Thursday, November 30, 2006
Anyway, I love Raffles. So, I'll be there tomorrow morning. I don't know if I want to go SBM or to go for night shift which is at Vivo! I love Vivo! :) So, I'm like stucked in the middle of nowhere, trying to set my mind to think where should I go after the morning shift.
It is going to be tough tomorrow! Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!!! 22 more days to go!!
Sometimes, people will act as though nothing happened even though they know something had happened. It's done. It won't be forgotten. It will just stay deep inside one's heart and carve an deep impression for them. That's why, you can see a difference between how I treat you and others. :) Don't ever make me dislike you. =D
Love me, I'll love you more :)
Hate me, hate all you want. I don't care. XD !
I've been tan after working under the hot sun for this past few days. My hair is going to be dry up by that stupid hot sun. Please give me a windy day tomorrow. Let's hope for a fine fine weather tomorrow!!
Camp is coming and this shows that, school is starting. O level is coming. =( I'm so stress. Holiday homeworks are still undone. What should I do ? I want to play! I haven't had my shopping sprees!~ I haven't had my fun yet! =( Someone, please be nice and give me some of your time to have my fun :)
I LOVES EVERYONE WHO IS NICE :)
11:39:00 PM
Then, it was the night shift. I was alone walking around Tampines and I was feeling so lousy at that time. I had been so clumsy the whole day and then I forgotten there's an appointment to meet up with my jacket dealer. I went all the way from Doubty Gaught till Tampines and found out that I had that appointment at 6.30 pm at Cityhall. I was feeling so helpless that I called up my Enghua kor for help. Indeed, being a very nice brother all the while, he agreed to help me. I'm sorry my kor, I didn't meant to forget it. Thanks for helping me all the while!! Anyway, at least you get to know a cute girl right!
So I was feeling so helpless and lousy at Tampines, I walked all around the whole interchange and procceed to walk across the road to Tampines mall when someone called my name. I was turning around figuring out who was the one called me. It was Raymond Goh. It has been ages since I last saw him. Then, we had one hour of standing by the railing of the road chatting with him and his friends. JunQiang, a guy who added me in the friendster for my past account was his friend. I was so shocked that I always gotten to know that my friendster's friends are my friend's friend. What a small world we had.
We were chatting and chatting when one of Raymond's friend kept disturbing me and telling me that one of his friend wanted my number. You know it's nonsense, so I just told him to cut it off. He had disturbed me for so many times that I eventually told him that "It's crap." XD ! I don't tolerate nonsense. :) After standing around the railing for about a hour, we went shopping! Guess what? I was still working at that time and I was shopping at the same time. Anyway, I didn't manage to get paid for night shift because I didn't hit 20 and I didn't want to earn just their commission. So, I shall push forward the 6 which I had gotten for the night shift till tomorrow morning shift. At least, I wasn't that bad because I managed to get 4 in an hour after Raymond and his friend left.
I must say that Raymond is really a nice guy, he kept telling his friend off when they kept disturbing me. Like, something that wasn't really for me to listen and when I don't understand, he'll only tell me the stuffs that I can know while he will censor those that is supposed to censor. His friend, Junyang sent me 3 funny soundclips and I bet it will make you laugh. I was wondering if it's their prank or did they get it from other people but it sounds like his voice. I must say this is the most funny ever soundclip I had listened but I shan't reveal further.
Anyway, I managed to get hold of Raymond to come for the camp but he's not sure if he could turn up because JunQiang's birthday was on the 2nd day of the camp. I hope he turned up for the camp. :) It was a pity that he changed group because when he was under Moggallana, I was always the one telling him that there's sharing session and then he'll definitely turn up and help us with the attendant but now he didn't even know if there's a sharing so he didn't come for such a long period. I just can hope that he'll come camp and that's more than what all of us can ask for. :) At least, he still love buddha. XD !
Oh ya, I met my target today in the morning shift! Then, I managed to do another 6 more for night shift. I was so demoralised when I reached 17 during the morning shift because of a guy. He shouted at me " STOP IT! ". I didn't do anything, I just asked him to help me to do some survey. It's just a simple survey. Must you come shouting at me? Sometimes, I hate Singaporean because they're so heartless. I'm just doing my job. I didn't ask for your life or what. Why must people be so protective till like this. I was so sad till the person who is working at the credit cards booth have to cheer me up. Then, I was kept getting reject after that guy so I went even more demoralised that Hendrick have to cheer me up too. Hais~ It was a bad bad day today!!
Whatever it is, I still love my job! Because, there's nice nice people working with me! I'm left with 23 days before I end my job :)
LOVES :)
1:30:00 AM
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
1:21:00 AM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Seriously, I'm sad. I don't know why, I just felt so sad that because of a stranger, a friendship was strained. Just that fragile and simple. No more complicated stuffs but this is enough to hurt me deep. I hope there won't be anymore stupid mistake for me anymore. So please people, I'm stating here first, if ever I offended you unintentionally, I'm sorry. A very very sincerely sorry alright.
I met my target again today. Just 24 more days and I'll be free from this job. Please let this time to come faster. I'll be working for both shift tomorrow because I'll be off from 6th - 11th. Anyone is free from 7th - 10th? There's camp coming up ahead. =D Join us all right!! If you're free to come, please ask me for consent form. :)
I'm getting my pre-order jacket tomorrow!! I can't wait! So, I've to stop work for awhile to collect it before continuing again. Anyway, Leon is nice and he is extremely nice !! Working is fun when fun people are around :) And, I found my long lost childhood friend again and that's PeiWen! Amanda!! You still remember her? She's our long lost childhood friend whom we had been playing together till the day when she moved back to her house! Woohoo! It feels good to find back your long lost friends. And and! I just got to know from Mabelynn that XiuMei and JiaQi are in the same team and job with me. That's like so coincidence. I hope everything goes well for everyone of us. It's a long day tomorrow. It's 1am now and I'm still here blogging. Time to end here.
Time to sleep :)
I want to hit target for both of my shifts!!
10:49:00 PM
Monday, November 27, 2006
I haven't went for that rebonding. Mabelynn and Pris told me that I shouldn't rebond. So now, what should I do? Oh my~ Can anyone give me some comments? I'm so indecisive again.
I'm turning in early today. I had been overslept these few days. I hope everything ends soon. Hao is joining me in this job. I hope everything goes smoothly for him. =D Anyway I made Pris angry today. Sorry~ I was too tired too and I wanted to go home early too. Sorry~
Sometime, slow down your steps. Just do something good and you might be able to help someone through it. It doesn't want your life nor anything from you. Just that little while, if ever you can give it. Stop by and lend a hand, you might change somebody's life. I learnt to be more patient in everything I do and lend a hand to someone when they need. It's just little while, that little money. It just make a difference. At least, it's a difference.
I'm getting sick =( Buddha bless me~
7:12:00 PM
10:45:00 AM
Things can be must more better if I allowed people into my life. :) I'll try. Sometimes, I'll wish everything weren't change. If only I know how to do it, I weren't let anything to go haywire. For now, I'm leaving whatever I had behind. I know things will be different but I'm just too tired to hold onto whatever I had anymore. I hope it changed to a better one not an otherwise.
Buddha bless me :)
10:16:00 AM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
*ROARS*
10:22:00 PM
LOVES LOVES LOVES! I met my target today again! I've already reached my targets for all 4 days =D I'm so so so tired~ Han said that I'll be getting my pay next sunday. Cool! LOVES =D
MONEY MONEY MONEY!!
$.$ !!
7:00:00 PM
So, I've decided to continue :) Thank guys who had helped me in my decision XD !
12:42:00 AM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Sometimes, that's all you want but you just couldn't get it. I hope I was on the right choice, I hope I'm walking on the right track and I hope I will not regret over my choice.
There's work tomorrow. I'm working in the morning shift. Then, I've already reached my targets for these 3 days. It's so tiring today be cause I've to get at least 20 quality surveys which is like so damn difficult. I hope tomorrow will be a better day :) Security was very tight today and many people gotten caught from another group and 2 was caught in my group. Yinghui and I are the surviving one. :) CHEERS!
Pris and Yinghui is working with me tomorrow. They're working two shift and I'm only working for one shift because my brother is celebrating his birthday tomorrow and being a nice little sister of his, I should join him too :)
I hope everythings turn out well. :)
11:36:00 PM
BYEBYE!~ I'm tired :) LOVES! I'm going to rebond my hair on monday! YIPEEEEE~
12:27:00 AM
Friday, November 24, 2006
My mum is nagging again. It's causing me to feel so lousy again. Their criticism really hurts alot but yet I can't do anything. My brother had been criticising the most and then my mum will start to criticise too. Sometimes, I really hope to leave this home. I hate to see everyone. I hate everything. I felt as though everywhere is crap. Indeed, everywhere is crap. I'm tired in everything. Leave me alone.
12:18:00 AM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
*ROARS*
Life's crap. Yet, life rocks more. Yay~ I'm all right now XD ! It's just my moodswing. I won't be bothered about anything anymore.
*ROARS ROARS ROARS-ing*
I WANT TO ROAR ALL DAY LONG LAH~
11:30:00 PM
:) This entry makes no sense so don't bother to read it :)
11:06:00 PM
My supervisor rocks great time and I'm so lucky to get him as my supervisor. I'm so so so going to treasure this job because the supervisor is such a nice guy. You know sometime if your boss or whoever is nice, you'll be happy in working but if you know that you boss sucks great time, you'll lose the interest in working. So here I am being happy that my supervisor rocks.
Don't bothered to read lah :)
Sometime, I needed someone to give me advice on those tough time but I find no one.
Sometime, I just wanted some simple life but I couldn't get one.
Sometime, I wanted things to go right but it always turn out wrong.
Sometime, I wanted someone to be there but none was there.
Sometime, I wished I was not trying too hard on things that it starts to pressurize myself.
Sometime, I just want to safeguard my heart that I start to hurt so many people.
If only I knew how to cope with all these kinds of emotions, things will be better.
If only I starts loving again, I won't hurt people.
If only I can make things go right.
If only... If only...
If only I could make every dreams, every wishes come true.
Time to let go. Goodbye :)
10:42:00 PM
Let Priscilla, YingHui and me to have successful reach our targets today. LOVES :)
2:44:00 PM
Is there somebody nice, please bring me out to play. :) I'm so so so rotting right now. Nobody is free online and so being online is the same as being offline. At least, I'm glad that I'll be meeting YingHui later on. Perhaps for work or for my rebonding. I don't know~ I really need a job to earn back the money that I took out for the rebonding. =( It's all because of my brother having a girlfriend. The last time that I rebonded was because that my brother had given it to me as a birthday present. Yet, I doubt there will be another time because he had to spend money on his girlfriend.
I was kind of affected when Wencai told me about my relationship line. I hope it doesn't come true. I'm going to proof it that it won't come true. At least my marriage line wasn't that bad. Seriously, if my future-to-be hubby doesn't treat me well, I'm sure to whack him upside down. =X I hope these weren't change and I hope my future will be a better one. It's my fate, I'll take hold of it. I'm not going to let anything to spoil any bits of me.
I was thinking a number of stuffs yesterday on my way back. I'm bidding goodbye to my past. Let no more past haunts me. I'm going to be the happy wanling again. =D Yeah yeah, no more tears. :) I want to be strong strong XD ! All right crap~ I'm going to prepare for my either work or rebonding session. :)
LOVES LOVES LOVES :) I WANT TO BE HAPPY =D EVEYONE GIVES ME HAPPINESS ALRIGHT :)
1:59:00 PM
The pain is killing me so much. I've so much to blog but I don't feel like anymore. I'm just in so much pain. Buddha, please help me. It's murderous.
I hope I'll die to be free from these PAINS. =(
12:09:00 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Sometimes, it's just seems so hard to help others. I can help and I'm willing to help but please do not make it as if I'm at fault. :( Why everything just seems so difficult to handle even in such a small role. I really hope someone can get me out of everything. It's tiring. I don't say doesn't mean I'm feeling nothing over it. This group is giving me such time that I'm trying too hard over things.
I wanted to help them too. Brothers are meant to be brothers but why doesn't it seems to be anymore. Why is there internal conflicts between them. Sometimes, I really hope I could do something. I really hope that they will listen to my advice because afterall they're brothers. Why must hurt each others over such small matters. I lost afew sisters and I know the feeling of losing one. So, I tends to treasure more when I have it. I hope they keep in mind that, they're still brothers and they should help one another and not hurt one another. =D
12:39:00 AM
The ulcer on my gum is numbing my whole mouth. I hope it stops right now. =( Why am I having so many problems during my holidays. =( I hope I don't get sick too often next year since it's an important year.
I'm sure I'll have difficulty to sleep tonight. =( Buddha & Devas poppi!~ :)
I'm so sick lah~
12:05:00 AM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
I really have no face to tell everyone that you're my junior. The next time when people starts to ask, I'll definitely say that I don't know her even if she's my junior. Desperate girls make me puke~ If you don't love anyone then don't ever hurt anyone. Disgusted~ So, I'll be here to annouce to the whole wide world that I'm so outdated because I doesn't have a boyfriend. Oh my~ She is just so childish. Grow up~!
Oh ya~ She had even grabbed other's photo to put it as her own. OH MY~ -.-"
*DISGUSTED*
5:41:00 PM
Oh my~ Fever is coming back again. I hope I'll be alright soon~
Suddenly I just felt things are so pathetic and I'm so pathetic. Oh well, I guess it's just my moodswing. I hope I wasn't that pathetic afterall. Sometimes when you start to ponder, you'll come across a series of stuffs that had happened and you'll start wonder why did everything had to be this way. I really felt life is so pathetic with those events happening. You know those ups and downs in life? Suddenly, you felt happy for one moments and the next, you're to faced some crap stuffs. Happy moment doesn't stay long so I chose not to be bother and just be as happy as I like but sometimes, I just doesn't seem to be what I supposed to be.
4:18:00 PM
Monday, November 20, 2006
I was thinking about my future that day. My brothers told me that being some IT girls are useless and that I'm capable of interacting with people and stuffs so the more I should go for Business course. Maybe I will take up their advice because it's really pointless if I go for some computer course and being stuck there for the rest of my life. It's time for me to set a target already. Somehow, I can forsee my future already. XD ! I'm going to be a successful girl because I don't want to rely on guys XD ! My father had continuously brainwashing me that I should not rely on guys because once they leave you, that's it. And, I'm not going to be like my aunt who has to take care of her husband while his husband stayed home and gamble with his friends and she had to go out to work. I'm not going to be like her ! Oh my life is so bitter, I hope my end products will be sweet. =D
I'm so sick~ BYE~ I hope my sore throat goes awa by tomorrow =D
11:08:00 PM
*Run to my bed to rest*
2:23:00 PM
心 理 年 龄 鉴 定
鉴定结果您的心理年龄:22岁
与您实际年龄差7岁
幼稚度:60％
成熟度:57％
老化度:8％
I was doing a some kind of survey that was given by LiangJian and it's was something about it and then I'm actually in a mind of 22 years old. Oh my~ =X 7 years older than what I am right now. =( At least there's something to be happy about is that I won't grow so old yet because my ageing percentage is only 8%. XD !
I'm sick right now. Currently having a bad sore throat and a bad ulcer over my gum. =( Why am I kept getting sick and sick and sick. =( Buddha protects me okay! :)
Currently 2 persons had answered 4 out of the 5 false one correctly. =D CHEERS! Anyone wants to try XD ! Let's see who knows me well :) LOVES~
I'm sick~ *lying on bed* :(
2:05:00 PM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
After that I accompanied Yinghui for interview and off we went home :) I had to come home early because it's my korkor's birthday tomorrow and we ought to celebrate with him :) So we went for Steamboat! :) I loves Tomyam.
My brother is having his ROM on the 30th of December. So, I've to really get myself a dress because he's my dearest brother and how could I any-O-how wear when it's his ROM?! Yet, I can't find any that I liked -.-". Why must he has his ROM so quickly. =(
Eeeek =( I think the centre one is nice but my mum said it's too big for me because I've to admit it will drop alittle. =( Whatever~ I'm going to find much more nicer one =(
I'm going on a diet plannnn! I'm fat I'm fat and I'm so so so fat. I shall eat fruits and fruits and fruits XD ! Just kidding. =X I will cut down on my eating and stuffs :(
我要减肥！
1. Think of 15 of interesting stuff about yourself. And they got to be true.
2. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
3. Jumble them up all together and list them in any order.
4. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the 5 false ones are!
1. I loves my boyboy
2. I loves cheese
3. I loves chilly stuffs
4. I loves to be at home
5. I loves to be happy
6. I loves reading
7. I loves metal songs
8. I loves chinese songs
9. I loves to make people happy
10. I hate to be controlled
11. I hate to forgive people
12. I dislike Jashawn
13. I loves 5566
14. I loves takopuchi
15. I hate my life
PEOPLE GUESS! =D IF you guess correctly for one time, I'll give u a sweet okay :) LOVES !~ :)
11:43:00 PM
I forgotten to bring back the contacts to call, now I'm making myself troubled to go all the way down to SBM to get the contacts again. Why must SBM be so far away! Please Devas, let me teleport over there :)
I'm going to have piano soon :( I'm gotten be dead soon. I hasn't been practicing for a very long time. Please please, devas help me please. I need some help from you! Today is going to be a long day! Anyway, who wants to go out! I'm left with 3 pathetic days to go out with you guys. After that, I can only go out with you for the afternoon and I'll start my work at 5pm - 9pm. I'm starting work on Thursday :) So, I can still go out ! But, I'm going to change the time from 11am to 3pm already because after that I can go out play till as late as I wants. Anyway, if you have credit cards, please tell me :)
I'm off for piano lesson =(
10:27:00 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
I woke up early but I was still late for the training. After the shooting game and the lunch, I went off to meet PRISCILLA !! I haven't been meeting her for ages!! So, we met up with Madeline along and then off we went to have interview. I want to say that this time the interview had totally changed my perspective over interview. Usually, the interviewer are always nice people and when you have your interview, you doesn't feel stress or what so ever feeling but this time round, I'm sweared that I'm damn stress up and I really want to tear that particular paper up and walked away. Tell me which promoter will look so stern? So, if you will like to interview people for your promoter or whatever, you must be fun-loving kind. It was stated there that they needed someone who is fun-loving, outgoing and has good communication with others. I mean it's crap, who will start introduce themselves saying that "Hi, I'm wanling and I'm a very fun-loving, out going person and I has a good communication with everyone. So, I'm sure you must employ me because those criteria are needed and I had met your criteria! " Isn't it crap! I mean it just sound so fake. So, I just give some lame stuffs that I've experience in promoting stuffs. :) Wahahaha~ I think I said the most shortest sentence and gotten employed with Priscilla. Both of us talked the least and we've gotten the job. XD !
Anyway, I went back and some stuffs happened. My head was very very pain at that time and my head is so heavy that I felt like chopping it down so I don't have to feel any weightness above my body. It's all because of that coffe latte. I guess I won't be able to take latte's drink. =D No more latte in the future, I don't want kill myself with that terrible headache.
Blahblahblahblahblah. It's the end of the day! And, I've learn alot today! I even scored a full point for dodging the ball! XD ! NO ONE is to bully me anymore because I can dodge from waterbombs. :) This camp is going to be so so so fun, let's hope. SBM Youth is not going to crumble and fall, this I'll like to stress about. We're definitely not going to let our youth group to fall. =D LOVES :) No matter how crisis the time is, our youth group will still be there. 2007, here we come! :) This is not going to be our last camp and we're definitely going to be sure of it. Moggallana, we must stay unite alright :)
LOVES LOVES LOVES AND LOVES :)
11:26:00 PM
Friday, November 17, 2006
If you have been thinking that I have always be in a good relation with guys and you hate me for it. Then that's it. I don't have to explain. If only you knows about me more, you'll understand. Ever since I'm young, I'm with my brothers. We played, we talked through the nights and we do everything together. My guy cousins had always been visiting us because we always have the same topic to talk about. There's only one sister cousin who had been close with me ever since we're all so young and that's my dearest cousin, cherie.
Girls are troublesome creature, this I had to admit. When you do somethings that they don't like, they'll get jealous and backstab about you unless for other reasons. Just a litte movement that they don't like, you'll be the most juicest gossip that they had. To avoid from those backstabbing issues, I chose to have minimum number of girlfriends whom I know that they weren't bitch about me. If you knows me well, you'll know what kind of person I am. If not, then don't even know me or shun me. I don't care.
Sometimes, you'll never know that your boyfriend will be snatched away by your girlfriends, those girlfriends that you trust so much. So, I chose to have more guy friends because they definitely won't bitch about me neither backstab about me or anything. They aren't that childish, are they? I don't mind to have loads of girlfriends who are nice but sometimes finding those nice girlfriends are hard. I love my current life and I want to stay it that way. I wouldn't be able to stand it if I lose another girlfriend for some crap stuffs. It's childish and I don't intend to involve with childish stuffs.
If you don't like me then get as far as you like, I don't care and neither do I bothered. I've gotten enough. If you treat me well, I'll definitely treat you better. It's a give and take issue.
I had proven myself stupid and dumb yesterday. I'm already certify by LiangJian that I'm dumb. -.-" People, please do not believe in my direction. Don't ever ask me for directions :)
Love me for who I am :)
2:41:00 PM
Thursday, November 16, 2006
I have to wake up very early tomorrow to do my guides' stuffs first before heading to school to meet up with the SBM's people because we're doing the games location tomorrow. Camp is coming! I can't wait! Yet, when the camp comes, it will end very soon. Then, we will have our school again and O level is here. Oh my! Time flies so fast!~ Buddha, please let it stop. If ever I could have more than 24 hours, I will have spend more time on my sleeping. It's been a very very very long time ever since I had a good night sleep. Eyebags are out, my buddha! I need cucumber soon~ XD !
Oh ya! I've to complain right now to my blog! The guys bullied me during the games' discussion! That stupid Wencai played with the marker and kept wanting to use them to draw on my face. I'm in phobia of markers XD ! Next, that stupid Fuzhong pushed me to a corner and you knows all those pin that were poke right through to the noticeboard had indirectly poke me. I sweared it's uber pain and I cried. -.-" It's pain I told you. And and, that stupid Junhao kept doing that stupid action to scare me.
Despite all these, I found myself proven stupid too. I actually ran and knocked onto the glass door in the kitchen. -.-" How stupid can one get, you tell me? *ROARS*
I'm sure that I'm too tired which caused me to be so dumb, stupid and so-not-like-me.
Furthermore, I had become crazy :)
Sometimes, I really hope someone understands me.
12:40:00 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
There's still guides' stuffs and SBM stuffs to do. :) I hope everything ends soon. Yet in the same time, I wish all these works keep me occupied so I don't have to think of anything and start to be emo. :) I'll have to finish my guide stuffs by tomorrow and SBM stuffs will never end because there's still planning for an outing for my Mogga people. Oh my oh my~ I really hope Victor Teo do something about it. He just doesn't seems to care afterall. Never mind~
Oh yeah, my Pre-order jacket is here. Nothing special about that jacket, I just like it plain so I bought it since it's cheap :) I'm still waiting for my drop-shoulder top to be shipped here. They're still restocking on their stock. Please please, let it shipped to me as soon as possible. I can't wait! Anyway, I haven't get that jacket because the person who helped us to order, haven't sort out yet.
I'm off to SBM now~ I hope I helped alittle by going there but it seems that my brain juice are dry now, I can't even think for the stuffs for my guide. Devas, please help me please. LOVES :)
Life just seems so meaningless suddenly. Please give me a meaning to continue my life :)
6:03:00 PM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Anyway, I went for another job interview today. I still prefer the first job's interview because I felt much more relax when I'm in that interview. So, this job is about selling kids' clothes. I just loves kids so much and I told YingHui to give birth now and I'll help her to take care of them XD !
I'm throwing my stuffs aside for today and I promised to come home to do all of it tomorrow and hand it all in by thursday. So, I'm not free on wednesday so no one is to find me out tomorrow. I might be hopping over to SBM for that meeting again.
I has not been myself these few days. I don't feel like doing anything or jumping from places to places. =( Moodswing is so bad :((
I'm tired! It's time to catch up my sleep. :( Please someone treat me nice and give me 30 hours a day :) Oh ya! I went Vivocity today. It's a crap place. The place looks extremely huge but it's not that the shop is huge but it's pathway makes everything huge. :( And and, I saw a teddy bear's christmas tree over at the harbourfront centre. I want to get that bear! Anyone who is nice to get me one? XD ! I'm just crapping XD ! ALL RIGHT, I want to catch my sleep right now.
NIGHT PEOPLE :)) !
11:51:00 PM
Monday, November 13, 2006
I'm not going to go out with my Dad anymore. It's a promise between myself. He had actually wasted 4 hours of my precious time on nothing at all. We went out to have dinner and thus I thought we'll only go out for awhile but no, we went out for stupid 4 hours. No! Not that we've our dinner in our own sweet time, it's because he brought me to Hougang when I didn't want to go there initially. I kept ranting and ranting when we're on the way there because I had hell loads of things to do back at home. The SBM's stuffs, the girl guide's stuffs and my homeworks are there waiting for me to come back home quick. Yet, my stupid father brought me all the way to hougang. The most angry part is that he told me to go there to see house. BUT, NO! We went there to sit around at the coffeeshop and do absolutely NOTHING for 2 hours! Can you imagine the piles of stuffs that I've to do and yet I'm wasting my time away by sitting at the coffeeshop and not doing anything at all. So, I was cursing and swearing all the time. I guess the residental might had thought that I had just came out from the chalet near there. =D
The next thing is that he told me that we're going to look at houses right. Yet, NO NO NO NO NO AND NO AGAIN!~ We went there to look at papers. All the stuffs that my brother had to sign on and the cheques that have to issue to that person. So conclusion, I had wasted 4 hours there by doing nothing and looking at nothing. -.-" How pathetic can it be! I felt I was the most pathetic creature in this world just because of that 4 hours wasted, I've to burn midnight oil and I've to rush for the stuffs for the calls tomorrow and there's guide meeting tomorrow. *Roars* So many things to do yet can anyone understands my situations? I doubt so.
I felt like a loser just now because I actually cried for it. I don't want to go hougang and that's it. Yet, my damn father brought me there. He didn't even think about the situation I'm in right now. He didn't even care. So when others didn't bother to care, so why should I even bother to care. Sometimes, if people respect me more, i'll respect them even more. It takes two hands to clap right? Alot of the situation does not only involve one person, it involve a loads of people where one thing link to another.
So, I'm so going to promise myself that I won't ever bother to go out with my dad anymore because it's too tiring. I'm too drained out over it. This year had been draining enough because of him. I'm not going to drain myself any further. Just let everything stays this way, no more changes anymore. Maybe I should look at the brighter side, I felt the breeze touching on my skin. New year is coming! Each time when the chinese new year is coming, I'll definitely felt the breeze that smell and touch so differently. =D It's a new year soon and I'm going to let it be a bright bright year. =D
Relationship had suddenly crossed my mind yesterday. No, not that I'm desperate to get a boyfriend and get settle down now. It's just that someone hit upon me that I've been making people waiting for such a long time. I really didn't ask them to wait long and I rejected all their offer. I'm always in a dilema when it comes to relationship. I'm too naive over stuffs and that I knows myself very clearly. Guys alway treat girls as if they are their precious when he was trying to get her but when he had gotten her, she is going to be worthless. So nah, I'm not going to fall for any such kinds of tricks anymore. One time is enough and I shall put a fullstop over it. Junhao and I was talking about relationship stuffs and both of us had come to a conclusion that relationship is never true enough.
Before you two get together, he cares so much and tell you how much that he loves you but when you allowed him to love you, he was gone. No more the usual love and care that actually comes from the heart. Let's put it this way, I shall use Jashawn =X. Jashawn had been real good towards me when I was sick during that camp and after camp. I mean it's good to feel good to have someone care for you so much and the care he gives were just right, not too much but just right. All right, so we get together and the next time when I was sick again, he didn't bother to care nor concern, he even went out to have a chalet and he even want me to go and join him when he knew that I was so sick. I was there suffering and he was there enjoying. Cool~ So, true colours will come out when both get together. I'm not pin-pointing that all the guys are like that, some are really very good. Oh well, some girls are crap too. So, we just have to see our luck if we could get the good one. And, I know my luck are very down ever since the first one then the second one.
The first one dump me because he was so in love with his diablo. It's just a game mind you. If he likes another girl or what so ever, I weren't be that sad because at least I know where I'm not up to standard to another girl. Yet, he was in love with a game. -.-" And, I used to play that game but I uninstall it after that breakup because it reminds me of how pathetic I am. -.-" Whatever~
All right, I shall drop this topic about relationship because I was so so a loser in relationship :(( Guys, stop playing with me. *ROARS* XD !
I'm in good mood again! LOLS! It must be the damn moodswing. :(
*ROARS ROARS*
11:51:00 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
I've nothing to blog and blog =X Pathetic life~ Anyway there's school tomorrow and I'm feeling so so so relunctant to wake up early and drag myself to school. Devas, please teach me how do I teleport from places to places so that I can sleep longer! I just don't feel like going to school. Can I skip school tomorrow? Of course not, I'll bound to be dead if I do that, or perhaps I should skip school on the last day. =D
Oh ya, I'm going for a rebond maybe this week. I hope it turns out to be good. =D Anyone has any recommedation for the salon? Booo~ I'm so bored now =( Whatever, I'm ending my post now. =(
My brother had bought that flat already. It's at hougang block 307. Anyone has any ideas where is it? =( Hougang is so far =( Stupid brother to buy such a far house. He should have buy flats that are near the city or perhaps condominium at orchard :) He should have buy those! BOOO!!
LOVES :)
6:56:00 PM
Anyway, I've started doing my blogskins already. I'm sucha cherries lover that my whole blog is filled with cherries and I find it alittle too much. =X And, the whole blog is so pink and red. I'm still trying to improve on it alright ! It's kind of scary if I was to have my whole blog filled with pink, red and black. LOLS ! Whatever~! You all shall see the end products but I kind of embrassed to put it out because it looked so childish. -.-" WHATEVER LA!
I'm waiting for my piano teacher. =( He's late ~ *ROARS*
11:13:00 AM
The top that I wanted to buy from my shop but it's so low cut, thus I didn't buy in the end. =(
PUFFER FISH XD !
Junhao kept stressing that he look cool in this picture. Eeek XD !
LOVES :)) I hate my eyes =( It is so small :(
My Second brother and his girlfriend.
My first brother kept asking me to try on the sunglasses because he claimed that I will look cute in it because I'm so small size and if I were to wear a big big sunglasses, I'll look cute. In another word, I will look dumb. Indeed, I looked very dumb. XD
Crapps~ I looked damn dumb =(
I LOVES HER TOO ! :)
I loves my boyboy too!
He don't want to take picture with me! =(
Finally! I LOVES YOU :)
I didn't do anything to my boyboy alright! I DIDN'T! He just give me that dumb look! -.-"
So many people said that I'm growing fat. Oh my Oh my! My cheeks are so chubby. =(
我要减肥！！！！
12:05:00 AM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
School was alright today and I still couldn't manage to figure out all the stuffs of my Amath. Oh my~ This is so tiring. I'm not even in the mood to study at all. It's my holiday and it's a holiday. I'm already on a holiday mood even though I'm not officially had my holidays yet. It's O level next year and I'm so so so looking forward to it. =X I'm crazy! Whatever it is, I won't feel sad for having this thoughts because there was no reason for me to stay any longer and I hate to go school. Some teachers were crap and I can't help to sleep in their class when their lesson goes so boring.
I wants to update my blog with pictures but my stupid brother is using it now. He's always act as if I'm using his computer and the computer is officially his. But, when something goes wrong and the PC started to go haywire, the PC is mine again. -.-" So when nothing is wrong, it's his and I'm supposed to give up my PC to him. Oh man~ I really can't wait to go up to Polytechnic and get a laptop myself and I'm not going to share with him anymore because he was crap. =X
I found meaning in this holiday already. In the meantime when I'm not working now, I'm going to make a new blogskin for my blog since everyone is complaining about this blog right now. Afew people couldn't even enter my entries to read and only afew of the navigation are usable. So, conclusion is that my blogskin was crap too. LOLS! Everything is so crap and crap and crap. And, I'm not making another navigation's blog anymore. I shall simply put up two column, one for my entries and another for my profile. I hope it won't lag as much as my current one. *Cross fingers*
Anyway, I was reading my past entries and I can't believe I sound so cheena. =X I actually typed like ThIs WoRx, Bl3aH. No offence to anyone who is typing this way. I was just saying myself. But, I'm really so shocked that I had changed so much over these periods of time. That type of typing was used to be cool because everyone was doing it. There was another time I even started to type double letter like donn'tt yyouu thiinkk thhiis iis cooll? I mean it looked crap and I've proof myself that I'm crap. At least, I found proper english much cooler now. =X And, I'm not following the crowds anymore. It's crap XD ! I still find proper english cooler among all the styles that I had used.
I've nothing to write anymore and I find myself getting more and more boring because my life was boring. =X I shall update my blog with pictures to proof that my life was boring but my blog isn't boring. XD ! KOR KOR, PLEASE STOP USING MY PC CAN! Damn you XD !
PingYan is going boys' home soon! 10 more days =(
Jackson is going NS soon! 1 more months =(
TAKE CARES :))
12:27:00 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006
My brother is back. Oh well~ I shall blog other time =( I'm so so so so gotten miss my dear blog~ LOVES :))
6:45:00 PM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
I'm so tired till I slept everywhere be it in the MRT or while waiting for my mum. I'm just so tired~ There's A math tomorrow and we'll have to hand in our homework by tomorrow and I have handed none. I'm not going to do it now because my eyes are closing. =( I'm dead~ I'm really dead =(
Kill me please because I'm jobless now. =(
7:58:00 PM
Sometimes, I had hoping like what Priscilla had been hoping for that our parents can on the PC and start checking our blog and not assuming whatever things had happened. Our blog says it all, we don't have to explain. And, teenagers had been staying overnight at whatever place but I just can't and right now they still want to restrict my freedom further more. It isn't fair to me at all, is it? I don't want to spend my youth to rot at home, I'm not going to waste my time any further, it's crap and it's crap.
The starting of the year, I felt so unwanted, so crap. I wanted just some warmth from my family but each time I came back home, quarrells will always be there to welcome me. What I wanted was just alittle care from all of them, but none gives me. Furthermore, I just got a breakup from that damn relationship. Everythings just make me felt like as if I don't belong to anywhere. That was the time when I needed so much care but they couldn't give me. I always have to cry myself to sleep, no one knows about it. I mean it's really hurting to see your relationship splitting apart and your family splitting apart. There it was the time when my studies deteriotes and I was blame for it. Everything was my fault, the relationship, my family and my studies.
And right now, I don't need any care for them anymore, they started to care so much. It's overwhelming already and I couldn't take it any longer. Sometimes, I just wish that they just shut up and leave me alone. My father had been going crazy over something and started to quarrel with my mum then my mum will start to quarrel with me and the whole family will start to point finger at me for the start of everythings. You think it's fun? Then, let me try it on you. I really don't need anyone to care for me anymore and I just want to be left alone for the time being. Then, you all start to restrict my freedom. I'm so so going to hate to be at home. I'm so so so going to object on everything and I'm not going to listen to everything you say anymore. I'm on my own and I hate to be restrict. You guys controlled me too much and I hate that. No way am I going to let anyone to control me.
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I went to watch The Covalent with the guys yesterday and I must admit that the actors are real damn cool and cute! The storyline was cool and the effects were even cooler. The ending was alittle bit rush but I think there might be a part 2 coming out? Cool! I want to catch it again! Luckily, we didn't watch Final call or I'm going to scream my lungs out rather than watching the cute guys. =D
I'm ending here~ I've to start preparing to go for that interview. I'm so lazy to doll up, I shall wear any-o-how today. Better hire me, or I'm so so so going to whack him because we've to walk a long way before we reach that destination. Lousy location!~ Please move your place nearer to my home =D
I can laugh and smile again! I went crazy today because I started to remember all the stuffs that had happened yesterday which I couldn't laugh or smile at all and then started to laugh over it. LOLS ! I know it's over but I still want to laugh to compensate for yesterday. I'm crazy =D
Please let my interview go successful =D
12:50:00 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I'm finished my work now! Shall get ready to go out for movie later on. I'm so so tired but I still have to go no matter what. Then, I'll still have to go for the interview tomorrow after school. Oh man~ That's why I don't want to keep changing job. Please give me a job that doesn't need me to change after awhile. =D
I'm tired. Shall blog after I come back from the Movie =D COOL MANNNN~ =X
I've becoming more and more crazy! And, I've changed my favourite words to Cool man! LOLS ! I don't know how I change, it just changed so suddenly. LOLS! Where's my *roars* now? LOLS ! I MISS MY ROARS LAH~ LOLS!
AND AND! Teacher had teached us today that humans do ROARS okay! =D
*ROARS*
4:30:00 PM
After that, we went to eat pastas at Randall's workplace. He asked me how was it and I told him that it is alittle dry and he quickly take it back and made a new one for me. How nice can Randall be? Then, he even tried to help me look out for job. All I can say was that he had changed and he had changed alot better than what he used to be. =D I want to go back to eat his pastas again!
Then, YingHui and I went around the whole FarEast to find jobs but to no avail. It's just our luck. At least, we managed to know more about the salons there because we need a rebond soon! My legs turned sour from all the walk. It's been a very long time ever since I really shop for such a long time and I used to be able to walk for hours and hours and I still do not feel anything. I've grow old. Oh my~
I didn't talk alot today because my ulcer is really killing me. Why must it grow on my gum and the pain is so unbearable till I really want to die. Please let that damn ulcer to heal and I want to talk as much as I like because my hobby is to talk and now I'm refrained from talking just because of a stupid ulcer. *Roars* May this ulcer burn in hell ! BURN BURN BURN!
There is guide tomorrow but I won't be able to go for long because I've to work and I'm giving up my 1 hour pay just for it. How nice can I be XD ! Anyway, this holiday I might have to change from job to job because all the job are so temporary please~ I need something permanent can! Please just give me a job and stucked me there for these whole of holidays. Please please please!
And and~ I love aunties who are working around me. They're the only one who are trying to help me to find job and giving me suggestion and advices. I love them so much! I love Biqi too but she had resigned due to I-don't-know-the-reasons. LOVES :)) I hope to see her sooner or later and I hope she'll still remember me when we met :)
I gotten kill myself tomorrow. I'm feeling so guilty please. I haven't even done any homeworks for the past few days in school and I'm starting to hate extended curriculum. Please just stop all these lame stuffs. It's a waste of the time please~ Everyone is on the holiday moods already. So, please just stop these and let us have our holiday before we start our own revision. I'm starting my revision maybe in the December or the January. Yet, Victor had given me an advice that I should just study afew months before the O level and not one year before the O level. Oh my~ I'm feeling so confused since my teachers are telling me that I should study early and my captain tell me that I should study alittle bit later and not now. Oh my~ Who should I listen~ -.-"
WHATEVER~
I'm sick
I'm in pain
Sick + Pain = Unlucky~
Why am I so unlucky nowaday~ *ROARS* GIVE ME A JOB LAH~
12:25:00 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006
I'm talking on phone right now and the guys doesn't seem to be tired at all while I'm sitting at here yawning all the while. Oh man~ I really want to sleep. Please guys, please let me have a good sleep. =D
Anyway, I'm going for interview tomorrow morning. People, pray hard for me that the interview will be a success because I've to demostrate how am I going to sell the product when I doesn't even have any experience about all these. Oh well~ Buddha bless me!
:))
11:33:00 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
I just feel like crying today. Suddenly, death came across me. Nono, I'm not in the sucidal thought today. It's just that death doesn't seems scary to me. Yet, when the thoughs of having my loved ones died before me, all these really make me tear. I cannot imagine how am I going to survive without them especially to those people that I treasured the most where my small little world always involve with them.
People who doesn't relate to me like those folks, I even feel sad for them. Some even have to work hard and collect the old cardboards just for their living. I mean, it's really very sad for them to have to work so hard even at their old age. I will never throw my parents alone, never at all. No matter how much I had went through because of them, I'll still have to take care of them when they're old.
There's school tomorrow. I hope I doesn't have to go school since I'm going to be sick soon and there's A math tomorrow. I'm sure that A math will kill me alive. We'll have to do cleaning up of the guide room tomorrow afternoon too. Then, I'll head to SBM in the evening. A long day tomorrow~ Pray hard that I'll not die halfway. =DDDD
LOVES :)))
10:25:00 PM
5:58:00 PM
Anyway, my family had left to see houses for my brother. They told me that they had saw one flat near my school and I can stay over that side and I can sleep all I want till the very last minute. Then, I just told them that I don't want to ever step in that school again please! LOLS ! They thought I'll urged them to buy that house but it turned otherwise XD !
2012 will be the end of the world or perhaps, something big will happen. That's what Ven. Mahinda had said. He said that the Mahayana Calender stops at 2012 so which means by that year, something big will happen. I'm only 21 that year just about to face my adulthood and just one moment, everything is gone. Oh my buddha~ Life is so short, I shall treasure it now till then. I got to do all the things I wanted already. I'm left with 6 years, such a short 6 years. I must do myself proud already. Oh well~ This is so sickening~
There's school tomorrow again. Oh my~ I'm starting to hate school when holidays start. Yet, O level is coming and I haven't been starting my revision at all. My cousin are finishing her O level soon and we are bound to have our cousin's outing again. I'm missing the past when we're so close! Oh my !~ I miss her~
Oh man~ My eyebags are so swollen now~ Buddha help me! =X I must have a early night today. My entry ends here =D LOVES :)) I'm so so so going to love everyone =D
拥有过却失去比没有拥有过就失去还可怕
4:28:00 PM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Shit all the NS guys! Damn their attitude.
*ROARS*
Anyway there's sport day for SBM today! I hope it will be fun. =D
10:19:00 AM
Friday, November 03, 2006
I'm going to bugis street later on to have a window shop with Amanda. =D I hope I won't be so spendthrift like how I used to be because this job had made me realised that money is hard to earn. My last job was fun and I can slack as much as I like or play around with their stuffs there and still get 40 bucks per day. Yet now, things are different. I've to try very hard to hit my target so as to get their commission and all these while I couldn't hit it at all. *Roars*
I'm ready to go out now. I worn denim shorts today. It's much comfortable really. Anyone who wants to buy denim shorts, please come to my shop alright~! =D I'm still working there but it's just that I'll only work when the boss asked me to. Oh well~! Crap~
Oh ya, Auntie had taught me how to catch thief. You must see from their body language. No wonder Auntie told me that she had already caught a lot of the thief but she had chose not to catch them because it's troublesome that you've to go all the way to the police station to make statement. People, please just stop stealing. It's crap~ No money to buy then see for fun XD !
SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPING~
4:34:00 PM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Heavy eyebags are out. I'm going to kill all the eyebags. It looks so sickening. I woke up with a terrible headache and when I reached school, I went straight to my classroom and lie on my table to sleep. I was really very tired!
Time had indeed slower down today. I did not rush on anything and the time just drift slowly and slowly. I even reached home earlier than I usually reached him. Then, I felt that I've work for such a long time but it's actually just afew hours. Time is so slow today but it's good because I've treasured my time at there. =D
Mosquitos are attached to me recently. They had been sucking my blood ever since the morning and they're still sucking my blood till now. I killed one mosquito out of rage yesterday. May you be well and happy. I'm sorry! So, I'm no longer single. I'm attached to Mosquito but I really want to break up with the mosquitos. Damn all these mosquitos. *Roars* Just stop sucking my blood and not my boyboy too!!
I had fun working today as usual. No show for me today but at least we were playing around. Biqi was different today. She wasn't as hyper as last few days because something happened to her and she seems so moody today, kept staying in her shop and not like the usual time when we'll like gather outside our shop and play around. Anyway, she's not working soon and I'm sad~ Sighs. At least, I still walk over to her shop and find her for that little while. She has the teeth that resemblace Jashawn. She does smoke so maybe that's why. I'm so going to miss her and I promised to find her when I'm not working. =D
The few of us still gathered outside our shop and started our conversations. The girl who is selling CD is so cute. She tied her hair into two small pony tail and she really look very dolly. She said that she wanted to perm her hair and I'm sure that will look nice on her. Yet, I asked another girl about her perming and she told me that perming is very troublesome because you've to keep twist your perm every morning and night to maintain the curls. I knew I'm a lazy girl so I'll stick back to rebond. =D
I almost made my target today. I was supposed to target 300 bucks today and I had 202 bucks. My sales are getting better as time goes by. I might take up business course because it is so cool! I wished I can work at bugis street more often. =( Oh ya! Yinghui, Liping and Qiting came and find me today. =D Thanks my girls ! They're fun to be with and I must thank Yinghui for helping me to buy the foods and stuffs. Thanks alot ah! Thanks to Liping and Qiting for coming over to find me =D
I'm going to sleep now. I don't want another layer of eyebags lah! Can anyone tell me how do I get rid of the eyebags.
*ROARS*
Eyebags, please go away please!
11:54:00 PM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Hossan Leong is so damn cute!
Anyway, I went to Pulau Ubin today. The weariness killed me today. The sun was so hot that it's burning my cheeks and I can actually feel the burnt over my cheeks. We went around the whole island to see all kinds of flowers. The island is a very beautiful place seriously. People who are living there actually leads a very simple life and when I started to adore for their simplicity, I started to ponder is this kind of life that I really wanted? There is no shopping centre, no computers, no arcades, no movies.. So many stuffs that were missing and that was what I wanted to entertain my life. I doubt that kind of life suits me. Pulau Ubin is too far away from the mainland and we've to take a boat to get over to the mainland which cost us 2 bucks. To and fro will cost us 4 bucks. It is really not worth. Oh ya, I saw Kaiyi when I was there. It has always been a concindence that I've always been seeing her around. LOLS !
After that, I rushed to work as usual. I was 1 minute earlier. Then I got to know a girl who is working beside me again. I really don't know why that I always tell them my name when they asked and I've been always the one who had forgotten to ask for their name. -.-"
It's fun to work there and I hope to have more chances like this. I've free shows to watch every now and then. A girl had stolen Auntie's accessories two times. She steals for the first time and Auntie knew it but she let her go. Then the second time when she did it, Auntie let her go again. The girl actually went to another shop to steal their bag and was being caught by that auntie. Police came and took them away. The people who are working around me had been critcising her that she's another "yaya-papaya" girl. She had already done wrong things and act as if nothing had happened. Tsk tsk tsk. Why must you steal? You're causing troubles for other. You're not paying for that stuff you had stolen but some other people has to pay for it. It's not fair for them at all right?
Wencai and Lawrence came today ! =D Thanks Wencai for that drink XD ! Lawrence actually bought a big buddha! Buddha definitely will bless him. May buddha bless him. LOLS ! I didn't know that buddha will cost so much =X Buddha, you're so worth it. =D
Ta-tah! I want to end my entry for today. Nothing much special had happened except that stealing events. I've school tomorrow again. My buddha! I haven't even touch that homework given by Mrs Lim. I'm sure that I'll be very tired tomorrow. Buddha bless me ! I really have to catch some sleep before the sun starts to rise again. Please let the time pass slowly =D
I want to work everyday! *ROARS*
Am I crazy or what? LOLS !
11:11:00 PM
