Sunday, December 31, 2006
I'm going to be 16 next year! Can't wait any longer. I don't want to sneak into NC16 show anymore! Whatever it is, I hope I'll still have time for my NC16 show even though I'm busy with O level. Time to buck up. Let us all enjoy 2007. No war, no natural disasters, no hatred and no nonsense. =D
Let's enjoy a new year!
ILOVEYOUS! XD
5:31:00 PM
I'm so damn proud of myself. At least, the photos that I had taken weren't that bad like the last time one where every pictures turned out blur. :) I rock! XD
*night*
2:39:00 AM
Let's just let my photos say it all. Moreover, pictures speak louder than words. XD !
Sweet sweet couple. :)
I'm the one who took this photo with the SLR camera. XD
My first brother and I. :) LOVES~
Alwin had another SLR camera and he kept taking others with it whenever I want to take their photo. Then the photo turned out to be..........
He's crap ! My hair was so messy can! I hate wind when I'm taking photos. =X I didn't even know that he was snap shotting me until I saw it when they upload it to the computer. *shocking*
Taken at Fort Canning park
Alwin's photography skill rock!
We were just playing with the camera. XD If someone really go down on knees, my face will definitely turned red. =X
Groom carrying the Bride. :)
I don't like this photo =(
I like this! XD
Alwin, you rock! :)
TIME FOR MY SLEEP. =D NIGHT! Qing Gong Yan tomorrow :)
1:09:00 AM
Saturday, December 30, 2006
My New Year Prayers
- Get a 12 points for my O level
- Working hard for the rest of the 9 months
- PEACE! :)
- World peace too !
All right, just these 4 stuffs will satisfied me. =D No more fooling around and copying homeworks. People, remind me not to copy all right! LOVES!
I was playing with the new blogger account and I really hate it. The layout doesn't look appealing to me, neither does the function rocks. I still love my current one. Luckily, I didn't change it to a new one. :)
Anyway, I re-painted my nails again. More gem stones added and it looked better than the previous one. I didn't know that silver suits me too. :) Silver rocks but pink rocks more.
I wanted to head over to chinatown to get all the stuffs but time doesn't allowed me to so I met up with Yinghui for buying her stuffs and my stuffs. I bought a pair of heels and I hope it doesn't make me fall. It's been such a long time ever since I wore heels. At least, I felt tall for that little while after wearing it XD !
My brother's ROM tomorrow. I hope Aaron reply my message so that I can confirm that it's my pay day tomorrow too! Please pray hard that my pay can cover up all the money that I had spent on afew days ago and I wished for more money to come in. I hope Aaron managed to fight for me for my basic pay.
It's a long day tomorrow. Firstly, I'll have to wake up and get prepare then I'll go over to Bugis to get my dearest boyboy's food. Sorry for forgetting about it. Luckily, you love cookies. I'm so damn sorry boyboy! Then after getting his food, then we will go over to ROM. After all the celebration and everything, I'll go and get my pay. Next, I'll return home to change and remove all the neccessary stuffs and stuff in all my homeworks into a bag. Off I go to SBM. =D I hope I won't burn out after that. :)
EVENTS PLUS, better give me my money. =D
1:58:00 AM
Friday, December 29, 2006
My damn brother is yelling again. This is so damn crap. That's why I'll never like to come home when my brother is back. This is so sickening. Please end everything right now. I'm not in the right mood to tolerate all these shits. Get me out of all these now please. =( Life is full of craps at this part of time. I kept trying to be happy but yeah, it's just a moment and I'll be back where I am. Little stuffs make me sad and I really want to let all my tears down so I will never tear anymore since it will be dry by then. Yet another part of me tells me that it is all so not worth it. Each time I shed tears, I'll start to ponder if it's all worthwhile anot. My life, my time, my everything. It has shown everything to me that, I should care about myself. It's not the first time nor the second time that so things happened. Sometimes, if only I care about my feeling more than others, I might be much more glad that nothing will happen to me. Afterall, who doesn't want to be happy.
Life is so short. I remembered that uncle's story. Even being a stranger to me, he shared his story and his everything. He advised me to just be happy in whatever I do. If you are going to a company and working for some shit stuffs, it defeat your purpose of earning their money since you're not happy at all. Every little things, you have to think carefully and chose the path correctly. Just one wrong step, you'll fall. Yet never dishearted because you can always stand up and try again. Life is all about falling and standing up again.
All right, my brother forced my tears out of me. I hope it ends. You suck, he sucks, she sucks, I suck, pratically everyone sucks. I really had enough. Someone, please tell me that everything that I've done is worth it because I really don't know what to do anymore. I cry and I cry, that's all I know. I'll never be a good person, never be a good girl, never be a good daughter, never be a good sister, never be a good friend and I'll never be good in anything.
PLEASE JUST LET EVERYTHING ENDS!
LIFE IS FULL OF SHITS!~ FREAK!
Please shut up and let me get back on track again. Suddenly, I'm just feeling so lost in everything. I want to live my life happily so stop giving me shits, suckers~ I want to stop crying. Don't pity me, I don't need any. I'm just tired, that's it.
我一无所有了，我已失去一切。
留下的眼泪不值得，可是眼泪就是不听话。
11:26:00 PM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
DeathNote 2 rocks. Though it isn't as rock as the first one. At least, the storyline is good. I still miss my death god "Ryuk" who loves apples. L is forever as cute as ever and he is forever eating snacks. Whatever it is, I still loves Ryuk and his apples. XD ! The ending was a sudden one. I didn't expect that ending where everyone dies. Oh yeah, I cried too. =X Whatever alright!
I'm still trying to get over it and I know I'm halfway there. It's just shit. I've been through so much shits and this will be gone eventually too. I'll still be the happy one. No one can defeat me because I've been through much more worst shits ever. I promise I'll be all right soon. Just alittle time more. Hate me all you like because I don't care. The more I don't be bothered, the happier I will be again. Somehow, I figured out that it's not very worth it for my tears to be dropping so easily. I've been keeping in mind that shit happens and I promised to get through it. Love me all you wants, hate me all you like. I am siahwanling. That's me. I'll bring smiles to those who deserve it and I'll make sure the people who I loves will be happy. Those who I had given up hopes, just forget about it. Sorry~ I just couldn't get my trust back nor my hope to be high again. It's difficult. I tried but I failed. So, I'll have to let it be.
My dear friends, I'm sorry to say that if you lost my trust once, it will be gone forever. I'm really sorry. I'm still trying to change that. I hope I'll be able to overcome the trust thing.
I'm HAPPY again!
Neh-ni-Neh-ni-Poo-Poo! xPpP
I love wanling.
wanling loves me!
wanling doesn't love anybody except me! XD
Okay, I'm crazy again.
All right, I LOVE MYSELF.
Wahahahaha~
AND AND I LOVE THOSE PEOPLE WHO LOVES ME TOO !
MOST OF ALL, I LOVE BUDDHA && DEVAS! =DDDD
Believe in the triple gems, you'll know what to do. =D
10:35:00 PM
I start to ponder alot then. Maybe I'm the one who had changed. I'm sorry if in any way I had offended to anyone. Uptill now, I still can't believe everything had happened. It's so sudden. One moment, I was happily that I've ended my work. Next moment, crap stuffs happened. It turned out to be such a shocking one and a sudden one. This is going to be so damn cool.
All right, my mentally is tired. I will let it be. Too disappointed to care. I'm not interested to bother anymore. Just let it be. Thanks for spending time to criticise me. You had done very well in making me damn sad. Congrats. I appreciate your efforts on me. From now on, I'll do what I'm supposed to do and I'll wash my hands off everything. In these years that I had lived, I've been disappointed in friends and right now, I'm disappointed in something that I'm close with and I'm proud of.
That's it. =DD
In the years to come, I'll never believe in anything. This is enough.
2:15:00 AM
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Please let the internet to get resume as fast as possible because I want to get log onto my MSN too. My dear friends, where are you? Why the natural disasters must come at this time. The tsunami came on the 26th Dec, right after the christmas and this time the earthquake came at 27th Dec. Please let everything ends. It's terrible. So many people are suffering and we can't do any much. Please please please let everyone be safe.
I went on a shopping spree today! I was thinking whether to buy that dress anot, in the end I was walking around and I found a much more cheaper one. It was $41 then $39.90 and then $35. So it's obvious that I would buy the $35 one. I had also found a way to keep that tube from dropping too! I hope it don't drop during the ROM or even the dinner if I chose to wear it. It had cost me a bomb today and I had spent around $100 including my books. =D Finally, I can put down my worries for the books. My goodness! I can't believe I had spent so much until I went to check up my balance. I hope my pay comes in quickly and better not cheat my money. I'll go crazy if I find out that you are letting me to be your free labour. Please let me be safe! Buddha, help me ! :)
-.-" I had forgotten to buy my shoes. A further deduct to my bank. This is such a nice occasion. My dear brother, can you please don't go on a ROM? =DD
I was thinking alot when I came back. I don't know where I really want to go. Maybe, I really need to list out the good things if I leave or stay. =D Where's my fulscape? XD I'm really glad that after this happened, afew of them had asked if I want to go. I really appreciate alot about it. But, I really don't know to leave is better anot. Then all the stuffs that I had been handling, I'm really afraid that no one will help out in those. Then, I really don't know how to let go all these feeling and attachment all the stuffs. I've decided to give a chance to those people who are worth the chance already but things just doesn't seems to go its way. If only, things had been much more simpler, I would had been still happily doing all the stuffs. Or if only I had been kept in the dark, I might be much more happy. Somehow, I'm alittle affected over it but I'll definitely get over it. It's just disappointment, it will come and it will go. Buddha, please enlighten me. I'm confused~ Hais~
Maybe it is better that if I could be more naive to believe that all these that had happened were just lies. I really wish that it's just lies. But I know, it's the truth. Truth hurts, reality bites. This is what we faced in this cruel reality. Terrible happening, unexpected ending. That's it. It's life~
I'll be strong again. Give me time~
8:30:00 PM
I've forgotten one thing!
I'm here to congrat Zhenfeng for passing his exams. Congratulations! Thanks for being my captain last time and thanks for everything. Oh ya! I must thank you alot to even tried to take some time out to teach me my physic even though you had your exams too. Thanks alot! Study hard the next exam! It's a good news for you! Just another few more years and you'll finish your studies. Yeah! Congratulations!
* Off the light *
2:42:00 AM
Anyway, back to rant about some random stuffs. I have not done any homeworks! Congratulations to me! Please call me a brave girl because I'm left with exactly a week to school reopening ceremony. There's still a whole chunk of list of homeworks awaiting for my arrivals and I have just intended to attend to them only tomorrow night. It's pathetic but I don't care. The rest of my holidays before the big occasions that are coming, I'll be spending on my homeworks. Time to stay at home. =(
There's girl guide tomorrow. I don't want to return to that school. I don't want to play with anything there anymore. It's eerie and I'll promise to be good when I'm in school from the last day of the camp onwards. It's a haunted school especially the old block. For goodness sake, please do not scare me when I'm there. I'm just left with afew months to leave this school, please let it be a safe one. Devas' poppi!
TIME FOR MY SLEEP. It's 2.30am. Maybe I should try to change my timing to sleep soon. I have been having late nights all these while ever since the holiday starts. I hope I don't do this during my school days because it's going to be so terrible to sleep late and wake up early especially it's O level next year and I can't afford to sleep in class anymore. =(
Can someone just burn the school down? So that I don't have to face the O level next year. Terrible~ Just let the school be gone in any way. Scary O level, it's going to be tough. =(
SHOPPING SPREE TOMORROW! I've so many things to buy. My dress for my brother's ROM, those heels and some dress for the Qing Gong Yan. I hope it doesn't cost me a bomb because I'm broke now. =( When am I going to get my pay my dear Event plus?
*Off the light*
2:11:00 AM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Don't bothered to read. It will strain your eyes. Just another boliao-ing post. :)
Disappointment filled me. I don't know how to put everything into words. Perhaps, all the things that I've thought as that wonderful wasn't really what it seems to be. All the efforts, time and even money that I had wasted for them, I won't use the word spent but wasted. Even though they are happily playing there and I'm supposed to rush home to pass up the things needed, I'm still alright with it. As long as they are happy, everything is going to be all right. I'll still make things go what it should be.
I didn't expect that it will become like this. My sixth sense were right. I felt that I would leave next year but yet I was told that to leave anot, is by my choice. Somehow at this part of time, I felt being force out. Thanks for everything. You make me look down on everything that I've thought so perfect even for this place where I called it a home. I didn't even expect it will be those. I was right that they wanted to leave because of that reason. If everything was true, I'll be the first one to leave, not them.
I don't even think you have the right to criticise me. You did not do your part either. If you had did your part, I'll definitely listen to anything said right now. Yet, I don't see a point in you saying me because you are just another person who I looked down on. If you are not happy with me, say it infront of me.
I guess I had wasted a year doing all the shit stuffs. I'm no longer having that attachment to this house anymore unless something goes right again. I'm always there to try to solve the stuffs but right now, I'm the one who involved. This is going to be the last tears that I'll drop for it. I've cried too much because I was too tired to do all those stuffs. Yet it's all right now because I'm not going to spend my time on them anymore. It's not worth at all. It isn't anymore.
You all had proven me wrong that all the stuffs that I've been doing is worth it. I was so damn wrong. Blame it on my naive and my dumbness. I'm so damn disappointed. Extremely disappointed. Thanks for everything.
All this while, it's just my illusion.
1:19:00 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
Zhaocai's dog is damn cute! I was sleeping with it and then my brother went to snatch it. Then, he tried to wake me up to ask me where I get it. I was still sleeping happily and he kept trying to stop me from sleeping until I tell him where I get it. In the end, I gave him a answer.
ME! : 不知道啦，不知道啦！朋友给的！给我睡觉啦！
*ROARS*
Then I snatched it back and continue hugging it. THE DOG IS SO CUTE LA! If only boyboy is so nice to hug like him, I would had hug boyboy to sleep but stupid boyboy always kick me to the end so that he can have the 3/4 bed by himself. -.-" So eventually, I didn't allow him to sleep with me. Neh-ni-neh-ni-poo-poo! =X Who asked him to keep snatching my bed when it's supposed to be mine!!!! =D
Countdown was alright last night. I was so bored that I kept repeating, "Let's go out walk walk!". In the end the second round that I went down to walk, I wanted to go 7-11. In the end, he brought me walked a big round when the 7-11 is just opposite the block. How dumb am I to walk a big round with him. At least, we found some treasure place. It's a place for senior citizens but they had a whole loads of fishes there. I really mean a whole load of it. I thought it was a fish shop but it turned out that it's just some resident gathering's area. BOOO~
Anyway, I forgotten to take the picture gift that I had bought to the exchange. I had sweets inside!!! Then, I get in return was a cream's pen! My goodness! It was still fun to see each other getting stupid stuffs. =X Like Forester getting mashed mallows for the exchange. *LOL-ed*
Sometimes, I just want people to be happy. If only, everyone are nice. I thought everyone there was nice but things changed. Thanks for everything! Shit happens. I'll always remember what ShiXiong had told me of the donkey's story. =D He even gave me a dharma book for my christmas present. The book really rocks alot. If I've time, I'll definitely share it. It had cleared alot of my doubt in the dharma. Thanks!!
I shall end my post here. =D
LOVES to all my friends~
5:51:00 PM
Sunday, December 24, 2006
I didn't really go back for work but I still had done my job. I just hate Vivocity. Whatever it is, I still have to go for the last day tomorrow =D. Maybe even if I had finished my number of days, I might be going back to do more so that the stupid Cherry doesn't get angry when I didn't managed to hand in the number that she wanted.
All right, it's 1.48am. I'm going to sleep soon. I haven't get any christmas presents yet. Oh my~ May the triple gems bless me. =D I'll blog a longer post once I had the time and I'm going back to where I should be - my studies! Homeworks are still left undone and this is making me feeling guilty. I'm supposed to finish all of it in a week?!?! BUDDHA BLESS ME !
I hate my dad! Please just let me stay overnight just for tomorrow. I'm not going to care, I just want to stay. I've spend so many years of sad christmas, please better let me have a better christmas this year since you had spoilt my 2006 so much that everything goes haywired. Thanks alot~ It's better to leave me alone than trying to create troubles. No more nonsense from you anymore.
I hate my brother too!~ It's better you don't come home, then everything will still stay in one piece. I just hate to come home when I know you had booked out. You know the feeling is so suck to know that you are coming home aimlessly. You can't do anything, you can't get the PC and you had to be a part-time maid for your brother. I mean, this feeling is really very sucks. Maybe, sometimes it's better to be out than to be in. =D Just afew more years and I'll get a life of my own and no more nonsense from anyone. =D
This is going to be a crap christmas =(. Hais~
1:33:00 AM
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Sometimes, you look beside you and you will start to ponder who should you place your trust on. It's hard. I guess, I won't give any of my trust to anyone anymore. Trust for people had been lost, don't ever find it back again. Everything will be kept within. You made it this way and I'll let it end this way.
Just 4 more days! I'm back to my studies~ O level is coming! I can't wait to leave this school. I want to graduate as early as possible. Please let everything pass smoothly. I'll work hard this year in order for me to graduate smoothly. :) Time to study hard once I finished up my current commitment. I've too many commitment on hand and I want everything to end as quickly as possible, especially my work. Then, I'll finish up my Piano Grade 8 and procceed up to Diploma and I'll be done with that commitment. I've come so far, just alittle more and everything will end. =D
I want to play with my nails. =D School is starting! I want to play as much as possible with the remaining days but I still have to do my homeworks. Serve me right for not doing it early. =(
4 more days of work!
2 more days to CHRISTMAS! =D
SANTAS CLAUS, WHERE ARE YOU? HAVE YOU GRANT MY WISHES?
12:49:00 AM
Friday, December 22, 2006
Anyway, I went out with Evelyn. We were supposed to study but in the end I accompanied her to buy her stuffs. It's time to get christmas present but I haven't get any for anyone. =X I'm supposed to get something for everyone but I just didn't have the time and the money. This company really sucks too much. It wasted my time and eaten up my money. I don't understand why Hans can work for such a long time. I really don't.
What should I get for everyone's present? Buddha, please help me to reach target earlier so that I can have time to shop for presents. =D
LOVES~
12:31:00 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Anyway, sometimes I guess I won't believe in having close friends because they might give you away when you thought they won't. Other time, they might push the blame to you. Maybe, I just don't know who should I trust. Do not come near me if you are trying to be funny. Go away~
Just 8 days more~ I'm getting more and more tired already. I don't know if I should work for the night shift for christmas eve anot. Maybe I should, maybe I shouldn't. I don't want to go down to christmas to squeeze and sprayed by those disgusting freaks. I like crowded places but not those places with those stupid people who sprays at your eyes and touched you. Luckily, I only managed to head down to orchard road when I'm Sec 1. At Sec 2, I went to make myself useful by staying back at my shop to work. =D So Sec 3, I hope I make myself useful too but I don't know if I should be working anot because I don't want to head down to crowded place to be sprayed in the eyes and getting angry over it. If I was to get that kind of treatment, I'll make sure the person get double the bubbles that he had sprayed into my eyes. =D
I hope this christmas will be a nice one.
All I want for christmas was to end everything and to have world peace. =D From now till 2012, please let everything passed smoothly. Christmas! Santas Claus! Where's my presents~ =D I hope the company gives me bonus but it just sucks so much that the company even eaten up my money. Disgusting freaks~ Go away~ =(
我不相信
1:55:00 AM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
So, as usual I did stupid stuffs again. I shan't elaborate it because I really find it stupid, especially the second one where I touched a unknown object in a shop which belongs to another customer. I know I'm dumb. At least, after getting those stuffs, I became the center of attention by everyone. =D Crap~ XD !
Just 13 more days and I'll be able to return back to my freedom. =( I felt so pathetic. My homeworks are there rotting, I haven't touch any. I'm gonna be real dead when school starts. Let's pray hard that something happened and school just cannot be able to start. =D YAY !~ * Pray hard hard* Let's just hope! If only something happened~ But, what if nothing happened, school is still starting, I'm still gonna be dead. OH MAN~ This is irritating. Never mind, is there any kind-hearted person out there who is free to help me do homeworks? =D If only there's such kind-hearted person. =( If only... If only... If only....~
I'm pathetic. School is pathetic. My job is pathetic. Then, everything will make a U-turn to I'm pathetic again. =( Oh my~ I want everything to ends right at this time. =( I don't want to have school. I don't want to wake up early.
*ROARS*
2:12:00 AM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
After that we went off to velocity, it doesn't look really that attractive to me and furthermore, not many people hangs out over there. Thus, I suggested to go to Cityhall. Then after work, I met up with my brother to go home together. :) Just 14 days more and I'll be free. Please return my freedom. =(
Anyway, I'm only getting my pay at 26th Dec. So, I'm sorry if I couldn't get you your christmas present. =( My cousin passed me my books already. I had totally forgotten about buying books. Time to get my books and my 10-years-series. Anyone wants to join me to study once school reopen? O level is starting early for my batch. *Stress*
Suddenly, I felt like going JC after hearing what Mabelynn says. Maybe I should work really hard and see how it goes. :)
P/S: LiPing, don't be sad. Your friends are still around you. It's just one failure, doesn't mean you'll fail in life. One failure means nothing, i'm sure the next time you'll succeed. :) Hope you had calm down. I'm just a call away. :)
I hope everyone will be happy. :)
12:21:00 AM
Monday, December 18, 2006
Anyway, just being random here. I saw Randall and Michelle. =D They are nice! Why are they nice? Because they are nice. =X Then after seeing Randall and Michelle, I saw SzeHui who asked whether I going for girlguide. First thing she saw me then she started asking me if I'm going for girlguide. -.-" I'll go if I can go but my stupid work forbid me from going~ What can I do? No one understands about it and they can only blame me for the little commitment that I had put in. Do they really knows how tough I'm working? *Sigh*
To all my friends who are getting N level result tomorrow. All the best! I'll pray hard for you all to get good grades and promote to Secondary 5. LOVES~ Jiayou!
I'm so so so going to improve on my English. I can't afford to fail it or what so ever. I'm starting to have the study mood right now but I don't have time to even touch on my homeworks. Can anyone help me? School is starting and I haven't done any homeworks. How pathetic can I get? Does anyone wants to spare me some time of theirs to add into my time so that I will have more than 24 hours a day? So many things to be done and yet I've so little time. Guess I have to really start working hard and then finished it as soon as possible so that I can start with my studies. My foundation is still not there yet, I really have to mug hard.
Then, I've decided to have my piano exams not in July but March 2008. I really can't afford to play with my O level. I need the results to do my business course and I'll make sure I'll study hard for it because I really don't want to suffer next time. As I had gone through the hardship of doing the surveys and I had met a loads of people, I know what type of life I really wants. I'm prolonging the type of life where we can lead happily and we don't have to think of any financial problems. The standard of living in Singapore is going to raise one day. I've seen people who are struggling hard for living and I've seen people who are having a carefree life. So it is time for me to ponder about all my goals. =D I hope it helps to motivate me to study and make sure every aspects of my life are balanced.
My dear santas claus,
I really wished that I could get my pay tomorrow but I guess it's impossible and you're still on a holiday. =X I must wait till the 25th then I'll get to see you. =( I want all the stuffs that I had wanted for. =( Buddha where are you? I'm sad~ I'm really sad~ I felt cheated. =( At least, I gained an experience in looking out for what type of jobs I really want. Damn you this company. =X
May Buddha bless me. :)
12:48:00 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Christmas is really coming~ Please let me finished my work before that comes. Just another 17 days. I will endure through it. :) People, pray hard for me alright! :)
I'm leading a no life~ BUDDHA BLESS~
12:21:00 PM
I met up with another guy and he's the one who start working at the same date with me, yet uptill today, I didn't know his name. So, we went to the 7-11. As usual, l just go up to the Mashed Potato's machine and press the button, then my potato will just come out from that small little tube that linked to my "bowl". But, this time round my mashed potato was watery. You're not going to expect me to eat that kind of potato. It's disgusting and I doubt anyone will eat it. So, I'm like just the two person who had left their potato there. Before I wanted to press that button, I saw two bowls of potato there. So I was cursing that they are inconsiderate to press the button and yet never had the intention to buy. Now, I know why. =X I end up having Maggie Mee while sitting on the staircases. I must have looked pathetic but I just feel like eating Maggie Mee. =X
Then after everything, I went back to SBM. We only managed to get 1 new camper. Whatever it is, we will still work on having a good bonding in our Moggallana with our existing members. Moggallana still rocks :)
I really want to sleep but Jez is coming to my house to play my PC. My buddha help me!
12:13:00 AM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
I shall cut short everything~ =X So I returned home to do the accessories stuffs and then I came online and stopped everything. MSN is addictive~ Whatever, since I will be touching it lesser next year. Oh ya~ I just remembered I did stupid stuffs when I browse through my cat's blog. I did not do it purposely! It just dropped there! =X
I did not return for work today. Just felt so reluntant to get back to such a job which includes me to cheat people. I'm so sorry people! I'm really sorry~ Anyway, I promised to go back to work tomorrow. :) I hope everything will be fine! Then I'll be heading to SBM after work. :)
Please give me business tomorrow! *Pray hard hard*
School is starting soon ! I haven't completed any of my homeworks! Please help me! =( Library, I'm coming to meet you soon again! Loves :) Perhaps, I might choose to go SBM to study more. My buddha! :)
Twinkle Twinkle little stars
How I wonder what you are
I still loves Twinkle twinkle little stars song even up till today XD !
It's time for me to look forward. :)
1:22:00 AM
Friday, December 15, 2006
But, I really feel like eating leh~
Where's my CHEESE AND POTATO!
1:18:00 AM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Anyway, I met up with Zhao Cai and pass the stuffs to him then went for a shopping spree with Evelyn. I just found out that I had loads of stuffs to buy! Maybe I will keep aside 100 bucks just for shopping. I guess 100 bucks is already enough to get 2 pair of heels, 2 pair of denim shorts and two tops. =D Please give me my pay quickly! I want to buy all of the stuffs that I had saw ! I don't care~ It's so tiring to wear the same top and bottom over and over again. I had turned my style to casual one already. I mean it's so boring~ I want to buy new stuffs!
I want to have more time! I want to play as much as I can but time's up. I'm back to work. I'm resuming my working routine again. At least there's something to be glad is that I'm getting my pay this monday! Whatever it is, I'm left with 18 days! Just 18 days more and I'll be free. :) Loves!
Oh ya! I have changed my blogskin! I hope everyone can see my blog finally! I'm sorry to Pris and Shanyuan for unabling to access to my blog. :) Anyway I'm still trying to do some improvement for it yet I'm alittle busy right now. So well, give me some time. Then, pictures will be up too! :)
I MISS MY PAST~
11:55:00 PM
Why didn't they think about the welfare of the people? Instead of trying to think of getting everyone together, they're trying to push everyone away from what we used to have interest in. Why can't everyone enjoy the time that we had only once in a year? Sometimes, do not just think about the rank and stuffs. Keep an lookout and you'll know you still need to care more about your people not just yourself. :)
Don't cry for attention. I won't even care. I know who is trying to cry for attention and who is not. So, don't ever try it on me. I don't care. I only care for people who had specific reasons to cry for, then I'll listen to you and try to help as much as I can. I don't bothered about childish stuffs and small stuffs. Especially those who cried for nothing and I make sure I'll get quite piss off. So, don't ever try me.
Those who had been blacklisted by me. Don't ever try to mess with me. I make sure you'll get some thing unexpectedly. I don't care if you try to accuse me or what so ever. I don't care. I'll start yelling at you and make sure you don't try to mess with me anymore. Don't ever try me too~
I'm tired! Shall have a rest now~
GOODNIGHT~
please let me graduate from everything soon!~
1:10:00 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
I forgotten all about that dress for my brother's ROM~ Who had any suggestion for nice dress for me ? I'm left with just 10+ days for his ROM~ Time flies~ =( Please let the time stop right now. I'm missing every bits and pieces~ Why do time fly so fast?
=D
12:55:00 AM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
To cut it short, I shall say this camp really let me learnt alot. It's one of the camps that I had learnt the most from it. Afterall, it's our 10th anniversary and the last camp for our mentors. I feel sad, seriously. When the time that they sang the "Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui", I was thinking of SBM. The past, the memories & everything. Yet, after the mentors left. Everything will be different. I guess, it's a major difference for me because I usually have the most conversation was the mentors. Now, everything will change. I'm back to square one.
As I looked at the bright side, I can see that they can at least have more time rather than committing all their time to SBM. Their effort had pulled them through 10 years. Exactly 10 years. I know that along the way, not all things are so smoothly. So, it's time to for them to have rest after so much efforts had put in.
Sometimes, I just don't like changes. I never like it. From the start till now, I never like any changes. Don't ask me why~ I still miss all the past~ The past are always the sweetest. The future is going to be toughest. Whatever it is, I shall make it as a better one. Some people are looking forward to the future and I guess I'm the only one who is still remisincing the past. *Sigh*
Whatever it is, these shall be part of my memories again. It just past~ Whatever had past, I had to just let it past~ I'm sure, I'll be back to remisinice about my past soon~
Alright, this time my group - Kammantha was nice. Most people cooperate with me and they'll try to help to have the team spirit. It feel goods to see your group to be going on fine and to see that they're having fun themself. Maybe all these tiring work and my muscle ache are all worthwhile. Afterall, everyone wants to be happy and we manage to let them be happy so obviously that we will feel happy ourself. :) Thanks my camper for helping me so much and the time when uu all left some food for me. Thanks alot and I'm glad to have all of you. :) LOVES~
Camp had past~ Time to be back for all my stuffs that are laying ahead. Work, studies are going to my priority right now. After 18 more days and I won't be entertaining for any work anymore. I'm tired~ I need a break. It's going to be an important year next year. Back to serious stuffs~ No more messing around like my current year where I screwed up my Secondary 3 work. The most angry one was the first term that I screwed up the exams because of Jashawn. -.-"
Alright, no more the next time. It's going to be a serious year. :) Please still count me on for outing. I'm still keen to keep in contact with my friends. I'm not going to lose any of them. :) It's time for a balance in my time management. Anyone wants to study together, count me on too! :)
Oh ya~ I rebonded my hair while JiaWen dyed her hair brown. I guess I still can't get use to her coloured hair. Something that is so coincidence that is Jiawen and her hairdresser was primary school friend. I mean how fated can the two of them be? In so many hairdresser, Jiawen's primary school mate was choosen. And they were the most close friend at that time. There was once when she helped me to wash my hair and then I was chatting with her. She said that she had started to work after leaving her Secondary School. So I was there thinking that she's the same age as Jiawen, maybe they might know each other one way or another. Then, my senses came true again that they are actually primary school friend. -.-" What a concidence!
I want to write more about the camp~ Well, give me some time before I continue my part II story. I'm so so so tired after the camp. Mentally and phycially drained~ Give me a rest first! :)
I'm so so so so in love with everyone :)
suddenly, I'm starting to miss you all over again~
11:19:00 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Some advice to people: Never tried to act as a ghost to scare people, you'll get your karma that "something" will come and scare you. It's an very important advice.
STAY TUNED FOR MY SPOOKY EXPERIENCE XD !
*ROARS* I want to blog but I'm so so so tired. Let me off! My whole body is aching and this is killing me so badly. Time for an sleep. Night night :)
LOVES~
10:34:00 PM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
It's Day 0 for my camp tomorrow and I'm supposed to help them, so I won't be able to go for work. Seriously, as the time come nearer and nearer, I'm starting to get reluntant to go for the camp. Firstly, GLs are supposed to sleep outside classroom to guard that campers. Secondly, there's no bed over there and I doesn't have any sleeping bag. Thirdly, it's always a bad thing being GL. Forthly, I don't like to have camp in school. Fifthly, we are not going to have enough time for our bathing time. :(
Aww~ But, what to do? Camp is coming in a day time! After being so stress over calling up the campers; ex-campers and getting prepared for the camp stuffs, IT'S OUR CAMP! Not yours, not mine but ours! This is the first time I felt so reluntant for our camp and I hoped it's the last time that I had ever felt. I hoped I don't get a cold when I'm sleeping outside trying to guard the campers when I, myself is already going to be sick soon. :( I hope I'll be well.
Sometimes, when circumstance; situations; people changed so much that, it actually scares you. You thought these are what you wanted for but in actual facts, it was not. It was used to be something that mean something to you but you lost the passion in it after getting into different kind of circumstances that it actually holds back your love for it. Circumstance changes something. Be it good or bad, it still changes. I'll hope that I'll be strong to hold onto all these kinds of shit. Since shit happens. :)
I was chatting with Randall when we were talking about his girl and him. They're going 1 year soon. Their relationship started on 23.12.05, which is the same date that I was together with Jashawn. So which means, if we're still together, we will be having our one year anniversary. But being a lucky girl, I'm no longer with him. It's a lucky thing!
Then then, I was thinking about the past relationship with Matthew. We patched when it's 03.06.04. Then, Ray and Jerene started their relationship on that same date too. Here they are, on their way to their 3rd year Anniversary and Matthew and I had already broke off. -.-"
Is it a curse or something that I cannot have the same date to be together with another couple, if not I'll get a breakup and they'll live happily ever after. LOLS !
Time for CAMP~ And here I am, haven't prepare anything for my camp. This is so cool! I doubt my bag allows the whole chunk of clothes in it. Oh my~
18 days more to FREEDOM! '
Santas Claus, I know what I want for first 10 wishes. :)
I want happiness
I want to be happy
I don't want to be emo
I want to end work soon
I want to get my big amount of pay
I hope money drop from sky
I hope I meet nice people when I'm working
I hope I gained much more experience than others while working
I want to learn to love people again (Let me forget the past)
I want happy christmas day :)
Please grant my first 10 wishes :)
12:43:00 AM
Monday, December 04, 2006
SBM is going down to MJR tomorrow, I don't know if I want to go anot. Maybe I should work first then head down there to join them. I don't know what should I do. =( Nevermind, I shall do my usual routine to go down to work then if they're still at MJR then I'll then head there. :)
Anyway, I'm so depressed these few days that I actually cried for nothing. -.-" And, I was so demoralise because there was a lady who shouted at me and I was so damn demoralised by her. Then, the promoter from the California's fitness came talking to me and help me to fill up. How nice can he be! He asked me to go for his friend's chalet on the 16th dec when I just knew him for one day. -.-" And obviously, I turned down his offer. =X From then on, I didn't talk to him anymore. =X
I'm working morning shift tomorrow. It's going to be tough again. Let's pray hard that I could reach my target before 2pm. :) CHEERS!
Please help me to pray hard. Good luck to myself! Just afew more days to my break time and I'm going to be happy happy all day long. LOVES ME !
CHRISTMAS IS COMING! Where's santas claus?!?! Please please please Santas Claus, grant me my dear wishes. My wish is - Please grant my 100 wishes. :)
For my 100 wishes, I shall keep it in my heart :) Because, I still don't know what I want for that 100 wishes first =X ! So, just give me time to think first alright! And and, I want presents my dear santas claus XD ! I don't care by hooks or by crooks, rain or shine. I still want a present in that red little sock XD ! Crap~
Alright, I'm bladdering rubbish. Ignore me please~
10:22:00 PM
Eyebags are out, dark eyecircles are over it. I'm ugly and I'm fat. =( Oh my~
Jiawen and I've make an appointment for the two of us to go for Rebonding! It's going to be fun to have someone to sit with you for 3 long hours while doing your hair. :) I'm happy~ LOVES :)
I want to have break soon! Nevermind, it's just 2 more days and I'm going on a long leave. :) Miss me !! =D
CHRISTMAS IS COMING!
12:22:00 AM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
2-talk to her
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss her slowly
are you remembering this?
6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends
keep reading
11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more,deny it. Fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you,deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved
16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-***HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST!!!***
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!
20-u need to show her you mean it too
21-kiss her on the lips
22-DON'T ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can still help makes her feel special.
26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you
are you still reading this u better be, its important.
31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose ;( it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset,comfort her remember this next time you are with her
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you love her.you'll never know when she needs just alil more love.
All these help to cheer your girl up. It's useful. =D
I want to be pampered too! But nahh, not this time since I don't have a boyfriend yet. =X I'm on my own! Single still rock ANYWAY~ =X I don't have to have a boyfriend to feel loved. At least I know I love myself. :) I want to be pamper lah~ Who wants to pamper me? Mummy, daddy! Please pamper me lah~ =( Kor kor ! You too ! Stop pampering your girlfriends ! I'm your sister, you should pamper me too ~ =(
If only my brother doesn't have girlfriend, I might still be the one who always get the pamper. =( BOOO~
11:02:00 PM
I don't want to let anything bother me anymore. If not, I'll cry. =( Seriously, I felt like crying.
*ROARS*
Nahh, I'm not going to be Emo, I want to be happy :(
2:23:00 PM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Anyway, did I mentioned that I went for the Grand Opening at Vivo? I was there for about an hour to do my night shift which I've gotten only 2 people. So I was about to leave and firework came sparkling in the dark sky. I sweared, it's the most beautiful firework. Seriously, it's not that Grand Opening. =X
As I was meeting Li Xin at Vivo, I met a nice guy. He gave me 2 dollar in exchange for my Survey. He said he didn't want to disclose the particulars and that he will give me 2 dollar for I've did some effort for this job. I learnt alot from him about business. You know being in this job really makes me learn a number of life skill. As I tends to meet up with alot of different people, I also learn how to handle different kinds of situation. Maybe being in this job wasn't the time for me to look forward for their money but their experience. Sometimes, it's not the money that matter but the experience. If you can spend a great amount of money to learn new things, I'm sure I'll go for it. Life's short, I don't want to waste my precious time over useless stuffs. Thank Uncle for your 2 bucks and your meaningful chat. I hope to meet u again if we've fate. :)
At times when you felt so disappointed in life, who can you rely on? I think I'm a failure in life. :( I was hoping that he was there to help them but he chose the others more than them. What had happened? Maybe I'm just not good at handling situation like this. I'll leave it to him. It's his choice. I'm too tired to help out.
Time for an rest. I guess I've been working too much till I've gone bonker. I'm resting for tomorrow. I'm just too tired. My legs had been suffering so much that I felt so bad for them. Perhaps I could look on the bright side that once I gotten the pay, I'm going to buy the fence for my little boyboy for him to play inside his kennel and train him to use the newspaper so that I could let him around the house. Boyboy, please be good boy alright! I'm not going to use the money except to pamper my little boyboy and my bubu and the hamsters. :)
LOVES ~
I love everyone who loves me :)
11:54:00 PM
After finishing my Morning shift, I went to SBM and being a clumsy me, I accidentally slam the chair onto my feet. I didn't help much and I'm feeling guilty now. I was really very tired and I'm thinking of quitting this job but I don't want to lose all my pay. Then, I went back for night shift at Vivo. It was their Grand Opening and I didn't manage to do well. I've got only 2 after walking around Vivo for 1 hour. I got really tired and I decided to stop work and go back to SBM. As I was about to leave Vivo, their firework started and I've got a great time there watching. It was so near!! Everyone was cheering and cheering after the firework ends. This was my second time that I came so so so close to the firework. Usually, I'll alway watch firework at a far distance but it was exceptional today. :)
I'm working tomorrow morning again~ I hope it's going to be a nice day where I could hit my target because I'm stationed at Expo. It's my first time there and I hope there will be more frequent visit after tomorrow. I guess I want to have a break on Sunday. It's too draining. From the holiday starts till now, I haven't had any break at all. =(
And and, I missed 2 job opportunity just because of this stupid job. There's one job which I'm very interested in was the selling baby's clothes. It will be at United Square!! I love that place so much because there's so many people I had made friend of when I'm working there last year. Seriously, I miss them. Time to give them a visit soon. I hope they're still working there. :) Another job was something related to research too, but I'll be the traffic counter again which seems so boring. :( I turned down the two of it just because of my current job. I couldn't quit right now! If I'm supposed to quit right now, I won't be able to get my pay. :( I really want to work at United Square lah~ :(
I'm feeling so sad right now. I'll die if I continue to work as a surveyor! I swear this is my first time and my last time being a surveyor! Just 21 days more and it will be the end of this job! Yet, I'm going to miss my colleagues so much. :( Hais~ I love working but I just don't like the time where I've to run around, trying to hit my target. :)
21 days more!~
I'm having break soon! It's my camp!! I'm going for an rebond after the camp :) I hope I don't regret after the rebonding. I shall not ask anyone about their opinion anymore. If not, I won't be able to rebond till next year. LOLS !
GOOD NIGHTS !
12:03:00 AM
