Ahhh, I'm damn in love with the songs played in 200 Pounds. =D Great song ! It's worth the watch, check it out in Youtube. =X Though, it's a form of copyrighted but at least, the quality wasn't up to the standard of the movie threatre one. :) So, go ahead and have a chill out in the threatre with the pretty Kim Ah Jung. :)


I screwed my English Language Papers today. Don't ask me anything about it anymore. It hurts badly whenever people remind me about that papers. I just wish I could have written a better answer for it. Ryan told me that just treat it as an bonus if I got it correct. But I'm just feeling so terrible over it. Forget it. Let's just drop this topic.


You know what, I had missed my Breakfast, Lunch & Dinner. I had only eaten my Supper which tends to be more fattening than the others. Oh my~ Please remind me not to eat too much from now onwards. I think I'm getting fat and I'm so determined to lose some weight now. But, Mid-year Examinations had forbid me from doing it, it had been taking away so much of my time. I had been neglecting my Moggallana and I sweared I'm really damn guilty over it. I chatted with Forester & Raymond the other day and I sweared I had felt damn helpless.


I broke down. :/ Tears just came gushing down and I could no longer hold it back. Feel the taste of the bittersweet tears. Maybe it would be better if I had never known you.... Tell me what was all the heartpain about. I could no longer hear my heartbeats anymore. How would you feel when someone that you wanted to love so much just continuously hurting you? How could you stop crying when you know the tears weren't stop no matter what. It takes time. It takes loads of effort for me. I learnt to love but I had to learn to let go too. It was just a part of my life. What would you do when the only person who can stop you from crying is the one who had hurt you deeply? I knew what's the pain is again. It was the same agony that I had felt the other time.


If you don't love me, don't hurt me. Just stay away from me, I had gotten enough of scars. Those few who had stabbed me deeply, you know who you are. Thank you for acting like you care, thank you for pretending that you were there. I am thankful for the pains you had given me, I had grown through it. I had grown up. I had learnt to accept the fact that came along. I had learnt to understand myself and others. I had learnt how to love. I had learnt all this bits and pieces. Though the process was a painful one but it was a great experience to be with them. Thanks Weirong, thanks Jashawn. You guys had made me grown up.




Stop hurting me,

just simply leave me alone and I'll be alright.

11:15:00 PM

I decided to just save as a draft for the previous one that I had blogged. I'm not in the mood to blog. Pardon for my stressful state, many things had happened. I decided to just let go. I'm upset. Don't bother about trying to console me, I'll be alright soon. I'm just alittle disappointed and alittle unhappy over the little little stuffs that had happened. Don't be suprised if you had seen me staring into spaces, I'll definitely get over it soon. I'm just thinking hard on something, don't worry. I give up. :)


She smiled faintly, closing her eyes as she closed her chapters of life.


I'll blogged again later... :) Please allow me to sort out my emotions first before I typed a happier entry. :)



I love all the people who love me. :)

9:30:00 PM

Sunday, April 29, 2007

I had just changed my Friendster profile that had been left rotting for the past few months. I took all the cute stuffs down and updated with just a simple sentence, "Just the girl who wants to be pampered & feel loved". Isn't this short and simple? That's what I have always asked for but nah, none had given me that. Anyway, I've been damn hyper these few days and I'm deciding if I should put out this emo song out of my blog and make this a happier blog? I've been indulging in Girlfriend by Avril for the past few days and I'll get all high up after hearing it. Right now, I found new love, that's another song by Avril.


Seriously, the new album of Avril had released and it contain tons of cool songs. Maybe, you guys should check it out. Then, please send all of Avril's song to me. =X I had been doing blog hopping just to listen to her songs. Her Girlfriend MTV was great too, please check out in the Youtube. Oh my, I think I'm going to mark her as my dear soon. She had changed to a pretty chick after the past few decades of Emo girl. Isn't it ? I love her blonde straight hair now. If only, I'm just another angmoh, isn't it be great ? =X Alright, it's cool to be an Asian too. =D


It's Monday tomorrow. Yet, it's not that I'm going to suffer from Monday blues again, but EXAMS BLUE ! Oh man, please kill me please. It's English paper tomorrow and I should better score at least a B3 to mark a start for my 'O' level. I'm not that frightened over my paper 1 except that I've to remember the formats well. I'm more worried for my Comprehension since it hasn't been really that good all along. The summary will definitely stab me badly. I am also worried over my Composition which required me having my imagination goes wild. I need brain juice. :)


I was in the library for the past 8 hours, can you believe it ? Having non-stops of studying, my brain juice is drained. Please allow it to replenish by tomorrow morning. =D I'm also done with a few topics of the Mathematics Notes. Perhaps, it might come in useful by next Monday. I've to finish it by tomorrow. I'm still stucked in the middle of my notes of both Mathematics and Social Studies. I was thinking of giving up on my Humanities since it had been giving me tons of problems ever since I took that subject. Am I regretting that I had chose Geography instead of History? The answer is yes. Well, let's just forget about it. I can only try my best in it even though it had been demoralising me for the past few months.



I'm done with my blogging. Goodbye my dear blog. I've to get an early sleep tonight before I start draining my brain tomorrow again. I hope the papers doesn't kill any one of us. I really have to get at least a B3 before I really put my heart down for other stuffs. See what I mean with racing against the time? Just a blink of my eye, it's my English papers tomorrow.



Just before I end this post, I'll like to dedicate this paragraph to say that I love everyone. :) Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for walking into my life. Thank you for being my friends. I appreciate every little small things that you guys had done. Thank you. :) I LOVE YOU =D



I've changed my blog song. :)

10:24:00 PM

Oh yeah, did I mentioned that I had scored 19 / 30 for my english composition ? I know it's still not up to the standard yet but at least I'm alittle closer to my target now. :) Please give me at least a B3 for my English ! I'm so proud of my composition but I'm disappointed with my letter writing. I scored 13 / 30. Isn't it alittle ironic ? It is still english after all yet I had scored a different score for both. It sucks so much please !


I had been trying very hard to finish up my homeworks in the library in the morning. Then, I went out to meet up with Huiwen, Lynette & Alex. Huiwen bought me a necklace for my belated birthday present. Sweet~ =D


Met up with the guys and we went to watch 200 pounds ! It's such a touching show that I cried. =X Usually when I started to shed tears during movie, nobody will notice it. However this time round, Papa saw it and then everyone saw it. Dumb~ Then after that we met up with the others and we head over to Suntec to have dinner. They were so indecisive that we spent almost 15 minutes just over the venue for our meals. They were so cute that they kept trying to get updated over the soccer score. So I knew who had won, Man-U had won with a score of 4 - 2. LOLS ! Please be suprised because I don't watch soccer and yet I know the score so well. It's all because of them, they had been updating one another over the score every now and then. =D


I'm trying to study hard now. I am racing against the time. It's just one week to the examinations and I'm still stucked here. I have not even get ready for the examinations. Yet, in a blink of the eyes, I'll have to face the papers soon. *Roars* I'm missing everyone. =(


I miss Irene, Jason & Dion.
I miss Evelyn girl.
I miss Liping.
I miss Yuanyi marmie.
I miss LayKheng.
I miss Jowell & Junhao.
I miss Moggallana.
I miss Amanda.
I miss Mabelynn.


I miss pratically everyone that had come across my life.


Right after 'O' level, I promised to meet up with all of them. *Sighs* If only studies are not as stress as like now...


Anyway, have you read on the article of a girl scolding the late Debra who had been washed away by the current in the drain? Seriously, it's such a ridiculous case. She claimed that it was Debra's retribution and everything. She even went to the extent of cursing and swearing of the late Debra. What had happened to this world? No matter how much hatred you had for one, why can't you just put it down ? She had already passed on, no point holding onto the grudges either. If you could put yourself in her shoes, what will you be feeling ? Why can't we be as innocence as what we had always been when we were young ? What had actually happened to the world. Backstabbing after backstabbing, hatred after hatred... When will all these stop ? Sometime, stop and look upon your actions, is it really a right action ?


Nobody is perfect. At least we learn from our past mistakes and be a better us tomorrow.

1:11:00 AM

Friday, April 27, 2007

It's Friday ! It's been a hectic week and I didn't realise that it's Friday ! I didn't even bothered to check my timetable since I've always been remembering which books to bring on alternate days. I had a good Friday. You know why? Because, Mrs Chan had commented that my composition was good effort ! She had added " A spontaneous style of writing with a number of good phrases used. " :) Tell me, how can I not be happy when my english had improved. :) However, when Chinese result comes across my mind, it made me moody. Damn it~ =(


We were on our way home when a downpour started. We had no choice but to get stucked in the market. Anyway, it's a good thing since we had sneized our time wisely. Although it seems weird to be studying in the market when others are doing it in the fast food restaurants, but tell me, isn't it the same that both are the place where you had your meals ? =D


Oh yeah, I've started my D&T project yesterday. I've managed to do some joining of my wood before starting my trolley table again. I've abandoned the electronic one since Miss Tan said that it will be worst if I do that. So, I'm going to do all my best in this trolley table even though I know it will not give me a high grade for my Artefact. I just have to work hard on my portfolio and my papers. May devas bless me. :)


I've to rest before I start studying. Good night my dears. :)


Anyway, I've tons of admin stuffs left undone. I've tons of homeworks piling up. I'm dying. =( Someone please love me and find my fairy godmother to come over and help me =D If only fairy godmother exists....



LOVES :)

6:26:00 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

I'm having a very bad dark circles right now. What am I supposed to do now? It's scaring me every day when I looked into the mirror. Right now, I don't even dare to look into the mirror now. I'm having break outs, I'm having dark circles, I'm having eye bags. Just tell me how could I get all out by tonight? Kill me please. I want to study tonight but I'm extremely tired right now. I've been drained mentally for the past few days and I've been sleeping in class.


I was looking at some online shop and I came across that eyeliner. I'm going to get an eyeliner and a mascara during the Great Singapore Sale. Oh man, I really can't wait. I'm promise to save loads of money to await for the shopping spree that will be coming soon. Yes, real soon. I'll be having my movie, 200 pounds this saturday. Everyone had been commenting that it's a good show and it's worth it, so we are going for it. =D


My chinese had been deteriote till I have to stay back for remedials whereas others are having fun at home. Tell me why? I don't think my Mandarin is that bad. Why can't I improve in both of my languages? Is it a crime to be good at both? Why can't I be good at both ? It isn't fair. Please just give me back my A1. Chinese O's is coming and I'm getting all so tense up. Firstly, it was the fact that my chinese results are dropping and I really can't take it. Secondly, I don't want to believe that my chinese had been that bad.



Life is unfair. Forget it.

11:48:00 PM

I've blogged.


Nights ! =D


I want to love you no more, but why does it hurt so much?

11:11:00 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I could not find any words to explain the current feeling I'm having now. It was a mixed feeling between hurt and relieved. Yet the pain was inevitable, it was there, so much so that I could no longer take it and I want to scream out loud. I do not want to have any thoughts of it anymore. I do not want to care for it anymore. Just as anything hurt me deep, I'll let it go. I don't want to think about it anymore. I just want to concentrate on my studies. I know where do my priority stands. I really want to get it done once and for all. You came along and hurt me. I know it was unintentionally but I just got myself hurt. The pain will heal as time move on, even if it doesn't, I'll hide it hard. :) Right now, I'll have to let my hand off. I don't know for how long will I be feeling this way but I know I'll be alright. Indeed that things will change but if it was meant to be, it will go the right way. This, I can only have my belief in it.


That was what I had been feeling for the past few days. I'm not in the mood to write any other things now. I'll be off to my studying ! I love nobody. :) Or rather, I love myself. :)



要如何解脱那个痛来至心？

I'm a happy girl again ! SMILES !

7:33:00 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Hellos !


I'm in high-spirit today ! No, not that we had any early dismissal or anything. No, not that the teachers were great today. It just that I went for my shopping spree today ! I bought two tops and I'm so satisfied with my tops. However, I'm still not contented with the shopping! I was looking for my mascara and I started to ponder which brand will be a better one. Any recommendation? Right now, I'm left with the bottoms. I just need more bottoms now. Huixuan mummy and I had decided to get all the stuffs during the upcoming "Great Singapore Sales". I had missed the sprees during that period and I'm not going to miss this one. I shall come out with a list of stuffs that I have to get after my examinations. Oh man, I can't wait. :) I'll be updating my wishlists soon. :)


Anyway, a number of people had been commenting that I had turned tan. Did I really turn that tan till nobody recognised me ? Auntie didn't recognise me until I called out to her. She commented that I had grew fat and tan. Ahhhh! Please kill me please. I need to go and have a swim soon. I had decided to get my swimsuit tomorrow and then we will be going for a swim every now and then. Don't worry, I won't be getting tan since I'll be swimming during night time. :)


I'm happy ! :) I missed Huixuan mummy a lot ! Thanks for remembering me. =D



I felt the pain. I'll be good and I will let it go.
你的心，我捉不着。

9:56:00 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007

I'm damn stress over my upcoming examinations. Everyone has been mugging very hard and I've only just started. Oh man! I've just started on my chinese and I'm going to start on my Emath soon. In approximately 2 weeks time, my Mid-year Examinations are starting and I've so much to catch up. Oh man ! I'm getting so stress over it. Please give me more time and let me finish up my revision before my examinations start ! People around me are getting so stressed up and thus, I'm getting as stressed up as them. When will all these anxiety stops ? The mental torture of the fear of failing the examinations are terrifying. I hope it ends soon.


Nights ~

11:51:00 PM

Monday blue ! I was so sleepy till I slept during my Amath lessons ! It had never been the case for the past few months ! I will only sleep during the English periods and Physic periods. =X However, I was so tired today till I just fell asleep. I'm going to be in a deep trouble. I couldn't even figure out what Mrs Lim was teaching when I woke up. *Roars*


Those 3 guys had been bullying me till I went crazy. -.-" Now then I know, I can never bully any one of them because once I started bully any one of them, all the three of them will start bullying me. *ROARS* They are not supposed to bully me please !~ =( I shall be a good girl from now onwards. However, I just can't resist the temptation to just shoot them for every little things. =X *Sighs*


These two weeks will be a tough week for me. I'll be mugging very hard for my mid-year examinations. This time round, I'm aiming to get at least 3 A1. Then by prelims, I'll be aiming for 5 A1. =D I must get as low as 10 points for my O's. It is a tough one but with efforts put in, everything will turn out right. =D I can't afford to lose my opportunity to get into the course I want. The promise that I had made to myself, I must do well for the sake of myself and everyone. Many people had been pinning high hope on me and I shall not let them down. I was lost somewhere for the past few weeks and I had suddenly lost my purpose of studying but with the help of my friends, I think I know where I'm going towards now. With my current situation, I shall not let any more regrets taking over my life anymore.


I had been thinking for the past few hours, I don't know what to do now. If only I had never known, if only I had never feel, I'll not be puzzled now. Things will take its nature course as time goes by. Time will determine everything. I'll never let anything to overtake my emotions now. I will still be the happy happy wanling. :) Anyway, my Chinese O's is coming and I'm going to do well for it. A1 ! Here I comes ! Although I had been failing for the past few class tests but I'm going to believe that I can do it. I shall just secure an A1 and finished my D&T by June holidays. :) Things will go right, I'll continue to believe. Like what Mrs Tay had been saying, "With efforts, things will pay off." I won't be bothered by my MSN for the next few weeks before I finished my Mid-year examinations. I'll still be blogging but I won't be going for blog hopping anymore.



Study study study ! Wanling please study ! :)

7:31:00 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

I went shopping today ! Well, it wasn't really a shopping trip though. I was just buying all the stuffs that I had been aiming for a long time ago. Anyway, Yinghui bought me two slogan shirts for my birthday. I'm going to give her something for her birthday but I not going to state it here. :) Anyone wants to join me ?


You know what, I couldn't even do any questions for my Amath at all. I think I'm deproving. It sucks ~ I'm going to mug so hard that I'm going to completely cut down on my onlining. Perhaps, I will be cutting down on my blogging too. Maybe I should close down temporarily since Mid-year is coming. Well, I shall see how it goes first. Definitely, I'll be cutting the time spent on the computer.


So, I finished all the other homeworks except the Amath. Oh please, just let someone slashed me and kill me please.



I had my long fringe chomped off ! :) No more long long fringe again ! I think I looked extremely dumb with that short fringe. It just seems like I had returned to the hairstyle that I had two years ago. I hope it doesn't look weird to others. My sister-in-law says it looked perfectly alright. :) I hope it's true please. =(


I'm off to study right now. I won't be spending too much time on the unneccessary stuffs. :) This is the year ! It's my year ! I'll be heading straight home after school for these few weeks. No more loitering around the basketball court again. :) Then, I'll be going to library to continue to mug. My dear library rocks. :) Anyway, I met 3 weird guys today. They were directly staring at me while gossiping. I didn't know guys do that you know. -.-" They better don't gossip about my hair. Damn ~ =D They had been doing it for I-don't-know-how-long and I was seriously couldn't take it anymore. I want to study please ! So, I was literally pissed off and I went off to the table at the side. They got shocked and gave me those looks. -.-" Please don't let me see them again ~ I want to meet nice people like yoyo ! :)



NIGHTS ! :)


好眼泪，坏眼泪，我都在为你流。

9:16:00 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

I didn't manage to have my shopping spree today ! So, I just rushed down to get my D&T stuffs. The people in that shop was great and they were good-looking too. =X They tried all means to solve my problem and now, I had confirmed with my artefacts and I'm satisfied with it. =D


We headed down to SBM and we were very late. We had some games and I had gotten forfeit. At least, I was counted lucky since there were other terrible forfeit. =D I love buddha ! I didn't stay long and I went off to meet the guys. xD !


I did some questions on my amath and I almost died. Can you imagine that I spent 2 hours trying to figure out 3 questions? How dumb can that be. -.-" I think Amath will kill me ! Time for some hardcore revision for myself soon ! I'm going to revise on my Emath since my teacher had already finished the syllabus. :) There's Amath test on Monday and I hope I will be able to survive it. Anyway, I managed to pass the past tests. I had scored 7/14, 6/7 and 7/7. xD ! I love the last test that I had. It's full marks please !~ I'm so so so proud of myself but just as I thought I had improved, the Coordinate Geometry work killed me. -.-"


I've nothing to blog now.


That stupid Calvin !
YOU BETTER IMPROVE ON YOUR ENGLISH AND STOP SAYING MY MATH. =(


*Laughs out loud* People can get so ridiculous sometime. It's really a damn stupid stuffs that never in my life had I encountered. Oh please, I can't understand why some people just don't grow up. =D I love my blog =D I was laughing when I heard about it. xD Not happy with my blog ah, then don't read loo. =D What for reading it and then get angry over it? Funny people. =D Don't worry, I'll still love you even though you hate me. I don't give a damn afterall. I lead my own life, you lead yours. xD ! GO GO GO ! Life rocks. :) Anyway the contents are just my daily life, why get upset over it? It's my life. My god-damn life. If you are not happy with my life, then please get a life. xD ! Hey! It rhythms. This is my blog and I have the right to write everything as long as I'm fine with it, you can't control the things I blogged just like how you can't control the weather. Afterall, it is not you who is blogging, it is me. :) And, wanling is wanling. Wanling is me. I'm wanling. Take it or leave it. I'm just like that. =D If you are not happy with my blog right, then just press that little red cross on your top right hand corner. I'm sorry, this blog contained things that will kill your braincells and let you get angry over it. But, it's just too bad because it's my blog. Once again I have to stress that I have the right to blog whatever things that I want. For your information, I have a freaking heck care attitude and I'm not changing it for the sake of you. =D Please love my blog because I love you and that you came to read my blog. I've such a long post and you bothered to read it. You're such a nice person. =D Thank you ! :)



Mid-year Examination in 7 days time. :) Time for serious mugging.


Mug, Mugger, Muggest, Muggered, Mugging, Muggination. =D

11:20:00 PM

YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH

JANUARY=SHYNESS

Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.



FEBRUARY=SMARTS

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.



MARCH=GORGEOUS

Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality.Very sexy. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.Chatterbox ! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way!. Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great Fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others *wink wink* Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of MFE these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.


MINE!!

APRIL=SWEETIE :)

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.



MAY=SEXY

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.



JUNE=PIMP

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Not easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If



JULY=ATTITUDE

Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds on attention. No self control. Kind hearted. Self confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. L:oves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. Stubborn. Curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.



AUGUST=FLIRT

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with an August brithday. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!



SEPTEMBER=LOVER

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.



OCTOBER=HOTTIE

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, if you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.



NOVEMBER=THUG

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.



DECEMBER=BEAUTY

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Horny but does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

10:44:00 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007

I think I'm going insane. Suddenly things had changed so much at home, they had became so different now. I just can't understand whenever I'm back home, I'll be the only one who is getting all the shits. Just as I thought I had ended all the shits at home, they had an immediate change. What is actually happening? Can't I just have some peace at home? Forget it. I'll be good and I'll try to have as lesser problem as I can. =DDD


School was great ! We had an early dismissal and it just seems like we didn't really have much studying. If only School Anniversary falls on every day. :) Initially Rainer & I wanted to join the others for movie but ended up, I found out if I joined them, I will be extremely late for my guides. So, we ended up slacking at Simei. xP Aftermath, I went home and get my stuffs prepared. Then, we cabbed down to school. I looked dumb with the two ponytails high up. -.-" Everyone was saying that I looked exactly like a kid, but no ! I'm already a 16 years old lady. :) I can officially walked into NC16 show. xD



The Parade was screwed up. Perhaps we were very anxious at that moment and most of us had made mistakes one way or another. Whatever it is, what bygones had been bygones. We don't want to have any riots between CCAs. Afterall, it's just each individuals' part to do well in it. We had already get the Anniversary done and over with. =DDD At least, Mdm Wi said that we were great. :)


We wanted to sneak into the hall to watch the concert but ended up, we were given permission. xD The concert was great ! =D The parade was great too ! I hope the minister will give compliment to us. :) Let's hope he will go "wahh-ing" whenever he had seen the series of performance we had lined up for him. xD !


Junhao came to Manjusri ! Then we played a prank on Mr Lai, Junhao asked Mr Lai if he could remember him. You know what Mr Lai replied ? " Oh yes, of course, you are Ex-MJRian." *LAUGHS* How dumb can that be?


Then, we headed to Singapore Post. I went off to join Chenglong's group. Adeline was so so so uber duper cute please ! xD ! We were testing Calvin's spelling and I must say that Calvin will not be able to score if he is to have an impromptu Spelling Test. We taught Calvin English and we taught Chenglong Chinese. If only they could be combined together, I think the two of them will be perfect. One of them is better in Chinese while another is better in English ! So, they had been teasing one another about their languages and I think I should be teasing both of them for their languages. XD ! However, I think my Chinese had dropped badly. You know how much I scored for the recent test? 39 / 100. -.-" It's F9. However, I'm going to be given another 2 marks for Mrs Yeo-Chan had marked my answer wrongly. Even if I'm loaded with another 2 marks, I'm still having an E8!! *ROARS* What is happening to my chinese language?!?


It is going to be a very packed Saturday tomorrow ! I'm supposed to head over to Bishan in the early morning to get my D&T stuffs. Liping ! Initially I wanted to find you but it was such a last minute decision to go there to get it since I need it on Monday ! Sorry, I still could not meet you again. *ROARS* I want meet you !!


Then after that I'll be back to Bugis to have my fringe cut and then have my shopping sprees with Yuyang & Yinghui ! :) Perhaps, I might be heading over to SBM for a teeny weeny while and then I'll be leaving to meet up with the guys again ! I can't wait to have my shopping sprees ! I want to have new clothes ! I want to have new shoes ! I want to get a pair of skinny jeans ! I want to have a pair of white shorts ! I want to have that topshop's top ! =DDD But I'm seriously broke. -.-" It's always sweet to dream of the wonders. :)



Pampered me with your love. :)
A lady adorns herself with love.

10:35:00 PM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

I was dead beat. Didn't even have the mood to talk or do anything at all. I was being pissed off for a few times by different people. I guess I was having a very serious moodswing. We were being trained like mad during the G.O.H. training. I was so tired that I just felt like screaming. Crap ~ The guys were great, they had waited for me. :) We went to have dinner and I went off to SBM.


A handful of people had been complaining that my dark circles are getting worst now. My eyebags are very heavy and I haven't been sleeping well recently. Or rather, my sleeping time had gone haywired. I shall not elaborate further anymore. I'm extremely tired and I haven't done my homework. I shall put a fullstop here now. Nights!~

10:39:00 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I don't think I'll be having time to change my blogskin. I just felt like changing one but I just doesn't have the time. Forget about it. Anyone can spare me some time for myself? I want to do as many things I want. :) I can't wait for weekend to come !! They say there will be a Passing Out Parade coming up. I hope it comes soon ! Please give me more time to concentrate on my studies. I've promised myself and everyone. I need to do it and I must do it. I will be starting on my math revision first. That's what my dear cousin had advised me. Perhaps, I'll be starting on my Chemistry too. I will finish my revision for my favourite subjects before I go on to the hardcore one.


It's been a bad day today. Firstly, Chenglong's money was been stolen, then his phone was spoilt. Secondly, I wanted to have a cloudy day but it doesn't give me. The rain had just stopped when we started our training, how coincidence can that be ? Thirdly, we did not perform as expected by the teachers and so, we have another training tomorrow. I was so tired that the first thing I came home was to take a rest and it led to a nap till 9.45pm. -.-" So, I had just had my sleep which lasted at least 4 hours. How am I going to sleep tonight ? Forthly, I had my break out now ! Fifthly, I had accidentally scratched my nose and it leaves a bruise there. It is right in the middle of my nose. Everyone was asking about it. -.-"


Never mind, I just have to endure a few more days and I'll be having my freedom soon. I can't wait for the day that I could have all the time by myself to study hard. I was addicted to the time I spend studying but it just doesn't seem to be the case right now. I just didn't have time at all. I can only go to my library on Sunday but not the weekdays anymore. Why has everything changed so suddenly? I still couldn't figure out either. Forget it, once I've stepped down from my CCA. I hope I'll have more time for myself. I really have to start mugging. I'll be mugging till late night today. I can't take the guiltiness that had been lying inside me for a long time. I really have to start doing something about my studies. We are aiming for 15 points or lesser for our result. This, we had promised ourselves. We will have to do it. If not, we will be letting ourselves down. They are fearing for failing, so do I. When your friends started to get stress over studies, you will too.



School is ending at 9.30am on Friday ! I can't wait for Friday to come. :)))



Life can get complicated at times. Hecking care of everything could be a better way to lead life. :) Everything will fall in place soon. I have to believe it. Time can help everything. It heals everything or otherwise, it hides everything. :)



Have a taste of the love tonight.

6:54:00 PM

I think it's time to be back even for awhile, I hope it's all worthwhile. :) I'm not perfect, I just want to have some time for myself. No doubt that things will be different but I will learn to let go. Afterall, they were once a part of me and I'm supposed to treasure them. No matter how hard it is going to take, I'll try. Perserverance, that's what I needed. I hope all those disappointments were just my illusions. :) Time is all I needed. =D


It is going to be a fully packed Saturday. :) In the morning, I'll be meeting Yinghui & Yuyang for some shopping. Then, I'll be meeting Jiawen for haircut. Next, I'll be heading over to SBM or maybe I'll be meeting the guys first. I shall see how it goes. I just can't wait for Saturday to arrive. =D I want to have my shopping !!


I will learn to cut down on my blogging. It's been my daily routine now. It's been my habit to sign into my MSN and then log into my Blog. Is it a good thing or a bad one. At least I know, it's a blessing in disguise. It keeps my learning going and I'll tend to improve on my English. So, how about my chinese. I don't know. =D I'll speak Mandarin as fluently as I can. I know I have been lacking of the expression I had in a Composition. So, I'll learn to express myself more. =DD


wanling :)

12:05:00 AM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I've blogged. :)


Bye~ It's just another long day for me tomorrow. I'm so tired now. I wished Friday will be here now. I hope the sun will leave us alone tomorrow. I hope it is going to be a cloudy day. :) It's going to be our second last training and I hope it's a good one. =D This will mark the second last time that I will be marching. Time flies, we are graduating soon. :)


I hope my dear brother has a safe trip. :) I miss him ! He has promised me for my 300 bucks worth of chocolates. :) Indulging in my chocolates. =DDD



I'm going to turn in now. Goodnight :)




Addicted to you. :)

10:45:00 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007

I had fun in the Waraku Restaurant. The private room that I had booked was great ! I shall book for seats the next time round. It felt so nice having to have the whole room by urself and you need not have to worry for whether there could have seats for 8 of us. xD


Initially, we wanted to have some shopping. Then, we didn't have it since it was too late and most shops were closed. There goes my shopping trips. =( I want to get many many things. Mummy had given me 50 bucks cash vouchers ! xD ! Just tell me how could I bear to stop loving my family. They are just so great. My second brother is leaving for Australia tomorrow. I hope he will have a safe and sound trip. :) He's going to get me loads of chocolates. =D He is prepared to spend at least 300 bucks on chocolates. I'm so blessed ! Not many people can be as fortunate as me. :) I love my brother !


I want to get that belt but it cost 25 bucks for one. Is it worth? When I was having shopping with Yinghui and I saw that belt, immediately I fell in love with it. :) I hope it doesn't go off though. I wondered should I spend the cash vouchers on that belt, or should I save it for raining days? Well, well, well... Yinghui is getting me the slogan shirts for my birthday. =D I'm so blessed with so many great friends around me. I'm ready to make their birthday to be a special one too ! They had made mine special and I must give them one too. :) I love you guys. =D


I saw Isabella fell when she was dancing. She is having her SYF tomorrow. I hope she gets well soon ! Let's pray hard ! :) It's our last year and please not let anything obstruct our pathway. :) I hope she's alright now. =D



I'm having a very sexy voice right now. I've officially lost my voice now. That's karma ! I laughed at Calvin for his voice and it's my turn now. I believed in karma so much ! I had been elbowing all the people who irritates me so I had gotten elbowed by a stranger on bus. -.-" Furthermore, he hit my cheeks ! That's karma. -.-"


Just as LiangJian reminded me of year 2012, I'm going to treasure all the things around me now. :) I hope for world peace on that year. Please let nothing happens to our country and others too. Natural disasters had been occurring every now and then, please make a stop to it.


I want to get the Shitzu that was given out for free by a pet shop. Mum says she doesn't want it. Brothers said they wanted to have an exchange with the Shitzu with boyboy ! That's such a no-no thing. Someone please contacts me for further informations. If no one is to collect the dogs, the dogs will be put down. Nooo~! *sighs*



I want you to be my happiness.

11:16:00 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Books after books ! :) I had some shopping today ! I'm eyeing on that pair of black pumps and had made a reserved now. :) We are going to buy on Saturday ! I can't wait for Saturday to arrive soon ! I want to get so many things. I want to get the two slogan shirts and that pair of pumps. Maybe we will head over to Daiso to get my cosmestics too. I want that off-shoulder top too ! I want everythings that are hanging up. :) Someone buy me the whole Bugis Street. xD ! I told my brother that since Sister-in-law wanted the Carrefour, I shall take the Bugis Street. XD !


Shopping on Saturdays !~ :) Perhaps, I might head down for SBM for awhile since HangQi's birthday is coming. :) I will never forget Moggallana's birthday. :) After that, I might go down to meet the guys or something? I don't know what's the plan yet. We shall see about it on Friday. =DDD I love my life now !


I had put aside my Sundays for library. :) I will put aside my Saturdays for fun & studies & my dharma. :) I had been stressing myself too much. I think it's the time for some fun time and not to stress myself too hard. I don't want to get sick again. I'll study hard and play hard too ! :)


I'm going back to my books now. Goodbye~ I won't be online too often now.



I love you!
Seeking for your love.


Mummy's birthday tomorrow ! Waruka Restaurant, here we go !

10:43:00 PM

I'm sick right now. -.-"


Someone please take my coughs away.

Blame all the fast food restaurants. From today onwards, I shall ban them for as much as I can from going to fast food restaurants. :) I'm helping them alright ! I'm growing fat since then ! No more fast foods ~ =DDD

12:13:00 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

I just realised that the links that I had in my blog had been extremely outdated. I'm just so lazy to make the changes but well, don't worry I'll find some day to just sort out all the stuffs. I haven't even started to do the Camp's website either. I'm feeling so guilty right now.


Anyway, I had told my dearest blog that I'll be posting up pictures right. I don't think I will be doing it today. I haven't buy used the 20 bucks that my brother had given me. At least, I had thought of the things that I had already wanted. So, I'll be getting tomorrow. :) Perhaps in a day or two, I'll be posting up my pictures then.


My room is getting more and more messy despite the fact that I had been hating to see the messy stuffs around. How ironic can it be? I still can't do anything. I'll be cleaning it bit by bit before April ends. I'll be starting my D&T project before April ends. I'll be finishing up at least one TYS before April ends. There are so many things to do by this April ends. Mid-year examinations are coming by April ends too. It's time for my mugging !


In the morning, we went for the meeting. I can't stand the attitude from Khermeng at all. I'm not afraid for the things that I had stated in my blog. It's the fact right. You had given us the attitude. I don't think I need to take your attitude either. Who do you think you are? You are nothing. I won't be bothered for whatever things that I will be writing here. The last few times that you had been giving us attitude, I accepted it although the others weren't happy about it. This time round, I don't think I need to. You have no right to be sarscastic. Huiwen didn't come because she was sick. She's not like you, being so irresponsible for your actions. If you can't take the comments that I had stated here, LOOK AT ME, YOU THINK I CARE? :) I won't stand anyone's attitude, not even you. Don't forget, you are nothing to me. :) Sore loser !~ =D


After that I met up with the guys and we had a movie at Plaza Singapura. I did some dumb stuffs can~ That stupid person, he didn't believe that I'm 16 already. He wanted to check my IC please. Then he was counting my age, then I told him that I had just turned 16 and he went "orhh-ing". I told you I'm not a kid anymore alright ! I'm officially 16 ! Dumbo~


We watched "The Reaping". It's not really a very good show to watch since the storyline went all haywired. I don't even understand what is happening. It was meant to be some horror movie but ended up, I got so bored of it. It's not a recommendable show to watch. Not worth the time and money for this movie. I'm sort of regretted to choose this show since I opted for it. =(( At least I screamed 2 times and scared Rainer with my screams. XD !


Oh yeah, I did the most embarrassed stuffs yesterday that I had forgotten to blog about it. I was smsing with the guys and then I wanted to go to the ladies. I was still smsing them when I realised I had walked into the Gents. 3 guys were looking straight at me and I just went off when I saw them. -.-" There were two guys standing outside of the Gents and they had never tried to stop me from getting in. -.-" So, I walked out and went to the Ladies. I was blushing so badly. -.-" Please do not let me walk into the Gents again ! It's so embarrassing please !




I just want to love you.
Say you love me and I'll love you too.

11:39:00 PM

I didn't want to be bothered with the stuffs that are happening right now. I don't even want to care. Been telling someone about what I've been feeling all along, we had the same feeling. It was not a good feeling. As you get more and more disappointed, you'll decided to just put things down. We can't carry on like this. It's too tiring to continue. He told me to just remember the good friends you had there, but as I searched through my mind, I see none. I have ever since lost contact with a number of people before I left, it was a pathetic thing but I can't help it. So, I just let it all drift apart. Perhaps, it's a good thing because you tend to let the things go easier. Afterall, you really can't find the happiness that was there the last time. I don't know why but I just felt so reluntant to be there. It was not the same feeling that I had felt last time. It was a two different feeling. I just don't know the reason why I'm feeling that sad all these while. Whenever I started to think about them, I can't help to just feel so emotional. I even went to the extent of being so sad till I stared into the spaces. There were too many worries and I don't think I want to have anything to be added on anymore. Too tiring. Too frightening. I decided to let go.


Crying is not a girls' dirty little secret anymore. Tears meant nothing. It was nothing at all. It just that couples of tear drops. It's not a big deal. I want to continue caring for them but it's too tiring to continue. Thank you for not even bothered about anything about me. You guys just can't be bothered and I can't be bothered anymore.



Crying is not a girls' dirty little secret anymore. :)

10:45:00 AM

Friday, April 13, 2007

I want to thank many many people for their wishes ! They still remember my birthday ! It was great even though it was supposed to be a bad friday. However, it's a lucky day for me. I love so so so many people. =D I love all of the people who wishes me. It's alright if you had forgotten, I still love you. :) Isabella, Marilyn, Priscilla, JiaQi & Huiwen had wished me ! :) I miss the past ! But it's still nice right now. :) Thanks girls !


WHO SAY FRIDAY THE 13th IS A BAD ONE ! :) I HAD PROVED YOU WRONG ! IT'S SO GREAT ! :)


I had received a number of calls and smses from some friend whom I had lost contacted with. They called or sms and wished me "Happy birthday" ! Some of my dearest friends even came into my blog and tagged. :) Afew of them even posted "Happy Birthday" on their blog. It's such a special birthday and I'm loving it. :) Sweet 16, it's going to be so memorable. :) Thank you my dear friends ! Zhenglin even smsed me from China ! How touched can I be ! Very touched !! :)



I want to thank

1. Junhao
2. Wencai
3. Justin
4. Sister-in-Law
5. Big Brother
6. Toh Wee
7. Lionel
8. Soo Kai
9. Reuben
10. ShiFu
11. Rainer Papa
12. ChengLong
13. Evelyn
14. Calvin
15. Jinghao
16. Huiwen
17. Xiangyu
18. Jiaqi
19. Alex
20. Keyzin
21. Esther
22. ZunZin
23. Yuyang
24. Yuanyi marmie
25. VictorTan
26. Waiyik
27. Erica
28. Priscilla,
29. Isabella
30. Lynette
31. RongYan
32. Marilyn
33. LiangJian
34. Zhongxun
35. Junhong
36. Wesley
37. Yinghui
38. Mabelynn
39. Jackson
40. Pearly
41. Zeyan
42. Enghua kor
43. CherieCousin
44. VictorTeo
45. Zhenglin
46. RaymondTham
47. Ryan
48. Shanyuan
49. Kokwei
50. John
51. Randall
52. LiangEng
53. Eddy
54. Zhenfeng


DianaCousin & Francis tagged me. :)
Liping & CherieCousin wrote in her blog. :)


That is the ranking for the people who wished me in the callings and smsings. :) I LOVE ALL OF YOU :)


Pictures tomorrow ! :)


Oh yeah, I went out with the 4 guys today. They were extremely nice please. They wanted to buy me a jacket and you know what. -.-" The price is simply too frightening. In the end, they bought me a Addidas Jacket which cost $119. -.-" This is the first time I had ever received such a expensive present please. I told them I didn't want but they just kept asking me to buy it. -.-" I even went to the extent of saying "No" to every jackets that we had seen. They were even more determined to get me something, so we went every Addidas shop to find the jackets. So in the end, we bought the white one. -.-" We were very exhausted after the hunting and we had our supper at Pastamanias. I felt so bad throughout the trip please. Firstly, I made them walked around the whole Orchard road with me. Secondly, they had spent so much money on me. =( I'm sorry guys !


After that, I went home to have my cake with my dearest family. I wanted to make cheese cake but my brother forbid me from doing it. -.-" I don't know the reason why but I just simply couldn't resist to the temptation of my beloved cheese. =(


I'm too tired to continue blogging. I shall end here and photos will be updated tomorrow. There's guide meeting tomorrow. Sad ~ I hope it ends early. :) I'm going out with them again ! Oh yeah, Monday is my mummy's birthday. I had already booked a private room for 7 of us. :) It's at Waruka Restaurant. I will double check with the food there before I start to blog if it's worth of your money. :)


I haven't been touching my books for ages ! Please pardon me for my laziness. I think it's time to stop this habit. I need to study before I go for guides tomorrow. GOOD NIGHT MY DEARS ! :) I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ! :) THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS BIRTHDAY TO BE A SPECIAL ONE. :) Thank you for all the presents that you had given me. :) It's so great. Thanks Isabella for that strawberry milk too. :) LOVES !



SWEET SWEET SWEETEST 16 !! :)

10:52:00 PM

I'm SIXTEEN now ! xD


No more sneaking into NC 16 show ! I can officially walk into the cinema !
No more sneaking into the pool fusions ! I can officially walk in now !


I'm no longer a XIAO MEI MEI anymore. :)

Laughs Out Loud !

12:02:00 AM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

It rained today ! :) Thanks to my Devas ! They had heard my prayers. xD !


Nothing much had happened today. The guys had been great, they had waited for me despite that I had guides till 6pm. :) They said that they won't be coming school tomorrow. =( ! I hope that was a lie please. =( They are such a evil bunch of people. How can they leave me alone when it's my birthday ! xD




You were all I wanted.. I can't control my emotions anymore. It's all because of you.


当你看着电话的当儿，你会想去谁？


I'm feeling so weak now. -.-" Why am I getting sick when my birthday is coming in just half an hour time ? Damn it ~ My dearest weekend is coming ! Saturday is coming ! :))))) I can't wait for my weekends again. We had planned to go out and play on the Saturday and I shall dedicate my Sunday to my books. I need to be a good girl now. Mid-Year examinations are coming ! I hope everything ends soon. I'm going towards A1!


I won't be onlining often anymore. I'll be appearing offline. I think it's so much better since I won't be flooded by conversations after conversations. Then, I kept replying to them and I delayed my blogging time. The more I delayed the blogging time, I delayed my studying time. See the connection between my computer and my books ? I think onlining had been taking a lot of my time. I don't think it's worth it at all. Although I know I'll be losing contacts with a lot people but that I can't do anything. I'm alright with meeting out with friends to have a chill out or something. I will try to put aside alittle part of my time for my friends. But firstly, I'll have to stabilise my studies first, I've been rather unstable with it. At some part of time, I understand what the teachers are teaching about but at another part of the time, I hardly knew what teachers are talking about.


I'll be a call away. :))))

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS.
Thanks for being a part of me. :)

I love you !

10:00:00 PM

They say that birthday wish can only have one.


So, I'm going to wish for

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I'm going to wish to have 100000 wishes. :))


I hope Fairy Godmummy grant me my wishes. :) I'm not being greedy, I'm just wanted it to be special. xD ! Most of all, I know what I want in my wishes. I shall not disclose it since it won't come true if I tell anyone. :) I hope Fairy Godmummy dotes me and grant me my wishes as soon as possible. :)



LOVES :)))

12:26:00 AM

Hey ! I just found out something interesting !!


I haven't been eating for the whole day ! Cool eh ! Can you do what I'm doing now. =X I just realised it at this time. -.-" It's already nearly to 1am. I don't think I want to have a meal right now. I don't want to grow fat anymore. =DD I just want to grow tall !! Please just let me grow tall and not fat please :) ! This is going to be my birthday wish please !



:)))))



I'm sick ! -.-"

Just tell me how many times am I going to get sick for this year? It's merely April and I had been falling sick for 452768364 times. I don't know what had happened to my body but I had been under the sun, the rain and the moon ! As for today, I was under the hot sun ! Then, the rain just poured so suddenly and I was happily sitting in the outdoor. Please tell me how do I forbid myself from getting sick again ? It's so terrible please.



*SIGHS*

12:20:00 AM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

School was still the same. I accidentally put my head down and slept through the Amath lesson. -.-" I was tired but I tried to stay awake for the whole two periods but I just can't. -.-" Forget about it! Luckily I still have my Rainer papa & Calvin to teach me. They are good at Amath please ! They kept scoring A's for the Amath. Please just tell me, am I dumb or what. Why can they do so well and why can't I? =.="


I went to the basketball court after school. I was rotting. Yes, it is rotting ! The fungus and mushrooms had already grew around me. However, I still had fun watching the guys playing the basketball. It's been awhile ever since I had watched a basketball match. The last one was the time when I went to watch WeiRong's game. The guys had a match with the Secondary 4s and they won. xD ! I was very sure that they would win and I had even confirmed with Eugene that I'll be right. I have confident in them please !


There was many fights today ! One happened outside and another happened in the school. I shall not disclose too much of it. :) It's confidential. I hope they are all right now. I saw loads of blood on the tissue papers. I sweared I had never got so scare of blood that I even screamed. -.-" Please let him be alright. :)


The next thing that I was doing when I was in the basketball was to be a nanny to everyone's phone. -.-" I've got more than 5 phones with me. So can you imagined that I was having so many phones with me? Once one of the phones started to ring, I'll have to search around to see which phone was ringing. -.-"


Aftermath, we went over to Far East Plaza. We was there for awhile and went off again. They kept telling Jin Hao about my stuffs. They told him that it's better not to know me because once he get to know me, he will get all kinds of nonsense like asking them to go away or shut up. xD !~ Seriously, I didn't realise at all. I had been very mindful with my words now alright ! I'm a good girl please. =X Then they added that, he better act as if he don't know me till Saturday comes. On Friday, they will act as if they don't know me at all, we will only know each other after my birthday. XD ! They were so so so so crap please !


There is Girl Guide training tomorrow again. *Sighs* I hope it rains. :) The guys were so great ! They waited for me for 4 hours just for my girlguide that day. :) They said that they will be leaving without me but it came otherwise. xD ! THEY ARE GREAT . :)


My birthday is coming in just 2 days time. It just doesn't seems special to me anymore. I don't know why but forget it. xD ! I hope it is a special one but it doesn't seems special. XD ! But nevermind, the three stupid guys said that they will CONSIDER whether to acknowledge me anot on that day. DUMB FRIENDS ~ =( But I know they won't bear to leave me alone though. XD !



I love my life. :) I'll never regret getting to know the three dumb guys. :) Whenever I had problems, they are the one who was there to listen to me. :) Thanks guys ! They could stand my ranting and they allowed me to. XD ! Though they kept disturbing me but well, it's just fun to have them around. :)


I'm falling sick again. -.-" *Cough! Cough!*


就用文字来代表着心情，写着自己的心情。不再在乎是为了谁而写，只因为想要写就写。文字可以当作回忆，我只是害怕每当我把那些记忆给忘掉时，但就在那时，我看到了这些文字，而想到从前。没想到以前的我是那么的单纯，现在的我也不例外。记忆里的恐惧，你会怎样把它忘掉？

9:01:00 PM

I think I'll be dropping those commitments for the moment. It's just 10 days more. I'll be off from guides ! :) I'll be having more time to concentrate on my studies. I can't wait for the day to arrive soon. I hope it comes soon please. I want to have a hair cut after that date. I can't stand my fringe anymore. After that 20th April, I'll be concentrating fully onto my studies. As for now, let me have some fun before I get back to serious work again. I've been playing alot these few days and I can't help but feeling guilty over it. I haven't been taking out my works to study at all. It had been rotting over there for the past few days. At least, I'm still left with 10 days to continue playing before I start with my serious work. There's D&T tomorrow and I hope I don't die halfway. I really want to change my artefact but I don't think there's enough time anymore. Someone please kill me please. :)


I don't think the place belong to me anymore. I have lost the warmth and the care. You know nobody will miss you and you will tend to just keep on taking a step further away from the place. It's tiring to continue caring for everything when there are alot of things coming and overloading me with it. I don't think anybody will care if I had left or something. I was just some nobody...

12:47:00 AM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

:)


秘密鸟笼的钥匙在哪？我找不到，所以，我无法飞出心痛。


I just felt like blogging. I haven't been feeling very good. I don't know what the problems that are lying inside me. I'm just feeling so emo right now. Could it be just the moodswings that I'm having now ?


我的心好混乱。

I'll be alright again. :) I guess it's just the temporary moodswing that I'm suffering right now. =(


MOODSWING AH !


*ROARS*

Don't come near me :)

11:45:00 PM

I went out with my brother & my sister-in-law. They brought me to Carls' Junior ! The food was fabulous, the burger was huge and the onion rings taste great. Although the price was expensive but it's all worthwhile. Afterall, I'm not the one who had paid for the food. xD ! I had great brothers ! I hope I won't be spoilt by them. xD ! My brother had bought "Goong" for my Sister-In-Law. Naturally, it will be mine soon. But I won't be watching it so soon, I need to study so hard. =(


I don't know what should I be blogging now. I've nothing to blog about. I had been very sleepy for the past few days, I've been sleeping in class all day long. I think lessons are so boring. I hope Mrs Lim changed my place. My place is often being forgotten. The teacher usually forcus on the people sittong on the left side and those who are sitting on the right side tends to be left out. I'm one of them. I really need to swap place again. I can't stand my place anymore. Although, I'm sitting infront of ZiYou and a slightly infront of Nicholas, I still doesn't like my place. Nicholas had changed his place over to the last seat of my row. xD ! We had fun chatting all about his life again. He told me something that suprised me, he said that somebody had asked him if the two of us are together. xD ! Rubbish right ! I'm so so so single. 100% Single please. XD ! The fact is that I'll never like Nicholas and he will never like me. Both of us are very sure of it and we will always be the best buddies. I will always be his TianShi. xD ! *LAUGHS*


I told Yuanyi marmie about the incidents that had occurred during the last camp. Whenever I started to think back, I got scared again. From that day onwards, I have never stepped to the old block again. Well, we can't consider Guide room as the old block since it's slightly away from the old block. I sweared I'll never go to the old block. It still gives me goosebumps whenever the scene started to replay in my mind again. I don't want to encounter such incident again ! Please get away from me. :)



Hey hey ! You you ! I want to be your girlfriend ! :)

10:07:00 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

Dumb Calvin, he said I'm childish. Am I am I ? Though I can't deny the fact that I have alittle teeny weeny little bit of hyperactiveness. Well, I must be alittle bit more serious now. Since, I'm heading towards my 16 years old and in just 2 years time, I'll be 18. I can't imagine if I'm to supposed to go hyperactive when I'm 18. -.-" Anyway, they kept disturbing me. They said they wanted to skip school on Friday because it's my birthday. Then on friday, they will act as if they doesn't know me at all. They will only know me after my birthday so as to save the money from buying the present. How cute are they ? VERY CUTE ! xD


To be on the serious side, they wanted to bring me to shop for my present and I'm allowed to choose whatever I want. I think this birthday is the best one in all my life. I can get to choose what I wanted and I'm loving it. But well, I don't know what I want though. -.-" At least, birthdays make the world go round. I hope it's a great friday and seriously, I didn't really look forward to. Firstly, I had already gotten most of my presents and secondly, it's a FRIDAY THE 13th ! -.-" I won't be touching my computer on that day. I don't want it to get spoilt or something. I won't be doing anything at all except to study. I don't think the books will burn if I touch it right. If it really burns, I'm more than just happy to allow it to burn. After O level will be my books' cremation day. xD ! Please let nothing goes wrong. I'll get the grades that I want and get into a good Polytechnic course.


Let's look forward to the day where we can burn our books away. xD ! Afterall, no one is going to get the books from me anymore. The batch after mine had changed syllabus, so my books are of no use to them. Please allow me to burn my books. xD ! *Looking forward to the day!*


There's girl guide tomorrow. I hope the weather will be a cloudy one or even better, it can be a raining one. :))) I love cooling weather ! But, I'm going to miss studying with them. They are leaving me without me. =( Well, I can't be selfish. They have to study too ! =DD I'm so kind please. xD !


I think I had been self-praising for the past few days. They are the one who had been influenting culprits. I hope I don't go anymore worse now. Please allow me to continue ranting if I need to. Once the examination dates draw nearer, I won't be typing such a long entry anymore. I'll be off studying all the while. I need to be another typical mugger in Singapore. Newspaper had been reporting about the muggers in Singapore. I can't lose out to them either. It's the last year for me to mug and I better do well. :) Luckily, I had great friends who had been the one who is motivating me. Peer pressure helps one to keep the motivation going. Whenever you see your friends take out the books to study, you will join in too.


NIGHTS!

I'm going to wash my clothes now -.-"

11:35:00 PM

爱我好吗？



虽然收敛了许多的情感
还是泄露了我的不安
于是你开始冷淡
我也开始问自己该怎么办

如果你知道我的遗憾
千万不要再不以为然
我的生活已经混乱
到处漂流却始终靠不了岸

这是我最后
最美，最真
最心碎的留言

oh ..
爱我好吗
我愿意让伤心再来一遍
只要你留一个位置给我
哪怕是在你心中
最容易被忽略的角落



如果可以，我会爱你。

7:00:00 PM

I was tired today. My back was aching badly. My head was heavy. I'm having a slight sore throat. I'm lacking of sleep. Although I wasn't really that sick but I'm feeling like I'm dying soon. Please don't let me feel the same way that I had felt the last time round please. NO MORE MC !! Please let me protest just for this little while, I don't want MC anymore !


Why do my brothers kept asking me if I had ever dyed me hair. Do I looked like I have the time to get my hair dyed? Last year, he claimed that I dyed my hair brown. Then, this year he claimed that I dyed my hair red. -.-" Looks like my hair had been very obedient recently, I wanted it to be red and it turned red. XD ! I love my hair so much please !


Alright, I need to rest for awhile before I start studying again. Anyway, I felt like changing my blog song again. Perhaps, it's time to change. :) MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING IN JUST 4 DAYS TIME ! It's a 13 friday. -.-" I hope nothing bad happened on that day. Please let it be good. Boyboy had been feeling as tired as me. I hope nothing happen to him.


I'm changing my BLOG SONG ! xD

6:10:00 PM

Am I just another typical Mugger? What am I still so wide awake at this hour? It's already 2.12 am ! I had just finished doing my homeworks. I think homeworks are so killing. I thought I could finish it in just an hour or two but it proved me so damn wrong. Whatever it is, I think I had fun studying in the late night. Perhaps, I might continue this habit? It feels so good not to be bothered about MSN. I didn't even be bothered to check out who is on the net chatting with me. Sorry people ! I don't think many of my friends will still be wide awake at this time right. Most of my friends are all asleep now. I'm feeling so bored and I'm so energetic. I hope I'll be able to sleep by the time when my head touches the pillow.


Perhaps, the next time round, I might be the one who is staying overnight trying to figure out the Math Question. xD Spot me in the late night! But if I'm supposed to do this often, how the hell will I be able to get enough of sleep? I've to wake up at 6.30 am ! It's just nearly 4 hours for my sleep. I don't think that's enough. I don't want to get sick anymore either. I don't want to sleep in the evening too. Any other alternative that I can stay healthy and at the same time I'll be able to study both in the evening and late nights?



My chinese had deteriorate a lot. I was trying to help ChengLong and Calvin in their chinese. Then, I found out that I can't even think of any alternative to substitute their words. I'm such a loser please. I'm trying so hard to improve on my english and now finally, I had improved on my english and I lost touch with my chinese. -.-" Chinese is one of the subject that can secure my A1 and I just lose it like that. Please help me to get back my A1 standard of chinese again. I will be speaking chinese more often now. I don't want to lose that A1 please. Please let me improved on both my languages. I need the good grades to get into the course I want please.



Whenever that song started to play in my playlist, memories start flowing. I don't know should I cry or should I be grateful about. I don't know. I miss the camps. I miss all the fun times we had together. Was it supposed to remind me of the happy times that we shared or was it supposed to... I don't know. I don't even have anything on my mind now. I just want to get to bed and sleep and never to care about anything anymore. I've never been so stress before. It's a tough obstacle for me right now. To be honest, I've never studied till I almost gone mad. Study had never come across my mind until this year. I don't know why but whenever I started to think of what I'm supposed to do now, studies will naturally come into the picture. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. There was nothing more for me to reminisice about. I have no more empty spaces for me to keep any other memories anymore. Everything was just about my books, my notes, my priority. Whenever I wanted to erase the bad memories, it just comes in. Like when you want to dump your memories aside, it will just come so naturally. You thought you had forgotten, you thought it was gone but it was there. True enough eh ?


Well, I'm going to turn in soon or I'll be suffering tomorrow again. Please pardon for my sudden break off from the entry. :) Goodnight ! Eh, no it should be GOOD MORNING ! *laughs*


爱我好吗?

2:12:00 AM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

I had slept half of my days away. After that, I went to meet the guys to study. I think library still suits me more. However, I need them to teach me. It's always a good thing to study in a group but there is a more possibilities that you will start to talk alot too. But well, at least you won't be too stress up. :)


After that, I went over to library to meet up with Yinghui to study again. I'm such a good girl please. XD ! Please dote me ! My mummy doesn't believe that I had been studying so hard. Forget it. She don't want to believe her dearest daughter then by all means. Afterall, it's my future not hers. xD I'll be cutting down on my time spending on the computer. I think these few days, I had been using too much time on it. It's time to kick this habit. Many people had succeeded in kicking all their habits for the O levels, so I can do it too. :)


I wanted that black pumps but for whatever hell reason, it just doesn't have my size. Forget it. I will be getting another one. Then, my dearest big brother had decided to give me $20 bucks as a shopping voucher. xD ! It's cash but I just named it as a voucher. xD ! I hope my second brother do the same too but well, I doubt so. He doesn't even have enough for himself and I don't think I want to spend his money. But if he insist on it, I don't mind. xD ! I LOVE MY TWO BROTHERS ! I think I had changed alot. Usually, I don't really disturb them but nowadays, I just have the habit to keep disturbing them whenever I want. xD


My boyboy is so adorable please. I told him to sleep on my bed since he was lying on the floor, and then he looked at me with that blurred look. The next moment, he jumped up onto my bed and slept on my pillow. -.-" Please tell me why do dogs have to be so obedient. I just say it for fun and he really do it. Nevermind, since he had just bathe and I don't mind letting him to have the bed. But I won't let him share the bed with me ! He will always push me all the way to the side and leave a teeny weeny small place for me to sleep. How terrible can a owner be when your dearest dog does that. -.-" I pushed him aside and then he will start kicking me to the side again. -.-" However, it's fun to snatch bed from him because he will give you that oh-owner-please-give-me-the-bed look. xD ! I love boyboy!!



5 Days to BIRTHDAY ! I hope it will be a nice one despite all the shit stuffs that had been happening. Let's just hope since I don't know what will happen next. I don't even have time to plan for anything. Yet, I still had found time to discuss with my brothers to bring mummy for Japanese food on her birthday. :) I hope mummy & daddy gives me cash vouchers like what my brother had done. xD ! I want to shop ! I want to buy as many things as I want. I miss dolling up. =(


I want to get the slogan shirts ! Can someone get it for my birthday ! xD ! Alright, fat hopes ~ =D



BYEBYE !! I'll try to cut down on my time on the computer. =( I'm so afraid of the arrival of O level ! I don't think I can catch up the speed of the teachers. I've been lost somewhere. Let's hope that I'll be able to catch up their speed again. It's not a good thing to not go to school because you will suffer at the end. =( I must take good care of my health now, I don't want to take anymore MC.


I'm suffering from MONDAY BLUE ! *ROARS* I wished the weekend will arrive as soon as possible. I can't stand the draining period that I had been going through right now. I almost drained off all my brain juice. It's so dry inside now. =(


I hope there's no remedials tomorrow !

NIGHTS !


一个人的夜晚，你会想起谁？

10:03:00 PM

I want to write another entry but I can't think of anything to write anymore.


I think I was over-exhasuted. I really don't know what I'm doing at all. Freaking hell. I better do some right thing tomorrow. I'm feeling so terrible. I'm having a headache now. I just want to stay awake despite the heavy eye lids. What is happening to me ? I just doesn't seem like being myself anymore.


Whatever. I'm going to sleep now. Forget about it. I shall start ranting tomorrow. :)

1:25:00 AM

NB RITAZ - Notice Me


OOOOH I wanna let u know
that I'll always love you baby

Angelina:Sometimes I think about
everything that we've been through &
I pray that you would just open ur eyesI love u
(I love u baby) & i need u ( I need u 2)
So pleez don't throw our luv away


Since the day u and i snuk away 2 be alone
i knew from that night somethin special went on
It must've been the first kiss (yea)
you told me that nobody else in da world made u feel this
I felt da same way 2 but nothin stays da same
I'm sorry 4 da tears I'm sorry 4 da pain
U were da 1 dat always made things rite
I promise u this though, u got a friend 4 life
Maybe 1 day we can try it again
& maybe things could b a lil different
So let's just kiss & say good bye
Cuz I really can't stand da pain to c u & cry


Chorus:

I've given everythin (given everythin)
I luved u endlessly
But when it comes 2 me, u don't even notice me
(Forgive me baby)
repeat x2


All dat is mine is urs dats wat i said
treat u wit luv & respect in every way
U want it I gave it u need me i was there
now u treat me like if i'm not here
I love u and i need u don't wanna let go
If u want somebody else pleez let me know
Can't take it nomore i feel i'm dieing inside
Is this the price I paid 4 handin u my life
I know i'm not perfect but I truly cared
so if u wake up 1 morning & i'm not there
Just remeber i luved u it would never b da same
Gave u everythin & u through it all away


(Chorus)


I gave u my good & my bad
my heart & my soul
my trust my money my time
what more can u ask from a man
Even when times were hard I'll held out my arms
Enhaled u, Even excepted u through whatever weather
But now i feel it, we at the end of da road
Whatever we had now i gotta let go
nights like this i wish rain drops would fall
2 cover my tears, wishin i could replace all those wasted years
Of lovin some1 dat couldn't luv me back
& now again i gotta start from scratch
But i know i've given u my everythin

(Chorus)



Anyone has this song ? Please send me. :) I've been addicted to English Hits nowadays. =D


Love me. :)

12:58:00 AM

I've got HEAVY eye bags ! I've got dark eye circles. I've got breakouts ! Yucks !


*SUCKS*

12:51:00 AM

Saturday, April 07, 2007

It's 11.58pm and I've just reached home after meeting the guys. We were all drained out. They were so irritated about the math questions till Calvin went *roaring* all the while. xD ! I was killed by the Amath. There was one time that I started to stone while doing the math question. -.-" I have so many homeworks and I only managed to finish one. Furthermore, I have never been so tired before. By hook or by crooks, I'll have to finish up all the homeworks by tonight. I shall concentrate on my revision tomorrow.


Before meeting them, I went out with my brother and sister-in-law. They had treated me for a lunch set at Waruka Japanese Restaurant. It was fabulous. I had made a right choice to meet the guys later. xD ! If I had chosen to meet them earlier, I'll be missing my food. Suddenly, I realised that I had been eating lesser and lesser. I had only a meal today and I don't feel hungry at all. Am I some weirdo or what. I used to eat so much that eventually, I grown fat. -.-" Then now, I wanted to eat but I don't feel hungry. At times, I felt like eating a specific stuffs like pastas, but I just didn't have the appetite to have it. =(


I'm extremely tired right now but I'm very determined to finish up my homeworks. I really have to do well for O level. It's important for my future and I'm fear of failing. My head is heavy now. I think I had killed many brain cells today. Do brain cells replenish by themselves? Let's hope they replenish by themself, I don't want to worry about having any braincells anymore. It is never a good thing to let the works to keep piling up. I regretted to put it till the last minute. Right now, I'm having a slight headache but well, who cares. XD


We played Friendster before we left Calvin's place. I went to see Jashawn's profile. If anyone is interested in knowing what picture he had put, please looked into his profile. You will get a slight shock. I know he do act cute but I didn't know that he will do till the extent of putting up his act cute pictures on his friendster. xD I haven't been logging into my Friendster and I think I've been letting it to rot for a period of time. Perhaps, it's time to revive it. :)


I'm afraid that Calvin will look into my blog. He said that I better not gossip about him. So let's start gossiping him. xD ! Just kidding. I better start writing some good things about him before he come whacking me up. xD ! Stupid Calvin, you better look carefully. I never write any bad things about you at all alright !~ =DDD


It's just 4 months to our Prelimary Examinations. I haven't even started doing my Ten Years Series. I'll be fully overwhelmed by books after books right after my Passing Out Parade. We are stepping down from our CCAs soon. Somehow, I'm missing my CCA. If we were to think back, the bits and pieces of the memories, it just seems so wonderful. We suffered together. We grumble together. We had been punished together. We went through the most tiring time we ever had during our Secondary 2 times. It was a part of us. Then, we are losing it now. I don't know when will we be so united as one again. You can see our group spirit from our footdrills. No doubt that we were good at it. We had our timing well-trained. We had gone through everything for 4 years. I don't know what will the life be like when we got out of the school. Will we still remember each others? I don't know. Time will show everything.


I wondered how was Moggallana today. I think SBM had been a part of me. They were my life. I was so worried about them for the whole day. I hope they were doing fine. I hope nothing goes wrong today. :)


As usual, I don't know what am I typing again. BYEBYE ! I think this post is so crap. I've made Calvin angry. I'm feeling so guilty now. Forget it~ I don't want to post anymore. bye~

11:42:00 PM

Mummy wakes me up to go school today. =.="

*LAUGHS OUT LOUD*

11:27:00 AM

You know what. I'm still sitting here doing nothing despite the fact that my O's is coming and I'm going to make a big hoo-haa over it. All my friends are so motivated to study and I'm starting to have the urge to study. However, I just can't keep my minds off the distractions right now. It isn't a good sign.


I was out with Rainer papa, Calvin and ChengLong today. Initially, we wanted to have our movie at Vivocity. We were making a decision on the movies and we ended up watching none. Then, the guys went to shop aimlessly while I went to meet Justin and friends. The BBQ consists of 6 people, including myself. xD ! Well, it was so early when the BBQ started. I went at 4pm and went off at 5pm. xD At least I managed to boost the atmosphere up. They were so quiet and I kept disturbing all of them. xD ! Justin told me that it was fun when I was around. xD ! See the difference between having me around and not having me around? xD ! Just kidding. I can't do anything except to disturb people. xD !


I went back to Vivocity to meet up with the guys again. Rainer papa went off while we went to Plaza Singapura. We wanted to watch "The Reaping" but the timing wasn't right. We were walking to-and-fro to The Cathay Cineplex and Plaza Singapure for several times. I think we look stupid. xD ! Anyway, we ended up catching "Mr Bean". There was a part where the dog will jump up and that stupid Calvin scared me. I screamed. -.-" The whole cinema contains only my screaming. That dumb Calvin, he made me looked even more dumb. -.-"


Before the show, we were chatting about our life. I didn't know that they had so much stuffs happening in their life. To be able to handle the life, I think they are much more experienced than me. They had gone through what others hasn't gone through. They know what is best for them and what is not good for them. It feels good to have someone to have heart and heart talks. I haven't been having these kinds of talk for a long time. :) People often learnt though experience. It is only the setbacks that will change one's character. If we were to look on the outside of everyone, we will be oh-so-wrong. People changed. No doubt that we couldn't accept the changes but it's just part and parcels of life.


We are going to study together tomorrow. Let's hope it's a fulfilling one. They have been the one who is motivating me right now. I'm motivated to study now. Please allowed me to finsh the stuffs needed by tomorrow. :)



I'll be back when I think it's time to. I need time to rest too. Just give me a break. I'm sorry.


I want to catch a lot of movies. But that Chinese O level is coming and it's spoiling all my moods. I shall catch it after the O level. I'm so afraid of O level. Please let me do it once and for all. I have good friends out here who is motivating me to study. I better do it well. :)


5 days to my birthday. :)


I'm extremely tired right now. I don't know what I'm blogging. Please pardon me if I had any inappropriate words or spelling mistakes. I seriously don't know what I'm blogging. I'm just blogging for the sake of keeping the memories only. My eyes are already half closed and I'm typing this blog using my mind power. :) Sorry for any improper english. Goodbye! It's 2am in the morning. I'm going to sleep till the cows come home tomorrow. :)


I won't be going to SBM for the time being. I need the time to brush up my academic work before I start with my spiritual life. Afterall, it's my worldly duty. Please don't expect too much from me, I won't be able to make it. I'm sorry to my Moggallana. Partly is that I didn't want them to spend money on my celebrations. I don't think it's a need for it.


BYEBYE !

I don't like the way you replied my sms. Forget about it. I don't think I need to explain further. You are not me afterall. You don't know how I'm feeling inside. You don't know how tough it is.


Suppressing feeling will result in a greater blow up.
I had suppressed too much of my emotion and result in the current situation.


在寻求麻痹的想法里，是否也能意识到自己正在寻求的麻痹？

过去的自己永远不可能重心找回，因为人会成长。

12:17:00 AM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

My freaking hell. I can't stand it anymore. I don't think I'll ever stand it anymore. I really mean it now. I'm leaving. I can't stand you, yes you. Stop acting as if you know me alot. Stop acting as if you know my situation. For the facts it is, you know nothing. If you want to act as if you know my situation the most, try harder. You don't deserve to be my friend at all, not even as a aquaintance. I can accept comments from others when they know what situation I am in but when those who don't know it at all, please keep the comments to yourself. Who do you think you are to me? I don't think I have ever tell you anything about me, I don't think I have tell you about the things that I had blogged nor do I remember that you know me well. Reflect on your actions. Don't you think you are abit too far. You know nothing about it and you are trying to teach me the correct way?!? Get lost man. Come on~ You think you are oh-so-correct? For goodness sake, get the facts right. Don't think too highly of yourself, although you have always been that way, but well, just don't act as if you are so good infront of me because I don't give a damn. Yes, I don't give a damn at all.


If anyone who is concerned, I have decided to shut off from the group of friends. For how long will it be going, I don't know. It's because of the limited patience I had, I had given up. Disappointment is enough despite the fact that I had other crap stuffs that were happening. I really can't stand those people who don't know me and act as if they know me. Although I know they were nothing to me but it's still affected me. For I know, who are the people I'll mixed around with and who are the people who understands me. For those who don't understand me and trying to act as if you are just a part of me, please get out of my sights right now. I can't tolerate, yes I can't. If you don't know me well, don't judge me. If you want to judge me, then wait till when you truly understands me and know what situation am I in, then by all means. If you know nothing and not even a single thing, just by reading my blog and trying to make an assumption, then you are so wrong.


I'll get myself out of the place. Get out of my sight and that's it. Don't bother to read my blog. For my contents will be that you won't want to read, for I am who I am, I don't give a damn. If you think this post is pin-pointing you, then by all means. :) I'll be happier if you could treat it as I'm saying you if you conscience is not cleared. If your conscience is clear, then you can treat it as I'm not saying you. Afterall, I don't only know you, I knew others too. Treat it as I'm saying you and I'll be more than happier.





I had fun today ! ChengLong & Calvin had entertained me for the whole night. He was editing Calvin's composition and then we were laughing at what Calvin was writing. In a informal letter writing, he wrote " My purpose for writing this letter is to ..... " It was so hilarious because he wrote like as if he was writing a Chinese Letter Writing which involved us using the word, " 我写信的目的是。。。" We were laughing all the time whenever ChengLong pin-pointed Calvin's mistakes. xD ! It was an entertainment for Rainer papa & me. I bet everyone will love that. ChengLong was editing the script till a part of time, he gave up and wrote a new composition for him. xD ! I can't laugh at him since my english had been very bad last time. I had improved and let's hope we can help him. =D


Anyway, I scored 19/30 for my speech writing. :) I'm so proud of myself. Mrs Chan had wrote a comment that "A fluent and organised script." =D I'm flying over the moon. There's a new assignment. I better score in this composition ! =D



Guides had done well for this rehearsal. Mr Lai had publicly complimented for our efforts. :) Guides can be fun whenever there were fun activities and when good things come. :) However, something that had shocked me was that Susmita fainted. She was right infront of me when she fainted. I was all alone and I didn't know what can I do. I panicked ! I was so shocked that I almost blurred for a minute before I went to seek help ! -.-" She was directly infront of me and I saw her fell unconscious right infront of me. Oh my goodness, that was the worst scene that I ever want to come across. Please buddha, please don't let me see anyone faints infront of me. I'm so inexperience please. Please let them faint infront of people who are more experienced. :)


BBQ tomorrow ! :) LOVES !


I'm going to have fun with them. :)


I've got my second present for my birthday. xD Thanks Rainer papa !
9 days to my birthday !

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