Monday, May 31, 2004
Both of were still students but had already
started to 'fall in love'.. in another words, go
steady.. In one of the days during their June
holidays which they have been waiting for, they
met each other at a basketball court..
Coincidentally, they started playing a match wif
each other.. they had fun..
As Ella knew one of the frens of Paul, she asked
for Paul's number.. At tat time, Paul didn't want
to fall in love again, after getting so much hurt
from the previous one.. Sadly, tat fren of Paul
didn't give her the number..
As days went by, the holidays ended.. They met
each other at another basketball near Ella's
skool.. Day went by and Ella borrowed Paul's hp
and missed call her own hp to get his number..
Tat very nite, she smsed Paul.. They chatted and
had fun.. Till one day, Ella expressed her love
for Paul.. Paul loved her much too.. after
thinking 4 a long time, Paul thinks tat he and
Ella would last, thus, asked her if she would be
his partner.. Obviously, she agreed..
They went steady for one and a half short mths..
Ella ended the relationship.. with her parents
not
allowing her to go steady as a reason.. who on
earth would accept tat lame reason? but Paul,
like
many other love victims, had no choice but to
let go..
Years past and another fell in love wif Paul..
She
was Mary.. Paul and Ella didn't contact for a
very
long time.. Paul still loved Ella very much.. but
nvr had a chance to tell her.. one day, along a
street, Paul was wif Mary.. Paul saw a familiar
figure across the road.. guess who was tat? it
was
Ella.. Paul ran acrossed the road, without
noticing a truck coming.. BANG!! everyone near
him
crowded around tat area.. Mary screamed as she
rushed to Paul.. Ella joined in the crowd.. She
remembered the face, one who loved her so much in
the past.. Next to him, was Mary.. He wasn't
dead.. 'dun give up.. say my name, 100 times,
1000
time, a million times.. u're gonna say it till u
can finish a million b4 u can stop!!' Mary said
to
Paul.. with tears in her eyes.. Everyone thought
Mary was Paul's gerl.. Standing at one side,
alone, was a gerl crying.. tat's was Ella who
regretted breaking up wif Paul, after recalling
how nice Paul treated her in the past..
Paul was sent to the Hospital..Mary and Ella were
them.. Praying hard.. An operation was carried
out.. Paul didn't survive.. The Doctor came out,
shaking his head.. Sighed.. He too, thought tat
Mary was Paul's gerlfren, thus approached her for
an apology for not being able to revive Paul..
He
said to Mary: "Miss Ella.. your boyfren didn't
survive.. he gave himself up after calling your
name 157 times.. im sorry.."
The Doctor has actually mistook Mary for Ella..
Paul was calling out for Ella.. Ella cried in a
corner.. She knew why he had stopped at 157.. tat
was the day she broke wif him..(15/7)she, who
ended the relationship which Paul treasured so
much, has in turn, ended Paul's life..
IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE DEEPLY.. NVR LEAVE TAT
PERSON.. U'LL NVR NOE WHEN U'LL NEED HIM/HER BACK
IN YOUR LIFE AGAIN..TREASURE YOUR LOVED
ONCE..YOU'LL NVR NOE IF YOUR RELATIONSHIP WIF
YOUR
PARTNER WOULD ACTUALLY MEAN A LIFE TO HIM..
6:17:00 PM
ermm wonder how kor n jie n mingsong n aiya all the Sec4 taking the chinese hor.. how le leh.. dunno them.. hope can get A1.. haha.. ermm.. tink stop here le.. nothing to write also.. sianZz... haha..
5:02:00 PM
Sunday, May 30, 2004
now plan tml do wat.. heeZz.. tml.. slp dao at least 1..den wake up play awhile pc bahh.. den after tat go revise.. heeZz.. den do math hw. cuz next day got tuition.. so sian also got the stupid camp.. hate it nia.. training camp leh.. stupid guide.. hmphhh.. dun feel like going.. but pay the 10 dollar liao leh.. wasted.. shld have say dun go first.. wahahaha.. shh=X heeZz.. ermm den study finish go pack the camp bag. den ok le.. heeZz.. den do watever i want.. go play piano.. den feed rabbit all tis.. heeZz... kk le.. end here..
P.S::hope all my frenz ur tml de o'level will pass wif rainbow colour.. heeZz.. dun want i want more colour.. heeZz.. hope u all get A1 for it.. den all the BEST!! yao Jia YOU ooo.. kk.. take care n good luck.. heeZz..
8:12:00 PM
You Are Yellow.
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Niwa Daisuke
DNA. Angel. Which. One. Are. You. ?
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black eyes.
wHaT iS yOUr tRuE aNiMe eYe cOlOr?
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FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.
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My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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5:38:00 PM
You ARE Guru Clef! You are warm hearted and you
hate procrastination. You are always on the go
and you get bored easily. You have much passion
no matter what you do. Everyone enjoys your
sweet smile and heart of gold.
What Anime Charachter Are You??? Huh? Wanna know?
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5:34:00 PM
Saturday, May 29, 2004
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Friday, May 28, 2004
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Thursday, May 27, 2004
9:59:00 PM
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
6:42:00 PM
kk.. today juz like d other day.. today math hor.. neva listen lehhh.. den got hw to do.. i dunno how to do lar... cham le... haiZz.. shouldn't have tink so much in class.. heeZz.. den recess eat laksa... put dao alot of chilli.. so nice.. den after tat miss tia neva cum.. 2free period.. den everyone down there playing their heart attack.. playing hang man.. den i down there quiet quiet down there reading.. den everyone cum ask me wat happen.. diao~~ i only quiet quiet only mar.. den they keep say wat like not like me like tat.. diao~~ den after tat neva care them.. den awhile tired den slp slp.. den frenz call me i also duno.. den ppl suddenly shake my table den wake up le.. den wake up ask them y luff dao siao. den they tell me they keep call.. den me neva wake up.. den like tat they keep luff.. diao~~ den chinese muz do the zhao ju.. den we down there half doing half chatting abt tml wanna do wat.. go where.. .cuz we haven plan mar.. den after sch stay back in sch.. eat the rice.. long time neva eat liao.. den after tat play water war.. den me bu xiao xin splash water dao one guy.. heeZz.. den keep say sori.. den faster zao.. den outside wait for frenz lor.. den go home together.. den when i reach bugis.. i go kinokuniya.. at first is wanan buy comic.. den down there kan dao one book veri nice.. call you3 ge4 nu hai2 jiao4 Feeling.. so nice.. is a lurve story lai de.. heeZz.. den down there read dao got imaginary out liao.. so nice.. tml muz go buy but veri exx leh 17 buck.. haiZz.. dunno wanan buy anot.. so exxx.. haiZz.. finally like kor say.. when reading hor got one ownself de space.. haha.. so nice so peaceful leh.. i first time so quiet down there read dao half book gone.. i neva read dao like tat in 30min de... haha.. den after tat muz go home cuz 3 something liao.. den go home write blog lor.. den write one veri long lehh.. den duno press dao wat.. den all gone.. diao~~ kk le end here.. dun reali have mood..
4:37:00 PM
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
heeZz.. today Miss Wong neva cum.. Yipeee. ::Jumping up n down:: nice nice nice... she neva cum.. no history today.. yayyyy... den after tat recess dun feel like sitting in class table.. hate my class.. after tat go 2G.. den wish they good luck to win today match.. haha.. after tat go back have lesson lor.. den Miss Chia neva cum.. yipeeeee... so happy today so many free period.. Yipeeeeeee Yay.. heeZz.. ermmmm..today alot of ppl asking me wat happen.. haha.. dunno wat happen also.. maybe not like last time liao bahhh.. today neva smile dao.. heeZz.. qi they all keep ask wat happen.. i keep say nothing.. den they say u dun look like urself... den i say nothing much happen.. den keep give them smile... den they still say.. veri jia.. diao~~ not bad liao hor.. give u smile.. heeZz.. though is fake one... today juz dun have mood to do anything.. maybe now i shouldn't trust anyone le.. heeZz.. duno y also.. they everytime say they will be here.. cai gua.. everytime go find them.. say wat they busy.. diao~~ can't be everytime busy de... den *ahem they two also got say wat lurve me... bluff also.. haha.. nothing in tis world is a truth one..
den after tat go for guide meeting.. juz sit down there quietly only.. den Serene jie jie.. cum ask me wat happen.. den i keep say nothing.. den she say someone bully u ar.. den keep say nothing.. den she like dun believe.. diao~~ haiZz.. shouldn't have been happy so much de last time.. now juz wanna leng jing yi xia dun wanna keep siao siao... heeZz... after the meeting stayback.. in the canteen.. den down there using my paper dunno do wat thingy.. siao siao de.. den down there sitting tinking lor.. den tingx jie cum... diao~~ she noe wat happen worZz.. heeZz.. i tot hor i put down there hor dun read leh.. she still noe.. diao~~ but neva mind.. thank u tingx jie.. after tat she go le.. i sit down there again.. den dunno la.. suddenly something cum out.. tink tears bahh.. den quickly wipe diao.. den act as eyes pain eyes veri itchy.. so no one noe.. heng.. den go up to have my wat english competition de.. sianZz.. i anyhow do leh.. haiZz... den like no mood to do.. so use a long long time do.. den in d end no time.. den anyhow shape le.. dun care le.. den go home tat time.. the stupid HER snatch marilyn.. cuz i ask her pei me.. den SHE go ask her pei her.. den is i ask first lor... den she keep say wat pei her.. den in d end i dun care le.. i ownself go buy drinks den wanna go back le.. den ask marilyn pei her.. den marilyn ownself dun want.. den SHE angry wif me.. den my problem again.. diao~~ i ask her liao.. is she dun want.. not my fault.. den SHE juz walk away like angry like tat.. give me tat angry look... haiZz.. wat did i do again.. Ok lar.. everything is my fault okie.. my fault k.. haiZz... watever is juz my fault.. haiZz.. den marilyn ask me dun care her lar... she juz like tat de... den is like she like blaming me like tat.. den like on the way home not happy liao.. den dun wanna care so much le.. den keep kick thingy.. haiZz.. hate it nia.. everytime wu yuan wu gu my fault de.. everything is my fault like tat.. if one day i not here den whose fault liao.. say la.. u all.. haiZz.. dun feel like writing le.. haiZz..
8:38:00 PM
Sunday, May 23, 2004
haiZz.. juz duno y so sad.. feel like no one care abt me le.. haiZz.. family like tat.. frenz also.. haiZz.. from juz now until now... i juz dunno y she keep acting lor.. if i can act i aslo wanna go act le.. i also wanna go be actress.. i juz wonder y hor.. y do ppl flirt.. y they flirt nehhh.. is it flirt so good.. i neva flirt before.. i also dunno how.. tat time ask ray.. he give me those stupid ans.. diao~~ haiZz.. now hor juz feeling i living in a lonely world.. where no one care de... M also like tat to me.. frenz also.. family also.. haiZz... now reali dun have my own frenz.. i also dun dare to have stead.. later been snatch how.. i dun wanna be heartbroken again.. i tired of it le.. 2 times le.. first time still can take it.. cuz first time.. but now 2nd time leh.. if suddenly 3rd time came out i dunno how le... maybe still not mature enuff to handle the pain bahh.. if lurve is juz so hurtx.. y do ppl still wanna fall in luve... or even stead leh... stil trying to figure out all the ans.. n y do ppl still flirt when they still got a stead beside them.. who alwayz care for themm... i also dunno y.. juz feeling tis world is so luan.. i neva will get the ans.. if i got a stead tat will alwayz care for me.. i sure will treasure him so muchhh... cuz i neva treasure d other 2.. juz feeling so regret.. juz now lying on bed mar.. den i was tinking so much question.. haiZz.. next time free muz tink dao i find out the ans.. haiZz.. today hor.. at nite.. kor n me n jun pei n guan liang n Lin jie down there like quarrel who the chioest in the pic.. diao~~ i keep say i ugliest de.. but they all hor.. alakma.. duno.. den hor... after tat kor cum back wif shan nan n Elwin... heeZz.. they all hor.. keep say i ugly le..
P.S: kor i tell u le.. i getting uglier... but u keep say no.. diao~`
after tat.. nehh they keep say me mei ren yao.. i noe lar.. no need everytime cum den tell me mar.. i noe de lar.. juz dunno y keep feeling so sad leh.. maybe is cuz of HER.. or i juz siao siao.. or i tink too much...
i now keep tinking.. if one day i got a stead.. will he go n like HER?? i reali dunno.. how i wish i could be like them.. flirt here flirt there.. den the ppl still duno.. only gal noe wat they doing.. i juz wish next time i will be more flirt.. ppl ask stead den stead.. den i will not make dao myself so cham rite.. they flirt le den keep change stead.. den is they dun want the boi boi.. den will not sad mar.. y i am so chi qing.. y i lurve the boi lurve dao so hard.. n making myself so sad n chamm n still can't leave.. y? i juz wanna noe y? y can't i like them flirt nehh.. i noe i dun have the look.. haiZz... suan le.. everything is fair. isn't it?? those pretty are alwayz those flirt de.. den no matter how.. they sure will have ppl jio.. den those ppl ugly like me.. is forever no one want. n alwayz those keep like a guy so long... like dao can't even control myself.. like dao dun even noe is it myself anot.. like dao i already crazy le.. juz keep feeling tis world so haiZz.. dun feel like living le.. juz hope my next life will be better.. happier..
deep down everyone tink i a happy gal isn't it.. alwayz bubbly here there... but do they noe anything abt me.. no they dun.. do my frenz noe when i needed frenz.. no they dun.. everytime i alwayz living in a world of my own.. have to tink of myself.. have to juz act happy.. have to do tis do tat. u noe i reali getting tired le.. reali.. reali veri tired le.. i dun wanna act so happy le.. everytime muz be happy at home.. muz be happy at sch.. can't even let myself rest abit.. only when i wif my frenz.. but there no more le lor.. tis world is juz so haiZz.. even they say they will dun care her.. but i juz dun believe.. everyone also say dun care dun care.. in d end.. they becum wat.. frenz.. god bro.. even more closer... can she juz give me my own space. where i lurve it.. where i can be more happy in it? can.. i juz need it so little.. i neva ask for more.. y can't.. haiZz..
dunno y now listening to the song First Lurve.. it will juz make me tink alot of thingy.. cuz tat song is juz so nice.. n juz peaceful.. n juz as the same feeling as me.. haiZz...
life is juz so haiZz.. they alway say treasure every min every sec..but how i treasure when i living in those stupid world. u noe frenz is now my most impt thingy le.. but there no more le.. there no more impt le.. not even one le.. i juz wan a guy tat will care n lurve me.. but sure dun have.. i sure one.. first i ugly.. sec i so haiZz..
haiZz.. tml i have to give a fake smile again.. everythiing in tis world is juz fake.. a lie.. everything u see me tat i so happy.. i juz lie.. except those tat is close to me.. wil noe wat is happening.. will noe when i will be hapy.. when will i sad.. even in msn.. i can reali show when i sad to someone.. but i can alwayz act in another conversation.. unless is those ppl tat i close.. i juz duno y.. ppl tat i not close.. i juz can't tell them anything.. y world is like tat.. i keep having tis question in my mind.. do i reali have truth frenz.. or not.. wat does SHE treat me.. a thingy tat can be use.. or a frenz. or juz a rubbish nehh.. though sometime i reali tink she a backstabber.. she will so good to a person.. n den at the back.. she will juz say how bad they are.. wat is tis?? juz feel nothing is left for me to live in tis world.. isn't it? frenz are over.. family keep saying me.. do they noe how i feel.. when i sad.. do they noe.. when i fan.. they juz keep ask me tis ask me tat.. making me more fan..
next time i doesn't wanna any frenz.. i dun wanna make any more frenz.. later again make le.. becum their frenz.. wat for? at least when they noe other ppl tat i dunno.. i is not dun want her to make frenz wif my frenz.. i juz scare tat one day she came backstab.. den how.. one day she make them fall in lurve wif her.. den how.. one day she quarrel le.. den also pull me down.. how? i getting tired in those frenzship tat is alway like tat.. maybe they say frenzship is alway the more impt then relationship. is it.. i tink both are not impt to me anymore.. i afraid everything will juz happen again..
now my uncle's sickness is getting bad to worst.. juz everyday juz have a thingy to let me sad.. not happy.. can't juz one day give me juz one peaceful day.. which i doesn't need to care anything? u noe living in a place where sadness alway fill u.. u will juz feel so stress.. i juz get my result.. n is so bad.. n now again.. i getting tired n tired everyday.. this month is reali so hard to live through.. first is matthew.. den after tat my uncle.. den exam.. den result.. den SHE.. i dunno wat is cuming next.. y is it everyday is so hard to live.. is it god juz wanna me si diao.. i si diao le.. den everyone will be happy rite.. juz like Erica say.. cuz tat time i say i maybe transfering.. den she say " wahh hao4 ar, zui4 hao4 jue4 zao3 zhou3 jue4 hao4.." see.. everyone is hate me de.. isn't it.. maybe i should not be transfer.. i juz transfer to another world.. isn't it.. u noe i keep ren ppl ren dao i everytime is the crying one.. everytime cry dao my tears are dry out.. if one day i could be juz gone aday.. maybe somewhere.. den cum back.. i reali veri thank the one day..
most ppl will believe in god n buddha n even shen.. me tooo.. i juz everyday keep praying i have a better tml.. but wat did it give me.. a sad tml again.. everyday is juz continue n continue.. i juz reali wish to be back at P5 where i happy all day long.. no worry juz nothing!! so wish today i will have a dream.. dreaming the time when i in P5.. those happy day.. P5 is juz have the most happy memories..
haiZz.. dun say so much le.. later everyone noe wat i tinking.. sori.. juz now is juz venting my tears out only.. cuz dunno y i dun feel like dropping it.. when it cum out.. den i keep trying to make it gone.. haiZz.. after saying so much.. i duno i stil hate her anot.. but i juz noe..
NOT ALL FRENZ WILL BE THERE WHEN U NEED THEM..SOME WILL.. SOME JUZ USE U..SO HOPE ALL OF U HAVE BEST PPL DE FRENZ.. N NOT THOSE BACKSTABBER..K..
today juz did nothing.. offline le awhile.. lying down there tinking.. like fa dai like tat.. so today juz neva do anything.. haiZz.. dun wish anything le.. everytime wish le. bad thingy cum out.. dun wish anything le.. tink after all tis venting out.. i tink next time will neva have the blog tat is venting anything out.. cuz i tink maybe cuz now i vent out so much le.. so maybe still can take it... until can't take it again den vent out bahhh.. errmmmm...
P.S: ppl dun c... juz a stupid blog..
10:17:00 PM
1:07:00 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2004
10:40:00 PM
Friday, May 21, 2004
today went out meet Steven, Cheston, Chun Yang and Shaheedah.. den they say wanna go seoul garden eat.. den i n shaheedah dun want mar.. den cy say wanna treat us.. den we say again dun wan.. i dun wanna waste his money nehh. i juz now veri full.. still eat de hua becum veri fat.. haha.. den after tat walk walk wif dah.. den we go take neoprint.. den take take.. den saw kaiwen jie they all again.. got left melissa jie, cherrian jie n kaiwen jie.. den they say they still left 1 dollar.. so give them 2 dollar lor... haha.. den after tat went home wif dah.. den after tat awhile le.. she say she wanan go home.. den ok lor pei her dao MRT.. haha.. juz now we went to stamford too.. yipEEEee!! MIss Mrs The.. at first is see Mr Deen de.. den after tat.. ask Mr Deen Find Mrs The.. den he say ok.. den after tat.. wait so long neva cum.. den we chat wif Mrs Foo.. den chat wif alot of teacher.. den after tat finally Kan dao Mrs The.. den Shaheedah suddenly call Mrs The.. den she drop thingy.. haha so funny.. den after tat went into the HOD.. chat wif her.. haha.. so fun chatting wif her.. Mrs The change hairstyle le.. so shorrtttt... but den stil nice.. heeZz.. having fun chatting wif her... so miss the time of her teaching us... haha.. still rmb the phrase "dun wait until the cows cum home" haha.. n the "by hook or by crook.. rain or shine.. u muz finish it" haha.. den we down there keep laugh laugh laugh.. so cuteee leh her.. haha..
after tat tink no more to write le.. ahha.. kk. stop here.. ^TakE cArE evEryoNe^
6:31:00 PM
Thursday, May 20, 2004
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Wednesday, May 19, 2004
7:40:00 PM
Lurve Story abt Doll
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls.To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl���
���Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?��� I asked.
���I can���t���
���Why? You need to study at home?��� I felt disappointment grabbing me.
���No��� I am going to meet a friend������
He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ���love��� only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ���I love you' before. To us, there weren���t any anniversaries at all.
He didn���t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days���200days���
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don���t know why���
Then one day���
Me: Um, Jin, I ���
Jin: What���don���t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ������you���.um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ���three words��� and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many���
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But��� lunch passed, dinner passed��� and soon the sky was dark��� he still didn���t call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin���
Jin: Here���take this���
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What���s this?
Jin: I didn���t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I���m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted���
���Wait������
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me���
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
���I don���t want to say���that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.���
That was what he said. Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb���and I collapsed to the ground. He didn���t want to say it easily���
How could he���.
I felt that���
Maybe he is not the right guy for me���
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn���t call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That���s how those dolls piled up in my room��� everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that��� I saw him on a street���with another girl��� He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me���as he touched the doll��� I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell���
Why did he gave these to me���
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls���
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that��� it���s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn���t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual���
Me: I don���t need it.
Jin: What���.why���
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don���t need this doll, I don���t need it anymore!! I don���t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
���I���m sorry��� He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll���
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then���
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
���Jin! Move! Move away!��� I shouted���
But he didn���t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the
doll.
���Jin, move!���
HONK~!!
���Boom!��� That sound, so terrifying.
That���s how he went away from me.
That���s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him���
And after spending two months like a crazy person���
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days��� when we were in love���
���One���two��� three������
That was how��� I started to count the dolls���
���Four hundred and eighty four��� four hundred and eighty five������
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly���
���I love you~, I love you~���
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
���I���.lo..ve���you??���
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
���I love you~ I love you~���
It can���t be!
I pressed all the dolls��� stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~���
���I love you~���
���I love you~���
Those words came out non-stop.
I���love you���
Why didn���t I realize that���.
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn���t I realize that he love me this much���
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it���s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much���
���Jo���Do you know what today is? We���ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn���t say I love you���. Um��� since I was too shy��� If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you��� everyday��� till I die��� Jo��� I love you������
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can���t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute���
For that��� and for that reason��� to me��� it became courage��� to live a beautiful life���.
7:28:00 PM
Lurve
Lurve ar.. it is isn't tat hurt.. is juz wat u want it to be.. hurt or happiness.. but most ppl choosen it to be hurt.. y do ppl neva tink of the happiness when u two togther..... juz like w n i.. though i dun reali noe did he reali lurve me when he ask tat question.. or he is juz sian n juz ask... i admit i have lurve him.. maybe i lurve him dao he feel i am so fan.. when we stead tat time.. it is juz so hard to find him.. it is like cuz of SARS holiday.. den he can luan luan pao mar.. den he go his cousin house stay.. then go there play diablo... but.. we can juz contact in the midnite where everyone has slp.. in the morning he usually is slping cuz of the over nite playing.. so everytime i have to stay over nite juz to contact him.. but it is so hard... sometime when my eyes is juz closing.. den i have to go wash up.. i juz dun bear to leave the day.. cuz everyday i also treasure it.. but juz the last few day.. he doesn't even want to contact me le.. though i noe he is going to silent break.. i juz have to keep praying it is not.. i am juz tinking too much.. but finally at nite my frenz call me.. n tell me.. haiZz.. though tat time.. i was kinda sad.. but i juz dun want ppl to noe.. haha.. only 2 ppl noe.. they even noe i have cry.. only the two of them.. Thank u for being there when i need u.. Thank u... haiZz.. still rmb tat nite was a lonely nite.. i was juz smsing wif Amy.. cuz tat time i dun have mood to sms ppl le.. den is like i dunno y Amy noe i am sad.. i neva say anything.. not even haiZz.. but she noe.. *wondering* Thank Amy for so sensitive.. haha.. sometime sensitive is not tat bad.. cuz at least.. u will noe when is ur frenz sad..
haha.. now is juz over.. so i have say out.. juz to have memories.. heeZz.. dun wanna forget everything.. i juz wnana rmb there is a him... tat have juz touch my heart for the first time.. though he leave it crack.. haha.. but i still treasure the time when i wif him...
M is juz another guy.. we have contact thru SMS.. cuz of chean.. dunno y suddenly he got my no. tat time i was still gong gong neh.. keep tinking whether i got noe any guyz name M de.. den ask him den he tell me he is chean de cousin.. haha. den cuz he sms me veri late mar.. den next day need to go for Practice for the choir cuz got Anita de cancer foundation.. so i tell him.. we next time chat chat.. den we like tat ended for the first day i noe him.. haha. we juz every nite also sms.. juz everyday i started to have feeling for him.. i duno y.. tat time i still lurve w.. but i juz dunno y.. it juz on n on.. getting more n more feeling for him.. den one day he ask me to stead.. den i at first say no.. cuz i can't be so unfair to him.. cuz i still lurve w.. though i got feeling for m.. but i noe w n i will neva patch le.. not even 1%.. den after tat i keep saying no.. den he keep like.. ask lor.. den i say give me time to tink lor.. den at nite i was tinking all the way.. should i give him a chance.. if i give him a chance.. den i bu shi hen unfair to him.. haha.. den next day i tell him tat i can't forget w.. cuz w is his cousin lai de..so he noe.. den he tell me.. we can try... den i den say ok.. dat is where we started lor.. but i find he is too care for me.. he even ask wat thingy i like he can buy for me.. diao~~ i tell him i no need to buy anything.. but he still insist to buy a christmas present.. diao~~.. i juz feel i am taking him for granted.. juz everyday.. i juz duno y.. though i still neva ask him to buy anything.. i juz dun want him to spend money on me.. he is reali a nice guy.. but juz tat i dunno how to treasure him.. haiZz.. so regret.. den dunno y suddenly he neva contact me dao.. den i also like scare scare to sms him.. cuz everytime is he sms me first.. den we juz on n on n on n on neva contact..
den it drag dao 3months.. den i ask his cousin.. den he cousin tell me wat we break le.. den say he cannot stead cuz of his mama.. den i say ok lor.. but tat time.. is like we having conferene den got alot of ppl mar.. den chean keep say dun be sad hor.. den i say i not sad... den kim jun ask me juz cry lor.. if i muz... dun keep it.. den i say i will de.. den juz tat nite i cry le lor.. though my kor kor playing the pc so happy.. so he dunno.. haha.. den from tat time.. i keep tinking wat have i do wrong neh.. cuz i dun wanna something like tat happen again.. never.. den how i noe suddenly on 1 May.. he sms me le.. den is like i dunno who is he mar.. cuz erm.. heeZz.. but got abit familiar.. keep tinking is him.. but scare late bu shi.. heeZz.. duno lar.. haiZz..
tink lurve is juz like tat lor.. when u put in more lurve.. the more hurt u get... haiZz.. dunno y hor.. though got those play play ppl wan me to stead hor.. i still dun want.. even those serious de.. haha.. dunno y.. maybe scare or juz dun want.. or even not like them.. haha juz like dexter.. i reali dun like him.. though how much he like.. i juz dun want lor.. he juz make me feel fan bahh.. juz like i to w n m bahh.. feel fan bahh.. haha.. haiZz.. now muz be a happy gal.. so only can have memories.. though i dun want haha.. but no choice.. i juz wanna treasure now n future.. haha.. agree?? dun keep regret.. muz do thingy tat u wun't regret de.. haha.. k stop here le.. veri long bahh.. haha.. later cum write my journal.. haha..
12:50:00 PM
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
ermmm.. after exam stay back awhile.. no one stay back leh.. only we a few group only.. suprise worZz.. heeZz.. den after tat we all go bugis..
we go down there take neoprint.. heeZz.. tis time is the most nice one.. heeZz.. got so many chio bu inside.. except me.. me again damage.. heeZz.. next time c them take better cuz at least more good.. den wun't have me tis extra.. heeZz..
ermmm.. today hor.. veri dui bu qi kor kor leh.. cuz hor.. i like pang seh him leh.. cuz go eat mac.. den he dun want go.. he say he go walk walk.. den i go in eat.. den sms him.. den he say go read books... den i ok lor.. den after eating i straight go up le.. den neva kan dao him.. den sms.. den he say he waiting for MRT.. diao~~
Kor Sori Sori.. dui bu qi.. i xia chi bu kang le.. wo bu hui pangseh ni le.. dui bu qi ooo..
after tat walk walk wif qi n lyn.. heeZz.. den go home le.. cuz veri sian mar.. actually they say they wanna go home.. but dunno y suddenly stay back le.. haha.. den we walk one big round.. den i go buy album put my neoprints.. heeZz.. den walk walk walk den go home.. at home hor.. they all veri cutee leh.. cum le den we play play awhile den they go play my bibi (rabbit) n my hamsties.. heeZz.. so cuteee leh.. not like some of my frenz.. they scare leh.. dunno y.. so kawaii neh de pet they scare.. diao~~~ y ar...
after tat i put all my neoprints inside the album.. den write write den put again.. haha.. now got abit luan but man man lai.. heeZz..
after tat keep cum home sms Jing Qian.. haha.. he ar.. alakma... keep say he *ahem* me.. haha.. i cai bu xiang xin neh.. if he reali hor.. den pig can fly dao west le.. heeZz.. (exculding Air Pork) heeZz.. somemore hor i jue de hor he veri straightforward leh.. though we noe quite "long" le.. but today juz sms rite.. cuz he sms me mar.. den juz sms rite.. den he say le.. diao~~ play boi worZz.. haha.. heeZz.. somemore juz break up wif yu.. den like tat say le.. haha.. though yu now wif jacky.. heeZz.. they ar.. so easy to change target.. if i got a little bit like them den wun't nong dao myself so haiZz le.. but not like them reali go play de not even serious dao.. at least muz serious abit mar.. if not hor.. so bad leh... dui the person also bu gong bin.. best is serious.. haha.. say lai say qu.. is still muz serious.. haha.....
haha now i dun wanna tink lurve thingy le.. stay happy is the best rite.. agree?? ^-^ no matter wat i still wanna be a happy gal n cheerful.. wahahaha.. be a happy gal than be a sad gal everyday also tink here tink there.. tink dao i siao siao liao.. heeZz.. later white hair cum out.. haha..
one more good news is my UNCLE MEI SHI LE.. heeZz.. so happy for him.. happy happy.. yipeeeee... ^-^.. happy happy.. now only hope my exam good good.. den i am the most happiest gal le... heeZz.. tink nothing to write liao neh..ermmm.. tink stop here bahhh.. heeZz.. ^TakE CaRe^
P.S::Kor hai shi dui bu qi neh.. feeling guilty of pangseh u..haiZz.. Dui Bu Qi.. ::bow::
9:15:00 PM
Monday, May 17, 2004
ermmm.. after sch stay back awhile.. den go home le tat time.. my mama ask me go ah ma house.. den i go lor..
when reach there hor.. got the fa shi.. he say de thingy veri zhun leh.. he say i keep forget thingy.. reali leh.. i last time memorise de history rite.. den after awhile i forget diao le.. haiZz... so cham..
den after tat he say.. next time i will be a musican teacher.. diao~~ no wonder from small i learn piano den dance den choir.. haha.. is fate nia..
den after tat he say next time i will marry a nice guy.. diao~~ reali meh.. i tis gal so cham.. will have den weird weird le.. haha..
after cum back den i cum online den write blog haha.. so nothing to write today.. so happy tat i got so many good thingy... but since he say no need to worry anything now.. juz let everything be it.. one day will be good de.. it just turn out bad at first.. but willl good next time de... ermmm.. hmmm.. i will listen de.. ^0^
7:00:00 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
[[Extracted From Yun Li's Email]] like last time deleteing email den saw it de.. heeZz.. some quite lame.. dunno wat lai de.. heeZz..
> Qn: Why is fish cunning ?
> Ans: cos yu pian mi fen (fish lie to bee hoon)
> ------------
> Qn: What animal falls down the most?
> Ans: Fox, cos they jiao hua (cunning)
> ------------
> Qn: What animal is most skillful?
> Ans: mouse (lao shu) cos shu shu you lian guo (uncle got training)
> ------------
> Qn: Xiao ming drinks milk to grow up, Da ming drinks what?
> Ans: Da ming drink wine, cos Jiu Yang Da Ming
> ------------
> Qn: Which chinese host does not have centre parting?
> Ans: wu zong xian (no centre line)
> ------------
> Qn: Why Zhou Jie Lun Cross the Street Kana fine by police?
> Ans: Cos Jay Walking
> ------------
> Qn:Which emperor (huang di) is blind??
> Ans: Kang xi (Can't see)
> ------------
> Qn: How does a fish laugh?
> Ans: HE HE HE
> ------------
> Qn: How does a prawn laugh?
> Ans: HEI HEI HEI!
> ------------
> Qn: Which animal should you look for if you're unable to open a bottle
cap?
> Ans: peacock, cos kong que kai ping
> ------------
> Qn: Why baby don't need to brush teeth?
> Ans: cos bei bi wu chi
> ------------
> Qn: Which button on your keyboard cannot sing?
> Ans: F4
> ------------
> Qns: Xiao Hong, Xiao Bai, Xiao Hei, Xiao Lan, Xiao Huang, who cannot
tahan
roller-coasters?
> Ans: Xiao Bai, cos always Xiao Bai Tu
10:24:00 PM
when i go rite.. den keep wish i could c him.. haiZz.. y i juz can't c him.. haiZz... dun tok abt him le.. haiZz.. promise myself not to shed one tears for him le.. so i muz do it.. i muz..
today wake up at 10 nia.. actually wanna wake up at 12 de.. but haiZz cannot leh.. duno y.. keep trying to slp but keep toss here toss there.. den cannot.. den can't take it le.. so dun care wake up le.. haha.. den dunno wat time my mama call me wake up go ah ma house.. but my eyes can't open so dun care le.. haha..
when my mama n papa n big kor kor cum back.. den tell me n my sec kor kor wat de fa shi say., cuz got one fa shi go my ah ma house.. tok abt the life de.. n lurve.. haha.. ermmm.. my big kor kor cum here tel my sec kor kor abt his life lor.. den when i ask abt me.. den he say mummy actually got 3 sons de.. but dunno y got me.. haiZz. i extra de.. so extra nia.. i cum out for wat.. how i wish i dun exist in tis world.. living here is so haiZz.. but neva mind.. if i sad or wat.. i still got my kor kor my jie jie all around me..
Juz wanna tell u all.. Thank u for being by myside when i need u all.. Thank u. ::bow:: heeZz^^..
haiZz.. dunno y the fa shi say de thingy veri real leh.. haiZz.. i should have go de.. c y i so dao mei nowaday.. muz go noe abt y i keep so lousy de.. muz noe alot alot of thingy.. i got alot of questions to ask abt.. but there is no one to ans me.. haiZz.. tink only me den can ans bahh.. haiZz.. how i wish i can be someone tat can noe future.. haha..
ermmm.. today neva do much thingy lor.. i juz noe today keep slp leh.. dunno y.. take nap le.. den wake up play wif my hamsties n my rabbit.. den go orh orh again.. haha.. zhu zhu leh me.. haha.. ermmm.. at nite hor we go out eat.. HIS HOUSE there de S11 to eat.. haha.. den when cuming back tat time den my big kor kor n me sit behind the lorry mar.. so funny.. we too say abt duno wat.. den my kor kor laugh so out.. haha.. den some more infront got one gal walking.. den i so paiseh i turn my face away.. soemmore the place is juz beside my house leh.. the road ... so cham.. if next time go out muz cover face le.. haha jkjk.. den hor we see behind the gal back hor.. she so chio nia.. but err.. when i c sideway.. errr.. okok lar.. haha..
still rmb tat time go out wif Yan Ling n Jolin... den they say abt a gal.. is a aqua.. haha.. the aqua hor back veri nice leh.. so sexy haha.. den hor.. Yan Ling say hor.. if a guy go touch on the aqua shoulder den say hihiZz.. den the Aqua turn around.. den the guy will say Excuse me where is the toilet.. i wanna go vomit.. haha.. actually like tat say not funny.. c yan ling the action veri funny.. haha..
ermmmm.. den cum back.. use pc.. chat chat.. den wanna do my art.. heeZz.. haven finish.. heeZz.. ermmm.. den now write write.. tink stop here le... heeZz.. so sian tml got D n T exam.. heeZz.. haven study yet.. heeZz.. kk.. stop here le. ^Take Care^
I will Promise myself to forget u.. n neva even shed one tiny drops of tears for u le..
8:38:00 PM
Saturday, May 15, 2004
Chances
When the bus come, you look at it and
you said
to yourself, "eeee... so full...cannot sit down
one"....... So you said to yourself, "I'll wait
for the next one." so you let the bus go and
waited for the second bus.
Then the second bus came, you looked at it and
you said, "eeee.........this bus so old...surely
very uncomfortable one." So you let the bus go
and decided to wait for the next bus.
After a while, another bus came. It's not
crowded and not old but you said, "eeee... no
air-con one...and the weather is so warm, better
wait for the next one." So again you let the bus
go and decided to wait for the next bus.
Then the sky started to get dark as it is
getting late.
You panicked and jump on to the next on coming
bus. It is not until much later that you found
out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus! So
you wasted your time and money waiting for what
you want!
Even if an aircon bus came, can you ensure that
the aircon bus won't break down or will the
aircon be too cold for you?
So people...(mostly girls but guys too!) want to
make sure that what you want is not wrong. But
it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance,
right? If you found that the "bus" doesn't
suit, you just press the red button and get off
the bus!
But wait...I am sure all of you have this
experienced before. You saw a bus is coming (the
bus you want of course) you flagged it and the
driver acted blur by pretending not seeing you
and zoomed pass you!
The bottom line of being loved is like waiting
for a bus and whether you want to get on the bus
and give the bus a chance depends totally on you
and walking alone is just like being out of love.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell. Don't be afraid to
express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to
you. Because when you decide that it is the
right time, it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends
and family, for they have helped make you the
person that you are today.
Pass this along to your friends....... It could
make a difference.
The difference between doing all that you can or
having regrets which may stay with you forever.
Friendship is never an accident. It is always
the result of high intentions, sincere effort,
intelligent direction and skillful execution. It
represents the wise choice of many alternatives.
And remember.... Keep Smiling....coz... "Of All
Things You Wear, Your Smile Is As love returns
to me, As I return to you, As love returns to
us.
I guess this is really wondeful and make a lot
of sense.
10:36:00 AM
Friday, May 14, 2004
den after the break is the chinese paper.. chamn nia.. got 4 thingy i forget how to write liao.. den got one word write wrongly .. now 9 marks gone.. is GONE... haiZz.. nvm.. hope i pass well can liao.. cuz hor the compre hor is song fen de.. free de nia.. no need give money at all de.. juz copy n paste.. cannot rephrase also de.. haha..
so happy today friday liao.. no need go sch again.. but tml frenz cuming my house to do the guide thingy.. ma fan ma fan.. haiZz..
ermmm.. today after exam go to the canteen.. is so funny.. we were there pushing qi to go find the guy.. den is like she holding the bear bear bottle.. den she keep splash on ppl.. den we go snatch.. den i splash on her.. haha.. den is like so funny.. den after tat Erica go take the bottle.. den pour on to the cap.. den wanna splash on qi.. den she go put the bottle on the table.. den qi go take.. den we say qi more li hai den Erica.. go take the whole bottle.. haha.. den we splash dao qi the whole clothes all water lai de.. haha.. sori Qi.. but is reali veri fun.. we dao there run run snatch snatch.. den I tell Yu tat we so feng kuan.. haha...
after tat go home wif bell n diana.. n wen.. haha.. so funny yi lu sha.. diana n wen down there quarreling.. haha.. ermm.. after tat.. i reach dao MRT.. den go home le.. go home use pc.. den chat chat.. den chat dao my er kor kor cum home le.. den he go switch on another pc den play dao now.. haha.. ermm.. tink stop here le.. hope my history n sci past nia.. reali veri scare leh..
4:57:00 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2004
[[Extracted]] From Stefani's blog
Luv iswhen two people dun like to b apart.. they wan to share everything heart to heart..
Luv is like war.. easy to begin but hard to end..
Luv is like a knife.. it can stab e heart or it can carve wonderful images into e soul tt will last a lifetime..
I tink it'll take one whole life for mi to learn abt luv e first chapter started wif u and e last would end wif mi...
Luv is 3/4 dream n 1/4 reality; problems usually arise when u fall in luv wif e dream and not e reality. But yet u find true luv when u fall in love wif both..
I miss u when somethin realli gd happens bcoz u r e one i wan to share it wif. I miss u when somethin is troubling mi bcoz u r e one hu understands mi so well.. I miss u when I laugh n cry bcoz I noe tt u r e one tt makes my laughter grow n my tears disappear.. i miss u all e time.. but i miss u e most when I lie awake at nite and tink of all e wonderful times tt we spent wif each other for those were some of e best and most memorable times of my life...
Nv sae I luv u if u hav no love to share... Nv share ur feelins if there r no feelins there... Nv speak of honesty if ur dishonest frm e start.. Nv touch a life if u will onli break a heart..
I do nt wish to everythin to everyone but i do wish to b somethin to someone..
Do u wan me to tell u somethin really subverse? Love IS everythin it's cracked up to b.. Tt's y ppl are so cynical abt it.. It realli is worth fightin for, bein brave for, risking everythin for. And e trouble is... if u dun risk everythin, u risk even more..
"I just want that thing. You know, that moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy. And the only thing in focus is you and that person. And you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this gift. And you want to laugh and you want to cry cuz you feel so lucky that you found it and SO SCARED that it will go away all at the same time..."
~Never Been Kissed~
-"I never felt so lonely, never felt so out of place. I never wanted something more than this..."
~Savage Garden~
5:55:00 PM
errr.. after all the examms... go out wif Yun Fang to bugis.. den veri sian leh.. cuz walk here walk there same place lai de.. BUGIS SO SMALL.. haha.. den we go bugis street walk walk find bag.. cuz she wanna find bag mar.. got 5 ppl wanna buy worZz.. den keep ask here ask there.. den the cheaper is 19 bucks leh.. not bad le worZz..
errr.. after tat go home.. den chat chat chat... den do my blogskin lor.. so sianZz.. do here do there.. ask Yun Fang she say 9/10.. nvm i wanna 10 so try more.. haha.. errr.. den now writing blog lor.. cuz scare hor later cannot go in le.. cuz kor kor wanna use.. heeZz.. ermmm.. tink i going to stop here le.. hope my history will past leh.. cuz i everytime fail fail fail den tml history paper le.. si diao le.. *pray hard hard* let me pass k... heeZz..
4:13:00 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
ermmm.. when going back tat time.. Wen say wanna go out.. den ok lor i pei them go take neoprint.. so cham.. tis time the picture so errrr... i mean for me.. den when i reach the 2 floor got ppl call me leh.. den i look up is HIM nia... dunno lar.. first one i looking at him.. den i man man see other place.. den saw qi hui they all.. at first i gong gong de.. i heard a gal voice leh.. but saw is HIM..haha..
den i faster go up le.. heeZz..den hor.. wen lar.. keep say wanna go wanna go.. den in d end go up lor.. den hai me.. so scare.. cuz i like lightbulb.. got the Samuel n her.. den i dun wanna take le.. den faster run down.. den faster go c my frenz... heeZz.. den hor the toot Wilson go take my hp n wanna send ringtone.. lucky he dunno how.. haha.. or else one time 60 cent le.. haha.. ermmm.. when wen call my hp.. den Wilson go listen.. den say wrong no. den Wen so angry.. haha.. den cum down find me.. den chean cum le.. den after tat they say they go first.. den i say ok lor.. den i go up le.. cuz wen waiting.. den wait wait wait. in d end see dao jun nan n qian qian.. den cuz muz wait for qi cum so i tok wif them lor..
den after tat jun nan say HIM cuming le.. so ask me dun go.. awhahha.. den i wait lor.. den after tat they cum le.. yipee... i kan dao him hor lik heart break leh.. duno y.. after tat pei them tok tok awhile.. i faster run dao bu jian diao le.. cuz i go find them mar.. they leave wifout me.. hmphh.. den i go find them lor.. den take take take.. we hor.. veri siao.. keep like same pose.. haha.. ermmm den when we design hor.. den ting ting n choon ting n qi hui n lydia all cum di siao me.. hai me.. den the pic like so errr.. haha.. hai by me de.. sori qi n wen.. ermmm.. den after tat pei chean.. go walk here walk there.. den pei jun nan n qian qian.. walk here walk there.. den after tat i hug a dragon.. the bubble game.. inside the dragon hor.. den is like wanna cry le.. cuz is like duno y leh.. feel like crying.. haiZz.. den so miss him leh... den jun nan take HIM de pic le leh.. den jun nan trying to send me.. but cannot.. haiZz.. is fate nia.. fate jiu shi fate.. haiZz... den after pei Jun Nan n Qian Qian den i wanna go home le.. cuz late le.. haiZz den reach home dunno y feel like going back.. den saw mama bu zai.. den call her.. den she downstair liao.. haiZz.. cannot go le.. haiZz.. juz now is tou tou de go one.. haiZz.. now i can choose to go back anot leh.. but if i go back i feel so extra... haiZz... i now miss miss him so badly.. haiZz..
i tink i veri wat leh.. haiZz.. now duno still got stead wif *ahem* anot.. cuz he keep dun sms me.. den my sori is like he dun care de.. haiZz.. den now still got feeling for HIM.. how how how.. i look like so flirt nia.. i duno how le.. if me n *ahem* still stead den i will try to forget HIM de... if not.. i also dunno le leh.. maybe try to forget both of them n continue bahh.. but hor everytime say forget forget.. in d end see le.. den like again.. haiZz.. wat is happening to me.. i juz so useless nia.. duno how to let go.. dunno how to give ppl freedom.. haiZz... juz so wish i can everyday c him. but i noe is sure no de... we no yuan fen de.. haiZz... so wish can everday c him.. everday noe how is him.. haiZz.. haiZz... muz not tink too much.. let fate decide bahhh.. we cannot control de.. den let nature take it place lor.. zhou yi bu suan yi bu... no choice le.. i duno how to decide.. i everytime wanna tis.. den everytime give me oposite de.. i reali tired le.. i dun wanna tink so much le.. everytime tink tink tink.. den tink dao all the bad thingy.. den everytime sure will cum true de.. haiZz.. dun write le.. feel so sad.. hope i pass my exam to let me happy bahh.. haiZz......... ^take care^
3:12:00 PM
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
today veri sian leh.. upper sec all got exams.. den after sch neva see dao them.. haha.. ermmm.. during my geography lesson hor.. teacher got ask us do one worksheet.. but hor.. i got all wrong leh.. si ding le lar.. only 2 correct only.. wat to do now... haiZz...
today hor not bad leh.. Miss Chia neva cum.. mwahaha.. ^-^ so happy.. den actually got free period but.... ~_~ Miss Tia give correction to let us do... haiZz.. sian.. but neva mind got Miss Ong make us laugh laugh.. THank leh Miss Ong.. all else we veri sian le.. haha.. ermmm.. the last period is for us to move our table n chair leh... den the table is veri heavy lor.. can't take it le.. den half way half way stop stop stop.. den in d end we finish le hor.. den muz sit down there wait.. the Buddist Hall is veri veri veri hot.. when we wait rite.. den they neva on the fan mar.. den i keep perpire.. den the whole shirt is wet le lor.. den somemore the shirt dun absorb sweat de.. so is totally so wet. den so er... smelly nia.. eek >.< can't take the smell.. heeZz.. ermm.. after tat got ppl call me.. den i run to ans lor.. den is Jolin ask me go bugis.. den i say ok lor.. den i tell wen,diana,qi,isabella,Marilyn tat i going le.. den they say ok.. den i go le.. the bag is so so so heavy nia.. hate it..
den reach le i pei them walk walk awhile.. den go home le.. go home den saw my kor kor cum back from clinic.. he sick le worZz... ermm.. hope my kor kor will okok.. ermmm.. tink stop here le.. muz revise my geography nia.. ^-^ good luck to myself.. n everyone.. heeZz..
7:46:00 PM
Monday, May 10, 2004
ermm.. today toot nia during our reading period.. Miss Cheong siao siao de.. down there scolding us.. wat our english wat wat wat.. den say wat next time when c us must say english.. wat is it nia? even after sch mar?? last time when toking to my frenz in chinese den she cum find me.. diao~~ after sch le leh.. still scold me.. nan dao after sch i dun have freedom ar.. say chinese or english also nvm le mar.. haiZz..
den tp lesson dunno wat cher toking.. den down there k k i noe i noe.. haha.. den left 15 min cher let us do the thingy we want.. but only revise.. but better le.. cuz veri sian when listening to her.. heeZz..
den math lesson more cham.. Mrs Tan ar.. tok tok tok tok tok tok.. den hor she tok tok tok tok.. i can't understand leh.. si diao le.. sure fail tis time.. oops.. not fail.. choy...
ermmm after tat period hor.. is ermmm.. MUsic.. at first wanna go down de.. but cher came up.. den say cannot go down.. den after cher say den i guess is the mirror spoilt in the room.. haha.. guess only..
after recess is english.. haiZz.. veri sian nia.. hate english so much.. cuz i lousy in it.. heeZz.. den after tat is Sci le.. Miss Tia wanna go thru worksheet den ask whether we wanna stay back den in d end we tell Miss Tia tat we have Assembly de period so ask her cum.. den we go for D N T ... heeZz we do clock nia.. alakma.. i forget take out from my bag.. wait ar.. later continue..
heeZz continue le.. ermmm today i dunno doing wat.. burn my acrlic den i down there scare scare... den burn out.. weird weird de.. -.+" wat to do nia.. haha.. ermmm.. den when i putting the Clock the machine rite.. den hor.. the clock like so weird... my hand so long.. den muz cut cut cut.. cut dao weird weird de.. haiZz.. heeZz.. ermmm.. den after tat time up le.. haha.. do so little den time up le.. so fast hor..
when go back.. saw Miss Tia.. lucky nia.. den she down there teach us.. haha i finally can understand le nia.. heng heng.. haha..
after sch hor.. we stay back lor.. only 3 ppl stay back tat is Qi n Yu lor.. we down there toking.. den Yu drink my laksa soup.. haha.. forget to put chilli.. no wonder not nice.. haha.. den when she drink Qi de.. so nice.. cuz i also got.. heeZz.. den i den rmb forget put chilli.. den my laksa is eat dao left 1/4 le.. so lazy go put le.. haha.. errmmm.. today hor.. a few ppl stay back only leh.. veri few upper sec de.. so today the canteen is like so kong kong de.. haha.. ermmm.. when someone hor.. cum to canteen hor.. den i was buying my mee.. heeZz.. den Yu keep say He like u lar.. den i say no lar.. den she say how u noe leh.. den i ask her den how u noe leh.. den she say cuz she say tat time he say he n the gal mei you kuan xi one.. den i say diao~~~ i tat time saw them den he pai later i go spread.. den spread dao the gal ke lian mar.. so of course is not counted.. den she keep say.. -.=" diao~~ i say no mean dun have le.. ppl wun like me de.. i swear nia.. haha.. ermm.. after tat we all go back together.. heeZz..
den when reach home no one at home de.. diao~~ den i down there seeing scary the webbie.. den i like so scare scare.. den faster dun c le.. den go orh orh.. haha.. wake up 7 something le.. heeZz.. den online chat chat.. den rmb haven write my blog.. so cum in write lor.. er tink nothing to write le.. go revise le me.. haha..
^+Take Care+^
7:39:00 PM
Sunday, May 09, 2004
*pray extremly hard let me get high high the marks pls..*
6:51:00 PM
ermm.. after she leave.. den use pc.. use dao suddenly Alwin kor call.. den say Puay Wee leh... den i say slping leh.. den he say win liao lor.. one late one slping.. (he speak in chinese) ermm.. den i quickly call my kor wake up le.. den he go out le... den after tat.. den i use pc.. haha.. den finally do finish my blog skin le.. but hor.. ask kor kor whether change better or not.. den he say dun change.. den i ask y.. den he say veri ma fan.. haiZz.. should not waste my time doing le.. haha.. nvm later june holiday.. got alot of time le.. haha.. i tink now i already in a holiday mood le.. haha.. si diao le.. exam juz tml i now happy happy.. haven study leh.. wat to do.. veri scare now.. haha... btw hor.. all the above is write for yesterday de.. haha.. heeZz.. ermmm... tink from next week no time to cum le.. cuz muz study.. heeZz.. ling ar ling.. muz jia you.. i muz pass my exams wif fly fly colour.. got blue black yellow purple violet.. every colour also got.. haha.. cya blog.. maybe got still everyday write.. maybe not everday also.. maybe until next next week den can.. haha.. cya..
^TakE cArE^
9:18:00 AM
Friday, May 07, 2004
11:16:00 PM
after tat hor.. den is math lesson.. den keep tink of yesterday de thingy.. den suddenly teacher say do 1g.. den i try lor.. den i get correct ans leh.. though i neva listen.. heeZz.. den i tot i is lucky.. den i try another one.. den did correct again leh.. so happy nia.. after tat recess liao.. den cum back got english.. so sian.. duno do wat lai de.. wat muz find the meaning.. luan qi ba zha.. den after tat is chinese.. den Miss Tan cum in.. haiZz.. Miss Tan today last day le.. so sad~~ she last min tell us.. haiZz.. from next week onward is PAN PING tis teacher take over.. hate her nia...
P.S: Miss Tan We will miss you de worZz.. u so good nia.. leave le still got leave us chocolate.. heeZz..
ermm.. after tat is tink Science... den Miss Tia ask us do workbook.. den we do lor.. den halfway thru keep toking... den almost can't finish de.. but in d end finish le.. cuz we one person do one question.. den all copy.. haha.. shhh=X ermm.. den i half copy half got ppl call me.. den got ppl sms.. i can sms.. but cannot ans the phone.. Mei Fang ar Mei Fang.. dun call me lar.. i need to go sch u no need i noe.. diao~~.. she ar 10 something already call me le.. den after sch i call her back... den say wat ask me to go back to Stamford.. shock dao me.. diao~~ call so many time den juz to go Stamford.. but in d end i neva go.. sori leh Stamford.. ermmm.. oh ya.. Zhi Wei change hp le.. coz his one got stolen le.. so ke lian him.. haha.. ermm..
den today after sch i saw michael.. xia dao me.. i quickly sms kor say.. kor dun cum down to canteen.. heeZz.. den he keep say y.. den i dun wanna say.. cuz if say le.. he will cum down de... in d end.. he say if dun tell den he angry le.. sori leh.. den i tell lor.. scare he angry.. heeZz.. den tell le.. he diao~~ den say whether he is cum to find kor anot.. den i dunno nia.. coz i dun dare to go michael there.. den like tat on n on.. den i go out cuz michael going out le.. den i see le happy le.. heeZz.. but how i noe he cum back.. diao~~ -.-lll y walk out like so cool cool.. den suddenly walk back here.. haiZz.. den sms kor say cannot cum back again.. heeZz.. den i juz walk off dunno go where... den cum back saw kor kor down there eating.. diao~~ lucky hor.. got his bro pei him nia... if not later michael go there sit down.. den sure will keep say le.. haiZz.. den i keep dun dare to go home... cuz scare kor will fight nia.. but in d end hor. i cnanot so late go home.. den no choice have to go liao... den when i juz was toking to weitingx jiex.. den stephanie cum le.. n the yu's ex cum.. den i follow them lor.. den i find myself so extra... den i say i go home liao.. heeZz... den walk out le lor.. den walk dao the MRT.. den remember.. kor wanna give me present nia.. keep forget to take..
P.S: KoR sori leh.. keep forget... heeZz...
ermmm... den reach home.. my real kor kor wanna buy me to buy thing for him to eat.. -.-lll look like he dunno how to buy.. heeZz.. after tat buy le.. eat eat eat.. den i lie down there.. den how i noe slp le.. heeZz.. wake up already 7 something.. den faster run to bath le.. heeZz.. den bath finish online... now my pc got abit lag lag de.. so scare later suddenly stup down.. den i write so long also no use le.. haha.. ermm.. tink stop here le.. heeZz.. ^TaKe CaRe^
8:29:00 PM
Thursday, May 06, 2004
5:50:00 PM
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
i tired le... dun wanna wait le.. if he want.. he will reply de.. juz tat he dun wanna.. he doesn't care le.. nvm bahh.. if he wanna we go back our own ways bahhh.. i admit i still got alittle bit feeling lor.. but haiZz nvm... y juz forget *ahem* n den another thingy cum along.. juz like the incident.. Nicoll highway juz collapsed n den the buildings collapsed.. juz after 10 DAYS.. 10 Days only.. haiZz.. y tis year like so haiZz for me de.. juz give me 1 day de happiness i so xin man yi zhu le... haiZz... juz wondering hor.. y i tis two relationship also so ren zhen.. but other ppl juz play only.. den y can't i like them yi yang.. play play bah le.. haiZz.. so ke lian those tat got hurt de...
but now i dunno is who hurt who leh.. is i hurt him more or he hurt me more... juz wanna a sms back.. juz a simple sms.. neva ask him go kill go snatch go arson.. haiZz... y can't he juz send one leh.. juz 5 cents... somemore he got free de leh.. suan le bahh.. tink i write so long le. also got a feeling tat he no feeling for me le.. juz wanna cum back to play... haiZz.. is it i tink too much or wat... haiZz..
y i can't noe him earlier.. if i noe him earlier den maybe i can go his sch le... at least can ownself noe wat actually happen.. no need ppl pass msg to me.. coz when they pass sometime they change.. or even bluff me.. haiZz.. juz wanna hear everything by myself.. but juz afraid to call nia.. dunno y today feeling down so so much.. today recess also down there tink tink tink.... juz wish tat Li Yan can faster online... den i can ask her somemore.... haiZz.. i also can ask her help me find out wat is happening to him.. haiZz.. though is veri troublesome but i no choice nia.. now juz hope Li Yan dun see tis blog.. cuz like tat she wun noe wat i tinking.. cuz i keep like dun believe wat she say.. but she say dao like veri real leh.. haiZz.. dunno is it juz illusion or juz tinking.. or even juz a dream.. a dream tat i tot is so realistic.. haiZz.. ermm.. wondering y abt HIS one can write so long.. heeZz.. becum li hai in writing blog le... haiZz... juz wish everything is not a bluff.. not a dream.. not a illusion and tinking.. haiZz.. juz hope tat is he sms me de.. n not other ppl.. n he wuld reply my msg..
tat time Li Yan say his hp sometime when he is playing or smsing.. he cannot receive msg de... tat mean he can't c de.. haiZz.. den now i send alot le leh... one is during at nite.. one is during the morning.. one is during my recess.. one is during my class lesson.. one is during midnite.. ermm.. tink next one maybe i sms during 3am in the morning bahh.. can't be can't receive le.. ya hor.. he veri late slp de.. eeekk.. forget last time can from at nite sms dao morning.. haiZz... suan le.. i now also dunno whether he got a stead in his sch anot.. cuz we different sch.. n i noe nothing... juz wish everything wuld be good thingy turn out bahh.. even is juz a dream i also need to wake up one day de.. haiZz.. dun tink too much le bahh.. like weiting jie say de.. later brain cell die faster... lucky i now reproduce alot of brain cell le.. so wun die so fast.. heeZz.. k le cannot tink le.. everytime write blog wil let me tink dao those sad thingy de.. haiZz.. and i wanna wish tat kor they all dunno tis webbie also.. heeZz.. ermm.. stop here le.. ^~TakE cArE~^
5:57:00 PM
