Sunday, August 31, 2008
Carefully and Understand the Meanings:
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person,
who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead,
you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....
you don't always see them,
but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until u make it come true.
LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.
Send this on to everyone special in your life, even the people who really make you mad sometimes. Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted.
(So I shall share with everyone) =)
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To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.
To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.
To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...
To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics
Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.
Learn to forgive & forget.
The past shall always be there.
The memories shall stay,
the lesson shall be remembered.
Throughout these years,
I've learn so much. =)
Leveled up LOL!
(learn from Wencai eh) LOL!
______________________
And hello! =)
I'm back onto the earh.
Like I have't been back for so long.
Anyway, examinations are over.
And I had been really busy with ITshows.
Made a number of friends,
even friends of the competitors.
LOL! I don't really care lah seriously. =)
Anyway, my sales sucks.
And oh ya, some people say I'm good at promoting,
but not good at pushing the sales. LOLOLOL!
Oh ya, I gave all the freebies away.
If you want to buy Acer Laptop,
please contact me, I'll just give everything.
Anyway, my company really sucks.
Unlike the other companies,
they doesn't deduct your pay if you give out freebies,
but my company do, they deduct from our comission.
So if we gave as many as we had, we will be deducted as much.
Oh well, I don't care.
Like I really don't want to keep so many freebies.
Like for what seriously. After all people are paying,
I should just gave everything I had for them to make their money worth.
But seriously, my commission~ =(
But well, forget it, thinking of cheating people money,
I really cannot do it at all. =/
Earn that pathetic commission?
Damn loser company.
Anyway, my boss damn suck.
Everything about this company sucks.
The other company provided lunch,
he don't provide at all.
Furthermore,
he didn't let us go for dinner.
Wanted us to pack it to eat,
by the time when it's my turn,
the food turn cold already.
& it taste like shit. -.-"
So yeah, ate half of it and threw it away.
I'm not purposely wasting food,
I don't waste food one if you truly know me well.
I will die also finish everything up.
But, the food really sucks.
Like so hard & cold.
Roar.
Anyway, ITshow will be good,
if I didn't work under this booth,
and not under this boss.
Everyone is giving this this this, that that that,
and mine boss? Everything also don't want do don't want do.
I don't understand why he kept so many laptops,
this also don't want give, that aslo don't want give.
Make my sales sucks like shit.
If only our promotions are good.
Roar. I'm damn sian.
Anyway, my legs hurt like shit.
Really damn pain like shit,
& I wanted to get my hard disk.
But decided to give the thoughts away.
Since I think imation sucks. =/
I wanted to get Maxtor.
But Maxtor doesn't give garskins anymore.
Damnnnnnnnnnnnnn sad~
Curse that bastard who stole my hard disk.
Roar. =( Return to me lah, TMD~
OH YA, did I mentioned about my last paper?
My last paper sucks seriously.
Cause I don't know how to do the class diagram.
Damn super duper Good game loh~
But I managed to finish up the paper early,
& rush to work. =DDDD
Starting of work was terrible,
cause there wasn't anyone familiar.
It's all strangers & I'm supposed to work there. =/
In the end, I went to do stupid things & made friends with all. =D
ITshow is fun because I like to make friends. =D
& this ITshow seemed to be like a gathering for my Singtel pals.
I kept seeing loads of Singtel khakis. =DDD
& I was thinking of Adrian since I found him very lookalike with Gary.
So ya, in the end the next few hours, he popped in front of me. LOL!
I think I have telepathy lah. LOLOL!!
So yeah, eveyone is working different for different company. LOL!
Somemore, I'm no longer the MIO girl. =( SO SAD CAN~
Cause they hired the newbies again. Damn loser. -.-"
But never mind, when it comes to roadshows,
they always find us. But I still don't like it.
Since it's because through ITSHOW,
all of us get to gather together. =(
If it's roadshow, only a few of us. =(
And ya, I missed my Singtel pals. =(
So yeah, today stayed with Dickson & Jacklyn & friends.
Did all the camwhoring outside the convention hall LOL!
Supposedly to join my Acer friends for toastbox.
But my legs hurt like shit really. =(
Sighed.
It's another long day tomorrow.
Anyway, got to rest for next week,
then I will start finding job in the mean time. =D
So yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh jobb~
Anyone has the job to work for F1?
I want leh I want leh I want lehhhhhhh~
ROAR. Should have signed up in Oriental,
but too late. =(
Oh well~
I'm going to find job no matter what.
Got to work really hard for these holidays.
Then after holidays then I start slacking.
Got money to slack mah~ Better still right.
Not like now, so poor thing like that. =(
I'm broke.
Like seriously.
Roar you.
K bye~
12:43:00 AM
Thursday, August 28, 2008
I cannot understand means cannot understand.
I kept ranting and ranting.
But what to do.
Eventually,
I really give up.
Not that I didn't try.
I did try, but really it kills.
Don't understand lah. TMD~
Freak this paper.
I sweared, I got to curse & swear.
TMD, Freak. MAMA DE LAHHHHHHHH~
I never hate exams so much.
For once I does.
1:21:00 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I'm still not dying. I'm still not dying. I'm still not dying.
I should be contented. I should be contented. I should be contented.
I'm going crazy.
Like really~
Anyway, it's going to be tough,
straight after all the havoc over examinations.
I'm going down to IT show to work for some laptops company.
Err, actually I wandered if I had heard wrongly for the company that I working for.
So yeah, decided to go for work already.
Since nice Lijie is helping me to look around for the hard disk,
and I have to then pass him the money & he shall help me get it. =D
No worries over my hard disk already. =)
Talking about hard disk.
I still haven't return him the thumbdrive. -.-"
Ohhhhhhhhh ya~
Okay, back to the killing SAS.
Roar you man. like really loh~
Bye
10:30:00 PM
I'm bored.
Roar.
ISFUN is killing me.
So much of the AI systems,
so much of the hardwares & softwares.
so much of the CBIS thing,
so much of the expert systems,
so much of the decision support system,
so much of the transaction processing system,
so much of the e-commerce & mobile system,
so much of the management information system.
So much so much so much!
& now, everything felt so dead to me. =/
Roar-ing.
What intranet, extranet...
What components of decision support system.
What Components of the hardware...
Whatever of the data alteration & destructions,
like the virus, worms, logical bombs & trojan horse. =/
Walaoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
Siao one leh~ So dead. =(
Characteristic of expert systems
1. Display "intelligent" behavior
2. Explain reasoning
3. Provide portable knowledge
4. Deal with uncertainty
5. Draw conclusions from complex relationship
When to use expert systems
1. Provide a higher payoff
2. Solve problems which are not easily solved with traditional programming
3. Develop a more consistent system than human experts
4. Capture & preserve human expertise
5. Provide expertise which is rare
6. Provide expertise which is needed in various area
7. Provide expertise for training & develpment
8. Develop a solution faster than a human expertise can
Outputs of Management information system
1. Scheduled Report
2. Key-indicator Report
3. Demand Report
4. Exception Report
5. Drill-down Report
Components of an Expert Systems
1. Knowledge base
2. Explanation facility
3. Inference engine
4. Knowledge base acquisition facility
5. User interface
Components of an Decision Support System
1. Model Base
2. Database
3. External database access
4. Access to internet
5. Dialogue manager
WALAO~
And more of it loh.
I got 49 study cards to study leh.
& there's 8 chapters which is full of lectures slides.
Roar~
Exam kills.
At least it kills me. =(
I'm drained.
Roar.
Pathetic.
Loser.
Tomorrow paper is so much worst.
Kill me mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~
I'm starting to feel like dying. =(
But on a brighter side, I might meet Lijie, Alvin & Daniel today. =D
But I shall see how first, since I really have loads to study. =(
I hate exams.
& I'm wondering,
should I work in IT fair?
I want to get my hard disk you see. =(
If I work there, I won't be able to get it you see.
Then how am I supposed to decide?
If I'm working for IT fair,
which means there's alot of things I can't do.
Furthermore, I need to rush straight down to work after exams.
That's like so, stressing.
Alright. Time to go.
Takecare ya.
With love,
Siah Hwan Ling.
=(
11:45:00 AM
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
I spent the whole afternoon doing nothing-ness.
I studied only 2 chapters and I fell asleep on my bed.
Good game man~
So next, met up with Dickson for dinner.
Jacklyn came to meet us after her work.
So yeah, we walked around, chatted around.
Blahblahblahblah. Mum came downstair to talk to Jacklyn.
So ya blahblahblahblahblahblahblah.
& now I'm home. LOL!
K, it's meaningful day. =D
Because I met up with Dickson & Jacklyn,
after like so long?
&& I want to shop. =(
Jacklyn, when's our shopping time. =(
Oh ya! Jacklyn said that I'm the only one friend of Dickson,
that is really fun to be with, or rather click? Yay-ness!
I'm a happppppppppy girl I tell you. =)
And roar.
Back to study.
Bye!
1:31:00 AM
Monday, August 25, 2008
initially I want to study till 6am.
But cannot already. It's only 4.18am. =(
I'm not very tired.
It's just that, I have nothing to study.
I don't want to start my ISFUN yet.
So yeah, I'm going to sleep now.
Roar.
My body clock is screwed.
I'm not tired.
I hope I can sleep.
Because I really felt so uneasy,
with that little tinge of pain in my back.
I hope someone could help me. =(
May buddha help me get through ya. =D
Bye.
4:11:00 AM
I really can't study so hard. =(
I don't want to study.
I wish exams are gone.
And exams are killing me.
Like it's draining me so mentally.
I need fun time. =(
But I don't want to regret.
I want to study well.
I want to score A's.
And I'm so contradicting.
I wished I could have liked gone dead.
I'm a nuisance. =D
And this post is such a redunant one.
Because I'm not making any sense you see.
Most of all, I need to endure through these few days.
It's gonna be hard, but it's gonna end very soon.
Yes, very soon. It's all be over. =D
I got to cut out from the internet for the moment.
But, all my friends will start asking if I had gone MIA again.
Give me a motivation to study man. =(
Perhaps, if I score 3A's,
I'll get 300 bucks?
But from where?
Sky will drop ah?
My back is hurting me.
Sighed. Really hurting.
Sighed.
2:27:00 AM
It's 2.16am.
I'm still awake.
& I have cravings for food.
Yes, any kinds.
But in fact,
I have more cravings,
for apple pies. LOL! =/
MacDonald one~
Though it's so near my house,
but I'm so lazy to go over. =(
Who wants to be nice and buy for me at this hour?
Roar. I should stop eating. But my cravings kill. =.="
And and, I wanted to eat Maggie mee.
But I seriously think it's so cranky.
Like it's so unhealthy and everything.
But I just have that cravings.
I have cravings for subways too.
I have cravings for chompchomp. =(
I have cravings for steaks.
And I seriously think,
I'm a loser.
Cause I just can't stop having cravings. =((
Someone, really really kills me please. =(
I should be contented.
Roar.
Tell me what should I do?
2:15:00 AM
I forget to say this.
Yesterday, when I was in Orchard.
We were riding the bike, and then I heard, "Eh, Wanling!"
Then I was looking from afar, don't know who.
Then "Ehhhhhhhhhh, Cheeren!" LOL!
I didn't know he can spot me so well.
Since we rode at quite a fast pace. LOL!
I know he do read my blog at time one.
So "OI CHEEREN!, You have good eyesight eh!" LOL!
Super zai lah you. =D
And I was still thinking last few days,
like eh, so long never see cheeren. LOL!
You know, when at times, some friends will just pop across my mind.
So yeah, don't be suprise if you receive a "Boo!", "Hello!", "Yo-ness!".
LOLOL ! I know very lame lah, but really mah.
& I miss Madeline.
I miss Evelyn.
Poppi they faster finish 'O' level.
And we shall go camp together. =)
Faster faster finish narh. =(
I miss Amanda Sim!
Shopping soooooooon.
After examinations okay okay !
Okay byebye.
12:37:00 AM
Sunday, August 24, 2008
The little baby girl we saw. Damn cute. =)
Victor's Running Track. -.-"
Morning! =)
I love SingTel =D LOL!
HELLLO EARTHLINGS =)
I tell you ah,
my back ache like shit.
I want to study also cannot.
Anyway I almost died two times yesterday. LOL!
So I went to join the guys for their midnight cycling. =)
Yeow Chong said, "We almost lost wanling from a cab."
Damn funny lah, but in fact, it's the second time already.
The first time was when we were sending Yuanyi marmie back,
so she took my bike, while I was rode by HangQi.
Kiasinang I tell you!
My life was handed over to him man. -.-"
And he seemed very not zai, but quite zai one lah.
But ahh, when we were crossing the traffic light,
suddenly the cab turned in, almost banged. -.-"
See! Never let anyone take care of your life.
LOL!
The second time was that we were having a race,
so we were supposed to head over to Kallang from Orchard.
So yeah, we went through the Little India way.
So it's a straight line ahead.
I happily riding & leading the others,
so suddenly I saw one cab coming from my side,
and I quickly brake. =/
Another close encounter to death. -.-"
So never let me be the one to lead,
I will die one. =/
So yeah, we went over to the CBD area.
Many many places I tell you.
We went from East Coast to Kallang Leisure Park,
then we headed to Cityhall, and Bugis.
And then Cityhall again, then Old Market,
then to Tanjong Pagar, then to Orchard,
then to Kallang, then to East Coast.
12 hours of cycling. =/
Yay! Jianfei LOL!
Midnight cycling is fun,
but it's tiring, really tiring.
There's a period where everyone was so tired.
While I was so energetic like that, siao one~
But there's a time when we reach Orchard,
I'm damn damn super duper tired. =/
I think the racing part is damn cool.
Cause we have to figure out the way. =/
But midnight cycling in CBD area is damn dangerous.
Cause you will feel that not many cars are around,
while cars will feel that not many people are around.
And there's many many racer cars in the night.
So we got to watch many many cars ahead.
Damn cool I tell you. But speeding kills. =/
Yadah, when I reached home.
Quickly bathe and died on my bed.
When I woke up at 1pm, chatted with mum.
Then she went to sleep so I aslo continued my sleep.
She thought I wasn't home yet, so she called my phone.
So cute loh~
I slept till 6pm on the dot norh.
So accurate I tell you!
Wanted to skip my dinner,
but mum wants to eat,
so accompanied her.
But at least, I skipped two meals today. =D
Damn satisfied I tell you. =/
But my back damn pain,
I don't even have the thought of hungry.
Even though I'm suffering now.
I'm still going to study later.
I don't care. =/
I can't wait for examinations to end,
then go out for another eating out with Justin & Yuanyi. xD
Then I want go learn driving from Justin. xD!
Damn exciting one norh I tell you. =/
And and he said that going out with me is relaxing. LOL!
Like it's not boring and everything, of course narh!
Who am I nia~ How can I stand quietness. LOL!
I will die man.
I can't wait for another eating session.
But ah, WALAO fattening lohhhh~
Never mind, I got two others to pei me fat together. LOL!
Furthermore, Yuanyi laomazi had agreed with me to go for rollarblading. =D
Healthy lifestyle mannnnnnnnnn~ LOL!
I also want her to go shopping with meeee~
But she so busy. =(
NAFA you sucks. =(
Oh ya, I have good hair day today loh!
But I didn't go out today. =/
Tired lah~
Back to study.
Was thinking this morning.
*deleted everything.*
I think I have to talk to him.
To come to a conclusion,
than me stucking in,
this dilemma.
His message last night,
really got me shocked.
But was he really sober not. =/
11:34:00 PM
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Roar. Exam exam exam.
Kill exams man~ =((
Did I mentioned,
I'm in the kawaiienx group. -.-"
I'm the xiia0em0o.
Sibei er xin I tell you. =/
That day, we were in library.
So Jonathan and I were chatting with the others,
they were in the school lab, so we chatted through MSN.
And that Charlton started the twit language.
So, I played along. =/
Then he said he was xiia0shugar.
Then Chinyong said he's xiia0lurbbx.
Then Clements said he's xiia0blackx.
So I'm the xiia0em0o.
While Jonathan is the,
xiia0j0nniex. =/
WALAO SIBEI ER XIN I TELL YOU! =/
Some people still typed like that.
With double i, and double e.
When I see those, I really laughed.
But I can't say anything,
because I used to type like that. xD
But not so erxin till one word can become so long.
I only typed with ii am wanliingx. =/
Like that only.
The other girls are super erxin one norh.
one word, for example - why right.
They can typed until - wwhhyyeexz rriitteexz. -.-"
No offence to those who still typed like that.
But ah, time to learn to type proper english. =/
It helps you to improve in your english too.
My english improved dramatically is because of my blog.
I will checked up those super chimology words and used. =D
And I really read a lot a lot of Harry Potter books norh! =D
BLAHBLAHBLAH.
Everyone is going army in September. =(
Then there won't be so much fun anymore.
Why September seemed to be a month people go army. =(
It seemed that, you will passed by the stage,
when most of your friends go in NS.
Then later on, you will passed by the stage,
when most of your friends held wedding and stuffs.
Then later on, you will passed by the stage,
of grow old and died & attending funeral.
OMG~
Time past really.
I don't want to regret any decision.
So yeah, I'm back to where I belonged. =)
And now, I'm wondering.
If he ever really meant it seriously.
When I hopped into his friendster eh,
saw many many girls in his list. Haha~
Roar~
Haha~
I like the song,
Dui de ren. =)
My current favourite. =X
I kept changing favourite song. =/
Never mind lah, also it's my problem. =x
KK BYEBYE.
STUDY.
LATER MEET FOR MCM =)
I hope Yuanyi marmie can join us. =(
Really really really hope.
Ciaos.
Zai Jian. =)
1:59:00 PM
Friday, August 22, 2008
The Four of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in bonding.
I celebrate our common connection, success,
or attraction and recognize the equal status,
protection, or reputation that results in the formation
of this union is merely the beginning or negotiation of something new.
I am empowered by positive results within the partnership and
I transform through teamwork or marriage.
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Saw this tarot card in the morning.
Didn't understand what it meant,
until later in the night.
Maybe..
Or maybe not.
I don't know.
I will think through. =)
Got so surpise by his question.
Maybe I'll give it a try, or maybe I'll not.
Let's see what conclusion have I come across.
=)
____________
So yeahhhhh,
today was dumb.
I did nothing meaningful.
Met up with Nankeng in the evening.
Bought his Mp3 which was chosen by me norh!
I was looking around then I saw it damn nice.
Then he also agreed with me.
I tell you ah, really damn nice norh.
The functions and everything also damn style.
Super duper zai mp3. Somemore cheap cheap.
My Ipod Nano, not much functions. It's $300+?
I can't remember already. =/
And his mp3 so zai,
got bluetooth and everything.
& given a speaker to him blahblahblah.
All the packages and everything, it's only $285?
What the shit~ -.-"
Alright never mind.
Kept whining to him. =(
I think humans just aren't satisfied.
I should be contented with what I have. =/
Blahblahblah, we waited for the cab for damn long.
In the end, he went to call the cab.
But we waited for even longer. -.-"
Loser sia~
Then, he sent me over to Kallang.
& I met up with the rest at Shanyou. =D
Did all the envelop things.
& home sweet home with Raymond & Fuzhong. =)
Decided to come home early today,
because I've been out very late these few days.
I thinks havoc time should stop. =/
& yeah, tomorrow I'm having midnight cycling with them.
So better come home early today and rest,
if not I would die tomorrow.
For your information,
I'm not MIA alright. =/
I'm still contactable through phone.
Many many people called me lately.
Like it's been so surprise for not seeing me online. =/
I'm just out with my friends till too late.
So didn't have time to come online. =)
Nobody understands this pain.
Including you.
Got to start a new life soon.
Once holidays start,
I'm got to lead a new life.
Got to get over him completely.
Told myself to hate him.
But I couldn't bring myself.
Not because I still love him.
But just that, I really felt so neutral.
Even though, I piece up all the facts now.
& piecing up the facts that he used to tell me,
the I-don't-know-if-it's-lie lie smacked right at my face.
It's still like, I do felt the pain.
But I'm not feeling angry.
Nor am I feeling upset.
Haha~
Contradicting.
Perhaps that's what its all about.
I know I can make it through.
Though at times, emo kills me.
But it's just be over soon. =)
Every problems, everyone has a part to play.
We can't just accuse of the other parties of all the faults.
We, at self are at faults too. =) So even if it's all lied,
it's my fault for being so believing, too trusting.
And there's definitely a reason why he wanted to lie.
Perhaps, he didn't know what the future will be.
With him falling for a young little girl.
Or what so ever. Haha~
So perhaps,
to put it in a bright side,
it's isn't really a lie after all. =)
I'm feeling damn fine after I got over the thoughts. =)
What for hate him man right, what for make things so ugly.
I mean, it's better to have a friend than having an enemy. =D
Things will get better for me. =)
I just have to believe in it.
I been through more shits.
Shits happened in life.
& when shits happened,
it helped us to grow. =D
Part of my learning journey.
He's just someone who taught me strong.
Be grateful. =)
I'm strong now. =D
& I'll tried to delete all the emo post.
After all, sad things aren't meant to be kept.
We should just forget and forgive over upset things. =)
If things are not meant to be,
it will always never meant to be.
No matter how hard we tried,
it will still not meant to be. =)
Good luck to him.
Sincerely wish him the best. =)
It will all get better in time. =)
Time heals all wound.
Including the worst wound.
The worst pain.
11:33:00 PM
Did I mentioned?
Enghua kor said that,
I WILL BE A PARTY ANIMAL few years down the road.
I told him, that I won't be another party animal.
But he insisted you see. =/
So let's wait for a few years down the road,
and see if I keep going clubbing,
like everyday?
If I do?
Please reprimand me.
Please disgrace me. =D
Please kill me.
LOL!
Cause I want to show it to Enghua kor that,
I won't mannnnnnnnnnn~ =/
At least, not at all narh. =(
Go once or twice weren't matter right. =/
I just want to go there to be an eye opener you see.
To see how girls being touch by guys in there.
To see how havoc girls are. =/
To see how pretty girls are.
To see how desperate guys are.
To see how malicious the guys are.
Heh heh~
I won't be a party animal!
Enghua korr!~ See it!?
Roar~
3:07:00 PM
Suit me well man~ =/
I like to sing sha gua a lot also. xD
These 3 songs are very old song. =/
But very very nice lah~
Cannot meh~
Anyway, I have old old Angmoh songs aslo LOL!
I also have meaning meaningful angmoh song also. =/
You want what, I also have. But can't share xD!
I support original eh. LOL =/
我知道你很难过
爱一个人
需要缘份
你何苦让自己
越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真
去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等
爱一个人
别太认真
你受伤的眼神
令人心疼
没有一个人
非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己
面对伤痕
我知道你很难过
感情的付出
不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做
爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人
今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定
伤的比较久
爱一个人
别太认真
你受伤的眼神
令人心疼
没有一个人
非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己
面对伤痕
我知道你很难过
感情的付出
不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做
爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人
今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定
伤的比较久
爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子
我知道你很难过
感情的付出
不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做
爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人
今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定
伤的比较久
对的人
你问在我心中
是否还苦恼
那次受伤
否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照
我一切都好
一个人 不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角
那次流过的泪
让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到
与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要 是一种对照
爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现
能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱
海阔天高
喔--- 耶----
爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现
爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现
傻瓜
-this MTV suits me man ! LOL!
That's wha Liangjian said LOL!
其实别人的招数我们都懂 没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞 只是有一点彆扭
傻瓜也许单纯得多 爱得没那么做作 爱上了我不保留
傻瓜 我们都一样 被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样 却又再一次受伤
傻瓜 我们都一样 受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价 代价只是一句傻瓜
2:07:00 PM
Fake eyelashes~ =D
But not good one.
I wore it on Tuesday I think?
Walao~ very pekchy-ing~ =/
Partyworld-ing. =/
Emo period lah~ =/
I never put foundation on that day. =/
Don't know why my face looked damn white. =/
I very lazy put foundation. Somemore it hurts your skins. =/
Jonathan ! Clements!
Xiaoxiao! =D
My new name =D HL! xD
Study hard hard =D
Slacking time. -.-" Nonsense time~
Pearson! =/
Zhenglin look shuai her ah LOL!
Jianyong look damn cool here. LOL!
I think I'm good at taking photos with lights. LOL!
HELLO~ =/
Ehh, it seemed really really long since I blogged.
Like it don't really happened before. =/
Anyway, I have my reasons not to come online. =)
Furthermore, I had been returning home so late everyday.
& by the time when I reached home, I'm all drained and tired.
So yeah, didn't even have that strength to come online. =/
Just a summary of what I had been doing these days.
Blahhblahblah, I remembered Monday,
I went Shanyou Counselling Centre?
Then, slacked with Victor at my place?
Ehhh, I think so ?
On Tuesday, we went for partyworld-ing?
Blahblahblahblah, spent our night at hongkong cafe.
Then Wednesday, I went over to Kallang,
then the guys were heading home already. =(
So yeah, in the end, we decided to slack at Buangkok.
The HDB flat there were like so damn chio can!
And we explored an abandoned flat. =/
Scary~ But well...
Thursday, which means it's yesterday.
We slacked in Bugis. =D
Before that, I met up with Dickson & Kerwin & another guy,
then we headed over to Simlimsquare.
Then I met up with Victor there.
& sent me home. -.-"
Had burger king,
then I met up with them again.
That was the time when I saw that "thing"
Tmd~ I shouldn't have took the lift all along myself.
So this was what happened, I remembered damn clearly.
I took the lift up, so there were people taking lift up with me too.
Everyone went out of the lift on the 20th floor, & I'm supposed to go up 24th floor.
So I was all alone in the lift, waiting to go up to meet the other guys.
When my lift went up, I couldn't go out, I was like blocked by something.
I was so scare at that time, quickly went back to the 20th floor.
When I got out of the lift, I saw the other rushing down from the staircase,
so I thought they were playing a prank on me, quickly asked them.
But they told me what actually happened,
they just said they are running away from an uncle.
So I was so suprised, I told them I was blocked by something just now.
Then they said, they saw me in the lift on the 20th floor for very long,
& they were seen by an uncle, so they run down to look for me also.
In the end, we took the lift together, to 24th floor,
I see nothing blocking the lift that I took just now.
So I got really scared, and asked them if they played prank.
They kept saying they didn't play any prank blahblahblah.
So we decided to go down to the 20th floor,
and we take the same lift to go up to 24th floor again.
In the mean time, Pearson chose to walk up the staircase.
So yeah, the 7 of us went into the lift and up to 24th floor.
When the door opened, that's what I had seen just now.
The thing that had blocked me from going out of the lift.
They quickly called Pearson. =/
So we went all the way downstairs.
Pearson said, he never see anyone coming out the lift.
Good game man~
Walao. Kanasai I tell you.
Blah, in the end nothing much happened.
We went to play and slacked again. =)
Anyway, I don't dare to take the lift already.
I shall walk the stairs everyday.
But walao, 5 storey leh~
Tmd~ Lucky I stayed in the 5th.
If not, if I stayed in the 10th or whatsoever.
I need to climb that high? -.-"
I should go back study.
I haven't study the whole day today.
Later, I'm stlil going out with Nankeng.
I told him that I got blocked by that "thing"
Then he say he bring me to pray hard hard together LOL!
Damn funny lah, all our hard hard thing.
And oh ya, what's so amazing that I'm onlined. LOL!
Everybody starts to go "Hey, you online!", "Wah, you online!"
I cannot online mehhh~ =(
Blahblahblahblah.
Saw that girl's blog again.
Guess my bet with D was correct.
All his lies and everything, the excuses.
I can't believe, I believed everything,
every single things.
Whatever excuses that he only wants to earn money,
whatever excuses that the girl was too young,
whatever excuses that this and that.
I can't believed, I really trust him so much,
trusting him so much, yet it's all lied.
I can't live in a lie anymore.
I expected all these things to happened.
That's why, I chose not to contact him.
I chose to tell him to take care,
and end off everything.
For his side, it's even better for me to leave him.
It's better for me not to hold on to him,
so that he will not have to give excuses anymore,
not anymore.
You hurt me badly.
Can you hear it,
my heart is aching,
because of your fcuking lie. =)
This is the last time,
my heart aches for you.
Time to go back study. =)
11:40:00 AM
Monday, August 18, 2008
Tomorrow still need to wake up early.
Everyday sleep so late one norh.
But, it's not I wanted to sleep late.
It's just that, time past too fast lah.
Like you played the computer for just awhile,
it's already 1.30am. -.-"
What's more?
Later play another while,
2am ah. -.-"
Roar-ing~
Can time go a little slower.
I'm so afraid to grow old.
I'm so afraid mum dad to grow old.
I'm so afraid people leaves me. =/
Okay, I'm being so random.
But seriously loh.
Time past so fast.
Kiasinang.com
Boyboy is barking.
I want to start roaring.
Guess, Boyboy & I can vesus.
See who will win man~ XDD
But it look seriously stupid.
Imagine boyboy and I quarrel.
Boyboy: *Barkbark*
Me: Roar you!
Boyboy: *Barkbark*
Me: ROAR!
Boyboy: *Barkbark*
Me: Roarrrrr *bite*
LOLOL!
Okay, very lame.
2am soon already lah.
Walao eh~ -.-"
Like that post one blog,
then it's coming to 2am.
What the hell~ =/
KBYE~
1:17:00 AM
My all time favourite currently.
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
___________
Meaningful lyrics.
But hey, I'm getting over him. =D
So yeah, don't worry. =)
I lived my life,
how it used to be,
like the time,
when I didn't even know him. =D
Life still goes on,
my dear.
I realised,
I'm stronger,
than before. =)
Just take it as a learning journey,
in this journey, I'll learn to be more stronger,
and much more maturer than what I used to be.
That's just part and parcels of life.
Life's short.
Treasure every time,
every single little time,
and make myself happy.
What for get sad over a guy right?
And my dear friends, they've been falling out of love too.
It's not worth to spend your time brooding over nothingness.
Just get over it, and move on. =D
Life still goes on.
Not like if he/she's gone,
your life stops there or anything.
It still goes on, so make full use of it. =D
Earn more money, do more good deeds,
make more friends, spend more time with family.
Anything, anything that can get your mind out him/her. =D
I sounds so pro in it,
but I'm still learning eh.
But don't worry,
I will get past this stage.
Yay-ness.
I want food. =/
Okay, stop yearning for food.
TOO STRESS FOR EXAMINATIONS LAH~ =/
So I need a lot a lot food leh~ =(
K Jianfei.
Bye.
1:03:00 AM
Was it concidence or what.
I read yuanyi's blog,
and I saw a song,
Guan Huan Fang Shi.
So I asked Lijie,
if can send me that song,
just nice after I got that song,
I saw him asking me for the exact same song. -.-"
When can we actually stop all these concidence things?
I don't want to trigger any feeling for him.
I'm so lazy to file. =/
12:34:00 AM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Roar,
just saw my emo post.
Felt so unlike myself. =/
I want to be happy remember?
Don't want to let the emo post stayed at the top.
Wanted to delete it, but found it stupid. -.-"
Cause I like that little picture at the bottom a lot. =)
ANYWAY,
I want shopping.
I want a lot of things. =(
But firstly, I need money.
I need a job. =D
Don't want to lived on my parents.
And IT fair is coming, I'm getting a new Hard disk again.
This time round, I sweared I'll put many bells around it,
and I'll put it in a very very bulky file or something.
& I'll get a 1GB thumbdrive.
Just in case I need to use it.
OKAY, there goes my money.
I want to get a laptop too.
But no money. =(
And I want to go shopping, you see. =/
I need to renew my wardrobe. =/
No more bugis-streety feeling.
Wahahaha~
I remembered Wencai told me that,
I wore like Bugis-streety. =/
Oh well~
So yeah,
lately, couldn't stand my clothes too.
Thus, need to renew my clothes again.
And I have so many clothes yet to wear. =x
Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
Hardcore studying tomorrow.
Today, just let me procastinate alright. =/
I'll get an A for my 3 examinations.
I promise you~
But for overall,
I don't know leh. =/
Cause projects and everything,
I don't know if I can get an A for overall.
But I'll try my best ya~ =D
KKBYEBYE!
I need to start filing my papers.
And study tomorrow. =DDDD
I love my library.
Anyone wants to study,
call me up ya. =D
I'll be there with my girls.
See you~
Miss library-ing. :)
10:02:00 PM
I'm sorry.
I tried to hold back my tears.
I really did.
Felt a cold sensation across my heart,
when I saw him talked to me on MSN.
Didn't know why we still have that chemistry.
Checked my email just now,
I don't check it often one.
Yet, when I checked it today.
Realise he sent me some invitation for some stuffs just 2 days ago.
It's not the invitation that matter,
the invitation is just for some lame stuffs,
and I guess all his contacts in his list will receive it,
but it's his name that I saw that made me felt weird.
Not very unhappy, yet not very happy, yet not angry either.
I just felt weird. Heart still felt that tinge of pain.
But don't worry, I'll be able to take it.
I thought I was as weak as everyone thought I was.
In fact, I was stronger than I thought I am.
I don't feel anything anymore for the past few days.
I just numb myself with all the outings,
making me tired and go to sleep everynight.
I no longer bothers about going to sign in MSN,
to look out for him anymore, not anymore.
I no longer look out my phone to see if he's called/SMS.
What's more, I wanted to delete all the messages that were exchanged.
He's still a friend to me, I don't hate him.
Or maybe, I do hate him, but I don't have that repulsive feeling in me.
I don't have that hatred feeling in me. I don't feel anything. Really.
So, I really don't know what I'm going through, hating him or not.
I just felt so neutral.
Yet, it's today that the pain still lingers alittle in the heart.
If making me cry is all he had ever wished,
he had made it all along.
I don't feel pain when I saw that girl fell in love with him.
I don't feel pain when I saw him talking to me.
I don't feel pain when I saw the email.
But I felt the pain,
when I realised, he seemed a stranger.
A stranger that were used to be so close,
used to know him so well inside out,
used to have such a good chemistry,
used to have so much things in common.
Yet, he's just a passerby in my life. =)
Just another friend in MSN,
just another contact in my phone list,
just another stranger in life.
We no longer contacts.
It's just amazed me,
the phone numbers that you remembered vividly.
Yet, you can never ever called that number again.
And, having to remember another guy/girl's number all over again,
isn't it get so tiring? I don't know.
I just knew, his numbers,
I will learn to forget.
And now,
I'll be fine.
I'm stronger than you guys thought I were.
I move on easily like it's not hurting me. =)
Been there, done that.
Am still doing it. =)
Don't worry,
I'll be over him,
completely. =)
My heart is broken,
but I'm still alive. =)
A broken heart is like a broken mirror,
it's better to leave it all broken apart,
than risking yourself being hurt,
by trying to fix it. =)
This picture is cute. =)
I'll be fine! =D
7:26:00 PM
(\(^-^)/)
Ice Cube Time! =)
Yuanyi Marmie =)
JUSTIN! =)
Brownie Cheesecake
The strawberry damn nice =)
Waffle Icecream =)
No flashlight =/
With flashlight
Our arts =D =/
Yuanyi said it's art~
And Justin said shld add one finger than counted art. LOL!
Mango Ice with Enghua kor~
Still got french toast but I never take it down. =(
So yeah, was out yesterday.
Met up with Yuanyi marmie shopping. =D
Then headed to SBM, blahblahbahblah.
We were seeing the photos of the cyclone's victim.
So terrible, so scary, the bodies are everywhere.
Because the cyclone happened at 1am.
So everyone is asleep at that time.
Imagine you being there,
and the next morning you wake up,
you lost your house, you lost your family,
you lost everything. Fear overwhelm you.
However, despite all these fears,
the people there were so discipline.
I'm really impressed by them.
But, I felt really upset for them.
Sighed.
Treasure what you have.
Be contented. =)
Anghwee told me one thing,
"More thinking, more suffering."
I got enlighted by it. LOL!
Whenever I thought of him,
I will just tell myself that sentence.
Blahhh~ =D
After SBM, brought Yuanyi to meet up with Justin.
Headed over to ChompChomp. =/ Ate so much can~
Fried Oyster, Fried Hokkien Mee, Fried Carrot Cake.
Satay, Chicken Wings, Sugar Cane Drink.
Next, our second stop,
we went over to Ice cube,
the one that SYWJ brought me there. LOL!
Ordered my waffle again. =D
Damn shiok lah I tell you~ =/
Oh ya, I don't wear make up lately. =/
Not good for face leh~ =/
Tried to wear lesser now.
So pictures these days,
are really ugly lah. =/
But I still like to cam-whore.
That's what girls do. =X
Don't care~
Blahblahblah,
sent Yuanyi home,
Then Justin sent me to Raffles City.
Met up with the rest, played there.
Then I meet up with Enghua kor.
We went over to East Coast. LOL!
The nonsense things lah~ =/
Then, went over to Hongkong Cafe.
We had Mango Ice, French Toast, Yuanyang. =D
I think it's really a sinful night last night. =/
I ate so much, and I even went to Hongkong cafe for supper.
Ended up, I reached home at 1.30am or so. =/
I wanted to sleep early since I need to wake up early.
But I was feeling so full, like so bloated up.
Blahhh, played the computer for awhile till 2.30am.
Couldn't stand it anymore, decided to just go to sleep. =/
Woke up at 6.45am to wake Raymond up.
Woke up at 7.15am to bath and headed over to SimsVille.
Yes, to Liangjian's place to drop the bags and gym!
Gym-ing time. =D
Blahblahblahblahblah.
Home sweet home.
Sleep.
Summarised. =/
I never go out today. =(
But it's by choice. LOL!
Too sian already, everyday go out.
Somemore, everyday eat so much.
Very very very very fattening lah.
I need to lose weight.
So, I shall take some time off,
after my examinations to do exercising.
Supposed to study today.
But wahahaha. =/
Procastination kills.
Shall do some filing tonight.
Then library tomorrow. =D
See if I want to blog tonight. =/
I'm very lazy now.
Yadah~
Procastinating again~
Roar, Rah, Boo~
K bye!~
Bored~
5:49:00 PM
