10:01:00 PM

Coool! I've done 55 out of 99 things in my life =D

(ex. 1, 2, 3, 4,)
repost as "I have lived through _ of these 99 things. "

[1] I have read a book before
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[2] I have been on some sort of sports team.
[3] I have watched cartoons for hours before
[4] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ 5] have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] have been snowboarding/skiing.
[6] I have played ping pong.
[ ] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[7] I have seen fireworks.
[ ] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[8] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[9] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[ ] I have had stitch(es).
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[10] I have stayed up til 6am doing homework/projects.
[11] I currently have a job.
[12 ] I have been ice skating.
[13] I have been rollerblading.
[14] I have fallen flat on my face.
[15] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[16] I have played videogames/com for more than 3 hours straight.
[17] I have watched The Power Rangers before.
[ ] I do / have attended Church regularly.
[18] I have played truth or dare.
[ ] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[ ] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[19] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[20] I've been in a verbal argument.
[21] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[22] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[23] I've swam on a team.
[24] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[25] I've climbed a rock wall before.
[26] I've lost more than $20. (Handphone counted?)
[27] I've called myself an idiot
[28] I've called someone else an idiot
[29] I've cried myself to sleep
[30] I've had (or have) pets.
[ ] I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape
[ ] I've owned a Britney Spears cd
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync cd
[ ] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
[ ] I've mooned someone
[ ] I've sworn at someone in authority
[31] I've been in the schoolnewspaper / insights.
[ ] I've been on TV
[32] I've eaten sushi.
[33] I've been on the other side of a waterfall
[ ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[34] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[35] I've watched Looney Tunes before.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker
[ ] I've been called a geek.
[36]I've studied hard for a test and got a bad
grade.
[37] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[38] I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist.
[39] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested
[40] I've been attracted to someone much older than me
[41] I've been tickled till I've cried
[42] I've tickled someone else until they cried
[ ] I've been to a rock concert
[43] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it
[44] I've been in a play
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class or so
[45] Ive been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[46] I've cried in front of my friends (Paiseh-ed)
[ ] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[47] I've freaked out over a sports game
[48] I’ve vomited in public
[49 ] I've washed someone else’s vomit (My dog can?)
[ ] I’ve ran away
[50] I’ve had a stalker
[51] I've had a fight with someone on txt
[52] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face (Play play can?)
[ ] I've been in a car accident
[53] I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me
[54] I've personally seen someone die
[ ] I've been confronted by a police officer but got away
[55] I've lost someone who meant the world

9:57:00 PM

I'm so tired now~

I was late for SBM today. I wanted to wake up at 6.30 am but I was so tired that I actually had alittle headache so I decided to back sleep for alittle while more. Yet, the next thing I know was that I woke up at 8.09 am which means I was very late. In the end, I reached at 9 am. =D


We offered robe to our bhante then we procceed to chantings and stuffs. Then, I accompanied Junhao to get his dog. Oh man, winnie had grown so big. The time when I saw her, she was just so small that she looked just like a baby. Yet now, she had grown so big. She really shocked me so much. Yet, she had really grown very beautiful. =D


After that, the guys wanted to throw me alone. In the end, Junhao came with me while Raymond joined us for the trip to Tampines to find his friends. At lest, they aren't that heartless. We watched "Dead or Alive". The show isn't that nice afterall except that the girls are hot. =X I'm sorry to KahBeng for asking me to watch this show with you yet I told you that I didn't want to watch since I don't like to see girls and then I went out to watch with another group of friends. Sorry!


This is a very long day for me though there's not much events happening. At least, I'm tired right now so I can sleep early and not worry about anything. =D There's school tomorrow. Awww~ Then, I've to rush home and prepared before rushing for the training for my work. I'll only be officially starting my work on Tuesday. My store will be located beside the CD shop which is on the 2nd floor. =D If you want to buy any tops, please come to me okay! I'll try to ask my boss if I could give a discount.


So there's school tomorrow. I'm not sure what time my training will end. If it ends early I'll be going out again. I'm so tired of staying at home all day long already. I've got another job again. I might be going to work for the surveyor job. That's another part time job and they will only find me when they are doing some survey on some stuffs. Then, I need to find another job again. Oh my~


I'm very tired already. I almost fell asleep when I was watching that movie. *Yawns*


GOOD NIGHT!

8:37:00 PM

I'm getting emo. :( This is a bad sign. Hais~

12:00:00 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

SBM's Chief memorial day

*ROARS*

You know what, my mum said that I talked too fast that she can't even catch anything. Then, she continued to nag at me. Calling me all kinds of nonscenical name, "Siao Char Bor", "China's prostitute"? I mean, I was angry but I don't show out. Tell me, which mother will call their daughter this name when I just talk in a rapid way? Seriously, I don't know what kind of home am I having. Sometimes, they can be so nice to me yet the other time, they can be so evil till I can't even tolerate any longer and I just wish to die right there.


My brother with his girlfriend bullied me last night. It was such a hot night that I started perspiring. Then, they were happily having the fan all by themselves. I went to move the fan then they started to say that I was selfish to have that fan for myself. His girlfriend even shows attitude to me. I mean, do you think I care about you? You're supposed to be an outsider. You haven't even married into this family. I don't see any rights for you to get attitude.


I was perspiring so badly that I couldn't sleep well. And, I broke down yesterday again. *Rahhh* When they were home, I get all kinds of nonsense from them. Yet, when they were not at home, I was home all by myself when they were happily enjoying their date. So, what about me? I was all alone rotting. My life is so wonderful with all the mushrooms and fungus growing all around me. This is so cool.


Whatever it is, I shan't not let any of my family members to spoil my mood today. I was crazy today. We had Chief's memorial day and we were supposed to set up all the stuffs. I made myself useful by helping out with the flowers. The jasmine flowers need loads of efforts because you've to put it one by one. It is really not easy. I gained alot of patient over it. =D


Then, we had our chanting and blessing. After everything, I chased Wencai all around with my realms. It's a bliss to see them all together trying to help me again. Such a small actions actually warmth my heart alittle because it seems that we hadn't been so united for a very long time. They were chasing him all around the SBM while I was trying all my strength to get him and scratch him. *ROARS*


After that chasing, they played arm wrestling. Lawrence was funny!! They just counted 1, 2 and 3. His hand was already down onto the table. XD ! At least, it was fun afterall. I hope no one hurt their wrist. =D


To my friend:

I shan't put your name up here. Friends come and go. If they are true, they'll stayed. No point in crying over anyone of them. I had gone through all this up and down before. I know it's terrible to lose your group of friends. It is alright. Everything is going to be alright. Who knows, it might be a blessing in disguise? You might find better friends out there? I know the pain and anxiety to lose your friends but if they are really your true friends. They won't be there to hurt you, they'll be there to lend you their shoulder. You don't have to have loads of good friends. I had only 2 close friends in school for me and they were there for me to go through everything, the conflicts, the helping out for each other during exams period... You don't have to have so many friends in school. Once you're graduated, all your friends will be gone. Nobody is going to remember you except afew of them who are true. If they weren't true, you'll still get all kinds of backstabbing from them. It's childish to backstab people that's why I'll only dislike the people who I dislike and not talk much about them. Right now, I'm still learning how to accept the people who I had been disliking for a period of time. Seriously, there is no point for you to wanting to end your life. They're not worth. Your life does not have to keep them. You can choose your friends. Choose those friends who are wise and can keep you on the right tracks. Lose those friends that you felt that doesn't worth anything your life. It's all right. We're all learning the things in life. We musn't let any failure in one thing to cause a big failure in our life. No point. I hope you understand what I'm writing and I hope you read this =D


LOVES :)


I'm tired! I've to reach SBM at 8am tomorrow. This is so cool! Which means, I've to wake up at 6.30am. My buddha! Can devas help me =D Devas, please teach me how to teleport. =D !


I'm crazy again. *ROARS*

11:07:00 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

Should this be a good day or a bad one?

I went for blog hopping again. I actually cried for the people who had retained. Though, I'm not very close with them but I actually felt the pain to be stayed back for another year. A year can change everything. Though it seems long but it's actually short. Am I making any sense here? I hope I'm making some sense here. Seriously, I hate the period where everyone has to face the reality and there's only themself to face it. No one can help them because the pain is so much stronger than what others felt for their dear friend. Why can't they give everyone a chance and let them promote to Secondary 4. They can just scare them for awhile and allowed them to go up again. =(


Anyway, I went to watch Sinking of Japan today. I saw Mrs Wong after the show. Then, Fuzhong was standing beside me. Mrs Wong, please do not have your imagination run wild. =D The show was good. Those effects of having the flood over the island seems so real though I know everything was done by computers. Technology rocks in our life. The guy actually sacrifice himself just to save everyone in Japan. He's really very great! He actually lose his life and saved millions of lives.


We went to SBM after that to help out with the stuffs there. I don't know if I had been useful enough because I just couldn't find any stuffs to do except to tidy up the strings and stuffs. Am I creating troubles there? Anghwee has the look on his face that he's unhappy with me. I don't know~ Hais~


I just don't seems to be myself today. Oh well~ Whatever~! I cry for no apparent reasons. *ROARS*

11:30:00 PM

Reflections

I'm left with around 15 minutes before I proceed to Bishan to meet the other guys. I was supposed to go to PKS to help to paste the posters but I didn't make it because my mum asked me to accompany her since she's off today. So, I have to make a choice between they two. Still, I chose my mum. She has been nagging at me the past few hours already. *ROARS* Maybe, I should have gone to meet the guys.


Somehow, I had a chat yesterday night with Evelyn. It's a fruitful chat because I just realised that this coming camp will be marked the date that I've been in SBM for 1 year. I joined them since I'm Secondary 2. At that time, I joined them for awhile for their sharing session but didn't go after that few sessions. Reasons being was that I had lost my friends and it has no meaning for me to go there anymore since I'll be alone staring at the strangers. It was Zeming who had contiueously trying to get me back to SBM by asking me to do all the tasks that were given by him. So, I just go back when I needed to. Which means, I was lost in my own little world for about half a year.


It's been a very happening year. I joined the Sariputta first then procceed to Moggallana where I had alot of fun and laughter with the others. Though I was still in Moggallana when the next reshuffling ends, I wasn't really happy. Partly because of I felt that some stuffs will happened then our bonds will be splitting sooner or later. Then, time passed. It proved that my senses were right. Whatever it is, I found the meaning to go there to learn the dharma because it's really very useful in my daily life. Yet, I don't know why. I had lost hopes on myself just because I couldn't get my group up again. Forester was right, I shall be patient and see about it again.


My hatred for everything had vanished, I shall promised myself that I shouldn't let anything bothered me anymore. I'm not in the shoe to hate or dislike anyone because I, myself wasn't any better. Everyone has their differences and it's time for me to learn how to accept everyone already. It's a change in me because I was too tired of the bits and pieces I had in life.


Suddenly, I really hope I was better off from everyone's life. I don't know why, I just felt that I had hurted alot of people for the past few years. Too many quarrellings, conflicts that has past. Friendships gone. Then, they'll past as a history to me. For those few guys that I had hurted, I'm sorry. My dad has been another example for me not to take in any guys. I'm not in the dating mood now. Sorry Jackson again. -.-" Seriously, I still cannot forget the series of stuffs that had been happening for this year.


Hais~ It seems that my life had been a mess in the past few years. Oh, this is oh-so-great. My life is happening.

11:12:00 AM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

I promoted! =D

Oh yeah! Firstly, I'll like to annouce that I'm officially promoted. Even though, I'm happy right now but in the same time, I'm very tired. So spare me if I started to write rubbish. I don't even intend to talk much in MSN when I logged on today. Yet, if I don't log in my MSN, it seems that I had lost my routine suddenly. So, please don't ask me why did I had suddenly lost my activeness which is obviously that I cannot give any reply.


My eyes are starting to close gradually. I hope I'll quickly finish up my blogging. So, pardon me for this nonscenical entry which I had posted for today.


Anyway, MJR idol was crap today. Eddy can sing very well in chinese song! Jeric has a very nice voice too! Alyssa has a cute voice too! Overall, the MJR idol is still all right though alittle bit weird over here and there. It is still quite alright seriously.


We went back for our "Use your hand campaign" to clean up the classroom and we finished it and procceed down to take the coach to head for the NEWater plant. Some interesting facts that I had learnt that they had acutally tried to put some male guppies into "I-forget-what-is-the-water" and after 3 days, the guppies changed into female ones. Interesting!


I slept when I was on the way there and then I slept when we were in the threatre. I'm just so so tired. After school, went home with the guys and then get back to school to get my Report book and to pass up all the stuffs that I haven't pass up. Mrs Lim is a great teacher! I hope she continues to be our form teacher next year. Though I didn't like her at the starting of the year but as time passes, I found out that she's a very cute teacher.


The comments on my Report Book:

Wan Ling is a pleasant and helpful girl. She needs to learn to be more attentive during Mathematics lessons if she wants to do well in Mathematics. She has a mind of her own and is not afraid to express her opinions. She needs to push herself more in order to obtain better grades.


Seroiusly, it's weird. I passed my math! Whatever it is, I ought to get A1 for my O level for Mathematics. =D


Don't ask me about my result anymore. All I can say was that I passed and I'm allowed to be promote. Yet, it is still not the quality result that I ought to have. I'm so ashamed of myself. Aww~ Anyway, WenCai told me that I told him that I had given up hope when I'm in the mist of the exams. I had bad memory nowadays but I somehow still have a slightly teeny weeny clue about it. Yeah, I guess I had given up hope because A math was killing me so badly, my combined humanites killed me alive. Yay~ So that's about it.


Those who are on the conditional promoting, work hard for your retest! We, 3G will support you. This is the time that we should be standing up together as one to help one another already. =D I'm still not sure who's the one who had retained and I didn't dare to ask much. May you be well and happy. Take Care and work hard next year! One year wasted doesn't mean you're a failure, it means that you've face more experience than others. Then, you learnt more stuffs through it. One year of failure, you might gain 10 years of success. =D


I thought I had indicated that I'm tired? Yet, why did I blog such a long post today. I'm such a weirdo. -.-"


LOVES :)

9:09:00 PM

I'm in a bad mood~

Oh right, I brought my boyboy out to meet the other guys. Did I mentioned that I met ChuFeng when I was on the way home and called him along to join us. Yet, it turned out that we're leaving so soon. Sorry!


My boyboy has been barking for these 3 days late at night. He'll start to jump up suddenly from his sweet dreams and then start barking at absolutely nothing or is it the air that he felt unhappy with so he started barking at it? I don't know. I don't wish to know too. I went out to sleep at my sofa the other day, just to accompany him and he kept wake me up from my sleep by doing all kinds of stuffs. He will bark and bark then start to like put his hand on me. I don't know what's he doing but I can somehow feel that something is not so right. As they always say that when dog barks at nothing.... Yeah yeah, you know and I know. I shan't elaborate further. This is freaking me out already. No, it's not that I'm afraid of ghost but imagine that "thing" start to do some funny things infront of you when you can't see them at all. Who knows when you're in the toilet bathing, there might be one who is sitting at the side looking at you? XD ! So, I don't really like to have them around though I know they'll be there. Let's just hope that "thing" just don't touch my boy.


School will end early tomorrow due to the issuing of report books to the parents. I don't even dare to think that I'm going to get that report book tomorrow. Nicholas told me that our form teacher had said that 14 students from our class could not make it. Oh well~ All I can do right now was to pray hard and to pray very hard. May devas help me please~!


I won't be having any good mood till tomorrow. Please let me promote and meet the citeria please!



Night!

12:07:00 AM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Math Trails and Dragonboating

I hurt myself during the Dragonboating. Whatever it is. I'm not in the mood to do anything.


We had a Math Trail early in the morning at esplanade. Our in-charge was a very nice guy and I got to know that he's in army now and trying to clear his leave since he's on the way for ORD. Cool right! We did all kinds of stupid stuffs for the math trails and I'm so so proud of myself that I managed to count that triangular seat so successfully with all the questions answered correctly. =D

We returned back to school and went back to class. My form teacher was telling us about our result but I was too tired to listen. So, I slept. She passed some stuffs to us and we were supposed to pass it behind. So, I still sleep. I sleep and sleep till the school ended and went out with Esther and Waiyik to Singapore post. I did nothing. I didn't eat anything nor buy anything. It's not that I'm so broke but it's because nothing seems to interest me.


After that, I went back because I had to go for dragonboating with my guides. My instructor was a very funny guy. We were dragonboating at that time and rain started to fall. We weren't supposed to be that wet yet we became so drenched. In the end, we kept trying to row the boat back to the place but when we were halfway through, the rain stopped. This rain is really weird because when we were going back home that time, it rained again. So, I met up with the guys with my super wet clothes and hair. I'm so pathetic. -.-"


Anyway, I'm going down to meet them now. =D Shall update soon. I'm going to bring my boyboy downstair. Cool! =D

8:36:00 PM

Poooooooooooool~

All right, we were supposed to head for zoo today but the plan was canceled due to the poor response from the others. I was rather against about it too. It seems that, I'm throwing 15 bucks away to look at Ah Meng. Nothing interest me except white tigers and chimpanzee? So, we decided to go for pool session.


Afew of us met up together and went for the pool session. There was a time when I played with Ahgirl. I was supposed to be the one who win but stupid junhao accidentally touched the ball and it became a foul. *Roars* The second time, I was supposed to win again but I accidentally shoot till the black ball and the white ball fall. *Roars* So, I'm lost again. -.-'


After the pool session, we had some MacDonald's stuffs and went straight to Plaza Singapura to play the arcade. That's the part where i'm super pissed. I was happily playing my Rockfever which I hasn't been touching for like a year? Then, a tomboy came and put in a coin and challenge me. It's obvious that I'm going to lose because it's been such a long time that I've touch that game already. I lost in the first round and I decided to just walk away. I mean it's childish for her or rather him if she likes it to be name as a him, to be challenging me when it's obvious that she can see that I'm a noob already. Can't she spare some thought to let me play my last round happily? Oh well~ I shall never tolerate transexual. Eeeyer~ It makes me puke. She or he was lucky that I wasn't the one I used to be. If not, I doubt she can leave that place. =X Oh well, I just realised that I'm such a scary person last time. -.-"


Let's drop that topic about that he or rather her. Oh well, I'll really start to hate transexual since I can't even differentiate whether I should put a he or a her. *Roars*! We spent for like afew hours stucking in an arcade before we decided to leave for supper. We had fun during the supper. No, not that the food was fabulous. It was the contents that we were talking made everything so fun. And, I know that Junhao is a super sadistic person I had ever come across. He was laughing all the while when we were having our delicious topic. XD !! All I can say was that Junhao is damn sadistic and pervertic xD !!


I left after the supper. As I was checking my email, I came across the email that was sent by the person who had helped me to pre-order the clothes from Taiwan. I had forgotten to transfer the money to them and they wanted it to be transfered by 2pm tomorrow which is so impossible because I had school and I had CCA tomorrow too. Oh well. In the end, my sweet Enghua kor had agreed to help me. =D Thanks kor!


All right! I shall end my blog now. There's school tomorrow and I'm going for dragonboating with my guides. It is going to be fun! Yet, I don't want to be tan by the sun. Nononono! Oh well~!!! *Roars*



I WANT TO WORK SOON. Why do time passes so slowly. -.-"

12:29:00 AM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Men are more evil than girls =D

Do anyone still remember about the one that I've posted about the "Prove that girls are evil"? I've another one which indicate that men are more evil than girls.


Proved that girls are evil.

Girls = Time X Money.
Time = Money.
Girls = Money X Money.
Money is the root of all evil.
Money^2 = Squareroot(Evil).
Girls = Evil.


Proof that men are worse than girls.

Men = Time X Money X Girls X Sex
Time = Money
Men = Money X Money X Girls X Sex
For guys - Girls = Sex
Guys' proof - Girls = Evil
So we can conclude that - Evil = Sex
Men = Money^2 X Evil X Evil
Men = Money^2 X Evil^2
Money is the root of all evil.
Money = Squareroot (Evil)
Money^2 = Evil
Men = Evil X Evil^2
Men = Evil^3

Guys Proof - Girls = Evil
Girls Proof - Men = Evil^3

So we can say that guys are worse than girls. =D


Okay! I'm being lame here~ Anyway it's Hari Raya today. We're going for pool today. Let's pray hard that I could sneak in. =D It's been a very long time ever since I touched on the pool cue and stuffs. If I did not remembered wrongly that the last time I've played pool was the time when Jashawn brought me in. LOLS ! Hmmm~ It's indeed a very very long time. Let's hope that I can play well this time. *ROARS*


There's school tomorrow. Tsk tsk tsk. Whatever. I should look forward it since I'm working soon! I want to ask my boss whether I'm really working for 1 and a half day per week? It's really pathetic. If it's really the case, then I might find another job or maybe I should work for both =D


Okay! That's about it. I should work for both unless my boss tell me I'm working everyday. =D I want to work I want to work! *Roars* Anyone wants to hire me? XD ! Anyway I'm rotting at home now, I rather start work now. All right, I will ask my boss if she need anyone for everyday during my extended curriculum. I'll rather work than waste my time going out. It's a waste of money too. *ROARS* I'm broke~


I WANT TO WORK LAH!

12:22:00 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

I wished I was better off dead. I just felt so irritated nowadays. Just a teeny weeny bit will get me snapped. Then, I'll start to roar around. I'm so sensitive nowadays that I actually cry over small matters. Life seems so meaningless suddenly. Booo~


Anyway I decide to start packing up my pathetic wardrobe that has been very messy for the past few months. Then, I shall picked up those that I hasn't been wearing for a very long time to sell. =D Anyway, I had pre-order a long sleeve off-shoulder shirt which I had totally forgotten all about it. So, I shall not buy any off-shoulder shirt anymore.


Though I'm so bored right now. I still have my PC to accompany me and my blog for me to rant. On the other hand, I ought to be happy as it's a exciting week for me. I'm only going to have school on Wednesday and Thursday. Wednesday, I'm going to have Math trails in the morning and dragonboating in the afternoon. Oh man~ I'm going to be tan soon. Then on thursday, I'm going to visit NEWater visitor center again. That's right, it's again. I've been there for 2 times already and this is going to be my 3rd time. Can't they find something exciting for me then going to NEWater every now and then. *ROARS* Then in the afternoon will be my deathday again, there'll be a parent-teacher session again. Let's pray hard that I'm allowed to promote to secondary 4.


Moodless~ I guess it's all the moodswing's fault. *ROARS* I was just feeling that life is so meaningless that I couldn't even find anything that is worth for us to live for. Pathetic right ? It is going to be a dragful day tomorrow. Oh well~ My brother will be at home tomorrow and tuesday. Let's hope there's peace =D



*ROARS*

12:55:00 AM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

I ROARS~

Yay~ I did some shopping today. I bought a bag but it's with Amanda now because I didn't dare to bring it home. =X It scares the hell out of me to bring something home that will gets me all kinds of scolding. Especially when that's a bag and my mum will starts her nag about me having all kinds of bag and I should stop buying bags but I had already stopped buying for a very long time. It's time to buy a new one. =D


And, I wanted that off-shoulder top too! Nono! I want that baby-doll top. Ahhh~ NO! I want the black heels. Ahhh~ If i'm going to get all of them, it's definitely cost me a bomb. Well, I shall start counting the price. 16 + 27 + 15 = 58 Bucks. 58!?! I'm going to be broke. Maybe I should get that heels after I start my work. *Roars* Whatever, I shall spot on things that I liked and go for it when I starts my work. I'm not going to spend my allowance on any of the things anymore. *ROARS*


Anyway, I just found out that I'm good at bargaining. The guy who served us is a very cute guy seriously! He told me that the bag is 18 bucks. Then he told me he would give me discount to 16 bucks. Then I told him 15 bucks. He was like trying to help me to get that price, so he went to ask the "manager" or something, then he said it's alright he will give me 15 bucks. Yet, I was so confused if I should get that bag. Then, since he's cute and so nice to help me to cut down the price for me, I bought from him. Before that, Amanda wanted that bag as well, so I tried to bargain again and I managed to get that both bag at 14 bucks each. Woohoo~ That guy who is at the counter actually want to put it as 15 bucks for two but luckily he put it as 14 bucks again. Seriously, I must really thank that guy. =D *Screams* He's so cute can~!! XD


I went to Amanda's house today. She got a room of her own! Please buddha, I also want one too. I want to paint my own room to baby pink and then to tidy up my room alittle. I can't wait to have my own room!! *Woooohoooo*


*ROARS* There's nothing for me to do tomorrow. I'm going to rot the whole day =D !


*CHEERS*

11:41:00 PM

I actually cried when I saw the blogs that were posted on the friendships of theirs. Though I'm not very close with them at least I know that they were used to be so close, so close that everyone envys that they had such a good sisterships. I don't know why that I can feel their pain in losing one of their sister because of someone. I know the feeling of having to imagine how much you have lost someone who had go through so much with you, play with you, do everythings with you. Whatever it is, I shall wish that they'll passed through this period and get back again.


*ROARS*

I want go out sooooooon~ There won't be any piano lesson next week. *CHEERS* But, there's parents-teacher meeting next saturday. I haven't tell my parents about my results. They'll definitely kill me alive. Hais~ Can you imagine that I've passed 5 subject but all 4 subjects are a C and only one subject it's a A? Then, I failed my the other two subjects so badly. *Roars*


*cries*

2:01:00 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

9 more days to work!~

I learnt alot today from the sharing session shared by our Lawrence. Yeah, we must really find our meaning to go to SBM and not go there just for the fun and laughter. It's crap. I don't think we should go there so as to have more friends because once they leave, you will leave as well. As for me, I really wanted to leave at that period of time when Victor doesn't do anything and no one else wants to do something for this house. All I can do was to continue to be with the members and continue to encourage them to come. Everything was thrown to me to do and no one else bothered. Until the time when I actually tell Forester that I was tired already and being a kind-hearted soul, he voluteered to help me in the fund collection. Though, this job seems small but at least he tried to help and I can see the effort of trying to help me. Seriously, you won't know the down period that I was having so badly. No one knows about it. Some other people actually mind that I was being promoted to a leader and because I was a leader, I ought to do all the stuffs. Not that I mind that I was put as the one to do all the things, it's just that isn't it all our responsible to do?


Oh man, tell me how beautiful is this world going to be? Anyway, I find much meaningful stuffs for me to go to SBM. Buddha come first, friends come second. =D I'm merely living in the dharma world already. The so so so down period was accompanied by my buddha. All the things that I read in a dharma book and all the things that were shared in the sharing session just came and struck in my mind. I just tell myself that it is all worth it because I was doing the things and they are the one who is relaxing. All these are alright and it's just doing some things. It won't hurt any much. It's just the physical drained out. It was me who had drained my mental. It was me who had continuously feeding myself with all the negative feeling. That right, it's my mind who is doing all the trick. =D


Cool right? Though it seems little stuffs that I had just learnt but it applied on my life so much. Actually, I didn't realise all these till today when all the things struck me when Lawrence was making the speech about how much he and the mentors know what their purpose in helping the youths. Come to think of it, 10 years doesn't seems easy. Furthermore, they are going to handle projects after projects together in this 10 years. We know ourselves that everyone has their differences. So, it's really very hard to come to a conclusion except through the way they compromise. If one doesn't compromise so much, I doubt I'll be in this youth group to learn so much from them.


All right, I'm tired. Yet, I'm so lazy to climb over to my bed which is just beside me. Just this little small step, I can get so lazy enough to just stone and watch my monitor. Booo~


I can be angry and *ROARS*. I'll BITE! *ROARS* There's piano tomorrow. I'm dead~ I haven't been practicing even though my exams are over. Oh wells~ I'm dead I'm dead I'm deaddd~


I'm going to shop with Amanda tomorrow. =D I MISS HER SO MUCH! Oh yeah~ 11 years of friendships. How many people actually can have their friendships that lasted for so long! Woohoo~ That's why I treasure her alot!


Time to sleep~ I'm still so lazy. Oh wells! NIGHT!

Piano tomorrow~ *ROARS*

10:20:00 PM

Funny stuffs =D

Guess what? I'm staring at this monitor and trying to stone for as long as I can. Why do time passed so slowly when I wanted it to fly? Why why why!?!?


My boyboy is sleeping near the place where I sit and I was looking at the way he slept. Seriously, it's hilarous. Tell me, which dog sleep with a position that all their legs are facing upwards? I'm glad that I had this little small boyboy to accompany me through my boredom and be apart of my life. Oh man~ I loves him so much! I ought to make him the happiest dog in the whole wide world. Boyboy, you're going to be the happiest boy in my life !


I found something funny on net.


Proved that girls are evil.

Girls = Time X Money.
Time = Money.
Girls = Money X Money.
Money^2 = Evil.
Girls = Evil.


*ROARS* Girls are not evil. We rocks to the core. Yet, girls suck at the same time. *ROARS* Tell me, why do we need to undergo montly cramps that will kill us alive. Awww~ I hate that! Well, I shall start with my Boys are Evil too. *hmphs*


-*Roars*-

1:23:00 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

Death Note!

We are crazy today! We actually went to watch a movie today which is counted as an weekend's rate. Yet, we're lucky because Wencai has the SAFRA membership. So it still cost $8.20 for the stupid weekend show.*ROARS*


Death note is a very nice show to watch. I shall rate it as a 7.5/10. The ending really sucks to the core. Nevertheless, the guys are cute. The deathgod actually loves apple. At the start, when you just saw that deathgod, you might be afraid to look at his looks. But, you'll love him at the end. He's so cute! There's Kira and "L" in that show. Kira is super cute!! "L" is cute too because of his habits. My buddha~ The show is filled with cute girls and guys. =D Kira is so cute! *Screams* The way "L" suck his thumb like a baby is so cute too! *Screams*


I just hate to go home. My second brother is super irritating. So what, you just came back from the army. You claimed that we're nonsense then how about you? What is this? Each time, you claimed that we're being the one irritates you. But, please come to think of that, when you get stressed up and then where does you vent your anger on? It's me!


Whatever!~
It's the time of the month again. *ROARS*




枫 brings in memories again~ *ROARS* The memories aren't supposed to be there. It's supposed to be forgotten. It should be gone into a faraway land. We didn't really have much memories about this song. But, why do it reminds me of everything when I hear this song? You are supposed to be gone and forgotten. I won't let anything haunt me. Not you, not the memories, not the stuffs that you had given me. Nothing~ I don't love you anymore and I'm not going to love you in any future. We're not supposed to be friends, not lovers, not aquaintance. We are supposed to be strangers. Seriously, I really don't need anything to remind me of you again.


Yet, I must really thank you for all the things that you have given me. Nevertheless, you're still a jerk. Because you dumped me when I didn't let you do the things you wanted. Too bad~ I've kept quiet for a period of time already. Maybe it's time to warn every girls to stay away from you. You dumped me for no good reason. You dumped me because I'm not the type of girl you wanted who can let you do anythings to spoil their principle. I don't care if you're going to read this post anot. You should know it yourself that you aren't any good guy. =D


I shall end my grudges here. May you be well and happy. =D

11:43:00 PM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Awww~ Awful day *ROARS*

*ROARS*


Today is a horrible day! I fell down! Can you imagine a dumb 15 years old girl just fell in the middle of no where. I mean it looks really dumb. I haven't been falling down ever since I'm a 10 years old kid already. *Roars* How unlucky can I go?


My parents were irritating today~ *ROARS* Just count on my luck. I'm just way too unlucky today. Seriously, I feel like whacking them upside down. How stubborn can one really get? They still dare to say I'm the one who is stubborn. The next time when I do something, I shall not include them. They will definitely drive me crazy.


Oh ya!~ I've passed my English. I scored 50 marks =D ! No more 49 marks! But, there's something to be worried about is that, I'm still not sure about my overall marks in this year. Awww~ Kill me alive~


I must have grown fat today. I ate supper~ Awww! I must not eat tomorrow. *ROARS*



I'm tired! NIGHT ~

11:09:00 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I'm in a very bad mood~

I'm in great disappointment today. Starting of the day, they reminded us that there's MJR idol audition today. And guess what? Nicholas and I didn't even practice before at all. So, in the end wanted to withdraw but we said we will perform to Miss Leong on Friday. Yet, he didn't tell her so he say we just withdraw from the entire competition. Cool right! So, I just tell myself that at least I got a 2nd for last year and I should give some chance to others. XD !


The 2nd annoucement scares me to death more. They said there's girl guide meeting. I didn't know at all. So, I bring nothing. Then, I know I will die today. But, I was lucky that the others didn't know too. =D


The 3rd tragedy I had today was my result. I did improvement but at the same time my result dropped. Arghh~ Never mind, I told you I was having holiday mood when I'm having the exams. Yet, I only get the serious mood when it's Physic paper. And, can you believe my Chinese. I can drop from A1 to C5. How pathetic can this be. Our first chinese class all had a very bad result. SHIT that teacher. Sorry for my ranting. But, seriously, I don't believe my chinese can be THAT bad. Can I? We always score A1 and now we just suddenly score a C5 standard? What the hell? At least something to be happy of is that I had my A math from a pathetic 7/100 to 40/100. =D And guess what? I passed my paper 2 for my A math! WOOHOO~


PATHETIC RESULT!

English - 49 D7 ( FAIL BY ONE MARK )
Chinese - 57 C5 (SHIT THIS)
E Math - 59 C5 (One more mark to B4)
A Math - 40 E8 (I improved alot =D)
Combined Science - 58 C5(I dropped alot =( )
Combined Humanities - 40 E8 (I improved by one mark, F9 to E8)
D & T - 70 A2 (MY A1 ROARS)


See how pathetic my result is?


4th tragedy is that my baby male hamster died and another hamster gone missing. Seriously, I want to cry already. Why is it happening ? I'm afraid that they couldn't find the food in my house. Please come out soon all right! I told my family that they should not put the water bottle so high up anymore yet they didn't listen. ROARS~


:(
I WANT TO CRY !

5:39:00 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Awww~ I'm feeling sin. I didn't go for the run with my brother because the haze will definitely kill me. Pimples will start attacking my face due to the dust particle outside. I'm not going to spoil my face just because of my fats. Ahhh~ Yet, I felt so sinful not to burn my fats away. Let's just curse that country for all the fatal air they had given us. It is going to kill us slowly. Slowly...... slowly..... *up in heaven*


Awww~ I want to burn those fats. Burn Burn Burnnnnn!


There'll be a video screening tomorrow in Manjusri. I've somehow watched it already. Seriously, I laugh till I rolled on the floor. Seriously, I'll really like the pirated camp. Let's watch our Camp Ebi-Paahgua tomorrow. =D


I've no friends, yes I've none. =D
I'm living by myself. I'm lonely. I'm a loner. Just too bad for me, because I suck too much.

I don't want to cry, I want to die.

9:14:00 PM

I told you I'm bored~

GIRLS FILL OUT THE TOP, GUYS FILL OUT THE BOTTOM. ( I had deleted the bottom )

About guys, Turned ON, OFF, or DC (Don't care)

Is taller than you: ON

Is shorter than you: OFF

Wears braces: DC

Has blue eyes: ON

Has green eyes: DC

Has hazel eyes: ON

Brown eyes: ON

Drinks alcohol: DC (don'tbedrunk)

Wears glasses: ON

Smokes: OFF (ifnotdon'tsmokeinfrontofme)

Plays sports: ON

Smiles a lot: ONNNN!

Calls you just to say Hi: ON

Compliments you: DC

Good dancer: OFF

Wears jewelry: OFF

Smiles when you walk in the room: ON!

Has brown hair: DC

Has Black hair: ONNNN

Has blonde hair:DC

Has red hair:OFFFF!

Makeup:OFFFF!

Can make you laugh at any given moment:ONNNNN AHHH!!

Loyal:ONNNNNNNNN AHH!

Plays guitar:ON

Plays drums:ONNNN!

Sing:ONNN!

He's buff (muscles): OFF (Notoomuscleplease)

He can draw: ON

Easily jealous: OFF

Doesn't eat meat: DC

Doesn't eat vegetables: OFF (you better eat more vege) XD

Has a tattoo: DC

Has a lip ring: OFF

Has tongue ring: DC

6:47:00 PM

BOO!


I'm rotting~ Oh ya, did I mentioned that I'm starting to love red =D. It's an awesome colour. I guess it's because I started like cherries and strawberries. And, they're red colour =D.


Mushrooms and fungus are growing all around me already. I need to kill my time. Suddenly, I miss studying -.-". Because It keeps me busy and I don't have to rot here. I'm lucky because I've my job already but it only starts during the 31st October. Rahhh~ I don't want to go shopping anymore because it's killing me when I can't get that something which I wanted. So, I can only look at it and just go. Awwwww~ I'm going to stay at home till the day I've the money XD ! I'm crazyyyy~


I'm BORED lah~
Someone entertain me please. hais~

1:58:00 PM

Monday, October 16, 2006

I met up with KokWei today to get his present for his friend. He wanted something that is handmade. Thus, we roamed around Bugis Junction. Then, he asked me do anywhere selling a plank of wood. So, I bought him to Art Friend. Seriously, that was the first time I ever stepped in. XD Sound alittle weird because I'm living around here and I'm just another mountain turtle around.


I've loads of things to do these few days. Firstly, I want to get the DIY accessories for my mum since my mum wants to do it. Then, I want to set up a online shop just to sell those clothes that I don't wear at all or seldom wear. I don't want it to rot there anymore =D My clothes are all cramped together in my wardrobe already. Thirdly, I want to work and get the money for my rebonding =D. Then the second pay will go to my boyboy's vaccination. Third pay will go to the treat for my family. =D


Oh ya, I bought myself the lucido for myself during the short shopping with Esther and WaiYik =D. I hope it comes useful. Should I go for a haircut first? Or should I wait till I've my hair cut when I'm having my rebonding? Ahhh~ I don't know. I'm such a spendthrift but no choice. Girls like to doll up =D. I don't want to waste my youth. Now, I'm still young might as well doll up and do whatever I want before I grows old and I can never wear what I want anymore or people will starts to laugh xD !


Ahhh, I just read some forums telling me about rebonding. They said that the more you rebond, the more it don't last. Awww~ What am I going to do. Roars!~ I shall take good care of my hair for now ~ Awww~ -.-" I don't know what to do lah~ They said Jean Yips had a good quality in helping the hair. Ahhhh~ I might go Priscilla's salon to have it =D I don't know lah~ Since it spoils the hair so much -.-" Never mind~ I shall dote myself tomorrow XD ! It's been really awhile I've been relaxing myself. Post-exams period really rocks =D


I'm feeling lost in my life. Who can bring me out through this?

9:31:00 PM

D&T =D

All right~ I've kind of screwed up my D&T papers. Whatever it is, I'm sure that I'll score that 40 marks in my Section A because I know what is the answers. WOOHOO~ *clapsclaps* Then, my section B. I'll definitely die there. May buddha protect me !


I went to Bugis Junction after the exams and ate KFC. I'm growing fat already~ They didn't want to eat other things except fast food -.-" And, I just ate MacDonald yesterday. Awww~ I'm bound to be fat soon. John was working at the japanese Ice Cream. I shall try the ice cream soon. It just looked so delicious XD ! I want I want! John ah~ If you see this blog, please give me a free one okay LOLS !


Now, I'm back at home rotting again. I was sleeping when Yuan Yi marmie called and she said she want to come Bugis but in the end she didn't come again. Oh well~ I'm going back to sleep again. I'm just sooooooo tired~ Physical and Mental drainage had done! =D I LOVES MY DAYS !



I'm rotting~ (Fungus & Mushroom growing)
AWWWWWWWW~

4:28:00 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I found a job or rather two job! =D

Woohoo~ I found a job and I'll be working starting from this 31st October. Spot me at Bugis Street 2nd floor =D I'll be selling CD temporarily and then changing to be a retailer of clothes. Yay~ My dream to be a retailer for clothes had finally came true. But, I've to be alittle disappointed because I'll only work for one and a half day a week. Then, the pay is only $4 per hour. How can I survive through my holiday~ -.-" Anyway, I was glad to find another job to be a data base-er LOLS ! I don't know what do everyone calls that. =D


All right, I woke up to have my breakfast with my family and then off I went for my piano lesson as usual. I was waiting for the bus to go SBM when people starts calling in to ask my wherabout, this I'm grateful. At least, they still remember me. =D Yet, when I was waiting for my bus, they told me that everything had end. -.-" Anyway, I still go there despite the fact that everything has end. At least, I do myself meaningful by passing WenCai his books and helping to produce a bowl of rice LOLS ! Please do guess how do I produce a bowl of rice =D


At the same time, I get to know a penang girl who is very pretty. Moreover, she's a very nice girl. Seriously, I was very shy to talk to unfamiliar people but afterawhile I'm all right again =D She's super cute! I admired the slow pace in her life. She seems to be having nothing in her mind. Maybe it's our fast pace that I almost died here so I started to admire everything she had. Her life seems to be more free than us. Now, I know why everyone wants to leave our own country. It's due to the fast pace. We had a somehow outing together after the rice making. We went to walk around Bugis Street. I didn't spot anything that I wanted since I've been there yesterday. Awww~ Maybe I'll be getting more tops since I've loads of bottoms right now. I've more than 10 skirts and afew pants. =D I don't wear pants~ But, I've to wear to SBM. So, I just have to get afew. Other then that, my pants are putting my wardrobe being rot.


We didn't have anything to do and thus we went to library. =D We explored from the top to the bottom. I'm getting bored of library but I still love my study loudge. =D I'll be there to study during the January to mug hard for my O level. LOLS ! I sound alittle typical singaporean because I'm so kiasu to be studying way too early. Who cares~ I just want to have good result, I don't even care how people looked at me =D !


I'm back at home right now again. I'm supposed to study my D&T. But, guess what? My headache starts to come back when I started alittle for my revision. How pathetic~ Awww~ I just felt like I'm fainting soon. Buddha save me please =D


I just feel so lost going there. Suddenly, I starts to have all kinds of thoughts. Am I belonging there? I just don't feel right. Everything seems to change, the systems seem to change. So what you have a position in there. They can just let you to do one good thing and then you'll have the position. Then, what about those who really did put in efforts? Gone? Forgotten? Lost? I don't know. I don't want to know. I don't even know what are the position for. It's just for a show. Who cares about it anyway. I know some people cares alot about the position. I started to step back and wonders. What is this? Caring for the position and when you doesn't get it, you don't care. Then starting to act as if you care when the promotion day are coming. All this lost meaning, seriously. I just don't feel as if I belong there anymore. The people, the systems. I don't know. Whatever~ I don't care anymore. I'll no longer care. This sucks~ I've lost my meaning in doing all this. I don't even know if it's worth my efforts, my time. Because, after awhile, you'll be gone, be forgotten. Yes, I'll be gone and forgotten soon. So soon~


Everything sucks~

10:09:00 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Yay! Firstly, I'm happy~ I bought alot of things =D Though, it's kind of cheap stuffs but at least I like it. And, something to suprise of is that, after so many years, my dad bought something for me when I wanted it. Cool right~ At least, I'm happy =D Happiness are what we seek for. Yet, it's just too bad because this is just temporary happiness. Buddha~ I still remember the things that you had taught. =D


I'm so lazy to blog~ But, I really want to rant !~ Shall start my ranting once I post the pictures =D. Pictures paint a thousand words =D



My korkor's sword ~


He kept wanting to take my place where I put my books on my piano. He just want to show this sword off. Weird korkor~ But, I didn't want it because I've got no where to put my books. TOO BAD~ =D



Papa bought this for me =D ! He kept bargaining with the auntie and eventually this cost us $8. *Laughs*


Earrings which I bought with YingHui =D


Skirt that I bought msyelf =D


My clips~ =DDDD





I'm damn self-obessed~ Oh my~ Rahhhhh~ I clip my hair because pimples are breaking so badly lah~ *ROARS*



This is what I wear today =D I know it looks weird because I just any-O-how pull one shirt out and started trying it and just wore it for today =D



The skirt that I bought =D I'm so white by wearing white top and bottom on myself. This style looks so formal -.-"



I didn't buy this top and bottom because I look so fat lah~


BOOO~


I love my boy :)





*Ranting*

*Roars* Hey you, are you dumbo or what? I dislike you for whom yourself are. Seriously, I just don't like to be with you. You act too much, trying to act as if you are oh-that-nice. Cut it~ Sorry~ I don't need any actors in my life. You are just another hypocrite existing in this world. You are acting too much, too much for me to tolerate any longer. Everyone has their own limit. And, you had irritated me till the max. Sorry~ no more tolerating your nonsense anymore. For now onwards, just shut up =D I don't want to take any comments from you neither I want to talk much stuffs with you. =D Don't talk to me unless it is necessary =D *CHEERS* We shall not own each other anything anymore. =D



*Roars* Guys are getting more and more sicker~ I don't like to make friends anymore unless you're a girl =D Nahh, I'm not a les or anything, I just like to have girlfriends. Guys, please have your eyes opened wide. I wrote in my friendster that I don't accept people whom I don't know. So, STOP ADDING. And, stupid guy~ I hate people to ask me to be their girlfriend when I hardly know them. SUCKER~ GET LOST~ I'm starting to hate to have friendster~ I might be closing soon? Or I'll be blocking message soon, or should I just heck care about messages? Nono, I guess I'll just reject that person even though I know them but forgotten about them. Because, I always will message the person who I don't know and ask if I do know them and forgotten about them. Hmmm yeah~ I'll not entertain those replied message that they don't know me and just want to be friends. Freak that =D


And, those people who any-O-how to add people whom you don't know. I'll hate you too =D Because you're such a loser trying to act as if you have so many friends. Childish~ It's just friendster, little kiddy =D It's not as if you know them in reality. And, it's not as if you have so many friends in the reality. You just have MANY friends in the net world because you acted as if you have =D


Aww~ I just hate actors~ Lame people~

10:47:00 PM

Shopping shopping!!!!!!!!

Shopping spreeeeee is coming =D

I got to find that auntie to ask about my job before going around to shop. I got to get a white baby-doll top. Perhaps, I might get a pair of heels. I want to grow tall lah~ If I'm tall enough, I don't have to rely on heels anymore. arghh~


Allright, I'm in a super act cute style today LOLS ! I don't care~ I've to pin up my hair now because my pimples are breaking at my forehead. *ROARS*


Whatever~ I'm going out now =D
Ciaos~

2:22:00 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

*ROARSSS*


My mum wanted to send my hamsters away~ And, it's my brother who want to take it to give his friends again. WALAOOOOOOOO~ I'm damn pissed off lah~ They're my hamsters~ Why can't they just spare a thought for me. It's my hamsters, not theirs. WALAO~ I'm starting to hate to be at home. I WANT TO LEAVE THIS PLACE LAH~

7:45:00 PM

Math Paper 2 & Physic Paper

I screwed my Math Paper 2. How stupid can I go? You know there was two question in the Section B and I'm supposed to choose one question out of the two. And I'm left with only 15 minutes at tat time. So, I just rush through it. And I didn't manage to do the depression or whatever shit. I didn't even understand at all. This paper sucks. And then, I was going through the question since the teacher had told us to have our pen down. Then, I saw the other question that I didn't do, I can do it lor~


Physic paper was worst. I don't even know which formula should I use for the calculating part. Arghh~ I screwed all my papers. Arghh~ I sounded pathetic. Whatever~ I thought I was the only one who doesn't know how to do that paper. Yet, my friends told me that they can't do it too. =DDD At least, I'm not that bad. I still thought I'm so stupid now, but actually it's that paper being too sucks =D


Whatever~ I'm on a holiday mood already~ Oh well~ I'm looking for job now =D Anyone wants to hire me? Anyway, I've to go and find that auntie who had booked me a month ago to be her employee. So yeah, I'll be going to find her tomorrow. I shall pray hard that she hasn't had employed anyone. Or else, I'm jobless~ Noooo~ That cannot be the case =D


And, I went to have a shopping today. Nothing interest me except I bought a small little ribbon clip that looks cute to me =D I seriously need a shopping at bugis street. I want that baby-doll top lah~ *ROARS* Hope that no one buys before me =D


Yay~ I'm officially in holiday mood~ But nahh, I'm still left with D&T paper~ *ROARS*

6:51:00 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Baddd headache~

Tell me that my blood pressure isn't low. *Roars* I had felt giddy everytime I stood up last time. Then, my mum said that I must have low blood pressure. And, I kept denying. For now, the feeling is coming back again. I kept feeling so giddy. I hate that feeling =(


Well, it must be due to stress. Whatever~ I'll be having stress-less soon. I want that period to come quickly. Aww~ I'm feeling terrible. Can I chop my head down =DDD *smilesmile*


I've gone crazy~ *ROARS*

10:22:00 PM

I screwed Amath Paper 1 up

I've careless mistake all in that Amath Paper 1. I didn't notice it till the time when the teacher came over to my side then I saw it. I don't have time to change it anymore. So, I just blindly looking at my paper being collected. Aww~ That's pathetic. Whatever, I knew I won't make it for my Amath this year afterall. At least, I knew I won't fail with a pathetic 7/100 again =\.


I was thinking about what to eat when I was walking home. I've to choose between chicken rice and curry rice. In the end, I chose curry rice because I did not directly eat a meat. So, I went to the coffee shop below my flat. The curry rice's stall hasn't opened and I'm left with a choice that is chicken rice. Afterall, I consoled myself by telling myself that at least the chicken rice is the best among all the chicken rice I have eaten. So, I'll only eat this stall's chicken rice. And by ensuring that it doesn't close down, I've to eat it to help them from getting a lesser possibility of closing down. LOLS ! There was a ban mian shop which I had been eating it for a very long time and then stopped eating because I was lazy to walk all the way to bugis street to eat. Then after a few months, that shop closed down. -.-" So, if you like to eat something, kindly support them XD !


Tomorrow paper will be Math paper 2 and Physic paper! Oh well, Physic paper can squeeze my brain juice out again. Awww~ It is going to be torturing today =D Please just let me promote to Secondary 4 =DDDD


3 more papers to go
2 more days to have my freedom =D


I WANT TO SHOP~

10:50:00 AM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Why do handsome guys becoming gay?

All right, I'm feeling terrible now. It seems that there's a lump in my throat which caused me to feel so weird now.


Well, I will like to ask everyone. Why do handsome guys becoming gay? If you are not updated with that two guys which had been famous across the whole blog site and friendster. They were a couple of handsome guys, yet they're gay. My buddha~ Does that means that straight and handsome guys are existing soon? Nooooo~ Lols!~ I'll still like to watch handsome guys walking down the streets. And, if I am to imagine that I'll be seeing a couple of handsome guys hugging together and walking on the streets. I'll definitely feel uneasy. It's not that I do not accept them, it's just that they aren't the one that will appear in my small little world. They just don't exist in my world. I do accept them for who they are but I just couldn't make out why do two guys have mutual attraction towards one another? Don't guys love pretty girls? My buddha~


Hmmm, I did a VERY short shopping today. At least I managed to glance for afew nice tops that I might get it. =D Awww, I just love to shop. Shopping is just girls' instinct. Afterall, we're girls =D


I'm giving up on Amath, I doubt I can get 98 to score for a pass for this whole year. So, I might as well just forget about it. Though, I did afew questions on it and I actually knew how to do all the questions. Alright, this seems bad. Because, once I stepped into the examination hall, my mind will go blank again.


I was supposed to study in the library but I just managed to do afew questions and started to have our juicy gossip. I've to admit that I love to bitch about others XD ! Who doesn't ? Seriously, I don't know why girls can be that despo that they can just go for anyone who just drop by. How pathetic can one go? We've finished our gossip already. So, I'm sure I'll be studying tomorrow. Since, I'm sure what I wanted and that I need to have a good result in both my Emath paper 2 and Physic paper on friday =D

Exams are ending soon =D I'm a happy girl~ LOVE ME or HATE ME xD ! I don't care. whatever~ XD

11:10:00 PM

COOL!~ Geography & Amath Paper 2

All right. Firstly, I'll like to praise myself. Actually, my efforts still pay off in the end. Stuffs that I've tried to squeeze into my brain had totally drained me out mentally and physically. Yet, I'm still happy. Geography was the best as I really write all kinds of stuffs that I remembered onto that paper. I don't if it helps, but at least it gives me a teeny weeny bit of a hope to hope. Sometimes, we can't do anything except to just hope.


Amath was atrocious as usual. I knew how to do that paper. But, I just forgotten about the formula for the Circular Measure. There were afew questions that I started doing at the last minute. Let's pray hard that I can get it correct because I didn't check that paper at all. There was a proving identity question. Rachel said that it might have set wrongly because no one can prove it at all. Yet, I almost prove it but I still fail. Booo~ Seriously, Amath seems fun =D


I'll be having Amath Paper 1 tomorrow. Sound weird?! Yeah it is. I'm having Amath Paper 2 first then the Paper1. I'll be going to Library now to study with YingHui =DD Spot me there~


LOVES :)

1:48:00 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

My mum is DAMN STUBBORN!

I can't believe my mum is so stubborn. She insists that the two of us carry that damn television up that high safe-box. I told her to wait till my brother to come back to move it. yet, she insisted that she wanted it now. Then, she wanted me to climb up and put that television up. Isn't it obvious that I couldn't make it at all. The TV is so heavy and how the hell can I be carrying it up there.

I'm so easily IRRITATED nowaday! So, STOP THE HELL OUT OF ANYTHING ON ME. I don't give a damn to anything. You hear me? I even find that damn nicholas so irritating for asking me to DOWNLOAD HIS DAMN SONG to send it to him. Who do you think he is to me? He kept spam me with his nonsense about getting a song that he wanted. Can't he see my nick that I'm studying? And, I'm pissed off now and he trying to piss me even further. *ROARS*


I'm going insane seriously. I need a freaking BREAK lah~ *ROARS* Why must torture me with all these kinds of nonsense and not letting me to concentrate on my studies. I just want to scream out loud lah~ *ROARS*


I'm breaking down soon.

5:13:00 PM

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/234608/1/.html
Please read this. My buddha! What the heaven~

4:45:00 PM

I'm insane! I've gone mad.

I have started jabbering away with nonsense once again. Just that, I'm in a sober state right now. So, I have to be sure that I'm crazy alright. Who doesn't go insane when we've to swallow books that stacked up to the ceiling. Let me bang myself onto the wall and die there =D


*dropped*

3:50:00 PM

Science Paper 1 & Chemistry Paper

Science Paper 1 consists of Physic and Chemistry's MCQ. I didn't study for my Physic at all because there was not enought time for me to finish my Chemistry Paper. So, I give up my Physic since it's just a MCQ. Guess what? I'm sure I'll flunk my Physic parts. Arghh~ At least, some of the questions make sense that I can use my own concepts to answer the question. Buddha bless !


Chemistry Paper was horrible terrible vegetable. I memorise all the important facts for Chemistry. Yet, those that I remembered, I forgotten most of them when I'm doing the paper. Then those that I didn't study just came out. Ahhhh~ Seriously, will I be able to pass ? I was typically using my own memories to do that paper since some I didn't even study at all. So, I'm sure I'm going to have 3 mistakes as I was going through the notes again, I saw the answer. *ROARS*


I'll be having Geography and Amath paper 2. This is even worst. These are the only two subjects which I have been getting F9 ever since the start of the year. Isn't it COOL? And now, I happened to have both my worst subject coming out on the same day. Ahhh~ I can't imagine my result anymore. As days passes, I knew the time to get our result are getting nearer. Promotion day are coming nearer too. Which means, I'm dead. Ahhh~ This is the worst year ever! Let's put our palm and prayed for a better year next year. And, please let me promote =D


Will I be able to survive for this year? Just kill me please~ *ROARS*

1:09:00 PM

Monday, October 09, 2006

Math Paper 1 & Social Studies

I'm so lucky alright. Must be the devas helped me through it =X. Because I've taken Ven.Mahinda's advice to pray for Devas for help during exams. So, I prayed and prayed hard for Devas to help me to give me questions that I have revised because I didn't revise finish for my Social Studies. And, my source based was Diplomacy which I've studied but of no use because I don't have to use any knowledge to do the source based. Then, my structure essay was the one that I've been studying day and night yesterday and manage to remember abit. I just pasted the whole chunk of my memories onto that sheet of paper for the first structure question. But, the second one, I couldn't remember anymore.


Math paper was horrible. I kept skipping my questions. And, I didn't manage to finish that damn question and that stupid graph. I'm not sure how many marks I've lost but I'm sure that I'll be losing alot marks for this damn paper. Ahhh~ Kill me please~!


I'll be having my Science MCQ consists of Physic and Chemistry then my Chemistry paper. Will I be able to survive tomorrow? I don't know. Bless me please~



This is horrible~

1:46:00 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

退后

Maybe I shouldn't have believe. I shouldn't have even thought of it. I thought it might be exceptional, yet it proves me wrong. I thought I'll be right this time to believe. To believe something I ought to believe. My instinct pulled me back. I still chose to believe it. I almost fallen to the trap. It isn't going to be anything in my eyes. It is just nothing. No more no more!~ I have believe wrongly. This sucks. I don't believe in this.


I don't know what to do right now. I haven't finish revising. I doubt my last minute work help. I guess I'll give up in my Combined humanities already. I don't think I can do well at all. I've been getting F9 from the starting of the year till now. This result makes me hate my humanities even more. Even my file, the teacher is too strict in marking it.


Please tell me everything was a illusion. Alone in this house, the atmostphere is empty. I'm crying. No one cares. I don't need any sympathy either. I don't self-pity myself too. I'm just so loser in this. My tears were right to fall. I can't control them. I thought I was strong, all I need was myself. Yet, when I failed in myself. I failed in too many things. Why are all this happening. I'm lost~ I really don't know what to do. How I wish everything was put to an end. It was me who had cause it. I blame no one.


I want cry no more~

10:02:00 PM

Exams officially start =D

My exams will be starting from tomorrow onwards till next monday. So, I guess I won't be online for long time except blogging. Maybe perhaps when I'm resting, I might online again =D I think that I won't be able to make it for this coming exams. I haven't finish studying for any subject. I don't know how can I survive throughout it. I'm returning to freedom and meet-up with my friends after my exams. I've completely lost contacts with them already. Maybe it's time to contact them again. It's better to have more friends than have more strangers.


I'm going on a shopping trip too. Maybe right after my exams? I'm searching for a baby-doll top. I've been in love with baby-doll =D I want to reborn my hair but I've to wait till we've finished our extended curriculum which is after 15 Nov. Arghh~ Whatever it is, I'll be working real hard for my job. LOLS Please pray hard for me that the lady hasn't employed anyone =D *Prayhardhard*


Oh wells, I'm drifting further. Whatever it is, I'll try to study hard for this current exams and be promote to Secondary 4. Yet, I just don't feel like studying. Motivate me please~ hais


I cried for no reason~ Crazy me~

2:33:00 PM

I'm drunk~

Arghh~ Right now, I'm not sure if I'll start bladdering nonsense because I'm drunk. It's not that I want to drink. I just want to try if I'll be drunk after one sip again. There was a time when my second brother told me to try drinking tiger beer and I was drunk after one sip. So, I tried the red wine for I thought it won't be as strong as tiger beer. Then, after the first sip, I'm alittle drunk. My big brother told me that I should drink again. I should drink a bigger mouth so that I won't get drunk so easily. Thus, I went to try it again despite the fact I know that I'm drunk. Then, I went drunk. I even start bladdering nonsense. Even when I was smsing with Jackson, he told me to drink warm water so that I won't be so drunk. Then, I told him the place doesn't provide warm teacher. LOLS ! And, he replied that he was very sure that I'm drunk because I replied warm teacher instead of warm water. LOLS !


I'm just so weak in drinking. Aww~ Don't ever ask me to go for a drink with you. Because, I will die~ LOLS ! It's only afew sip and then I'll get very drunk. Though, I know what I'm doing but then I just don't know why am I doing nonsense. LOLS ! At least, I'm not so drunk that I almost went lunatic =D


All right, I woke up very early to go to Potong Pasir MacDonald to study. Didn't really study alot but I learnt alot from Raymond's mistake XD ! I guess he didn't really study at all before doing the paper. Raymond ah Raymond! Study hard hard alright =D


Then, we went for a short sharing then I went home to dress up and stuffs. My make up was atrocious. Just because I knew that my dad was coming home. I just any-o-how do my make up. Anyway, don't comment on my make up. LOLS, I haven't been wearing make up for a very long time. I'm feeling so sad that I've lost my make up ability. Arghh~ Whatever, I'm working soon, which means I'll gain back my make up skill soon again. *Roars* Don't you dare to comment anything. XD !


I must really say that the wedding was so grand with army marching in. The bride is so cute and friendly. Seriously, I like her =D She is so pretty!~ The dress that she had worn were all princess-like! Oh my! How I wished my future wedding will be that grand. Awww! Fat hope. LOLS let's get back to the reality. It's still a long way to go. LOLS ! I guess she's the most fortunate girl in the whole wide world. My cousin loves her so much! It's hard to have a guy to love you so deeply, you know. LOLS !


We had a very late dinner. The food that are served are in a very slow rate. Thus, I get hungry very easily. Yet in the same time, I'm so sleepy. Catch up with my cousin and we promised to go out after her O level. Yay! I miss her! She bought a dress that was super nice! Arghh~ I want to grow taller! LOLS ! Because, I can only wear those super short dress. If I was to wear her dress, it will definitely be too long for me. Ahhhhh! I want to grow taller. I shall jump everyday =D *jumpjump* I want to grow taller!


Hmmm, I haven't been meeting up with my relative for a very long time. Getting to see them again today, everything seems so weird. I even forgotten how to pronouce their name. Ahhh~ It seems that everything has to be practice to be perfect. They had changed alot. Some comments given by them seems so sarsasctic. Oh well, I won't be bothered by those. Then, all my cousins were telling me that my brothers had girlfriend already, and it's my turn to bring my boyfriend. *ROARS* I don't have lah~ -.-" But seriously, I felt so weird. We were walking in a pair and a pair. Then, I was the one walking alone. Ahhhhh~ Stupid people, stupid family. Hmphs~ At least I'm free from everything XD ! I shall find one who can dote me and pampered me. Someone who I know I can fall back on. =D That's buddha XD ! I know buddha loves me XD !


All right, I guess I'm starting my nonsense soon. I shall stop here before I'm going to start jabbering away again.


I don't want to do this anymore
I don't want to be the reason why
I see him dying alittle more inside
I don't want to hurt him anymore
I don't want to take away his life
I don't want to be a MURDERER


I don't know if this is what I really want.
I don't know if I'm doing the right thing
I don't know if I should love hate you

I'll pull onto the railing before I start falling down.



My family! Future family photograph =D


Relatives, Cousins


Sister-in-Law, Me!


Cousins loves !


Family & the sweet couples


Cousins and my dearest ahma =D


Me and the pretty bride =D

1:04:00 AM

Friday, October 06, 2006

HAZE KILLED ME!

Chinese exams was atrocious. I didn't know what I'm writing at all. Then, I went to write words instead of numbers on my paper 2, which is instructed to us in the instruction that they wanted numbers. I'm seriously dead. I've lost 10 marks because of this. I mean, it's not very fair afterall. I'm still stating down the answer and it's not like my answer was wrong! Please pray hard for me that my teacher do not pinalise these stupid mistakes. Please please please!


Hazed almost killed me. I do have asthma's record in the past. Ever since the last attack during my Primary 2 time, I haven't been suffering from this kind of symptoms already. Now, it's coming back. I'm coughing like mad, I can't breathe well. My eyes had irritation in the afternoon and I felt like dying. It's too much of this suffering. Haze wasn't that bad in the past few years but why is it so bad this year? I really hope that there will be a emerency holiday for all of us because of the haze. Seriously, I doubt anyone can do the exams because of the haze. Curse the haze! Curse the people who had burnt it. Can't you just spare a thought for everyone in this small little earth and the global warming? Isn't it bad enough? Now I've to suck in all the carbon dioxide and slowly killing myself with it. I'm not feeling good at all. Or rather, I'm feeling so dragful. I wished I was off dead. It might be better!


I won't have the burden of exams, studies, family, friends, hazes, piano, physcially and mentally. I'm so so so drained out now. It must be the moon doing all this funny stuffs, causing me to dislike everything in this earth. Making me to be in a state of mental unconscious. I don't even know what I'm doing. When I get back my consciousness, I had finished exams. Seriously, will I died in this exams? I need A1! Perhaps, my expectation is too high, but I really want to do well for my End-Of-Year. I want to see a result full of As. =D


Dad was telling me about my future. He really wanted me to complete with a Degree. How stress can I get when I'm continously told by my Dad that I need to have a good result because he didn't want to lose his face to his sibling's children. Why must they put so much hope on me and that makes a burden to me. Because, it's a must to get a degree just for the sake of his face, my family and myself. Seriously, I don't know what I'll do if I don't get into a University soon. Awww!~


I'm suffering from the haze right now. Please get away from me. My mood has been deteriored recently. I'm just too stress plus the sleepless night. I just don't seems to be myself. I can be so crazy at times, yet I can be normal again and then I'll screams my lungs off again. These few days, I'm just so weird. Ahhhh. Please forward the time. I don't want to stop at this moment anymore. It's too suffering already. I haven't been so stressed before ahhH~


救命啊！

11:00:00 PM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

新加坡被烟雾淹没了！啊啊啊啊啊啊～请看你出你的窗外！好酷啊！天啊啊啊～真的太恐怖了！ 我既然看不到Bugis了！可见烟雾真得太浓了！浓得看不到任何东西了啦！是谁在破坏环境的卫生啊！天啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~这是满满的让我们死亡呢！天啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~

而我，也被一堆的纸张，书本淹没了！好酷对不对！天啊啊啊啊~

烟雾，请你走得越远越好啊！滚滚滚滚滚啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~
笨蛋的烟雾！

7:21:00 PM

明天就是华文考试了！

我有点病了。一定是那个烟雾的错！鼻子有点不好受，还有一点咳嗽，十分得难受啊！明天就是华文考试了，我不可以在这个时候病倒啊！求求你让我在考完我的考试后才生病好不好？这得很难受啊！烟雾求求你快点走开。跟我滚开！滚啊啊啊！


妈妈说我们该做生意了。我们会从小生意开始。就由我和妈妈一起做，然后由哥哥与我一起卖！说真的我还有点感兴趣。这应该会很好玩吧！这怎样也是手工玩意儿，而我也挺喜欢玩手工的啊。就如我的第一份工作也是手工的。可是那比较容易，我只要培小孩子玩就好了。而小孩子啊~ 都是那么的天真无邪，又可爱又淘气。我还能记得曾经有三位小女孩就向公主一般，十分的可爱动人。这都是妈妈教育的好啊！就连他们的妈妈也挺优雅的。


今天就是最后一天我会用华文写日记了。真的有点感觉怪怪的。也许是不习惯用华文打字吧，或也许是华文退步了吧？可是我还是挺特别的，因为很少人会用华文写网若日记的。哈哈哈！别抄我的做法哦！~不然你就是一个猫。英文所说的狗屁猫 （Copycat xD) 。 哈哈哈！华文真好玩！哈哈哈～


我就此停笔了。


婉菱启
２００６年１０月０５日

6:49:00 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

过敏

好累好累！再多两天就是华文考试了。我们再也没有作文了。现在的是给我们一题报章报道，一题接下去的文字以及一个故事。我们只能在中选出一题。实在讨厌！


刚才，有一个怪怪的人，无缘无故叫我做他的女朋友。问题是~我与他并不熟。他还说什么，他是三六九的人。这人真的有点怪！我才不在乎你是谁呢！就算你是天上的神，我也不会理你啊！我最痛恨就是怪人，而你就是其中一个。Hameed 别以为你很大！


好的！我要去读书了！读书读书读书读书！书书书书！ 啊啊啊啊啊啊~


我的表哥的婚礼，我该穿什么? 嗨~ 别想了，到了那天才决定吧！我好想我的堂姐~ 堂姐，你要好好加油！O 水准并不容易！你要好好的考啊！


再见！

8:42:00 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

我很想爱他

今天并没有发生什么特别的事。我拿回我们的华文测验成绩（不是考试）。其实，我还以为我会不及格呢！因为，我根本就不会做他的理解问答。不少人都只拿到刚刚及格的成绩，所以我还以为我也不例外。结果，我好考的并不差。甚至，我还拿到了七十份。不错不错！这只能说是我太过幸运了。


这几天，心情真的是差投了。也许是压力的问题吧~ 只要一不小心，我就可以发火了。啊啊啊！所以啊别靠近我，否则我也不知道我会干些什么。考试啊考试！快点迅速过去。我不要再待在这里了。想要死，却又不能死那样，实在不好受啊！为什么好像时间走得越来越慢啊？救命啊！


希望佛祖，神啊，官地公，保佑我平平安安，顺顺利利的度过这一个难关。


爱情这反面的东西，我不想碰。我的爱只会给那些值得我去爱的人。我不要任何人给我任何承诺，承诺总是被遗忘。我只要拿份真诚的心。也许就是麻木了，爱情就是在一起然后就分手。句号总是画在分手后。这世界根本不存这永恒的爱情。相信我吧！就算夫妻在一起到白头到老，爱情总是会跟随着那位先走的人。


如果有关于爱情的作文，我一定会好好的写。因为我对爱，失去了信心。所以，我相信我一定会有十分多东西要写在那份作文。这是一件好事好不好！哈哈哈！


真有点感到自己十分的苯！我既然在笑自己。啊啊啊！一定是给考试昏过了头，所以有点怪怪的。啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！


啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！　

9:47:00 PM

Monday, October 02, 2006

I really cannot stand studying at home. My back is aching right now. Mum is nagging and all kinds of noise are coming from them. No matter of their frequence quarrelling or Mum's PMS. Arghhh~ Can't they just give me some peace? Seriously, sometime when I needed peace so much yet they always give me all kinds of nonsense. This is going to be my study week and the most crucial time of the year. So, shut up shut up and SHUT UP! Arghhh~ I want to kill myself already~ Crazy people, crazy family, crazy home, crazy me, crazy studies, crazy exams. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~


My back is aching so badly! Arghhhh~ CRAZY BODY TOO!~ AHhhhhhhhhhhhh~


Oh well, i'm going mad soon~ BOO!

11:44:00 PM