GIRLS FILL OUT THE TOP, GUYS FILL OUT THE BOTTOM. ( I had deleted the bottom )
About guys, Turned ON, OFF, or DC (Don't care)
Is taller than you: ON
Is shorter than you: OFF
Wears braces: DC
Has blue eyes: ON
Has green eyes: DC
Has hazel eyes: ON
Brown eyes: ON
Drinks alcohol: DC (don'tbedrunk)
Wears glasses: ON
Smokes: OFF (ifnotdon'tsmokeinfrontofme)
Plays sports: ON
Smiles a lot: ONNNN!
Calls you just to say Hi: ON
Compliments you: DC
Good dancer: OFF
Wears jewelry: OFF
Smiles when you walk in the room: ON!
Has brown hair: DC
Has Black hair: ONNNN
Has blonde hair:DC
Has red hair:OFFFF!
Makeup:OFFFF!
Can make you laugh at any given moment:ONNNNN AHHH!!
Loyal:ONNNNNNNNN AHH!
Plays guitar:ON
Plays drums:ONNNN!
Sing:ONNN!
He's buff (muscles): OFF (Notoomuscleplease)
He can draw: ON
Easily jealous: OFF
Doesn't eat meat: DC
Doesn't eat vegetables: OFF (you better eat more vege) XD
Has a tattoo: DC
Has a lip ring: OFF
Has tongue ring: DC
6:47:00 PM
BOO!
I'm rotting~ Oh ya, did I mentioned that I'm starting to love red =D. It's an awesome colour. I guess it's because I started like cherries and strawberries. And, they're red colour =D.
Mushrooms and fungus are growing all around me already. I need to kill my time. Suddenly, I miss studying -.-". Because It keeps me busy and I don't have to rot here. I'm lucky because I've my job already but it only starts during the 31st October. Rahhh~ I don't want to go shopping anymore because it's killing me when I can't get that something which I wanted. So, I can only look at it and just go. Awwwww~ I'm going to stay at home till the day I've the money XD ! I'm crazyyyy~
I'm BORED lah~
Someone entertain me please. hais~
1:58:00 PM
I met up with KokWei today to get his present for his friend. He wanted something that is handmade. Thus, we roamed around Bugis Junction. Then, he asked me do anywhere selling a plank of wood. So, I bought him to Art Friend. Seriously, that was the first time I ever stepped in. XD Sound alittle weird because I'm living around here and I'm just another mountain turtle around.
I've loads of things to do these few days. Firstly, I want to get the DIY accessories for my mum since my mum wants to do it. Then, I want to set up a online shop just to sell those clothes that I don't wear at all or seldom wear. I don't want it to rot there anymore =D My clothes are all cramped together in my wardrobe already. Thirdly, I want to work and get the money for my rebonding =D. Then the second pay will go to my boyboy's vaccination. Third pay will go to the treat for my family. =D
Oh ya, I bought myself the lucido for myself during the short shopping with Esther and WaiYik =D. I hope it comes useful. Should I go for a haircut first? Or should I wait till I've my hair cut when I'm having my rebonding? Ahhh~ I don't know. I'm such a spendthrift but no choice. Girls like to doll up =D. I don't want to waste my youth. Now, I'm still young might as well doll up and do whatever I want before I grows old and I can never wear what I want anymore or people will starts to laugh xD !
Ahhh, I just read some forums telling me about rebonding. They said that the more you rebond, the more it don't last. Awww~ What am I going to do. Roars!~ I shall take good care of my hair for now ~ Awww~ -.-" I don't know what to do lah~ They said Jean Yips had a good quality in helping the hair. Ahhhh~ I might go Priscilla's salon to have it =D I don't know lah~ Since it spoils the hair so much -.-" Never mind~ I shall dote myself tomorrow XD ! It's been really awhile I've been relaxing myself. Post-exams period really rocks =D
I'm feeling lost in my life. Who can bring me out through this?
9:31:00 PM
D&T =D
All right~ I've kind of screwed up my D&T papers. Whatever it is, I'm sure that I'll score that 40 marks in my Section A because I know what is the answers. WOOHOO~ *clapsclaps* Then, my section B. I'll definitely die there. May buddha protect me !
I went to Bugis Junction after the exams and ate KFC. I'm growing fat already~ They didn't want to eat other things except fast food -.-" And, I just ate MacDonald yesterday. Awww~ I'm bound to be fat soon. John was working at the japanese Ice Cream. I shall try the ice cream soon. It just looked so delicious XD ! I want I want! John ah~ If you see this blog, please give me a free one okay LOLS !
Now, I'm back at home rotting again. I was sleeping when Yuan Yi marmie called and she said she want to come Bugis but in the end she didn't come again. Oh well~ I'm going back to sleep again. I'm just sooooooo tired~ Physical and Mental drainage had done! =D I LOVES MY DAYS !
I'm rotting~ (Fungus & Mushroom growing)
AWWWWWWWW~
4:28:00 PM
I found a job or rather two job! =D
Woohoo~ I found a job and I'll be working starting from this 31st October. Spot me at Bugis Street 2nd floor =D I'll be selling CD temporarily and then changing to be a retailer of clothes. Yay~ My dream to be a retailer for clothes had finally came true. But, I've to be alittle disappointed because I'll only work for one and a half day a week. Then, the pay is only $4 per hour. How can I survive through my holiday~ -.-" Anyway, I was glad to find another job to be a data base-er LOLS ! I don't know what do everyone calls that. =D
All right, I woke up to have my breakfast with my family and then off I went for my piano lesson as usual. I was waiting for the bus to go SBM when people starts calling in to ask my wherabout, this I'm grateful. At least, they still remember me. =D Yet, when I was waiting for my bus, they told me that everything had end. -.-" Anyway, I still go there despite the fact that everything has end. At least, I do myself meaningful by passing WenCai his books and helping to produce a bowl of rice LOLS ! Please do guess how do I produce a bowl of rice =D
At the same time, I get to know a penang girl who is very pretty. Moreover, she's a very nice girl. Seriously, I was very shy to talk to unfamiliar people but afterawhile I'm all right again =D She's super cute! I admired the slow pace in her life. She seems to be having nothing in her mind. Maybe it's our fast pace that I almost died here so I started to admire everything she had. Her life seems to be more free than us. Now, I know why everyone wants to leave our own country. It's due to the fast pace. We had a somehow outing together after the rice making. We went to walk around Bugis Street. I didn't spot anything that I wanted since I've been there yesterday. Awww~ Maybe I'll be getting more tops since I've loads of bottoms right now. I've more than 10 skirts and afew pants. =D I don't wear pants~ But, I've to wear to SBM. So, I just have to get afew. Other then that, my pants are putting my wardrobe being rot.
We didn't have anything to do and thus we went to library. =D We explored from the top to the bottom. I'm getting bored of library but I still love my study loudge. =D I'll be there to study during the January to mug hard for my O level. LOLS ! I sound alittle typical singaporean because I'm so kiasu to be studying way too early. Who cares~ I just want to have good result, I don't even care how people looked at me =D !
I'm back at home right now again. I'm supposed to study my D&T. But, guess what? My headache starts to come back when I started alittle for my revision. How pathetic~ Awww~ I just felt like I'm fainting soon. Buddha save me please =D
I just feel so lost going there. Suddenly, I starts to have all kinds of thoughts. Am I belonging there? I just don't feel right. Everything seems to change, the systems seem to change. So what you have a position in there. They can just let you to do one good thing and then you'll have the position. Then, what about those who really did put in efforts? Gone? Forgotten? Lost? I don't know. I don't want to know. I don't even know what are the position for. It's just for a show. Who cares about it anyway. I know some people cares alot about the position. I started to step back and wonders. What is this? Caring for the position and when you doesn't get it, you don't care. Then starting to act as if you care when the promotion day are coming. All this lost meaning, seriously. I just don't feel as if I belong there anymore. The people, the systems. I don't know. Whatever~ I don't care anymore. I'll no longer care. This sucks~ I've lost my meaning in doing all this. I don't even know if it's worth my efforts, my time. Because, after awhile, you'll be gone, be forgotten. Yes, I'll be gone and forgotten soon. So soon~
Everything sucks~
10:09:00 PM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Yay! Firstly, I'm happy~ I bought alot of things =D Though, it's kind of cheap stuffs but at least I like it. And, something to suprise of is that, after so many years, my dad bought something for me when I wanted it. Cool right~ At least, I'm happy =D Happiness are what we seek for. Yet, it's just too bad because this is just temporary happiness. Buddha~ I still remember the things that you had taught. =D
I'm so lazy to blog~ But, I really want to rant !~ Shall start my ranting once I post the pictures =D. Pictures paint a thousand words =D
My korkor's sword ~
He kept wanting to take my place where I put my books on my piano. He just want to show this sword off. Weird korkor~ But, I didn't want it because I've got no where to put my books. TOO BAD~ =D
Papa bought this for me =D ! He kept bargaining with the auntie and eventually this cost us $8. *Laughs*
Earrings which I bought with YingHui =D
Skirt that I bought msyelf =D
My clips~ =DDDD
I'm damn self-obessed~ Oh my~ Rahhhhh~ I clip my hair because pimples are breaking so badly lah~ *ROARS*
This is what I wear today =D I know it looks weird because I just any-O-how pull one shirt out and started trying it and just wore it for today =D
The skirt that I bought =D I'm so white by wearing white top and bottom on myself. This style looks so formal -.-"
I didn't buy this top and bottom because I look so fat lah~
BOOO~
I love my boy :)
*Ranting*
*Roars* Hey you, are you dumbo or what? I dislike you for whom yourself are. Seriously, I just don't like to be with you. You act too much, trying to act as if you are oh-that-nice. Cut it~ Sorry~ I don't need any actors in my life. You are just another hypocrite existing in this world. You are acting too much, too much for me to tolerate any longer. Everyone has their own limit. And, you had irritated me till the max. Sorry~ no more tolerating your nonsense anymore. For now onwards, just shut up =D I don't want to take any comments from you neither I want to talk much stuffs with you. =D Don't talk to me unless it is necessary =D *CHEERS* We shall not own each other anything anymore. =D
*Roars* Guys are getting more and more sicker~ I don't like to make friends anymore unless you're a girl =D Nahh, I'm not a les or anything, I just like to have girlfriends. Guys, please have your eyes opened wide. I wrote in my friendster that I don't accept people whom I don't know. So, STOP ADDING. And, stupid guy~ I hate people to ask me to be their girlfriend when I hardly know them. SUCKER~ GET LOST~ I'm starting to hate to have friendster~ I might be closing soon? Or I'll be blocking message soon, or should I just heck care about messages? Nono, I guess I'll just reject that person even though I know them but forgotten about them. Because, I always will message the person who I don't know and ask if I do know them and forgotten about them. Hmmm yeah~ I'll not entertain those replied message that they don't know me and just want to be friends. Freak that =D
And, those people who any-O-how to add people whom you don't know. I'll hate you too =D Because you're such a loser trying to act as if you have so many friends. Childish~ It's just friendster, little kiddy =D It's not as if you know them in reality. And, it's not as if you have so many friends in the reality. You just have MANY friends in the net world because you acted as if you have =D
Aww~ I just hate actors~ Lame people~
10:47:00 PM
Shopping shopping!!!!!!!!
Shopping spreeeeee is coming =D
I got to find that auntie to ask about my job before going around to shop. I got to get a white baby-doll top. Perhaps, I might get a pair of heels. I want to grow tall lah~ If I'm tall enough, I don't have to rely on heels anymore. arghh~
Allright, I'm in a super act cute style today LOLS ! I don't care~ I've to pin up my hair now because my pimples are breaking at my forehead. *ROARS*
Whatever~ I'm going out now =D
Ciaos~
2:22:00 PM
*ROARSSS*
My mum wanted to send my hamsters away~ And, it's my brother who want to take it to give his friends again. WALAOOOOOOOO~ I'm damn pissed off lah~ They're my hamsters~ Why can't they just spare a thought for me. It's my hamsters, not theirs. WALAO~ I'm starting to hate to be at home. I WANT TO LEAVE THIS PLACE LAH~
7:45:00 PM
Math Paper 2 & Physic Paper
I screwed my Math Paper 2. How stupid can I go? You know there was two question in the Section B and I'm supposed to choose one question out of the two. And I'm left with only 15 minutes at tat time. So, I just rush through it. And I didn't manage to do the depression or whatever shit. I didn't even understand at all. This paper sucks. And then, I was going through the question since the teacher had told us to have our pen down. Then, I saw the other question that I didn't do, I can do it lor~
Physic paper was worst. I don't even know which formula should I use for the calculating part. Arghh~ I screwed all my papers. Arghh~ I sounded pathetic. Whatever~ I thought I was the only one who doesn't know how to do that paper. Yet, my friends told me that they can't do it too. =DDD At least, I'm not that bad. I still thought I'm so stupid now, but actually it's that paper being too sucks =D
Whatever~ I'm on a holiday mood already~ Oh well~ I'm looking for job now =D Anyone wants to hire me? Anyway, I've to go and find that auntie who had booked me a month ago to be her employee. So yeah, I'll be going to find her tomorrow. I shall pray hard that she hasn't had employed anyone. Or else, I'm jobless~ Noooo~ That cannot be the case =D
And, I went to have a shopping today. Nothing interest me except I bought a small little ribbon clip that looks cute to me =D I seriously need a shopping at bugis street. I want that baby-doll top lah~ *ROARS* Hope that no one buys before me =D
Yay~ I'm officially in holiday mood~ But nahh, I'm still left with D&T paper~ *ROARS*
6:51:00 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Baddd headache~
Tell me that my blood pressure isn't low. *Roars* I had felt giddy everytime I stood up last time. Then, my mum said that I must have low blood pressure. And, I kept denying. For now, the feeling is coming back again. I kept feeling so giddy. I hate that feeling =(
Well, it must be due to stress. Whatever~ I'll be having stress-less soon. I want that period to come quickly. Aww~ I'm feeling terrible. Can I chop my head down =DDD *smilesmile*
I've gone crazy~ *ROARS*
10:22:00 PM
I screwed Amath Paper 1 up
I've careless mistake all in that Amath Paper 1. I didn't notice it till the time when the teacher came over to my side then I saw it. I don't have time to change it anymore. So, I just blindly looking at my paper being collected. Aww~ That's pathetic. Whatever, I knew I won't make it for my Amath this year afterall. At least, I knew I won't fail with a pathetic 7/100 again =\.
I was thinking about what to eat when I was walking home. I've to choose between chicken rice and curry rice. In the end, I chose curry rice because I did not directly eat a meat. So, I went to the coffee shop below my flat. The curry rice's stall hasn't opened and I'm left with a choice that is chicken rice. Afterall, I consoled myself by telling myself that at least the chicken rice is the best among all the chicken rice I have eaten. So, I'll only eat this stall's chicken rice. And by ensuring that it doesn't close down, I've to eat it to help them from getting a lesser possibility of closing down. LOLS ! There was a ban mian shop which I had been eating it for a very long time and then stopped eating because I was lazy to walk all the way to bugis street to eat. Then after a few months, that shop closed down. -.-" So, if you like to eat something, kindly support them XD !
Tomorrow paper will be Math paper 2 and Physic paper! Oh well, Physic paper can squeeze my brain juice out again. Awww~ It is going to be torturing today =D Please just let me promote to Secondary 4 =DDDD
3 more papers to go
2 more days to have my freedom =D
I WANT TO SHOP~
10:50:00 AM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Why do handsome guys becoming gay?
All right, I'm feeling terrible now. It seems that there's a lump in my throat which caused me to feel so weird now.
Well, I will like to ask everyone. Why do handsome guys becoming gay? If you are not updated with that two guys which had been famous across the whole blog site and friendster. They were a couple of handsome guys, yet they're gay. My buddha~ Does that means that straight and handsome guys are existing soon? Nooooo~ Lols!~ I'll still like to watch handsome guys walking down the streets. And, if I am to imagine that I'll be seeing a couple of handsome guys hugging together and walking on the streets. I'll definitely feel uneasy. It's not that I do not accept them, it's just that they aren't the one that will appear in my small little world. They just don't exist in my world. I do accept them for who they are but I just couldn't make out why do two guys have mutual attraction towards one another? Don't guys love pretty girls? My buddha~
Hmmm, I did a VERY short shopping today. At least I managed to glance for afew nice tops that I might get it. =D Awww, I just love to shop. Shopping is just girls' instinct. Afterall, we're girls =D
I'm giving up on Amath, I doubt I can get 98 to score for a pass for this whole year. So, I might as well just forget about it. Though, I did afew questions on it and I actually knew how to do all the questions. Alright, this seems bad. Because, once I stepped into the examination hall, my mind will go blank again.
I was supposed to study in the library but I just managed to do afew questions and started to have our juicy gossip. I've to admit that I love to bitch about others XD ! Who doesn't ? Seriously, I don't know why girls can be that despo that they can just go for anyone who just drop by. How pathetic can one go? We've finished our gossip already. So, I'm sure I'll be studying tomorrow. Since, I'm sure what I wanted and that I need to have a good result in both my Emath paper 2 and Physic paper on friday =D
Exams are ending soon =D I'm a happy girl~ LOVE ME or HATE ME xD ! I don't care. whatever~ XD
11:10:00 PM
COOL!~ Geography & Amath Paper 2
All right. Firstly, I'll like to praise myself. Actually, my efforts still pay off in the end. Stuffs that I've tried to squeeze into my brain had totally drained me out mentally and physically. Yet, I'm still happy. Geography was the best as I really write all kinds of stuffs that I remembered onto that paper. I don't if it helps, but at least it gives me a teeny weeny bit of a hope to hope. Sometimes, we can't do anything except to just hope.
Amath was atrocious as usual. I knew how to do that paper. But, I just forgotten about the formula for the Circular Measure. There were afew questions that I started doing at the last minute. Let's pray hard that I can get it correct because I didn't check that paper at all. There was a proving identity question. Rachel said that it might have set wrongly because no one can prove it at all. Yet, I almost prove it but I still fail. Booo~ Seriously, Amath seems fun =D
I'll be having Amath Paper 1 tomorrow. Sound weird?! Yeah it is. I'm having Amath Paper 2 first then the Paper1. I'll be going to Library now to study with YingHui =DD Spot me there~
LOVES :)
1:48:00 PM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
My mum is DAMN STUBBORN!
I can't believe my mum is so stubborn. She insists that the two of us carry that damn television up that high safe-box. I told her to wait till my brother to come back to move it. yet, she insisted that she wanted it now. Then, she wanted me to climb up and put that television up. Isn't it obvious that I couldn't make it at all. The TV is so heavy and how the hell can I be carrying it up there.
I'm so easily IRRITATED nowaday! So, STOP THE HELL OUT OF ANYTHING ON ME. I don't give a damn to anything. You hear me? I even find that damn nicholas so irritating for asking me to DOWNLOAD HIS DAMN SONG to send it to him. Who do you think he is to me? He kept spam me with his nonsense about getting a song that he wanted. Can't he see my nick that I'm studying? And, I'm pissed off now and he trying to piss me even further. *ROARS*
I'm going insane seriously. I need a freaking BREAK lah~ *ROARS* Why must torture me with all these kinds of nonsense and not letting me to concentrate on my studies. I just want to scream out loud lah~ *ROARS*
I'm breaking down soon.
5:13:00 PM
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/234608/1/.html
Please read this. My buddha! What the heaven~
4:45:00 PM
I'm insane! I've gone mad.
I have started jabbering away with nonsense once again. Just that, I'm in a sober state right now. So, I have to be sure that I'm crazy alright. Who doesn't go insane when we've to swallow books that stacked up to the ceiling. Let me bang myself onto the wall and die there =D
*dropped*
3:50:00 PM
Science Paper 1 & Chemistry Paper
Science Paper 1 consists of Physic and Chemistry's MCQ. I didn't study for my Physic at all because there was not enought time for me to finish my Chemistry Paper. So, I give up my Physic since it's just a MCQ. Guess what? I'm sure I'll flunk my Physic parts. Arghh~ At least, some of the questions make sense that I can use my own concepts to answer the question. Buddha bless !
Chemistry Paper was horrible terrible vegetable. I memorise all the important facts for Chemistry. Yet, those that I remembered, I forgotten most of them when I'm doing the paper. Then those that I didn't study just came out. Ahhhh~ Seriously, will I be able to pass ? I was typically using my own memories to do that paper since some I didn't even study at all. So, I'm sure I'm going to have 3 mistakes as I was going through the notes again, I saw the answer. *ROARS*
I'll be having Geography and Amath paper 2. This is even worst. These are the only two subjects which I have been getting F9 ever since the start of the year. Isn't it COOL? And now, I happened to have both my worst subject coming out on the same day. Ahhh~ I can't imagine my result anymore. As days passes, I knew the time to get our result are getting nearer. Promotion day are coming nearer too. Which means, I'm dead. Ahhh~ This is the worst year ever! Let's put our palm and prayed for a better year next year. And, please let me promote =D
Will I be able to survive for this year? Just kill me please~ *ROARS*
1:09:00 PM
Math Paper 1 & Social Studies
I'm so lucky alright. Must be the devas helped me through it =X. Because I've taken Ven.Mahinda's advice to pray for Devas for help during exams. So, I prayed and prayed hard for Devas to help me to give me questions that I have revised because I didn't revise finish for my Social Studies. And, my source based was Diplomacy which I've studied but of no use because I don't have to use any knowledge to do the source based. Then, my structure essay was the one that I've been studying day and night yesterday and manage to remember abit. I just pasted the whole chunk of my memories onto that sheet of paper for the first structure question. But, the second one, I couldn't remember anymore.
Math paper was horrible. I kept skipping my questions. And, I didn't manage to finish that damn question and that stupid graph. I'm not sure how many marks I've lost but I'm sure that I'll be losing alot marks for this damn paper. Ahhh~ Kill me please~!
I'll be having my Science MCQ consists of Physic and Chemistry then my Chemistry paper. Will I be able to survive tomorrow? I don't know. Bless me please~
This is horrible~
1:46:00 PM
退后
Maybe I shouldn't have believe. I shouldn't have even thought of it. I thought it might be exceptional, yet it proves me wrong. I thought I'll be right this time to believe. To believe something I ought to believe. My instinct pulled me back. I still chose to believe it. I almost fallen to the trap. It isn't going to be anything in my eyes. It is just nothing. No more no more!~ I have believe wrongly. This sucks. I don't believe in this.
I don't know what to do right now. I haven't finish revising. I doubt my last minute work help. I guess I'll give up in my Combined humanities already. I don't think I can do well at all. I've been getting F9 from the starting of the year till now. This result makes me hate my humanities even more. Even my file, the teacher is too strict in marking it.
Please tell me everything was a illusion. Alone in this house, the atmostphere is empty. I'm crying. No one cares. I don't need any sympathy either. I don't self-pity myself too. I'm just so loser in this. My tears were right to fall. I can't control them. I thought I was strong, all I need was myself. Yet, when I failed in myself. I failed in too many things. Why are all this happening. I'm lost~ I really don't know what to do. How I wish everything was put to an end. It was me who had cause it. I blame no one.
I want cry no more~
10:02:00 PM
Exams officially start =D
My exams will be starting from tomorrow onwards till next monday. So, I guess I won't be online for long time except blogging. Maybe perhaps when I'm resting, I might online again =D I think that I won't be able to make it for this coming exams. I haven't finish studying for any subject. I don't know how can I survive throughout it. I'm returning to freedom and meet-up with my friends after my exams. I've completely lost contacts with them already. Maybe it's time to contact them again. It's better to have more friends than have more strangers.
I'm going on a shopping trip too. Maybe right after my exams? I'm searching for a baby-doll top. I've been in love with baby-doll =D I want to reborn my hair but I've to wait till we've finished our extended curriculum which is after 15 Nov. Arghh~ Whatever it is, I'll be working real hard for my job. LOLS Please pray hard for me that the lady hasn't employed anyone =D *Prayhardhard*
Oh wells, I'm drifting further. Whatever it is, I'll try to study hard for this current exams and be promote to Secondary 4. Yet, I just don't feel like studying. Motivate me please~ hais
I cried for no reason~ Crazy me~
2:33:00 PM
I'm drunk~
Arghh~ Right now, I'm not sure if I'll start bladdering nonsense because I'm drunk. It's not that I want to drink. I just want to try if I'll be drunk after one sip again. There was a time when my second brother told me to try drinking tiger beer and I was drunk after one sip. So, I tried the red wine for I thought it won't be as strong as tiger beer. Then, after the first sip, I'm alittle drunk. My big brother told me that I should drink again. I should drink a bigger mouth so that I won't get drunk so easily. Thus, I went to try it again despite the fact I know that I'm drunk. Then, I went drunk. I even start bladdering nonsense. Even when I was smsing with Jackson, he told me to drink warm water so that I won't be so drunk. Then, I told him the place doesn't provide warm teacher. LOLS ! And, he replied that he was very sure that I'm drunk because I replied warm teacher instead of warm water. LOLS !
I'm just so weak in drinking. Aww~ Don't ever ask me to go for a drink with you. Because, I will die~ LOLS ! It's only afew sip and then I'll get very drunk. Though, I know what I'm doing but then I just don't know why am I doing nonsense. LOLS ! At least, I'm not so drunk that I almost went lunatic =D
All right, I woke up very early to go to Potong Pasir MacDonald to study. Didn't really study alot but I learnt alot from Raymond's mistake XD ! I guess he didn't really study at all before doing the paper. Raymond ah Raymond! Study hard hard alright =D
Then, we went for a short sharing then I went home to dress up and stuffs. My make up was atrocious. Just because I knew that my dad was coming home. I just any-o-how do my make up. Anyway, don't comment on my make up. LOLS, I haven't been wearing make up for a very long time. I'm feeling so sad that I've lost my make up ability. Arghh~ Whatever, I'm working soon, which means I'll gain back my make up skill soon again. *Roars* Don't you dare to comment anything. XD !
I must really say that the wedding was so grand with army marching in. The bride is so cute and friendly. Seriously, I like her =D She is so pretty!~ The dress that she had worn were all princess-like! Oh my! How I wished my future wedding will be that grand. Awww! Fat hope. LOLS let's get back to the reality. It's still a long way to go. LOLS ! I guess she's the most fortunate girl in the whole wide world. My cousin loves her so much! It's hard to have a guy to love you so deeply, you know. LOLS !
We had a very late dinner. The food that are served are in a very slow rate. Thus, I get hungry very easily. Yet in the same time, I'm so sleepy. Catch up with my cousin and we promised to go out after her O level. Yay! I miss her! She bought a dress that was super nice! Arghh~ I want to grow taller! LOLS ! Because, I can only wear those super short dress. If I was to wear her dress, it will definitely be too long for me. Ahhhhh! I want to grow taller. I shall jump everyday =D *jumpjump* I want to grow taller!
Hmmm, I haven't been meeting up with my relative for a very long time. Getting to see them again today, everything seems so weird. I even forgotten how to pronouce their name. Ahhh~ It seems that everything has to be practice to be perfect. They had changed alot. Some comments given by them seems so sarsasctic. Oh well, I won't be bothered by those. Then, all my cousins were telling me that my brothers had girlfriend already, and it's my turn to bring my boyfriend. *ROARS* I don't have lah~ -.-" But seriously, I felt so weird. We were walking in a pair and a pair. Then, I was the one walking alone. Ahhhhh~ Stupid people, stupid family. Hmphs~ At least I'm free from everything XD ! I shall find one who can dote me and pampered me. Someone who I know I can fall back on. =D That's buddha XD ! I know buddha loves me XD !
All right, I guess I'm starting my nonsense soon. I shall stop here before I'm going to start jabbering away again.
I don't want to do this anymore
I don't want to be the reason why
I see him dying alittle more inside
I don't want to hurt him anymore
I don't want to take away his life
I don't want to be a MURDERER
I don't know if this is what I really want.
I don't know if I'm doing the right thing
I don't know if I should love hate you
I'll pull onto the railing before I start falling down.
My family! Future family photograph =D
Relatives, Cousins
Sister-in-Law, Me!
Cousins loves !
Family & the sweet couples
Cousins and my dearest ahma =D
Me and the pretty bride =D
1:04:00 AM
HAZE KILLED ME!
Chinese exams was atrocious. I didn't know what I'm writing at all. Then, I went to write words instead of numbers on my paper 2, which is instructed to us in the instruction that they wanted numbers. I'm seriously dead. I've lost 10 marks because of this. I mean, it's not very fair afterall. I'm still stating down the answer and it's not like my answer was wrong! Please pray hard for me that my teacher do not pinalise these stupid mistakes. Please please please!
Hazed almost killed me. I do have asthma's record in the past. Ever since the last attack during my Primary 2 time, I haven't been suffering from this kind of symptoms already. Now, it's coming back. I'm coughing like mad, I can't breathe well. My eyes had irritation in the afternoon and I felt like dying. It's too much of this suffering. Haze wasn't that bad in the past few years but why is it so bad this year? I really hope that there will be a emerency holiday for all of us because of the haze. Seriously, I doubt anyone can do the exams because of the haze. Curse the haze! Curse the people who had burnt it. Can't you just spare a thought for everyone in this small little earth and the global warming? Isn't it bad enough? Now I've to suck in all the carbon dioxide and slowly killing myself with it. I'm not feeling good at all. Or rather, I'm feeling so dragful. I wished I was off dead. It might be better!
I won't have the burden of exams, studies, family, friends, hazes, piano, physcially and mentally. I'm so so so drained out now. It must be the moon doing all this funny stuffs, causing me to dislike everything in this earth. Making me to be in a state of mental unconscious. I don't even know what I'm doing. When I get back my consciousness, I had finished exams. Seriously, will I died in this exams? I need A1! Perhaps, my expectation is too high, but I really want to do well for my End-Of-Year. I want to see a result full of As. =D
Dad was telling me about my future. He really wanted me to complete with a Degree. How stress can I get when I'm continously told by my Dad that I need to have a good result because he didn't want to lose his face to his sibling's children. Why must they put so much hope on me and that makes a burden to me. Because, it's a must to get a degree just for the sake of his face, my family and myself. Seriously, I don't know what I'll do if I don't get into a University soon. Awww!~
I'm suffering from the haze right now. Please get away from me. My mood has been deteriored recently. I'm just too stress plus the sleepless night. I just don't seems to be myself. I can be so crazy at times, yet I can be normal again and then I'll screams my lungs off again. These few days, I'm just so weird. Ahhhh. Please forward the time. I don't want to stop at this moment anymore. It's too suffering already. I haven't been so stressed before ahhH~
救命啊!
11:00:00 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
新加坡被烟雾淹没了!啊啊啊啊啊啊~请看你出你的窗外!好酷啊!天啊啊啊~真的太恐怖了! 我既然看不到Bugis了!可见烟雾真得太浓了!浓得看不到任何东西了啦!是谁在破坏环境的卫生啊!天啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~这是满满的让我们死亡呢!天啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~
而我,也被一堆的纸张,书本淹没了!好酷对不对!天啊啊啊啊~
烟雾,请你走得越远越好啊!滚滚滚滚滚啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~
笨蛋的烟雾!
7:21:00 PM
明天就是华文考试了!
我有点病了。一定是那个烟雾的错!鼻子有点不好受,还有一点咳嗽,十分得难受啊!明天就是华文考试了,我不可以在这个时候病倒啊!求求你让我在考完我的考试后才生病好不好?这得很难受啊!烟雾求求你快点走开。跟我滚开!滚啊啊啊!
妈妈说我们该做生意了。我们会从小生意开始。就由我和妈妈一起做,然后由哥哥与我一起卖!说真的我还有点感兴趣。这应该会很好玩吧!这怎样也是手工玩意儿,而我也挺喜欢玩手工的啊。就如我的第一份工作也是手工的。可是那比较容易,我只要培小孩子玩就好了。而小孩子啊~ 都是那么的天真无邪,又可爱又淘气。我还能记得曾经有三位小女孩就向公主一般,十分的可爱动人。这都是妈妈教育的好啊!就连他们的妈妈也挺优雅的。
今天就是最后一天我会用华文写日记了。真的有点感觉怪怪的。也许是不习惯用华文打字吧,或也许是华文退步了吧?可是我还是挺特别的,因为很少人会用华文写网若日记的。哈哈哈!别抄我的做法哦!~不然你就是一个猫。英文所说的狗屁猫 (Copycat xD) 。 哈哈哈!华文真好玩!哈哈哈~
我就此停笔了。
婉菱启
2006年10月05日
6:49:00 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
过敏
好累好累!再多两天就是华文考试了。我们再也没有作文了。现在的是给我们一题报章报道,一题接下去的文字以及一个故事。我们只能在中选出一题。实在讨厌!
刚才,有一个怪怪的人,无缘无故叫我做他的女朋友。问题是~我与他并不熟。他还说什么,他是三六九的人。这人真的有点怪!我才不在乎你是谁呢!就算你是天上的神,我也不会理你啊!我最痛恨就是怪人,而你就是其中一个。Hameed 别以为你很大!
好的!我要去读书了!读书读书读书读书!书书书书! 啊啊啊啊啊啊~
我的表哥的婚礼,我该穿什么? 嗨~ 别想了,到了那天才决定吧!我好想我的堂姐~ 堂姐,你要好好加油!O 水准并不容易!你要好好的考啊!
再见!
8:42:00 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
我很想爱他
今天并没有发生什么特别的事。我拿回我们的华文测验成绩(不是考试)。其实,我还以为我会不及格呢!因为,我根本就不会做他的理解问答。不少人都只拿到刚刚及格的成绩,所以我还以为我也不例外。结果,我好考的并不差。甚至,我还拿到了七十份。不错不错!这只能说是我太过幸运了。
这几天,心情真的是差投了。也许是压力的问题吧~ 只要一不小心,我就可以发火了。啊啊啊!所以啊别靠近我,否则我也不知道我会干些什么。考试啊考试!快点迅速过去。我不要再待在这里了。想要死,却又不能死那样,实在不好受啊!为什么好像时间走得越来越慢啊?救命啊!
希望佛祖,神啊,官地公,保佑我平平安安,顺顺利利的度过这一个难关。
爱情这反面的东西,我不想碰。我的爱只会给那些值得我去爱的人。我不要任何人给我任何承诺,承诺总是被遗忘。我只要拿份真诚的心。也许就是麻木了,爱情就是在一起然后就分手。句号总是画在分手后。这世界根本不存这永恒的爱情。相信我吧!就算夫妻在一起到白头到老,爱情总是会跟随着那位先走的人。
如果有关于爱情的作文,我一定会好好的写。因为我对爱,失去了信心。所以,我相信我一定会有十分多东西要写在那份作文。这是一件好事好不好!哈哈哈!
真有点感到自己十分的苯!我既然在笑自己。啊啊啊!一定是给考试昏过了头,所以有点怪怪的。啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!
9:47:00 PM
I really cannot stand studying at home. My back is aching right now. Mum is nagging and all kinds of noise are coming from them. No matter of their frequence quarrelling or Mum's PMS. Arghhh~ Can't they just give me some peace? Seriously, sometime when I needed peace so much yet they always give me all kinds of nonsense. This is going to be my study week and the most crucial time of the year. So, shut up shut up and SHUT UP! Arghhh~ I want to kill myself already~ Crazy people, crazy family, crazy home, crazy me, crazy studies, crazy exams. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
My back is aching so badly! Arghhhh~ CRAZY BODY TOO!~ AHhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Oh well, i'm going mad soon~ BOO!
11:44:00 PM