Tuesday, February 28, 2006
=) CHEERS!!
have ii changed? Can anyone tell me what can I improved on my character??
*ROARS* ii miss youuuu =((
8:50:00 PM
Mogallana rawks x))
Can I request not to leave =(( !!
and ii suddenly miss alot people lehx~
even those that i'm just okok friends only~
Don't know why ii JUST miss all of themx =((
AND II SUDDENLY HAVE THE URGE TO REBOND AGAIN LOLS!!
i'm bo liao lah LOLS !! never mind not tis march!! cuz everything is cramped up ~ =((
14 - 18 BOOKED~ =(( !! i'm left with only 11 - 13 =(( ii'm gotta find marmie out one of the day xD !! ii misssssss going out with her =(( anywhere so like tat bahx x))
EVELYN~ wanna go out on sat before going to the sharing?!?! ii'm still not sure abt the time but I BOOK UU FIRST XD !!! lalalaaa~
I LOVES EVERYONE OKAY X))
EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU X))
7:52:00 PM
Paper was quite okay, I'm being stupid in one question, it's was the correct answer and I went to change the answer. FREAK myself!! After that had a super bad headache, wanted to sleep during recess but kept with Liang Eng talking. I really want to sleep but I just don't know why I can't get to sleep. I think it's the coffee that I drank in the morning.
Okay so well i'm off ~
I'm just off to sleep!!!
Just simply, superly, TIREDD and sleepy x))
GOOD NITE x))
shan't blog much nowaday, don't really have time though. times is not enough right now x))
LOVE youu bloggie =DD
AND OF COURSE MY DEAREST FRIENDS x))
5:38:00 PM
Monday, February 27, 2006
so blahhhhhhh shan't tok much. put up pic can liao x))
we're just friends only LOLS not an item okay LOLS
and ii gort a nu-er LOLS so cute lah but tink temporary for todae only LOLS xD
BLAHHHHH~ x))
9:24:00 PM
" EHhhh, Apple and Apple. Orange and Orange. "
it's was super stupid, making the whole class laughed. Blamed Alex for making me luff and now I'm making the whole class luff for the stupidity i've done. LOLS !! Oh ya I've improved my A math test marks though i've still flunk it but i'm happy at least i had improved xD. I lost 3 marks which a question that I know how to do. Well if i had the 3 marks i would have passed. =((
I need to start mugging already. I'm not going to failed any of my subjects by O level time and i'm aiming for loads of A's. Hope i get it !! After school, had our remedial from Mdm Toh. She scared me once LOLS, but overall she's still cute !! I love this teacher loads =D
hmmm, well having a busy week this week and last week =((
Monday I'm having remedial
Tuesday Tohwee is coming to help me =D
Wednesday Having Guide day and meeting someone go out play LOLS
Thursday Going to the awareness thingy
Friday Going out with shanyuan =D
Saturday having SBM and of course EVE's birthday and randall birthday bbq
Sunday having my piano lesson and relax at home and study =D
ANd is anyone going Randall's birthday bbq? Well ii see first lah LOLS
I miss SBM =(( Time please faster faster flies =D I'm loving each and every mins that we spend together x)) I love the people there =D I love everyone there x))
and oh ya I hate friend who keep think about themself, if I can't accompany u. I have my reasons, stop saying what no use iin asking me or others because we won't pei you or watever craps. Oi, tink yourself we did pei u afew times okay, stop CLAIMING THAT there's NONE okay!! Think before u say~
And STUPID SONGWEI, he dropped my fone todae, I've never dropped my fone at all and yet he dropped it. FREAK lah!! was super pissed off loo!! I used my money to buy it okay, u not xintong I xintong can anot. STUPID~ =x but whateverr dropped also dropped liao but ii will never let anyone TOUCH my handphone again. NEVER =D except PRIS, EVE, shanyuan those loo and afew of SBM people =D try asking if ii let uu anot LOLS. lalalaa~
Once trust is gone, you will never get it back from me again x))
TOO BAD xD
5:39:00 PM
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Jashawn ah Jashawn. I still miss you at times =(( Please let everything goes away. If we met again, will we still be friends like how we are last time? Nahhh! They always say hope we will be friends like last time but none is speaking the truth.
FREAK the flirtish guys x))
6:18:00 PM
Find that things are getting out of control. Felt that my kor and me are getting further. We are no longer that we will say sorry to each other. No longer that close anymore, no longer chat about hows life. I no longer tell him what happened in school, what happened to my life. We're no longer that close anymore. FREAKISH!!
i despise life, it's always giving us up and down. I love up but I hate down. Why can't we just lead a simple life. Simplicity is just a beauty to me, but yet no one could give me the simple life that I wanted. I just want to have a life that there's people who sincerely loves me, wholeheartedly love me. At least to the maximum, I don't need any quarrelled at all. I'm attitude yes I admit but think yourself what make me attitude. If you don't give me yours I won't give it to u. Think before you point finger to me. Stop acting like the whole damn world is owning you something, if it is, den freaking go get it from them. I hate you! Get lost ~
It's right like what Pris said.
Treat others like what you want other treat you.
Just stop putting blames on others,
see the faults in you
not others.
If it's truely that I'm at fault I will say sorry
BUT THIS IS NOT MY FAULT.
YOU DIDN'T TELL ME
so HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?
Just tell me that you don't like
just tell me that you don't want it to happen again
IS THAT SO HARD!!
FREAK THE WHOLE DAMN LIFE
6:03:00 PM
This is the word women use to end argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
"FIVE MINUTES"
If she is getting dressed when she says this, this actually means half an hour.However, five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
"NOTHING"
This is the calm before the storm. This means "something", and you should be on your toes.Arguments that begin with 'Nothing' usually endin "Fine".
"GO AHEAD"
This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it.
"LOUD SIGH"
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.Means she thinks you are an idiot andwonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing".
"THAT'S OKAY"This is one of the most dangerous statements tha ta woman can make to a man. "That's Okay"means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
"THANKS"A woman is thanking you. Do not question it orfaint. Just say you're welcome.
Oh, and before we forget ...
"WHATEVER"
It's a woman's way of saying F**K YOU!
12:30:00 PM
He broke off with his gf now, I told you it's already come in a cycle, but I thought he was serious in this relationship. Crap again~ They lasted for only 2weeks plus?? What a shity guy he is, I hate him!! I pity her, afterall we are both the girl that is so naive to believe in his words. Actually hor LOLS the girl also just broke up with her bf and went steady with him LOLS both crapper lah~ LOLS
SHALL END HERE x))
I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE
It's MORE of a HATING you alittle.
2:24:00 AM
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Well, clear loads of doubts of mine already, he still only managed to teach me Indices, Surds, Logarithm alittle due to time constraints. So after that ShiXiong came and we took his car to SBM. They're super cute lah in the car, cuz the radio is playing Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway. Then there's one sentence is - I just Break-a-way and they sing it in a super cute voice. I was laughing like mad LOLS.
Reached there and my ankle was pain like mad. We were supposed to sit down and I really can't bring myself to sit down, had to dump my butt down and there's another part that we were supposed to squart and pray, my ankle was way way way too pain but I still pray anywhere.
After everything, we went to write things on a book that we dedicated to ZeKui, it's from mogallana though x)) It's actually Evelyn and mine idea but we just put it as Mogallana cuz we're in a family and we love each other x)) Zhen Feng had a super stupid idea of drawing our face in it, and his drawing is super sucks LOLS. We are all in stickman, how pathetic ?? LOLS but he's still cute in his stupid way making all of us laughed. After everything, went to changi airport with Evelyn, Eugene, Daryl, Forester, Vic Teo, Jia Yi, Lionel. Talked with Eugene all the way, spoke about
But but.. Why no one tell me he's that kind of guy?!?! Hais~ Whatever~ CRAPP~ so was chatting with him happily and stupid daryl keep coming in to di-siao LOLS !! Oh ya before we went to the MRT, was happily chatting with eugene and raymond. LOLS we were talking about the NYP thingy LOLS ! Sound like it's getting more and more famous now. Actually I know nothing about the NYP, it's only that I heard alittle about it through zhiwei, but had no idea about it at all just get to know that her video was kana mass send. But now even afew of my friends already knew and it even turn out in the newspaper. I really pity her seriously. They say the girl is super chio!!
Okay so to update to u guys before u all being stupid like me. I'm so damn sua ku when they talked about it. They say it's about a girl who had sex with her bf and she went to record in her hp and now her hp was stolen by her friend. The friend was just only jealous about her and only want to steal her hp as a revenge yet nevertheless, she found this thing inside and send it into the interenet and start to mass send. So tis is the story that I get from them, they said the girl is in cheerleading and she's super popular with the guys maybe because of her looks? I want to see the girl's face LOLS !! Don't think too much, I just want to see her face. They said like she's oh so dead gorgeous. I wonder do all guys' view is true anot, sometimes they're so blind that they choose to believe a bitch than others. LOLS !!
So well cut crap about it, I'm not gotta have a corrupted mind by this LOLS. So after that went to see ZeKui off. Watched her go into the entrance alone but with loads of people waving to her on the outside. How lucky she is !! x)) We were so di-siao that, we asked Ryan in to our circle and we push one another and we hugged Zekui LOLS. I LOVE SBM x))
So after everything, took LiangJian car with Lindy, Ryan, Vic Teo and Daryl. LOLS !! Lindy sat at the front so I'm the only girl who sit at the back. Kept being disturbed by them and I love Ryan's VOICE. He sing song it's like super nice lah!! I love his voice to bits LOLS !! Continue to sing more song ah!!
Reached Tampiness and went to find ZhenFeng and all and headed Food court and eat. I called a stupid thing and it don't really taste nice though. I won't be buying it the second time x)) Finished our dinner and we sat there and chatted. I started the topic about the CRAB FARM!! CRAP !! We were talking loads of experience that they went through. Oh man Please let nothing be happened when we had the next camp. Please okay!! LOLS !! So we were talking about it till very long and kept talking about it till 10. So we headed home, Vic teo and Eugene take the same mrt with me x)) so I'm not bored at all keke!!
After that I don't dare to go home myself, den wanted to asked my mama come down pei me home in the end Eugene was super nice lah, he said he pei me go home den go back find vic teo. SO NICE RIGHT !! Some guys care about their game only, but yet he care about friends somemore we today then talk so much. We've get to know because that time in camp I danced with
Oh ya I find today meaningful day, I don't know why too?? Maybe I got a new good friend, I given ZeKui's present, I send her her off, I went for SBM, I meditate 1/2 hour which I always lost concentration in afew mins but i'm stlil fine today just having some problem with my numbness in my leg LOLS !! Hmm and walked past the place that we hugged and kissed that time but I just faced it and just walked the path. LOLS ! Maybe because I've no choice because everyone are walking that path. But at least I still can faced it x))
So well, I feel happy today x)) Thanks SBM friends !! Thanks Eugene too for telling me how to cope with the stress and the feeling inside x)) thanks alot!! A million thanks to you!!
Oh ya I came back at 10++ and it's got to be 11 x)) Luckily that I've already reach home before 11 if not surely gort stopped by some Police uncles xD I hate curfew LOLS !! Why do they make this kind of stupid curfew ?? It's not fair to us okay~ FINE!! I hate curfew x)) freakish~!!!
I'm sleepy~ Slept at 2++ am and woke up at around 8++ and I'm super tired right now!! OFF TO SLEEP before getting up to chiong my Geography (Elective) Paper xD !! WISH ME LUCK okay x)) LOVES you guys !! Mwarks to my bloggie =D
I love PRIS
I Love Everybody around me x))
I LOVE SBM FRIENDS
Please as a friend, don't act like you cared when you can't bothered.
I dislike love, not hate. I hate him, not dislike.
Please ah, another week faster past, I want to go out with SBM again x))
I'm committed, love, interested, with SBM keke!!
Please let my pain go away =((
10:54:00 PM
Friday, February 24, 2006
Well, nothing special today, I bought Seventeen. I just get to know that Seventeen has already came out long long ago from Evelyn LOLS !! I'm so damn outdated. Suddenly, I'm so into fashion, I need to shop soon!! I want that red skirt!! I want to work!! I want everything and everything. I want that bag too!! I wanted that shoe!! I wanted that top!! Who is willingly to sponsor me ? LOLS !!
Yay!! I'm ran out of money, I really have to work soon, transport fees are always on myself. Handphone, books, stationary expenses are on myself. I don't know why suddenly I use so much money and I don't remember I've ate that much though. I've been skipping loads of meals already, it's not that I don't want to eat, it's just that I just don't have the appetite to eat. Hmm well, I've to be independence and need to. Seriously, I wondered how to find job at this time and my company is closing soon =(( I've to call Alex soon. He asked me to call him after exams but right now I'm in need of money.
I want to go out, but I've to trap at home till after exams. It's not that I cannot go out, it's more of a choice of my own that I wanted to stay at home and be good girl and start studying. I'm super stress up right now. Anywhere I felt a sense of achievement though today! Had our run, and first time in history that I get 12.25 mins, I've never taken running serious before. I'm always taking around 20 mins to reach the end point and suddenly I just manage to get 12.25 mins only and I sweat alot =DD Although I hate sweating but I'm fat now!! I really have to lose weight LOLS. I don't know why, others had said that I'm not that fat but than I still feel I'm fat. Well, WHATEVER~ LOLS
I suddenly don't feel like going for another rebond, alittle waste of money and I currently love natural hair. LOLS well who know when holidays come and I suddenly in the mood to rebond again LOLS !! Hmmm, well today is Friday again. Kinda of miss him though. Whatever~ He's definitely out there with his dearrie right now. CRAP~
Seriously, I can't stand couples standing infront of me hugging. I damn miss the time when we hugged, so when I see other couples, I'm super sad. Those who has ur dearie, Please stay away from me until I forgotten him totally. Until now, I'm still wishing for someone to hug me right tight and tell me everything is alright, but well who will do that??
Maybe like shixiong said, " 10 years down the road, when you look back, you will feel that it's puppy love and guys at our age are jerks " Seriously, it's quite true. You go browse around, which couples actually last till 2 years plus without breaking at all and mostly relationship at our ages only last afew months. I really don't know why I accepted him, there's so many people waited for 1 year or more and yet I accepted him. Sucker~
Oh well, another week has past, SBM is tml again =DD Suddenly I feel times is running so fast and i'm having so little time to do so many things. Times is running and I feel i'm still stepping on the same place. Neither did I walk infront nor walk back. I realised so many of my mistakes but I didn't learn from it. Time !! Please slower your pace ~ I don't know how to catch up !! I guess I'm going to be left behind by everybody soon =((
I miss SBM!!! Tomorrow I'm having A math tuition from ZeMing, and we had our sharing session and off we go to the airport to send ZeKui off. All the best okay!! I'm always looking forward to Saturday!!! Please saturday come faster. I haven start studying my Geography yet, and this subject has to be memorised well. Social Studies is even worst, my source-based is like
Oh well, I'm off~
I miss you lah!
It's wrong way to go okay
I'm heading no where now.
Freak!
I hate friday =(
It's always friday which remind me of you!!
Yet I love friday!
because it's a day closer to SBM~
AHH~ CRAPS!!
I just want to say
To all my Friends:
I love you okay!! Just want to say I love you because I don't know what will happened tomorrow. Suddenly feel that I've no future, It's just a feeling lah, Nothing much though. So here I am, I love you okay my friends =D
To the people who loathe me:
Seriously, I don't care lah, If one way or another I offended you, I'm sorry. If you want to challenge me, It's no use, because you just challenging with a person who don't even want her life. You can kindly take a knife and stabs into my heart, because my heart is already dead =D
I love each and everyone of you x))
ESPECIALLY TO THOSE YOU KNOW THAT I CARED x))
And to the people who loathe me, keke x)) ii know who you are lah. you know when you start to tok bad about someone, the person definitely know one day. You need not act so good friend to me, because I can't be bothered with you anymore. Thought you had changed, but you just prove me wrong x)) How sad right LOLS !!
8:32:00 PM
Thursday, February 23, 2006
So well, after everything went to study with enghua kor x)) thanks kor for pei-ing me even though uu were sitting there doing absolutely nothing at all x)) THANKS KORR !!!
Hmm, I want to protest about something, loads of people are taking their friends more and more granted. Think about ur behaviour before you say others. Seriously, I know where I go wrong now, I will apologised when it's my fault. Just don't come pesting me for something when I haven't had it done and you think about urself and you want me to let you copy when I myself haven't done all and the time is already up. What the heaven is this??
Yes, I treasured each and every friendship of mine now. When you lost something, you will tends to treasure it the next time. So here I am treasuring each and every of my friendship, I'm trying hard not to lose contacts and lose the friendship. There's alot time I'm really pissed off with some people taking others granted. Just stop your craps and think what have you done before you point to others. Remember, there's always 3 fingers pointing back to you x))
PRIS x))
Don't worry,
I love you okay xD
I just wanna shout out loud that
I LOVE PRIS
I LOVE EVELYN
6:54:00 PM
So Yay!!! I'm going for the march retreat!! LOLS !!! I love SBM =DD, but response for mogallana was damn bad, everyone was not sure, maybe because some has competition and all? Well I hope everyone can go =DD I'm so glad that at least being treasurer's job still pays off, keke because I get to go for the march retreat. LOLS
Mogallana people, please please give me your answer okay if you're reading the blog or watever. If you know my number please call and tell me, or rather call ZhenFeng straight away or call Evelyn and we will pass the msg to ZhenFeng. Please we need you all the answer ASAP. I hope everyone is going =(( please please go okay =D
PROOFF~ Tml i'm meeting enghua kor to study x)) Gotta be so nice, Monday met up with John to study and thursday meet up kor to study. LOLS i'm so good girl can, but actually somethings I still don't understand =x Whatever shall clear my doubts ASAP soon too. Saturday I'm meeting ZeMing to study again. LOLS Guess I really have no time to play now =(( supposed to be Monday, Tuesday, Thursday is mine day of playing. Yet I lost all, Monday to study with john, Tuesday common test, Thursday Enghua kor and Saturday ZeMing. =(( NEVER MIND I shall chiong till everythings end then I start to play again. bleahx X))
I'm gone.
PROOF~
1:10:00 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Slept in class as usual, but at least FIRST TIME in history I understand alittle what Mrs Lim is talking. Weets LOLS !! finally though after struggling ever since from the first day of sch till now. This is the first time I understand even for alittle. I'm satisfied x))
After school, went to marina square and had our Treasure hunt. Quite fun with my group which consist of Andrinna, Yanyan, Sarah, Gladys xD. They rawks okay, some grp even complaint abt their grp members, yet I'm once again satisfied with my grps xD. WE rawks okay although we came in 3rd but who cares, it's the bonding that matters xD.
Anywhere we ran around and this two good friends, they helped us alot. so nice of them right LOLS. So everything ended and walked home with a grp of people. LiangEng brought us to walk a big big round, I told her there's another way yet she insist of walking the way, so fine with it, we followed, and in the end we walk a super big round. So kinda fed up lah, it's like i'm rushing home and i've short cut way back to home, yet she still insist even more to walk that way. Well, in the end everything settle and we are okay again. LOLS well, friends are like tat larhx, borned to have pissing each other off time. LOLS, but get over it and back to friends again x))
after everything, reach home play pc, and i'm getting ready to bathe and start with my homework. it's been years since i've done my homework. LOLS i've been super slack since the first day, I don't do homework, only go sch copy only LOLS. So well, i must be guai guai now. x))
Back to sch work x)) Takecare.
w0ots, I'm getting over already
No pain is in my heart when I woke up x))
but I still miss him at times. welll~ craps LOLS
I loves EVELYN x))
I loves ZhenFeng x))
I loves Pris x))
thanks for visiting my blog everytime when you're free x))
7:58:00 PM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
It don't matter anymore, because there is definitely none I can trust tat they love me or watever crap. LOLS All the guys I met are the same, I mean MOSTLY are the same, so no use telling me that you are exceptional because u're all the same to me. okay at least same to me LOLS.
Just give me a break, let me get back the trust before you all start to talk yours crap LOLS. Woolalalas~ had my english common test today, Super duper disappointed in it. I really don't know how to answer, the questions were stupid too x)) it's you who cause me to flunk this paper. LOLS who ask you to set it in such a hard way. Better let me pass okay LOLS.
DONE~
I HOPE ii PASS MY ENGLISH
bluff myself that I don't love you anymore
6:51:00 PM
Monday, February 20, 2006
No more the stupid wanling who held tightly to you and the hatred xD.
It takes time larhx xD just give mi times and I proof to you tat everything will end and i'm back on my tracks again xD
I'm trying to stand up on my own again, I knew now that I don't need you back in my life to hurt me again. You're not the one, You're just my illusion. I give you a chance to break my heart and I learn to be clever now and never let you have the second chances to hurt me again. You're my past, my illusion, my history. No more you in my future, present. NAHHHH~ NOT AT ALL.
*KICK*
OFF YOU GO!!!
BYEBYE LOLS
keke ii'm evil, but who cares
LOLS !! NAHHH, ii muz be evil now LOLS
9:09:00 PM
After school, went to kallang mac with zhu and stayed there and chitchat awhile before seeing audrey and yvoone here. Asked Papa to come too, he helped me so we changed place. After awhile John came, Papa's A math has already gone back to the teacher LOLS. At least I had John helped me. THANKS worx John x))
After everything, went home and find KB LOLS !! chat awhile and went off. I came home had nothing better to do, so started to play the pc although tml i'm having my English paper. Oh well, i'm becoming a second ZHU. LOLS !!!
Oh ya I'm a real kaypo girl though LOLS, I'm still very curious about his private life though we broke. well, i'm Crap LOLS !! who cares LOLS !!! Guess he did not treat her well, so she's taking my path right now, she couldn't trust him that much anymore. Afterall, I had walked that path before. After awhile when u can't trust him, u will lose faith. when you lose faith, you will lose him. oh yeahh x)) it's always come in a cycle. So after awhile, he changed a new target and OFF you go. Well seriously, he's just another guy who dun care abt girls' feeling.
PROOF~ I'm gone x))
I love my evelyn x))
I love my Pris x))
I love my Yuanyi marmie x))
I love my christopher daddie x))
I love silly boy ryan LOLS
I love stupid zhenfeng LOLS
I love baichi junhong LOLS
I love jialat tuition zeming LOLS
I love my selina daddy x))
I love everyone who cares x))
AI SI NI MEN LERHX X))
我爱你们！！
7:58:00 PM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
so blahh, ytd woke up at 2.45am and played the pc till 6am and went to slp, woke up at 10 am again and went back to slp at 11. Woke up at 5.45pm again and play the pc till now. I haven been study!!! WHO CAN MOTIVATE ME TO STUDY =((. I don't have the mood to even grab my books out and start reading it. SOMEONE PLEASE MOTIVATE ME =((
Who want to pei-ed me study tml?? HaiZz i'm real boredd!!! No mood to study at all sia =(( I don't know why =(( Freak that bendan~ HMPHS =x SOMEONE PLEASE PLEASE GET ME UP TO STUDY =( WHO is free to teach me study =((
I don't feel like blogging =( bye~
10:21:00 AM
After everything finished, took mrt all the way to sbm. I was still alittle sad when I pass by the place where we were, I didn't even dare to look at that place. Well, everythings had ended, no point brooding over it. I went SBM and everythings had ended, so we get prepared and went off to Kaiyi's house. I ate loads of things there, I just love the potato thingys and the curry. It's super nice can. So after marmie left, I was alone =(( Thanks to ZhenFeng who keep pei-ed me when I'm alone =(( Shixiong was funny LOLS !! Chlorine birthday too. HAPPY BIRTHDAY chlorine =D Liang Jian was stupid LOLS.
Well, Thanks to all who cared about the ended relationship =D I'm very appreciated that =D I loves SBM to bits =D I'm always looking forward to Saturday because it's the only day that I can trust the friends there and won't have any second thought on whether is this person trustable or whatever. Well, I'm really going to commit in SBM, commitment is one of things he lack of, so I some kind of another, I will learn from his mistakes LOLS, I will be commiting myself in something useful. Commiting to his relationship is just another stupid way of mine, I rather be commited to SBM than to him. I skip a few session because of just to meet him. CRAP, thinking back it's like I'm a fool in the first place. WHATEVER~
Well, I'm letting go him. It takes time larhx. It's not like I say today, tomorrow I will forget him. Where gort such good things happened LLOLS !! I'm letting go of things that I shouldn't had had in the first place. I shouldn't had had him too, he just not worth it. Just because of him, I kinda of lose loads of guys friends. CRAP again.
This year is super busy year, SBM are having loads of activity. March Retreat Camp but it's only for the leaders. LOLS Is treasurer counted as leaders?? LOLS Hmm, we then have our vesak at orchard again like last year, but this will be my first time since I joined SBM last year june and vesak is in the May. I hope it will be fun though although I knew it will definitely be fun with all of them there. After the vesak day will be our yearly ehi-passiko camp prequel. =D It's definitely funn but I hope I don't see him although I know I will unless he went for his O level or something that he decided not to come. LOLS I hope for that though =x
I'm evil, but who cares, I'm always that evil. Scold me curse me, I won't care, I won't bother. Kinda of sick of people's comments on how bad of others. Think about yourself, Are YOU that GOOD. Don't you have done any mistakes before. Don't bother to tell me how bad my friends is. FREAK off get me? I don't need someone to comments on my friends, not even YOU as a father. What actually you're good in. I don't need your comments, keep that to yourself. You've your attitude, I've mine too, I don't need to have yours.
Well, i'm kinda of sick of family, life, study, friends. I don't know why, don't asked me why. Chatted on sms with philp ytd. We're talking about craps stuffs and we chatted about money, I told him money is not important though. He agreed with me and said that chocolate is most important. I said chocolate was also not important to me too. What's important to me is Happiness. It's H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S. What sort of happiness do I mean? Not that kind of short term happiness, not that kind of money happiness. It's just purely happiness that come from the heart. Smile with no actness, laugh with no fakeness.
Maybe people said that money is important, this world is realistic, no money no talk. I used to think tat money is important but until when you come to stand at my point. You will get to know, it's not the money that matters, it's the happiness that matters. So we set it at a point, if you've 1 millions and you can buy everything you wan but you're just lack of that happiness inside you. You can showed that you're happy in the morning but you weep to slp at nite and loads of thoughts rushed through you OR you rather to be alittle poor, you can't buy the things that you want but you're already satisfied with life. You've all the happiness you want. You can show the real you in the morning and nite. There's no need to fake.
So, Which one do you want to choose. Well for me though i'm NOT that poor neither i'm THAT rich. I don't have the happiness that I'm looking for. Seriously after so many things happened, I don't know who to trust who i'm not to trust. Maybe like shanyuan said, i'm always bad at judging people.Well maybe bahx, that's why I don't know how to really go believe one's words now. My life at home is a hell now, I don't like to go home with so much scolding, nagging, asking, stressing, this and that. My life in school is even worst, when i'm sad i don't know who to turn to but to keep it to myself. I can't really that concentrate in class at all. Just everything is like hell to me right now.
Well, after all this, at least I tink my problem is not as bad as xunyee. I don't know what happened to her, but just get to know through her table. Guess it's cause of her sister though, aiya I don't know larh. Seriously, I feel that she should get a blog and vent all her anger out. This might led her to a more happy place. Vent everything out and get back to the reality again. At least there's something to listen to your pains, your anger. Although it don't gives advice, but it listens. As simple as that. I know I know, blogs are DAILY life, not something that you write for asking whatever sympathy you will say. Who cares about all those when you're not even having a happy daily life. Blogs are urs, you can decide what to write. No one has the right to order you to write whatever things that happened in your life. Life is yours, It's aren't theirs. They won't know how you're feeling at all. After all, just think that some one out there, has even worst jialat things happened to them.
Like losing the whole family, No friends they have. Study has been a thing that they aren't good at. Their health are in a bad condition. Life to them is total meaningful-less. Well, you can definitely be sad, but don't go really that sad that you will snap. It's pointless when nobody cares. I've actually thought of IF one day i'm dead, how many people will be at the funeral =(( You died, they cried awhile and they forgotten you. If even worst, you died, they treat it as nothing and forgotten about you. OR rather, they're happier without you. Take it as, you live for the sake of ur enemy, You live just because you want them to be angry =D Though I did not larhx, I just survived cause it's pointless larhx after getting so much lecturing from friends, Just because of something stupid, you end your life because of them. CRAP again.
Seriously, I hope she's will be well and happy =D don't give up okay, u definitely can pass tis crucial time.
I've loads of things to do =D
Study for my exams
Making up the blog for mogallana
Doing the list for the funds
Making the Prequel Camp T-shirt
All this thing can really tied me down already LOLS
well pictures for the day LOLS has been so long since ii post pic
too lazy already larhx dun blame mi okay LOLS
Shixiong, Vic Teo, Daryl
They super di-siao lehx, actually is I taking, den suddenly they jump iin. BUT just nice larhx LOLS !! they super cute larhx LOLS. ii ownself also xia dao suddenly gort pplx beside mii LOLS. anywhere the main forcus is on the T-shirt larhx LOLS !!
ORH HORR LOLS. still bluff mii nv LOLS. WEETS WEETS =x SO SWEET RIGHT.
ZeKui Farewell, Chlorine Birthday LOLS, ke lian worx kana push down the pool LOLS.
3:36:00 AM
Friday, February 17, 2006
If you still remember, you always going to the usual place where you two cuddle together, where you two sleep together. She died at the place and from that day onwards, you will always go there and rest. I know you're sad, you were so afraid when you see she lied there and when we want to put you back to the cage, you refused to go in. Well, now it's your turn to leave me. You're the second pet that I cried when you leave or rather second living thing that I cried for leaving me. First was Ah Hui, Second was you.
HaiZz, I don't know why my sixth sense were so accurate. That time, I felt that I'm losing everything soon and true enough, I lost my phone, I lost him*, I lost my dearest bunny. I don't know why, they say everything will be fine when times pass by. I hope I lost myself to a new place where there's nothing that I would be sad of. Seriously, if I've to leave the world one day, I really have nothing that will give me the strength to stay on. There's nothing that I can be happy about, not even one thing.
How I wish everything was just a dreams, when I woke up from it, I'm back to the happiness that I used to called my own, but everything was real. I've lose them, yes I've already lost them. I'm breaking down soon. There's too much stress, too much unhappiness, too much for me to take it. I really got to have a serious break down soon. Please let them come back, please.
I'm really tired of my life.
Just leave me out of all this.
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE !!!
I hate my life, please take me away from it.
7:43:00 PM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Nothing much to blog, I just has no mood to blog or rather I don't have anything to blog at all. I didn't even care what happened around me, I has no time and no mood to bother. Don't come ask me about anything unless you really care, if not just freak off. I won't bother to tell anyone what happened to me anymore, because it's pointless, if you really care, you will asked me how my day and whatever things or just come to my blog. I'm left with nothing but my blog.
I'm sick of my life
3:37:00 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
That means, when he's with me that time, he's already thinking of another girl, he's already starting to aim for another girl, he's already started to jio the girl. Oh mann, what a nice and xingfu life that i've had actually called my own. I was already living in lies since the day i'm with him. Everything seems so perfect, so wonderful, but I never thought that I would be kick out of the beautiful world that I called my own.
All this is just another illusion of mine, he hurt me. Yes, he did it, he hurt me really deep, too deep that I cannot even feel it anymore. Well, it's a painful experience that I'm going through right now, but at least after all those lecturing from my friends, I guess times heals everything. There's nothing can help me except me and time. People can say so easily, I won't get sad over him if he's like urs. If it's easy, I wouldn't be here to get sad. Oh ya, I think my tears went dry. I want to cry but no tears is out, I don't want to cry anymore for him. Since tears went dry, I hope there won't be any drop of tears not even one drop is for him.
Oh well, I'm putting my mind off other things than for him, it really hurt too much guess there's no turning back. Lucky enough that I did not break up with him because I might think that because I give the girl a chance to be with him. Lucky enough though, but I'm still rather sad alittle. Never mind, times heal everythings.
Goodbye my love, I want to love you no more
你伤得我好痛， 原来爱一个人好难。
你让我真的不相信爱情了，你也让我好失望。
我相信每一句你的话，但到最后，我是那个最笨的。
这是我最后一次在提到你，我不想再让你伤害我了。
我被你伤的很深，很痛。但你是永远永远都不会知道的。
因为你是那个把我骗得苯笨的。我好愚蠢，去相信一个不该相信的人。
你的一切，已经是成了我的过去。我不想在爱你了。
我爱上了一个不该爱的人，那个人就是你。
我恨你！！
我不再相信任何人了，你们都是一群打骗子。
别说你爱我当你已经心里明白，你有一天一定会离开我。
别让我感到开心，当你知道你已经有想伤害我的一天。
我不需要任何伤痕！！
8:43:00 PM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Received present from Huixuan Mummy, Cheryl Jie in school. After school, met Janelle and Shanyuan and sit down and chitchat, then went over to his house wait~ So many roses u know, there's 600++ roses at his house. Janelle wanted to sell it but had no time, in the end she gave me one pink rose LOLS. She said that it mean happiness. LOLS so sweet of her right LOLS so after everything, I left first to meet LayKheng at Orchard MRT, while they two go honeymoon at Sentosa chalet. So SWEET RIGHT!! LOLS!!
Met LayKheng and we went to Far East to shop around, didn't see anything that I like or rather we had too much to catch up and we just keep talking non-stop without looking into details of the things there LOLS. I saw LiWei with a girl too LOLS, he was holding a bouquet of rose, so sweet can LOLS. Valentine day is always the guys suffer the most LOLS, they're the one who hold bouquet of rose, they're the one who spend more than the girls LOLS !! Valentine day is the day that can see how much effort they're putting in their love in. LOLS
After awhile, LayKheng went home with her friend while I walk back to the MRT by myself because she taking bus, so I went off first. On the way there, I kept seeing couples and couples and couples. I just hate Valentine so much!! It's like looking at how sweet other girls' boyfriends are, I'm indeed hurt. Whatever the case, I just went home and started to stare at the computer screen until mama asked me to go out and accompany her to get her things, I went to buy bells for my handphone too =D
Got to really dote it till like no one business anymore, it's my phone!! No one can take it away from me okay!! Please toooo~ It's my everything for now =DD
Ohh, I miss youuuuu
Please let me forget about youuu
I don't want to have you inside my heart at all
But you just stay
I hope you spend ur valentine day happily =D
6:16:00 PM
Monday, February 13, 2006
den blablabla, ii went to mit marmie liao den we eat MAC =DDD ii'm doing a sin again =(( it's fattening =(( LOLS den after tat went to walk around and marmie when to find her present and all loo, while ii bought afew thingy, tml shall give to my friends =DD !! happy valentine okay =DD oh ya ii might go down tamp go find pris =DD !! ii'm so touched larhx she come bugis give mii present =DD !!!
hmmm den blablabla, den after tat we leave for bugis liao, ii bought LOADS of thingys and ii wan tat CAMERA!! omg so clear looo, can ii have one =DDD ii really bought loads of thing, it's like hand is full of things LOLS !! den walk around walk around, den after tat go around see see, den go this fashion, marmie tried on the top, waliao damn nice larhx LOLS !! den blablabla, went back to my house to put things den went out to novena, and marmie left for daddie's house, den ii og get my hp =DD !!!
ii went to the telestation to get my fone, walk pass my shop LOLS but no one is attending funny lehx, alex want to waste his rent fee mehx LOLS!! den blablabla, we went to the stall and asked, den ii was like asking "hmmm, which fone nicer ahx, the 3230 or 7610" LOLS cuz at tat time ii'm still iindecisive. den the person tell mi " iis see uu one, the 3230 has good function while 7610 has the style " den ii jiu say " but 3230's mp3 is soft right LOLS " den he jiu say " hmmm yups " den ii jiu ask him to choose iif ii give him choose. den he point to the 7610 and said " it's better larhx, more nicerr and better " den ii jiu okay CONFIRM take 7610 liao since the person also say liao. den ii asked for white and dun haf WAH PENGZ~ den ii jiu eeek ii wan white one, den they say wat white one is limited editiion wat crap one larhx. WALIAO!! i wan the white one!!
den jiu blablabla, crap with the guy iin the shop, den alot larhx den jiu sign and blablabla, and papa pay for it =D YEAHH!! but he still down there say mii wat wat he gort say he wan sponsor mehx. waliao ehx everytime say lerhx den jiu say nv waliao ehhhhh!! suan liao suan laio fan zhen ii gort my fone but ii still nid to pay 50 for it =(( !! nvm nvm LOLS!! hmm den jiu blablalba get lerhx faster go find PRIS =DD
went to bugis find herr, she so nice cannnnnnnn, she alone waited for mii to come back from buying hp lehx, waliaooooo HOW NICE CAN SHE BE !! VERY NICE RIGHT LOLS !! den she also nv complain those derhx lehx, SO NICE LARHX!!! den sit there chit chat chit chat chit chat, den she pass mii the valentine present. omg she's has snatch my FIRST alot liao lehx LOLS !!
she's the first one who is saved in my hp =D
she's the first friend who touched my hp and see it
she's the first friend ii smsed LOLS
she's the first friend ii called using tat fone larhx LOLS
she's the first person who give mii valentine day present lehx LOLS
ii'm SO TOUCHED!!
LOLS den we chit chat chit chat den pei her go mrt den jiu blablabla reach home LOLS ii wan use the pc to make mine hp but ii duno how to use in d end my kor kor helped mii LOLS !! weeeets!! now ii very easy put song put pic all those. wahahaha ii loves my FONE!! ii nv regret buying sia LOLS lucky lucky mii !! but zhi shi it's VERY LAG!! walaio pekchye arhx LOLS so lag lag dao wo yao si diao liao LOLS
anywhere blablablabla, the hp ii wan hao hao take care of it. ii'm not gotta let anything leave mii, NV okay!!! ii lost my kor fone, ii lost him, ii almost lost my fone again. ii'm NOT Gotta LOST my tis FONE, it's my everything x)) gotta dote it loads loads, give it cute cute stuffs LOLS den takecare of it and maintain it as new as possible LOLS.
okay blarhhhhh~ ii sian laio. ii go slp liao lerhx, but ii haven finish my hw or rather ii haven even started yet. sian arhx !! tml we having our chem test also, shit the stupid teacher sian arhx!! ii hope ii pass well, ii'm aiming A for my tis subject lehx, ii hope ii can shunshun li li get A lehx LOLS !! ii muz get also =((
so blahhhhhhhh~ nothing much liao =DD
tml it's valentine lerhx, ii'm missing him so much uu noe =(( !!! dun say laio larhx, ii'm super sad, gotta spend it alone liao =(( sian arhx sian aarhx, okay liao larhx ii wan go slp liao ii very tiredd. eyes keep closing liao =(( ii very xingku eyes very pain, feel like crying LOLS but cannot larhx LOLS so rennnn~ so ii wan go slpppp =DD oh ya i have been slping the whole day liao lehx duno why iin every lesson also slp one. TIRED ARHX!!!
oh ya HAPPY VALENTINE DAY okay =DD
ii still miss uu larhx!!!
ii REALLY HOPE LARHX
ii can say ii DUN LOVE uu ANYMORE
haiZz but ii can't =((
爱你的心好痛，好希望能够把你忘光。
我不需要任何东西，只盼望你的爱。
我恨你但我也好爱你 =((
oh ya PRIS teach mii how to use chinese =DD
credits to herr okay =DD !! GIRL ii LOVE uu loads =DD
6:40:00 PM
Saturday, February 11, 2006
den he came and complain tat my house full of pets lOLS !! bobian larhx too cute you mei you LOLS !! den blablabla, den faster go home prepare den went out with my korkor, ii pei-ed him to hougang den headed potong pasir lo, met up with evelyn and went to buy thingy and we went to sbm. Had our Mogallana meeting, weee!! ii'm setting up a Mogallana blog though =DD wish mii luck okay, well guess tuesday den ii do or wat bahx, since ii'm spending my V day ALONE~ awww how sad can ii go LOLS especially at tis point of time when ii lose him =((
so bbahhh~ at least ii have something to do wahahaha, so blablabla, ii'm the treasurer and secretary of the house with evelyn my bestie WAHAHAA, we gotta do good good iin our duty okay =DD HE ZUO YU KUAI okay my dearr =DD den blablabla finished, den went for meditation LOLS ii slept =x lalala~ sorry larhx, ii was mediatate in the begining, and my mind drift off to our time together, to the time when we're iin camp, to the time just anytime tat we're together, and to the time when we started noe-ing each other and all la~ den ii just slept and ii guess the part when my mind drift off it was a dream larhx, but ii duno why it all happenedd already =(( ii duno whether ii'm tinking or dreaming =((
so blahhhhh~ we finished meditation, and finally zeming came and went up to do my keyboard thingy, okay larhx ii gort the chord already but ii lost the condination with ze ming, but CAN'T BLAME MI MARHX, he told mii to pratice ytd and how am i supposed to come out with one the next day sia, somemore it's at nite okay LOLS !!! so we decided to pratice together the next time and do it well once and for all =DD i'm gotta pratice hard for my piano yeah yeah =DD wish mii luck okay =DDD ii'm drifting my mind to other things rather than HIM* blahhhhhhh~
den after tat finished and all, went to blablablabla, and there's 6 song we're performing, but 6 song is him larhx, i'm the keyboardist, so some of the song ii doesn't have to play, wahahhaa LOLS !!! lucky mii sia ii learn piano not guitar LOLS so blaaaaa~ my papa came and fetch mii up, and ii went to bugis with my kor kor.
we chatted loads of thing, and blablablabla, and we walk aroundd andd shopped awhile, ii WANTED tat bag and it's goneee~ oh my godd~ anywhere ii hate the person who bought it. i hate uu okay LOLS who ask uu buy it before mii, ii hate uuu!! LOLS !! finee~ wateverr.
so tml ii'm going out with my darling marmie, and we gotta shop till we dropped okay =DD !!! iit's been so long since ii started to go shopping with her, she gort her dearr and after tat jiu ii gort my darr, but now ii lost my darr and of course SHE CANNOT lost her dear larhx LOLS okay so tml will be our marmie&nu-er FINALLY go out day without daddie though LOLS
okay watever blablablabla, weeeee ii loves my EVELYN. she counsel mii todae LOLS !!! alittle quite true larhx the words she say, anywhere it's good uu join counselling =DD !! ii LOVES uu mannnnnnn okay LOLS !!
ii shall express the love ii have when ii have to FROM TODAE ONWARDS
so ii muz say ii LOVES uu TO ALL of uu who cares for mii during tat omg period when ii lose him =(( watever watever, lose ii already lose lerhx, no poing liao brooding over him. ii won't try to ask him patch because afterall we eventually wuld break again, no point, no point. SO ii'm recoving soon larhx, give mii alittle bit more time larhx LOLS sunday is tml liao larhx, LOLS and to the time when we say break is going 1 week liao. cannot larhx LOLS !! ii cannot take it larhx, ii still do cry when ii miss him larhx, so tell mii now total forget like abit hard lehx LOLS 1 more week larhx okay LOLS !!!
anywhere ii still cannot see the place when we're together at, went to bugis today and ii still tried to avoid those place as much as possible. ii'm sorry but ii realy have to, dun ask mii go bugis liao, because it really remind mii of alot of things, give mii time to forget everything okay =DD
11:08:00 PM
- - Learn to love the people who are with you at present. Forget the people in the past and thank them for hurting you, which led you to love the people you have right now.
- - When you love someone, you'll do crazy things you can't explain, you'll deny the truth and believe in lies. When you love someone, you sacrifice, give everything you've got and don't think twice.You risk it all no matter what.
- - Everything in life is temporary because everything changes. That is why it takes courage to love, knowing it might end anytime...having faith will make it last.
- - Friends are not the one who laugh when you laugh and cry when you cry.They are the ones who make you laugh and stop you from crying.
- Love is the feeling we fall in and out of, and every time we fall off, we learn to hold on tighter...hoping that next time, we may never have to let go.
- - They say when love knocks at your door, open it.But do you know that sometimes love enters through the back door and before you begin to notice it, it's on it's way out.
- - Have you ever loved only to let it go?.. Have you ever hated someone and loved him so?.. Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry?.. Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why? .
- - Lucky is the man who wins the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who wins the last love of a man.
- - Love is not the right word to say when you feel guilty nor the right word to say when you like a person but love really matters when we share our thoughts, our minds, and our hearts...
- - Life has a way of changing things but not the joy that friendship brings, for friendship is like the shining moon, makes each night a brighter one.
- - Love is not for beauty or color of the skin, but for a heart that is loyal within, for beauty fades and the skin would grow old but a heart that is loyal will never turn cold.
- - If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
- - A love is easy to feel, so hard to explain; so easy to get, so hard to let go; so easy to spell, so hard to define...and yet everyone is still taking the risk. That's love !
- - We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in love in mutual weirdness and call it LOVE!
- - Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt alot, it may give you aches and pain, but if you don't follow your heart; in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.
- - Don't run ahead of God. Let Him direct your steps. He has plans and He has His time. God's clock is never one minute early nor one minute late. It always strikes right on time.
- - If someone loves you, love them back not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you have never seen or felt without them.
- - The past is meant to be used as a tool for the future. Bad experiences indeed make you bitter but the lessons learned should make you better.
- - On letting go: it hurts to see someone you love happy with somebody else; but wouldn't it hurt you more to see that person unhappy...with you?
- - When you find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, lips that will kiss you in both instances, and a heart that will love you at your worst, then you have found true love.
- - Someday, someone might come into your life and love you in a way you always wanted.
- If your someday was yesterday.. LEARN
- If your someday is tomorrow.. HOPE
- If your someday is today.. CHERISH.
10:44:00 PM
2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
3. Hug her from behind
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Wrestle with her :)
6. don't go hang out with you ex when shes not with you, you might not relize how badly it hurts her.
7. If youre talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....let her know she's yours and they aren't.
8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"
9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.
10. Play with her hair.
11. Pick her up (she loves it)
12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it
13. Make her laugh
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
16. If you care about her, then TELL HER
17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal(she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.
18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
20. Hang out with her on weekends
21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)
22.Kiss her just for the heck of it
23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.
24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if its simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.
25. when she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)
26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
27. Give her wat she wants
28. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
29.dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.
30.hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girlfriend all the time
31.If u care about her...SHOW her!
ii just hope for someone who do ALL these 31 things =DD
my DEAR GUY FRIENDS, pls pls do tis to ur gf okay,
just an advice for uu all worx =DD it works alot
DEFINITELY, ii 100% guarantee confirm with uu LOLS
10:31:00 PM
Friday, February 10, 2006
den went to sch, ii find out ii forget to wear shorts. it's like how stupid can ii go, ii wear shirt and obviously pplx will wear the shorts right, in d end ii FORGET. stupid larhx, den went around looking for shorts and my hp LOLS !!! den after tat reading period, went to the Yuyang thingy, LOLS mr lai is super cute larhx.
den nothing special larhx, after tat went to runn and test our stamina, and ii gort 9.39 for the running, not bad lehx LOLS first time ii run till like tat without stopping and walk lehx, and it's the first time after running ii almost vomit. ii just stood there and not even sit down, my heart went too fast until ii cannot take it, in d end ii just tried to sit down and slowly my heart went slower.
den after tat A math lesson, ii can't understand a single thing not because the teacher teaching is bad, is because ii'm too slpy, ii can't listen, so even the teacher's teaching sucks i wouldn't noe because ii'm superb tired LOLS !! so ii slept the whole 2 period of my A math =((
so d other part of the lesson wuldn't much to eleborate larhx, after sch on the way tat time saw mrs wong and told her abt we can't go thingy, and she start to tell us alot of things den blablabllabla ask for a excuse letter, pengz tis is not excuse lehx, tis is bobian one. ii fri gort tuition marhx, den after finish toking to the teacher den went back for my tuition. Tuition todae is funn larhx, kept luffing and luffing. quite funn larhx LOLS stil okay larhx. after tuition went home =(( oh yeah nvm tis is the first week though sad but ii can OVERCOME bleah =P
den went home do nothing den blablabla online and all loo, like tat only. wat A SADD FRIDAY LOLS !! but still okay larhx overall =DD !!! yeah yeah ii hope ii forget him soon =DDD SUNDAY SUNDAY my deadline WEEEEEEE =DD ii'm back to normal soon =D
FRIDAY SUX =DDD
FRIDAY rawks too =D
7:27:00 PM
Thursday, February 09, 2006
我只希望我能把你忘记掉，过着从前的生活。
但是我好想你哦
再见了我的爱情，再见了，我们依然是朋友吗？？
幸福到了哪里去了？我又再次被推出幸福门外。
10:12:00 PM
ii nidd to ensure tat ii got an A1 iin every subject from now LOLS !! alittle to hard to achieve but still have to try larhx since ii dun wan to tink abt him liao, might as well do well iin my study and let him behind my mind.
oh ya just now after sch went to paya lebarr and eat, after tat went over to shopp around. ii suddenly have the urge to go shopping, who is free?!?!! but as usual tml having tuition and after tat ii just have to leave for home =(( not like usually go out mit him anymore =(( i'm sad. oh ya ii hate FRIDAY too, it make mii remind of him again stupid stupid.
hmmm who is free who is free LOLS !! ii wan go shopping soon!!!!! ii muz fa xie liao LOLS !! ii cry also fa xie guo liao, tink tink tink dao fa xie guo liao, den do alot thing to fa xie liao, now only left shopping LOLS ii muz buy loads loads clothes, ii'm back to the last time MI lerhx, ii aren't no more simple lerhx LOLS. ii'm sick of t-shirt and jeanskirt liao, ii has been wearing those ever since ii finished work cuz ii'm too lazy to doll up lOLS !!!
for now horr, muz doll up liao LOLS !! cuz ii gort loads of time and dolling up make mii happi LOLS !! cuz funn wat play with make up and all, but ii just hate the removing part. so MA HUAN larhx !! soo when can ii go out =DD !! ii wan to go out, whoever is free jio mi out okay. ii'm sure FREE because now ii gort nothing to do liao =DD !! no more him to peii, no more marmie to peii lerhx. so OKAY done lerhx =DD !! uu all gort wat thing can find mii, sure free one =DD
ANYWHERE ii LOVES to GO OUT larhx =DD !!! shall be back again lerhx, tat stupid little girl who work tat time LOLS. ii'm back okay =DD !! ii won't BE tat SADD for him lalala, it's not worth yeah it's not worth. afterall it's my life, no one is going to help mii decide on the emotion i have, ii can choose to be happy even though it hurts larhx, but at least ii try to be happy wahahaha.
okay seriously ii find out something LOLS, ii'm alittle evil lehx, iits like those tat always bad to mii right, when they ask mii do something, ii'm so sian over helping or wat, and ii just hack care. it's like wat kor ask mii for tis and tat, and when ii nided help he keep say GUAN ni arhx, my problem mehx. waliao ehx den now ii also sian 1/2. ii'm getting self-centered so much, woohoo at least ii admit larhx, ii will change larhx, but then for now let mii change alittle by alittle larhx. ii like only dui those pplx who is good to mii good only, those who like hack care mii when ii nided help, ii surely dun care them or wat one LOLS sorry larhx LOLS ii'm not trying to returned wat uu give mi ii just duno why my behavior is like tis like, ii just have no mood to help uu larhx. sorry arhx
anywhere LOLS FIRST THING FIRST LOLS
1. Get over him and get back to work
2. Start to concentrate on my studies =D
3. Learn to forgive and forget abt him =D
4. ii wan to make CHOCOLATE LOLS
5. ii wan to make cookies =D
6. ii wan to eat FRENCH FRIES ( i'm fat )
7. ii wan to GET A's iin my Common test
8. ii wan to eat PASTA
9. ii wan to eat CHEESEcake
10. ii wan to go SHOPPING !!
woohoo who can help mii finished the things tat can be done, ii surely damn super love the person LOLS !!! but only myself can do it larhx so ii muz love myself WAHAHA =x
oh ya ii wan to go beach again, ii wan go chalet, ii wan go tis i wan go tat, ii wan to go out play cosplay, ii wan tis ii wan tat larhx!! ii'm just so BORED LARHX!!!
okay ii definitely can live with out uu BLEAH
uu no longer belong to my world anymore =DD
but ii just miss uu sometimes =((
5:30:00 PM
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
The staircase that uu were sitting at when uu're waiting for mii, the place where uu usually buy tickets at, the sits that we sat at waiting for the time to start, the place we held our hand, the place tat we hug and kiss, the place tat uu bring mii to when we have nothing to do, the place tat we've walked, the place tat uu forgotten where it is and give mii tat cute look tat like i-dunno-where-the-place look, the place that we went, walked, hug, kiss, held hand, everything's in my mind. Whenever pplx said abt sengkang, uu noe how sad ii can go, whenever ii went to bugis, ii tried not to see the place and letting the memories to pass by. ii TRIED, and ii did TRIED it HARD.
FREAK everything and everything, can't uu just get OUT of my MIND!!! ii wanted to kick uu out of my mind but then uu just stayed and never tried to move. ii'm FREAKING tired, just give mi a BREAK can. ii'm TIRED from all the crying, tears shed, thinking so much, daydreaming and all. ii'm TIRED!! just give mi back the life tat ii have LAST TIME. FREAK uu for causing mii changed so much, ii'm aren't myself at ALL!!! ii'm aren't tat sadd, ii am NOT!! ii'm just the girl who uu will see with a smile and walk pass, but ii no longer had tat SMILE, ii faking it OUT. FREAK TAT, it's 3rd day already, and i can't stand the pain tat uu give. ii can't stand the pain tat whenever ii dream of uu. ii can't stand the pain that everything ended so fast.
ii HATE bugis, ii HATE sengkang, ii HATE LRT, ii HATE mentos, ii HATE zhoujielun, ii HATE movie, ii HATE furniture, ii HATE puremilk, ii HATE rebirth, ii HATE apes, ii HATE blue, ii HATE TV, ii HATE sofa, ii HATE bed, ii HATE everything that remind mii of YOU, and ii HATE uu.
it's a DEEP cut from uu, it freaking hurting. ii can't bear the pain liao larhx. waliao ehx!!!
ii hope to be the little gal again where nothing matters only when ii can't get the sweets ii wanted to eat and started crying and not because of uu
ii hope to be the one that uu wuld love with
NEVER MIND, ii will go thru tis time by myself, ii promised
ii hope to have a person who can just love mii for WHO II AM
FREAK UU for telling mii that i'm not ur type when ii'm deeply in love with uu
FREAK IT !!
why ii couldn't find a person to chat with when ii really sad and just said tat ii'm bored
ii bu ke neng go tell uu guys tat ii'm sad ii'm sad ii'm sad pls just come pei mii chat
bu ke neng marhx, but jiu shi zuo mo ii can't find any pplx tat when ii really nid someone
ii can't find one, haiZz it's really so heart pain to find out at the time, ii have no one to turn to
everyone are busy with their own stuffs
ii can't be always bothering them with my problems
and it's my own business not theirs
but ii really nid one and no one is there =((
valentine day is coming
weirong asked mii one question
how am ii going to spend my vday
ii duno how to replied him
because ii really duno how am ii going to spend it
will ii spend alone crying haiZz
ii guess the possiblities is very big
everyone has their own bf/gf
they're leading a happy life
while only mii just finished my relationship
guess ii'm only the failure one bahx =((
weirong arhx weirong
how ii wish ii still can love uu like before
because it dun hurt so much like now
maybe the hurts was gone after times pass
but at least loving uu ii feel alittle happy though sad
but loving him is torturing mii only =((
ii'm hurting ~ haiz
ii'm felt so empty without uu
haiZz
8:00:00 PM
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
at first horr, ii thought ii have no future lerhx. cuz tat day after with him break, den ii suddenly have no mood to do anything lerhx, ii was like super on a low morale larhx, den ii tink dao my future totally darkness and all larhx. den ii gan jue ii see bu dao my future and all larhx, and ii have no future like tat. LOLS !!
den just now chat with someone larhx, den chat alot larhx LOLS !! ii planning to do business course, and get a good result and be good girl from now onwards and after getting my cert and all, ii shall go into his company to work lOLS !!! tink too far but at least realistic right LOLS !! so ii planning to do all tis to get my minds away from him, and forcus on all my studies, my piano and all. since it's time to do so already, ii have been neglecting my piano ALOT.
and yeah ii hope ii then get a bf when ii'm 18 LOLS !! hope nothings goes wrong larhx, later feeling went wrong, ii trust wrong person again LOLS !! CHOY CHOY!!! or rather ii haven 18 ii jiu get one lerhx LOLS !!! also iif ii haven 18 how long can we last larhx seriously?? we stead is because of future blablabla, called mii a outdated or wat, but it's fact larhx right? uu bu ke neng stead for just because of present only, okay larhx maybe to some is yes larhx, but to mii not really lahrx.
so now i'm forcusing on my SBM also =DD!! ii'm fully commit into it lerhx =DD !! ii LOVES SBM okay =DD especially those who care =DD !! and zhenfeng going to make mii as one of the treasurer LOLS !! but haven confirm yet larhx, well, ii hope ii can do well iin it. And ii nid my DREAM WEAVER before ii can start doing the website right LOLS but yy no one passed to mi =(( zeming say he duno his orginal copy at where also, cuz keep pass here pass there to pass to mi but no one passed -.-" watever the case LOLS
okay DONE, ii've written more than 3 times post for todae LOLS !! ii'm tired, wonder wat will ii supposed to do tml when ii go sch and no one is in sch, kinda weird though LOLS OKAY BYE!!
ii'm tired already LOLS eyes are closing, ii hope ii dun dream anymore LOLS =DD
ii've my own future soon =DD
my happiness is under my hand =DD
ii muz aim towards my future okay =DD !
wish mi luck wahahaha =D
9:42:00 PM
| Your Ideal Relationship is Friends Only |
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What's" Your Ideal Relationship?
| You're a Romantic Kisser |
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What Kind of Kisser Are You?
| You Should Be A Cancer |
 What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese |
What Sign Should You Be?
| Your Love Element Is Earth |
 You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life.You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation |
What Element Is Your Love?
| What Your Face Says |
 Overall, your true self is engaging and outgoing. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem gentle and sensitive. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic. |
What Do People Think Of Your Face?
| How You Are In Love |
 You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
How Are You In Love?
| Your Dating Purity Score: 89% |
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Dating Purity Test
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