Monday, December 31, 2007
Pretty sand~ :D
When's SBM's Sentosa Orientation?
I'm back from sleeping~ =/
Sound weird huh~
And I thought I had a dream last night,
But it wasn't really a dream you know. =/
It felt like a dream especially it's 5am in the morning. =/
But still, it felt real too~
But yet again, it felt like a dream.
Err, I don't know what I'm talking. =.="
You just try to figure out yourself.
I didn't know how to blog about it
but that idiot him wants to read. -.-"
And yes, he read my blog. -.-"
He did tell me that he was lazy to type my url before norh. -.-"
And now, I guess he's still reading it. HELLO PIG~ =/
You lied. xD
I'm still in my sleeping mode.
So whatever I blogged now,
there might be some grammer error & spelling error. =/
If I want to sleep, I can only sleep for another 2 more hours,
which is not enough to me at all. =/
And today it's a the last day of 2007,
I'm growing older & older. =/
Next year will be my sweet 17,
I want to stay at that 17 please,
in the middle of being a kid & an adult. xD
So yeah, back to the 5am. =/
Seriously, I don't really know how to really blog about this. =/
But you know, after he called, I went back to sleep & I thought it was a dream. =/
Until the second time he called again, I just found out it's not actually a dream though.
But seriously, I was in a shocked state. =/
I just remembered I kept "huh-ing"~
He just gave me a shocking question & that's all.
It got me really shocked for the whole morning~
Even until now, I still can't recover from the shock-ness. =/
It's a good thing after all.
At least I had that security. :D
I'm happy & just shocked. =/
I told you I still can't recover from the shock-ness yet.
& yes, I love you. :D I will learn to be more understanding to you too. :D
& remember your promise, I do worry about you.
Time for work,
I'm late to meet the guys & Fel.
=/I hope they are late too~ I'm just tired. & my eyes are closing~
Alright, byebyebye !
I blog my resolution tomorrow alright. =/
I didn't know that I will typed my blog for such a long long time.
I really don't know how should I blog today entries. =/
And and, goodbye to my hectic & busy 2007 & welcome to my happy 2008. :D
The last day of the year & I spent it on WORKING?
I kind of regretted you know~ =/
But well, good thing is that it's $8/hr today. :D
And the first day of the year, I'm going to spend it on working too~
What the hell did I chose to work tomorrow. =/
I hope I aren't that tired. =/
But well, after this week, I aren't working until the next next week for banquet.
Next week is going to be my most most most slackest week for the year. =/
& he's starting school next week. :D
I hope everything will be back to normal.
My eyes are closing~
And byebye~
I hope I won't be sleeping during work. =/
I'm really really really tired. =/
Mum says I shouldn't kept working till the morning,
but that's my job you know~! =/
Alright byebyebyebyebyebye~
Goodbye to my 2007,
Welcome my 2008. :D
I will try to blog tonight.
I have so many things to blog.
But I have no time. =/
See you tonight or tomorrow. :D
11:28:00 AM
A smile that had everything hidden.
I'm back from working for 14 hours without any rest. =/
I'm so tired please please please.
My arms are hurting, my legs are painful.
But I had fun with my guests today. :D
I told you I had always treated guests like my friends. =/
And we were chatting most of the time. :D
I served both the Wedding Lunch & Dinner.
During the lunch, the aunties are really really nice. :D
And I got to know that the couples got together is because they played soccer. =/
Super cool please ~ And they knew each other during work. :D
Well for the dinner time,
my guests were really fussy.
There was a moment when I really want to break down & cry.
I just couldn't handle them & I felt like being played.
I went to get one drink & then I come back, they then request for another drink.
Before that, I did ask if they have any request, but they say no.
When I had sent out my food really really slow, they whined~
Or rather, it was that only particular guest. =/
The others were pretty fine & fun.
And there was one time when I was setting up.
I knocked over a red wine glass,
and it fell & it broke into millions of pieces right in front of the guests. =/
You know I was that slow in reaction type,
As usual, I gave that *Stunned* look.
Everyone gave that look too !
Until somebody eventually say those auspicious words. :/
& then Jonathan came ~ Then Junren came~
Junren helped me all the way with the cleaning up of the millions of pieces glass.
Without him, I guess I'll be stoning there for a longer time then. =/
I really have to thank the Junren a lot & of course Jonathan too. :D
It was a good thing that I had them as my in charge. :D
I had been really crazy today,
I kept talking & talking non-stop.
During the cocktail, my spirit was damn high. =/
Usually I won't really talk during working,
& furthermore, I wasn't really very close with the others,
but I don't know for what reason, I chatted with them so happily. =/
However, at the end of the wedding,
I wanted to raise my white flags already.
I'm really really tired, I sweared~
My legs are hurting me~
Or rather, the heels are killing me.
Maybe it's because I haven't been working for quite some time,
and suddenly I have to cope with so many hours of standing,
I almost going to die already please~
Tomorrow morning I will continue blogging.
Right now, my mind isn't functioning properly again. =/
Let me sleep alright pretty please. :D
I will blog more tomorrow.
Resolution for 2008 is tomorrow too. :D
And the one last thing is that,
Sighs, I miss you.
I have always been the only one trying to look for him,
And he's no longer the one looking for me anymore. =/
I miss you. I miss the past. I miss everything.
It's just all about you.
When was the last time that you actually care?
It hurts me to know that you were no longer there anymore.
1:30:00 AM
Sunday, December 30, 2007
All the power is completely in your hands. Avoid whatever makes you uncomfortable.
In Detail
All the power is completely in your hands today. That means that if you see something you don't like too much, you should do something about it! This rule applies to emotional issues as well as professional situations, so be prepared to pull someone aside for a quiet heart-to-heart in order to smooth over a sensitive topic. To counteract potential problems or conflicts, try to avoid whatever makes you uncomfortable or puts you in a negative state of mind.
Before I wore my dress, my make up was really thick,
but you can't really see it from here though. =/
My pretty Debbie cousin, her dress is damn nice I sweared.
I served my table. :D Later I tell you why.
Rose, I love blue roses, but well, they don't have. =/
COUSINS LOVES !
COUSINS FOREVER =D
I love rose rose rose ! =D
My dress. :/ I don't like narh~
Errr, I don't know where I was looking.
This is called Narcassistism.
=D ME ME ME ~ Hair messy~ =/
The AH LIAN/AH HUI CLUB =/
It came from because I'm ling,
and she's hui~ so we had this Ahlian/Ahhui names. =/
She's so tall please. =/ *Jealous*
My ah maaaaaaa~ :D
I love roses. :D
But I didn't really receive it before though. =/
BUT STILL, I LOVE ROSES NARH~
Especially those blue blue roses. :D
AND I DID NOT PHOTOSHOPPED ANY ABOVE PICTURES. =/
So I'm sorry for the super blur & lousy quality photos.
And I wasn't really happy with the service there.
You know, they don't serve at all.
They just put it there, with the serving gears there too,
expecting us to serve ourselves.
If you want us to serve ourself,
then you don't even have to put the serving gears,
since not many people really know how to use it anyway.
In the end, I served my table.
I go for wedding dinner,
and I become free labour being a waitress.
I was damn unhappy with the service please. =/
But I was glad that my relative & family are happy with my service. :D
Next, normally, they will ask you what drink would you want,
but this hotel's service was really bad,
they don't care please ~
I still have to tell them, I want an orange juice. =/
They don't ask at all, they don't care too~
Lucky they had this feedback form.
And I had wrote negative comments for their service,
but their set up for their room was still alright though. :D
But still, arghhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Never mind.
There was this part where they asked,
Will it be likely that you will be coming back to this hotel for other events,
and I wrote really bad comments, "Not likely anymore" =/
And and, you know red wine & white wine,
they have different kinds of glasses.
But this hotel, they used the white wine glasses to have red wine.
don't they know that the red wine will taste bad as they need to "breathe"?
My goodness. =/
I wondered if it was my expectation too high up,
or is that the service was just too bad. =/
I don't know, you shall judge~
Alright, time to sleep.
I'm working early tomorrow. =/
And and, I'm working on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday & Friday.
My goodness~ I forget I should not be working on Tuesday because it's a NEW YEAR !
A NEW YEAR, A NEW START YOU KNOW ! =/
SOMEONE BRING ME OUT ~
Perhap, I will tell them I don't want to work on that day tomorrow.
I shall see first then, if the pay is $8/hr on that day,
I will continue working ~
If it's not, then please cancel my booking. xD
It's my first time booking 5 days & I got 4 out of the 5 days. =/
I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing though? Sighs~
I miss him. I miss him. I miss him.
Why am I missing him so much narh?
When he's not even missing me norh~
IMUETUNKAINSK~
Baby, tell me that you would be there.
when the stars are not shining brightly tonight.
1:23:00 AM
Saturday, December 29, 2007
I'm back from sleeping last night.
My arm is still hurting now. =/
Painful you know~
At least I hope after holding the tray for so long,
it will burn some fat from my arm. :D
I want to lose weight. =/
I woke up really really late today.
And I slept like a log that I didn't realise that there were afew messages,
but none of them was from him though. Sighs. =/
I just know that my handphone was under my pillow.
So it will keep vibrate & go on with it's "Pikachu!~"
But I felt nothing, not even a single thing you know. =/
I wanted to continue sleeping,
but then I found out it's already so so so late.
So I went to bath and I'm going to doll up soon. =/
I'm quite lazy to perm my hair though.
Maybe I will leave it straight, or maybe I will perm it later. =/
I'm just so lazy recently you know !
And I had just found out that,
I only had one meal yesterday.
I had a few days which I forgotten all about my meals,
It just didn't come across my mind that I have to eat. =/
And I had just found out that, I haven't been drinking water.
I can be 神仙 already~ Just like what my brother had always said.
However, it's a good thing though. I can save money & lose weight. xD
And and, I want to get my camera before the Chinese New Year. :D
You see, I'm going to earn at least a hundred if I had OT on Sunday.
And then I'm going to earn another $120 on Monday since it's the New Year Eve.
Yeah, I'm spending my eve of the last day of 2007 on working,
it's just that I have no programme you know.
Perhap, I will join any of my friends group after I worked which will end about 1am?
And and, my build-a-bear still owe me another $180.
This make up my $400. :D
& then I had booked almost all the days for next week,
since he's not schooling yet & he should be out everyday,
& he haven't been bringing me out for a long time,
so yeah, I expected this week too.
Furthermore, I'm not working for him yet.
He said he will give me the schedule only after he starts school.
That's why I decided to just book my whole week!
But I had left my Satuday & Sunday blank. :D
So so, I might be earning another $300 or more.
I want to earn my $ 1000 and keep in bank before I start using. :D
& I want to earn more than $2000 before I have my school starts. :D
I want to start clearing all my things before the Chinese New Year.
I have to start practicing hard on my piano since I'm taking my last grade soon. :D
I want to do as many many things I can. :D
I want to earn more money too. :D
I want to bring my whole family out for treats. :D
I want to buy boyboy's little gifts. xD Err, but he's a dog, so maybe small dog stuffs.
I want to make cakes/chocolates/cookies for my friends. :D
I want to do many many things you know !
So, I just have to be superwoman now. xD
I won't get tired, don't worry. xD
& time to dress up.
I'm off for a wedding dinner. :D
I hope Qing Gong Yan is fun for SBM YOUTH.
REALMS, Moggallana will support you guys always.
Once a moggallana, always a moggallana. :D
We will always be there for everyone. :D
& 3 out of 5 Moggirls are not going for QGY !
Jowell & Andrina, I hope you guys have fun. :D
I LOVE ALL OF YOU ! =DDDDDD
Cocktail starts at 7pm. =/
You know I used to think Cocktail was those jelly thing,
And I don't understand why each time I go to the hotel,
and then they say the cocktail starts at 7pm,
but I never get to see any jelly thing at all !
NOT EVEN ONCE PLEASE~ =/
Now I understand,
it's just drink serving time. =/
CHEY~
Should I curl my hair up for the wedding?
I'm so lazy. =/
Never mind, I go and have my make up first.
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE!
PICTURES TONIGHT. :D
WANT TO SEE MY PRETTY COUSIN?
COME BACK TONIGHT ! :D
LOVES !
You are the guy that I never want to say Goodbye.
and you are the one that I miss all night long.
3:41:00 PM
1. Girls screw them over.
2. They just got hit in the balls.
3. They're about to die.
4. Their heart is broken.
5. Because they are true men.
GIRLS: If you see a guy crying, hug
him close and hold him up as he gets
over the pain of getting kicked in the
nuts. Tell him he's not going to die,
and if he's crying over a girl, hug
him & kiss him and let him know you
won't screw him over and break his
heart like the last girl did. Guys
just want to know that our girls will
be there for us to support us when we
need them and help us get our mind off
the pain of heartbreak, getting kicked
in the balls, and knowing we're
going to die.
Girls cry because :
1. They're sad.
2. They're scared.
3. They're nervous.
4. They're frustrated.
5. They're missing someone.
6. They're alone.
7. They're PMSing.
8. They're pregnant.
9. Their heart is broken.
10. They're in love.
11. Their souls have been torn.
12. They met a boy they can't have.
13. They fell in love with a boy.
14. They hurt so bad inside.
15. They're mad.
16. Something bad happend.
17. Just because they feel like crying.
18. They're drunk.
BOYS: If any girl you know is crying
and you see them, don't just stand
there and say you're sorry. Hold them
and tell them everything will be okay,
even if you have no idea what is wrong
with them. Girls just want to be held
and know that someone cares about
them.
LOL ! Look like, girls have more reasons for crying. xD
Guys can cry too, it's just that girls will easily know what happened. xD
However, when girls cry, guys have no idea why girls are crying. xD
This is why we say, girls are mysterious, and that's a good thing alright. xD
SMILE SMILE SMILE ! =D
3:05:00 PM
But in fact, I didn't do much for LimChukang,
since Felicia was injured due to some crazy dog which bite her.
And yeah, a very bad bite though,
it's pretty scary you know !
I hope she's fine now.
So firstly, I woke up really early to return the uniform. :D
And I did something that I'm really glad.
I give attitude to that manager. :D
Then after I bid my farewell to my colleague Nicole,
she told me to have fun. :D
And I replied her loudly,
saying "OF COURSE HAVE FUN LAH!~ I'm OUT of this place." xD
I sweared I shouted very loud,
but that Adeline act nothing happened.
ACT ONLY~ =/
I'm happy happy happy. :DDDDDD
Then after that, I went to the MRT & found out I forget to bring my wallet.
-.-" what the heavennnnnnnnnnnnn, then it caused me to be late. =/
After that I went home and took my wallet and took cab to SBM.
And the cab fare is so expensive, and others were late too. -.-"
Waste my time & money only~
After that we went to LimChuKang,
and after we wanted to unload everything from the lorry.
I saw Felicia's leg was so bloody & I shocked. =/
Then she said she was biten by a dog & she cried.
We helped her clean her wound & then LiangJian & I fetch her to the clinc.
The same clinic which I went during the June Camp when I had my bike accident. =/
I got bad memories about that Boon Lay clinic. =/
She had her dressing & then LiangJian took her to have a Revis jab.
I don't know the spelling, but well, just pronouce it. :D
Then, we went back & I took my bag, then went off with all those who needed to work.
It's my first time being all alone. =/
Then met the guys after I dress up & make up.
Off to work. :D
The bride is very pretty today. :D
And there was this suddenly-very-scary-part.
It was already 10pm, and we are still at our 3rd course. =/
It's actually we are not the one who are slow.
It's the chef, because after I do all the topping up & stuffs,
the food is not ready yet, and I went out to try to do something. =/
So at 10pm, Alex wants us to be quick & jam the food like hell.
He wants it to be done at 10.45pm.
And there's still 6 more courses to be out. -.-"
*Stunned*
In the end, we managed to do it. :D
And I helped ZhanFeng alot. :D
He's my partner today.
But he's rather new. =/
However, I like the helping part. :D
And at least, he did help me sometime too. :D
Initially, I saw Shilong.
Then I'm like so happy please.
In the end, he was moved to Atrium,
and he wasn't at ballroom anymore.
Sighs sighs sighs. =/
I still told him we should partner,
but then he was being transferred. Tsk.
Before the wedding, I was doing the cocktail appence.
And you know what, after carrying the tray for 1 minute.
My arms are already aching. =/
After some time, I got used to it again.
Maybe it's just that I haven't been working for a long long time,
and it resulted in the super painful arm now. =/
Oh ya, we were doing the food presentation.
And then there was this HR girl, which was really errr.
I don't know how to explain, but her voice & face got me irritated. =/
And her attitude, always trying to be bitchy & flirting the managers.
Always letting the managers to hug and stuffs. Walao~
If she's pretty, I have nothing to say.
But ah, never mind. =/
She walked past us, and saying that she don't have to do food presentation.
Her voice & tone really irritate me a lot,
and I just say loudly,"eeeeyer, er xin!"
And everybody laughed. xD Too bad~
And VictorTan did a spillage today.
When Alex was asking who had a spillage,
he was like waving his hand high up very quickly.
Damn funny, I wanted to laugh.
Like he was so enthusiastic & damn proud to have spillage. =/
After a whole day of tiring & hectic day,
I called my day off. :D
And tomorrow, I'm going for a wedding dinner.
Make sure they do it properly,
I'm a banquet waitress,
I know what are the standard requirement. :D
Maybe I had been trained by Oriental already,
I want things to go smoothly, and perfectly well. :D
Oriental - the Tip-Top Condition Service. :D
But ah, I also know spillages are unavoidable. :D
I only wish the waitress/waiter who is serving us tomorrow,
has a good attitude and that's all. :D
I'm so happy today that I kept talking to my guest. =/
And I don't know what happened to me,
I just kept blabbering about. =/
And we were supposed to act professional,
but I went so hyper liked they were my friends,
and kept talking to them. =/
Every course I gave it to them,
I will say "HELLO!" *smilesmile*
before I start helping them.
& while helping them, I will still talk to them. =/
I just love my job. :D
When I'm happy, I will do anything crazy. =/
And and, stop asking me why do I hold so many jobs,
it's just because my mum is not working anymore,
and I don't want to spend her money you see!
I'm their only last child which they have to worry about.
I just don't want them to worry so much !
Whenever people ask me, why do I take up so many jobs,
I just say I was just wanting to be rich. =/
I'm just lazy to explain you see~
I just love my parents & I don't want them to worry about me.
They can worry all other things in life,
I will do my part not to let them worry about me. :D
Don't forget, I'm the girl which lives with shits. :D
Shits happen, but we can sort them out soon. :D
Everything can be solved, as long as you have the happy-go-lucky character. xD
Don't brood over matters, because it will only cause it to matter.
And you know today when we were on the lorry on our way to Lim Chu Kang.
I went crazy again ! It's not because I wanted to be. =/
It's just that I don't like the super quiet atmosphere. =/
Pretty scary~ And I don't want to get myself emo you know ~
When I don't talk, it means I'm thinking, which is a bad thing. =/
And then Andrina was like, wanting to throw me down the lorry. =(
Because I was just too noisy, kept blabbering non-stop. xD
And Zhenyu had this random habit, which he will suddenly pop out with random stuffs.
Sighs, my left arm is hurting really badly now.
I guess I strained too much of my left arm.
Cause usually, I take my tray on my left hand.
And today, I did the most unusual thing,
I carried 10 plates, with hot tea & a few drinks. =/
It's like I did it a lot alot of time.
When we were doing turnover,
I carried the suzanne for a few times. =/
You know suzanne are pretty heavy too,
but it's fun, I'm a girl, but doesn't mean I'm not strong. =/
But still, my arm is hurting lahhhhhhh.
And I think my blog is so long now. =/
STOP BLOGGING WANLING~ =/
But but, I still want to write somemore. =/
I want to play O2Jam,
but my computer has no space to install anymore. =/
Someone help me to format my computer please. =/
Sighs~ I'm just so lazy to back up everything.
But the folders are already sorted out.
It's just that, I'm lazy lahhhhh~
And and, while working just now,
his number kept appearing on my mind. -.-"
Cause my table was all the way at the ballroom 1,
so I had quite a distance to walk before I reach,
and everytime I was walking towards the ballroom 1,
his number will just appeared on my mind. -.-"
I told you, I do miss him a little too much sometime. =/
And that I was glad he told me the girl thing. :D
Though I feel a little insecure, but I'm fine. :D
And I'm still happy-ing. LOL!
I just hope he weren't know any more girls =/
Which is impossible ! =/
My left arm is hurting me too much, I just don't seem to get to sleep.
Sighs, someone help me. It's hurting terribly bad.
I sense something is just not right. =/
Did I strain too much of my left arm? =/
Okay this should be end of the post,
it's way too long. =/
Day & Night, You were the one that I miss.
No matter how busy I am, you will just come across my mind unknowingly.
2:36:00 AM
Friday, December 28, 2007
I'm sick again, for goodness sake.
In this year, I don't know how many times had I been sick you know.
It's been so many many times that you can see my nick keep appearing with {Sick}.
AND NOW, FEVER AGAIN ~
HOW TO WORK LIKE THAT. =/
*cries*
I'm feeling damn terrible now.
*cries*
How am I supposed to go Lim Chu Kang like that too. =/
I'm not feeling well at all. =/
I hope I will be alright by tomorrow.
Sighs.
What a good time to be sick.
2:03:00 AM
Thursday, December 27, 2007
I'm super super duper bored.
And I went to get a hair curler last night. =/
I told you I was bored.
I had been home for a few days already. =/
And yeah, just plainly staying at home and ROT !~
Sighs, life is sooooo "meaningful"
And yeah!
Adelina called me. :D
She says I should concentrate on my banquet job.
I keep telling her I was very tired after working at build-a-bear workshop.
And yes yes yes ! I'm not working there anymore. :D
HELLO WELCOME TO BUILD A BEAR WORKSHOP IS GONE ! xD
But but but, I kind of miss all my customers. =/
And I miss my colleagues. :D
Maybe it's just better that way. :D
At least, I don't have to tolerate those managers' scolding.
Hmm, I mean not Adelina, she's a very nice manager.
But the others. =/ I just don't like them, and that's it.
I never been so happy in my life before you know !
So relieved, so glad, so happy. :D
And today, I had a bad dream. =/
And he was in my dream you know. =/
It started like those Qing Dynasty things,
very crap dream indeed.
I don't know for what reason,
my so called grandmother & those ladies told me to go in the house.
For goodness sake, I don't even know them, and I don't know why I still listen to them.
And there came, the robbery thing !~
One thing that was really funny,
it's because my mobile phone was made of jewellery,
and it was charging with a nokia charger. -.-" & then, they took my phone away too.
They wanted all the golds (Yeah, Qing Dynasty doesn't have money)
And they took every single of them.
Then, he was there all along with me. =/
And suddenly, one of the robber just took a bottle of pee & pour over me.
What the heavennnnnnnnn~ & I don't know why he gone missing at that time too.
Then I just slapped that freaking guy. =/
And started to find his boss. =/
I don't know for what reason,
I complained to him. -.-"
& I don't know for what reason,
the "boss" told him that they are there to take gold,
not bully the people, like me. -.-"
WHAT THE HEAVEN~
& then, after they left, I woke up. =/
And I cried. -.-"
What a crap dream I had, I was seriously shocked to have such a dream.
It's pretty scary when I'm involving in that dream,
like you have to face all the people there.
Ahhhh, stop it. =/ Let's don't think anymore.
Sighs ~
My first thing I wanted to do after crying,
is wanting to call him, but I guess he should be sleeping,
and so, I didn't call him anymore. =/
And you know what,
I just found out school is reopening soon.
And which means, nobody is working with me at Banquet anymore.
AHHHHHHHH~ NOOOOOOO~ =/
Sighs sighs sighs.
And you know what,
recently, I got hooked on Jay Chou's 我不配
Then today, that idiot gave me the link to the video.
I wanted to change my blog song to it,
but again, I didn't want myself to be emo you see.
Here goes the lyrics.
我不配
作词：方文山 作曲：周杰伦
这街上太拥挤 太多人有秘密 玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪 在还原那场雨 这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿 又斑驳了几句 剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅 隔遥远的距离 感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你 你却微笑的离我而去
＃这感觉 已经不对 我努力在挽回
一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给
你嘟嘴 许的愿望很卑微 在妥协
是我忽略 你不过要人陪
＊这感觉 已经不对 我最后才了解
一页页 不忍翻阅的情节 你好累
你默背 为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪 你的美 我不配
PS：这感觉已经不对。。。我的他如果也能这么想就好了。。。
And and, I'm happy now.
You know why ?
Because my mobile phone is alright now.
It rings with PIKACHU! when people send a message.
But you know why it was alright ?
Because I accidentally dropped my phone,
and it went slamming down for a few stairs before reaching the next storey. -.-"
BUT, it's fine now. :DDDD
Maybe dropping phone isn't always a bad thing you know ! =/
And I didn't know it started working well again,
until Vincent send his sms, and I suddenly heard "Pikachu!"
*Stunned*
Alright, we are fine now.
Maybe for now only. =/
Perhaps, I just miss him too much. =/
And it's just alittle too much.
Sometime, I do miss our late night calls you know,
We used to talk a lot a lot things in calls,
unlike in Msn, I felt that he's just so unreluntant to talk,
if not we are always crapping most of the time. =/
And and, I miss the way he laugh.
It's damn funny I tell you. =/
I'm still reminisicing it now. =/
And, I'm glad that he called last night. :D
Though it's just a short short conversation. =/
But I'm still happy ~ =D
And, I'm already happy liao.
Then, don't tell me negative things. =/
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. :D
Words left unsaid, actions left undone.
When raining just don't seem to go away, I wish you could be there.
1:10:00 PM
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
I wanted this :(
I don't care, I might be getting it for New year. :D
This is good too. :D
Errr, abit not suitable for wedding dinner.
It's alright too =D
Not my type =/ I look damn fat lah~
In the end I bought this. -.-"
I don't wanttt~ But Mum insisted~
It's pretty funny ah,
I'm the one wearing the dress, also not her.
Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.
Sighs, I don't like my dress narh~ Never mind~!
Anyway, I went out with mum to get the dress for the wedding dinner this saturday.
And whatever I liked, she don't like.
Whatever she liked, I don't like.
In the end, I give in to her, I bought the last one.
Roar~ Sighs~ Next time, I shan't not go shopping with Mum. =/
Alright, at least not for dresses. =/
And I had cleaned up my room. :D
It's free of dust already. =D
I had even changed my bedsheets,
but it's not into Pink colour you know !
My sister-in-law took the pink one already. =/
Sighs~ Never mind~
And I just found out that,
they kept many many things under my bed. -.-"
Sighs, that's the bad thing about having a higher bed.
And, I don't know where should I be throwing my textbooks.
Anyone wants my textbooks, assessment & TYS ?
But firstly, wait till I get my result first alright,
I'm still not very confident yet. =/
I haven't clear my books and it's still in the mess now.
While other things are pretty stacked nicely. :D
I'm so proud of myself. :D
I sweep the floor, I vacuum the floor,
I clean up the whole room. =D
That's the achievement I had get you know !
The next thing I want to do is to pack my books in one corner
& then I will start mopping the floor. =D Yay !
I love clean areas ! :D
And today, it was really suffering.
Because I resist the urge to sms him.
I wanted to know if he even cares about me,
Or rather, if he ever thinks of me at all.
Or at least, give me a SMS when I didn't give him.
But well, he didn't. So yeah, this explain that he doesn't care anymore.
Not even a teeny weeny bit you know !
I'm like super sad please.
No assurance given,
no care & concern at all.
But when he came online,
and I just chatted with him,
& I felt happy again. -.-"
I'm just so easily contented,
what the heaven. -.-"
I think if I never start talking to him,
he weren't even want to talk to me norh.
Super super super super sad~
But forget it~
And hey~ I dreamt of this scene,
the scene where I was typing the exact same words,
and then doing the same thing.
What the heaven~ -.-"
I just wish 2008 come faster,
and maybe when his school starts,
I hope things will get better.
Sighs~
But then, when 2008 comes,
it means I will have to get my result,
and then means, I'm going back to school.
WAHSEH~ BORING !
And my resolution for the upcoming 2008,
I'm still not sure yet, but I will post it soon. =D
I'm very lazy to strike off those words. =/
After all, he won't be reading my blog anyway. =/
I'm getting lazier & lazier day by day.
Damn. I even got lazier to go out you know.
Time to stop being lazy & start losing weight. =/
Alright, byebyebyebyebyebye.
Don't mind me if I start blabbering nonsense,
cause I'm just tired please. =/
Sighs.
I'm trying to be happy. :D
I hope I wasn't trying too hard. =/
8:49:00 PM
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
我告诉我自己是时后放手。
I had been rather upset today.
I can never stay home,
once I'm at home,
I will start have all the negative thoughts.
I had been home the whole day & night.
I slept through my day & night.
It's really getting boring.
I have nothing to do at all.
Not even a thing.
And I was thinking if I want to go out.
But I was very tired, and I was sleepy since I didn't slept much.
Furthermore, so many people are in town today.
I don't want to squeeze with people you see.
I wasn't feeling great anyway.
So I'm very reluntant to act as nothing has happened. =/
And I don't want to go out with an upset mood,
and then got others to emo together.
If only, If only, If only...
这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回..
Nonchalent.
I will learn to move along.
But still, sighs, I miss your calls.
9:48:00 PM
Don't get me wrong, we didn't go to Orchard to celebrate.
I hate the squeezy squeezy feeling with the other people.
And I don't like to get sprayed into my eyes,
that's why this year, we went to Ian's house.
Before that, we went to catch a movie "Alvin&Chipmunks".
It rocks ! I was laughing so much that I thought I really went crazy.
I like the Chipmunks. They are just so adorable.
I want to watch it again. :D
Ray told me that, he saw me at Cineleisure. =/
When we never really see each other before,
even though I know him since I was primary 4.
I had forgotten how we got to know each other,
but it's just that we never really see each other before.
Then, he asked me if I had gone to Cineleisure.
And he told me he saw me.
He said he can spot me well,
because I'm very SMALL. -.-"
And he said that he never thought that I would be so small.
I'm so small meh, really meh?
Next, after our movie, they went to play Pool.
It's been so so so long since I played.
And I won Madeline. :D
It's my first time winning please. =/
Hangqi still expected that Madeline will be better.
And I had also thought so too,
because my pool sucks. =/
But but, I won. :D
However, when we were playing,
we did a lot a lot of stupid things.
I told you I'm not good at pool already. =/
Next, we went to meet up with Felicia.
Then we headed to Newton.
Then met up with Jowell & Evelyn.
They have that similar sisterly look. =/
They both wear white top & blue shorts.
They have the similar hairstyle.
I found out that Moggirls, they have that similar hairstyle.
Except me me me & still me. =/
But I love them still. :D
Then Wencai came, & Andrina came.
We headed to Ian's house. :D
I played Manjong for a few rounds,
and decided to go and play O2Jam.
After playing awhile, I chatted with Shixiong. =/
And he gave me 4 ways for that relationship.
The usual 4 ways that he gave Hangqi too. =/
Damn funny when I told Hangqi about it. xD
And yeah, I don't know what to do.
And I'm still hanging in the mid air. =/
Shixiong was damn funny,
he even went to draw out a diagram for me. =/
Next, HangQi, Andrina & I went up to Ian's room,
and we started to share things that happened in our life. =/
Mine is complicating, and it's still as complicating.
After that, we kept going in & out of the computer room.
I played alittle bit of Audition while Andrina played with my O2Jam.
When it was christmas time,
Vicky & Ernest went crazy.
And I really meant crazy. xD
They act drunk infront of the road.
And every drivers slow their car down.
Then they stood up and started laughing,
then one of the drivers even give a thumps up sign,
while a few of the others wave to us.
It's really really funny.
We did a lot a lot of stupid things.
After that, the girls were leaving.
So I acted I was leaving too.
And they believed.
Raymond told Felicia that she's the only girl left.
And she was like stoning for a few seconds before she shouted " REALLY AH !~ "
Then she went out to find me, in the end I told her I was just lying to the guys.
And she told me what happened when Raymond told her,
it's really funny when you see the way Raymond jumped. xD
I can start imagining now. xD
In the end, Felicia still went home because her mum was scolding her.
While the rest of us, Andrina,Forester&I went to the room to chat.
It's the first time that Forester & I really shared about relationship stuffs.
And I think he's alright, he had been a flirt in my mind last time.
Now at least I understood him. xD
And I asked them if I'm really fat,
they said I'm just a little bit meaty.
Ahhh, I want to lose weight already.
I sent christmas wishes last night to a lot of people.
I received Shikai's reply is to ask me to go for diet more. =/
What the heaven. =.="
See, I told you I'm fat. =/
Next, when Ernest & Vicky came in.
All their craps come along with them.
Ernest was doing all the farting sound again.
He even went to an extent of making the farting sound together with Meditation procedures.
Like, "First you have to relax, relax, and then press.."
Super super super funny ~
We really laugh until my stomach cramp.
Then there was one time when we tickled Ernest,
Ian accidentally torn his pocket.
And you must see Ernest's expression.
It's super super cute & funny.
Ernest is like crazy.
He kept playing drums on all the things he can see,
even Forester's butt.
He was just using two pens and he can make a lot alot of sound.
And the way he played, his expression and stuffs.
DAMN FUNNY~
We really did alot alot of stupid things yesterday,
until around 6am, we were getting tired.
But the aircon was blowing hot air,
so we tend to get very hyper active again,
then suddenly, the aircon starts to blow the cold air,
and I fell alseep. =/
3 of us were sharing a bed, can you imagine !!
Forester,me&Andrina.
I was squashed in between them. xD
Around 8am, we woke up & I went off with Andrina.
I think I was too noisy, I woke everybody up. =/
And that idiot Kaiwen, when I was getting my bag,
He suddenly woke up and look at me while a few minutes ago,
he was snoring loudly. =/
He never tell me that he want to leave with us !~
And I thought he saw me while I was taking bag,
but he said he never. Kiasinang.com
I went home and then I fell asleep already.
Then after sleeping for 2 hours,
VictorTan called me. =/
I went back to sleep again,
then Fuzhong called me. -.-"
And I can't sleep anymore.
I haven't sleep for the whole night.
Give me some sleep please. =/
I miss the past when it's just the two of us.
And when there wasn't anything bothering us.
12:43:00 AM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
I'll be waiting here, Santa that's MY only wish this year.
Hello, I have changed my blog song to update myself with the upcoming Christmas. :D
And this song referred to my current feeling. =/
Christmas is coming and I'm not looking forward to it. =/
And I haven't get any present for my beloved friends.
Perhap, I will make chocolates or cheesecakes for them?
I don't know. Let's see how tomorrow. =/
You know what, I love my song ton. :D
I kept repeating it again & again.
I must feel the christmas atmosphere can~
I'm in my upright mood now.
Don't try to make me upset alright. :D
And I'm very happy, you know why!?
Because build-a-bear didn't call me today. :D
Mean I don't have to work tomorrow. :D
And I didn't put that I'm free on christmas day. :D
SO I DON'T HAVE TO WORK !
And I'm waiting to send Shikai's my resignation letter to get it printed. :D
I can't wait to quit my build-a-bear job.
My brothers & mum & dad are very supportive of me quitting this job. =D
I told you the managers don't like me. I have never been so stress that I cried please.
It's really tiring me & stressing me up.
I don't want to be pushed to my limit till the day I really screamed at them.
And I shouldn't think about all these when it's christmas. :D
No more emo feeling. :D I want to be happy. =D
Today is a happy day yet a sad day too.
I won't be saying why it's a sad day. =/
Happy day for me is because I met up with Laykheng.
She's my friend for since 9 years ago.
We got into the same class since Primary 1.
Then we joined the same CCA & we had our secrets shared.
We always confide in each other.
She's my bestest friends that I never regret having.
And it's been so long since I met her please. :D
We went out & I bought my Guess Wallet like finally~ :D
Initially, I was really indecisive of the design I getting.
In the end, I chose it and then I got really indecisive if I should buy it. =/
But still, I bought it in the end. =)
I was supposed to meet up with Vincent & Shikai,
but I don't know what happened.
We didn't meet up. So yeah.
End of my day.
You are making me upset.
Doesn't you even have any conscience?
I don't know what you are thinking.
And now, I'm suffering.
Because I just felt so insecure,
and there isn't any assurance from you.
I miss the past so much.
You're just not like the one I used to know.
Not anymore.
I don't know why,
things around me just ended fast.
Sighs, maybe I'm always just the loser.
And goodbye to the emo wanling,
say hello to the happy wanling.
everytime I waited through the nights for you.
Perhap, I'm trying too hard to get back what we lost,
but you didn't do your part, so I gave up.
8:12:00 PM
Because it just allowed my mind go wild,
when it goes wild,
I'll get emo,
when I get emo,
the blog will get upset entries,
when the blog get upset entries,
People will also share the negative sides of life,
and then their mind will go wild,
and the cycle goes on. =/
I shall not let my mind go wild already.
Even if it wants to think so much,
I will let it be. After all if those things that I had thought were true,
I can't do anything either.
I saw this phrase while blog-hopping.
& seriously, no point being sad over people that don't even care about you.
if people only think about themselves, so why waste ur time.
So yeah, I love people who love me.
I care for people who care for me.
My principle.
You treat me well, I treat you well.
I treat you the way you treat me. :D
And Christmas is coming !
Santa Claus, where are you ?
Buy me the chihuahua from Build-a-bear. :D
Wear the piglet/eeyore outfit for him. :D
Or buy me the Canon/Panasonic Lumix Camera. :D
As long it is of a good function, and it's even better if it's in pink. :D
Maybe you can just bring him for me. xD
But well, that's just impossible so never mind.
And I really want to have a reborn.
But my hair so so freaking straight at the back.
But I just don't like my fringe and I got so irritated that I decided to clip it all up,
even though it looked really ugly, but I just can't stand my fringe. Yeah my self-cut fringe.
I want to cut my hair a little shorter but I'm afraid that it will curl & then I will have to reborn.
If I go reborn, everything is included you see~ Cut + Treatment + Reborn. All in one ~
If I go and cut my hair now, and then to decide to reborn later, it's just a waste of my money.
Oh my oh my oh my !~
I need to go out tomorrow.
I need to get a dress for my cousin's wedding dinner.
And I just don't seem to be able to get any dress currently. :/
I liked the LaSenza's dress but it cost 80 bucks. =/
I haven't gotten my pay, so I don't want to spend my remaining money on it. -.-"
Next, I want to watch Alvin & Chipmunks.
Who want to watch with me. =/
I want to see the chipmunks. =D
And I like Roboviski a lot.
But then again, I don't want to have hamsters anymore.
The way they fight, the way they kill each others.
It's just scaring me. I don't like it.
So forget about it.
Let's just end that ga-ga over it.
I will just look at it in pet shop. :D
Another thing is that, I have to get my Ipod for service. :D
It's in crap condition now. After an hour or so, the battery is flat.
And I heard that they will give you a new one in return because Ipod is just un-repairable.
SO YEAH, NEW IPOD NANO ! :D
I want to get a new cellphone too.
My phone is crap too. Battery is going crazy.
I can't answer phone calls.
My messages are delivered later at times.
And seriously, I'm getting irritated by my phone. :(
Next, I want to lose weight.
I want to lose all the fats now.
Time to set on for a goal.
I must lose weight before this 2007 end.
It's been a quick year.
I was so busy with examinations.
And then this year has come to an end. =/
I just found out after typing for so long that today it's 23rd December.
Not that it's anything special to me.
But it's just on this day 2 years ago,
Jashawn & I were together.
If we were still together,
we would have been together for 2 years. =/
Too bad, he wasn't those faithful type.
He just want to play around with girls' heart. =/
So yeah, I wouldn't even be thinking of him again.
At least, I won't miss him at all.
It's just the date that reminds me.
You were all that I wanted this christmas.
1:31:00 AM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
20 Things Girls Want Guys To Know
1. We love when you cuddle with us
2. A kiss on the cheek is a definitely yes
3. We want you to put your arm around us at the movies
4. We don't care if you are the strongest guy in the world
5. Size doesn't matter so don't tell us
6. We don't always look our best so get over it
7. We shouldn't have to plan everything
8. We're always ready to talk so call us
9. We're not perfect so deal with it
10. We love suprises
11. The little things you do mean the most
12. Were not always girly girls
13. We can like boy stuffs too
14. Cursing and fighting don't impress us
15. Don't be mean to us to get our attention
16. Don't tell us who is hot because we don't care
17. We can tell when your not listening so listen up
18. When we say we are cold that's our invitation to come closer
19. Hugs mean more somtimes
20. We need your advice sometimes so don't be afraid to give it to us.
:D
10:04:00 PM
These are shits.
I had always been handling shits.
Forget it. I will live with it.
But for now, let my dad off please.
May Buddha assure that my dad will be alright.
Namo Buddhaya
Namo Dharmaya
Namo Sanghaya.
May all beings be well & happy.
I'm getting enough shit.
9:40:00 PM
I will learn to be happy.
Because being unhappy,
just doesn't seem to be Siah Wan Ling. xD
Don't forget, I'm the happy-go-lucky girl.
I shall just forget all the unhappy things.
Now I understand guys,
from the way Kaiwen had told me.
I will keep everything silent. :D
Girly
[x] I love at least one shade of pink.
[x] I don't like being messy.
[ ] My belongings are organized.
[x] I don't like rock music.
[x] I like wearing accessories.
[x] Bright colors amaze me.
[ ] I hate black.
[ ] I go to the salon once a week.
[x] I comb my hair almost all the time.
[x] I bring my phone with me
everywhere.
add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 70% girly.
Boyish
[ ] I wear baggy pants.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I listen to boy bands like My
Chemical Romance, Yellowcard,
Swit c hfoot, etc.---Screw these listen
to metalcore
[ ] I like wearing jackets with hoods.
[ ] I'm too lazy to do chores.
[ ] I don't like shopping.
[ ] I like to go bungee jumping.
[ ] I like being sweaty.
[ ] I'm a big fan of marvel heroes.
[ ] I barely wear perfume.
add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 10% boyish.
N erdy
[ ] I always carry a pen in my
purse
or pocket.
[x] I enjoy studying.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I'm a straight-A student.
[ ] I've never skipped any class in my
whole life.
[ ] I like my shirt tucked in.
[x] My favorite subject is science.
[ ] I enjoy reading books.
[ ] My assignments are passed up on
time.
[ ] I correct people with their
grammar.
add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 20% nerdy.
Emo
[x] I love the color black.
[x] I always sit at the corner.
[x] One side of my hair is covering
one of my eyes.
[ ] I like listening to metal rock
music.
[x] I have a lot of problems in my
life.
[ ] I'm not much of a loud person.
[ ] I don't talk much.
[ ] I don't have that much friends.
[ ] I barely have fun.
[ ] I barely go out with my folks or
friends.
ad d up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 40% emo.
Childish
[ ] I love to stare at the ceiling for
ten mins
[x] I sleep with a stuff toy.
[x] I watch cartoons.
[x] I love to invent words only i
understand
[ ] I sleep with a night light.
[ ] My parents are the ones who
choose my outfit.
[x] I'm scared of roller coasters.
[ ] I like being with my family
relatives .
[ ] I take bubble baths.
[x] Love spongebob
add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 50% childish =X
I'm 70% girlish, 10% boyish, 20% nerdy, 40% emo & 50% childish. -.-"
5:45:00 PM
You just never care.
I'm back for blogging again. :D I just love to update my blog with every single things that happened. =/ Because you see, I have that habit of reading my past entries when I'm bored. So when I miss the past so much, I can click on my past entries. It's just my style or reminisicing the past. And I shall say, I really miss the past a lot, so much that I actually wished things can always be the same. I hate changes. Usually, all the changes are towards to a darker side. And this explain why I never like to look forward to things. This christmas, this new year, I aren't looking forward to it.
Everything falls on the 29th. QingGongYan is on the 29th. My cousin's wedding is also on the 29th. TPrawks' gathering is also on the 29th. What am I supposed to do if everything falls on that day. QingGongYan is at LimChuKang & I can't possible head down to it after the wedding. And my schedule for working is also all messed up. I just have to get rid of that build-a-bear job and I'm so free. But firstly, if I don't have anything on for the christmas, I guess I will go and work at build-a-bear since they always need people. So people, find things for me to do please. I don't like to work. Neither do I like to rot at home. =( This explain why I like to go out to work. =(
It's you. You had been rather cold lately.
Our SMSes are getting lesser.
Our calls are getting lesser.
I just felt so insecure.
I felt that there is another girl for you.
If there is one, go for it.
I will leave.
I felt pathetic.
Sitting right infront of the computer,
being whiny about you are not bothered about me.
And because of all these, I cried for nothing.
My family is always quarrelling.
Mum is always nagging.
Brother is not coming home.
I'm very stressed up with work.
I'm getting upset because of work.
I'm getting tired of all these whole damn thing.
Really tired.
And there it is,
I'm getting cold shoulder from you.
This feeling is really hurting.
And I have no one to tell my problems to.
I wanted to tell you.
But you just seemed so cold,
that I decided not to tell you anymore.
Because I don't want you to get sick of me being too whiny about my job.
At this lowest point in time,
I guess I only have myself to stand for myself.
I will be fine.
Goodbye.
我愿意让伤心再来一便，
只要你留一个位置给我。
If only you can give me some care & concern.
10:36:00 AM
Hello, I'm finally off from work for this week already. I just can't wait to call a stop to this job. I felt so stressed up working in Build-a-bear. It's contradicting, isn't it? Firstly, I was looking forward to this job because I thought it was supposed to bring joy to me. But what I got was criticism from the managers & they just never like me. I got scolded for more than ten times today. It's already a routine to get scolded. Each time, I drag myself to work because I can't take it to get another scolding for nothing. They just find anything to get me to be scolded. Even when I was stitching the bears, I thought Nicole was serving the customer. I was busy with my bears already, she's so free, Mable can just scold me for not serving customer. What the hell~ I just get scolded for everything. Customer wants to try the outfit and they requested me to help them, I got scolded again. They said I should encourage them to do it themselves. But when they want me to help them, what you want me to do. Crap~ You not happy with me, you fired me lah~ I can't wait to get a fire too. I just want to get out of this job as soon as possible. If I quit myself, I still have to tolerate you guys for 2 weeks. That's a torture to me please.
I was so stressed up that I cried on my way to meet up with Jianyong & guys. When I met them, I cried after telling them my stressful job. That's how bad the managers had been treating me. When I'm finally off from work, I still have to get scolding from Adeline due to the things that happened 2 days ago and I had been scolded that day already. Crap right. No matter what, they will just find things to scold me. They can even go to an extent to get things that happened some time ago to just to scold me. How crap can that be ? You tell me~ I never feel so stress because of work before, and now I'm suffering because of it. Not happy with me, just get me fired man. I'm so glad if you can fire me. My life is so much better without you guys. Sigh. I'm going to type my resignation letter tomorrow. I can't take it anymore, I swear. If you constantly get into conflict with your managers, you will really get so upset that no matter how strong you are, you will just cry. I don't know if it's the problem lie on me, or is it the problems lie on them. It's pretty unreasonable for the things that they had scolded me.
I did most things, I bring the heavy stocks by myself without the trolley, I get poked while stitching the bears & packing the shoes, I ran here ran there just to help with the customers. I make all the customers happy & they kept coming back to find me, so these are all I get from the managers? Even the well performance board, I got no stars while everyone had at least one. I'm the only one without stars please. If you think by doing all these you will bring me down, you had already did it. I'm very upset by all these things. I just wish you guys will just read my blog and know how I really feel. I cannot take it already, I even return the way you treated me already. When my limit is up, I will return what I had received. That's just my principle. I treat you the way you want me to treat you. Enough is enough, really. I just wish they won't want me to work anymore. I just wish they will give me a call tomorrow and tell me that they will fire me. I really wish, and I really do. Please fire me. Sighs.
After working, I went to meet up with Jianyong & guys. Then, we headed to Pasir Ris to meet up with the others. Next, we walked all the way to Aloha Loyang. My legs are hurting due to the whole day of standing up without any resting. :( We had BBQ then I went out to chat with Raymond. After that, when I returned, for no reason Forester & I got scandal. -.-" Lawrence's fault~ Eunice was standing beside us too ~ Why is it me ? Iddddiot. Then after that scandal thing, everyone started to start saying about it. -.-"
Then, we all squeezed into a small room with around 30 peoples. Have you imagined such things happening ? I have evidence. :D I shall upload the photos next time. xD After the meeting, I went off with LiangJian & I'm home now. :D I was supposed to stayover with the Realms but I'm too tired already. It's been really a day of tiring & stressful day in build-a-bear. So people, if I really start blabbering nonsense, or I give you attitude or I'm being emo, I'm really sorry.
Nighty night.
I miss you.
I'm just tired of my current life.
And I don't know why I'm being so pessimistic.
Missing you had been suffering.
And now, I'm making myself feeling insecure.
Sighs, my bad, my fault.
My only wish for this year,
It's all about you.
1:27:00 AM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
After that, I went to find Hangqi & guys. :D Then I went to find the bear builders at Vivociy. I miss Sabrina & the others. :( And I found out that there're a few eyecandies around in Vivocity. =/ Next, we were eating & eating and I ended up resting on Subway's table while they were eating. Then Eugene went shopping with me because the others want to sit still and I'm really bored. =( After shopping for awhile, I'm interested in that Guess Wallet. :D So cheap can~ It's on sale. xD Even the handbags are so cheap and I'm so so so wanted them. =/ Hey, not that I'm into branded, but it's just really nice. :D And, I'm going to get my Guess wallet soon, perhaps before Christmas. :D My wishlist is so great now, there's so many strike off. :D I want to fill everything with strike. xD First, I have to start earning as much money as possible. =/
After playing for a while, I kept complaining I want to go home because I don't have my phone. I just can't live without my phone. Being without my phone, means
Tomorrow will be fulfilling, I will be working & then I will be meeting Eugene then we shall head over to Shixiong's chalet. I'm quite lazy to travel that far. And I don't know if I want to stay over there. I shall just see how does it goes tomorrow. :D Right now, I just don't want to think anymore. :( Because I'm not in the mood still. Sighs.
Maybe I was sensitive.
But it's just how I felt.
Distance too great.
I'm trying too hard.
I'm getting tired.
Impermanence.
I'm learning to accept it.
But still, I miss you so much.
And I really do.
When you just wants things to turn out fine,
It just never do.
10:48:00 PM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Firstly, do you remember that time that I said there was an uncle & auntie who came to get the chihuahua for their daughter? And he said that he wanted to buy one chihuahua for me if he won the 4D. And you know what? He came back today. He said that he had really won the 4D and it's 1st prize on that day when he bought the chihuahua from me. :D He came back everyday just to find me but I wasn't working, I was in camp. So today I just went back to work, he came to find me again. :D But I rejected his offer. He's a very nice uncle. He said it and he meant it. How many people meant their words, not many. But I really find this uncle very special. :D Thank you uncle&auntie. I didn't have enough time to thank them because I have to serve other customer and they left without saying bye. :( That's the good thing that happened to me today. :D They say I brought them luck. :D But I don't think so, it's just one's luck which allowed him to win the 4D's 1st prize. :D I'm so happy after I get to know that he really won it. :D Although it's not me who won it, but I still shared the joy, I just don't know why.
Next, the sad thing that happened to me was that I kept getting scolding from Adeline for more than 10 times today. You know when you get scolded for small little matters, you get really grumpy. Like I was digging at the cotton wool in the staff room. Then when I digged very fast, some of the cotton wool will fall onto the ground right. The cotton wool is so light and it get blown off easily. So when Adeline came in, she started to get really whiny about me digging till the cotton wool drop on the ground and make it so messy. And please, it's just a few pieces of cotton wool and she get so whiny. Next, I was digging slowly because I'm too afraid that the cotton wool will drop. And she came in to tell me off and that I'm digging too slowly. What the hell. Never mind. Next I used a lot of my strength just to dig that irritating thing. Then she come in and told me off again, saying that why am I so stubborn, I should dig in another way. WALAO~! She just want to find fault in me please. Then when I went out to serve customer, she kept telling me this and that. When there wasn't anybody anymore, I went back to dig again & then she said I should stay on the selling ground. WAH~ I damn irritated can. I even have that urge to tell her right in the face that I want to quit.
But Kaela told me I should really consider my decision, because the kids & parents are really very nice people. When you see the kids liking you so much and even told their parents that "Daddy/Mummy, that's the jiejie that help me stuff my bear". It's pretty sweet. And I had fun chatting with them there. Keran and I were getting sick of that Adeline's nagging and we really want to quit. Sighs. But if everyday there is happy customer coming in to find me, telling me all their good news, I guess I will be really really happy. However, with that Adeline around, she's just spoiling my mood so much. :(
Oh ya, I forgotten to write about the camera thing. I wanted to get Sony Cybershot DSC-T20. But most of the shops ran out of stocks. When I was searching for the camera badly, I saw QianQian. Then she told me I shouldn't get that because Sony's camera suck. They sold most of their cameras are because of their looks not their function. Then she told me that she had one white one and she regretted to get that. And she kept telling me that the best camera brand is Canon. Next, she told me that I should get her Lumix Panasonic one. She told me all the features and stuffs. And she kept telling me that I shouldn't get the Sony one because it's just wasting my money in getting some useless camera. And she kept telling me that I shouldn't go for camera because of their look, I should get them because of their function. =/ They showed me one Casio camera and I think it look pretty. =/ But again, I don't know if Casio is a good camera anot. I went to check out the forum about the Lumix Panasonic camera, there wasn't many people selling it. And QianQian told me that nobody came back to tell them that there is any defect or problems with that camera at all. It's also an award winning camera. :/ I know being a promoter, they will tend to start telling us their good things about the camera. So I just checked out the whole forum about it, their feedback of the camera are pretty good. :D
I might get the Lumix camera, but Panasonic, I don't trust Panasonic though. :/ However, I like function alot. It's highly sensitive, and when you take the pictures, it come out really clear. :D But I don't know how do it goes on a computer. Perhaps, I will drop by some day at QianQian place and I might asked her more about it. :D Right now, I'm going to do my homework on that camera. :D And I'm still searching for pretty & good camera. :D It's even better if it's pink. =D I love pink like crazy. So yeah, I go ga-ga over anything that is pink. =/
Alright, I guess I should stop my talking. Here's the picture. :D
Me, Wenjing, Fel
Jowell&I
Eunice&I
Yinghui&I
Sherman :D
Zhenyu&I
YUETONG :DDDD
JIANYONG =D
Belinda :D
WenJing :D
RAYMONDDD!!
ZHIPENGGGGGG!
VICTORTAN =D
TESSA !
AARON !
FORESTERRR :D
WITH LOVES :D
EUGENE! Why you so tall, tsk.
SELINA :D
Daddy, where's my Mummy Victor. xD
EVELYN THE GIRL
YIXIANG :D
LIJIEEEE come often alright. :D
ADELINE !
Stupid Ivan, all the photos with his stupid face.
LEE ZHEN FENG !
Zunzin. :DD COME OFTEN LAH~
He's my Zhu. :D
They are my precious. :D REALMS !
They are acting out a skit, they gang rape Adeline. xD
Criminal. xD
CUTE HUH ! :D Loves !
SBM YOUTH *clap* Yeah. :D
Moggallana. SBMYouth. Realms
My love.
I don't know why,
but I just felt so insecure,
everytime I missed you.
I miss the time when I wake up,
I will see the message you sent.
I miss the time when I got so bored,
and you will just call me to chat with me.
I miss the time when you just
occupied my life.
SIGHSIGHSIGHSIGH.
If only I can come across your mind alittle while.
But well, never mind.
Sometime, perhap it's better to move on than to hold on
but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
9:24:00 PM
