佘婉菱；我的世界；我的生活

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

First day of my so called camp was all right. They were talking about our goals in life and our purpose in life. I know what I want so it's like, I don't really benefit over it. At least, they teach us how to study effectively. The people of the Super-Teen's programme are nice and hilarious. Perhaps, they made us laugh to attract our attention. XD ! If not, all these lectures are going to be so bored.

We were dismissed at around 8.45pm. Once I stepped out of the PAC, I felt the same tension when I had the other time when I met up with some "things". I sweared, I won't want to go over to PAC unneccessary and I have kept with this promise till now. Yet, they had this "camp" at the PAC and we are only allowed to dismiss at night. =( This is going to be so scary. I teared alittle after going out of the school. I was damn frightened at that time. It must have caused a fear into me =(

All right, I'm feeling tired now! I've been feeling very tired recently. Guess I need loads of sleep if I don't want to fall sick again. Terrible! BYEBYE!

Camp camp camp camp! *Cries* I want to go home early!

9:41:00 PM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Why did blogger force us to change into the blogger beta which sucks so much? I tried editing Lawrence's blog before but to no avail. It just does not allow me to make any changes. Now, I tried not to change into the blogger beta but they wanted me to change if not I won't be able to blog anymore. This world is getting so crazy! My codes are messed up again! Damn that blogger beta!

Irene & Jason were stressed up over their target meeting today. That torch light has to be sold at $5. It is just because of those promotion stuffs, Irene cannot have zero target at all. So, she went to sell it at $1 and top up the leftover herself. It is always those pressure that you get from the surrounding that lead you into doing some silly stuffs. Amanda & I bought 2 of it from her. At least, we managed to lessen her burden. This is the first time I ever seen Jason & Irene being so stressed up and it hurts me. *Sighs* I can't be bothered with Dion anymore. I doubt anyone can take his attitude. I was being accused as the one who went down to find THAT company people and start telling them crap about this company. All right, this company is crap but I didn't do it and they start to accuse me which makes it even more crap. Dion had been exposed along with me being accused for. Do not point your finger at anyone when you don't know anything. *Disgusting company*

Finally, the school had reopened for a month and I then managed to get my stationery stuffs ready. Amanda & I went over to Popular to get the stuffs and then we headed over to the cafe where we had our laksa. Nothing fantastic for me to write about the food there. It has so few variety of food and I doubt it is a recommendable place for dining.

I didn't do any revision today! I'm having that crap camp tomorrow and there's no lesson at all! Hopefully, I can finish all my homework by tomorrow after the camp. No more librarys for me for these few days! Terrible~ I miss my library. =(

Newspapers had been very addictive! I just can't get enough of it. It is like, I just want the newspapers to be distributed quickly. Once it's on my hand, I'll defintely tried to read up an article or two before the teacher starts to nag about putting away our newspapers. I was reading the Life! session when I came across a Hsu Wei Lun who had an accidental and she had passed on. She is only 28. Young and pretty lady. May she be reborn in a better realm. May she rest in peace.

I shall end my entry for today. Suddenly, I'm getting tired of blog. However, this is the place where it keeps my memories and stuffs. Whenever I forgotten an events or two, I'll definitely refer to my blog about it. So, this blog means alot to me yet I'm getting tired of it. I must be damn crazy now.

I hate blogger beta!

11:52:00 PM

Monday, January 29, 2007

Been feeling alittle sick these few days. It's either the flu bug or the nauseness. Headache is coming on and off all these while. My back has been aching for a very long time. I hope everything ends soon. Terrible!

I had received my CCA certificate. Guess what? I scored 15 CCA points which made up to B4. Terrible! I needed an A1 by this April. How can I achieve that? I need another 10 points in order to get an A1 which is rather tough! I hope Mrs Wong help us in this please!

Nothing for me to blog. I'm feeling very horrible now. Time for an early sleep even though it is nearly 12am now. Time flies like nobody's business. I've almost finish up 1 month of hectic schedule. However, there will be more to come. I'm feeling more and more tired now. May I be well and happy. :)

真希望路途会走得容易些，我真的好累啊！

11:42:00 PM

我可以

作词: 林唯蔡?佑
作曲: 蔡?佑
编曲: 洪信杰
演唱: 蔡?佑

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听

雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景
有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

幸福它真的不容易

Yay! Nice song right! Actually, I don't know what song can I put up so I just grab one and put it up. =X So there is nothing meaningful in this song to me unlike the other songs that have some significant to me. :) At least, this song rocks now. :)

12:06:00 AM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Guess I'm not going to keep any more hamsters after the 3 of them. You won't know how terrible stuffs can they do. We did feed them. It's not that we didn't feed them. Yet, that damn male hamster bite my female hamster to death and feed on it. How horrible can it go. I cried after seeing it. I don't know what to do. I was alone at home and I was totally stunt for that moment. You won't want to see that scene. It's so bloody and my dearest female hamster's internal organs are gone! I'm going to dedicate as many merits to my female hamster as possible. Please let it reborn in a better realm. Please please please...

I think I will have nightmares tonight. *Sighs* I can't keep the images that I have seen out of my mind. I'm feel like vomiting. =( My buddha!

It seems that so many things are piling up. More and more undone stuffs stacking up. Terrible~ I hope they cooperate so that I won't chase them like hell just for the simple task. *Pray hard* First was the Study group list that I've to chase for it for afew days and now it's the attendant list for the Community Service stuffs. *Sighs*

Tired! Tired! Tired! *Screams*

I'm changing my blog song already! 3 Cheers to me because I managed to find time to upload it. Yay! I want to sleep! Chinese new year is coming! *Screams* Finally, a short break is coming but I guess I'll be studying. Common test's timing suck the most. =.=" Why msut it be right after our Chinese New Year. Crap school!~

Anyway, my nose ran away today! I used up 3 packets of tissues when I'm at library. Stupid weather! I hate catching a flu bug. =( Oh ya! Zhiwei told me not to study everyday if not I'll go crazy one day. LOLS ! Somehow, it makes sense. =X So, I've annouce that Wednesday is my off day! It's after Guide so I've no energy to study either. That's it. :)

Studying @ SBM tomorrow! Then, I'll be going to meet Irene, Jason & Dion for Sushi! I hope nothing cropped out again. Jason is so cute can! He wanted to dye his hair purple and he went to ask his mum. Then his mum went to take a broom to whack him. XD ! Why must dye so many colour? Black rocks too! xD

Oh ya! Shixiong brought afew gifts for us. Thanks alot alot! I really appreciate it. :) Thanks the other guys for sharing the experience with me about their India trip. :) Rock on!

It's 12am now. *Sleep*

9:39:00 PM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

I tell you, I'll always hate to come home. There are always plenty of complaining, ranting & nagging at me. As you get so stressed up over your stuffs and then there comes some crap stuffs, you'll feel even more crap. So that's what I am feeling now. It is like there is always something popping out so sudden when I'm feeling very very low. I'm not feeling sad, I'm not feeling angry, I'm just feeling so low. That kind of feeling cannot be explain. If you feel that one day, you will know what I mean.

Anyway, I tried to study today without my textbook. It is really so terrible without any textbook with me. I can't even refer to anything when I met with some problems. This show that I'm a very forgetful person and I'll ban myself from putting my stuffs over their place. At least I managed to get back my Amath textbook from Yinghui. :) Thanks alot!

We did some stupid stuffs for Ian's birthday. Everything was just some last minute decision including the kiddish "box". At least, I hope Ian is happy about it. I wanted to celebrate it during the day itself but everyone has other commitment. So, we decided to abandon that idea. I hoped Jianyong had learnt how to do a birthday celebration because I really can't handle everything now. It has been very overwhelming. So, I really need help from each and every of them. I hope they don't mind to help me. :)

Time for some serious studying tomorrow. Perhaps, I'll be going to library? I don't know. Shall see how everything goes tomorrow. It seems that I haven't been going to library for such a long time but in fact, it was just a few days. I miss the tables & the chairs there. Most importantly, I miss sitting right beside the window. I used to have the fear to look down from a very high storey but after sitting there for quite some time and looking down every moment that I felt tired, I seem to have overcome that fear. :)

Dad had been damn crazy. He wanted to put my dear boyboy outside our house. How crazy can he go. I yelled & I shout so loudly at him. Is he stupid or what? Don't he know that once boyboy stepped out of this house, he will be gone forever? I can't lose him, I really can't. That stupid dad better think before he acts. The whole family hate his attitude including me. I'm not going to tolerate any crap stuffs anymore. I've been tired enough. Seriously, I love my boyboy more than them. However, it seems that I have lesser and lesser time for my boyboy. *Sighs*

I had been quiet these few days. I just don't seem to be like myself. *Sighs* I don't feel like opening my mouth to speak at all. I hate to be with quiet people but yet now, I am one of them. Zhiwei smsed me and asked me about how was I going about with my preparation with D&T. I've got nothing to say at all. I told him that I was really very stress up with all the undone work. He thought I'm suffering from some problems and told me to go and see my school counsellor. -.-" I'm not suffering from any depression nor anything, I'm just feeling alittle more stress. :)

Things to do tomorrow - I need to get a number of assessment! I'm going to start studying the various topic in my Amath & Emath. Then I'll be starting my revision for my humanities this coming few days after the Secondary 4 camp. Crap camp~ I shall start doing some Chinese comprehension and start reading chinese novels now. My chinese had been deproving while my English is improving. However, my chinese is the first subject to be done for my O level. I'm aiming for A1 so nothing should go wrong in any where. I have to get the points that I want just in order to go to the JC? Anyway, I'm still not very sure with my decision. Most people encourage me to go JC so I'm still on my decision part. Well, I just have to do every subjects very well and the decision part will leave it to the last. Afterall, I don't have extra time to sit there and think about it. Time for some time management. It just seems that I have lost alot of time so suddenly. I felt so lost in every perspect too.

I really need alot of sleep these few days. I have already had many late nights and I never have enough sleep to have what a healthy body needs. Oh my! I need some balancing skills. Balancing my priorities and my time. Oh ya! I just forgotten to write something in my blog to remind me of it. My brother promised to get me a Nitendo DS! :) I told him that I wanted the pink one. :) My brother bought one for my second brother and another for my sister-in-law. So, I'm waiting for the one for me. :) My sister-in-law is so lucky to have him. My brother rocks!

I want to change my blog song but it just seems that I don't even have the time to update it. I have keep aside a day to do the SBM website already. Just a simple 10 minutes and everything will be done and that's TUESDAY. Perhaps, I'll try to change my blog song on that day? Afterall, I don't have to rush my work since Tuesday is the last day of school and we will be having that crap camp the next day. YAY! Camp is a waste of time and they are wasting our time. So, I hope they don't keep saying that we are wasting of our time because they are the one who made us wasted all our precious time. :)

*Screams* O level! O level! O level!

怎么日子这么难过？

I hope my whole family just SHUT UP SHUP UP AND SHUP UP! I can't take it anymore. *Screams* I hope I don't break down one day. They are really driving me to a stage that I cannot take it any longer. -.-" Sometime, I just wished that they will be just quiet for that one day. Just one peaceful day! Can I just have it ? Every small little things they will start to yell and yell. *ROARS* Even Boyboy wanted some company, they just called for me to take care of him. Yeah yeah yeah, I know he is my dog but can't they help me to just accompany him for that little while? I need more time than they do. Why can't they just spare alittle thought for me. *Sighs* All right, just shut up and my life will get better. :)

Oh ya! I met Lynn yesterday and we were talking about Candice stuffs. Candice is a girl whom had been together with Jashawn recently. So, I got to know that the technique that he used on Candice was the same as mine. They lasted 1 month plus liked mine. Then, Jashawn told her that the longest relationship was 2 months. It was the exact thing that he told me. So, we can conclude that he's a jerk! YEAH! Luckily, Candice found another guy already. XD ! However, she told Lynn that Jashawn was a very sweet talker guy. Yet, I don't remember Jashawn had done any sweet talk to me. *Roars* XD ! Biased XD ! All right, I'm crapping. I don't like sweet talk anyway. LOLS ! Yet, I'm still not happy that he is such a bias person. =X Okay, enough of my crapping.

TIME FOR MY SLEEP! It's been such a long time that I haven't been blogging a long post. :)

I miss my library!

11:14:00 PM

Friday, January 26, 2007

I sweared this is a very tiring week and I had never been so tired till I almost dropped. I just lie on my bed and I will sleep straightaway. It's like I just fainted. I dragged myself out of bed every morning and I tried to stay awake for every lesson. It's not even one month after school reopened yet and I'm already halfway dead. My lifestyle, routine, character & everything just changed so suddenly. I felt so weird being who I am right now. *Sighs*

Anyway, did I mentioned that I win Nicholas for the English Composition. I scored a 17 out of 30 while he scored 15. Finally, I had a chance to boast infront of him. :) I'm sure that more of these boasting infront of him will come. XD ! It feel so great to win him. :)

I tried to collect my pay today but to no avail. So many things are happening onto me. There were so many fake numbers, they accused me of influencing their people to quit their job. How crap can they be? They thought that I'm the one who is working in the Charity stuffs who had done those influencing. I mean, I don't even have time for myself and then they are trying to accuse me of everything that I didn't do. You suck! Take whatever necessary actions that you want, my conscience is very clear and I know what I'm doing that will benefit me. I will rather use the time to study than going down to find YOUR people and tried to INFLUENCE them. I hate people to accuse me to do something that I didn't. I'll make sure you'll not get a very nice treatment from me.

School had been rather hectic recently. Chunks of homeworks are stacking up to brim no matter how many homeworks I had been trying to finish. Tests and tests are given to us every few days. I never study for class tests but this year is going to be different. :)

Sometimes, I just hate people who are selfish. An additional factor of trying to attract attention in class make me hate it more. I hate to have people shouting or screaming in class in between break. It's like they care about themselves and not for others. Asking them to help out in something is so difficult whereas when they need help, you have to help them. Well, I'm not trying to say anything about my class. However, if you think that I'm saying you. Then, it's all about your conscience. I'm just saying in general of what a class shouldn't have. :)

There will be girlguide in the morning and I'm so tired right now. Please pray hard for me that I'll be able to wake up on time. :) It's just another saturday again. Life just seems so unmeaningful to me so suddenly. I might go crazy one day. Don't be suprise that I'll do some weird stuffs one day. :)

How do I slow down my pace when things seem to be going so fast?

11:52:00 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Aries Horoscope: Have you been frantic lately? It is time to switch gears and slow your pace of life. How long has it been since you savoured each moment life has to offer? Reacquaint yourself with some earthy, indulgent luxuries.

Did I mentioned that we were being complaint by the town council that our corridor was messy. So, my dad & mum had done some cleaning up and shifting of the plants. Everything is back to where it is used to be.

I'm very tired right now. Rather drained out ever since the start of the school. We had a presentation by Miss Cheong during our CVE lesson. She told us about the important dates to be noted down. I sweared I was damn stressed at that part of time. I won't have any break when March comes in. I'm going to be more stress up.

My Year Events

Chinese Oral Exam - 22nd March
English Mid Year Exam - 27 April
Chinese Mid Year Exam - 30 April
Other Mid Year Exam - 2 May to 16 May
Intentsive CL studying - 21 May to 28 May
GCE 'O' Level Chinese - 28 May
June Revision Lessons - 29 May to 5th June *Might be stretch*
Block Test - ( 25th - 29th June )
GCE 'O' Level Chinese Oral Exam - 28th June to 12th July
GCE 'O' Level Chinese Listening Compre Exam - 16th July
EL Prelim Oral Exam - 2nd & 3rd August
GCE 'O' Level EL Oral Exam - 13th to 24th August
English Prelim Exam - 20th August
Prelim Exam (Other Paper) - 21st to 30th August
Past Prelim Intensive Revision - 10th September onwards
GCE 'O' Level Science Pratical Exam - 9th to 18th October
GCE 'O' Level Written Exam - 22nd October to 13th November

This is going to be a stressful year. A very very very stressful one. Terrible~ =( Suddenly, I felt that I lost track of my life. Pathetic~ *Sighs* I'm very tired now. Time for my precious sleep. =(

*Cries* I wished life isn't that demanding.

11:41:00 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Terrible start of the day. I want to declare that I'm not supposed to be mark as I'm late at all! I'm still early, I still have 3 minutes to run up to that damn hall and settled down before everything starts. This school really suck so much! I told you, I want to leave this school as soon as possible. =( All right, enough of my ranting. Oh ya, congratulation to my first late day of my whole lifetime. I have never been late before. =( There goes my clean record. *sighs*

Well, nothing much happened today. It was just another long day as there's guide today. I wasn't really very happy about something. Well, never mind. Afterall, we just have to endure another 3 months and we will still be happy-go-lucky! Looking forward to the time when we finish O level. =(

We have gotten our summary of the year events. Terrible O level is awaiting for our arrival. I hope some days the Scientist discovered that we had more time in a day rather than a pathetic 24 hours. :) I hope everything end smoothly. PSLE was terrible because there was SARS holiday and I had gotten together with WeiRong and we broken up after the holidays end. Crap~ Anyway, I heard from my dad that SARS had been detected over at Hong Kong? Please, let me finish my O level smoothly. May devas bless us. :) May all of us make it to the courses that we wanted. :)

I had been sleeping very late lately. Dion told me that I had a very very bad dark circles. =( I hope it recovers soon. And, I hope for Sushi treat by him ! :) He still owe me one. =/ I might be meeting Irene to get back my Amaths textbook because I accidentally left it with her. =( Jason is sick today, so the few of us didn't get to meet up. Never mind, we will meet up tomorrow and I hope all of us are there. :) Please let them reach their target. :) Jason, please get well soon!

I hope everything gets better soon. :)

8:22:00 PM

I just finished blogging Moggallana blog and my blog wasn't being updated yet. So, just short post here. :) Irene went to join Dion's company now. However, I don't really like the company because they actually get comission from these donations. I don't mind doing some helping out for donations but I'm not very keen to earn that money from them althogh the pay is unresistable. I must say that the people there are nice especially the guys there were fun to be with. :) I'm still not very keen to work for jobs that doesn't give me a clear conscious. Anyway, please looked out for such companies! However, if you happened to see my dear friends, please donate to them. Afterall, they are doing their job. :)

I felt a sharp tinge of pain striking me out of a sudden when I was studying. I tried to come out with a conclusion why I'm feeling so depress out of a sudden and I found out that, it was our one month anniversary at this time, last year. I cried last year because I found out all the stuffs that he had said to me were lies. I managed to find out everything by myself. So, no point lying right infront of me because I can sense it and I do know about it. :) I'm not sad. :) I don't care! He had gotten out of my life and I had kept my words. :) That pain is nothing at all. :)

Life has been damn boring after the school reopens. I missed the fun times with the guys when we are working together. Suddenly, I don't know how and what to study. I just stare into blank for afew minutes after awhile and getting back again and again. I'm trying so hard to concentrate. =( I hate school. =(

Another late night sleep because I just finished blogging Moggallana blog. Time for serious studying, no more staring into spaces again. =(

*Stressful life*

Moggallana's Study group list is still not up yet. Forester, Ian & HangQi, I hoped you guys give me a reply. =( *Sighs*

*Cries* I hope I'm some kind of talented people who doesn't have to study and still get A1 no matter what. :) I really wished I am. Please give me the power to be one. =( I'm going to be bonker soon. Time for some time management skills. =(

12:02:00 AM

Monday, January 22, 2007

Today's Aries Horoscope: When it comes to love, experiencing the agony of defeat can be overwhelming, it is true. But are you so spooked you will not even get back in the game? Remind yourself that there are no winners or losers in love.

I was reflecting about my relationship stuffs yesterday and then I saw this horoscope today. Sometime, Straits Times' horoscopes are quite accurate. Somehow, this game is hard to play and it involve with your feeling. :( I don't know how long will I take to get back to the game because I'm afraid to be defeated again. :)

Parliament was boring~ You were supposed to sit still and no other movements are allowed not even putting your hand under your chin. I can't even understand what the MP are discussing about. Guess, I just hate to sit still. :) Something amusing was that the speaker kept repeating the same sentence again and again. I doubt anyone will understand that sentence unless they put on the headphone to listen to the mandarin version. =X

I killed a mosquito while bathing today! I didn't do it on purpose. Usually, I will grab it and then shun it to another place but this time round, my hand was wet and I forgotten all about it. Right now, I'm suffering from mosquito bites again. Guess, it's my karma. =( *Roars* I hate mosquitos! Please get the hell out of my life~ =( I really don't need you to come near me. =( I hope all the mosquitos will perish! I hope I don't scratch till it leaves a scar. =(

I'm still unable to do my Amath's homework. =( I only managed to do 4 questions out of 8 questions. Pathetic~ Common test is coming! The timing is crap! We will have our Chinese New Year and then we will have our tests after a day of resting. Crap right? Which means, I can't spend my New Year happily but to suffer from the pressure. That's suck! What to do?!? I can't do anything at all.

Life is getting more and more pressurized and crappier. Physic test tomorrow! I hope I will at least get a pass to prove that I understand the topic. Amath & Emath test is coming up again. Tests and tests and tests. My life is evolve around tests & exams & homeworks! New Year is coming and I haven't done any shopping yet. A new year, a better life.

Seriously, I felt something will go wrong this year. Please let it be something minor! I want to apologise to everyone whom I had offended intentionally or unintentionally. Sorry! Time for some reflection soon! Sometime, I really wished I had more time because I'm getting more and more tired now. =( Time is all I wanted. =( So many things undone and yet I've so little time. Moggallana's study group list, I haven't even come up with it and the deadline was over. My buddha! I felt so guilty! *Sighs*

All I wanted was time.

10:54:00 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Yesterday was great! I proved LiangJian wrong because he said that I'll be late. I was very very early!! So, I met up with Andrina and proceed to Tampines to meet the other guys! Eleven people turned up for the outing! :) Cheers to my Moggallana!

So, Forrester was late. He was very very late! We were supposed to meet at 10am but he came at 11+. After that, we went over to Changi Jetty and took the Boat over to Ubin. The weather hate us. =( It started raining when we reached there so we had no choice but to play chapteh in the jetty. Many onlookers stopped and watched us play! I guess we were the center of the attention from everyone. XD !

After the rain started to stop, we went to rent a bike and off we go for our hunt! Andrina, Ian & Forester didn't know how to ride a bike but they managed to learn after awhile. Ian learnt to ride the bike after afew seconds! So, we go ahead with our trip. A number of obstacles for us to face, there were slopes and muddy water everywhere. I bet everyone hates the muddy water. Forester did a number of funny stuffs and I must really say that he brought joy to us. XD !

We went back to Singapore after 4 hours of riding on the bike and my butts hurt now. We took the bus over to LiangJian's place. LiangJian was so nice to lend us a place for dinner! YAY! :) On our way to his place, we played murderer on the bus! We were the noisiest group in the bus but all of us had fun so WHO CARES. =X Lalala! All right, at least we tried to be as softer as possible. :)

We had steamboat at LiangJian's place where we all had our Budget Dinner. YAY! We managed to spend only 15 dollars for the whole day! XD ! Moggallana must really thank LiangJian for his place and helping us to get a budget dinner. XD ! All right, I end for the day. =X

Nothing much to write about today. I just went over to Library to study and study. End of my day! XD ! Boring life ! There's school tomorrow. Monday blues~ I want holidays!!

I want holidays la~ =( When is my next holiday? When is Chinese New Year coming?

*ROARS *

10:18:00 PM

Friday, January 19, 2007

My goodness! Luckily LiangJian asked, if not my plan for tomorrow will be screwed up. I was at library today trying to finish up the work and trying to get everything done for tomorrow activites. My brain rocks! It can do two things at a time. XD !

I think my bill will cause me a bomb. There has been afew changes here and there and I kept sending alot of messages to them. My goodness! I hope Starhub will love me for using so much SMS and give me 50% discount for it. :)

Dad and Mum had their quarrelling again. Crap life~ Mum kept repeating about the past incident. I hope it had past. Please do not let it affect my studies this year anymore. :)

It's going to be 12am again. Another late night sleep~ =( I just finished the calling for the outing tomorrow! Time for my sleep! :) GOODNIGHT!

Pulau Ubin tomorrow! I hope I'll remember to take alot alot of photos ! :) Dinner at LiangJian's place! :)

11:23:00 PM

Yay! I'm not as sick as yesterday but still I'm sick. =( I took my time to go home because I was really very tired. No words can describe the kind of feeling inside. It's like, I'm just so tired that I don't want to walk around not even for short distance.

I won't be doing anything except going to library to study later. =( I'm so so so tired! :(

Please give me more time =( I want to get a good grade for my O level. I'll blog more later on. Time for a good rest :)

*Sleeeeeeeep*

2:39:00 PM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

I'm sick I'm sick I'm sick I'm sick.

I'm suffering from fever, cough, cold, muscle cramps & my whole body is aching. I can't even walk up the stairs without any pain. I hate to be sick. =( At least, not at this time. There's house outing coming up this Saturday and I don't want to spend my saturday on my bed. It's terrible! I hope I'll be well by tomorrow.

Please give me a good night sleep today! I didn't even manage to go to library to study nor even study at home. I just felt so sick. I wasted my time. =( Someone plese take away my sickness. I was supposed to go to Popular to get my stationary and book but I was just so sick suddenly in the afternoon. So, I just cancel all my plan. I wanted to go library and my plan was cancelled too. *Roars* I hope I'll be fine when I'm in school tomorrow. If not, I'll have to have an early departure and go home to rest. =( However, school is ending at 1.35pm tomorrow! I hoped I can stay throughout because I don't want to miss any lesson. =(

Just a short post because I really feeling very horrible now. :(

*Sick! Sick! Sick!*
Let me be well and happy :)

10:18:00 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

I'm going to be sick soon! I can feel alittle feverish right now. I hope I'm all right. Let's hope I'm all right. I wanted a MC but I just remembered that if I go on a MC, I'll be missing a whole day of lessons and I will be losing at the very end again. -.-" I don't want! My buddha! Can I get better now? =(

*dumbdumbdumbdumb*

11:37:00 PM

I was damn stressed yesterday. Almost late for school and then the girl guide stuffs haven't been settled after I left from school. Then, when I reached that damn company, I got even more stress. After coming back home, I got all kinds of nonsense. Junyang was damn crap~ I guess if I really want to make it to end that way, I'll let it if he forced me. My way was to end the friendship too. I told him once, I told him twice and I even told him for more than 10 times that he won't get any chance. He just doesn't listen. Then, I shall let it be forgotten and I'll make sure, we will lose contact. Afterall, I'm not even his friend. I'm just an aquaintance and he is just another aquaintance. I just happen to know him through Raymond when we were at Tampines. We didn't even meet after that. We were just some strangers and then happen to know each other. If he's my friend, I won't be that harsh. Unless, my friend are those bastard type. =X

So, I didn't want to reply his message today. I know I'm evil but that's the only way that I can let him give up. I don't want him to wait till I finish my O level. I don't want to have a relationship with a guy whom I hardly know at all. I don't want I don't want I don't want...!! Buddha help me =(

School was all right today. Guide was fun! Perhap, it's our games that make ourselves go havoc. The seniors (we) were high, the juniors had fun. :) Though, my game had some screwed up but at least, I hope the juniors doesn't find out what stuffs screwed up. :) Oh ya, my mosquito bite had worsen. A sharp end of something cut against my wound in the guide room again. -.-"

Life has been rather hectic. Homeworks are piling like a big hill and I'm going crazy soon. It's like, it's so different from my past years. I never had so much stress before. My buddha! I hope everything ends soon! If not, I'll definitely go crazy one day. It just seems that time had passed like nobody business. Seconds, minutes and hours just disappeared in a blink of my eyes. I'm not walking with the time, nor am I running with the time, I'm just flying with the time. I hope my wings are still able to hold on till the very last minute.

There is a very crap camp coming up for the Sec 4 classes and I find it pointless. It just wasted our time like that. It's not camp in fact, it's just some enrichment and motivation classes. The classes will be held for 3 days from 7.30am to 8.30pm. It's 13 hours! Or rather, it's 13 X 3 = 39 hours! Why must the school waste our time just like that? I rather use the time to study myself. Furthermore, we have to pay a fee of $100 which I find it useless. I don't want to spend this kind of money on this kind of shit. Lame shit! Sometimes, when you stayed longer in a place, you will find out how crap that place can be. Then, this is my school yet I found it so crappy. Please get me out of here soon! Buddha, I'll still be learning my dharma from SBM but not from this school. Afterall, this school only gives us 1 period of dharma talk. Each time, when we are listening to the dharma talk then our class just have to end like that because of the bell. Lame lame lame lame!

My life is so crappy suddenly!~ Buddha, where are you ?!?

Oh ya! I found out another way to reject people. Luckily, not many people are reading my blog! So, I can say all I want. :) Another way to reject people is that I can tell them I'm attached! Don't worry, I'm not lying so I didn't break any precept. I'm attached to my boyboy!! So those who doesn't really know me well, will know that I'm just crapping then I'll just have to reason with them why I don't want to have the relationship. I can't use the reason of O level already because some people will just tell me that they will wait till I finished my O level. -.-" So, the reason isn't good enough! I must think of a better one. :) Temporarily, I'll be saying that I'm attached to my boyboy!!

I love boyboy!
XD !

8:00:00 PM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Damn it~

Damn the lousy company. That damn angmoh, I hope you get your karma one day. Bastard~ I was inside the office quarrelling for a very long time and there they are, still not going to release my pay. They asked me to come back next week to see if I could get it. What do they actually want? They kept accusing me of cheating and this time round, it's 8 number. What are they trying to do? Eating up our money or what? Damn it~ Wasted my time over there, I shouldn't have gone down. I should have stayed back to do my waterbomb stuffs. There is so many stuffs to be done for my guide today and I just WASTED my time at the office. That disgusting company! This is the first time I ever had regretted spending my time over something. I spent my holiday on this disgusting job and I wasted my time and transport fare to get over there. Yucks~

They still want me to go back next week. My goodness! Let's pray hard that they better give me my pay. If ever anything screwed up again, I make sure they get it from me. SUCKER BASTARD! I will make sure you won't be able to get away FROM WHAT YOU HAD DONE TO ME. Disgusted~ I really cannot tolerate such acts. -.-"

I REGRET WASTING MY TIME ON SUCH USELESS STUFFS. =(

DAMN IT !

5:58:00 PM

Monday, January 15, 2007

Mrs Lim was stressing the word O level during our CVE lesson. I can only have a word to describe my current feeling - stress. It's like she was telling us where we will be going if we don't do well. There was one destination that she told us - working route which is like, I'm not very interested to go into the workforce so early yet. Neither I'm interested to retain for another year and take O level with my new syllabus and new books. I don't want any such things to happen! I can't imagine what will I be like if I really did not do well.

I hope teacher don't stress the word O level anymore. It's causing me more misery than ever. The tension in my heart is so tight till I want to put down everything and leave. You can really feel the pressure whenver you stepped into the school. The feeling sucks~ I hoped I don't get too stress till I go crazy. Teachers, I hope you read my blog. =(

The few destination that she had given us - JC, Poly, ITE, Private, Working & Retain. =( I hoped I could get into the first two. =( It's just one and only chance. =( I never felt so stress in my whole life before. PSLE was such a relaxing one because my studies were all along very good when I'm young but right now my studies suck and O level is such a stressful one. I wonder how did my cousins managed to go through this stage?

CAN I QUIT SCHOOL? =( *ROARS*

School blue~

There stuffs to do for my guide and I haven't finished. The outing for Moggallana, I haven't planned. The admin stuffs are halfway through and the study group stuffs, I haven't collect any. My goodness! So many things to be done~ There's pay collection tomorrow and I hope that damn company give me my money. Then, I still have to return to school to do the guide stuffs before I head straight to the library. Buddha buddha, blessed me all you can. Find devas to help me too!! I need help in every aspect of my life right now.

Buddha Poppi!

CHEMISTRY TEST TOMORROW - RATE OF REACTION!~

*ROARS*

I tried too hard and I'm tired.

There's so many topics to revise in all my subjects. Which subjects should I start my revision first? I had been doing my A math's revision and I'm so bored of it. Perhaps, I will try to finish up my Emath first since Emath is a easier subject. :) I need to get A1 for Emath for O level. :)

The mosquito bite was swollen. =( I sound so random here. -.-"

School blues~ *stressful year*

5 more months to Chinese O level
7 more months to Prelim
9 more months to O level

*screams*

9:51:00 PM

I had the uneasiness inside me for a period of time yesterday. I thought something had happened to mum. Couldn't understand why I was feeling that way. I was trying all my best to reach my mum who is in Malaysia but I couldn't. In the end, I managed to reach her at 12am and I found out that she had an accidental. A car had banged into her bus so her arrival was delayed. At least, I felt relieved after that. =D Lucky lucky! Buddha bless!! I hope everyone was safe. :)

I'm going to library now. There's pay collection tomorrow. I don't know if I could get my pay. The company seems so unrealiable. I hope nothing screwed up and they won't eat my pay. Don't they dare to accuse me of cheating ever again. Bitch~ =D

*Tired*
I WANT TO HAVE HOLIDAYS =D

6:04:00 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Library life!

The library was so packed that the three of us had to go out to the courtyard to study. Can you imagine that we studied without table? Eventually, I went in to find some space and I managed to get it. :) Anyway, it was just the time that I do some homework and alittle revision. Just that much of revision because I was so tired after the piano lesson so I wasn't really having the spirit to continue. :( I wasted my time there~ There's Emath test tomorrow and I haven't study any because I forgotten to bring my Emath stuffs there. =( I hope I can finish by tonight. :)

Study study study!~ My brother is returning to camp tomorrow. Oooohhh! YEAH~ =X

I just want to concentrate on my studies and not think about any other problem. :( Please don't give me any other problems.:( Let me be free from troubles. :) Buddha, I love you ahhh!!

9:54:00 PM

My brother threaten to lock the PC. He really suck so much. I'll make sure I buy one laptop and I won't share with him. Disgusted~ Afterall, I have to admit that he is so self-centre that I couldn't take it anymore. He thinks that he's so damn good while I'm getting more and more disgusted. I hate proud people. I hate over-confident people. If you are one, please get the hell out of my life. :)

I hope he just forget about it. I don't want to lose my PC please. =( If i'm to lose my PC, there's so many things I can't do. I can't do my admin stuffs, not my E-learning homeworks, not able to check my email and getting the updates of what so ever. My goodness~ IF he really locked it, I will make sure I won't talk to him from now onwards. He's getting too much. I'm starting to hate to stay at home again. =( Can I please get out of this house soon~? My dad and my mum is fine right now but my brother is making me going bonker again. Damn~

LIBRARY!! Hopefully after coming back from library, I'll still able to use my PC.

I hate my brother. =(
LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM!~

~~I didn't even speak any words and my damn brother said I'm GUAI LAN. SUCKER LA~ BASTARD! MUST BE I OWE HIM DAMN MUCH IN THE PAST LIFE LA. DAMN!~~ I HOPE he will be GONE from my life for the better. Let me get out of his life soon! I'm going crazy !

10:17:00 AM

Saturday, January 13, 2007

I really hate to stay at home. My brother is really so damn unreasonable. I hate it and I can't stand it anymore. Is he dumb or what that he actually went to download IE 7 which it doesn't allow me to see my blog nor my Moggallana blog. I remembered Ray complaint that he regretted updating to IE 7 and right now my damn brother went to download it. How great can he be. I can't stand it anymore. Please let my brother get married quickly and moved out of the house faster. I don't want to stay in the same house as he anymore. It sucks. He's too unreasonable and I really hope I could stay as far as possible from him. He changed so much! We used to be so close but it isn't anymore. Maybe, I owed him in the past life. =(

Anyway, I was reading a bulletin about some organisation trying to help the pets. Somehow, I'm rather interested in it but by looking into my busy schedule for my O level. I doubt I have the time to go down to help out. Perhaps, I'll try to help after my O level. Get a decent job for my holidays and do some voluteer work in some organisation preferrably animals one. =DDD

There's piano lesson tomorrow. Boring life~ Then, I'll go to library tomorrow to study hard hard. Maybe Lawrence is coming! Let me stress the word " MAYBE " =X Let's see if he did prove LiangJian wrong that he won't come to library. XD

Oh ya, I've been biten by a mosquito and I scratch so hard that I eventually caused a scar there. =( Mosquito, Mosquito. Please don't love me. I don't love you so I don't need any kisses from you. Get as far as possible. I don't want to see you. I won't love you at all. So don't love me either. I'll hate you forever if you continue coming near me. :)

LIBRARY TOMORROW. I MISSED MY CAPPICUINO :)

11:05:00 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

I couldn't describe how I'm feeling right now. It is just some mixed feeling - Stress, happy, relieve, pressurize. Anyway, I have just had my destress by reading my past history. I feel funny to read about the stuffs that had happened in the past especially Jashawn one. I can actually remembered what time we are together too. We were together on the 23.12.05 at 22.36pm. Interesting eh~

I had forgotten what actually happened to us during that period because memories are starting to fade. Good news! All right, I can feel all the emotions that I had written in the past and that I really can feel the pain when I've broken up with him. When you start to think of the time when you miss him, it's terrible! You can't even concentrate on your work. Yet, it's good to have someone to love and to be pampered and loved by them. :) However, single still sound much nicer to me. I just don't like to miss people. I don't like to get jealous nor being jealous from people. I'll go mad if I see a girl going very close toward my boyfriend. So when you're single, you feel more free because whoever go near anyone, you don't care. :)

Don't care what I've been writing in here. This is the time when I was with Jashawn one year ago so I'm missing the teeny weeny part when we're together. I'm sure that when it's March, I'll start to miss Weirong and I'll be hating Jashawn all over again. -.-" Everyone does have the teeny weeny bit of feeling for their ex afterall. =( Yet, it's still better to be single. =X It's good that I'm not involved with any boy girl stuffs. O level mark the day that I'll be leaving MJR. That is a good news for me and a most better one.

There's A math test tomorrow. *Roars*

BUDDHA BLESS ME !

8:46:00 PM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

I blogged! I slept in class alot of times. I can't even remember how many times did I fell asleep while teacher was teaching. =( It's not my fault, I'm just too tired. Anyway, D&T's theme had been given to us and I want to do it as early as possible so as to forcus on my other subjects. Yeahh! I hope this year will be a good year for me.

I hope I can sleep early tonight because I want to finish up the Moggallana stuffs and my homework. This is such a terrible week. I'm draining out. =( I wished I had finished my holiday homeworks. =( I'm getting pay on Saturday. :) Just 2 more days to weekend! I'm looking forward to sleep late and wake up late again! I miss weekend. =(

BYEBYE! I want to finish it up early and then getting into bed early! Sorry for my short entry.

I love all my friends. :)

Why is there so many activities going on on the 14th April. Someone please have some activities on on the 13th April THE FRIDAY. XD ! I'm so proud of that date. =X All right, I'm being so random. =X

LOVES :)

8:45:00 PM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

I'm so tired! You know what! I didn't know that I slept 2 periods out of 4 periods of my Amaths period. We were supposed to have only 2 periods of Amaths but Mrs Lim took our Emaths for Amaths. I was so tired before she came in and then I started to rest. After greeting her, I sat down and rest because she was talking about the school stuffs. The next moment that I'm awake was the time when she had finished her teaching and it's the time to do the homework. Imagine, I don't know anything and I just used the example given on the board to do that 10 questions. I'm so pathetic~ I really want to pay attention to the lesson but I didn't even know that I slept for such a long time and I've slept for 2 periods !

Didn't really do any much stuffs and I went to library to study after meeting Junhao! He told me all about his school life and it seems so fun! *Roars* Whatever, I'm not going to go his school. Then, he accompanied me to library to study. Hanpei, Dion & Jason came after that. Junhao left after awhile. I'm still studying when the guys went havoc. They were so noisy! -.-" Luckily, I'm still able to continue study despite the noise. XD ! I haven't even started on my revision for my Amath test this Friday. I'm dead! Then, there's Chemistry test next Tuesday. I'm getting stress. =( Prelim is brought forward to Term 3 and it will end before September's holiday starts. O'level will start early October. =( I'm left with 10 months right now. =(

Zhao Cai's birthday tomorrow!!

ZHAO CAI HAPPY BIRTHDAY, hope you zhao more cai this year. XD

Oh ya! Junhao wore a KFC's shirt to school today XD !! *laughs*

8:42:00 PM

Monday, January 08, 2007

I'm a good girl today. I went to the library and study. I love Irene alot alot! Ying Hui joined us too! Obviously, I love her too! I cleared my work that I have to hand in tomorrow. Then, it is only tuesday! Oh my, please let the time fly! I'm going to enjoy my pasta tomorrow and then back to my library again. It's so nice to feel that the almost the whole study room is urs. XD !

I'm suffering from my muscle cramp after that 6 rounds run for my punishment for not bringing the PE attire. That's so crap~ I wore uniform and ran the track for 6 rounds! Can you believe it? I wanted to end it as fast as possible so I did my running continuously and ran as fast as I can. It's so weird to run in uniform. Stupid teacher~

Oh ya, I broke my records again. I slept alittle in class during my Chemistry period. The lesson is so boring! I hate to have boring lesson~ It's not about the subject being so dead or boring, it's about the way the knowledge is being squeeze into our brain with the juice freshly squashed out. So, give me a lively lesson so I'll learn more effectively. I hope this will change. :)

TIME TO SLEEP. I'M SO TIRED ! I don't want to sleep in class again! BLESS ME!

I will study hard hard for once and for all! Anyone has any suggestion for me to take which route to a better future. I wanted to go for private school but it's so risky. =( HAIS~

I WANT TO BE PAMPERED ! Kor kor pampered his girlfriend and he didn't pamper me at all anymore. =(

*ROARS*

10:45:00 PM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Library, Library!

Let me start from the time that I'm in Library. Nothing much but study and study! I must thank Irene so much that she managed to clear all my doubts in that stupid little sketch graph. Beside doing my homework and clearing up my doubts for my studies, the two of us really chatted alot stuffs. From her relationship to everything. She showed me her Ex-boyfriend and her photos, and it proved to me that having a boyfriend isn't that bad afterall. You two can be so sweeeeeeeeet can~! Then, it reminds me of the time when I'm with Jashawn. He's rather sweet but still not as sweet as Irene's one. =X The problem right now is that, I don't know how to love anymore. LOLS ! You know when you get so much hurt from the past relationships and you will remembered deep in your heart.

The pain is inevitable. So, it's not about accepting people and loving them that easy. It's about the obstacles that the two will face in a relationship. For the past going to be 1 year time, I avoided getting into relationship because I'm not ready to stand another pain. Yeah, but right now she's prove that me that relationship isn't that bad though you get to feel some pain when you two had quarrelled or what. =D Anyway, it doesn't have any difference because I'm having O level this year. So getting a boyfriend anot is still alittle nonsense. I don't even have any time to accompany him. So, it's just too bad. LOLS ! Single still rock my life. :) I want to enjoy my singlehood as long as I want. XD ! So, don't ask me why I'm single because I'm loving it. XD ! Irene asked me why I am still single and I asked her why is she still single. Her answer was "Cannot find any." XD ! Then, the next time I'll answer " O level coming. " XD !

Imagine if I'm to get into a relationship and then when the O level is just about to come and *Poof*. The relationship is gone. How can I concentrate on my O level! Unless I really know which one stands in my priority and you know boyfriend will stand the lowest of all. =X So, it's still better not to get involve with any one. YEAH! Singlehood, go go go! I want to celebrate my 1st anniversary for my Singlehood after that last breakup. :)

There is school tomorrow. Monday blue! =( At least, I want to look forward to go library to study again. I love my library! Perhaps the next time, I'll go to SBM to study. :) Buddha will be there to guide me along. LOLS !

I'm having a very deep deep eyebags and dark eye rings around. =( I don't know why I'm still not having enough sleep. I slept 12 hours today and still my eyebags are there. =( Oh my~ I still want to play till late nights! From next week onwards, I'll be in a serious studying mood. No more little teeny weeny bit of studying already. And, there's remedials from next week onwards. It is going to be such a stressful and tough year. I hope everything ends soon! I'll start with my Secondary 3's work first and slowly continue with my Secondary 4's work. I've work too much during the holiday and resulting in my tough tough year this year. Whatever it is, I'll still work hard to get into University. :)

See me in University in afew years time. :)

MONDAY BLUE LA~

10:49:00 PM

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Sentosa!

All right, I didn't join in the first part of the game. Perhaps, I was too tired. Anyway, I had gotten alittle teeny weeny bit of sunburnt over my cheeks. And, I didn't want to get wet but they just dragged me over the sea when I had escaped alot of time due to Junhao's help. :) JUNHAO, YOU ROCK! XD !

I'm back home right now! Just trying to finish up all the stuffs that was being left behind when I was too busy. Then, I tried to clear up my "Clean Up" Folder and I found the "Meeting" document lying in it. So I clicked and opened it. Yeah, there are alot of things to be done to make the whole group going strong. My brother kept telling me that my group looked like a social group but I kept trying to proof that we're not but he just said that we looked like one. =( Never mind, I'll proof to him one day that we aren't. :) So, let's hope we could let this group to be a stronger one. After reading this, it make me realised that I'm not only caring for my own house but the whole youth group. So whatever is happening, I'll forget about it.

All right, I save the above as draft because my brother wanted the PC yesterday so I didn't post up.

Anyway, I went to check my email and I saw what ShiXiong had wrote. I cried after reading. I must agree that it was once a happy friendship and I hope it will continue. Thanks ShiXiong for everything. I really appreciate it alot alot. I'll do what I had said and forgive him. Then, I'll do my best as a VC. Thanks for everything really. And thank for the time taken to write that long long email. :)

It's 2007. Let all be happy. Let the past to be just a memory and I'll forget everything. :)

Library, Library! I'm coming~ :)

11:23:00 PM

Last day of work!

Yeah! I've officially finished up my work! It was really very fun today. Somehow, I'll love all my colleagues as much as I can. They are really very nice people. I'm left with 6 and eventually Mabelynn lend me her 6. How nice can they be? Irene quitted the job and she passed on her surveys to us and we shared between the few of us. =D After all the questioning, I managed to hit my 2 days target. :) So, I'm done with my work and I'm back to the other commitment especially my studies which I have been neglecting it for the past few weeks.

I will definitely remember today as I met so many nice people around. Irene, Mabelynn, Lynn, Dion and Hanpei! Yeah, my group of working clique. =X We even bought Sushi from Carrefour into Raffles City's Burger King. We ate and chatted there. Nobody will dare to bring outside food into a fast food restaurant but we did! Yeah!

I promised to go down to help them when I'm free and I'm meeting Irene and Mabelynn on Sunday to do homework. This is so cool~ Work will get fun when you meet nice people. Furthermore, I had fun today! I slacked for the rest of the time when I get to know that Irene wanted to quit the job and will be passing the surveys to me. Yet, eventually Aaron said that it was passed up to the office. =(

Oh ya, I met alot people today mostly SBM people. :)

Liwei, Alvin, Airell, HweeSeong (Cousin)

It's counted as many people already because it's hard to get to spot each other when you're at Cityhall and when the whole MRT is crowded. Yet, we're still able to meet each other. Such a coincidence! :) LOVES ~

I don't like working but I like my working mates. :)

SENTOSA TOMORROW!
Homeworks are still undone =( Whatever~

12:22:00 AM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

It is the worst day ever since the year starts. I was so tired after studying in that damn school and at night I've to work in a damn company. Oh my! I've to complain that I'm super tired right now. I guess those people who are studying and working at the same time is having a hard time. Studying and working is killing people. I should have chose to work on Friday and right now I haven't finish up my days of working, 2 more days of torturing days. I hope it will get better next week. I doubt I can finish up my homeworks by tomorrow. =( Why I keep having mountain of homeworks? Can anyone just kill me straight away so that I don't have to suffer from all these.

All right, I'll blog till here. Just some short post to rant about. Anyway Hanpei came to help me alittle today! At least, he helped me with 1. =X It's better than nothing okay! Thanks alot! :)

I want to sleep ~ =(

10:52:00 PM

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

So, I'm just being so dumb girl around there for people to cheat. What a nice world I had been seeing. At least, Aaron is still the nice one among the lousy one. He told me to keep a record of the days I worked so I'll get the correct amount of money.

Anyway, I wasted 3 hours waiting for the arrival of Aaron. He made me wait for such a long time for him. I wanted to get my cheque from him and instead of getting it and going home after that, I waited and waited. Then, I found out that I made a mistake, I still own them 3 days more. Suck~ I don't want to cheat anyone anymore. Lousy money~

All right, I haven't done any homeworks at all. I was too tired when I reached home just now. Then when I came back from school, I was so angry realising about the damn thing from the Event Plus. A stressful school starts! How I wished everything will be much simpler. =(

I have to work tomorrow. =( I HATE TO WORK LA ! WHERE'S LEON AND THE OTHERS. I WANT TO WORK WITH YOU GUYS LA! =( I miss my morning shift at Raffles Place. =(

WHATEVER! I'm not doing homework today either. My eyes are closing! I shall get all kinds of scolding tomorrow. My dear teachers, give me a little chance alright. Just see how pathetic I am, having this kind of holiday and this kind of torture. LOVE ME ALITTLE CAN YOU? =D Teacher teacher, I know you have a pretty little heart and please just forgive me for whatever homeworks I failed to pass it up. So, just give me more time to finish up my homeworks and I'll make sure that I'll love you even more during the lesson time. :)

Love me and I'll love you even more alright my dear teachers. :)

I WANT TO HAVE A BREAK ! Sucky job!~ Leave me alone. =(

*ROARS*

让我离开这个鬼地方!!!!

11:33:00 PM

I want to cry! I want to scream! I want to shout as loud as I want! Why is it happening to me. Yucks~ There was never a time that I'm not satisfied with my pay until this stupid job. It was all my hard earned money. I have to smile like some moron and chase the people like a crazy person to get that lousy money. I have to take up all the nonsense that people gave me. You think it's so easy, then you might as well do it yourself and not hired students like us to get cheated by you. Sucker Bitch. People give me fake number like as if it's my wrong. I don't even know if it's a real or a fake one. You can't expecting me to call and reconfirm with them in the middle of the roadside right. I have already quit my job so you can't expect any from me anymore. Leon must have guess correctly that you aren't married yet. Look at you, you think you are pretty by wearing a low cut and putting on thick make up. Forget about it. You still look old to everyone. :) I can't believe you want to eat up my money. EVENTS PLUS YOU SUCK! I don't understand why is there people still lining up for interview today. I wanted to tell them so much that this job is not a good job, leave when you have the time to leave. Don't get hooked up by this lousy job and being cheated so much without knowing anything.

I'm not in the mood to blog or anything. Forget it~ I wanted to go library to study but look at me right now, I'm going crazy. A waste of my time and effort. People, if ever you are to interview for a job at Events Plus located at Singapore Shopping Centre. Please do not go for that job. Ask me for further details. You won't want to know what they do. So, just throw that paper away and walk off as fast as you can. YOU WILL REGRET IF YOU JOIN THAT COMPANY.

5:40:00 PM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

AH!

I can't find my homeworks! I lost a number of worksheets or rather MOST of the worksheets. I clean up my nails and trimed it. I ironed my clothes and hang it properly at the side. I wanted to pack my bag but I don't know what to put inside. This is such a stressful school starts and I find it myself.

I lost all my stuffs for Guide and the message that was given was so sudden and last minute. I hate last minute stuffs. -.-" When can we get a so not last minute stuffs? This is so irritating. I can't find my belt. -.-" Please let me find it.

What a school starts!! I'm going crazy la! Anyway, something to look forward to was that I'm getting my pay tomorrow! Oh yeah! No more being bankrupt but I'm getting only 160 bucks. Lousy company. So, I'm still broke anyway! My goodness! After getting pay, I must go over to library to finish up my homeworks. Anyone wants to join me? This is such a "nice" school starts. O level coming! *ROARS* SOMEONE BURN THE SCHOOL DOWN! OR let's just delayed the O level. :) Or or even best, let's delayed our school reopening. I sound unrealistic because school is tomorrow and I'm here ranting. That's like - what for? I'm being so ridiculous this time. I hate school. =( I always hate to go school when I come to Secondary School and I always loves to go school when I was in Primary School. Terrible ehh~ There's nothing for me to look forward to when I go school what~ =( I used to look forward to school because of WeiRong mah~ =X

Enough of my ranting, I'm back to search for my stuffs. THIS IS SUPER DUPER SUCK! I WANT TO SLEEP. =(

10:37:00 PM

Ehhh, I just found out I didn't blog my New Year Countdown! Anyway, SBM held a Qing Gong Yan which was my first time going. Retro night! Everyone was so retro that night and I laughed all the way whenver I saw ZhenFeng with his "Cute" look. His hair was so gel up that it went so hard. ZeMing looked super cute with his ahbeng's look. ShiXiong looked more retro with his retro dance. Lawrence looked like some oldies superstar. Everyone was just so cute that night.

We went over to PKS for a spiritual countdown where we had to make aspiration and everything. AngHwee rode me for a round on his bike and it's really fun without helmet and riding on the bike with the wind blowing onto me. Chufeng was testing his bike skill on Lawrence's one and he didn't have any license! We were so lucky that we had returned safely and before we go over to Clorine's place, the police came. -.-" New year luck had helped us. =X We didn't wear helmet and chufeng didn't have license, remember? My buddha!

After everything, went over to Clorine's house. We were squeezing together in that small little room talking about ghost. Ghost are everywhere but don't come disturb me unneccessary. =X So, afew stories were told that had happened in our past camp. I was exhausted around 6+ and they were still talking about ghost stuffs and I fell asleep. Been woken up and I went down to continue my sleep. =X After like I don't know what happened, I rolled down from Yinghui's leg onto the floor. Then, I woke up again and calling Yinghui to join me to sleep in the room. I don't know what happened after that until they played the hide and seek and I was like somehow being woken up. So, I joined them.

We played Hide and Seek on the first day of the year. Can you believe it? Played till around 1pm and I went home. Everything was nice that day. Thanks Shitty 4 for everything and the kassapa too. :)

*I should be doing my homework now right, but I'm so lazy lah =( *

4:03:00 PM

I WANT TO DO HOMEWORK! But, I don't feel like anymore. =( Someone help me please! I must finish every single homeworks by today can! It's the last day of my holiday. =( There's school tomorrow ! Someone help me please. =(

I haven't eaten for a day already and yet I'm still not hungry. What is happening to me ? Anyway, I've to clean up my nails and trim it. Then, I'll have to iron my clothes and everything for tomorrow. After that, I'll have to pack my bag for tomorrow. I don't even know what bag should I bring. -.-" Homeworks are still undone. My goodness, there's so many things to do. I hate school. =( But whatever it is, once I'm done with secondary school years. I'll be proceeding to the next chapter of my life. Sound exciting! JC or Poly? JC or Poly?

Yeah, I'm done with what I wanted this year.

No boyfriend
Graduate from Guide and concentrate on my academic
No more nonsense
No more copying of homeworks after the current one =X
No bad results
Have some time for my Piano
No more going out everyday
Keep away some time for SBM
Stay away from home as much as I can =X - Go Library to study or SBM
Revise at least all the topic been taught everyday when I return home
Study hard hard!

*Promise made*

10:53:00 AM

I was talking to ShiXiong about camp. It's fun to be in camp. I was complaining about being so tired as a GL. But, when you start to look back and find that your group had fun and stuffs. Everything is still worthwhile. At least, I felt something being worth for when I do something, I felt happier. All right, being a GL rocks big time when your group is cooperative. There will still be some exceptional who always go different way with u. At least, when you know they had fun it's alright. :)

Yeah yeah! GO GO CEP. I'm looking forward for the next one. No matter what, I'll try to go for the camp! I don't care O level ! I want go camp! XD ! *Looking forward*

12:14:00 AM

Monday, January 01, 2007

All right, been thinking loads of stuffs lately. I don't know how to describe the feeling. Somehow one way or another, I felt so different. It's the first time I'm feeling this way. It's like, you don't know what you can do when you were there. You don't know what to say when you faced them. You don't know the mixed feeling that you are facing. I'm still trying very hard to overcome it, tried to talk to them and stuffs but I just don't know where to start. If only things are much more simpler, I would have not bothered. All right, I've promised to change but like I'm feeling so damn weird. Ahh~ Whatever. I'll still try again. =( Afterall, I've been there for almost one and a half year. Things definitely will go up and down. =D At most, I get over for the down period XD ! I'm still looking on the bright side alright XD !

I'm supposed to do homework right but I'm so damn lazy. Just another day to school. My goodness! SOMEONE BURN THE SCHOOL LA!

*ROARS*

11:30:00 PM

http://www.flickr.com/photos/alwin/

My goodness. Alwin is really a professional. When can I be like him? =( His photoshop and photography skills are so talented can~ Arghh! Alwin, you better teach me some day. *ROARS*

Anyway, I've slept an 6 hours of sleep only. At least, I didn't waste a night sleeping. Yeah! But, what time will I slept tonight. -.-" Please, no more late nights. I'm too tired. I'm really very sleepy but I don't know why I was woken up by my dad. Thanks so much, I might have slept more lor. =X

I shall try all my ways to get to sleep. =D

10:26:00 PM

Oh ya, I want to add into my fears for stuffs.

I'm scare of blood! Please don't let me see any sights of blood !!
I'm scare of cockroaches too! SO Xiao Qiang, please get as far as possible!
I'm scare of bad results, everyone is scare of it too what~
I'm scare of ghosts after the encounters. Don't let me see any, I'll tear.

So, beside this 4 stuffs that I'm scare of,
天高地厚的东西，我都不怕！XD

3:38:00 PM

I WANT TO SLEEP but I'm so hyper now. Does it make sense? Yet, I'm really feeling this way right now. -.-" Please please, let me sleep all right. Do not torture me any further. =( I WANT TO SLEEP LAH!

*ROARS*

I want to blog a long long post about what happened yesterday but I felt like sleeping. Pardon me. :)

3:11:00 PM

Yeah!

HAPPY 2007 NEW YEAR!

May everyone be well and happy. May peace be forever lingering around us. Love each other like you never had the chance anymore. You never know what will happen to this year anyway. So, just treasure every minutes and seconds. Please, let no war occur.

New year Resolution!

O LEVEL GOOD GOOD!
12 points for O level !
Pass my English with at least a C5
Get an A1 for my chinese!
Treasure everyone no matter what
Everyone be well and happy
No war occurring at all
No natural disasters.

I'm tired. Time to sleep after a long night. So sorry that it is just a short post because I'm really very tired. And I haven't done my homeworks! SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME ! =(

May 2007 be a better year.
Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

2:25:00 PM

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