. :)
Was a messing this time, but damn messy. HA.
No experience mah, three of us all no experience.
And I was gone to a ulu ulu place again - LCK. :)


Back to blog more later on,
I'm gotta have piano lesson later. :)
Then meeting baby later on.


It's Dickson birthday today. :D
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Sorry, I'm unable to make it.
I'll meet you up some day and pass you present. :D
And thanks for being such a great friend all along. :D
I'll never regret knowing you, and thanks for helping me when i'm working.
DICKSON NG DI SHENG. :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
Be happy be happy!
SMILE. :D



Piano time now.
Kbye.

9:51:00 AM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Yay. Camp!
In just a few hours.
I'm going camp camp camp. :D

I'm feeling damn sick now.
Had been having running nose.
& what's making it worst,
is my swollen eyes.
Now it's worst.
I got more ulcers.
Damn it.

Anyway, I'm done with packing of clothes.
My mouth very itchy. I want to eat.
But I scare fat. Don't eat better.




Baby & I went to watch Twilight. :D
Very good show leh I tell you.
I want give it 8/10. :D

But maybe for guys, you won't like it.
Cause baby kept cursing and swearing.
Tsk. Whatever.

I like can already.
Cause the story damn romantic norh.
If only boyfriend so romantic,
bring me go on tree to see scenery.

I kept telling him norh,
I want a vampire boyfriend,
you be vampire can anot. HA.

Vampire boyfriend is so cool.
Edward is damn cool, I like I like.
And the vampire got vegetarian one leh. HA.
Cause, Edward bought Bella home,
and his family are vegetarian vampire.
Which means, they don't feed on human blood,
but they feed on animal blood. That's what they meant vegetarian.
HAHA.

So, there was one of the family member,
the Alice's boyfriend or so,
smelled of Bella's human scent,
and kept giving that stern stern face.
Then Alice reassure Bella that,
her boyfriend just turned vegetarian,
so ya... LOL!~ HA.

I tell you ah, Edward damn cool la.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ *Melt*
Baby, turn vampire for me leh. HAHA.

Oh ya, also I spent the whole day at his place,
watching Hotshots. HAHA. Wuzun!! *Melt*
But he came out only a few scenes.
But still, shuai lahhhhhhhhh.

And Luozhixiang also,
*Melt* Damn cute lah him.
Kept making us laugh like mad.
HAHA. Hotshots is nice show.
Must watch.

Ha, I'm like the whole day watching shuai ge.
Boyfriend also kept claim he very shuai.
HA!

I go already narh.
Tomorrow got camp.
Need to have plenty of sleep.
Knight.

I WANT TO WATCH HOTSHOT.
Got to come back from camp,
and continue watching hotshot.
Haha. I know baby very sian today,
cause I kept watching and watching,
totally never care much about him.
Sorry ya! Love you narh. =D
Thanks for accompany me to watch. :D

KNIGHT.

11:47:00 PM

HAHA. :D



Alright. Paper was fine yesterday.
Or rather, it's sucks?
Hmmm, I'm not making sense.

How do I put it?
Alright, the paper do sucks.
But, since it's over, so it's kinda fine to me.
HA. Maybe that do make more sense. :D
Finally, I knew I'm not contradicting again. :D

Yesterday, was supposed to meet baby at my school.
But he went to take train instead of bus. -.-"
So yeah, ended up met up at Cityhall,
and had a tiff norh.

Walao. Abit abit angry. LOL!
So I abit abit also angry.
In the end, peace. HA.
Cause I very easily laugh.
So abit loser. =/

Alright, anyway.
Ate and shop for awhile?
Supposed to watch Movie - Twilight.
BUT, walao timing very wrong.
So, never watch.

Bus over to his place.
He kept having the intention of taking cab.
Whack you sia. =/
HAHA.

After his place, ate dinner,
and met up with Zisiang, Pinhao & Amy?
HAHA. ZiSiang Botak now. HAHA. =/
All the army guy now.

Baby also botak. HAHA.
Alright lah, can grow hair already.

Went over to Farmart.
They had dinner while I watched Tv.
HAHA. The xiaoniangre, the ou xuan very poor thing loh,
actually I don't know what's the story about leh, cause I first time watch.
But still, walao poor thing.

Anyway, after that home.
Cause they couldn't make up where to go.
Zisiang kept asking Pinhao to drift on the way back. =.="

My eyes were damn CMI yesterday.
Today, it's still a little bit swollen. Haha.
Saded.

Baby sent me by cab and cab home himself.
So poor thing, cause the cab uncle drove until brake & brake.
Want die already still brake again. HAHA.

AND, OH YA,
EXAMINATIONS ARE FINALLY OVER.
OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER!
HAHA.


But which means, it's time to pack my wardrobe.
It's time to put away my temporarily study table.
Time to really practice hard on my piano lesson.
And time for some activities. :D

CAMP TOMORROW. HAHA.
I can't wait. Really can't wait.
I swearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Good to have everyone tomorrow.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOO!
I really can't wait. HAHA.
Very excited you see.

And, I'm only going on Day 1.
So upset. They all left for LCK on Day 0,
which is today you know!
HAIS.

Junhao said he will come for campfire.
HAHA. I really miss the time when the 3 of us are good friends.
Jowell & Junhao & Me. I should changed my name to J,
so we had the thriple J. HAHA. But well, no longer so close.
But, they will exist as part of my life stlil. :D
And I appreciate them for being there all the time.
We always chat till the cows come home,
and conference every night.

And whenever lightning strike,
I will remember Jowell. HAHA.
She's always damn cute I tell you.
But, we no longer chat anymore. =(
Hais. Maybe that's we called impermenance.

I really miss the crazy time.
Really...



Baby bluff me.
Say come fetch me.
HAHA. But he's sleeping stlil.
Alright lah, I never blame him.
Since he's really sleepy.
And he won't see me for the next 4 days.
So of course won't blame.

I want meet POLY MATES LEH.
OI, Jonathan ! Organise TOP ONE TOP ONE!
LIANGJIAN, FOOD FOOD FOOD. LOL!
VERON, SENTOSA SENTOSA. HAA.
YUANYI, DSLR DSLR DSLR.
AMANDA, SHOPPING SHOPPING!
YIYING, WORK WORK WORK!
So random. HA.

I think they will understand lah hor.
I cant wait narh... :)

Got to start work on the 22nd. :)
Kasco called me you know anot!
Walao, so long since they call.
I so happy when they call me again.
But, I couldn't work. =(
$10 per hour leh. =(

Money money.
Gone...

And cousin's wedding is coming.
I'm looking for dress online.
All look so hawaii-type of dress.
Nothing for that sort of wedding dinner. =(

HAIS!
KBYE. :D
I WANT GO REST MY EYES.
I WANT GO OUT LEH. =(

Bye.

9:22:00 AM

Friday, December 12, 2008

HAHA.


STUPID FISH. =X


CUTE AH!


SHEEP MEh Clever. :D


STUPID. -.-"


EVEN WORST.


HAHA. LOSER.






WALAO. =(




I want die already.
So many mathematics.
Though I really like mathematics.
But it's really been such a long time since I touch it.
Even for tutorial, I never once did the work at all.

And for the class test, which consists of 10%.
I almost failed that paper, managed to secure a just pass.
That's how pathetic it is.

It's this course fault you see.
I joined FBI because I thought it's full of math,
but when I went in, it's full of IT-based and stuffs.
I hardly touches math you see.
Damn it.

If you don't know,
both my math & science,
are of a distinction criteria in 'O' level.
Though it's pretty easy for 'O' level standards,
but still, I got it leh. & I like math & science norh.

Anyway, that's not the point.
Back to my Quantitative Analysis.
So yeah, nothing much. HA.


Oh ya, I was thinking about my 18th birthday.
Didn't know what I'm supposed to do for this coming birthday.
I've been having consecutive of 4 years of unhappy birthday.
That's how pathetic. HAHA.

From 14 years old: I think the first 3 years are due to friendship?
And I remembered on my 14th birthday, Liangeng told me,
I cannot cry on my birthday, if not I will unlucky for 3 years.
But it seemed to me like every year like that. HAHA.

Maybe cause I cried every year,
so every year accumulate. HAHA.
And last year is the most unhappy one.
Where got birthday cry until so bad that
I really sit at a corner and cry all the way,
even while blogging, I cried so badly,
like those really bad cry.
HAHA.

Kiasinang.
That's why,
I never have good impression of birthday.
Never really look forward to. HAHA.

BUT, this year 18 leh.
18 is one flower. HAHA.
19 is one withering flower.
20 is one dying flower.
21 is one dead flower.
HAHAHAHA!

Okay lah, 18 leh 18 leh.
Legal for everything leh.
You want watch M18,
you want go smoke,
you want go drink alcohol,
you want go clubbing/pubbing,
you want go in anywhere aslo allowed.
HAHA.

Like being 18, is more for people who long for undesirable activities hor.
Like none of it really a need for me. HAHA, cause I don't do any of that sort.

Watching M18?
I prefer watching PG. HAHA.
OR OR, the worst one is already NC16.
All so bloody those already, still M18. Siao.

Then ah, drink...
I'm already somehow legal lah.
HA, who cares lah. LOLOL.
Though I don't drink frequently.
But still, no need 18 lah. Bluff one.

Smoke, I don't smoke.
Clubbing/pubbing,
did go for pub, but seldom.
SO HAHA, No use for me also.
Maybe go there see look look loh.
Eye opener you see. HAHA.

I remembered Enghua bro's word.
He claimed I will become very wild.
HAHA, I PROVED TO YOU. I WON'T. =/
EYE OPENER ONLY.

Eh, okay lah.
Say so much.
What's my plan for 18th birthday ah?
Chalet? BBQ? Clubbing? Pubbing? HAHA.
None of it really to my liking leh.
Maybe simple dinner with friends.
I felt like doing chalet leh.
But I'm a lazy girl.

Don't ask me to do all these.
If there's a group of people,
still alright lah.

But ALONE, walao.
Like bo liao norh,
do for your own birthday. LOL!

I usually is do suprises for friends.
Which idiot will do suprise for themselves one. -.-"
AIYO. BIRTHDAY VERY TROUBLESOME LAH.
I don't want birthday lah. -.-
I don't want grow old.
HAHA.

I'm still young young 17 girl.
Don't care.


TIME TO SLEEP.
VERY STRESS.

ESPECIALLY THE DBIS NORH.
DAMN YOU. SUCK.




Baby outside enjoying leh.
I'm stuck at home leh.
Veron going Genting.
Wooooooooohooo.
Hope she have a safe trip. :)

Baby, run around singapore like that.
I also want I also want I also want.
Very sad norh, I'm stuck at home.
I want go out breathe fresh air.
But CANNOT.

He says he bringing me out tomorrow.
Initially, he say he don't want go out consecutive 2 days leh.
How sad. Sighed. =( But luckily, he changed his mind. :D
GO OUT GO OUT GO OUT GO OUT. =D
BREATHE FRESH AIR. =D


I can't wait for exam to end.
YAY-NESS. LAST PAPER.
WOOOOOOOOOOOHOO!
BYE.

12:01:00 AM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

PLEASE SPARE 5 MINUTES TO READ THIS AND THEN FORWARD THE SAME TO ALL

AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY (TRY THE KEY WORD) AND ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHN HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY .

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body.These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.

3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy.
Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.


CANCER CELLS FEED ON:
a. Sugar, is a cancer-feeder.

By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like Nutrasweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt. ( THE WEST MADE US 2 CHANGE FROM SEA 2 WHITE IODISED SALT )


b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus .

By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soya milk cancer cells are being starved.


c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment.

A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful,especially to people with cancer.


d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment.
About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed
and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for
building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine.

Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water- best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.


12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrified and leads to more toxic buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.


14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor ssence,Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins,minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells.
Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind,body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor.

Anger, un forgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life.


16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells. [YOGA BREATHING OR WORKOUTS ARE THE BEST)

PLEASE READ ON
1. No plastic containers in micro.
2. No water bottles in freezer.
3. No plastic wrap in microwave.

Johns Hopkins has recently sent this out in its newsletters. This information is being circulated at Walter Reed Army Medical Center as well. Dioxin chemicals causes cancer, especially breast cancer.

Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies. Don't freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic. Recently, Dr. Edward Fujimoto, Wellness Program Manager at Castle Hospital was on a TV program to explain this health hazard.

He talked about dioxins and how bad they are for us. He said that we should not be heating our food in the microwave using plastic containers. This especially applies to foods that contain fat.

He said that the combination of fat, high heat, and plastics releases dioxin into the food and ultimately into the cells of the body.

Instead, he recommends using glass, such as CorningWare, Pyrex or ceramic containers for heating food.

You get the same results, only without the dioxin. So such things as TV dinners, instant ramen and soups, etc., should be removed from the container and heated in something else. Paper isn't bad but you don't know what is in the paper. It's just safer to use tempered glass, Corning Ware, etc. He reminded us that a while ago some of the fast food restaurants moved away from the foam containers to paper. The dioxin problem is one of the reasons.

Also, he pointed out that plastic wrap, such as Saran, is just as dangerous when placed over foods to be cooked in the microwave. As the food is nuked, the high heat causes poisonous toxins to actually melt out of the plastic wrap and drip into the food. Cover food with a paper towel instead.


This is an article that should be sent to all in your life,

8:15:00 PM

WALAOOOOOOOOOOO.
I tell you I very whiny narh.
Aiya, don't whine already.
Later boyf angry. =/

BUT STILL WALAO.
Aiya, don't care lah.
I whine here. =(

VERY ANGRY NORH.
Hais, I emailed Prasanna already.
Very stress lah I tell you.
Tmd. After exam still stress.

Hais. I need to get out of this,
gohome&study&school&takeExam.
And the cycle goes on and on.
Hais.

Today, lunch was damn cute with my fellow classmate.
Cause I don't know what happened to Leo,
he kept saying, "This is the cause of teenage pregnancies."
Just because, Clements & I were doing on the report of it.
HAHA.

So Clements said that 70% - 80% of the people,
had sex during their first meeting.
Like what the hell.

So Farah was saying about going out to have dinner,
and I don't know what she continued and stuffs,
then Leo started to say, "This is the cause of teenage pregnancies."
HAHA, then she was like, "Thanks uh, dinner also can link to teenage pregnancies."
HAHA.

So I don't know what Clements was saying,
He was kana shoot, "You're the root of problem of teenage pregnancies."
So the conversation goes like that.

Clements: "There are so many roots, I'm just one of the roots, NVM."
Everyone: "No, You're the main root, the one that grows into teenage pregnancies."
Nicholas: "Farah, you don't say so much, you're the soil, the one that help it to grow."
Farah: "Thanks Uh! Then what you all are?"
*She point to Nicholas* "You're the water"
*She point to Dennis* "You're the Sunshine"
*She point to JuiPing* "You're the fertilizer"
*She point to Jonathan* "You're the leaf"
Then I was laughing so loud. HAHA.
Damn cute.

Then Clements point to Chinyong,
"You're the person who planted it."
Everyone: "HAHAHA, Main Root of the Problem"

Then stupid Jonathan point to me,
"She's the one who give birth to him."
Everyone: "HAHAHAHA, you are totally the main root of the problem!"
WALAOOOOOOOOO! LOL!~ HAHA.

So Leo was quietly quietly sit there lah.
Walao, I just realised he sit there quiet quiet,
in the end, nobody says him.
He should be the main person norh,
cause he started with the,
"This is the cause of teenage pregnancies."
EVERYTHING also, "This is the cause of teenage pregnancies."
HAHAHA.

I got crazy classmates.
HA. But they're cute lah. :D
I was dreaming about it.
And I laughed out & woke up.
HAHA.

I don't know how I did it,
but I just did it. HAHA.
I'm zai. Mai siao siao. =/





KBYE. STUDY.
LAST PAPER.
WOOHOO!
LOVES.


Photos tomorrow lah hor. =/

4:59:00 PM

Just bloghopped to FeliciaK & Mabel's blog.
Oh man, I really miss out a lot of fun.
Sighed. I don't even know what are the activities.
I want to join more SBM activities.
& I seriously miss SBM activities,
especially the crazy things we do.
Tsk. =(

*Angry at myself*


I got myself in that situation.
All I have is myself to blame.
Damn it.


*Curse under my breath*
Sighed. I'm a loser.

12:42:00 AM

My eye very painful.
I did say that I'll post pictures of baby's POP tomorrow?
Did I? Or did I not ? Aiya never mind.
Just pardon me, I'm using one eye now.
Very painful of my right eyes.
It's swollen, the eyelid there. =(
Sighed.

Should have put on make up.
I was indecisive you see.
Didn't like to put make up nowadays.
And furthermore, when I clean it,
I'll have to rub my eyelid. =(

Ugly photo today.
I mean, me.
Tsk.

What a day,
can take baby's smart look,
ha, then I got what idiot eyes,
that make my eyes look so extra small.
Tsk.

But still, my eyes bigger than him.
HAHAHA. =x

K, sneak preview.




Sneak Preview of the photo. :DD
Excited not~!!! =/



Baby is somewhere in there. LOL!
And Wufeng supposed to be somewhere in there too.
Cause he's from Company Z, if I'm not wrong. HAHA.
And I think they look damn cute when they pledge. HA.
Shuai dai lerh~ HAHA



:) I made the photo super small, HAHA.
Cause I really look ugly in it. Tsk.


Kbye.
Time to sleep.

12:24:00 AM

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Wah.
Damn it.
Core is tough.
I even dreamt of nightmare.

I couldn't even sleep well last night.
Nightmare of my Core paper after one another.
Woke up at 3am, 5am, 7am....
Just all because of the same nightmare.
CORE YOU KNOW.

After I woke up,
I tried to go back to sleep.
But my brain kept repeating the things I studied,
so that I won't forget...

Paper was tough,
not that I didn't study.
Just that the question asked in a way,
that I don't even understand totally at all.
Not even a single bit.
Die soon.

Anyway, baby's POP!
No time blog.
I haven't study yet.
I did study lah,
in the parade there.
Walao, so much distractions.
Worst than home.
But I still managed to study 3 topics leh.
Powerful anot. I know I am. HAHA.

KBYE.
Tomorrow then picture.
Congratulations to baby's POP.
WOOHOO, graduation.
Like damn exciting like that,
everyone so happy, then throw cap. HA.

And baby's a smelly pig.
And I saw many many people drop during the parade.
And I really meant it when they dropped and unconscious.
SO MANY NORH. You won't believe it.

This batch so weak one meh. =/
Last time brother damn zai one leh.
Their parade only a few people faint.
This parade like, medic continously coming in?

AND BABY'S POSTING OUT SOON.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOO~
Please give him SISPEC SISPEC SISPEC.
Best is OCS OCS OCS OCS OCS OCS.
HA. He says he want one. Not I want one.

So ya loh.
Nothing already lah.
I go already.


OH YA. ONE THING.
U KNOW WHAT.
I saw Wei Guo,
who is Weiqiang's twin brother.
WALAO TOTALLY DAMN ALIKE LOH.
My shock was so kiasinang,
cause I saw weiqiang-lookalike walked past in front of me.
I "EH!" so damn loud. Xia suay. -.-"


AND OH YA,
I'm a good girlfriend. HAHA.
I made honey water for baby. HAHA.
And and, I bought food for baby & family.
K lah, all this nothing much, CAUSE U KNOW WHAT.
NS has good welfare, they provide snacks for them,
which is like good food also? Walao.
Cheat my feeling, bring so heavy things.
In the end no use. Walao. =(



Aiya, whatever. HAHA.
KBYE.

9:24:00 PM

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Damn myself.







Walao.
I studied till I go crazy.
Had been feeding on supper everyday,
and then you know what?

After supper, I slept all the way.
Walao. Like that how to not be fat.
But baby says he will still want me.
Bluff people one loh. Make me eat without guilt.
Walao. Like that liao loh. =( LOL!~

I kinda lose hope for tomorrow paper.
Though I had really studied everything already.
But I still it's not enough.
No matter how much.
It's still not enough.
I'm a perfectionist I guess.
But still, I really want a decent grade.

Anyway, don't want to think so much.
Meeting baby's dad tomorrow at Pasir Ris.
It's the first time that I'm meeting his family alone,
yes yes, without him at all. =(

But it's alright, I got craps with his family.
HAHA. Even baby also shocked how arkaliao I'm with his auntie.
HAHA. But stlil. Hais. So weird. =(

Anyway, my eyes aren't feeling well.
I don't know why, it felt really painful.
It's not in the eyeball, it's at the eyelid.
Felt so terrible you see.

I think my CORE paper is gone case.
Like seriously, I'm honest.
I just can pray hard.
The paper won't be tough.
But teachers often say that,
we will die in CORE module.
Hais. Tell me how not to be sad.
Don't wanna see a C or anything.
I want at least a B+ you see.

Tomorrow, pray hard for me people.
Love you.

I'm having sore throat.
Painful eyes, backache.
Stress syndroms. =(
Sighed.

Feed me with icecream.
Feed me with food.
I want to go out.
I want to sing song.
I want to hang out late.
I want to a lot a lot things.
I miss doing idiot things with SBM.
I miss going there to help out during camp preparation.
I miss all the people there, including those who had left.

Aiya. Stress.
Emo. Period.
Lost.

Tsk.

Kbye.

11:52:00 PM

Happy 3 months Baby. :D




So yeah, today was OOPG paper.
I think it's kinda alright ? Ha.
Perhaps, whatever I studied came out.
But I sweared, I was damn slacked yesterday.
Tmd.

Today, worst...
I came home and slept.
And then I'm not doing anything till now.
It's already 5.30pm. Damn it. Damn damn.
I'm just procastinating.

Procastination kills.

And you know what. HA.
I started camwhore when I really sit down and study.
My eye damn pain, so I took a mirror and start looking at it.
Then, I took my handphone and started to camwhore already.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, so much distractions.
Roar.

I got evidence.
I took more than 80 photos.
See, when girls camwhore, it's scary.
Never let a girl get hold of a camera.
Especially when they are supposed to study.
Damnnnnn. AHHHHHHHHH~







I really did study hor.
You see from my pictures.
Infront of me is my file of notes.
I was studying norh. I am really studying.
Aiyo. =(

But can't blame me.
I really very distracted leh.
How?




Baby's POP tomorrow.
Woooooooohoooo~
I'm going to his POP. :D
Like finally, the BMTC has ended. :D
No more early early book in. Haha.
Hopefully he get to post out to his sispec?
I don't know how it is spelled lah.
LOL. Those who gone to army,
you all will know lah hor. =/
Don't care. LOL!

After his POP, I'm going to rush home,
and start studying my DBMS.
Hopefully, I won't be as distracted as today.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

And I hope he survived the 24km route march.
Siao one leh. 24km leh, see how far it is.
I think around the whole Singapore leh.
And they had to wake up at 3am,
just to do the road march norh.
Siao one. Crazy crazy crazy.

Then I won't be able to meet baby till Friday already.
Ha, and he says he's coming to fetch me from school?
SO FAR CAN!~ From Bukit Panjang to Tampines?
Journey from the west to east. HA!
-.-" Don't know him? LOL!

Okay lah, I GO STUDY.
LIKE SERIOUSLY. DONT PLAY ALREADY.




Something to share with you.
Extracted from my Email from LiangJian.
It is really touching. Unconditional love from a dad.
Now you know, everyone loves their child.
No matter how different you are from the rest of the child,
you are still their child, their precious child.

Don't ever forsake your parents for other things,
they are the one who brought you to this world,
they gave you everything you want, everything you need.
They were there for you through your whole life.

No matter how much you hate them,
no matter how much you found they are naggy,
no matter how much you found they are irritating,
they are still your parents.

The ones who were throughout your life.
The ones who brought you to this world.

Love your parents.





A True Story:

One day, a son asks his dad,
"Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?".
The father says "yes".

And they run their first marathon together.

Another time, the son asks his dad again,
"Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?".
The father says "yes son".

One day, the son asks his father
" Daddy, would you run the Ironman with me?"
The Ironman is the most difficult triathlon ever
( 4 kms swimming, 180 kms biking, 42 km running )
And the dad says "yes".

The story looks simple until you watch the following clip.
Just amazing, how much can love be...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJMbk9dtpdY

5:21:00 PM

Monday, December 08, 2008

*Poke*































=(
I knew my decision.
But it takes time to overcome.
Let my this exam end faster please?
I'm stress. =(


Maybe they were right. :)

9:56:00 PM

Wah seh, I can't believe I've blogged so many times?
Like walao, very scary like that. Look,
I'm not studying at all.
Damn you.

Anyway.
I can't wait for many things,
I can't wait to work Haha.
Then I want to highlight my hair,
and maybe go for a rebonding session?
And I wanna cut bangs. HAHA!
Feel like only lah, not yet want to do.

So haha. I don't care lah,
once new year is here,
I got to do whatever to my hair,
natural hair is good, but too boring.
Yet, styling of hair is nice but damaging.
Ah, whatever.

So, I got to work really hard once baby is post in.
Heh, I don't know what's the term for posting in of posting out. Ha.
Anyway, so yeah, work really hard for many many many things.

Like for my IT gadgets?
And my hairstyling?
And my license next year?
And for my trip with baby?
And for my income?

Many many things lah.
Got to earn really a lot,
and save it in my bank account,
not got to touch.

But, everytime I say say one like that.
In the end I still spent it on unneccessary stuffs.
Tsk. Damn my spendthrift habits.

I miss the post-'O' level time.
Cause I had no time at all,
I spent all my time working and working.
And still working with Linying. HAHA.
Kinda fun and stuffs.

I miss the time. Like seriously.
Linying is worst, she everyday work.
In the end, she became a rich lady.
Cause she had no place to spend. HA!
Earn so much, but no time to spend.
That's the good way to saving money.
I'm going to learn from her. :D

Hais. I wished for my semester break soon,
then for 2 whole months, I'm going to work like crazy.
Don't ask me out, cause I want to work hard hard. Ha.
But I knew, I'll get tired. Cause nobody is working with meeee.
HAIS LAH. PROBLEMATIC CHILD. -.-



AIYO. Why am I talking about all these.
STUDY LAH. damn it. -.-
bye!

8:02:00 PM

Wah seh, you saw you saw?
What the, why suddenly got 88 people view my blog.
I mean, sudden increase of people. LOL!

Eh, not like I logged into Nuffnang everyday.
So, today when I logged in, got a shock in my life.
Like first time it shoot up all the way? =/
Weird.

Anyway, people come more come more.
I want earn advertisment leh. HAHA.
I know my nuffnang earning is damn pathetic.
But what to do, at least I still had some earning from this pathetic blog.
I'm like no need to do anything, just blog anything I like. HAHA.
Easy money. If only I'm those popular blogger even best.


I got bored studying OOPG.
Anyway, halfway through.
Endure endure endure. :D

It's like only Class Diagram, Driver Diagram & Arrays only.
HWANLING HWANLING CAN ONE. HAAAAA!

BYE.

3:04:00 PM

I have a craving for MiniMelt IceCream.
Especially the one which is rainbow.
But I've no time to buy. =(
Minimelt Minimelt.
Where can I buy beside United Square?
And I miss working in United Square.
I miss the kids like seriously.
I miss the petshop people I made.
Hais.

Things are all different now. =(




My ulcer is killing me. =(
Roar youuuuuuuuuuuuu~

2:53:00 PM

I want to blow big big bubblegum.


I'm in christmas mood now. :D
Kinda can't wait for christmas.
Don't know if baby coming out for christmas,
if not where can I go for christmas leh?
Maybe SBM? Or Poly friends can hangout.
Woooooooooooooooohoooo.

I can't wait for christmas christmas.
I remembered last year christmas eve,
Moggallana were at Ian's place playing mahjong?
Am I right? Ha. I damn miss the time.
Really miss the time... Nostalgic.

So yeah, term test starts tomorrow.
I can't really say I'm very ready for it.
But at least, I did prepare for some. Ha.

And a shocking news,
I was looking for my warranty card,
which is no where can be found.
And while looking for it,
I saw baby&I's photo placed inside mum's shelf.
OH MY GOODNESS! -.-"

The one that baby developed for me,
which is like me hugging baby? HA!
Like totally omg~

But well, luckily I told mum I had a boyfriend.
And I can't imagine if I didn't tell her and she found that picture.
And haha, I found brother & his ex-girlfriends' photo too. HAHA!
Everything being kept neatly by mum. -.-"
Mum is the best lah can!


I can't wait for campppppppppppppppp.
Yes yes SBM camp go go go go go go!
And I can't wait for christmassssssssss!
I can't wait for new year eveeeeeeeee~
I can't wait for chinese new yearrrrrrrr!
I can't wait for my 18th birthdayyyyyy!

Can't believe I lived 18 years.
And I'm growing old soon.
They always say, once you reached 18,
the time you spent started to get faster.
Oh my goodnessssssssssssssssssss~
I'm old. Damn you.


Baby's asleep I guess.
He's still feeling sick.
There's still slight fever.
Yet, I can't be there. =(
Sorry.

But after his POP,
he got a lot things in line for him.
Yet, I'm still stucked in term test.
Eeeyeeerr...




KBYEBYEBYE.
I HAVE TO STUDY.
SHIT YOU! TERM TEST SUCKS.
Cause I'm totally in holiday mood already.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
I hate you.

Actually, I have a lot photos to post,
but I very lazy leh. You give me time okay. :D
Love you my dear blog. :DDDDDDDDDDD
Bye.





Last Christmas...

12:08:00 PM

Promise made.



ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ :D
I'm happppppppppppppppppppppppppppy.



Sort of sorted out with baby today.
Felt damn weird in the morning when he came to fetch me.
I was so afraid I'll say anything wrong again...
Yeah, tried to keep silence as much,
but yet, didn't want too much silence. Ha.

So next, we cabbed to his place.
Ate, watch TV & slept.
Woke up, he kept telling me,
that we should stop all the quarrelling.
Ha.

I complaint, he's always the one who started it first. Ha.
So yadah yadah yadah, everything shoot out to him already.
But I felt myself damn loser lah, cause while I tell him, I cried.
Ha. What to do, I only know how to cry. =(
Felt like a loser. Weak. -.-"

Anyway, that's not the point.
We kinda say everything,
from one issues to another.
Kinda realised quite a lot issues ah. LOL!

Well, I'm glad we come to a conclusion.
So yeah, he will let me do whatever I want,
as long as I'm happy and I know what I'm doing.
Ha. :D

But that's the way he said,
don't know he mean it anot. LOL.
Maybe cause I cried, then he bluff bluff give in. Ha.
But since he said it, it's a promise already. Ha.

Then ah, yesterday we were messaging,
though somehow one thing and another,
we ended up being upset with one another.
But still, a few of his messages melt my heart. HA!

So yeah, today easy easy let him go,
if not confirm won't let him go one norh,
make me upset for the whole week. HA!

Furthermore, he fell sick suddenly. =(
Forced him to see a doctor and succeeded. Ha.
So accompanied him to the nearby clinic, very expensive. -.-"
And then back to his place to have dinner with his family.

Then, being a good girlfriend, I feed him his medicine. Ha!~
He really like a kid like that loh, so cute. Ha.
Guess, I can certified to be kindergarden teacher,
since I can take good care of such a big kid. Ha.

The medicine made him drowsy,
so I kept asking him to go to sleep,
but he said he didn't want since I won't be able to meet him till next Friday.

In the end, he couldn't take it and slept,
while I accompanied him till his fever sub cease.
Took cab home...



PSSSSS:

Oh yeah, something hilarious.
There was this guy who named "xyz".
Guess Clements & Jonathan should know it.
So the "xyz" has exactly same name as that person.
While xyz's classmate called his name,
Clements & I always stunned. Ha!
What's more, the xyz's name came upon,
as the same as that person's name. =/
The world is such a small world.



And receved Dickson's call last few days.
Haha, I'm not the one to make any comment.
But seriously, is it true anot?
Got me into such a worrying shit.
Guess it was all a lie after all?
Ha.



Tired.
Got to get some sleep,
before I can start studying hard tomorrow. :D





Baby.
Fortunately,
we pulled through this obstacle.
Many more obstacles to come next time.
Got to pull through everything yeah. =)
Love you.

Please get well soon.
POP soon baby baby!
Must get well no matter what.
Don't care. LOL!



This is it. :)
I'm glad with my life.
STUDY HARD SIAH HWAN LING.
:D




BYEBYE. D:

1:13:00 AM

Sunday, December 07, 2008

The Bottom Line
Don't worry if your ambition gets in other people's way today. They'll get over it.

In Detail
You can't think twice if your ambition gets in other people's way today. Even if you step on someone's toes once or twice, sometimes that's just what it takes to get where you want to go. You can't let manners and etiquette deter you right now. This is not the time or place. You cannot stop your personal quest just because it annoys or inconveniences someone else. Because you know that if they were in your shoes, they would do the exact same thing.





Whenever I faced with problems,
I always looked for horoscope from Friendster.
Sometime, it just relates so closely with my situation.
You know?



Will you understand me if you were in my shoes?

1:59:00 AM

Saturday, December 06, 2008

I was so tired. Oh my.


Guess it's my resting time.
So much of the information provided.
Oh yeah, I hopped onto the Friendster,
not like I always hopped there alright. Ha.
So must be surprise alright. =)

Hmmm, got a few different news. Ha.
Randall is in for Hey Gorgeous. Ha.
Be sure to vote for him.

It's been quite some time since I talked to him.
The last time I met him, was lunch with him & girlfriend.
Ha. I hope Michelle & him is doing fine. =)

Next thing, Liyan had given birth. :D
It's a good thing that it's a smooth birth. =)
Her baby is cute also.

It's been so long since I met her,
Ever since I broke up with Weirong for 7 years ago,
and we do meet up after we broke up,
I mean Liyan & Yeechean & me.
I kinda lost touch with Weirong completely. Ha.

And now, they're my childhood friend,
so fast that she had given birth. Ha.
I hope she take care of herself,
since taking care of a child is not so easy.

Alright, what's more.
A girlfriend I made while working in Singtel,
was a friend of another of my friend.
Ha. The world is competely so small.

Anyway, time to go back studying.
I'm damn tired. But I'm not done yet.
I'm still halfway through CORE.
I've the determination to do well.

So stop procastinating SiahHwanLing.
You're killing yourself. Roar.



Start mugging again.
Kbye.

10:14:00 PM

I miss you.


Hello, it's my 2,302 post ever since I opened this blog.
So surprise that this blog lasted me that long.
All my memories all stored in here. :)
Pictures, emo post, happy post...

Oh ya, did I mentioned my index number in class is 13?
Ha, my favourite number after all. I don't care what unlucky.
I'm just feeling lucky with 13. :)

And I'm done with my report.
Got to start packing up my papers,
before I start studying later on. :)

Pimple breakout.
Damn it. It's been sometime,
since pimple breakout onto my face.
Guess, it's stressful time. =(

Yesterday, chatted with baby.
I hope everything is fine.
I don't know how,
because we couldn't come out with solutions,
we just have to meet up on Sunday to discuss.
I really hope, nothing bad come out for us.

I'm just afraid, this thing will bring us down.
That's all.

Anyway, today is gotta be a hardcore studying day.
I hope I won't get killed after tonight,
with my brain stored with loads of information.
Damn it. I hope I wouldn't have to study.
Ha.

I miss working.
I want to work.
I'm poor.
Very poor.

I want to go SBM today,
but I couldn't go.
Because I'm tied down,
tied down to all the test.
Damn it.

Maybe I should be a buddhist girl...
it wouldn't matter if it's for a long term.
Ha. you won't know what it meant,
unless you're from SBM. HAHA. =/
Well, I don't know. *look around*
Ha.

Okay, stop wasting time on the net.
I'm going to start studying.
Don't miss me. :)




I'm hibernating.





Lost in thoughts.

1:14:00 PM

Friday, December 05, 2008

Surprisingly.



I can hear from my room,
that there's hokkien songs playing somewhere outside my flat,
I don't know where, downstair or people blasting their speakers.
But the songs are what I've been listened last time.
Damn nice. :D

Aaaaa, wo m gan wo m gan,
wo m gan hor le xin shang bie ran...
ma jiu ging ging....
Aiya, I bad at hokkien lah.


Also another thing surprisingly.
Chance upon SBM blog again.
I saw Ven Bodhi Tag.

Stunned.

Venerable, do use computer too...
Maybe I'm just lag lah...



I'm very sleeply right now.
Haven't been sleeping much lately.
What's more, been rushing my report last night,
and then studying for my Jap test in the midnight,
then going for test right in the morning,
and next, studying Java right after lesson,
again, finish off Java and headed to lab to do report.




Nothing to write.
I'm just damn stress.
I don't like the last few weeks of term.
It's always this hectic, and I'm always going crazy.
Ha. Kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me.
Roar you. Shit you. Damn you.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Crazy pig.


I'm feeling tired.








I'm an ass to make baby upset.
Sorry for everything.
You know, I love you.

9:11:00 PM

Avril Lavigne
"Keep Holding On"

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

8:57:00 PM

Thursday, December 04, 2008

You're the reason,
I'm holding on...



Spent my night with C208 doing CMSK report.
Damn it, it's like I took such a long time,
and I only managed to cover one point.

Don't know why,
been feeling very upset lately.
Partly also because of my relationship.

I felt that I been upsetting boyfriend a lot,
just due to because of my test/camp and everything.
But I really wished for your understanding.
I'm sorry for everything,
every little things.

I cried on my way home today.
Pondered upon my relationship,
couldn't understand why it's so rocky now.
And I don't know what I do to make boyfriend returning me with attitude.
I got nowhere to rant, no one to rant, except here.
Didn't know what to do, but to cry to relieve.

Been putting myself in his shoe all the time,
been trying to understand all the problems,
been standing in his position...
But what I got was tears...

Even for today, I only didn't want to trouble him,
but what I got back was his attitude...
I just didn't know what did I do wrong everytime.
I only care to not make him so tired and to travel so far,
that's all I ever asked for, why did I always got back the otherwise.

I don't know how much I cried this week,
it seemed to me like it's everyday.
I hope the tears end when he's back.
He's booking out tomorrow,
but I don't know if we're able to meet.
Since I'm having my term test, and I need to study.
And he's booking out late...

Wanted to go over to Pasir Ris,
no matter how short the time is,
but he said don't bother, since no point...
I don't mind to travel the extra distance,
I didn't mind if we're only able to see for a while.
But for him, it's always the other way round,
if it's for awhile, he rather not have it...

Like today, I told him maybe we can talk longer,
since tomorrow we might not be able to meet,
then what he told me was, I rather meet you than talk on phone,
but since I cannot meet you, talking on phone will only make me upset.
So, he rather not talk for longer anymore.

What can I do, you tell me?
I'm having test, I can't possibly have all the time.
I couldn't even know what I could do to salvage all these.
All I knew was to cry to let everything out.

Test is coming,
I'm just feeling stress.
And now relationship is at a rocky stage,
tell me what should I even do?

It seemed to me that,
whatever I do was wrong.
Nothing seemed to be right at all.

Don't meet him also wrong.
Meet him for awhile also wrong.
Meet him for long, my test will suffer, and I'm also wrong.
What the heaven you want me to do?

And now, I can only say...
I only knew how to cry.


Where was the sweet sweet boyfriend,
whom we only argue for the fun of it?
Never fight over anything, understand me well?
What has happened? I don't know.
Couldn't even figure out...

I'm sorry for everything.
I just didn't know what to do anymore.
Not that I didn't make an effort,
it's just that I really don't know how to...
Tell me, what can I do to make things right again?




And now, let me just break down.




I love you,
that's all I know.

11:46:00 PM

Tsk.
It's 3.15am.
I'm still wide awake.
Trying to rush my report.
But I'm halfway done.
Guess, I got to leave it like that first.

Maybe, I'll rush through it tomorrow after lesson,
since there were a number of people staying back to rush it with me.
Tsk, don't know if I want to bring laptop... Too heavy already. =(

I've been affected over my relationship for these few days.
Ha. Got to be back on track and start doing what I'm supposed to do.
Studies are part of my priority. So yeah, not gotta play play and get past it.

There's piano lesson tomorrow.
I'm gotta be damn super tired again.
I haven't been practicing hard enough.
So, got to spend some time next week.
I'm going to start practicing at least 3 hours per day,
that make it about 21 hours per week. :D
It's gotta be right after my term test or something...
Not gotta waste my money again. =)


I just realised,
I didn't have my dinner.
Oh well. Stress is good.
It helps you to keep a diet.
Ha.



Got to start sorting out my priority.
Nothing can go wrong in my life.
No, nothing...


=)
I'm gotta smile through my problems.
Nothing got to defeat me down.
Shit happens at time.
So, I'm fine.



Lingering Thoughts.

3:13:00 AM

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

You & Me...


Sighed.
Chatted with baby just now,
ended up in unhappiness again.
Sighed. What's happening right now?
Things are cropping up all the time.

Guess, this is gotta be a tough period for the two of us.
I don't know how long we can walk,
but every single time counts...
And I'm treasuring every seconds.

He said he didn't know why would he treat me that way yesterday.
But it's alright, everything is gotta be alright soon...
And I seriously hope, history won't repeat again...

I don't know how others handled their relationship so well,
it's only our 3 months soon in 6 days time...
Yet, we've been through so much over this week.
Guess, when my camp end, everything will be back to normal?
I hope so...

Guess, I never make a good girlfriend.
Whatever I do, I upset him in a way.
No matter how much I've done,
I just don't seem to do it well.

I did all I can, listened to him all the time.
He wants me to stay home, I had stayed home.
He wants me not to stay out late, I came home early.
He wants me not to sleep too late, I also had done so...

Even though half of the things he wanted me to do,
I felt damn uncomfortable over it, but I still do it anyway.
Yet, this time round, I just wanted to go camp,
and that's it, caused him to be so upset.

It's not my intention to make him upset,
but in a way, he says he will be upset definitely. =(
Sighed, I'm so sorry.

Sighed.
Got to start on my report.
I had cried my night off yesterday,
causing my eyes to be so swollen this morning.
Kinda like goldfish eyes. Tsk.

And I teared a little just now.
Don't know why, I've been so upset this week either.
Sighed. If only, relationship doesn't have down periods. =(

Never mind, it's alright.
We got to get it through.


I'm sorry for everything.



You should have known,
how much you meant to me.

8:48:00 PM

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

You didn't know...


Quarrelled with boyfriend again.
Not really quarrelling, cause I didn't argue back,
I just cried only...

It seemed that, everything I do seemed wrong,
things are falling apart, I don't know how to make it up.
If both things are your life, how would you choose?

I just didn't know what to say anymore.
Been crying for so many times this week,
you didn't know how much I really care.
And you didn't know how much they meant to me too.

To think that, I really look forward for your block leave,
but these were all I had gotten back.
Yes, it was my fault that I had term test,
it was my fault that I had camp coming up.

What's more, it's all in your block leave.
And thus leaving only 5 days to spend together.
I felt that it was really good enough,
because I appreciate it to have it better than not having it.
But you were of the different feeling,
to only have 5 days of it, you rather not have it.

I don't know why am I crying for,
to think that things that I'm looking forward to,
are just things that aren't supposed to be what I'm looing forward.
Or to think that we are falling apart because of all these stuffs?
Or to think that you don't even appreciate those 5 days?
I don't know.

I never want things to fall apart,
I did whatever I can as a girlfriend,
and I did more than what I can do.
And I appreciate every little things you had done,
I never once whine, never once argue, never once want to fight with you.

Time is short.
I don't want to waste any time on all these.
I rather continue appreciate whatever you had done,
than to find problems and stuffs to tear us apart.

You had told me before,
give and take in a relationship.
I'm giving whatever I can to you,
and I know you had also been giving whatever you had.
I really appreciate everything.

Don't want to quarrel anymore.
I cried until my eyes are swollen.
I cried until I wasted my time not to do report.



Baby, can we just stop everything like these?
I know you can only read this post on Friday/Saturday/Sunday.
But these are the feeling that I'm feeling right now.

I don't want to see things falling apart.
I don't want to make things difficult for us.
I have never once start any argument with you.
What's more, I don't want to cry till my eyes are swollen.

Cause I always been reminding myself that,
good guys never made girls cry...
And you are my good boyfriend,
so I don't want to make you become a bad guy.

Baby, I know it's tough for you to change your temper.
And you should have know I had been giving in all the time.
I had told you, I'm giving you time to change...
Don't disappoint me please.
and don't let my heart shattered again...




I love you.
Yours truly.

10:20:00 PM

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