Monday, October 31, 2005
hmmm tried to go kovern to find marmie, in d end ii try calling before ii go. she was at home so ii din't go~ lucky mii =x she complained alot abt the thing. dorts~ marmie relax kies =)) pplx bo liao bo liao say uu~ they northing better to do only marhx =)) dun need care larhx. but anything can still tell mii derhx okay. love uu marmie!! mwarckss =))
den after finish 2 of my homework andd went off to meet amanda, went to cine and ii saw ELMO~ miss him alot sia =x the last time ii saw him was like when ii went out with huixuan mummy~ he still as cute as the elmo XD !!! promised him muz call him liao =x ii planning go same group with him lehx XD ! so funnn~
hmmm den after tat went to cine and ii found one job, but there's 3 gurlx who is 15 years old and one tat 16. how can ii win them nia~ DORTS!! never mindd, and the TCC is so cute uu know. now it's halloween andd they dress up as a witch, sadako and a death~ xD !! SO CUTE MAN!! ii wanted to take foto with them but ii can't find any camera. never mindd =x
after tat went to heeren. toldd alot thing to amanda. =)) she's a gurlx who grow up with mii together =)) think the most most most true jiemeis is her lerhx =)) ii mean the MOST MOST MOST~ doesn't mean ii dun treat uu all as true jiemeis okay =))
hmm den after tat blablabla~ den went bugis village. bought a white skirt. =)) finally saw wat ii wan. sian arhx keep find bu dao the skirt ii wanted, den never mind lo buy tis one first =x if nort ii can't find again i sure sian 1/2 derhx =x
hmmm den blablabla. went home liao loo~ hmmm tink northing much to write bahx =))
hope wesley zui dao ur laopo XD !!!
hope mingfei and his stead chang chang jiu jiu
hope ii get a job real soon
hope sch will never start xD
hope to buy my fone real soon~
hope to meet up with all my friend XD
hope to see weirong again XD ~ =x oops~
hope to curse all those jerk to hell =x
oh ya ii knew something, yuanlai my kor gort chup derhx~ sheng weii his mei, ii ji rang now den noe =x ii know larhx just tat nort confirm until he tell mii. dorts~ xD he still asked mii whether ii gort chup, obviously ii dun haf. ii'm a guaii kia okay, but ii dun deny ii gort those chup friend larhx.~ dui bu qii larhx korr =x uu also one of them marhx~ oops =x lalala ii dun say laio, later he see dao tis blog ii byebye laio =x
ii gan jue dao they all gort read my blog one loo XD !! tat yy they know more abt mii lerhx, thanks worZz. ii love both of my KOR~ and of course my God-kor too =)) and my god-jie, twin-sista~ including my marmie and all friends okay~ =)) just love all of uu loads =))
sumtimes, things wuldn't have turn out like tat iif uu never trust a lie =))
ii'm stupidd xD
8:17:00 PM
but too bad larhx, maybe like uu is a wrong bahx xD !! ii'm always lousy iin it. xD can't blame anyone else. ii'm always a failure and a failure iin loving someone xD !!! too bad larhx horr =))
Thanks baka zhuu, for telling mii how to see clearly next time.=))
Thanks wesley for don't know wat happened still trying to cheer mii up.
Thanks Kor for criticising it xD !! it's fun though =x
Thanks shanyuan for telling mii to find better next time xD
anywhere ii felt better lerhx =)) no more tears for it xD Lalalala~ gotta lead back my own life again.
ii guess ii going to go bathe den go find marmie, ii really miss her alot. but ii duno where she working lehx. and ii definitely wuld be lost iin a jungle like tat. never mind ii try bahx =)) ii JUST miss her alot. so long since ii saw her lerhx. haiZz. byebye takecare pplx
uu make mii fall and uu just drop mii like tat.
10:59:00 AM
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Maybe, it was true tat ii told JiaWen tat i'm a failure to a relationship, i never make one tat is successed~ it was always a wrong and a wrong. It was now that ii hesitated for every move ii take. I wanted to know wat the consquences i would lead to if ever i done something. I don't deny that I'm nort a soft-hearted person anymore. And I won't take in any Sweet-talks anymore, because of the two failure I ever had in the past. It make mi afraid of the life I wuld have in the future, it frighten me to hear from people in afraid of the lies they said.
Through all this things, I admit I really don't know where I'm heading to, what life I actually wanted. I doubt I can forget all the heartaches and failures I once had. My life was never meant to be. I know that after so much things happened, I can be more stronger in mentality now. No more a girlx who wuld cried over some small cuts. I used to cry alot when I just have a tiny small cut, but now, I cry over serious matter only. I cry over break ups. There's nothing more that I would shed tears on.
I can't deny that when I'm here writing this entry, tears rolled. I don't know why and I really don't want to know the reasons. It seems like the moment I think of some stuffs I would just start thinking, all the negative thoughts wuld haunt me. No doubts on that. I really don't understand why I can be so happy in a sudden and upset over somethings the next?
Maybe, it was nort supposed to be in the first place, I'm really getting frustrated for the Maple too, and now I could do northing here and tears just dropped like tat. All I can do is to wipe it away only. I really don't know what am I doing, but I must thanks junpei zhu for at least trying to cheer me up although he don't know what happened to me =)) Thank you~
I really don't know what I'm typing, vision are blurred due to the tears in the eye.
It's all an illusion that uu given me.
Just a short dreams,
Thanks for making me fall so heavy. =))
8:44:00 PM
so we went to search for jeans because amanda needed one, in d end ii saw one jeans ii wanted xD !!! saw a few things ii wanted but thought tat it's was useless if ii buy =x ~ i'm searching for a white skirt narhx.~ can't find at all, all nort my type derhx. =x so after priscilla went home, we continued the shopping awhile andd went home.
ii was so boredd till ii went to buy seventeen to read. =x tat's a waste money though XD but ii'm real BORED!! so went home and read finish the entire mag and slept =x ii'm tired nowaday and ii'm BORED!!! ii guess ii really have to take up the longjohnsilver job before ii was enrolled by tat SUSHI restaurant as a waitress~
okay northing to blog now, off ii go AGAIN!! ii'm really BORED larhx. who can help kill the spare time ii have now. everyone's working now, at least to the very least ii shall go find them and pei them. but ii planned tml, shall go back sch pass up tat stupid form and go home and act stupid looking at blank white wall. xD ii shall be a suprise to those who told mii where they work, xD go disturb them =x no larhx jkjk =x
hmmm den just now chatted with ze ming abt the website thingy, jialat arhx there's alot thing to do liao. xD sian arhx ii wonder still gort time go shopping or wat marhx =x never mindd, zhong zhii ze ming dun worry ii try muah best to do dao hao hao XD !!
hmmm tink no more to write bahx, ii'm boredd~
ii need a haircut, my ends are splitting ~
haiZz 4 more days to go~
wo zhen derhx hao xiang nii~
northing gotta be the same anymore
7:11:00 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
went to library as planned~ den awhile need to go liao, cuz we in need of time. sorry marmie, i'm here to say sorry nehx!! ii LOVE uu marmie. ii'm sure IF ever ii have times, ii wuld definitely go to ur work place to find uu. ii promised okay~ LOVE uu LOADS, it's really LOADS.
den we went to take a mrt to doubty gaught, went there. in d end they say we need to be accompany by our parents. so we two sian laio. den we went to PS to play rockfever, den go around loo. found job~ tat job nort bad. XD !!! waitress okay ~ hopefully can success bah for the job. =x
den went around shopping again xD den next went to bugis. din't find any job at all. can't find my darling chean ah ma also. so went bugis street. gort another job =x ii'm really gong okay~ ii wish ii can take tat job, but how long more can ii raise for tat sum of money~ xD !!!
never mind tat, the two guy there was nice. den after tat went to walk around and went to OG. went there to shop xD !! and my mother came. den after tat send rongyan to the traffic den went to market. saw samuel, XD he keep kick mii but ii din't noe it's was him, ii just tot it was purely accidental by some unknown so ii was like heck care. in d end he call mii duno wat =x den i turn back den ii EHHH~ =x lame larhx. den after tat went market to eat and went home.
saw amanda and came home with her, chatted alot den she came home tat time dad came back. so went to eat again. DORTS, ii'm suffering from my two parents. because ii had to helped both, and ii can hardly stand at either side. so ii went to eat AGAIN!! ii was very full okay. even the previous dinner with my mother was jialat too. left alot of food. and now once again ii need to eat again.
came back tat time, having a big round stomach. ii'm FULL!~ Both of them are a nuisance to mii, making mii such a pathetic gurlx. culd hardly help anyone and had to give in to both of them. Who wuld suffer in the end? it's mii XD !!
okay cut tat stupid thing, so went home and ii found out my kor wasn't at home, XD but he was away just for awhile just to buy tat bread for my rabbits and hamsters. jialat arhx ~ okay larhx end here lerhx.
I LOVE UU MARMIE, faster recover from sick okay~ ii MISS uu OKAY!!
I love uu Rongyan too XD !!! todae we two be les be dao like siao XD funn larhx =x
ii don't wanna miss uu ~
because it's hurt to miss uu xD
ii just hope someone can support mii for the JOB~ nevermindd~
10:40:00 PM
Friday, October 28, 2005
hmm so start from my starting of the day, went for the hall for the deepavali thingy, ii gain a lollipop but lost alex's pen, cuz at first ii tot is cher one, so ii put on the table. and ii din't noe at all. SORRY ALEX, ii will buy one more give uu one. SORRY nehx!!
hmm den after tat went to the PAC for the dance thingy and went to the Basketball CC for the fire thingy loo, we was under the shade, so lucky xD !!! ii just hate the SUN so much can =x specially at tat part of time, it's HOT !!!
hmm den after tat went for recess those loo, den go up find dic give zhu andd another zhu lend mii his duno wat thingy play xD !! so lame larhx mii =x den after tat went to hall, i din't noe need to meet uu know. and ii was so rush!! JIALAT ARHX!!!
den after tat make up those loo, den alot pplx help out also =x thanks chen lin, rongyan and shervone~ i just make the basic den d other help mii make dao nice nice =x dorts~ ii no time nia =x den all the way rush sia =x so jialat.
den at backstage tat time, quite funn larhx see they all derhx action =x den keep hug eliza!! thanks eliza for the hug~ cuz ii'm really scare nia =x den finally our turnn tat time, so dark derhx dorts =x still can see the note larhx at least =x !!! XD ~!!
den after tat play play play, duno why gan jue abit funny den down there smile smile~ ii'm MAD~!! den after tat go down tat time scaredd sia =x den after tat go up take prize those loo, gort the swesen the voucher, tink dun wan bahx =x den everythingy give mingfei loo xD
den after tat blablabla, den went back join my class, alot pplx ask the same question sia. dorts~ suan lerhx dun care uu all. =x den went back class den blablabla. den been given out my report book, my result SUCKS =x XD liangeng pro sia. 38 sia =x ii mean lvl position larhx!!! dun tink na li. but she really so PRO loO!!! pei fu her liao, next year muz win her. dun care =x and ii doubt we 3 will be iin the same class next year. hais!!
den after tat go home tat time, jialat ii tell uu, liangeng keep haolian one~ dorts~ hao larhx ii noe my result sucks =x den after tat come home, play awhile den ii wan go slp lerhx xD !!! bth liao larhx =x muz rmb to ask mii to remove my make up~ =x
okay larhx ii'm tireddd!!! i wan slp lerh~ sweetdreams kies!!!
ii'm self-obessedd again XD
they say ii look matured iin those two. DORTS really mehx =x
bu hui dui marhx =x ii'm sure it don't look mature =x anywhere ii'm still NIAN QING can!! ii look weird too, todae is a bad hair day and face day XD !!!
enddedd loo~
how long more can ii see uu,
how long will the future come??
how long more can uu rmb mi??
how long more can my love last??
Future seems to be farr
Present seems to be Short
Past seems to be DEAD.
Everythings seems to be gone =))
ii have no confident iin mii XD
Wo Aii Ni okay~ =))
4:06:00 PM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
let's see, ii see wat type of gurlx ii am =x *recalling*~
hmmm, well sometimes ii might be alittle materialistic to my family =x but ii'm really spoilt by them xD !! can't deny it =x specially to my father, when ii was young, he always the one who let mii do watever ii wan, and buy watever things ii wanted. ii'm spoilt xD !!!
hmm, also sometimes ii might be alittle demanding, because it might be ii miss them too much, like the one with daddy one. ii keep ask her come down, because ii really miss her so much uu know !!! tis week can't get to see her too.
and the one with marmie, ii really miss her too!! ii admit larhx, really veri demanding to see them when they're busy. and HE ii also sometimes say he dun care mii lerhx, ii'm too jialat liao =x ii'm bad too XD !!
hmmm, sumtimes right, =x when ii tink dao right, wat if tml ii die or wat =x ii mean WHAT IF LARH. no one will cares also derhx larhx, xD just turn into ash and disappear from the earth xD !!! somehow for the better bahx?? ii duno how other feel, but ii know wat ii feel xD
boredd~ found out a Primary 6 GURLX~ is actually so kai fang =x ~ my god~ time really changes XD ~!! ii don't know other again XD but ii know myself wasn't tat type =x and ii won't be so zhu dong one loo. dorts~ it nort only scare tat guy off, it scare mii off =x ii mean tat gurlx larhx =x
ii really northing to say laio =x but ii jiu shi hen bored larhx~!!!!!
suan lerhx
shldd ii put my love on uu??
ii don't know, it might turn out good and bad
alot pplx are always like tat,
when they get it, they heckcare already
maybe the guys ii saw those was the same?
ii don't know XD ii was demanding too much, really
guess ii miss uu too much~
9:36:00 PM
so blabla, starting had our in line skating. ii din't fall !! XD esther ke lian lehx, she holding my hand marhx, bu shi pplx say, if hold hand, fall is together fall one, but ii din't XD !! she veri ke lian lehx. keep fall here fall there~
den after tat jiu recess loo, den after tat went for the singapore mint. when uu take bus there right, ii saw OUTRAM SECONDARY SCHOOL XD !! ii tat time mad diao laio =x down there anyhow shout name =x oops~ only the bus know who larhx =x sorry arhx =x while esther shout naomi =x den after tat went there play around loo. beri sian larhx, den come back tat time, slept on esther shoulder. ii was very TIRED can!! dun blame mii for sleeping and being sehh thru out the whole trip, because ii was having alittle headache lehx.
den went back sch, chinese opera was cancelled. YAY!! so met waiiyee!! and went to bugis find job loo. we were wearing the wrong attire larhx =x they see us zhi jie say, we are nort recruiting students. suan liao loo uu all suan laio larhx~ =x den after tat iin d end we went shopping LOLS!!! so lame, so walk here walk there. den went back tat time, gort one person ask us donate loo. den ii donate 2 buck ~ they say wat 1 buck 2 buck of 5 buck or 10 buck =x so obviously ii choose 2 one XD!! den her friend horr very jialat lehx. dabian larhx her =x
den come back, play pc awhile, kor come back laio. like nv touch the computer for 5 mins he jiu come home liao =x den sleep all the way loo~ till ii wake up awhile tat time kor say go use pc XD !! but use pc also sian nehx. BORING NARHX!~ duno what happened sia, life suddenly so bored~
den just now help zhen feng do his friendster loo, ii tell uu arhx. next time dun ever ask mi help a guy when he ownself have no idea wat shld put inside. cuz shld be they noe themself more than mii marhx. so ii wrote such a short thing =x ~ and its look similiar to my xD !! nvm larhx =x just no pic all those onli, and at least dun look gay ii happy liao. cuz he really din't give mii any design or wat to write iin marhx~ it's isn't my FAULT okay =x
so now, chatting with alot pplx loo. is still so bored! ii duno larhx, todae is a boring day!! BORED BOREDD BOREDDD LARHX!! =x just now went gerald blog =x gort xiaxue tag lehx. but is xiaxue tis type of person? ii have no idea larhx =x tat person seems alittle boliao-ing~ northing better to do one. dorts~
now maybe go make my blogskins or wat bahx, go make finish can put up laio xD ii'm also getting real tired of tis blogskin ii using now =x okay larhx overall ii'm BORED la =x aiya ii'm still bored larhx!~~ ii have been bored the whole day laio, just keep slping =x but it's NOT my fault again~ ii was having headache okay!! =x
ii gan jue dao =x ii abit LAME nehx =x write almost the whole blog is BORED. cuz ii'm really BORED =x XD !!! hao lame arhx wo =x end lerhx larhx =x zhen derhx hao boredd arhx!!! ii wan slpp!! but ii slp bu zao !! slp too much also bad for health okay =x ii todae bu shi slp jiu shi keep shout BORED lerhx =x AIYA~~ bu yao say laio =x iif nort ii really duno how mani more BORED ii going to write lerhx xD !!!
okay larhx endd here lerhx, if nort SOMEONE dun wan slp till ii blog finish =x winliao loo horr~ =x tml gort performance. ii scare =x shuo zhen derhx, ii cong lai dou bu guan performance derhx. now hao scare arhx~ hao bai chii derhx reaction~
ii'mBORED!!
what if one day i'm gone, will anyone notice? xD
l**g***, missyou~ jiayouu kies =))!!
XD guess ur words xD !!!
7:54:00 PM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Yuyang, Sing song VERI NICE. change song liao him =x Mingfei Solo one also bu cuo nehx =)) Jeric's guardian angel hen hao ting. Anna's yi shii derhx mei hao hen sweet!! den Shervoonee TAT song HEN HAO TING =x and thanks for the glitter nehx shervonne =))
make afew friends from there nia. MJR idol 2005 RAWKS. XD
okay let's say the result
Solo
First - Yuyang
Second - Shervoone
Third - Jeric
Group
First - Jeric, Yuyang
Second - Mingfei and mii~
Third - Yu ke =x how to spell =x and tat guy 3F derhx ii tink =x
okay all rawks okay XD !! cried after my piano nia, ii still tink wasn't tat good uu noe =x thanks jocelyn and huixuan mummy for the shoulder XD !!! thanks worZz. LOVE uu gurlx XD !!
rongyan also thanks nehx =)) peii mii awhile also XD !!
overall everyone has done quite good uu noe XD !!
ii'm so happy!! okay liao~ ii go out meet randall lerhx. XD !! byebye takecare
LOVE UU GUYS.. MWACKSS!! XD !!
iiLOVEuu really~
4:40:00 PM
den after tat see how my headache loo, ii still having slightly derhx headache. so iif ii realii cannort, ii might cannort go guide. but ii will tried narhx, cuz we need to do the proposal thing.. sorry seniors =))
iim just way too boredd also, later go pratice awhile my piano. den 12.15 go sch liao XD den go find teacher pass up my form den go find liangeng they all. den jiu go for compeition loo, hope mii andd he win loo =)) jiayou nehx!!
my boyboy is so lazii!!~ he have been slping before ii slept till now. but his position always so cute =x muz gort thingy behind his back den can lie =x iif nort his head muz put on something. tat yy iif uu cannort last for abt a hour right, uu cannort sit at the floor and put ur hand there. he sure come over lie on ur back and the head on ur hand derhx =x buay tahan him larhx =x so cute xD
ii try to clear my house abit lerhx =x it's real messy okay, see gort wat thingy throw, gort wat thing nv return or wat. gort one shirt rongyan one still with mii, sorry rongyan. my house too messy liao, and my wardrobe also. ii'm still clearing my wardrobe (ehh is how spell one) =x so anything ii din't return or wat horr, muz tell mii lehx. ii try dig out from tat stack of clothes =x ii'm throwing alot of clothes away also liao =x but those are just my clothes for a child =x ii'm no more a child xD !!
hmm k larhx ii end here first liao, ii'm damn tiredd. but ii try to figure out wat shld ii wear later =x okay endd loo byebye takecare =))
good luck da jia =)) for the competition =))
ii doubt uu, sorry
11:13:00 AM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
den after tat blablabla, went to take 21 in d end we get back to the bus interchange. den we take 131 back to bugis loo.
at first is wait down there derhx, den na li zhi dao duno y the mingfei and the gerald (correct marhx ) =x stand at the side. DORTS, bu hui tell mii nia they two. den after tat say byebye to liangeng and esther, den head off my house loo.
went home den played my piano loo. boyboy keep kacau gerald leg nia =x duno yy XD !! den pratice loo, gort afew place ii understand liao!! yuan lai shi like tat =x XD !! ii abit stupidd derhx larhx bobian. den after tat duno zuo mo boyboy keep stick with mingfei and gerald nehx. DORTS derhx nehx, ii tot he love gurlx alot. zuo mo suddenly so stick them derhx weird derhx boyboy. suan lerhx =x
den after awhile they go liao norhx. den boyboy dorts derhx nehx =x keep wan go with them, ii wonder horr =x iif a thief come horr, will he like tat also =x keep wan be with them. but todae derhx him nort hyper active derhx. duno yy?? maybe mingfei and gerald nort gurlx xD !!!
den after tat blablabla, ii come use pc loo, now gort headache liao. at first is meet mingfei tat time already gort liao. dorts, ii'm seh now =x ii guess tml ii can't be able go sch lerhx xD !! tat's good horr =x XD !!! the form maybe during before my competition ii go give teacher. XD just hope ii can get in the class ii wan worZz. XD !!
okay larhx end of my day liao. ii really buaytahan liao. ii wan slp XD!!!
enddedd loo!~ end of my todae XD guess so, who noes ii might go out later.
but ii'm really veri SEH now!~ jiu ming arhx.
Better dun make mii fall iin love with uu, iif uu noe uu wuld hurt mii xD
mwacks =)) iiLOVEuu.
4:48:00 PM
misunderstands realli can lead to trust-less. maybe it better to solve the misunderstand before anythings continue. ii know the both of them had done alot to tis family, ii noe their goods, their effort. it's nort tat they show us the good, we wuld forget the next min. we 3 are siblings, we know what each other thinking. futhermore, we stay in the same room, our brothers-sister-ship is counted the most close among my friends.
actually ii love my family alot, but ii really buay tahan their quarrels. it's like ii will break down every now and then because of them. ii NEVER find any problems in my past. my family rawks, my friends rawks, my whole life rawks.
but, never mind. maybe it all doesn't matter anymore, ii told myself, there's northing ii wuld care for it. ii hasn't been raisiing my voice for long till todae ii actually shouted at my mother to put down tat stupid knife. my mind was totally blank except snatching the knife away.
never mind, ii'm nort gotta tink anymore. shall put down everything now, ii'm getting sick of my life at home =)) it's sucks totally and exactly =))
nite nite~ it's half past one XD !! fun though XD !! now chatting with tat stupid chunfeng. bth him larhx. andd john loo. boring boring boring.
FlysAways~
Ai, Shi Mei you Ai Cuo Huo Ai Dui derhx.
iiLOVEuu XD
1:45:00 AM
Monday, October 24, 2005
den after tat jiu northing much loo, end sch early. ii duno wat subject shld ii take. haiZz. ii doubt ii can get in the class ii wan XD nvm~ shall ask my kor for advice, his advice always meaningful one. XD
den after tat, went to music room to pratice piano, ii'm real tired. den down there chatted with shixiong on fone awhile. den slack around den pratice, den slack around. fan zhen whole music room is MINE XD !!! den after tat went down to PAC lerhx.
den wah seh ii tell uu it's scary =x BTH sia =x alot pplx sing so nice!!! wah sehhhh~ their voice horr li hai lehx, ii'm sure iif they go for REAL singer thingy hor. SURE get in one. LI HAI LI HAI..
den after tat jiu blablabla, den after tat jiu last time lerhx. done quite jialat bahx, den miss leong say we actually can derhx, last fri quite good one sia. den now nort veri good, the codination also nort veri good. SORRY WORZz MINGFEI
den after. jiu like tat like tat lo went home eat byebye =x
endedd
7:12:00 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
hmmmm woohoo =x now gort one big ren wuu =x ZeMing ask mii help to maintain the Website of the SBMY, ii'm scared =x ii scare zuo bu hao =x ask mii do html code things iis yao zuo jiu zuo hao hao derhx =x bu yao zuo jiu throw aside derhx =x so now muz do hao hao sia =x ii'm real SCARE =x wish mii best of luck kies !!! just hope northing went wrong iin it can laio xD
hmmm tink northing much bahx, end of my day bahx.
ii hope monday interview goes right =))
LIANGENG ii just LOVE uu XD !! we muz get iin the interview okay XD
and DUI BU QI MingFei&wesley.
ii'm boredd!! bored boredd.
am ii wrong to love someone?
7:04:00 PM
okay larhx overall it's funnn XD !! tis few day keep having funn lehx. ii realli LOVE all the friends of mine really really xD they zhen derhx hao rawks xD !!!
ii'm crazy nowadays laio, duno yy also suddenly will veri hyper active one okay =x dun xia dao when uu see mii like tat, cuz ii really duno wat really happened to mi XD ii just noe ii'm real happy. also duno yy =x DORTS!! ii'm REALLY CRAZY !!
tat time horr, forget is who tell mii sia, say wat " life is short, so wat forr tink so much " but den horr =x ii still so badd go shoot back " life na li hui short. SO LONG LOO, HOW II WISH CAN DIE OFF " =x oops tat is the past larhx. now ii found out life really short sia, suddenly one blink jiu end of the year lerhx. OH MY GOD =x ii now veri scare old lehx =x old derhs shi hou cannort wear nice nice =x later pplx say act cute or wat XD !!! ii'm real MAD =x
okay larhx just gort time to play just play larhx, ii'm a guo lai renn xD wat for waste life to down there brooding over thingy xD okay okay i'm really make up my mind, gort to erase those memories xD PAST derhx ii meanx. cuz last time really lead a veri sad life sia, brood over so mani things. somemore gort one tat weirong & matthew hai mii brood till 2 yr =x DUN CARE THEM LIAO =x so okay okay. memories erase =x no larhx where gort really erase, just dun wan tink dao jiu can laio xD
so from now onwards, gotta be a happy mii xD !! dun care mii iif ii started to become sad again =x cuz my mood always go haywire, can be happy can be sad. so dun care mii when ii sad =x cuz it's PART OF MY LIFE XD !!! okay larhx dun blog liao, ii'm going really crazy. OOPS =x
enddedd loo~
ii'm goiing FENG LERHX~ tis two guy. ahhhh!! suan laio larhx. dun care liao larhx, ask mi go be huai ren, suan laio~ but ii zhen derhx yao FENG DIAO LERHX =x xD pplx arhx jiu jiu wo!!!
can uu just be mine one day? iiLOVEuu
9:28:00 AM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
hmm, tinking back right, ii came to a halt. it's the time ii had tis year. we went to the spark c camp~ and ii cried tat time. my emotion went haywire~ ii didn't wan to be iin 2F at ALL!! ii was there regretting yy din't i do well to get into 2E, ii cried so much tat ii see everythingy as negative things. seen everythingy like, there's no more point in turning it to good anymore. because my world is gotta end there and there, no more~ so ii hated myself so much tat ii dislike everythingy, ii changed in total =))
ii wasn't the one tat uu use to noe, uu ought to noe =)) throughout tis year, went through so much.. find out alot, see alot, learn alot and gain alot alot. few friends changed mii into a more positive tinking one and let mii see thru life isn't just one way out, there's different type of road uu can take, it's just which way uu wanted to walk.
sumtimes, advice tat is given to uu muz nort be forgotten. because uu will be the one who will regret =)) so tink before uu act andd speak. everything wuldd lead to some consquences derhx =)) so as well as tink before uu act those loo. actually ii guess horr, nort onli myself changing bahx. =)) there's alot pplx starting to change lerhx. change to a completely strangerr, completely can't figure out who was it. never mind bahx. uu choose the road derhx, pplx just have to go with it iif not they will started make a big fuss over it. but i'm nort gotta be so childish anymore, ii shall let it be bahx. uu wan it den okay with it =)) thanks for still rmbing mii tis person still exist =))
after all those things uu all told mii, ii still believe there's kharma, no doubts =)) maybe like tat monk tat say, bring pplx happiness is a good kharma. maybe it's time to try to accumulate some good kharma =)) ii noe ii done too much evil deeds. ii noe wat did ii do, so no point pointing finger to mii for those tat ii din't do. =)) no doubts again xD
shanyuan ii'm sorry lehx, tat time uu tell mii abt nort to believing the person, ii did nort take iin ur advice. dui bu qii worZz wo derhx uncle shanyuan xD =x
hao larhx for now ii gort my goals to go forr, gort the things ii wanted to do it. so at least better than last time, wheares ii have no goals. ii duno yy ii live forr. haha =)) better now right xD !!! also ii noe iin everythingy nort matter friendship or relationship, uu must have the TRUST =x rmb rmb. without trust, there's northing uu can do anymore. a relationship or a friendship will be broken slowly. hao larhx ii dun wan say too much laio =x
yy ii write tis entry nehx =x main aims is to thanks all my friends who actually help mi out. andd ii just wan to say, ii LOVE all of uu =)) Thanks for all the trust, shoulders tat ii cry on, listening ears, all the smses & calls =)) ii noe uu all cared =)) it's great to have all of uu as friends =)) ii wouldn't regret seriously, uu all realli means alot ot mii =)) ii means REALLY ALOT =))
Thanks to uu all =))
10:37:00 PM
School as usual loo, northing special. my class kana scolded by miss leong because we all forgotten abt the music lesson and we stayed in class play. den my table also kana write " WANLING LOVE ALOYSIUS " curse tat person sia ii tell uu. curse him go down 18th storey derhx hell sia. walking on the road also step onto the banana skin. walking across the road kana car bang den paralyse for his next half of his life XD =)) nice marhx xD !!! somemore horr choose also duno how choose. choose tat ALOYSIUS . WALIAO EHX!!!
den after sch went for the audition. VERI FUN !!!!! XD !!! starting, meet weibin, alton andd jocelyn with liangeng go for the audition. den after tat report den blabla. den go hall pratice loo. cuz ii LAST min den noe muz go for it one sia, cuz jocelyn nv pratice finish, den ask mii replace her. DORTS~ so like tat like tat loo. no prepare jiu go liao lehx, nort scare derhx ppl can go die liao =x den blablabla. den start liao~ alot pplx sing Lin JJ derhx song nia xD !!! so nice!!
Jeric, YuYang andd Mingfei Sing VERY NICE SIA!! waliao ehhx !! somemore their voice veri nice sia!! wahsehhh!! sure dian alot pplx liao XD !! den after tat ii go up with alton den ii iis play the piano marhx. den ii first time right, play so wrong. den ii down there shout xD !! paiseh sia!! den after tat second time ii duno wat ii playing sia, cuz ii can't hear marhx. den ii duno wat ii playing loo. den after tat come down tat time cry sia ! dorts~ again!!!
den after tat the result out tat time, ii dun dare listen sia =x !!! den iin d end teacher say ii can get iin for my piano, but alton cannort. den jiu like tat like tat loo. blablabla. den after tat jiu miss leong ask mi change vocalist, den jiu blablabla. she list out alot sia, wat wat xiangkang, liu dan den blabla. but all ii bu shuu~ den jiu like tat loo~ den iin d end miss leong say help mi ask den ii okay loo. den na li dong she go ask mingfei. DORTS~
yy ii DORTS lehx =x cuz at first ii going mjr idol with mingfei, in d end we jiu nv hand in form those loo. so nv liao, den so zhun zhun now ytd gort ask by jocelyn to help replace her. den after tat lose =x den after tat jiu become group with him again. DORTS~ so so so zhun norhx. somemore unexpectedly derhx =x den jiu like tat loo =x so ZHUN HOR!! XD
den after tat jiu blablabla, den ii train with mingfei tat time first time already quite good liao xD !!! wahaha. den miss jacquelin say we can.. cuz tat time miss jade nort there marhx. so we two like tat try loo. den awhile miss jade also come back liao xD den they say we try again. dorts. den we try again loo. we two nort bad sia =x zhi shii tat last part veri veri veri last part tat time nort same time, muz try more training lerhx with him liao.
MINGFEI!! tis paragraph for uu one sia " ur solo muz jiayou also can !! team one also muz kies xD !!!!! jia you horr!~ " ur singing also rawks horr~
den ehhh tink no more liao after the audition get to noe afew pplx sia, alton, weibin and wesley. den like tat like tat loo. quite fun loo the audition nort quite fun but is very fun bahx xD !! woohoo~ den after the audition go for guide those loo. den endd lerhx.
Todae~ 22.10
den todae arhx XD !~! meet liangeng, den go eat japan food. den after tat meet alton den we go arcade play. XD !! play rockfever. ii gort 2 purfect. xD !! score iis 2600000 =x forget how mani zero liao xD ! den after tat jiu meet terence loo. den we jiu go find bag den go my house. xD den jiu now like tat like tat loo. den listen alot song den finally they decide Bei Feng Chui Guo De Xia Tian XD !! woohoo~ still nort sure yet xD !!
okay endded liao later going arcade play again XD fun fun fun !!! woohoo my boyboy RAWKS.. XD !!! and All my friend rawks xD !!! enddedd looo~~
takecare nehx byebye..
shld ii fall in love with uu?
3:19:00 PM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
so after tat went home loo, and ii had no pc to use due to the WOW my kor was playing with, so ii told him tat when his gf came, please just wake mi up. so ii went to slp, after awhile ( ii guess it isn't awhile, it's like afew hours ) ii wake up, ii saw my big korr watching movie, so ii was surprised, and asked where did er ge go. he said he went out. dorts!! nvm, so iin d end ii went to bathe andd played the pc. but nort haven 5 mins, my second kor came back. and which means~ no more pc to let mi use xD !!
hmmm well say todae bahx, math period NO TEACHER xD !! was having alot of funn.. went around old blocks, and saw duno wat class having 3 teachers. one of them is mrs chan hai choo, miss elena lau and another one we were nort sure. DORTS SIA. wat for go iin class with 3 teacher, d other class nort enuff teacher den uu noe =x den after tat jiu went home with julia, and ii'm back with my results??
ii din't done veri well though. but still manage to improve anumber of stuffs xD !! at least ii'm contentedd. but ii hate tat LITERTATURE PAPER. II SWEAR ii won't ever get lit as subj at all next year. onli 10 iin my class passedd? how badly done can we? so ii count. at least ii'm one of those 30 pplx who flunk the paper =x nort tat badd though =)) at least it show tat the paper is hard xD !!! or can ii say ii did nort use my brains when ii'm doing it? wateverr =x
and my MATH ii PASSED!!! ii was careless!! iif ii'm a little careful, ii might get 64!! B4 uu noe!!! it's better than C5 . and ii onli get 59!! wateverr~ but it's weird tat ii from 70 drop to 39 which was a F9 and now ii'm up to 59. from F9 to C5. nort tat bad though XD !! ii had IMPROVED!! XD ii'm HAPPY!! contentedd liao~ xD although ii did nort expect tis result. ii expected 60++ one. oh nvm~ =)) it's overr~ and no point brooding over it =)) but overall ii muz thanks to LiangJian and ZeMing =)) ii LOVE uu twos =))!! help mi alot alot, spend time with mi just to help mii. both of them are GREAT!!!
and my history. ii hasn't been passing ever since sec 1. and now ii PASSED!! xD guess ii just need alittle more concentration, ii can actually pass =)) andd literature is X2 to get 100 =)) so ii just get 46/100 =((
hmmm, well ii shall write down all of my result. ii gort back all, all was like borderline. sad~ ii haven get to noe my overall too =)) cannort happy too early xD and my english, XD ii countedd. mine overall is pass =)) nort tis one larhx =x nvm larhx. wait first after my promotion day den we shall see =))
English Paper 1 :: 28 / 60
English Paper 2 :: 26.5/50
Chinese Paper :: 70 / 100
Math Paper :: 59 / 100
Science Paper :: 65/100
Literature Paper :: 23 / 50
Geography Paper :: 59 /100
History Paper :: 55 / 100
Home Econ :: 50 /100
Art :: 68 / 100
tink no more liao horr =x failedd 1 =)) jialat jialat. but hope my flour babies wuld drag my overall up XD !!! ii hopedd larhx. xD !!!
xPriscilla told mii tat her flour baby's head is make of stone! my god~ at least they gort stone or wat, why is ours just a bag of flour ?? ~ dorts!!! nvm nvm xD !!!
ii'm waiting for a day ii can go rebornedd lehx. seems fun andd it isn't like wat other pplx say, it burnt ur scalp or wat =x it isn't larhx, seems so relaxing xD !! ii'm a weirdo man~ =x okay okay shall endd here loo~ =)) might post a second one, cuz ii need to go down to find my mother though =)) ii haven eaten yet. ii'm hungry can!! XD
okay endddedd~
dun make mii fall in love with uu,
iif uu noe uu wil hurt mii =))
just let mii lead my more happy life
than getting hurt from uu.
iiLOVEuu
2:55:00 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
den after tat jiu walk here walk there. den we go back arcade those. den go play parapara. omg ii tell uu !! my parapara sux!! too long nv play liao. my rockfever nort bad still gort one time purfect xD so LONG SINCE I PLAY!! dorts
den after tat jiu we go marina square tat time. so kitty and his gurlx. xD !~! nort gf okay. but ii gan jue they going to stead liao. xD !! gort 6th sense. wait for their hao xiao xi. XD !!! den ii ask them uu two zou arhx. they say nv. pian ren one. xD !!
den we jiu walk walk awhile den we go bugis village walk here walk there. bought a bag at 12 buck. and a shirt at 10 buck xD !!! spend 22 sia~ my god~ nvm. still gort tat jean ii'm aiming for sia. muz ren ren ren xD !!
den jiu blabla we went back to bugis. den jiu blablabla. den went to bugis village. den jiu walk aroundd. den tat brown shirt ii saw become 12.90. siao one. ytd 12 now 13 buck liao. DORTS! den blablabla. went back my house. den jiu mummy ask shld she ask daddy to patch anort. den ii jiu duno. den find my AI QING CHUANG JIA. XD !! jiu shi my korr. and my kor say so much logic. PRO SIA. ask one thing say so much. wan noe ? ask mii XD !!! or ask mummy~ xD !! just wish her good luck loo. ii respect her decision norhx =))
den after tat pei her go take bus den pei amanda go up market derhx 4th floor~ den jiu blablabla. den went to walk boyboy den go home den now finally gort pc use XD !! ii love the STAIRWAY to HEAVEN. XD !!! okay larhx end here liao. kor kor wait veri long for my pc liao. byebye takecare.
tis fri might meet jashawn. muz rmb mii okay~ if nort ii forget meet him jiu SIAO LIAO !! XD end looo takecare...
10:48:00 PM
den back to my dog. HE HOR!! down there struggle. den make dao my poor hamham's cage OVERTURN UU NOE!! waliao ehx!! damn bth loo~ and ii was the one who was left at home. andd wat ii can do was to HELP CLEAR IT~ and the WHOLE kitchen is in a mess loo. ii mean it's reali WHOLE~~!!! sometimes reali bth my boyboy one loo~
den after tat ii was cleaning the whole kitchen with waterr den ii put boyboy at the front door there. den ii go clean liao. den clean finish ii zhi jie go room liao. den he down there bark bark bark. den ii onli take cane those horr =x like mother to child sia =x den down there shout shout shout. den whack my sofa (whack sofa onlii nv whack him, ii she bu de whack him XD ) so like tat loo he diam diam liao. now down there duno do wat. also dun wan care =x let him zhi dao he cuo can liao =)) he xia cii dun dare touch ham ham liao ii tink =x cuz ii planning one whole day hack care him =x WHO CARES ~ XD !!!
okay later going out with mummy.. duno want wear wat lehx. freak derhx =x suan laio =x ii anyhow wear bahx. kk end loo~ cya takecare xD !!!!!! hope everythingy will be fine!!! shall go suntec play rockfever bahx. but ii'm sure II GOTTA FAIL IT!!! suan liao~ cuz tat time play with rongyan one time ii fail liao. cuz she paly hard marhx. den somemore ii haven train so long liao. na li ke neng my normal still will pass. STUPID DERHX LARHX =x suan liao suan liao. okay den after tat ii jiu bu dong liao .dao shii den say bahx =))~
enddedd loo~ ii'm BORED ii'm gotta go pompom liao. takecare =))
can ii treat it as hating uu like no one business?
all ii noe, ii culd nort bear it.
10:40:00 AM
Monday, October 17, 2005
hmm well after tat went on to buy ice-cream andd went over to bugis. went to m1 to look over my beloved fone. but ii have 4 more months to go, so ii can't reali get tat first. might as well as wait till next year. who noes? scally gort a new fone pop out by then and ii fall in love with tat? XD so oh well, might as well wait.....
after tat went home loo and now ii'm here playing pc. ii just reach home nort long now. went out at 5.30pm andd came home at 9. because ii told my mother tat it's STRAIGHT AFTER EXAMS, she can't expecting mii to stay home all day long and ii already get alittle use to nite life xD !! alittle onli larhx. the most ii late home is because of buddhist. if nort with cousin. if nort with amanda xD !! ii guess tis is the few thingys tat she allowed mi to stay out late??
hmmm~ let's count, how much shld ii save. by tis SAT ii muz get all of it =))
TAT SHIRT $19
TAT JEAN $25
TAT necklace $5
This SHOE $9.90
equal to~ $58.90
oh my god!! another 60 buck gone. wateverrr.
and my fone cost 298 buck xD gort papa sponsor liao. ii'm safe !! keke !!
NVM any job available. cann jie shao to mii xD !!! ii gort afew. but none called yet . freak it. nvm ii shall call kitty to askedd xD he's alot lobang. XD !!! keke.. anywhere uu all gort just tell mii narhx okay xD !!! from todae onwards anytime also can. wan mii pon sch also can. =x OOPS!! no larhx jkjk~ but iif reali need derhx hua tell mii loo ii tink can larhx. ii see first larhx. see ii wan anort. xD !!
enddedd loo~
tel mi wat do uu reali wan from mii??
my life??
my money?? (ii dun even haf loo) xD
wat uu wan??
just tell mii bahx..
8:59:00 PM
hmmm my new blogskins is coming up soon =)) wan to see first can try ask mii =))
kk larhx ii go cong liang liao byebye
letting go of uu is harder than loving uu silently
4:36:00 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
so todae went to ask zhu for solution, and he told mi. FINALLY !! i now awaiting sia. i'm the most fast one sia. 20 mins plus XD !! woohoo!! who can be as hengx as mii XD ! hmm ii'm also tired now sia, slept at 3 am ytd and wake up at 10 am todae. after piano ii'm sure tat ii need a SLEEP !!! todae shall be a day ii sleep bahx =)) no go out no northing. TIRED~~ SHAG~
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tianlong todae last day working lerhx XD hope he happy working bahx =))
patch doesn't have a auto one xD
ii wanna get TAT handphone!!!
my BOYBOY (dog) is CUTE XD !! he's damn blur and gong nowaday XD
10:15:00 AM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
hmm den after tat waited for yiting and yi lin andd ii went to bathe those, den went up to meet meifang. MEIFEN damn shao xing ii tell uu, but nvm larhx. we two see each other will sure start to quarrel =x ii mean those play play one larhx. but reali can make uu piss off one =x her words is damn jialat lo~ no wonder she make alot pplx bu shuang liao~ =x
den after tat jiu went to meet up with my yiting and yilin!! they so cute can~ den we went to my house loo play my dog those, den after tat ii askedd them whether wanna go the guangmingshan thingy. den they tink tink tink in d end say okay den okay loo, den ii calledd randall ask whether he going anort iin d end he at tampiness with his stead xD !! den ii calledd daddy to peii mii also xD !!
den after tat went to bugis street walk around den randall finally calledd den we zhi jie rush off to the mrt loo, den after tat saw randall. den randall so jialat one nv peii yiting and yilin tok one. they so long nv meet liao sia!! den after tat ii den find out yuanlai tat time at the playground tat time, yuanlai is YILIN!! dorts =x den after tat we take train go there, den veri funny i tell uu. halfway thru we saw WEIMING on the train, actually is nort we saw larhx. is WEIMING saw randall, cuz of his shoe and his hair xD!! den after tat ii jiu ask him uu gort saw mii marhx, den he say no. dorts cuz ii was too short. wahseh bth him lo!~
den after tat we jiu tok tok tok those, den ii saw WEIMING's fone dehx gurlx friend!! oh my god the eyes is damn nice !! big big one! wah sehh!! den ii jiu get to noe how weiming noe his gurlx one. xD !! li hai sia like tat also can xD!! woohoo!!
after tat we reach bishan liao, den ii saw his stead. hen xiang felicia like tat sia =x nvm nvm XD !! chio jiu hao. she damn styloo those sia. ii mean like those hiphop like tat xD !! nicenice. den after tat we went to kfc to meet other den ii went shopping with yiting and yilin. ii wan one more NEWBIE shirt xD !!! jue ding lerhx xD !! den after tat blablablabla~!! ii wan more shorts too xD !! saw alot thingy i wan. but the price also veri nice also sia ii tell uu xD !!!
den after tat TOOTkorr calledd~ den ii went to bus-stop find them loo. we take 401 or 410 =x !! den after tat reach liao we jiu go iin loo. quite meaningful larhx the dharma tok =)) it's abt karma =)) ii learnt more abt karma lerhx =)) ther's a few story the monk had say.
sometimes, pplx use karma as an excuse XD !! like the guy has affair and he said tat it's his wife's karma. andd another story was the child was naughty andd the child say tat it's his parent karma. dorts~ and the monk started saying all those. den iif ii did nort rmb wrongly, gort one is karma is something tat uu shldn't play with. beacuse uu will nv noe wat's ur consquences =)) maybe after tis 3 hours dharma tok, ii get to noe alot thingys =)) it's MEANINGFUL!! nv regret going xD !!
hmmm den after tat send yiting and yilin andd put TOOTkor at bugis hou went to eat andd come up use pc loo!!!
take a number of pictures with them. shall post it up soon =))
enddedd loo~
todae is funn =)) and meaningful =))
iiLOVEtodae
and
iiLOVEyiting&yilin
iiLOVEmeifang&meifen
although keep quarrel with meifen she still alright larhx overall XD
can ii act like ii dun love uu, tink tat ii dun love uu at all
andd nv start missing uu nor tink of uu??
11:27:00 PM
there's one sentence say wat break up 2 1/2 years =)) gang gang hao xD !! we two break 2 1/2 yrs lerhx. haha times pass sia xD !! den the lyric and all sound meaningful, so decided to put tis song for awhile though ii dun reali like the song =x ii jus find the lyric meaningful and now it's 1.49 and i was like here finding the song for so long uu noe~ ii reali bth liao tml still muz meet they all lehx, how am ii suppose to meet them with big eye bag andd dark circles? dorts nvm nvm . shall endd here, check out the song kies +))
1:47:00 AM
Friday, October 14, 2005
den awhile we went here went there, den go arcade play rockfever~ den blablabla. den we go kinokuniya, den she brought a book den we walk here walk there den sit here sit there den jiu went on to library lerhx~ go borrow book. rongyan make a new card!! waliao ii'm jealousedd~ =\ now the library card DAMN NICE SIA!!!!!!! bth sia!!! now like those like ehhh those POSB card those nehx!! ii wonder wat will it look like next time =x but ii prefer now so maybe tis year ii will be getting one since ii doesn't have one card XD and it cost onli 1 buck!! 1 buck for a good looking card ~ worth it sehx =x
den blablabla. den BEN DAN SHANYUAN!!~ ii nv buy ur nice nice clothes larhx =x ii ownself also nv buy thingy lerhx =x still buy things for uu =x tis whole day nv buy thingy except go with mama tat time xD
den after tat rongyan went home with tat kitten in her bag =x den after tat ii went to find muah mother andd eat those den we went to tis particular shop which ii asked my mother to get a look inside =x XD !! it's worth it sia!! ii actually brought a skirt, a black short andd 3 shirt xD !! waliao ehx ii'm xingfu!! XD !!! and my mother also bought a shirt and 2 short~ so we actually spend 57.30 bucks xD !! ii bought more thingys than my mother~ wahaha =x but bobian larhx tat gurlx lo at first ii din't buy shirt one, in d end she say tis say tat den give us see =x den my xin yang yang xD den go see loo~ den like tat like tat loo =x sorry mum~ =x
hmm also muz say sorry to randall cuz he askedd mii to join him go town den cuz ii with rongyan marhx so cannort loo~ sorry nehx, next time kies =))
tml going out with 2 pair twins!! WEEE it's gotta RAWKS WHOLE DAY XD !!!
monday going out with marmie also
tuesday going out with mummy also xD!!
okay ii shall here to clarify xD
marmie = yuanyi
mummy = huixuan
mummii~ = Liyan~
woohoo can can can? so like tat loo xD !! okay it's gotta be funn~
ii love all my marmie xD !! and my friends !!
all the best for all ur EOYs nehx !!
enddedd~!!!
muackies muack xD ii'm lame ~
8:56:00 PM
after tat went with liangeng, den kor kor saio one lehx. saw mii at aljuniedd mrt den he at the pasir ris mrt there, den sms mii "meimei.. exams finish lerhx arhx" den ii jiu "ya. yy lehx?" den he calledd mii and tell mii he iin the next train XD !! so cute XD yuanfen sia korrr XD !!
hmm later going out with rongyan, she blur queen sia. she ownself ask mii go out iin d end she forgotten, so now ii gotta bathe my darling dog. den go bathe myself den go out with her, but ii'm damn tiredd. just manage to catch my slp after all the art at 2 am plus!! bth liao. nvm larhx todae REN~ den tml slp till late late, cuz tml ii meeting 2 pair of twin XD it's gotta be FUN!! one pair is meifang and mei fen another pair is yiting and yiliN!! XD loves them loads loads, but ehh ii look extra, all pair pair one XD nvm see randall gort go anort cuz just find out randall noe yiting and yi lin XD !! he go make friend with them at friendster marhx den like tat like tat meet den they ren shi =x so tml see randall wan go anort, dun wan jiu i be extra XD but veri funn sia =x sure one
hmmm shall end here bahx, blog next time. cuz tml is sat andd my sundays' computer aren't mine xD !! so muz find weekendd programme xD!!
okay endd lerhx ii go pompom ! BYEBYE!!!
takecare nehx, JIAYOU for ur exams result xD !!
ii hope ii pass all =)) HOPE!!
how can ii regret nort holding uu back when it's all overr??
10:52:00 AM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
den the geo JIALAT II TELL UU!! those thingy ii memorise suddenly gone iin a while time. ii was like damn jialat loo~ ii dun even noe wat am ii gotta do loo, in d end just a plain of all crabbie thingy inside, regretted sia. ii wonder culd ii pass? just a pass is enuff ii tell uu xD !!
den after tat went to find kitty to take his brochure. who tell him do tis job, den ask mii help him throw away. BTH HIM!!! den ii help take loo, den waiyou and liangeng also take alittle. den we go around everywhere throwing it away xD !!! wahahaa =x
hmm den after all tis went shopping with waiyouu andd liangeng. went to long john silver to eat =)) hadd fun there. down there tink abt work, and ii started to tink my future. =x ii said " if i succeed iin being primary sch teacher. the basic pay will be $2000 at least, and plus my piano. iif one month ii teach 10 students andd one students' fee is $220 as average larhx. $220 X 10 = $2200 and ii total get 4000 bucks plus sia. iif ii teach more students ( it's obviously) my pay will be more!! woohoo!! ii shall work hard towards it xD
after tat went walk walk andd findd yeechean. she still so cute but ke lian her onli person down there =x den after tat we go bugis village walk walk, den down there di-siao the shopkeeper den all bu shuang mii liao xD !! funn!! ii'm lame =x den after awhile liangeng say she need go liao, den ii pei-edd her to mrt, den went to sit on the staircase as we all are drinking marhx. den we tok tok tok from weirong to tianlong to mjr idol to mingfei =x den to weirong's family xD !! den to alwin. den suddenly gort pplx like weirong last time give those soundd. den ii look up, duno who sia. den ii down there first tinking " weirong " xD !! den liangeng say gort 2 guy, one nort veri shuai one veri shuai. den ii say i onli saw 1 pplx veri white one. ii mean the skin veri fair =x ~ duno larhx, den liangeng say maybe is weirong for the shuai one =x den ii was like OMG!~ =x den down there doing stupid stuffs larhx =x excited sia =x
den down there shout here shout there =x ii'm CRAZY. REAL CRAZY okay =x !! lame sia, den after awhile den liangeng go liao. den with waiyou also go liao. den go home awhile, kitty come find mii, cuz he go home liao den go bathe den come find mii. weird derhx sia him, den he come meet mii see my boyboy~!! like wat he say, it's been veri long since he come liao sia =x nvm larhx wahahaha~ den after awhile his friend come liao. he's PRO SIA!! gort lift dun take, go climb annother way derhx staircase, how pro can he be =x he's name is call KEN~ den he carry my dog duno how he carry sia. carry by the neck. OMG!! bth him sia, den after awhile they go liao cuz they go for their interview at the fish and co. next time muz go find them.
now gort one job with tat kitty, give brochure ii see first larhx, if he work den ii work iif nort VERI SIAN LARHX!! den after tat blablablablabla
den now here looo~ no maple todae cuz it's under maintance. stupidd horr?!?! den todae going to have steamboat again, went supermarket with mama to go buy food those for todae, guess todae gotta be a nice meal =))
andd liangeng say my english improved!! XD !! cuz tat time ii was chatting on phone with kitty, and she told mi tat my english has improvedd from last time. woohoo!! ii can happy like saio okay =x but just hope my DAMN english IMPROVE CAN LIAO LARHX =x now speaking improve also no use, muz write den improve right !!!
hmmm tink northingy much lerhx bahx~ ii wan WORK!! any recommentation?? ii dun mind any job, just near my house can liao =x and nort those STUPID JOB OKAY! like wat shanyuan say " sell backside " ur head narhx =x and no drug too =)) xD just illegal thing dun ask mii can laio. okay~!!
enddedd loo~!!!
ii have no idea for my ART!!
ii just wished uu were mine, but ii just have to say no.
just to be fair to everyone =))
4:56:00 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
HOW CAN II MEMORISE ALL AT ONE GO!!
II'm DYING!! GOD DAMN HELL!!
WAT'S THE PROBLEM WITH THE TWO TEACHER?
PUTTING TWO SUBJECT TAT WERE NEEDEDD TO BE MEMORISE
ON THE SAME DAY?
UU TELL MII!!! WALIAO EHX!!
WO HAO XIANG YAO SI DIAO LIKE TAT LIAO =x
now trying to let the lesson 1- 30 of the geo sink iinto my headd sia!! duno how sia, it's reali damn hard loo!! waliao ehx!! somemore my lit ii haven even startedd!! help mii arhx, ii'm nort gotta flunk any of them!! ii'm NORT GOTTA!! nvm ii bu hui ren shuu till the last min!!
ii gortta relax my mind for alittle while before starting my lesson 31 - 48!! hope ii can jiayou for iit bahx!! guess ii'm gotta study till 12 plus lerhx, before everything get into my mindd!!! jiu ming arhx!!!!!!! pplx gort anyway to let mii relax =x ii'm damn nervous now loo!! ii just hope everythingy go fine can liao =)) overall pass english pass i can HAPPY LIKE SIAO LERHX. jiu suan it's art class also nvm~ fan zhen ii prepare for it xD !! since the MANJUSRI doesn't have the subj ii wan which is double sci. den fine with it =x ii shall take up art class =)) since ii have no goals for it and doesn't even have passion for it. all BLAMES to the sch =x make mii lose my passion~ =x
fine with it liao larhx~ prepare for my WORST woohoo!! ii just dunwan to stay another year iin tis stupid sch +)) just let mii be larhx =x ii NEEDED pass and ii HAVE TO PASS =)) wish mii luck kies =)) exams is always so stress up one. somemore ii'm so WEIRD CAN!!! tml last paper liao, ii den get stress up!~ wat the heaven ~ dorts!! ii also BTH myself liao larhx.
dorts!~!!
oh ya just now with tianlong play maple, starting find him weird weird derhx =x den after get to noe him more find him actually he's a veri veri nice guy lo~ he arhx play boy lai ehx =x bth him sia, how mani ex also can forget~ den somemore longest onli 4 months and shortest onli 1 day!! dorts!~ he's reali POWER =x stlil rmb pri sch we always use POWER one =x we dun use li hai. we were once hot iin PRO~ like yangshu they all always say derhx " ii'm the PRO'' XD damn bth them loo~ den after tat jiu duno yy change to POWER POWER!! xD wo hai power ranger lehx =x no lahrx jkjk~
so actually he's aren't tat weird as ii thought ~ he's a veri nice guy =)) !! den him horr, bth him derhx lehx. cuz ii tell him mii and weirong stead onli 27 days, den ii veri jialat those loo~ den he still say nort bad wat, weirong my tu-dii uu noe! waliao bth him. his tu-di jiu make dao ii onli 27 days~ den later tu-di gort another tu-di bu shi every stead also 1 day =x go die larhx tat person =x fine bahx~ ii'm exhausted liao. the brain can't function properly lerhx, probably ii will go out have a walk loo before getting back my geo and lit =)) maybe ii shld tink iin a positive way horr =x 18 more lesson onli plus lit 5 topic xD !!! soemmroe lit onli 3 topic muz focus on~ den so it's actually aren't tat bad as ii thought larhx hor xD!! okay larhx stop here liao~
ii'm gotta take a walk outside liao. byebye nehx~
7:12:00 PM
TODAY THE PAPER 2 SUCKS!! waliao ehx, ii duno how to do the 10 marks question the wat stupid time larhx, crazy lehx!! waliao ehx. den d other ii also duno gort mistake anort, pray hard no mistake larhx. iif nort ii sure cry gei nii kan dao like siao arhx! MUZ PASS LARHX!! arghhh!!
northing much lerhx bahx, ii muz go get a rest first den laterr wake up study my lit iif nort now go eat alittle den laterr go study xD !! ii tink hai shi dun slp slp lerhx sure is 2 - 3 -4 hours den wake up =x woohoo enddedd lerhx =))
TML paper is HARD !! lit andd geo combine together on one day. can die sia ii tell uu!!
haiZz hope ii pass all loo ~ overall ii pass all II SURE HAPPY LIKE SIAO!!! sure treat myself with alot thing one xD !!! ehhhh ii suddenly gort the urge to do one new blogskin nehx. MARMIE ONE SO NICE!! she go blogskin find one !! nort fairr. nvm ii do one nicer than hers xD nenii nenii booboo~ xD fan zhen blogskin alot pplx can use together xD !! ii do myself more easy =x also wan do wat also can do wat. wan everythingy iinside also can =x it's MY CHOICE XD !! lalalait's gotta be a HAPPY BLOG OKAY!! XD hmm also northingy to say laio !! i wan slp liao how how how =x who can give mii a call after 1 hour =x aiya watever xD !!! ii wan slp but cannort!! ii muz ren ~ REN ~!!! wei lerhx tml last paper ~ REN!!
muz be determinedd okay xD !! ii'm lame~ toking to myself. DORTS!!!
omg =x ii found tat depression blogskin look nice lehx =x uu all go check out blogskins~ now their blogskin are improving =)) !! and depression skin are so nice !! aww~ okay finee~ ii dun wan write liao =x i go read my lit ~ BYEBYEX
maybe time for mii to let my heartx go,
rather than clinging onto a guy who isn't worth it =))
maybe maybe~ =))
11:49:00 AM
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
ii wonderr and ii wonder, which group will ii get iinto tis year again? who will ii be with tis year again? who will ii met during tis year again? who will ii play along with tis year again? who will be sitting with mii during the chanting tis year again? who will ii be doing my meditation with tis year again? will ii still be iin the group with, the uppekha pplx? orr will ii transfer to another group? will we stlil have our uppekha outing? or wat~ ii'm reali confusedd and ii'm reali looking forwardd.
will we zhun zhun be put together again? will jashawn still be the one who is pro iin the war game? will he still be my group? ii reali duno~ felt my head like bursting already. all the stress from the exams is so overwhelming and ii just so happen to go thru all tis photo.
mother cook steam boat todae. andd ii tink back as a child who dun eat alot of things. the tomato, the fish, the small corn, the vegetable. and now everythingy have changed~ ii have startedd eating those, andd still loving it alot. maybe there's alot of changedd iin mii just tat ii did nort foundd it. maybe ii had changed to a total different person? or am i a gurlx who hasn't changed just tat ii had taken the mask which ii have put on for so long? was ii tat type of gurlx?
i reali duno, ii dun wanna tink but it's like suddenly, everything changedd. the pplx ii mix with, the language ii speaking to my parents. sometimes ii even spoke profanity which ii dun last time. maybe, like wat my aunt had saidd, "everyone wuldd change during their repellious years, is just whether did they change alot or just alittle." maybe it's just one self who culd decide wat uu are heading for and wat road are uu taking.
maybe the things ii changed was a big wrong andd maybe the gurlx who ii use to be was another mistake. everything was wrong from the start. from the day ii was born till tis year which ii have spend 14 yrs andd 6 months. it's was all a mistake right from the start. ii duno yy, ii still have tis feeling going thru mii tat a mistake who have done culd nort go back, so uu just have to look forwardd. ii still do tat but sometimes ii tend to look backwards and tink. somethings ii have done was childish like the one when ii'm iin p2. the speech tat ii have written for the oral. it's regret andd now why am ii sitting here andd tinking back?
there's was one sentence ii wrote, we muz look forwardd and nort look back to regret. ii wasn't sure was it purely just a sentence ii writing from heartx or was it just wat ii have thought at tat time and just wrote it down.
somethings culd be right but ii turn iit into a wrong one. maybe the somethings ii still culd nort make out wat's tat but ii'm sure there's somethings. sometimes things that we handle have 2 roadd, iin a childish way or in a more mature thinking. but yet, ii keep repeating the same mistake ii have been taking since ii was born. ii take iit in a more childish way andd when ii realised it and tends to change it, everything have come to a point tat northing culd be settle anymore.
but iin every mistake ii took, ii learnedd a lesson from it. the more mistake uu have, the more lesson uu wuld gain. maybe ii wasn't like wat oldd folks were, who have alot of experience iin life. but ii knew that ii have at least partly of it. nevermindd tat ii was young, it's just the things uu wuld gain as every step uu take in life.
maybe life wasn't tat easy to handle nor was it so hardd. ii have been taking life so hardd tat ii culd hardly breathe and take it too easy like no one business. a neutral way to handle it might be the best to it, but ii still hasn't find the way for it. maybe, having a lesson thought wasn't tat badd at last. after all ii'm still a 14 yrs old kidd, who still have a long way to go. what for take things so hardd, and just alittle mistake made, ii take it like the world was gotta gone. afterall, ii'm nort the one who suffer too. there's are alot pplx who suffer andd even for the worst? there are still alot of pplx who are unfortunate, and here ii am. had everything ii wantedd andd yet ii was doing all tis stupid things.
wanlingx, it's time for a total change again. ii still culd nort figure wat ii reali want iin life and wat ii actually wan to be. maybe it's better tis way or worst? ii duno. somethings wasn't as difficult to handle. and truth wouldn't be always the best, because truth hurts. afterall, sometimes it's good to have urself iin trouble than pulling other with uu.
when we are having a rage of anger, we tend to have everyone's fault iin it but let's tink back, wat they actually have done for us. maybe it's better tis way? andd all tis tat have happenedd maybe for the better? who noes wat will happened in the future? At least, at least to the very least, ii have afew good friends who wuldd help mii changed for the better andd nort let mii hanging in the mid-airr who is dropping to the worst. they were the one who actually pull mii up from everything and when everythingy tat have gone wrong iin a sudden.
ii'm reali glad tat ii have them, ii wuldd definitely promise and ii swear to the buddha tat ii wuldd appreciate them till the endd. hmm maybe till the veri least like till we died? ii wuld always rmbedd them even after death. the thanks ii have for them culdn't come from any words nor speech. just a thankyou isn't enuff at all.
shall endd all tis bahx =))
a time for a change
but after exams larhx =x
no time to tink now =))
enddedd bahx.
just the same sentence
times to move on, we must move on.
if nort we will be still be the one who will lose out.
ALL this tat ii WROTE, wasn't pin-pointing to anyone.
it's just a moment of saddness iin mii =))
doesn't have any links to anyone.
it's arent any form of asking of sympathy.
but iif uu pplx out there wanted to tink tat.
ii have no words to say. life is abt making choice =))
uu choose iit, ii can't force uu =))
7:17:00 PM
