佘婉菱；我的世界；我的生活

Friday, March 31, 2006

Laugh Laugh Laugh LOLS !!

Okay I forgotten to update about the laughing part for yesterday. I went crazy with Esther, we were laughing like mad for no reason at all. We just keep laughing and laughing until my tears roll down & until now I still can't figure why are we laughing LOLS !! It's been like ages since I laugh like mad already, I had always just smile or laugh alittle but not those that laugh till I gone mad. LOLS !! But all the tears that roll down had been better for my eyes, I felt so good after letting it down. My eyes just feel so fresh =D

Hmmm, nothing much happened today, had loads of books to bring home & I wanted to put it at ShanYuan's home but when I think again, I still need to take it on Monday, there's no different at all so might as well just bring it home. I guess I look like a nerd carrying those thick thick heavy books home today, but who cares xD Tried to drag my feet home and throw all the books at home, went to Plaza again to exchange the gifts that I bought for the 3 mummies =D LOLS !! Wait for my presents okay =D

Passed by the North East line and I thought back again, it's friday today =(( I hate friday~!! Nevermind, I had moved on, as for him, he had definitely moved on, sucker!! Whatever~ So had a scroll down to Library and borrowed some books from there & quickly rushed home. Brought boyboy out for a walk & went to find KahBeng since he is working for the last day at the ground floor but in the end he said that the date had extended, so I'm honoured to have another week to scare him xD !!

So now I'm back home to study again =(( Stressedd!!! I always only have Saturday to spend with SBM people. I'm like so sad!!~ Sunday always left at home to study, I must get out of house already, feel so stress up. Nowaday had been daydreaming, I don't know what I daydream about, just know that I always look at teacher but I don't know what I doing. When I get back that time, I'm so blur already. I need to go somewhere to relax my mind, had been facing books and books and books.

ZhenFeng said that I've been spending time blogging but then blogging do help in english =D So isn't it a good things that I blog and trying to improve in my english?!?! I'm starting to improve my English, A math. Had been study day and night throughout. You can try asking my brother, they've been seeing me study and almost gone bonker already, but I've no one to blame but myself because of the lousy result I've taken. We had got back our report books today and my result is astrouious, counted my L1R4 and it's 30 marks =((

I'm still slow in my A math, who can give me extra help on it =DD I need someone to teach me at some days =D !! Hmmm I guess today I've to plan out my times to see which day I'm going to relax and which day I'm studying, because I really going crazy soon, felt so giddy everytimes I finish studying =((

Anywhere my kor is back =(( I need to pass back to him already.

GOODBYE =D LOVES MY MOGALLANA =D
I had alot to post but no time already =(( I'm sorry will be back at nite if possible. =D

8:39:00 PM

Thursday, March 30, 2006

down down down =(

=)))

Just hope all of you smile okay, guess everyone had been down this week. hmmm~ =))) okay!! don't forget there's always a me !! My number is 24/7 hour available, even at 4am you still can call me.

=))
I know you all will understand what I mean.

7:01:00 PM

Bread day XD !!!

Nothing much happened in school. I thought of my design for the D&T already xD !! I'm like so glad because there is only left with me & LiangEng & afew of the guys !! So I wanted to clear the design first so as I can do other things one by one, though I will be doing it half by half by half LOLS!! But I promised that I will finish it up when I'm 3/4 done & I will just rush to finish it up =D !! The Mogallana blog is done, so I'm left with the shirt and stuffs !! I just need time =(( Can we have 28 hrs a day?!?! So I can get to have more sleep and more time to do things =DD

Hmm after school, quickly contact Evelyn and we decided to go out and play. First, we met at City Hall MRT and took train to Doubty Gaught and headed for Plaza. We actually wanted to spent time walking around the Plaza and head over to Orchard yet due to time constraint we just shopped around Plaza. Bought 3 hp accessories for YuanYi marmie & Petrina mummy & myself. It's their birthday though I had given Marmie her present but then if I give to Petrina mummy her present and when YuanYi saw it I'm sure that she will want it so just buy it for her.

Oh ya today is our bread day between Evelyn & me, it's only the two of us know what happened. LOLS okay so it's because we past by Bread Talk and I decided to buy home since it's 1 dollar for each bun. So I bought 4 buns and Evelyn bought 1 bun in the first place. After walking for alittle short distance, she said that she want to buy one more, so we get back and in the end she bought 2 more & it's all of the same bread. The 3 breads and one of my bread that we bought are the same, so we decided to take photo of it. LOLS !!

LOLS !!! so saw it? We bought the same bread and altogether we are having 4 of the same breads. LOLS !! So I bought 4 bread remember ??!?! So if we add Evelyn's bread, we had bought 7 breads today LOLS !! It's like I never buy so many breads at a go before, so as to remember the bread day, the two of us decided to get together on every 30th each month and eat bread but when I browse through my calender, the 30th is not always on Weekend or Thursday, so in the end we decided to put it on Every last Thursday of the month xD !!

If you would like to have more information on the Bread Day, please go to Evelyn's blog and read =D

If you are interested to join us, please do tell us and we are definitely welcoming you to join our Bread day. LOLS !! Okay I know it's lame LOLS but NOT ALL PEOPLE get to celebrate bread day okay LOLS !!

Okay got to pass back to my kor kor the pc already, MOGALLANA please kindly just go to our blog and read. ZhenFeng had updated it, and please do update our blog, if you are unsure of our passwords and user, please just kindly give a call or sms to either me or evelyn =D

I'm tiredd !! I need more sleep =(( I miss SBM.

Pris ah Pris, no matter what right, sometimes you must get your thinking firm & you definitely can forget about it =D All the best okay x)) May all be well and happy !!

We are guaikia lah LOLS can't you see it !!

5:57:00 PM

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

IC IC I'm coming x))

Woolala~ Had our Dharma talk today in the morning about the Loving Kindness. Actually I only can remember abit only, my mind is having too much studies thingy can't absorb now~!! Seriously, I need a break already, kept studying & studying when I reach back home. I'm tired, but what can I do, I can still only study =(( !!

Hmmm nothing much happened today, I finally finished all my Corrections & Chinese File, but I'm still left with the homework that I own Mrs Lim. It's like so many!! I wonder when can I finish up & the Common Test's corrections I can't even do it of some questions !! How to pass up without finish it up?!?! I'm lucky because I am not having A math tomorrow =D !!

We had our Guide as usual, but this time is fun!! We get to command and teach the sec 1 for their Footdrills & there's one part where the Sec 3 & Nicole & Eliza did some demostration for the Sec 1 to see & learn from it. It's really very fun!! We were doing some slow motion stuffs and it's fun!! After this demostration, I felt that we as seniors really have the bond between us as we can cordinate together and bang the foot down together at the same time. It's hard to do it at a beat but we managed to do it together=D !!!

Seriously to our dearest guide sisters, if you all are not happy with whoever and whoever, just voice out and talks things out or rather learn from me LOLS forget everything and press the refresh =D I know it's hard but it's part of the life !! It take me times to put down all the hatred, but when you really did it & when you look back, you will find it stupid and childish to have those thoughts and behave that way. If you all are reading my blog, I must really say that last time, LAST TIME we do have internal conflicts between XiangYu, HuiWen & me & I do hate them, but now I don't anymore. What for hate each other? What good things will you get from hatred? It just get up your nerves and damages your cells. It's lame for hatred =D

It is never a bad things to let go stuffs, so just learn from it and if you all hate me just tell me =D !! No point backstabbing, gossiping or what so ever crap you all are doing. It's childish, maybe all of you are still young but please learnt!! You will grow up one day, you can't be doing it in your adult age!! You won't benefit, you will only lose out.

So nothing much, went to find KahBeng when I was on the way home, pei-ed him to talk awhile as he is changing to Part-Time after this Friday, SO i'm sad =(( No one to be there to entertain me when I walked my dog =(( Awww~ Bad news to be heard =(( So stupid KahBeng, LOLS better come play at bugis sometimes LOLS !! I know you will read my blog one LOLS !! xPPP

So blahhh, reach home and I'm writing blog now and I will be finishing up my A math homeworks that I owned the teacher. I might be able to finish 1 or 2 papers only. I will try to finish today homework and the past homeworks. Arghhh!! I must really finish it before I can start my Revision on A math. We had our 10-years series for A math today, so I really hope that I can start doing it and keep my standards up. We're having E math test tomorrow. Awww~ I'm stress =(( They say they will combined our Class Test marks and the Exams marks, so I need and I must achieved good results so as to telly with the exams' marks.

I'm falling sick soon but I'm trying hard not to let my body suffer, I hope I don't get sick =(( I will try to eat more fruits, drink more water. I'm sure I'm not going to get more sleep because I just doesn't have enough times =(( Anywhere I'm happy because I get to do my IC finally!! Woohoo PINK IC I'm coming xD !! But I'm sad because I'm growing old =(( Next 3 years I will be saying goodbye my Teenagehood. I'm old =(( My time to do the IC is from 12April to 26April.

Oh ya I hate Daddie, He's sucks !! He curse me to fall sick on that day, which is the day when YuanYi marmie & Evelyn & me are going to East Coast Park to blade, but that stupid person don't let marmie to play & marmie insisted to play so he said that on that day it will rain & on that day wanling will get sick. What the HEAVEN!!! I'm like so innocent and he just curse me. FREAK you !! I'm like so innocent doing nothing and u just curse me. What is this man!! First, she pangseh me because of you, aren't you happy?!?! I can only silently taking all these shit from her & now you too give me shit. Now, I did nothing and you just curse me because I'm going with her. I don't deserve all these SHIT FROM ALL OF YOU!! I don't at all !!

Please touch your heart and tell me whether do you still have a heart. I guess you don't, It's no doubt that you don't at all. I don't care whether are you going to be angry if you read this, I don't care if you are going to find ZhiWei & gang to come find me. I don't care if you are going to hate me. I tell you I NO LONGER CARE ANYMORE. I can no longer tolerate all this from you. So you say you love my marmie alot right, then by all means. Take it, I won't find her out anymore, I won't be touching her anymore, I won't be doing things that relate about her!! YOU just don't care others people feeling, you are self-centered. You care all only yourself & you think you care for marmie, but you are already neglecting peoples around her, peoples whom she treasured the last time round when she's not with you. YOU are the one who get into her life and she just push all of us out from her life.

HATE ME ALL YOU WANT !! I don't care, I won't find her anymore. I aren't going tolerate shit from people. GET LOST !!~ You are a lousy daddie. I don't deserve such TREATMENT !!

Anywhere at least this make me angry, but something that make me happy is Rainer papa =D !! I'm happy !! Thanks papa!!! I aren't saying what did he do because afterall is his problems LOLS, want to know try asking him LOLS !!! Woohoo I'm happy !!!

If you are not happy from what I'm saying, you can just get off from my life. Hate me all you one, I care no more. =D

8:38:00 PM

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I met a maddie!!

Oh ya!! I want to say I met a maddie person at Aljunied Mrt!! I don't know was he trying to put some black magic or what. I remebered my mum saying not to bother about people who ask you weird question or tap you for no good reasons, because they might do some black magic and you just don't know what happened and follow him. So this maddie called me while I was happily listening to song.

Maddie:" XiaoMei!!"
Me: *happily listening to song & turn to him*
Maddie:"you mei you kan dao wo derhx yan jin?" *pointing to his eyes*
(Got see my eyes?)

He expected me to look at his eyes but too bad I just look awhile and can't be bothered by him & just turned away. He's weird a typical weirdo. WELL people becareful of him, I guess he's up to no good. I keep seeing him loiter around the area. Crazy ~ Well whatever, I can't be bother by some person and won't waste my time on him. No wonder loads of children go missing just because of some BLACK magic people.

Well just becareful of some people who is up to no good =D

9:56:00 PM

Chiong-ing my stuffs ~

I spent my whole day doing Chinese file, A math file. Managed to finish all the corrections up already but I'm still left with 6 homework that I haven't done and that is needed to be file into the file and being marked!! So I will be spending my night learning the Chemistry Formulae, finish up the homework that I own Mrs Lim & finish packing the Chinese file. ARghhh~ I'm really running with times!! Woohoo~!! My appetite is big today, kept eating and eating & now I'm still hungry~!! Will I grow fat ?? =((

Oh ya, I had update about Mogallana stuffs, please go and take alot okay to all my mogallana family =D !! Please spread to others about the website too =D !! Hmmm, oh ya went home today and I found out that the building diagonally infront had turn RED!! It is totally in RED colour!! It's like so scary~ Maybe I haven't been observance enough to see it. It can't be in a day, they paint it red !!

I took my baby hamster photo =D !! He/She has grown up =D !! Having fur now so it means I can carry him or she already x)) Here he/she is !! I just love every of my pet !! Till now I don't understand why humans can be so heartless to kill a living things yet I can love them like nothing else. Weird~

It's SUPER CUTE!!

Hmmm I changed my hairstyle, decided to put my fringe to side parting. But when I tied up hair, I might put at the side or just put all infront LOLS !! I'm just so lazy to cut it, wait till I'm free and I will cut it okay =D !!!

It's changed to side already =D Do I look weird??!?!?

LOLS, just found out that it's been so long since I'm obessed with myself. Friendster pictures & Msn pictures are like a month ago?!?! LOLS !!! I just too lazy to take pictures LOLS but I just love to take others photo!! I'm crapp LOLS !!!

I want to treat myself icecream for doing so hard for my studies xD !!! My baobei mouth please wait okay =D !! Sometimes I must make myself happy at times by just having something that don't need loads of money to get it. Who want to go East Coast Park?!?! I'm waiting for marmie for the time & date to go East Coast play!! Who is interested can join us =DD !! Going East Coast can make me happy too =D The sea, the breeze, the wave, the sky, the sun, the sand !! Everything and everythings make me happy =D

Okay stop thinking too far =(( Must pull myself back to reality first LOLS I going to mug now. Take care !!!

Mug Mug Mug =((

7:10:00 PM

Monday, March 27, 2006

*Reflections*

Reflections on my current issues =((

I guess I give up using pc so much, but I just can't resist the temptation that I wanted to use. Blog is like my everything, pouring everything to it has already been my habits. Hmm, but I will be using it lesser now. I used to use it during weekends but not now anymore. I spent my times on SBM and studying, but I really can't study at home =(( Can anyone tell me where is the best place to study?? I just feel so stress up at home =((

Parents =((

Okay this is even worst, I getting more and more negative thoughts oh them already. Getting and getting disappointed each and everyday but what can I do? Afterall they are still my parents, I just hope they really don't go up to the limits that I couldn't take it any longer. I might just be a invisible objects floating in the house having my ears close and care about my own business and not others anymore. At this times when I needed someone to help is my parents but none help me. I was studying late at night for my stuffs and they still coming up to me to find a quarrel. I mean what is the point to quarrel?? You don't get credits that you quarrel and you win. You don't earn money tha you quarrel. So, why can't just leave me alone and letting me to do my stuffs?

Eugene said, perhaps he don't know how to help us, his parents are people that I admire. They really give "ai de jiao yu" to them. Teaching them and helping them to learn, they don't shout. They say for their own good. Maybe because both are buddhist and they are the what Vice President or something like that. Their relationship still going on well, still holding hands when they're out. I really envy his family and told him that he really is living in a good place at least better than us. He said that he know and he really want to help us but don't know how to. He always thought that is always the children's fault but when he really saw the situation of ours, he knew that actually parents do have fault.

My whole family is always talking about money, might as well ask me to quit school and go out work for the sake of all of you. Now, is my father that had done the wrong things in the past and spending so much money on a bitch. Yet now he still go and buy a van just because he couldn't take his boss. What the heck?!? It is him who told me that in working society, we had to take our boss and all but now what a GOOD MODEL he is?!? Now, he kept saying what no money and all. Ask yourself how much money you had spent on a bitch!! Don't claim that you don't have. All the treats to her all the craps on this and that.

School =((

I just hope I change place!! I don't want to be throw to a side in the classroom. I couldn't concentrate at all, I just hope I sit right at the front like the past two years. =(( I really want to study hard but the teacher don't give me the chance =(( Just get me out of the sides of the class and put me in the center!! ARghh, I just hope you read my blog but I doubt so.

CCA =((

I just hope it wouldn't be back to the last time, wasting everydays away on CCA & getting back at home late and just slp without doing any homework. I'm not into those life, I want to study, not do extremely well in CCA and neglect my studies.

ARghh, I know I want to study but my mind & my heart don't go the same as the things that I want. Motivate me please =(( Enlighten me please =(( I really need to find Mrs The to motivate me, she's the one who make me keen to study during my P5, P6 & Sec1. When I went back to find her during teachers' day, she's the one who motivate me to continue studying and I succeeded in promoting. I miss her !!! I miss my 5/5, 6/5 =(( Where are they now?? All around the singapore, some even migrate to other countries already. I miss them =(( They're just one of things that I miss.

I want to mug but I've no strength to do it =((
hais~

Mogallana blog is ready =D Those days that had been spent doint it is worth =DD !! Please tag okay =DD

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Please link =D !!

10:25:00 PM

270303

OH YA, something to be remembered, Today is the 3rd year of me and WeiRong LOLS!! But too bad it lasted only 27 days from 27 March`o3 to 18 April`o3, LOLS another guy who played me =(( So fast it's already the 3rd year LOLS !!! Well but what past is already past =DD. Whatever~

5:07:00 PM

Sleeepy~ -.-ZzZzZz~

I'm so sleepy!!! Had been spending my times on the file and the common test correction for my A math, managed to finish some off and Eugene called me to teach me, he's so nice and of course ZhenFeng is another person who is also so nice to teach me. Thanks thanks =DD My eyes was already half close at 2 so I decided to stop and catch some sleep before heading for school.

First thing that I reached class was to ask around people about the corrections yet mostly gave me the answer " I haven't do ", I'm liked omb!! Then why I spent my time on the corrections but at least I tried and I felt a sense of happiness xD !! I'm still unsure about the log ~!! ARGHH!! Who has the free time to teach me A math?!?! Please tell me okay~ I really need help for my A math, it's super lousy. I will try to improve =D ! Like what my Zhu said, doing A math we must have determination and courage !! LOLS !! I was stunned when he said courage. So I asked him " courage?? what courage ? " He said, "You must keep try and never scare failures" So he got a A2 for his A math, and he always so good in his studies. *Envy* Yvoone is another one who I must envy, she only flunk her English and she score well for her other subjects, either A or B. When can I be like her?? *thinking*

I must really rush my file by tonight. Both Chinese and A math~ I hoped I can finish it up and who is free and want to study during weekends?!?! I think I will work hard until the June holiday and go out to work =D, and back to mug and take a break during the September holiday, and if I can find a job during the November and December holiday, I will be working for November and till mid December and the other days will be spent on revising back on the topics. I did not take a break during the November & December holiday last year so I'm like so stressed till now but nothing allows me to stop being stress. Parents had been asking for money and all, tell me how can I relax when they're keep asking for money. Father still ask me to study till University but I doubt I can make it up to University already.

On the way home at the road infront of my block, almost banged by a big van. 14+ years of life almost gone in that second. Impermanent, that's what life is. Fragile and easy to lose. Future might not come if we lose the life, & we just wasted our youths & everything having stress. One day, I was thinking about the future, feeling that life is short. In a few weeks time, I'll be 15 years already and I already spent my 15 years living in the world. I never really done something that I can remember clearly, maybe just getting top 5% during my primary school life. Nothing, I can really be proud of. Never had someone who truthfully love me and not play my feeling. Changes of my characters, attitude, perspect of my life. So many things being changed in this going to be 15 years.

Looking at the future, I might be in an office typing some stuffs, or teaching in a classroom or rather being some web designers. I don't know what I want to be, had no idea what I want to do, what I really want to do. No aims in life, no target to get. Just having each and everyday passing in a blink. I don't know what my future will be, suddenly had no idea of my future. I already thinking about my future when I'm a young girl and I wanted to be some doctor and teacher yet I'm afraid of seeing blood so I quit having a thought to be a doctor. Teaching a class is what I want to be but my interest is not there, I'm more interested in playing PC, typing some stuffs or anything that is related to it. Maybe, I might think this way and I might change my thinking next time again. No doubts on the things that had changed.

Whatever~ Don't want to think anymore. It's hard to survive =((

4:37:00 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Broke down~ =((

Crying doesn't help much, i'm on my own, try to turn to my side, I found that I really have no friends who is free to listen to me. Everyone has their own things, own problems to solve. There won't be anyone who is free to listen or give advice when I needed. I don't know why, I do know about dharma talks but I just don't know how to apply.

At times, I'm always being said that I'm wrong in everything but I don't even see that I'm in fault and they just push the blames to me, EVERY BLAMES to me. I'm getting sick of it, why can't people just get me out of all these thing and stop pulling me into all this shit. No one understands me, or rather they never even try to understand. At least tried, I won't say so much but not at all. I really don't know how to cope with all the stress, asking me to just heck care about it is totally out of the point. If stress can be heck care, there won't be stress in this world. Alittle stress is okay but now I'm having a huge loads of stress. Arghhh, breaking down and breaking down is already becoming my usual routine.

I found out that when I'm sad, I can't smile properly, the smile just went so numb. They said crying do help relieve stress but I can't see it at all. LiangEng said that I loves to cry, but did she actually saw me crying all the time?? I remembered the first time she saw me crying is because of the Guide thing at SBM, another incident is in the morning assembly, she just talk to me and my tears just flow automatically. I already try very hard to hold back but it just flow. She just saw 2 times that I've cried. I don't see that why she can say I'm loves to cry -.-" I don't love to cry at all, but I just don't know why they just flow.

Studies, Studies, Studies, STUDIES~
Family, Family, Family, FAMILY!!
CCA, CCA, CCA, CCA~
School, School, School, SCHOOL~
Friends, Friends, Friends, FRIENDS!!

I BITE~!!!

7:09:00 PM

Studied~

Yesterday, went out to study with ZhenFeng. He was late!!~ Supposed to meet o9.45 yet we met 12.30. LOLS !! He blamed the alarm LOLS but its his fault for being a pig xD ~!! So went to library to study and discovered that there's the 5th floor which we can study. It means that I haven't been in library for don't know how long already. Studied my A math and I found out that I wasted so many marks, I can at least get around 11++, but because of all the craps I done, I got only 3 marks =(( Pathetic ahh~

Spent 4 hours studying non-stop, we can really faint~!! So around 4, I went down to the basement and helped WenCai to get his books. Another things that can faint, I was like searching around for the number and I got lost. *Roars!!* Why library having so many books!! LOLS but if library don't have books, it's not library anymore. -.-" !! AHHH~ Contradicting myself again~ I'm crazy LOLS !!

So searched around and went running around, finally I found a English book - Tea~, but yet it's all crap inside!! It teaches us how to relax with tea, sitting there and slowly sipping in some tea. !! *roars* I need tea's history not how to relax !! Stupid book!~! LLOLS so I went to the chinese section to find the book and I got it x)). 2 books that are tea =D So I went to the computer and search Traditional clothes but it's already on loan, so I search FengShui & it give me what stupid FengShui books -.-" !! So I went back to the Pottery's book and kept finding a book that is full of pictures and faster grab and go because I already spent 1 hours ++ searching for the books and I guess if I take longer time, we might reach at ShiXiong's chalet at 8 LOLS !!

Throw books at my home and went off to eat LongJohnSilver~ Chatted loads of things throughout and finally we reached ShiXiong's chalet. LOLS !! ZhenFeng's phone aka my phone is throwing tantrum LOLS !! We exchanged phone because his phone had no batt and so we exchanged LOLS !! So that's my phone xD !! The phone now is already okay and it had vibration already =DD !!

Reached there and played around and had talks among our group, we really get to know alot of things from the talks =D but afterall it's our stuffs, won't be blogging about it xP. After that had our cake cutting and photo taking. LOLS Oh yay~ my phone sucks LOLS !! I guess it can only take good photo where there's light LOLS. After everything, people started to leave and left afew of us chatting. Around 11.40, went off with ZhenFeng and took my papa's van home.

Well, alot of things I didn't say out because I don't want to. I'm really stress up with alot of things already. Don't try to add in troubles for me, if you can't lessen my burdens don't try to add in. I hate u!! Stupid father, you are really not doing ur part as a father. UOB bill also need us to pay, kor haven't even settle down with his new work and you are already asking so much from us. I'm really disappointed already.

When can I faster get out of this house!! Coming home is not a pleasure, it's only a torture. Staying at home isn't nice, staying outside is better. Who can just help me push off all this shit from the stress I'm having. I really did think of quitting school before but I abandoned the thoughts because of my future, because of my god damn future. I've already real loads of friends who had quit school already, but yet they stayed at home do nothing and I hate staying at home. ZhenFeng is quite true, I guess is because of the studies and the teachers. I doubt alot of people will not be able to survive in Singapore already. It's really stress~ Furthermore there're more stress from family, stress from friends, stress from everything. Arghh~!! Life is so toughh~!!

Don't come near me, I'm harmful, I bite~

5 Tigers =D

5 Cats Meow Meow xD !!

Gays xD !!!!

ShiXiong & his teacher

Farmers XD !!! Go back grow vegetables xD !! jkjk~

ShiXiong&family =D

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY SHIXIONG =D

LOLS xD

Melon Bullied us, and 6realms bullied back xD !!

OMB!! XD !!

See the different between having light and no light photo? My cam sucks LOLS

Mai Siao Siao xD !!

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to ShiXiong
Happy birthday to you.

Zhu Ni Sheng Ri Kuai Le
Zhu Ni Sheng ri kuai le
Zhu Ni sheng ri kuai le enn~
Zhu Ni Sheng Ri Kuai Le

Na Mo Oh Mi Tuo Fou
Na Mo Oh Mi Tuo Fou
Na Mo Oh Mi Tuo Fou oo
Na Mo Oh Mi Tuo Fou =D

Happy 21st Birthday ShiXiong, You rawks =D

2:54:00 PM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Do you still remember ?

Hmmm, remember the clip that I've posted up in the blog about a chao auntie stepping the poor kitten?!?! WenCai had reported it and they replied to him.

Dear Tenzin,

Thanks for contacting us about the infamous “crush videos” that show people stepping on and killing small animals.

The sick individuals behind one such video were traced to Heilongjiang Province in Northern China. The female actress, who was taped stomping a kitten, is reported to have disappeared, while the man who produced the film is reported to have written a “self-criticism” that was posted online. It is unclear if the two will face any charges because China’s cruelty to animals regulations are woefully inadequate.

In the United States, the Crush Video Bill (H.R. 1887) passed in the House by a landslide vote and in the Senate on a voice vote by unanimous consent; it was signed into law on Dec. 9, 1999. The bill prohibits interstate commerce in and commercial gain from the distribution of depictions of animal cruelty, including so-called crush videos. Cruelty investigators discovered thousands of these videos available on the Internet and through specialty vendors, selling for up to $300 a piece.

I must really thanks to him, if not him who reported, I weren't know that the China's cruelty to animals regulation are woefully inadequate and there are still people selling videos up to $300 a piece. Oh my buddha!! It's like what the heaven~ Why are there so many cruel people on earth. *Sigh*

Thanks WenCai worx !!!
[ adapted the reply from SBMY forum ]

9:07:00 AM

Friday, March 24, 2006

8o0 Post that I've already wrote~

So, this is mine 800th post that I've wrote for the past 2 years. Time really flies, 2 years had just past in such a quick time. So many things happening around me, breaking up of friendships, breaking up of relationship, having a different life at home, having stress. These 2 years are tough but yet when you think back, it's some kind of bittersweet memories that stays. Everything do change when you're separate apart from each others, people change, friendship & relationship breaks, faking away smiles. Life isn't that simple anymore, it's not like the past where everyone present out the true them.

I was wondering why everything changes so fast, in just afew days a relationship can break. Is Time the culprit or is it humans? Been thinking alot nowadays, too sick of life or was getting tired from all the things that happened. I'm breaking down soon, both physically and mentally. I guess it's because the lateness of every month routine. It hasn't been coming ever since we broke. Don't think too much, we did nothing but guess it's because of the amount of stress I got from all the life's thing, that what is been proven scientifically. They said that when it came late or we missed it is due to the stress we had, so the hormones did not function properly, so I guess that is another problem for the pimples that have been popping out nowadays.

I must really praise myself for this time, it's my first time I finished A math homework by myself without any help from others or rather any copied work. I finished the whole paper that consists of 8 questions, though people will say I'm such an loser, so little question being finished yet still must praise ownself but because I always get sick of doing it and just give up, yet this time I just finished it up even it's just 8 pathetic questions. I just hope it will be correct =D

Enrolment for our Sec 1 sisters today, we all now sister guide now, congratulation to all =D

I will be finishing my blogskins by today if my brother allow me to do so, he always wanted the PC to play instead of letting me to finish the things up. Sometimes, I really hate to come home because they always think they're the one who is always correct and everything that is wrong is 100% me. I'm always the one getting scolding even though it's my brother who had done it. They always think that my brothers have important things to do yet I don't have. They always command me to do thing that I don't like, I just have no right to say No at all. When my dad asked me to go out to accompany him, I don't have the choice to choose. If I said I'm not free, he will just say that I always think of myself, just asking me to accompany him go out also don't want. I mean can't you see that I'm busy with my stuffs? Even if I'm not busy, I still have the choice to choose whether I want to go out anot yet in this pathetic home, I don't have the choices to choose at all. I just hate home!! I hate people to ask me to do things that I don't like, you all sucks.

Well I will be ending here, can't afford to spend more times on my blogging, I've to finish it. Seriously, I can't bear to leave Mogallana, but everything impermanence, nothing stays. I loves them but I knew that we will have to part one day, just one fine day. Can't we choose not to change group every half year?!? Why can't just reshuffle the newcomers?? What for keep changing the groups?!?

I'm gone~

6:46:00 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Sleepy =( I'm going to be sick soon =((

Woots I'm half done with the blogskin already, stopped because my kor wanted the pc so have no choice but to stop there. =(( Well nothing much today, felt that I'm getting sick soon. I'm like so tired for the whole day, kept slping and slping. Once I've the free time, I will just sleep. Even if I want to concentrate, I'm still so tired that I just sleep. I've been slping for like 3 periods but had woken up to listen to teacher in between.

Arghh I just hate A math, I wanted to finish the homework that teacher give but I'm like stuck at the 1st question and I have been wasting 20 mins on that stupid question. Flipping through the textbook didn't help much also =(( Why A math is so hard =((

Oh ya, I got my D&T total result back =D scored 64 /100, still bad but at least better than C5. It's now B4 !! I will be aiming for A1 next time. I'm still stuck at the design of the rack. Hais~ No idea for any design at all, yet we need to start work soon already because we must hand in around the 8th week of the term and now i'm left with 7 week. *ROARS* How am I going to finish it if I keep wasting my time finding the idea?? Might as well come out with any design and just do it, but I wanted a high marks. I want an A1 =((

Been expecting alot from myself, wanted A's for my Chinese, D&T, Combined Science & E math. This are the 4 subject that I know I can do well but yet I don't know why my Chinese failed? I never fail my Chinese before and was getting A1 for it but now it seems so weird. I hope for a easer paper next time so I can get a high A1 and when we telly up, I score at least an high result.

BoyBoy is so cute today, kept finding me to play with him, brought bone to me and keep bugging me to play with him. He's like so oh-my-buddha CUTE !! I just love him loads loads =D He's weird today too, kept finding things to cuddle to sleep, finding my leg to lean on. LOLS !! So I told him " I love you boyboy loads okay!! " and he happily went to sleep at the side. LOLS !! So I guess he want to hear the three magic words. LOLS !! See, the 3 words are so powerful LOLS !!

I was like missing him*, because of the soft toy. Talked about catching soft toys with LiangEng just now, and she told me that her cousin caught a cat for her, she was describing it and the pattern look almost so same with mine. So I started to miss the soft toy and went home hugged it. Oh well, miss him~ But he just doesn't worth it.

I was like taking the pictures of the soft toys that he caught for me & boyboy was like keep looking at me, so I just snapped some pictures of him. LOLS !! He always hate taking photos, I don't know why too. Maybe the previous owner had on the flash light and it hurt his eyes?

So cute right??

Short post though, because I've to finish the blogskin =D Felt alittle determination to finish it. Keke ^.^ I just hate doing things halfway so might as well finish it up and we can start using it =D Oh yay!! Wooray to mine group. Loves them loads loads =D

*Ciaos*

I miss everybody =DD

3:53:00 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Short post & will be doing my blogskins =D

Hmmm nothing much happened today, slept throughout my CME, and slept during the "free" period of A math because half of the class was gone for the checkup. The weather is super super duper nice and I just slept =D After school stayed back and eat and went home. Till now I'm still tired but I will be doing my blogskins during weekdays and I will spend my Friday, Saturday & Sunday studying till the day I finished doing the blogskins and all =D I just can't use pc during weekend so just have to use it during weekdays =((

So Cia0s~ I'm off to do blogskins already. Sorry for the short post because nowaday time is really getting little for me =D Takecare =D

P.S: Pris ahh, don't worry don't worry =D This is just a obstacle for you, must know which step to take. =D If not you might just lose someone.

4:23:00 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Result damn bad =(

School was the same again, I flunked my Combined humanities =(( 42 only. So I guess I already gort back all my results. I really need to and I HAVE TO buck up the next few exams already. Hmmm today chatted with Mrs Lim. I changed my impression for her already. She's no longer that Chao auntie teacher that I hate anymore. She's really nice. I'm sorry that I given attitude to you the last time round. We chatted alot, she teaches me how to study well for my next few exams. I must really thanks her. =D

Hmmm, pon-ed my SS thingy, because I actually forgotten it and I told Huixuan mummy that we tuesday go out. So I have no choice but to pon it, cuz I don't want last min pangseh her because it's really last min that I knew it. So decided to pon it since there's nothing much, we're only helping out the MOE with their stuffs. So I'm sorry Mdm Ernie. That's is not studies at all, so I chose the more important things to me between helping out with the MOE and my friend. I chose friend.

We went to bugis because I'm looking for bag for school yet couldn't find. Instead I met some friends in a shop =D !! She's really nice, he's really nice too =D We got a free membership card and they say they will hired me during June Holiday. Weeets~ I love bugis people =DD I'm making more and more friends in Bugis street already. LOLS I loves Bugis =D Whoever want to buy Camera, try finding me =D I got cheap camera on hand. 258 bucks for a 5.0 Megapixel camera. 158 bucks for a 3.2 Megapixel camera. It's also in a super clear state =D Furthermore, it's slim and u can bring it out and keep it in your pocket =D

So I bought afew things today. Bought a dollar earring and a 5 dollar HelloKitty Earring. Wanted a pink HelloKitty earring yet it only have blue, black, and the purple one. So was choosing either one and yet I prefer purple to the other one =D

So went to the friend's (who I knew today) shop and I was like looking around and I asked her about the shop and so we started chatting. So I bought a bag, a bigger one so I can put more things inside unlike the one that I've been bringing =D It was actually 16 - 17 bucks. She wanted to charge me 15 bucks yet in the end she said she give it 13 bucks. So I bought the white one. =D

The pictures isn't that clear =(( Sorry~

Before we left, she given us a pen =D So cute you know.

Cute horr? It's free x))

She's so nice, she trusted us because I had to give net yet she doesn't have any net in her shop so we just have to hop over to another shop to borrow it yet she said that she trusted us so she asked mummy to help take care of the shop. So nice right ?!?! I'm so looking forward to work there x)) The place is filled with loads of nice nice people there x))

I'm having headache =(( Lucky there's no guide tomorrow but I've to go on Friday. Hais~ But anywhere Congrats to our Sec 1 =D !! I still misses my Jasmine =(( Never mind now I'm in Hibiscus, must be a good girl already. =D

I don't know why but I've change my style alittle into casual wear sometimes. I'm just too lazy to think what to wear sometimes so might as well wear something simple =D Anywhere Pris ahh you having your common test now horr. I wish you good luck okay =DD Miss PRIS loads =DD

I will be studying 1 hour each day on those subject that I flunked. So will be away if I'm online sometimes. Don't scold me if I'm late in replying. =D I'm just getting so tired of studying but yet I doesn't want to quit school =D I don't want to spoil my future just because of current stress. I already saw a few friend who quit school and seriously I really want them back in the school again so I won't follow their footstep. Never ever will I =DD

But I just feeling so stressed up, I'm feeling stress over my studies, I'm feeling stress in school, I'm feeling stress at home. I'm just feeling so stress lah. And my MOTHER killed my baby hamster!! I really can't stand it and I was like shouting at her =(( You all know that we're not allowed to touch baby hamster yet she still touch them despite the previous 2 lesson. They're supposed to be leave alone. I'm like so angry with my mother till now. Don't try to ask me to cool down because afterall they are living things. I can't stand anyone or anything to make them die. I really can't stand it. Why can't her stupid hand just leave them alone? What for touch them? Will it make her happy? Now seeing the baby one by one being gone can make her happy is it? Then by all means, I gave up. I'm left with one pathetic baby hamster. I hope the mother don't do anything anymore. I just can't stand looking at the baby hamster getting lesser and lesser. It's like they're so innocent, just drinking their mother's milk and my mother just come over disturb and their mother can't stand the smell that is different from them and BYE~

*ROARS*

I'm super pissed off, super stressed up, super sad right now. Mixed feeling =(( I love all my pets but I getting lesser and lesser time to care for them already =(( I will try to find times for you all okay my darling =D Anywhere I really can't stand people ill-treating animals. I really can't ~ Why on earth there are people who are heartless. =(( I'm heartless too as in rejecting people. I'm sorry I've too. I won't be having any relationship until I got some trust for people =D I really won't be able to give the person another chance to let me trust him. Once trust is gone, it's really gone forever. I doubt I can find the trust back for the same person who hurt me. It's not easy~

ARGHH~ I miss my baby hamster =((

Results =((

English - 40/100 = E8
Chinese - 44/100 = E8
E Math - 62.5/100 = B4
A Math - 7.5/100 = F9!!
Physic - 71/100 = A2
Chemistry - 76/100 = A1
Combined Humanities - 42/100 = E8
D and T - 56/100 = C5

My result is super bad lah, flunked 4 subject =(( Somemore it's not D7, it's E8 !! FREAK~! My A math is the worst among all but Eugene is even worst, he got 2. =((!! Both of us is so jialat =(( Anyway I must be happy alittle because I passed my Summary Class test =D 15/25 !! First time I won Nicholas in something =D I guess I gort 3rd again in this class test because the highest is 17/25. I really have to buck up. =(( Okay I'm off to study alittle first and I will be slping early tonight. Can't afford to play the pc till the cows come home already.

I WILL MISS MY BLOGGIE DERHX =DD LOVES YOU LOADS =D

7:31:00 PM

Monday, March 20, 2006

Motivation & determination =((

I want to study but no motivation no determination anymore =(( I'm sadd. *sobx sobx* Stupid math, make me so disappointed with my exams. 3 Marks lehx!! I never get so badly marks before for my common test. It's like so OH MY GOD jialat. Who can give mi motivation or determination to study ah =(( I hate school lah!

Hais~

11:53:00 PM

My Cheeks really round mehx ~

WEI~ I don't understand why nowaday people are saying my cheeks are round and feel like pinching it. ARGHH~ Kick all of you!! * ROARS * I bite you ahh!! My cheeks really very chubby meh?!~

Hmmm, my A math result is damn bad!! Don't know how to survive !! But never mind I really tried my best lerhx =(( Feel like crying sehh, I till now still don't understand how to do the question =(( Hais !! I hate A math lah!! Arghh~!! Anywhere I got back my Physic already. 70 /100, and my Chemistry 76/100 and I'm in combined science so I'm having 73 for my science =D 2 more marks to A1, I must buck up already =DD I'm so disappointed with my result =(( !! I must start study already, guess I slack too much but I really did studied for the exams but why my result is like tat =(( SUPER disappointed ahh~ Who can help me with my studies??

Hmmm, I won't be blogging that long anymore though, I shall try to make up my blogskin as fast as possible. Who has the photo for my mogallana ?!?! Please send me, I want it to be cleared as soon as possible =DD So I can concentrate on my studies and all =DD Boredd, I'm so sleepy, kept sleeping in class =(( Bad start after holiday end =(( Well I just hate school. When can I finished it. Hais~

Happy Birthday WeiRong =D

It's been 3 years soon since we last stead LOLS !! If we are still together we will be 3 years soon already LOLS Times flies~ This shows that times doesn't wait. It's seems that we're just only P6 yesterday yet in a blink of eyes, I'm in Sec 3 already. Another blink of the eyes, I will be in Polytechnic already. I'm oldd =(( Why teenages years pass so fast? Can please slower down =(( I'm like running with the times. Hais! *Roars* I really hate running with times ahh. Yet I've no mood to do anything. I just need the mood to do things but there's no time for me to wait till I have that mood =(( So sad righ!!

I'm sleepy, let me sleep awhile before I get back to work. Cia0s~ =D

3:44:00 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Last day of holiday =((

Woots, one week of holiday just gone in a blink of eyes. I didn't even play enough yet!! Okay so woke up early today and went back to sleep because I was really very tired. Managed to wake up when my kor scared me and told me that I'm late for work. So faster prepared and rush to work. I don't have the feeling to work anymore for EDEW because of the attitude that Betty give, she think she is the boss so what. I have the right to choose whether I want to work anot. So whatever the case, went there and I kind of being turned off. She was trying her best to chat with me yet I doesn't care anything about her.

I'm sorry to say that I'm tired to work for this company, all kinds of nonsense getting up to me. You can't find any workers is your own problem, it's not mine. I'm doing you a favour though you are paying me, even if I don't work, you still have to pay the rent. So just too bad to you =D I just miss my boss, I miss Judy, Junior. They're the one who really take care of me throughout. Alex is just another one acting like he cared.

So after that, Daddie and Marmie came, and we pei-ed Daddie to take MRT back and we went off to eat and went to bugis to shop around. After awhile marmie went off, so I went to find KahBeng. PingYan, I finally saw him LOLS !! Oh ya Ricky saw me today LOLS why everyone are seeing me nowaday? So slack at KahBeng's CD shop awhile and went to eat with my parents and now I'm at home =DD

Marmie&mi =D

We wore the same =DD

This is the icecream which has the bread above, cream and then cake below. Super nice!! cost 1.40~ but the cream part isn't that nice only. d other is super nice =D Try it at Breadtalk =D

School is tomorrow. Sucks Sucks =(( I hate school. I just simply hate going to school and waking up early =((

I HATE SCHOOL LAH!!

10:32:00 PM

SERIOUSLY~

Hmmm, after reading alot blog of the people who had gone for the retreats. We all had learnt loads of things from there though we keep breaking the noble silence. OOPS !~ But we are active and playful in nature. We really had tried our best to keep the noble silence as much as we can. All the dharma talks that are taught, had helped me in my life. The nightwalk to the beach was cool too. We stay calm and listened to the waves hitting onto the shores. After that had a talked by Anghwee who told us that, the happiest things on earth is free. We doesn't need to pay to be happy.

Sitting by the beach, listening to the waves can make someone be happy. It's free, we doesn't need to pay to listen to the waves, yet we still can be happy with it. Loads of things that is free and we can still be happy with it. Like what Eve said " having people who is true and sincere to u can make me happy " I agreed with her. If everyone in the world is true, no backstabbing, the world will be a more nicer place. Do you still think back of your primary school times when you and your friends had said " I don't friend you anymore " Seriously, I prefer that. At least they don't backstab you, they tell you infront that they don't friend you anymore. At least they are being true towards you when they hate you.

For me, having a simple life can make me happy. Yet, I don't know why did my life became so complicated that I can't even handle it any longer. I just leave it as it is, let everything going as it should be. I'm not a buddhist before the Prequel camp which is held during the June'05 yet slowly from a Taoist, I came to believe Buddhist as well and so I'm a Taoist-Buddhist. I knew nothing about buddhist, all I know was being a Buddhist, we must be vegetarian. That's so little knowledge that I knew yet it's wrong one. Being a buddhist doesn't have to be a vegetarian, you are just not to kill animal for the sake of yourself. They're not supposed to die because of you, and because you want to eat them.

I knew nothing about dharma talks, I hate school TP session which is dharma talk. I always sleep throughout the session, yet for now I'm interested to know alittle though I slept sometimes OOPS =x Oh ya 3 Cheers to our organisers =DD Ryan, Vic Teo, FuZhong, Forester. Think no more? Sorry if I didn't put up ur name =x

So for now I'm look forward to our PREQUEL'o6 Camp =D !! Our Camp Master ShiXiong and Our Vice Camp Master ChuFeng will be handling this camp. Good lucks =DD !! So hmmm I haven set up my Blog yet =(( Felt so irresponsible but I'm really sorry because I'm really busy nowaday. So tired with stuffs and all =(( So blahhhh, loads of things haven done, So yups yups have to chiong it already. Times is so little =((

Okay so byeeee~ have to hand over the pc to my kor now =(( Okay takecare people =DD LOVES loads =D

9:36:00 AM

PLEASE STOP ANIMAL CRUELTY

FCUKED UP PEOPLE. STOP BEING CRUEL TO

ANIMAL. PLEASE GET LOST IF YOU DON'T LOVES

ANIMAL, THEY DON'T NEED U TO GO NEAR THEM.

http://www.consumptionjunction.com/content/detail.asp?ID=54748&type=1&page=3

Go and see!! I cried seriously. That auntie is a freak, is damn freakish and damn disgusting and damn cruel. She is definitely heartless!!! CHAO AUNTIE, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO STAY IN THIS WORLD. GET LOST~!!!

[ the website adapted from PRIS PRIS x)) ]

9:13:00 AM

Friday, March 17, 2006

BOO~!!

I'm backs!! keke x)) Miss me?? Hmmm so this few days have been real busy with stuffs and all. Monday went out to have our Sakae with Ryan&ZhenFeng&Lionel, Tuesday went to Malaysia for field trip and Wednesday went to Retreats yet returned at night with ZhenFeng and yet ZhenFeng is sick !! Thursday morning went to school and rush back to Retreats and it's a scary one, stay over there and Friday morning went out of the retreats with Eve, Lionel to school and I went back after the chemistry end. It is so so so tired, I guess I'm dying soon. Over exhausted I guess? Yet after that I'm headed over to TKSS's campfire. I'm DEAD~

On wednesday, ZhenFeng smsed me and told me he's sick and needed something to cure it so I went down to find the Herbal Tea yet suddenly all the shop doesn't have yet I managed to find one shop selling. It's like FINALLY! So rushed over to Tampiness MRT to meet them and went off to the campsite. We had our own free time until 6pm before everything starts, so we were like relaxing and chatting. We went down to eat the dinner and Ryan said " Faster eat, scally bante come in and all eat halfway den faster run to the hall. " LOLS yet after awhile Bante really came. It's like he's really way way way too early.

After everything, bante told us about the 8 precepts that we are supposed to keep it. The usual 5 precepts that we take and the additional precepts are, " no luxiously high seats, no entertainment and things to beautify and adorn ownself & the last but not least is the no food after noon. " Yet because this is the silence retreats so we must refrains from talking =D

So after Bante, we had a dharma talk from a venerable. Seriously, her speech is true and super useful on our life. The things that she said I managed to listen all and it still inside my head. It said about some disstatisfictory, impermanece, kharma, stress management. I can't possible typing out so much things so I just give it some summary. Impermanence, we must treasured it before we lose it because when we lose it, we can let go more easier. Nothing last forever, beauty fades and people die.

Kharma, we are borned into this family, whether our family are good or bad, it's because of our kharma, because of our past life, because of wat we had done in the past, that's why we had the current life now. Maybe u born into this bad family because u're supposed to return all the debts that u have own in the past life. Disstatisfictory, we are always disstaisfied with everything in life, we're never contented with life. We must learn to be contented so that we can live a more happy life.

Then after that Me and ZhenFeng went home already, took LiangJian's van =D thanks thanks, and took bus home after that, reach home faster bathe and slept. Woke up 6.45 in the morning on Thursday and faster get ready and went to school for Chemistry. Paired up with Eugene and had our crystallisation pratical. It's funn =D I loves pratical session x)) After the Chemistry thingy, went to take 29 at Tampiness to get back to the Retreats which is located at somewhere near the Old Changi Hospital LOLS =x

So I was like alone walking there, Jackson called and pei-ed me to chat while I walk there, I told him that I'm near Old changi Hospital and blahblahblah, and he said pei me chat until I reach. LOLS so nice right ?!?! So when I reach and we hung up the phone and I quickly put down my things and went to join them. It's some buddhist teacher from my school giving the speech at that time. I'm only catched up by alittle tiny winy bit before he ended the dharma talk so I don't really know what was he talking about.

After that we had our walking meditation, we are supposed to walk around slowly without talking, eyes half close and thinking nothing at all. After that we went down and had our meditation as usual. I succeeded in sitting there and meditate but just alittle bit cramp here and there at times. After the meditation went to rest awhile and had our dharma talk from Mr Eng ( the kit-kat dharma talk ) LOLS ! no lah~ Why I say it's kit-kat talk? It's because he said that whoever can answer his question will be given kit-kat. He said about Kharma, he had actually barbecue thousands of lifes before which is ants~ At that time, he didn't know about buddhist thing and whenever he see ants, he just went to get a newspaper and started to light the newspaper and barbecue ants.

Please do not think that he is trying to help the ants to change their realms as a ants to another realms. He said that if the ants had the kharma to be the ants, he had to be the ants until the kharma ends off. So even u burnt it off and when he rebirth, he will still be an ant. At first he only had to be an ant for one life yet you double it up.

After the Kit-kat talk, we did the chanting and we had our own time own target. I quickly went to bath because I can't stand the time for not bathing after reaching the place. Had our chatting after that and Fiona thought that I stead with Randall which is NOT! But now everything also doesn't matter already, she already changed =x lalalala~ So had our love story chatting and our ghost story but I left halfway cause I don't want to let it haunt my mind LOLS =x So went in my bedroom and pearly bullied me LOLS !! she's super cute, she is forever so cute LOLS.

I slept with the sound of the clicking of hp's keypad beside me which is Fiona. LOLS ! She's forever smsing, talking on phone and making her hair LOLS !!!! So woke up before Ryan wakes us up because I heard he saying " wake up wake up 5 am already " LOLS !! So when he opened the door I just sit up LOLS =x Prepared and went out to get a jog with them, was super tired after getting back. They went off for meditation after that while I went up to pack my bag and helped Victor Teo to cook the maggie mee =DD

After awhile, Evelyn's dad came and we took her dad car to evelyn's school first. Her school is so nice!, haing so many people coming back to the school during holiday. After that I was sleeping all the way till my school LOLS. Evelyn's dad is super nice, he send me till school. THANKS EVELYN, THANKS EVELYN'S DAD =D

After that headed back to my home and bathe and went back to SBM to join them. Had our MOAT training. After that left with Cherie at around 4++ and went home to change into my guide uniform and went to meet xiangyu and we take 197 to find LiangEng. The 3 of us happily walked to TKSS and played there. The campfire wasn't that nice and cheerful. Everyone doesn't had the high mood at all. Disappointing though but afterall it done by guide so it's okay. Then all of us went to the market and eat and left with LiangEng and XiangYu and I took 197 alone back =D Slept on the bus and almost overshot, managed to get up when my stop came.

Faster went home and slept till today afternoon and faster prepared and went out to orchard to meet marmie, daddie came along and tell me that he needed marmie at 6. Disappointed again. ZhiWei finally saw me LOLS, I kept don't want to meet him and all LOLS but he still managed to see me today. LOLS friends that had fate will meet one day so don't need to keep ask mi meet okay =D

So after that went to shop around and we tried on the Gothic Logita. LOLS i don't like already. LOLS seems so unmeaningful, wear it and next time u can't wear it anymore when u grow up. Waste money and all LOLS. Nahhh I won't buy it XD So walked around and went to cineleisure and I ba my hao marmie pass to my daddie and went to find KahBeng and chit chat. PingYan horr LOLS suan liao don't say him liao. LOLS !!! STUPID KahBeng horr keep say wat muz give chance muz give chance -.-"

So after that went home and had my piano lesson. Oh ya my dad changed into a Van, SUPER COOL OKAY. Next time I take pictures of it okay. It's super duper cool. Look like disco!! WEETS =x So blahh I'm returning the Pc to my korr. blahhhh *off* =D Oh ya!! My eyes was super small last few day and I don't know why my eyes today super big LOLS !! When I woke up that time, suddenly find my eyes so big. Guess I didn't slp properly last few days LOLS !! I love my current eyes but it's getting smaller LOLS cuz i'm tired LOLS

*PICTURES*

Marmie tried on the clothes & mi beside x))

LOGITATE =D (forget how to spell) LOLS

ME x))

Me and XiangYu x))

5:14:00 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

MIA-ing~

I'm going for retreats in afew hours time. But I will be back at night with ZhenFeng x)) Cuz I don't want to go school tml alone =x So blahhh I will be back but I won't be blogging cuz it's already late at night. Thursday I'm having chemistry thingys and I'm returning to the campsite and after that I will be staying over there and the next day I will be leaving with Eve and all. If the Camp end early on Fri, I won't be returning anymore but if it end around 3++ or 4 I will be returning =D

This camp is not a adventurer camp, so no play nothing. And I will be MIA from today till fri =D Miss me okay xD ! But I got to miss loads of people =DD

I will miss my PRIS derhx x))
I will miss my MARMIE derhx x))
I will miss my loads of people =x

heh heh LOLS can't be listing out all lah LOLS, there's real loads lah x))

PRISSSS so long since ii saw uu LOLS !!! II MISS UU LAH LOLS !!

*off*
TAKECARE x))

11:24:00 AM

A long long post =DD with loads of pictures =D

Okay so here comes the long long post of pictures, hmmm I'm will be doing a summary of the things I've done the past few days because it's already 1.12am now and I'm here blogging and I'm having the retreats later on. Tiredd exhaustedd from just now the malaysia trip already =((

So Yesterday went out withmarmie, shop around and I bought a cardigan, having 30% discount LOLS !! So I bought it at 9.80 and it's usual price is 14. wahahaha~!! After that went into giordano and I wanted that long sleeve one so much =(( it's nice but it's expensive xD !! Well just forget it cuz it's not worth for a clothes to be that expensive. Hmmm after that walked around and went to neoprint shop to play around with the camera. Can't blame us, we're already broke =((

So played around and went to play with dress and take pictures. We kinda in love with the dresses =DD Nice nice nice x)) so blahblahblah, met up with Lionel and walk around for awhile and marmie went off and went to meet zhenfeng and ryan. We just went up to Sakae straightaway, they're late. BOOOOO~ LOLS =x went in and started eating and eating and eating. THEY ALL keep di-siao me about my eyeliner, keep say what black black LOLS. Then still gort what what say what that time when they small also never wear like mi like tat. LOLS say dao like so jialat like tat LOLS.

Eat and eat and eat and chatted and chatted and chatted, den after awhile Lionel went off and we continue our eating and chatting. Oh ya, I dont know why the girls that work there, I don't know which language are the speaking. They talk until we dont even understand anything. LOLS okay so here's one part, one girl who is servicing us with the desert came up and asked which flavour we want, so we asked for honeydew & yam. When the girl came back with the deserts, she started to talk and talk and talk but Ryan just said okay okay but actually he don't understand what she talking. So he was happily eating and until I bite one of his " honeydew ", it became a durian one LOLS !! Yet the gong Ryan didn't know that it's a durian one. So we found out maybe the girl was saying that they don't have honeydew anymore so exchanged into durian or blahblahblah LOLS.

Then we all were keep saying about AL and AB LOLS, thanks to marmie lah LOLS !! kept saying and saying LOLS. Then there's afew girl walk past wearing the hellokitty necklace then Ryan say that they were my HK grp LOLS !! It's super stupidd lah LOLS but funn lah LOLS. After that went off to meet Vic Teo and headed to arcade. LOLS Ryan was super suay !! He played the "houses of the dead 4" yet the gun was spoilt. But in the end they changed a machine so ZhenFeng and me went to play "Photohunt". After that I don't know why ZhenFeng disappeared, so the 3 of us played the "Photohunt" LOLS yet the coin gort stuck, but the auntie help us to fix it yet we didn't beat the high score. So we played the second time using Ryan money again LOLS, yet before he put down the money he say " aiya, later the machine eat my money " LOLS den in the end really eat his money LOLS !! so super funny lah LOLS !!

So blahblahblah, went to awareness place there and blahblahblah, there's books selling at cheap price now, try to go there and take a look =D hmmm so after everything, went to burger king and blahblahblah, Okay so here LOLS JASHAWN SUCKS =x lalalala ~ !!

So nothing for the day already so let's talk about today, woke up early and give morning call LOLS, I was like using my house phone to call ZhenFeng and my handphone to call Ryan LOLS !!!! It's like very stupid lah, who will use two phone to talk ? LOLS ! SO blahh went to school and we headed for the malaysia. We went to see how we get latex from the rubber tree and how pineapple are grow. After that we headed to the cutting of the fruits thingy, the sickle is super super sharp, by a few stroke and the whole branchs of leaves dropped.

After that we headed to the making of brown sugars, and then LUNCH TIMES =DD teck koon is super cute lah LOLS he went to eat the Fish's head LOLS. He was di-siao-ing Waiyu, and yet the fish's head became his at last LOLS. So after that we had a shopping and I bought alittle stuffs only LOLS !! Okay so here's come the pictures =D