Thursday, January 31, 2008
I'm feeling so reluntant to blog,
but I have nothing to do at all.
Nothing you know you know !
That idiot kaiwen kept commenting on my songs,
so I rather put it to a classic song,
& I find it really really nice,
who has that piano score?
& yesterday yesterday,
I met Yiting & Tinghui at Blossom Marina Square,
while I was with Jonathan & Weetheng,
I'm a big big lightbulb there. =/
Everyone is working,
I have to end up being so pathetic to be lightbulb. =(
But in the end I saw Yiting & Tinghui & I joined them. :D
Thanks Weetheng & Jonathan & sorry. =/
Yadah yadah, shopped.
& I bought my Zara Spaggetti. :D
It's red, best for new year. xD !
& I'm so going to shop online now since I can't walk. =(
I feel so pathetic. =( Really really pathetic.
Last time, I shopped online is because I'm too busy,
& then now, I have time but I'm injured. =(
& Gerralyn called me,
asking me if I want to go and join Aerospace Catering?
It sounds so cool, like really really cool.
But I'm very lazy to travel to Changi. =(
& Sister-in-law thinks it's a waste of transport fare.
& he also thinks that too,
so I'm not going anymore. =D
I had been staying home the whole day already.
I'm so bored, so bored till I can grow loads of mushrooms & sell.
Alex, Wong Ian & Nick are working tomorrow. =D
I can't join them. =( If can, I would have joined them.
But I've sprained my leg so badly, how can I walk? Tsk.
& lan tomorrow is cancelled.
Don't ask me why, I'm tired already.
Sighs, it's always such things happening.
I'm already very sick of planning things & then got screwed.
Alright, forget it. I'm so going to rot tomorrow. Hell.
& that fatty idiot is out with friends for a steamboat. =D
He's always so enjoying life, exciting life~
But I hope he take good care of himself,
he is so going to fall a sick soon. =(
I hope he's sleep early. =/
Brother is home. :D
But I felt so distance from him. =(
Sighs, I really hate to have distance from anyone I know.
& being the closest brother, he seemed so far away. =(
That's why I always asked him to go home early,
because when you lost touch with your family,
they felt really empty sometime. =(
& I think my moodswings damn high. LOL!
In awhile, I will be damn emo,
then next moment, I will be happy again. LOL!
I think I'm crazy. Damn damn damn. =/
I will be happy,
because I'm satisfied.
I think I'm sad,
is cause I miss him too much.
Haa, stop missing. =/
& when you understand somebody for long,
you know almost everything. =/
& sorry for being attitude,
I think it's really pathetic to keep cancelling plan,
but well, forget it then. We just have to compromise always.
& I feel very very upset about me not doing things properly.
Sometimes, it's just really tough to do things when I'm having my work.
Nobody understands, what else can I say ?
And especially when things are given to you last minute,
I used to be able to be really flexible to do last minute work,
but I can't right now, I have my work, I have my others commitment.
My life is no longer revolve around one thing.
I need to have my own free time too.
Sometimes, people just never understand,
& when people doesn't understand & doesn't care,
you just have to tell yourself, "That's life."
I have already get used to it,
when you are not doing what they have expected,
they look at you in a different way.
They will lose their trust in you,
they will lose their confidence in you.
I really can't do it,
so I gave up.
Things just never go the way you want it to,
so expect the unexpected always,
don't put too much hope in life,
because reality hurts.
Once, I thought I can do everything & anything.
But in fact, I can't. I'm sorry, I'm not within your expectation.
& I'm sorry, reality hurts to me a lot.
Because I'm always the one who gets the hurt all the time.
I'm always the one who never look forward to what tomorrow brings.
If you know me well, you would have know what's my life had been.
I've been through most suckiest time ever in life,
I've been through everything.
To be honest, failures do bring me down.
I will brood over it for a very very long time.
& when I can't do the things I should be doing,
it brings me really down too.
But I promised to take all the shits easily & lightly.
I promised to remind myself how impermanence things can get.
& I think I should start bottling everything up,
I shouldn't start telling anyone anything about me.
I don't want to listen to negative comments, really.
I know it's harsh, I know it's reality,
but sometimes I just needed alittle care.
Not the comments that will bring me down further.
& I should stop blogging with negativity now.
I should be optimistic, I should be happy.
I'm not supposed to be the type of girl which cry easily.
So as not to be even more negative,
I shall throw myself out of negativity,
& I should stop blogging right now. :D
I will be fine. :D
I'm just sorry that I had disappointed everyone.
I'm really sorry.
And boy,
I miss you so.
L-O-V-E-S!~
The stars no longer shine.
So I crave for the moon to shine,
to lighten up this life, my life.
10:52:00 PM
I'm just being too emo.
I'm upset that I'm emo.
So I will be happy. :D
But still, sighs,
I'm fine.
我也不会哭泣，
是因为太爱你，
结果我弄伤了我自己。
就算彼此有多么的了解，
可是我还是不会放手。
我知道我是太爱你，
爱你多过你爱我，
所以最后弄伤自己的，
总是只有我一人。
就算哭了多少次，
都是我的错，
因为知道你根本不属于我，
但我还是一直落下去。
有时候，
我真的很累。
累在因为你不在乎，
累在就算我多么努力，
你还是这么的冷漠。
到底为何其他人对我的好，
我不在乎，我却在乎你怎么对我的冷漠。
我自己也不明白。
算了，算我多么得太单纯，
以为你会喜欢我，会爱护我，
像其他人一样的关心我。
在我越陷越深的时候，
而你却越走越远了。
曾经的你，
好像越离越远。
一切都好不公平，
在我最需要一个人的时候，
你却不在。
在我最想你的时候，
你也都不在。
就是因为知道你很忙，
就是因为知道你在和朋友，
所以我不打扰，不去吵闹。
所以只好一直告诉自己，
你很忙，不要打扰。
人总是会有累的一天。
可是我不想让一切结束，
我不舍得，我放不下。
我不想忘记你，你明白吗？
反正，你也读不着。
所以我只能告诉我自己，我明白。
当眼泪滑过嘴角时，
我只需要你在身旁。
Things will fall into places,
I believe so, because I believe in him.
I miss him.
2:37:00 PM
I had been really down on luck lately.
Firstly, I was sick, very sick.
& then last night, I sprained my leg badly, very badly.
It's now uber swollen now. I'm damn upset. =(
I went to see some doctor, I don't know what's the doctor term,
so yeah, he pressed on my injured ankle so hard that I shouted so loud. =/
& he wanted to do some acupunture, but when I see that fat fat needle,
I shouted again, like it's damn scary I tell you. -.-"
I almost died right there & then.
One month.
I love you.
1:58:00 PM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Fuzhong said that my blog song is nice. :DDD
I was full blasting my song in the lanshop last night. =D
Because I know my song rocks big time,
but that Kaiwen said that it sucks,
he think that "That's when I love you" is better. =/
Angmoh pai lah you~
Anyway, I had changed my song. =D
I'm so going to hate to listen to english song now.
You know during the periods, when I'm so into english songs,
my English got a B4 during examinations you know !
But slowly, for no reasons when I convert myself back to the English&Chinese songs,
my 'O' level, I had that damn irritating & disgusting C6. =(
It really suprises me a lot you know !
I'm always the few that passes English in class.
& now, my english is lousy like shit. =/
& I don't want to post anything about yesterday. =/
I want to be happppppy. :D
I typed everything in the draft & I didn't post it out. =/
That post is for me to know, & for you to find out. =/
I'm just feeling really really emo yesterday.
& I cried for shitty reasons.
Go away if you are trying to put me down further. =/
& I think I'm still pretty fat though I'm just about a kg away from my target.
But but, my cheeks is full of fat still you know. =/ Burn those fats !~ =/
I have to get to 40kg before Chinese New Year.
If not I will definitely grow fat again,
like you have to go around visiting the houses,
& when you have nothing to do, you will sit on the sofa to munch on the titbits. =/
While I will be sitting on the sofa eating the 肉干 =/
I don't know why, but I always picked up that first. =/
There are so many events these days.
This Saturday, my cousin is having his wedding at Sentosa.
Damn super duper thriple cool right. =D
After wedding, I want to go beach. =D
But who the hell will wear dress to go beach. -.-"
& I'm damn afraid that my dress doesn't fit me anymore.
Like these days, my shorts are really dropping. =/
& I'm going to wear the dress that I had wore it to my brother's ROM.
That dress is already dropping at that time when I wore it.
If I'm going to wear it now, I don't dare to know the answer. =/
I hope it doesn't drop alright. =/
It's a tube dress you know ~! If it dropped, that's it~ -.-"
& their wedding is on the 2nd February.
I'm going to celebrate my 2 years singlehood on 5th February.
& Chinese New Year is on the 7th February.
I don't know what will my Valentine Day be liked. =(
Because he & I are in a ambigous relationship. =/
It's just complicated though.
But now, it's just between the two of us.
So I shan't talk more about it.
It's for me to know, & not for you to find out. =/
I just love him, that's all.
& he knew it.
I'm still waiting.
I'm still loving him.
我不想忘记你
我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定 虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定 虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
Our past are beautiful,
So let's make our future beautifully together too.
12:48:00 PM
Inferior.
Nonchalent.
Tears.
I need assurance.
Sighs.
2:33:00 AM
Monday, January 28, 2008
These are my choices. :D
I'm only interested in the first three courses.
I had blurred out all my details. xD
I left that Queen Street there to show that,
I'm seriously living in Bugis!
Why everyone got a shock that there's HDB flat in Bugis?
I told you I'm living there, means I'm not lying~ -.-"
Like why would I want to waste my time to tell you I'm living in Bugis? -.-"
I really don't see a point ~ -.-"
TI GONG, BUDDHA, DEVAS, NAGAS,
Please poppi me to get into the course I wanted. :D
*Pray hard hard* I'm really scare that I can't get in.
At least let me get into the first three courses.
I don't care which one, just the first three.
If not, I sweared I will break down & start crying. =(
I told you I didn't do well in my 'O' levels.
That's why I'm damn reluntant to talk about my results.
Stop telling me that my result is alright,
it's not alright at all~ =( I had under perform.
I should be doing better than this. =(
Right now, I'm panicking over not being able to get into the course I want.
Like what for am I doing this if I had done well in my exams. =(
I really feel damn pathetic, I really did studied. =(
Whoever knew me well, you know I really did my best. =(
But my results really suck big time, so I told you I'm not good at studying.
Sighs, why is that when we are taking 'O' level, we are getting all the anxiety,
& then after the 'O' level, we are getting the anxiety over the results,
& then after the result released, we are getting the anxiety over what course to choose,
& then after the course that we had chose, we are getting the anxiety over the posting.
Hell, 'O' level sucks big time. It's never a good thing to be a 'O' level student you know!
I sweared, I regretted for not studying during my Secondary 3.
But what for am I regretting now, it's all over.
Yeah, O-V-E-R you know ! =(
Tsk, I think I'm really crap.
& WHY AM I GETTING UPSET OVER MY CHOSEN COURSE ! =/
Tsk, I'm getting over it & done with it. =/
SO YEAH GOOD BYE ~ Let's not talk about it anymore.
Today is definitely a crap day.
I woke up really really early,
despite having a very late night last night trying to figure out the courses.
& being a very good daughter & having two inconsiderate parents,
I have no choice but to wake up to start doing spring cleaning.
& yes, I threw away a big big stack of papers.
& I had kept all the books in hoping whoever who needed it,
please come to my house to take it. =D It's free for all.
If not, I'm going to sell it away at Bras Brasah already.
Whoever wants books!
Please tell me as soon as possible,
& please start booking my time slot. LOL!
My books must be out of my house by this Saturday,
& by this Saturday, I'm going to sell everything. :D
I'm working on Wednesday & Sunday,
so I won't be free on this two days. =D
I just got my booking from Jonathan.
I'm uber sad right now. =(
Like I'm only working for two days in a week ?
That's like so pathetic, really pathetic.
Which means, I'm damn free this week.
Whoever wants go out? Let's go!~ =DDDDD
New year shopping spreeee. :D
& I want to go City Plaza & get my black heels. :D
Maybe I'll get another pumps too. :D
Who wants to go lan tomorrow???
Today, the whole day I spent it at home doing spring cleaning,
& I went to sleep for awhile & woke up to get prepared to go grandparent's house.
It's my grandpa's birthday today. :DDDD
I wanted to play audition,
but the kids kept snatching with me.
Super duper uber sad~
It's been so long since I played game ? =(
& they have it on their computer,
they don't have courteous to just let me use & stop bugging me to allow them to play.
When I'm playing halfway, they will just chomp in & then started playing for me. -.-"
Kids~ Kids~ Kids~ Never mind. LOL!
& I'm feeling very old,
like I used to play with them a lot.
& they can tell me anything,
but now, it's seemed like I don't understand. -.-"
Like there's a distance between the kids & I. LOL!
I'm feeling old ~ & yet that idiot kept saying that I'm childish,
so I'm like stucked in the middle of nowhere.
Feeling childish yet feeling old too. -.-"
After going to my maternal side's, we went to my paternal side's. :D
I kept disturbing my brother, & we were like disturbing one another. LOL!
You know when you have me & my brothers around, you will never feel bored.
Cause you can always join into our craps, & can start laughing over everything.
We are really crappy, that's why I'm always so crap. xD
& my aunt said that dress that I wore that night was too mature. xD
Then I kept telling my mum, & she has nothing to say. AHA~ xD
& I told her, I will put the dress there till I'm 21 years old. xD !
So, I have more reasons to get new dresses again. xD !
I think I'm such a spendthrift. -.-" Tsk.
Alright, I'm not spending anymore. -.-"
&&, I was chatting halfway through with my brother,
he flashed across my mind, & I went emo. =/
Like suddenly, I miss him a lot a lot. =(
It's all Fuzhong & guys' fault.
They went to have lan without me.
& I was complaining about I want to have lan too. =(
& for no reason, he came into my mind. =/
In the first place, I didn't want to disturb him for the whole day.
But I don't know why, I just messaged him. =(
& I felt guilty to disturb him in the middle of everything after that. -.-"
I reach home, & I quickly settled my JAE.
& I really want to do spring cleaning,
but I'm feeling so lazy right now you know. =/
My flu is halfway gone now,
my cough is still here. =D
I think I'm partly well again. :D
& I'm fine, I can run, I can jump! :D
*Jump jump jump!* LOL!
Oh ya, I really hate being treated unfairly,
I hate to be taken for granted.
Though I doesn't say, doesn't mean I feel alright with it.
If one day, I can take it no more, I will walk out of your life completely.
You should know who you are, you should know how you have been treating me all this while.
I don't give a damn to anyone who don't give a damn to me.
I treat others the way they treat me. :D
It's just fair and square. =D
I'm just too tired to get all these shits.
When you get far too much shits all these years,
you will understand how this feel. :D
& I don't know why I will always be alright with people around me eventually.
No matter how big the quarrels are, no matter how bad the situations are,
eventually, we will become alright with each other. =D Maybe time heals everything.
Like I used to dislike people, & then we will be fine with each other after that.
Like how Jashawn & I could not work out, & he just played with feeling,
yet again, we are friends now, and we still chatted last time just like normal hi-bye friends.
If I were to know that we will be alright with each other again,
why do I dislike the person in the first place. -.-"
I think I'm really weird. -.-"
I can't even have an answer to my own question. LOL!
Just now, I was reading through my email.
& I saw the bullentin board of SBM.
I replied one, & I put up my brother's game site,
& Alwin's photo's website. :D
Alwin has new photos uploaded.
www.flickr.com/alwin
It's damn uber duper nice. :D
& I'm going to get the camera by this week.
Chinese New Year is next week. =/
& my cousin is having a wedding on this saturday. =/
I was stucked in between whether to buy Casio, Canon or Lumix. =/
The Canon IXUS 860 cost about S$669,
while the Casio one cost about S$349,
& the Lumix FX-33 cost about S$436.
They told me that Casio had been compressed as their cameras are very slim,
so their quality are not very good.
While the Canon one is too expensive.
So many I will get the Lumix one. :D
Time to find Qian Qian at Sim Lim Squre this week. :D
I haven't call her & ask about her result yet. =/
I miss my primary school friends. =(
Time to turn in. :D
BYE~
12:36:00 AM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
I think I had itchy mouth.
I wanted to bite something. =(
Normally, when people around me,
they will put out their arms & let me bite. LOL!
Alright, I never really bite it,
but I will keep complaining that I want to bite something.
But now, my house is empty. =(
So so, being the sick girl,
I still have that itchy hand & take up the love letter
& then I start munching one after another.
& now, I think my cough worsen. -.-"
& I think I will start growing fat again.
Best ~ =(
It's about 2am in the morning
& I'm feeling so active.
I think I'm weird. =/
In about two hours time
he will be waking up too. =D
But he will be busy with the wedding stuffs. =(
I shall be good & not disturb him for the day. =D
I miss you, idiot pui eh.
I'm still so sick. =/
Why aren't I recovered yet? =(
Tell me I wasn't wrong.
Tell me that everything was right.
Tell me that everything will turn out fine.
& I will learn to be alright.
& I haven't register for my JAE yet.
Like I'm so afraid that I will regret upon my choices.
So I decided to seek people's advice now before I submit it. :D
I hate to make decision. =( I just don't like to grow up,
like there are so many things for you to worry.
& there are so many things involve you to make decision. =/
Oh ya, I forgotten,
that Liangjian, he wanted my photo,
so he tried all ways to get it.
He even said that he will buy me Douhuatangyuan,
in exchange, I have to send him my photo. -.-"
If not, he will bring me to see doctor,
in exchange, I have to send him my photo again. -.-"
I don't want to send you leh~ xDDDD
Alright, it's 2.32am. -.-"
I should stop blogging & try to get to sleep. LOL!
I should try try try. =DD
& since I'm sick, I ought to sleep early. -.-"
Vincent said that I've bluff that I'm sick. -.-"
I don't know why, but I felt really active though my body is really tired.
But my mentally is really really active you know !!
Like I haven't been using my brain for so long,
I felt so active, not tired yet not tired yet. =D
Only my physically, tsk I'm sick.
OK BYE.
With loves,
siahwanling
1:39:00 AM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Whatever I eat, the food is just tasteless. -.-"
I drank Orange Juice, but it's tasteless too. -.-"
I felt damn pathetic please please please. =/
Initially, I ate my noodle, but it's tasteless.
So I put chilly sauce & it's still the same. -.-"
Then I grab one orange juice at the corner of the kitchen,
& I drank. =.=" It's tasteless too~ -.-"
I lost my tastebud. Tsk.
I'm just so bored now.
The whole day, I've spent it at home.
He is busy working & he has to help out in wedding tomorrow. =(
Hangqi & guys are at SBM.
My family are at Hougang.
Amanda is out with boyfriend.
Andrina can't come out. =(
I'm so so so so bored.
I want to go out~
I'm haven't get my booking slip yet.
So I don't know when am I working next week.
But I'm definitely off on Monday & Tuesday.
Who wants to bring me out !! =(
& I haven't signed up for my courses yet.
I'm feeling like shit~ =(
I'm sick & my mind cannot process anything. =(
How the hell am I supposed to think now ! =(
LiangJian & I chatted just now.
He kept accusing me for not telling him my result. LOL!
Liangjian, you suck suck suck ! LOL!
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
到底你还记得有这个我吗？
心碎了，我能找谁？
孤独了，我能找谁？
生病了， 我能找谁？
哭了，累了，我又能找谁？
是我太依赖了，
还是你不管了?
我不需要任何人的关心，
我只需要你的，可是我却没得到。
你的心， 还有我的存在吗？
:) 爱你 (:
7:15:00 PM
Brother & Sister-in-law went back home.
Second brother & girlfriend never come back home.
& everyone is out right now. =(
Nobody brings me out. =(
& I haven't see a doctor.
I just don't like medicine. =/
So I better drags to go to doctor.
I hope Dad doesn't know I'm sick.
If not he will definitely drags me there. =/
& I'm sick of acting that I aren't sick. -.-"
I haven't been out for such a long time.
& it's like I've been lying on the bed not for long,
& I will wake up for work again.
Then I will be trapped in Mandarin Oriental.
Without seeing if it's sunny/windy/rainy at all. =(
I think I sick till I very gek xim. =(
My nose is blocked & I can't smell anything. =(
My back is aching like whatever. =(
& today is a Saturday, means there's SBM.
& means I can eat my Dou Hua Tang Yuan. =(
BUT BUT, I'm sick right now !! =(
I want to eaaaaaat~ =( Who can buy for me~ =(
Sighs. I go cook myself narh, suan lerh~ LOL!
Even something more gek xim. =(
I'm sick you know you know !
But they never buy food or cook for me. =(
It's like I'm so so so so sad narh~ =(
Mum&Dad&Brothers. =(((
Justin called just now.
He thought something happened to me. LOL!
Cause he haven't been seeing me online,
& so he called & we might meet some day for steamboat LOL!
BUT, I'M SICK RIGHT NOW ~ Eat what steamboat~ -.-"
& I think I'm getting from bad to worst.
I'm feeling damn terrible right now. =(
Sucks. =( I want to cry~ =(
Why am I sick~ =(
Please let me be well,
I promise to take good care of myself. =(
I just want to go out. =(
I hate to be sick. =(
I want to go for shopping.
I want to walk for long long roads.
I want to walk as much as possible to slim down. LOL!
But now, I'm dying soon. =(
Tsk.
Why I fall sick so easily. -.-"
*Angry*
& ya, I want to search for food now. =/
No foodddd~ =( Nobody at home. =(
So I have to dig out food myself. =(
& cook myself~ Oh my goodness. =.="
I felt so pathetic being the sick one. -.-"
Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. =(
I guess I will come back blog again!
Cause I'm seriously, truly, madly, deeply, honestly very bored.
& being the sick one, I can't do anything right now. =(
Tsk. What a life I'm leading right now. =(
& yeah, I'm off to find food. =/ LOL!
5:12:00 PM
| You are a Romantic Realist |
 Okay, so you fall in the middle. You know that love isn't like a greeting card... Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings. You are the best of both worlds Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious. Almost any guy can find balance with you. |
| You Mostly Have Your Emotions in Check |
 Sometimes your emotions get out of control, but you usually are a pretty stable person. You can find a lot to be happy about, as long as things are going your way. But if a few bad things happen to you, you tend to go in a bit of a downward spiral. |
| You Inner Gender is Female |
 You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you. You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations. You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves. You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female. |
| You Are A Woman! |
 Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife! |
| Your Sensitivity Score: 73% |
 You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you. You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down. But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not. |
| Your 1950s Name is: |
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*Laugh out loud*
| Your Life Is Worth... |
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| You Will Die at Age 85 |
 Congratulations! You take good care of yourself. You're poised to live a long, healthy life. |
| You Are Mostly Secure |
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Are You An Insecure Girl?
I feel secure ? =/ LOL!
I'm just so bored right now.
I have nothing to do.
I'm still very sick right now.
I think I shouldn't have work last night.
I worked till 3am in the morning you know!
& I had earned $96 last night :DD
But to earn that much,
I have to sarcifice my sleep & health. =(
I'm feeling so damn pathetic now.
So I don't want to work till so late anymore. =(
& mum was so worried that she waited for me downstair.
She heard a scream coming from downstair,
then she called me but my phone was on silent,
so I didn't pick up & stuffs,
& she went down to find me. =/
So sweet can~ At 3am in the morning you know!
That's why I simply love my parents. :D
& yesterday Cheehow made honey water for me. LOL!
Initially, we went into the stall.
Then he passed me the honey & water.
I told him, "Huh! can make into honey water meh!?"
Then he demostrate to me, & it really become honey water. -.-"
Thanks Cheehow. :DD
& Lijie told me, I can drink greenbean soup with salt. =/
Greenbean soup goes with salt one meh? LOL!
There was something ridiculous going on yesterday.
My mum received a call, from some so-called "Kidnappers"~
They said they had kidnapped her son~ *Laughs*
& wanted a ransom of 30 thousand. LOL!
My mum knew at that instant it's some scram.
So she played along with the person. LOL!
The whole damn thing is damn funny I tell you!
I told my mum, if they kept pestering you to get money,
then you just might as well tell them that
"aiya, you want you kill my son narh~ I lazy go take money."
LOL! If can, let's see what's their reaction !~ xD !!
& initally, my mum had thought of telling them that she had only daughters.
LOL! But she didn't do it, cause she want them to continue calling. LOL!
No wonder, brother called me when I'm working.
& I thought what happened~ LOL!
When I found out about it, I laughed so loud. =/
This is a really funny scram~
People, if you received such calls, don't give a damn.
It's just a waste of your time. LOL!
But you can play along with those people. xD
& I didn't go to SBM today.
I was too sick & tired already. =(
Sorry girls & Moggallana. =(
Misses~!
& now I'm still suffering from the flu,
the sore throat, the cough.
It don't seem to go away though. =(
& I miss him currently.
It's been so long since we chatted. =/
Thought it's just a day you know!
But I felt like it's so long. -.-"
& I always felt so emo everytime I misses him.
I really miss the past a lot a lot.
Like we used to play games together & stuff. =(
Now, I hardly see him anymore. =((((
I'm being paranoid,
but I don't know will everything changes?
I'm just missing him, pardon me for being whiny. =(
I felt lousy suddenly. =/
Maybe because of results?
Maybe because of family?
Maybe because of everything.
Tsk.
& I thank everyone for giving your concern. :D
I appreciate it a lot a lot. :D
Things will turn right again,
I will believe in it.
眼看幸福就在前头
却无法到手
我真的好想你
1:31:00 PM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
I had my fever on now.
I had my flu.
I had my sore throat.
I had my cough.
I guess I'm not working tomorrow.
Perhaps, I might drop by the clinic to see doctor. =(
Don't talk about my results anymore.
I think it's damn pathetic.
I can't get into the course I wants.
& I'm still feeling damn sad.
So, don't ask me about it anymore.
& thanks Andrina for lending me her shoulder. =(
Yes, after tearing that slip of paper, I cried. =(
After seeing the results, I know I can't get into the course I wanted.
So I wasn't bothered anymore. Sighs.
Mingfei & Kimpeng came today.
Kaiwen came too.
& many people had do well, especially Mabel. :D
Congratulation Mabel. :DDD
I was really shocked over my English.
Like it's my worst nightmare.
I didn't fail it, but it's borderline.
& it pulls everything down.
He called to ask about my result too. :D
I was glad that he still remember that I'm getting result. :D
He's loved. :D & he had just called while I'm typing this paragraph. =/
Nice timing~ :D LOVES~ :DDD
& many many people called today.
& I received many many messages.
& Simon was saying that I'm always so busy. -.-"
& second brother called me too, asking about my result. :D
Like finally, he remember there's his little sister. LOL!
After that, met up with Kaiwen & we headed over to Grandlink.
Initially, we wanted to go for lan after shopping but Lawrence called.
So he said he will treat all the 'O' level student for Swensens. :D
So they went to play pool, & then shopped at city plaza.
Fel had extended her hair while I do some shopping. :D
But I didn't really get anything I wanted though. =(
I only bought one top which becomes my dress again. =/
So I can say, being short is not really that good after all.
Because all my top are meant to be my top, but it became a dress. -.-"
Oh well, forget it then. :/
I'm not feeling well.
Should I called them & tell them I don't want to work tomorrow?
Or should I just continue going to work since I'm not working on Saturday?
I'm really so tired, I sweared I wanted to die already.
& I'm so so so sick right now. =(
Time to visit the doctor again. =(
Why am I seeing doctor every now & then? Tsk.
After shopping, we went over to Parkway Parade.
We had Swensens & shopped awhile & home sweet home. :D
I'm still feeling damn terrible currently, like I'm dying really.
I don't want to see a doctor, because I just hate medicine.
& I hate to travel such a long long way just to see the doctor. =(
Alright, I'm having a fever right now.
I guess I should start sleeping.
If not, I weren't be able to wake up early tomorrow.
I'm working at 10am plus continue some more. =(
It's going to be such a draggy day. =(
I'm working for the last week next week.
& that's all I guess. I should be resting soon.
Time to meet up with all my friends which I hasn't been meeting for years. =(
I'm feeling damn terrible right now. Goodbye then.
The Perfectionist.
Perfect is in my dictionary.
11:12:00 PM
Yeah, down with a flu & a sore throat.
My voice is damn harsh now.
& I was feeling damn terrible yesterday.
I wanted to go home early but yet they have so many things to do,
so I stayed on to continue working till 1.30am.
I'm like so tired right now.
Since yesterday,
I kept having nightmare.
Both nights, I had been dreaming that I'm still wiping the plates. -.-"
My mind is already so tired, & yet I'm still dreaming. =(
I was seriously very sick. Initially, I wanted to get MC for yesterday.
But I remember that I won't be working on Thursday,
So I just went for work & stayed on. :D
You know yesterday yesterday, I work until 3am.
& then I reached home, bath & stuff, it's already 4am.
& then I have to wake up at 8am to work again. -.-"
I sweared it's never a good thing to sleep for a few hours & then work.
& then especially, when I'm really very sick right now. =(
& I have to say, I hate closing. =(
Like oh my goodness, so many things to do.
I almost died after working!
& I think I had been eating a lot lately. =/
Linying kept finding food after all the events,
& then she will definitely share with me. :D
She's just so sweet please. =D
But but, I felt that after working,
I will definitely grow fat. =/
Like yesterday, I drank the shark's fin soup.
I ate the cod fish & the rice thing.
& I was so full. & after a while,
then gave us our break, & I went on eating again. -.-"
& I sweared, I love working with my girls.
Like it's so fun to work with them. :D
But yesterday, I was so sick that I don't feel like working.
& Joshua kept claiming that I had passed the germs to him.
Like who will want to pass it to him xD !
& next week might be the last week I work so hard.
I don't want to work for so many days anymore.
It's really damn tiring. =(
& now, I'm still sick ~ =(
I need more rest ~!!
& I felt like we haven't been talking for quite some time.
Like he had called me in the morning yesterday.
But yet, I felt like we haven't talk for long. -.-"
Guess I miss him too much. =(
& yeah, results are out today.
I'm not feeling nervous or anything.
I'm too sick & too tired currently.
I'm totally moodless completely you know!
Maybe I will feel the tension later. =(
I hate getting results.
Today, I woke up with a lot a lot of messages unread. :D
Thank you everyone for wishing me all the luck & stuffs. :D
I appreciate it a lot a lot. =D Sorry for not replying,
I'm very very sick right now so yeah. =(
& I still have to wake up early today for piano lesson.
I hardly slept for long you know ~ =(
& he never wish me anything. =(
I wished I could see his message in the midst of everyone.
But I never get to see anything. =(
He's studying now, but still,
he never really care. =(
Never mind, forget it.
Sighs.
AHH BYEBYEBYE. I'm late!!
12:35:00 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Later I'm still working like hell~ =(
I'm just not feeling well~ =(
&&, I'm so happy you know!
Like I'm 2kg away from my target. xD
Another wishlist to be cancelled soon. :DDD
I want to get everything cancelled,
then I will have that sense of achievement. LOL!
But but, there are a few which are not possible to be cancelled. =(
Sighs sighs sighs. =(
I just don't want to get results for this Thursday.
Everyone had been messaging me about the releasing of results.
I'm glad, really glad. Thank you. But don't remind me anymore. =(
& John said he can help me get it if I don't want to take. LOL!
Like it's just so impossible please please please~ =/
Sighs, why do I hate 'O' level again. =(
But 'O' level time is the best time ever,
because I have no time to think of anything,
even if I had started to think of something,
I can tell myself that 'O' level is way too important than anything.
& then I will stop my mind from wondering.
But but now, I'm like kept having my mind wondering. -.-"
I guess it's just PMS-ing. -.-"
But well, I'm back to me, I & wanling. LOL!
& he failed his driving test again. =(
Due to unforseen circumstances. =(
People, when you are learning car,
don't bang into those cars who are having test. =/
I hope he's feeling alright now. =/
& yes, I'm supposed to get prepared to go work now. =(
Sighs, I don't want to go work. =(
Why why why call me back ? =(
Never mind, I see money.
& I'm planning not to work so much in February.
I need to get some life soon. =/
So yeah byebyebye. =(
眼角的泪它给过谁
伤透了心也无所谓
我会愿意静静地陪在你身边
如果说爱已不可为
那我宁愿藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉
& Chinese New Year is coming.
I have yet to shop nor clean up my house.
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL~
Next week, I should be off from work & get ready for Chinese New year. =D
I have to go shopping next week already. (=
So firstly. GOODBYE for now. :D
2:52:00 PM
If a friend or loved one gets in a fight, you must let them fight their own battles.
In Detail
When a friend or loved one gets in a bind, it is only natural that your will feel protective of them and want to defend them. But before you leap in front of them and do your best impression of a mother bear protecting her cubs, stop and wait for them to ask you to help them. Chances are, they won't. You cannot take responsibility for other people, no matter how much you think they need your help. Let them fight their own battles and learn from their own mistakes.
-.-" like who is going for a fight.
If you guys are having a fight,
do tell me alright. =/
I will promise I won't help.
Since my horoscopes ask me not to help. -.-"
He is loved by me. :D
This is my precious dad. :D
He is the one who got all worried about me when I'm out at night till wee hours.
He is the one who will fetch me home no matter how late it is.
He is the one who love me the most, dote me with whatever things.
He is the one who ensures we never go hungry.
He is the one who I love a lot & treasure a lot.
:DDDD If only dad knew how to read blog~ =/
& yes, I love him him him. :D
Dad's the best. :D
Mummy too. =DD
Alright I know I look retarded with my fringe clips up,
but I had no choice, these are the recent photos that were taken with dad. :D
I went to the Monkey King's home. :D
& I really do see the Monkey.
I really don't mind to bring one monkey home as a pet you know.
Like it's so so so so cute please. :DDDDD
I know my sister-in-law's face is inside this icecream picture. =/
But the main focus is the icecream alright,
uber super duper nice. :DDD
It tastes like heaven. :D
You know after sister-in-law walked away after allowing me to take the photo,
I decided to take another one, but mine icecream was half-eaten already. -.-"
So I just posted the above photo up for this heaven icecream. =/
No choice, it's just so nice~ =( I love green tea icecream. :D
& you know what does chocolates make of ?
This is the fruit of the chocolate.
Firstly there are a lot of steps to make the chocolate.
You still have to polish the chocolate to make it shine you know. -.-"
Like it's so crap please~ =/
Oh ya, this is the best picture.
Have you see the mountain turtle. :D
I knew you guys never see mountain turtle before,
cause you guys are just another mountain turtle. xD
They just stepped on each other. =/
& I'm so tired again.
I had been through the dinner having 3 people to 5 table. xD
You think I'm that good, your head~
I'm just the drink server. =/
It's western dinner tonight. :D
& they are having their wine tasting. :D
After everything ends, I was supposed to stand at the front door.
& I saw that sport car. It looked normal to me.
But Yiying told me to listen to it's turbine & engine.
When the guy starts his car, it went "VROOM!"~ -.-"
Like it's really really very very loud you know. -.-"
Initially, I was really impressed by the young guy.
Like he was so young & he can afford such cars.
But later on, I told Yiying, forget about it,
those guys who drives good car are flirt.
They have good cars just to impress girls.
& so they can keep changing girlfriends. -.-"
You know, I really look down on guys who keep changing girlfriends.
& those guys who never really put their heart into a relationship. LOL~
Maybe I was always the victim of such people, that's why. -.-" Oh crap~ -.-"
Talking about this,
Brother & I talked about affair last night.
He said that guys usually will feel guilty after having an affair.
But I said that most guys doesn't feel it, then he told me, it's because they are heartless.
Then he said that, if found such a guy, then girls should know that from the start he is heartless.
If not, he will definitely feel sorry for betraying you behind your back & stuffs. =/
Guys, really really really ?
Like I'm a banquet waitress,
so I will always see people getting married & stuffs.
I wondered, how many of these couples do last forever?
Liked there are so many differences in each other's life.
It needs a lot of compromise to get the marriage work out.
& in my family, none of them had a divorce which is a good thing.
LOL~ Why did I side track my entries. -.-"
Alright, back to the affair thing.
So my brother told me that only real guys will put an end to it & get back to you.
While those heartless one, if they can leave you for another girl.
Then there is no point at all ~ -.-"
I find that people who wanted a divorce are selfish people.
Like there are so many factors which they have to think about.
Children matter, money matter, family matter.
& this doesn't affect them only, it affects their children's upbringing.
& how they see their marriage after they grew up.
Sometime talking to my brothers, are a good way to reflect. =D
& results are confirmed to be out on Thursday 2pm.
Rainer papa will be busy with his classmate.
Nobody to accompany me. =( Sighs.
& now, I don't know why am I feeling so empty.
Maybe I care too much, maybe I bother too much.
Why do I miss you so much?
& why do I kept reminisicing the past?
因为你不管，
所以我明白。
1:35:00 AM
Monday, January 21, 2008
I wanted to post pictures you know.
But but, brother & Sister-in-law wanted to sleep,
& they insisted in me using brother's computer which is in living room.
So, I can't upload the pictures to this computer. =(
Never mind. =(
& I'm still feeling very sad cause I didn't get to buy that silver heels. =(
Like it's really really pretty, but the heels will definitely kills cause it's rather tall. =/
But but, it's still so pretty please ! Even mum says so!
But she said that I had too many heels already.
Therefore, I didn't buy it. & I'm feeling so regreted. =(
Initially, I wanted to have my haircut there. :D
Cause it's pretty cheap & it's by professional you know!
Like, I can only pay half the price to cut my hair by professional. :D
& I find that today is so crap, because they brought us to a shopping mall.
Where Guess, Topshop, Dorthory Perkin, Mango are all located in there.
& the price are about the same as Singapore. -.-"
I complaint to Mummy, & tell her I might as well stay in Singapore & shop.
Then she scolded me. =( I don't want to whine to her anymore. =(((
We went to Jusco which is something like BHG in Singapore.
I bought my lingerie & mum bought towels. =/
Then we dine at a Japanese restaurant & I had my ramen. :D
Next we went to see Monkey King. :D
Initially, I got shocked cause suddenly one monkey was infront of me. =/
Then next moment, I looked back, he was gone ! =/
But somehow, after that I managed to find that monkey again. :D
So it wasn't my illusion or something after all. =DDD
Next, it's half an hour shopping in IOI shopping mall.
I bought a pair of slippers. :DDD
I wanted to buy that heels. =(
Sighs, never mind. =(
& I found that the dresses there are pretty. :D
After awhile, we went to some restaurant.
We were supposed to have a dinner.
& mum told us that we are having the vegetarian one.
So, sister-in-law & dad & brother & I gave that =.=" face.
Like I can't drink my favourite shark's fin anymore.
I thought they will give me the vegetable soup just like Oriental.
So I was kind of not looking forward to it at all. =/
In the end, they gave us the vegetarian shark's fin. :D
At least it's so much nicer, I don't mind having it. =D
In every dinner, I only look forward to the shark's fin. xD
Because, I can't eat abalone after all. =/
Due to some reasons, which I don't want to say it anymore. =(
Like it's such an embarrassing things~ Tsk~
Those who knows, SHUT UP AH~ =/
Yadah yadah, the dinner dragged till 11.30pm.
We reached Singapore at 12am.
I got caught to check my bag.
Tsk, I got chewy gum with me ~
I was like, sighs my chewy gum will be gone~ =(
In the end, the police officer just checked everything,
& allowed me to go. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
So brother told me,
I shouldn't have keep the chewy gum with myself.
Cause the police officers usually catch people of my age.
They were afraid that I will bring drugs or cigratte.
As if I'm interested in those ~ -.-"
Saying about cigratte,
that idiot Quashairi,
he wanted to teach me bad.
He said I should learn smoking.
& each time he goes for smoking,
he will ask me to follow him.
Crap right ~ Like who want to follow him.
I just gave him the strong "NO!" xD !
Loser him~ xD
So yeah, I'm back home. :D
& now it's sleeping time. :D
Pictures tomorrow. :D
I will show you the pretty monkey's place. :D
& I chatted with brother through the whole dinner. :D
From relationships, to business to the future. =/
Like this is the first time we ever talked about relationships. =/
Well that's all, & byebye. :D
It's so hard to be loved.
From the one you loved.
1:23:00 AM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I'm currently so inspired by that pianist,
who had been playing wedding songs during the cocktail.
I was standing there with my tray of drinks,
Song Quan asked us to stand at the side,
so I quickly went to the piano at the side. :D
& she played beautifully please.
I'm like so wanting to exchange the job with her.
I don't mind playing on the grand piano for an hour or two non-stops.
& I'm like so wanting that kind of job where I can get to do the things I like.
That day when I was out with Vincent,
& I saw a MTV, some male singer is playing on the white grand piano.
Like like like it's so pretty please ! I also want to play on one. =(
Sighs, if only I'm rich. =((((((
Oh yeah, I remembered that I had said I wanted to disclose something,
it's just Jashawn, you know you know, he's still with his girlfriend.
& I mean it's really suprising, if you guys knew him, you should know his character.
He told me once that I'm one of his longest girlfriend, so crap~
We were only together for one month two weeks one day & he dumped me. =/
& then I said that was so lame, we were together for so short & he said I'm one of the longest.
So he told me, his longest girlfriend was 2 months. -.-" Best~ =/
I didn't know about it in the first place so yeah, I was dumb once.
The best thing is, he played with relationships & feeling. =/
After we broke up 5 days, he got another girlfriend to get through his valentine day,
& then after awhile, they broke off again. He changed one after another. =/
& now, he has a girlfriend currently which has lasted more than two months I guess.
Like finally, he's settled down & stopped breaking girls' heart. =/
That's a good news you know you know you know~
I remembered what Liangjian said,
I will learn something after all. :D
& I'm glad that Jashawn had grown up. =D
Looking back then, it's feels funny~
Like we were so sweet & then suddenly,
he turned cold due to some things & then we broke off,
& then he got together with another girl. LOL!
Like things happened really fast before you can react.
& I still can remember how sad I felt,
& I break down like everyday.
Then, Liangjian & Ryan were there to rescue me. LOL!
But well, it's the past after all.
Actually, I can't really remember everything that Liangjian had said. =/
But but, well, I can always go back to my archive & read it again.
That's why, it's better to get a blog & get everything updated. LOL!
So you will never forget anything nor everything. =DDD
Enough of Jashawn, he's my past. =D
My present is confusing.
My future has yet to come. LOL!
& I'm feeling so lazy now.
Like like I'm going to wake up so early tomorrow.
& then I found out, it's a good thing not being emo. =D
Like like it's the best thing ever, maybe I'm just sick of being emo. =/
Like what the hell, it's that damn Hangqi's contagious emo-ness.
He spread it to so many people, & then everyone is as emo as him. =/
MR OH HANG QI, IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT ! LOL!
So today was great,
I was lazy & tired.
Didn't play anything.
I just sit there and chatted with mabel & guys.
& I was lying on the chairs,
looking up at the stars.
But Singapore is damn pathetic,
we don't have pretty stars around us. =/
You know why I'm still blogging right now,
even though it's 2am in the morning?
Because I have my reason. :D
It's for me to know & for you to find out. xD
I just have to continue blog long long.
so that nobody gets bored. =(
& he's sleeping the whole day. =/
& I don't know if he's still sleeping currently though.
You know, I suddenly found out that,
I haven't been seeing him for weeks?
Like when was the last time I see him? -.-"
Sighs, I miss him a lot a lot.
Kaiwen said that I'm dumb. =(
Maybe I'm really that dumb after all. =(
Tsk. I don't know. =( & I'm not thinking anymore.
I just want to be happpppppppy. =D
Was I asking too much ? Tsk tsk tsk~
Kaiwen & Liangjian, stop making me sad. =(
Liangjian, you wanted revenge right !
Cause I didn't want to send you the photo.
& I kept saying you are having the same rank as me.
So you unhappy, want make me sad right right right. LOL!
Hell, I'm deceiving myself. -.-" Damn, I'm contradicting.
Roar you!~ Forget it, I shall stop continuing. =/
& I'm feeling so damn weird now. =/
Like all the emotions all grumbled up.
& I don't know if I'm feeling happy or upset. =/
Mixed feeling again~ =( =(
Today, I had that craving for Touhua Tangyuan.
So I kept telling Andrina for hours & hours. =D
In the end after I had it, I felt so full.
I wondered why had I insisted to have it. -.-"
I'm left with 5 hours of sleep.
Damn, it's going to be so not enough.
& I'm so going to miss him. =(((
Goodnight.
Will you miss me,
when I'm gone?
11:09:00 PM
My hair is so long. -.-"
I'm like going to cut half of the length. =/
My goodness, I think I cut a teeny weeny bit. =/
I'm feeling so lethargic currently.
Like I had been dreaming the whole night last night.
I dreamt of one ah-lian coming to my house & threw her pillow in my house.
& I thought she didn't want, so I threw it away. =/
Then she started scolding & then say whatever shits. =/
& I don't know why I didn't bother about her & she cooled down ?
Then I don't know why we started chatting. -.-"
& I don't know why I suddenly said about her mum.
& she came to strangle me. -.-" & that dream was so real.
& I don't know why I jumped up & found out I was dreaming. =(
Then, I started crying again. Like what the hell~ -.-"
Sometimes I do things without knowing why I do it too. -.-"
Not mindful enough~ =(
& suddenly, I don't know why,
I'm feeling so short. Tsk. =/
I guess I'm too used to wearing heels while working
& then you know when you wear heels, you feel tall. =D
But but, when you take it out, it sucks. =/
Who is picking me up when I fall ?
Who is going to tell me everything is alright when things went wrong?
Who is going to console me when I had no confidence over my results?
Who is there for me? I see no one.
Suddenly, I felt so emo. =/
Your nonchalent is killing me.
Nothing matters anymore.
When it hurts too much.
2:15:00 PM
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From a guys' point of view:-
1) We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us,
and some random guy walks into the room
and you jump up and tackle him without
even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk
to him for ten minutes without even
acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2
in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it
can't wait till he morning....
-
2) Also, when we tell you you're pretty/
beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning,
we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
-
3) The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
-
4) Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood i'm in.
-
5) LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD.
We enjoy doing it. It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you' .
-
6) You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place,
you don't have to feel the need to wear
the shortest skirt you have or put on
every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not
WHAT you are. Honestly, i think a girl looks
more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
-
7) Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Really meh?
Guys, you all tag and tell me if it's true anot alright. =D
Guys are just complicated people. =/
I just have to say, Actions speak louder than words please.
But for now, tag me to tell which is the true one & which is not. :D
1:24:00 PM
The Bottom Line
You're coming into an emotional clearing today -- there is no danger here, so relax.
In Detail
In the enchanted forest that is your life, today you will be able to emerge from the frightening woods and find solace in an emotional clearing. There is no danger here, and you will feel comfortable enough to sit down, relax, and figure out where you're going to go next. There are two paths ahead of you, and both look equally promising. Take the one that intimidates you the most -- it will be the one to lead you on the most interesting and fulfilling journey.
I'm like back back back. :D
So I'm so so so tired after working consecutively 3 days.
Yeah, by seeing the amount I had earned,
means you know how many hours I had worked.
I can earned 200 bucks within this 3 days. =/
=DDDDDDDDD
& yeah, today I'm a happy girl. :D
Because my people rock my socks. :D
I even have so much time to help others to top up their drinks. :D
& I was so happy that my drinks never empty before. :D
&& my table drank only tea & wine. :D So I just have to top this two. :D
I'm like so so so happy please. =DD
Initially, I was so sad cause my table was so far away.
It's like so far away from the stewardin & the bar. =(
Yadah yadah yadah,
we stayed till 1am. :D
& now I'm home again. =D
It's 3am right now. =/
So I should go to sleep right now. :D
& I won't be Singapore some day.
But I shan't say when. xDDDD
I still want see visitor you know. =(
I want to cash that 50 dollar from nuffnang. =(
So just help me by coming to this pathetic blog. =/
& that damn build-a-bear. =(
I really hate them to the core please.
Like, they are so whatever, anything. Roar.
Where got company owe staff money till 1 month plus ?
You might as well tell me that it's closing down, more reasonable.
I don't understand why the boss will hire them as managers. =/
I just don't understand.
Sighs. Sighs. Sighs.
& you know, I hate the time of the month. =/
Because I kept feeling thirsty, & I kept drinking.
& I kept feeling hungry, but I never keep eating. =/
Have to control you know you know!
& it's the best if you have cramps while working.
Damn~ =( Why girls must suffer ? =(
Guys, count yourself lucky. :/
I'm so bored right here.
He's playing game with his friends.
I just don't like to message him when he's playing game.
Cause his reply is just two words or a few words more. LOL!~
& I don't know why sometime he will just randomly come across my mind,
& I ended up sighing to myself for no reason randomly. -.-"
Now, I'm feeling hungry ~
But hell no, I'm not going to eat. =/
It's going to be damn fattening if I'm eating right at this hour.
& I felt like making cheese cake. =/
& I want to go out tomorrow. =(
But but, everyone is busy. =(
& roar, I'm so random now. =/
& I felt like seeing sun rise & sun set suddenly.
What happened to me huh?
& suddenly, I felt like playing the sendimental songs on my piano non-stop.
I'm feeling so sendimental now. Am I going emo again? -.-"
P-M-S-I-N-G again. -.-" Not again~ Tsk.
& I can't believe something.
Like oh my goodness. =/
I shall disclose it tomorrow.
There's cats screaming at my house downstairs.
The way they screams are like they are crying. =/
That's why I prefer dogs who don't whine. :DDD
& yes, goodbye. :D
2:48:00 AM
Friday, January 18, 2008
& yeah, I'm back back back. =DDDD
But there's work later at 5pm. =(
I'm feeling so reluntant to work in ballroom now. =(
Garden Suite is so much nicer, smaller place, lesser things to do. =D
& yeah, last two days,
I was serving the dinner & dance.
I was damn sad, cause the table was so big.
& then, I was like stretching so badly till my back ache. =/
You know I was short. =( Short is not a good thing sometime though. =/
But I was happy, & then they have a lot of presentation & lucky draw.
So exciting you know~ (As if I'm taking the lucky draw too) -.-"
After that, we were topping up drinks & stuffs,
& I finished everything I have to do for my table,
so we were chatting at the bar, & then Kamal taught us how to carry wine glasses.
Damn cool as I can say, like one hand you can carry 18 glasses you know !
But but, too bad Oriental doesn't allow girls to be bar maid. =(
Quashairi told me that only pub allowed girls. -.-"
So yeah, while I was leaving to the back area,
suddenly Lin Ying suddenly grab me from behind,
& then turned me to a lady, & she gave all of us tips. :D
So nice of her, like it's my first time please. =DDDD
So yadah yadah, end of the day. LOL!
& yesterday was great too,
I was serving the lunch. :D
& I'm only the drink server. :D
& yeah, things went on smoothly.
Then after everything ends,
I kept running up & down, up & down to get the cutlery. =/
Then I wanted to do the buffet server too,
but Benson sent me down with Mei Fang to fold napkins.
After awhlie, Benson sent me up to be the server,
I'm like so happy please. =DDD
But after some time, he told me to go back to fold napkins. =(
When I was back, MeiFang was so tired,
so I told her to go home first, I will finish it. :D
& she went home, so I was left with myself to get 400 napkins done. =(
My handphone was on the low battery mode, so I can't on songs. =(
My Ipod ran out of battery, so I was so alone.
Office no people too, & nobody was beside me. =(
& then message that idiot pig, he's going sleep.
& then I was so bored till I can message Shixiong you know. =/
Somethings happened, & everyone can't go home.
So I was quite happy, cause I have companion you know !! =D
But but, in the end, around 1am, Benson asked us to leave. :D
I was left with 40 napkins at that time you know. =D
But he just said, just pack up & leave. :D
So happpppppy I tell you~!!
Like the first time I'm allowed to go home till I'm so happy.
Reach home, bathe & stuffs & I was knocked off.
When people message me, I can't even hear anything. =/
Usually, I will pick up the calls & replies those messages,
but today, I was too too too tired already. =/
Like these few days, I had been sent to fold napkin you know.
Yesterday was the best one, I saw blood on the napkins,
Not only a little bit, but a lot a lot, so I was shocked,
I thought I killed something or what,
I couldn't find anything, so I wanted to continue folding.
Then I saw blood dripping from my finger. -.-"
I don't know why, but the whole skin came out. =/
I know it's really disgusting, & I don't know why I can't feel the pain.
I guess I'm immune to small cuts after the bike accident. =/
& yadah yadah, today woke up.
I couldn't get online. =(
Damn upset cause I haven't been blogging for days.
So I was so upset till sister-in-law came in to help me.
We checked everything & anything, in the end it's the stupid plug came loose. -.-"
Irritating you know you know you know. =(
& I was online. :D That stupid pig was online too.
So I saw his display picture, so nice.
Confirm is a girl took for him one. =/
But but, he kept don't want to tell me.
See, I told you confirm is a girl one. =(
Don't know which girl norh. =(
He's forever making me upset one narh.
Awww~ Forget it. =(
Scally, he got a girl now, I also don't know.
Tio bo ? Gek xim~ =( Sighs.
Alright, no mood to blog further.
Goodbye.
IJCBOU, WIMTBLT?
Maybe others were right.
12:49:00 PM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
I had very bad cramps currently.
& it had been hurting me a lot in the afternoon.
Working with a cramp really suck. =(
So forgive me for not blogging today.
& I learnt a lot today. :D
Something related to the wine glasses.
I think it's just so cool please. =DDDD
& I got tips after the dinner & it's 5 hours of my pay you know ~
& it's my first time getting tips, so nice~ xD
I will blog in a few hours time.
Give me time to sleep alright. :D
Goodnight.
Sighs, cramps are killing me right now.
I'm off to bed currently.
See you in a few hours time.
L-O-V-E,
that's to you.
1:23:00 AM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Aries
21st March to 20th April
Symbol: The Ram
Ruling Planet: Mars
Quality: Cardinal
Element: Fire
Basic Trait: I Am
Closest Metal: Iron
Lucky Day: Tuesday
Lucky Colors: Blood Red and other bold colors
Lucky Gems: Jasper and Ruby
Lucky Flowers: Geraniums
The moment you come across an Aries, the first thing that comes to your mind is his/her friendly nature. The friendliest person in your neighborhood will most probably be an Aries personality. People having an Aries profile cannot tolerate injustice, always fight against it and will defend the weak. Aries, The Ram, is the first sign of the zodiac, considered to be the infant representing birth. Just like an infant, he is also aware only of himself and his needs. However, he is not selfish. It's just that he is totally ignorant of the fact that his needs may be causing you some inconvenience.
The innocence of Aries people is enough to cover their, sometimes, aggressive behavior. This naiveté brings fearlessness, while at the same time making them highly vulnerable. They trust people easily, get hurt in the process, forgive and forget, and then, trust again. An Aries person is beyond shrewdness and fallacy and can never lie, not even to save his life. He is what he seems to be. Qualities like subtlety, diplomacy or modesty just don't gel with Aries symbol. An Aries can be calm, wise and serious, but not before he has gone past youth.
He is pretty impatient, but liberal with money and material things. Frankness, lack of stability, fear of physical pain, optimism and impulsiveness are some of the basic Aries characteristics. One of the warmest and the most generous zodiac sign, Aries always prefers fame to money. He may get extremely angry in a minute, but the anger seldom lasts for a long time. Aries people never nurse a grudge and completely forgive and forget. They will never let you know that they are hurt.
They are never shy of apologizing, but they will be hurt if you remember the harsh words they said in anger, but didn't mean. Gossip does not interest an Aries and for him, people are either black or white, without any shades of grey. There is one thing an Aries can never fall short of, conversation. He can speak about anything & everything under the sun. He lives in the present and is a realist, yet believes in miracles. Aries chase success, not waiting for it to fall in their lap, and don't accept defeat. Failure can never keep them down.
Most of the Aries people are involved in business or creative arts or are involved in planning and organization. If an Aries does something for you, don't forget to express your gratitude. Otherwise, he will be deeply hurt. However, that would not stop him from helping again. Aries usually stick to their opinion and won't listen to anything they do not believe. They have a contemplative side to their personality. The simplicity is blended with the blind passion of a born crusader. Aries is mentally strong and always one of the pioneers.
Aries Woman
Romance is something that no Aries can live without and the same goes for an Aries woman also. However, for her, not getting on without romance is not same as not being able to live without a man. In her heart, she will always be yearning for that someone special, thinking about him in the monsoon and that will be her idea of romance. She doesn't need a real man for it. Aries female is the one who will do anything and everything herself, without needing any male help. One of her basic personality traits is total confidence in her abilities.
She has to lead, to be the first one to do anything. At times, her independence does not go well with the male ego. However, an Aries girl never wants a puppy for a lover or a husband. She seeks a man. However, Aries women will never have to yearn for male attention.
They always get plenty of it. An Aries woman can survive even the toughest of circumstances alone and has the ability to come back even after the most gruesome tragedies. She can play the role of a female perfectly and, at the same time, can do everything that a man can do. If you have managed to subdue her aggressive drive, you will be treated to a woman who is full of optimism and has such faith in future that can uplift your mood also.
An Aries female does not like flattery. You should be sincere while complimenting her. You'll have to maintain that delicate balance and still keep the romance alive. Once she has committed to you, she will be extremely sentimental and very loyal. Don't dominate an Aries female and don't let her dominate you. Either of the extremes, she will not be able to tolerate. Give her reasons to be proud of you, but do not forget to praise her for her talent too. Her expectations are too high, but she will also give you double in return.
She is very possessive and love is something she can never share. She can be very jealous even at the slightest of suspicion. If an Aries girl gets hurt, she will become as cold as the ice in your fridge and this behavior may last an entire lifetime. She is generous to the faults of her loved ones and it is better not to criticize them in front of her. On the other hand, if you are good to her, she will be extremely kind, tender, loyal and supportive.
You will get plenty of reasons to be jealous when you are with an Aries female, since she is more comfortable with men than women. However, don't be suspicious of her, she would be really hurt. She is possessive, but she doesn't like to be possessed. She wants her freedom and your complete trust. Remember, if she's committed to you, you have no reasons to doubt her loyalty and sincerity. An Aries woman is much too truthful to be involved with two people at the same time. She will first break up the relationship that is not working.
She is extremely passionate and believes in forever-lasting relationships. Though, this leaves her disillusioned many a times. She will never play games with you and is incapable of deceit. An Aries girl is nothing if not simple, innocent and very emotional. Maximum chances are that she will continue her career even after marriage. She loves challenges and believes in miracles. Though it sounds a little freaky, but miracles do happen in her case. Just like a typical Aries, she never learns from her mistakes and is likely to fall in the same hole again.
For her love means sharing and that means sharing everything, right from her emotions and checkbook. Always respect an Aries woman and never try to dampen her zeal, or she will be hurt. Though she tries to show that she is very strong, she is as innocent and as vulnerable as a baby. Be there to comfort her when she runs up to you after being disappointed with the world. If you stand up to her when she comes to you like this, you will never ever lose her. An Aries female will never forgive you if you fail to fight for her.
In return, she will always be there with you, even if she has to go against the whole world. She is not the one to feign illness, but if she is really ill, be there to care for her. She is quite extravagant and giving her the debit cards will mean an empty bank account. She will be a caring mother, who makes no unnecessary fuss and sparks children's imagination. An Aries girl has a bad temper, but it will go away as quickly as it came and leave no grudges behind. She is a complete woman, who gets hurt easily and is totally innocent. Though she is a little impulsive and bossy, she will give you complete security, fight against the world for you and be yours forever!
HELLO!
This is so damn cool. :D
I took it from one of the horoscope that I found on net.
I was reading & reading,
but why is it talking about romance for Aries girls only? -.-"
I don't know how true it is,
but some of it, I think it doesn't suit me though.
Nonetheless, it's for you to judge, & for me to understand. :D
So yeah, today I meet up with Alex monkey,
brought him to my hotel for interview. :D
& I collected my pay too. =D
Then, we went for lunch. :D
& then he went off to meet up with Chithao & guys,
sorry guys, didn't join you all. =/
& I meet up with Vincent,
played pool & stuffs,
brought movie ticket,
& we went off walking around,
from Marina Square to the end of the Suntec,
& back to Marina Square for movie.
We watched Body 19.
I got shocked for a few times,
and most of the time I closed my eyes. -.-"
Like in the middle of no where, the crap thing scares you.
& I screamed for a few times. -.-"
While Vincent scares me for a few time. -.-"
Crap crap crap movie. =(
It's gross seriously.
& the story of the movie can't be understood.
Like at the end of the show, everything so crap again. -.-"
We walked from MarinaSquare back to Bugis. :D
I saved my transport fare. xD !
Vincent ate & home.
Body 19 is just a gross movie,
not really that scary but it still freaks you.
I love horror movie, but yet I'm afraid to open my eyes to watch. -.-"
I think I'm crap, but what to do. =/
& I really really hope Alex can work with me.
So that I have companion you know you know. :D
It's really very sad to go and work without anyone you know. =(
& Jonathan & Lijie only work like few times in a week,
then Linying doesn't always have the same working time as me.
& Jianyong & Fuzhong too, the other girls too. =(
I'm like so so so sad. =(
Oh ya, I had deposited hundred bucks into my account,
like finally, my account has money. =/ It was really pathetic. =(
& I still have to return Wencai's hundred bucks. =/
Which means, my bank is empty again. LOL!
No matter how much time I spent working,
I never get to see money? Why~ -.-"
Not like I spent a lot a lot.
& I went shopping yesterday,
I spent a merely 30 bucks,
while Mum took away my 20 bucks as she wanted my treat.
I have to take care of myself but also my mum & sister-in-law. =/
Why are the two of them not working. =( That's sad huh~ =(
Money money, when can I see your presence ? xD
& I glad you called today my dear.
I really hope I can be squeezed into your busy schedule. LOL!
& I hope everything stays like now.
You're loved by me. :D Miss you loads.
Pictures time !!
& P.S: I'm random here again,
I'll be going oversea some time this week,
I shan't say when is it,
if not, nobody will visit my blog again. =(
& I will lose the chance of having an advertisment. =(
Cannot alright, please visit my blog. :D
I will update everyday still. :D
Marmie :D
Blurr~
Smile smile. :D
TONGUES OUT. =P
HANGQI!! :D
3 of us. :D Loves ~
Sentosa. :D Eunice~
LiangJian! SAME RANK !!
Ian. :D & two extras. xD
I have to wake up early tomorrow. =(
Sighs sighs sighs sighs ! =(
Goodnight.
Chinese New Year is coming.
Valentine Day is coming.
Which means, results are out soon.
Noooooooooooooooooooo~ =(
I'm just so random always. -.-"
I'm feeling hungry. -.-"
Crap again~ -.-"
Stop eating. Roar~
Simplicity are always beautiful.
Simple life. Simple love. Simple world.
10:25:00 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
What will you do if you miss someone so much that it hurts?
I woke up really really early.
& then messaged him,
I think messaging him in the morning is the best,
cause he won't be busy with anything. xDD
& then yadah yadah, I went back to sleep.
& then I woke up, feeling really bored,
I decided not to rot at home since today it's the last day having a student fare.
So, I messaged Yuanyi marmie & Hangqi. :D
& I'm going out with them. :DD
I need to do my New Year Shopping Spree you know. =/
Everyone has got their clothes already,
I haven't get mine yet. =(
&, the above is what I had blogged before I went out,
I didn't know that I didn't click the Publish Post button. =/
So yeah, I'm continuing from there. :DDD
We met up at Orchard,
Headed over to FarEast,
I wanted to get my cardigans,
but the one I wanted was out of stocks. =/
What a nice nice thing to have. =(
So yeah, we headed over to Takashimaya,
met up with Raymond & we ate Yoshinoya.
Then after that, we shopped around for awhile,
& headed over to Heeren. :DDD
& we ate WanTonMee. =/
I found out, when I'm out with friends,
they always tend to eat so much. =/
So yeah, then we headed to Cineleisure,
didn't get anything & we took bus to Bugis. :D
& still, I didn't get anything. =/
They were like complaining that they wanted to go home,
but but, I don't want to go home so early. =/
So I kept pulling them around. =(
In the end, they insisted to go home. =(
So yeah, I went home too.
& Nicholas called, he was with Ginghian & Rainer papa. :D
& I went out again. :DD We went for pool at parklane. :D
It's been so so so so long since I went to parklane again.
Ginghian & I were paired up, we kept winning. xD
This is what I had done to split the balls up. :D
It's so so so so spread up please. xD I'm so proud. xD !
But but, none went in anyway. -.-"
After that, we went home. :DDD
&, I'm officially rotting at home tomorrow. =(
Who is free tomorrow? Err, preferably people who I'm close with.
You should know who you guys are. :DD Bring me out alright alright. :D
Sighs, I don't want to rot. =( Moggallana people are working/schooling. =(
Nobody is free at all. =( I don't want to rot at home you know you know!
&, I'm not prepared to be an adult now.
I haven't even get my adult card,
& I'm supposed to use adult fare from tomorrow onwards?
Hell no no no no please. =( I really don't want. :(
I'm just a girl who is turning 17 this year. =(
I'm not even 18 yet, I aren't an adult yet you know. =/
I have a lot a lot of photos to be posted,
but I'm so lazy. =/ So yeah, pictures tomorrow alright. :DDD
I wanted to get liquid eyeliner today,
but I remembered that I haven't finish using mine pencil one,
so I decided to delay to get the liquid eyeliner. =/
It's damn good quality I tell you. =/
& I have been wearing thick eye make up. =/
You know it make your eyes look so bigger. xD
I love big big eyes narh. xD But but, it tends to smudge more, tsk.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt4X7zFfv4k
For those who love soccer. xD This is damn funny.
Credit to YangLijie. :DDD xD
& yadah yadah yadah. :D
Bye~
& I'm crazy over Angela Zhang currently. :D
She's so so so so cute, and her current album consists of GongZhuXiaoMei's song.
Omb, Wuzun, Wuzun, Wuzun, Wuzun. :DDD
If I'm bored again, I don't mind watching Wuzun again you know!!
=DDD His actions, his expression, his everything, just so cute. xD
迷死人了啦！ & ya, I'm still crazy over Wuzun,
but I'm not as crazy as those fans of him,
who go really ga-ga over him.
I'm just the normal one, who only watch his shows & stuffs. xD
He's cute, this is one thing that we can't deny of right. xD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ceaBu67cKLw&feature=related
This MV, she has that super fake looking eyes. =/
& she has that robot boyfriend. Cute. :DD
I'm going to be random here again,
I haven't pack my books into that big big box. =/
I don't dare to throw away all my books you know,
can we get results first before I officially throw every single of it out of my house?
Anyone wants my book? Tell me alright, I will be more than willingly to give you.
But but, firstly, please let me see my results first. =/ But again, I don't want to take result.
I don't know what's the outcome will be, & I don't know what my reaction will be.
I'm still not very prepared about having bad results, =/
I hope I will be able to take it, just like I take up all the shits. :(
But but, please give me good results, though I expected bad one. =(
&, I really did study for my 'O' level, don't disappoint myself. =(
Those long hours sitting in library, those long hours studying in SBM,
those long hours studying in my living room, those late nights,
those snacks that keep me going with my studies,
those thick thick stacks of notes to be memorised,
those thick thick assessment book to be done. =/
My goodness!!!!!~ Arghhh, forget it. =/
I don't want to be reminded of it. =/
& I really hope all the results are gone. =(
So we won't know what our results will be,
and then having nice nice MOE, they let us be promoted to Polytechnic. :D
Tell me that all these are going to be true. :DDDD
Goodbye.
Goodnight.
With love,
siahwanling. :D
Just the simple girl,
& the simple life,
& the simple love.
12:47:00 PM
The obstacles in the middle of your path today are not nearly as big as you think.
In Detail
The obstacles that are planted in the middle of your path today are not as daunting as they might first appear to be. You've got to assess the situation, then step back and form a game plan. Early in the morning, read all your emails and line up your tasks for the day. Then, go get a cup of coffee. Taking a break before you dive in, today, will help you stay fresh and get an accurate idea of the troubles that lie ahead. They won't look so big once you're refreshed!
I just managed to find two pictures from the camp. =/ The others are Sentosa. :D
I didn't know I'm so so so fair you know. =/
Maybe I was beside Jianyong that's why. xD
The Night Mission. :DDDDDDD Alright my hair very messy. =/
Moggirls, without Sara & Evelyn. =( Where're you two.
&&, we going to change name soon. :D
Because Yinghui is joining us. :D LOVES LOVES !
Girls girls, when you read this, give us ideas alright.
:D LOVE ARE IN THE AIR. =DD
Still the 4 of us. :D Our clique. :D
I don't know where am I looking. =/
& Ernest, trying to act to be ghost. xD
Cute ghost. xDDDD!
Another Ernest ghost again. xD
Raymond didn't manage to squeeze into the picture. xD
Moggallana. :D Loves~
But I had a hard time getting everyone. Tsk.
Loves you all till the end end end. :D
Hair super messy after bathe. =/
I LOVE JOWELL. =D
& I know I look stupid here.
Don't know why I pout until like that. =/
Andrina trying to snatch our views. xD
& stupid Hangqi, one head taller than me.
& Jowell, your comments for that photo ah. LOL!
ANYHOW~
& I feel so proud,
after getting heated by the sun for hours,
I'm still so fair fair fair. :DDDDDD
I'm so scare to get tan you know. =(
I don't like to be chao tah.
& I know all these time when I posted photos,
most of my photos, I had make up on,
but but, =/ go sentosa no make up narh~ -.-"
So, sorry for those unglam photos. =/
& I'm out the whole day at lanshop playing DOTA.
I won Liangjian can. :D Like I'm so proud.
& I farmed so fast that nobody of the opponent team caught up with my level.
Alright, my team was damn power, Kaiwen's level was damn high too.
But but, they always gang to attack me. =( Damn bad can~
& I had many many kills like I'm so proud please. :D
In the end, I got the 2nd for the whole thing. xD
We played so many round that I lost count already. =/
After that, I went to play with my audition & O2jam. :D
& then, I ended up playing MSN while waiting for the others. =D
In total, we pay $6.70. =/ Which means, we played for 4 hours plus. =/
Next, we went to have dinner. :D
& I met up with Amanda, shopped and yadah, yadah,
Home Sweet Home. :DDD
&, there's no programme tomorrow !!
& it's my last day having a teenager ez-link you know.
45cents for my last day. =( It expired on the 14th Jan.
It's 14th tomorrow. I hate it. I hate it. I still want travel far far. =(
Who is free, who is free, who is free? =(((((((((
He's the reason to my smile.
Simple love.
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