佘婉菱；我的世界；我的生活

Thursday, March 31, 2005

haiZz.. n0 one culdd give mii a purfect lifee..

a person wif a happy face at all times
might not be feeling de same in de heart.

tiis iis the sentence ii rmbb.. iit's exactly meaningful.. ii hate to be alone.. so wat.. ii need to learn iit now.. ii'm alone iin tiis pc wif no one to tok to... but exactly when ii was sad.. no one to confide too.. haha.. reali have to learn to be independent. =X not good to be too rely on somone though =D

ii wiish ii culdd lurve uu bi forever hai duo chu yi tian =D but ii now realise feelings do fade... =.=" ii rmb sayiing iit to muahself.. maybe ii lurve muah ex forever andd ii can't forget how.. -.-" but now ii realise feelings do reali fade.. but when uu see them again the feelings iis back... maybe ii'm the extra one... pplx culd forget their past so easily.. ii wonder how ii can't?

ii dun0 shldd ii live wiif all the lies all shldd shldd ii continue iit.. ii guess ii gotta watch uu fadde away from mii... everythingy faddiingg.. except one thingy tat nv fade.. iis the memoriess uu gave mii..

haiZz.. ii seems to be left alone.. well.. use to iit... last time they toking ii also left alone.... suan lerh bahh.. ii already sick of all tis loo.. life sux =D haha ii felt tat ii'm always relying on pplx when ii lonely.. sure got pplx sms mii or sms pplx de.. now cannot so baddie le.. cannot keep sms.. also cannot use pc too often.. soo.. tat muah life loo.. got abit use to loneliness le.. last time also whole day at home.. do nothingy den jiu read book all those le... den totally like tat spend whole day nehx.. who can like tat spend wif mii .. haha..

woohooooo ii'm so happi.. ii'm learning muah independent.. weeeee~ so iif ii dun haf him dun haf frens.. ii'm alone ii can get use to iit.. weee~ ii sure ii wuld lost all oof iit =D let's see bahh..

ii'm a impurfect gurl.. hate mii bah =D ii have nothingy tat is purfect.. =D changiing for the better le.. =.=" hope ii cheng gong bahh..

here's are the list tat ii wan dooo

* learn independent *
* change for the better *
* learn to let go when ii neededd*
* letting pplx happi first *
* nv scare of loneliness *
* treasure everythingy *

wooohoooo.... ii muz nehx.. muz muz muz... woohoo...

iif there somethingy iin the gurls mindd.. she wuld be veri quiet.. veri true nehx =X cuz tat wat ii have been doing. .=.="" but hope ii forever dou chao chao de.. cuz tat 's mi .. bleh =P uu can't change mii bleh =P hate mii for who ii am loo iif uu wan.. =P ii won't even care muchie le.. cuz tis world sux .. weee~ iii'm so lame keep write blog today..

muah hamster not lynette give de larr.. iis getting worst arrr.. the sickness like yue lai yue cham.. haiZz..

i L u r v e Y o u

6:51:00 PM

ii can't be putting muah happiness onto pplx saddness.. wat shldd ii do?

haiZz.. toldd uu all le.. dat day ii wasn't happi.. ii knew iit.. eveyrtime ii use to be happi and then something wuld crash on andd make mii sad all over again.. -.-" can ii just lead a hapii life. can anii one give mii those life.. ii reali hate muah self.. hate muahself for being so emotional.. hate muahself for being so useless...

dat day ii was toking to yeechean.. -.-" andd then weirongx go di siao.. say wat how mii andd matthew -.-" suan lerh bahh~ ii tinkk even though he say nv endd.. ii guess suan as end le bahh.. ii take as he break wif mii.. take as it's silent break.. ii dun wan to go on this life to be a part time steadd.. wat else can ii do?

alot of thingy ii guess ii dun feel like bringing iit up again.. =D let nature take course.. maybe find one day ii going over yeechean house see her baby brother =D wah sehh.. shou bu laio.. li hai nehx his mother. =X weirongx give birth on 20 march marr.. den his baby brother on 21 nehx.. shld same day mar.. can celebrate togetherrr.. weee~ save cake also.. but they still can celebrate together narh horr.. =X

woohoooo.. got alot thingy happening nehx.. well well well~ ii'm confuse looo... but who caress.. =x ii dun wan tink loo.. dou say liao let nature take iit coursee.. pplx say A like B.. =X well ii abit luan le.. but who cares.. at least not like last time wif qii they all de.. wat mo mo ren xi huan mo ren.. den mo mo 1 tell mii. den wat wat wat narh.. ii ownself dou luan le.. =X tat time so funn

and todae also quite fun narhh. got health screening mar.. den we go walk around gai gai =X wahahhaa.. walk every level. so funnn.. =X den walk to d and t block.. jiajia ask the teacher where's 2B den after tat walk here walk there.. =X so funn~ 2F nice nice =X all dun wan go back. .den all go gai gai .. =X den alot of time tat time the literature one.. =X teacher say got test.. den we bluff no test.. den alot of thingy we together say de.. SO FUNN~ but not funner than 1E.. =X 1e still rawks. .=X

den after tat nehx stay back do stupid lit narh. den after tat pei belle go rebond hair.. but aaa =X well still look nice when look infront.. but alittle bit damage nehx... the person say cuz too long neva cut le.. so confirm hui de..

woohoo.. ii guess ii shldn't online.. =X every time ii online.. somethingy ii wuldd see.. andd somethingy ii wuldd see liao andd sad de.. andd somethingy ii wuldd sureeeeeeee see le moodd totally change.. haiZz.. dou say liao alot thingy dun belong to mii.. ii can't be puting muah happiness onto pplx saddness.. ii can't be so selfish.. can ii? =X haiZz.. ii shldd leave alot thingy at a corner de.. ii mean ii shldd leave =D maybe one or another can't go back to the same.. but wat can ii help iit.... who cares le narhh.. told uu all le.. tis world dun belong to mii.. he dun belong to mii.. everythingy dun belong to mii. -.-" ii totally sick of tis world le.. weeeee~

ii'm not pessismictic wat ever ii duno how ot write narhh.. yenn jie dun worry narhh. =D ii'm just putting muah tot iin a way so tat ii'm prepare for all the endingg.. =D dun worry.. thankss for all those testii... *huggie*

woohoo dui horr.. ii updated muah album le.. did ii tell uu all ar =X go see bahh.. wee~

everythingy gottaa endded one day..
just one day.. =D
ii miss the timess...
nothingy culd turn back the time andd go back to last time..
ii wish the time culd stop andd leaving the two of us with out anyone iin iit..

so tat ii culd noe tat iin tis world everythingy belong to mii..
but reality iis cruel..
everythingy..
just doesn't belong to mii..
ii hate tiis worldd.

i lurve uu..

5:21:00 PM

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

iLu.iMu. uu'll always be iin muah heartx =D

weeee~ todae got hamsterr.. happi happi... zhun bei one call ham ham.. =X one call bacon.. =X no lar jkjk.. one call ham ham d other call mimi =X together call HAMI =D weee~ iis ii tink de.. cuz ii keep call them hamii marr.. den like tta lo.. shld call one zhu gong d other zhu po horr =X but hao xiang keepping jer andd ray leh =X wahahhaa =X shhhh =X hope they nv see tis.. bleah =P nii men yao zhe yangg..

weee~ lynette ii lurve uu.. weeee~ =x so good give mii hamster.. but nvm nvm. .at least ii get two hamster.. going to let them give birth duo duo =X den ii feed dao duo duo =X weeeee~ HAPPI SIA... weee happi happpi.. whoever wan hamii horr.. ask from mii.. ii mean wait got give birth cai can narhh.. woohooo a great prezzi tat lynette given mii.. =D thankss lynette. lurve uu to bits.. =X

woohooo so happi now haven birthday jiu get 2 prezzie le.. wahaha. =X firstly from kor kor =X rebonding... weeee~ lurve kor kor to bits.. secondd - lynettee =D hamiii.. both presents also ii lurve de.. thankss youuu.. =D woohooo friday got the wat meeting parents arr.. but bo bian muah papa muah mama not going.. onli left kor kor =X den muah second kor kor going loo.. weee~ see kan kan teacher say wat. i'm not afraid of teacher le.. although ii abit talktive narhh.. but WHO CARES bu yong jin de narh.. result good can laio =X but ii still not stafisedd =(( ii wan better mark lehh.. muah english fail also.. d other all passs.. weee~ happi...

wooohoo happi nehx... todae the happiest day.. bu guo ii heard from belle ii hao xiang allergy to hamii.. =(( now hamii wif priss.. =X cuz ii lazii bring back. tml den bring back narh. try ask pplx pei mii go home put.. weee~ ii lurve uu all.. weee~ happi sehh.. =X duno yy.. see whoo got time pei mii go home tml =)) WHO AR.. VOLUTEER PLS.. =X oops.. ii'm crazii.. oops ii haven tell muah mama ii having an pet.. iif she dun allow den after the ipw ii got to say byebye to hamii nnehx.. =(( haiZz.. BUT FOR NOW at least ii have them before than nv.. =D wee~~ ever first birthday so happi lehh...

woohooo.... andd hor tat stel horr.. a nice gurl nehx.. =D at least she didn't come mauh blog and di siao saio like some BO LIAO PPLX .. =X weee!~ did ii mention the name.. oops ii didn't ... wahahaa. .=X and todae horr at the wat arr.. recess horr.. SOME BO LIAO pplx also so BO LIAO nehx.. go shout at mii den still say wat diao shen mo diao.. UR MOTHER LAR.. who wan diao uu. pui pui pui =X uu dou bu chio gua uu zuo mo.. puii arr =X dabiann.. wan da wo zao ren lai da lar.. from last year until now onli noe how tto BO LIAO and make mii.. BO LIAO jiu shi BO LIAO.. at least ii'm a guai kia =X kk i'm bhb. but who cares =X

weeeeee~~ todae also a good day... ii miss uu so muchieeeee.. =D but heh heh.. ii shall not continue.. =x todae also upload a few pic to frenster le... go c bahh.. abit dabiaan narh. .but WHO CARES.. todae iis a day tat ii hack care pplx de.. =D nice day sehh. but todae just after recess iin the hall cryy~ =X dun wan tell uu all reasons lehh. NI MEN YAO ZHE YANG =X kk ii'm bo liao also.. BO LIAO GURL =X weee~ hamii hamiii ii lurve uu all =D btw horr.. ii reserve for pplx first arr..

the hamii baby horr when shun shun li li give birth horr..

1st. Pris
2nd. Qi
3rd. Potato
4th. Belle
5th. Diana muah twin =D

kk whoever wan zai man man fill up muah application =X wee~ jkjk narhh.. but see first larr.. cuz ii keepping the two female and male muah self also when got baby.. =X woohooooooo~ happi day.. =D no fan nao...

oh ya horr.. ke lian huiwen lehh.. she fainted.. =.=" ke lian ke lian *pat pat* just after birthday jiu like tat -.-" ke lian arr.. woohoo.. todae happiest day nehx.. let's see.. hmmm~ got wat hw todae arr. =X aaa.. todae starting PE.. den mathh.. den no hw mar.. den jiu recess. den english.. no hw also.. den jiu ipw. OH YA .. the typing.. kk ii do iit later.. hmm.. den jiu aaa.. =X CV.. -.-" dun say le.. stupidd de.. teaches us.. ahem.. -.-" BO LIAO NARH.. tis type of thingy all human also noe de narh.. wat iis wrong and wat iis right.. -.-" II OF COURSE NOE DE.. no need scare mii.. =D cuz ii wun do iit de.. =D tat muah principle lehh.. =X aaa. -.-" iis principle or value .. -.-" ahhh suan le.. =X

aaaa... ermmm.. aa. .OH YA sat also desmond birthday nehx =X ii mean muah cousin narhh. the D FAMILY =X weeee~ their family consist of all D =X

David - papa
Doris - mama
Debbie - first daughter
Diana - second daughter
Desmond - third son
Daisy - forth daughter

tell uu all liao D family =X wahahhaa.. but hope iit's wuld be fun day lo.. his gal gal horr.. wah seh chio sehh .. =X xian mu.. haiZz.. pplx jiu shi like tat... but who cares.. although ii'm not happi wif muah look.. at least for todae ii'm happi.. weee~ dun ever find anythingy to spoilt muah moodd. =X kkk.. but ii'm sadd~ he hao xiang bu li wo le.. =(( haiZz.. suan lerh.. todae cannot find anythingy spoilt muah mood kk =D ii finally one day happi lehh.. rmb rmb rmb.. dun hai mii horrr...

and thankss to michelle andd yvoone for so call " CONSOLING " mii when ii cry todae after recess.. cuz they two horr.. yi talk horr jiu hui luff dao pengz those de.. =X but they are cute are they.. =X =D uu all rawks too...

actually ii'm starting to lurve muah class.. 2F =D although iit's alittle boring.. but iit better tahn nothingy rite.. =X at least there's arent =X slut.. =X aren't bitches =X oops.. sorryy iif ii say some bad word =X wooho 2F rawks andd 1E rawks too.. =D ii lurve uu all.. =D sad memories gotta be a past loo.. ii wan be back mauhself -.-" aa cannot lar.. last time de mii veri sad sia -.-" cannot cannot.. ii wan be new. weeee =D hope for the better nehx.. =D ii lurve uu all.. everyone nehx =D lurve ya... including uu =D mmuackks all...

ii lurve uu blehh =P nothingy can change the facts..

4:46:00 PM

Monday, March 28, 2005

birthday coming loo..

ermmm. todae huiwen birthday.. ii wish her happi birthday bah.. -.-" kan kan muah birthday still a few days more nehx.. so siannn... ii see shanyuan nick horr. 18 days more to his birthday.. den his birthday on 15 april same wif kokwei -.-" den horr.. tat mean horr.. 18 - 2 = 16.. wahahahaa.. SHANYUAN UU KAN DAO LE MAR. II FASTER.. bleh!!! =P chii chu marr =X =.=" but also nothingy cuz ii maybe not celebrating or wat.. who cares~ =X bu guan bu guan.. woohooo todae lynette say muah birthday wan give mii hamster nehx =X den one gurl one boy.. lynette ii lurve uu .. =X woohoo ii'm opening a pet shop now .. iif ii breed cheng gong horr =X one sell for 5 dollar =X jkjkjk =x maybe ii give one to qii one to bell one to potato.. see they still wan anot narh. .den lynette dun worry uu sure got urs one .. =X

for pris nehx.. =X pris suan laio.. ii dun wan tell uu =X see qii and ii de decision loo =X weee~ =X wahaha =X ii'm lame.. zhong zhi jiu shi horrrr... weeee! happi sehh.. present got live thingy nehx.. better still de hua give dog narh =X jkjkkjkjk.. veri ex nia.. SO HAPPI!~! but shuo zhen de muah house zhen de pet shop le -.-" got bibi.. got hamsterrr.. got alot fish duno how mani.. at least 20+ bahh.. den now got 2 more hamster den wan breed somemore =X..

last time ii breed dao got 20++ lehh. abit scary narhh =X but quite okay narh.. cuz tat time stil small mar.. bu dong shii.. yang so muchie zuo mo -.-" will hai si them jiu you.. cuz they fite or wat marr.. so now hai shi bu yao yang tai duo... ii keep the parents and the child one gurl one boy can liao.. they dun so early give birth narh.. dun hai mii arr.. later parents give child also give birth. den ii jiu muz say II WAN DAN LE =X but WHO CARES.. ii still lurve animals.. specially those got fur de.. weee~ =X uu all rawks.. bibi uu rawks.. =D

weeeeeee~ ii miss uu =X de*** ar where are uu now arr. =X lalala~ shall not continue =X bleh =P weeee~ animals animals wo lai ye.. weeeee~

ii'm crazii..

iLu.iMu

8:13:00 PM

Sunday, March 27, 2005

times went so fast~

woohoo time went so fast~ iit been 2 yrs since ii stead wif weirongx.. haha but break le =X muz rmb tis date de. cuz first lurve =X... haha miss those days before stead sia.. ii rather be frens den be stead -.-" dabian one.. like tat jiu lost one close frens le.. -.-"" iin just one min time... but haha.. ii still treasure iit.. bu guan nehx =X sweet memories always remain.. bleh =P

last time tat march holiday. we keep meet each other those lo.. tat time iis 17 march we go out bahh.. iif ii nv rmb wrongly =X den after tat jiu keep come muah house until the 19 march bahh.. cuz he go chalet marr. 20 iis his birthday marr.. den after tat tink go le den after tat jiu abt after afew day he come muah house again lo.. cuz come play muah pc mar -.-" quite lame but fun narh.. den after tat we two keep play tat vos lo.. see who win =X den play those few song lo.. xin tai luan den wat right here waiting for uu =X

den after tat duno on 26 march say wat 27 no need go sch -.-" cuz of sars holiday marr.. den after tat jiu we tok on phone till midnite loo.. =X den muah papa larr scold scold scold chao si ren =x den in d end hang up lo.. den ii jiu go lie on bed le.. weee~ =X den after tat say hao sms de.. den in d endd =X he ask stead.. den ii hen stupid lehh -.-" say wat give one min tink.. hao bai chii.. -.-" one min ii neve tink sia.. ii down there slp le -.-" cannot take it narh.. so late at nite le.. 2 - 3 am lehx.. yao wo min arr.. den after tat jiu like tat slp lo den his sms xia dao wo.. den ii wake up lo.. den jiu like tat stupidly reply him yes -.-" dabian narhh.. like tat in one min time jiu lost one close frenz le lehh.. gou da bian de -.-"

den after tat he go his cousin house lo.. -.-" den we contact thru sms de... den like tat like tat cuz he keep play diablo marr.. den ii bu xiang fan dao him.. so bu xiang sms too muchie.. den he horr.. like owl like tat nehx .. morning slp all the way till nite den wake up play diablo.. den ii jiu pei him go on his owl life. .-.-" ii morning nv slp narh. .but got afew hoourr.. den nite nv slp all the wayyy.. -.-" dabian de..

den jiu like tat like tat in d endd thursday he come muah house.. den tat last time he come le.. ii keep got 6th sense going break le.. in d end sch reopen.. den first day he nv come sch den ii jiu sms him lo.. in d end got reply.. second day onward nv reply le.. den mauh birthday he also forget.. jialat sai.. den in d end 18 april break den somemore is good friday.. dabian de.. zhen hui xuan ri zi. stead and break got holiday one -.-"

den after tat jiu he pon sch lo pon dao june .. den he come back.. but somedays he still pon iit.. den got one time ii mistaken he andd mable. den ii was like so sad lo.. den he come say he and mable mei shen mo -.-"" cuz tat time iis duno wat narh.. tink is they got soccer we got captain ball bahh.. the competition.. den jiu like tat like tat lo. den after sch le.. ii go down the canteen.. den after tat down there lie on the table lo.. the second row de =X near the carpark.. den down there going cry liao.. den duno he andd cheston suddenly sit behindd mii andd laykheng.. cuz poeifang down there duno tok to who.. den laykheng watching lo.. den ii down there sad sad~ -.-" den after tat jiu he suddenly say wei! wo he mable mei shen mo de -.-" den after tat ii still abit sad marr... den suan le.. in d end jiu like tat lo... shuo zhen de after break we two like nv tok muchie le..

den ii always stay at the koi pond iif not on the second floor tat linkway look at him playing bball.. =X den always wish he score.. weee!! haha.. hao hui xiang those days worZz.. always same de.. same ending for the day.. den sometimes rachel jie will help mii lo.. so call help mii narh.. cuz iis like ask him go out buy icecream den also ask mii along -.-" but sometimes ii reali abit like jealous or hate rachel =x cuz from her way of toking.. abit like yao ask mii go there jealous her de -.-" dabian ..

but anywhere quite okay narh.. iit's past =D den after tat jiu like tat like tat loo... den tat time graduation day marr.. cuz iis like going end le.. everythingy lo.. den in d end when sch reopen ii still see him in bugis weee =X den jiu like tat lo.. every nite we got conference lo. but now stop le narhh. den jiu like tat like tat lo... dne until nowaday den abit can let go de =X dun ever zai say anythingy le =x later go one big round back to him again.. ii bu yao le.. so cham de.. =X cuz keep see him wif gurls all those jiu jialat le =X kk ii endd here loo.. =X weee! ii'm madd..

11:26:00 AM

aaa.. anonymous?

ermmm.. aaa who is anoymous arrr.. btw horr.. ii sux they are not sux. see ii so good to uu specially type one entry for uu tis wu liao pplx =X who tell uu so bo liao come muah blog write thing.. -.-" so call uu wu liao lo.. since ii also wu liao ii pei uu play dao di loo.. bleh =P andd horr they not sux horr.. rmb iit.. those sux pplx are pplx tat are bo liao.. get it =D ii shall end muah short msg here .. =X good bye..

11:05:00 AM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

weee~ went out today wif qii

woohoo todae early 9.3o wake up le.. den go bathe den make muah hair den pack thingy den jiu wait time go sia.. so long de.. -.-" dabian nia.. den after tat zhong yu dao le den ii go wear shoe den go out of house le.. den in d end when ii at bugis de door outside there bu shi got write left how mani min lo.. den there write wat arrived -.-" qi si wo le. so zhun nia.. den after tat go wait lo.. den shun bian make make muah clothes.. den after tat zhong yu come le.. den go find qii lo.. wah sehh chio bu jiu shi chio bu nehx she.. wear dao so nice.. wooho.. den after tat go library lo.. ii return muah book den go find afew book =X those lurve story narh.. =X xi guan jiu hao narh uu all..

den after tat sit down do hw.. wah seh sian sia.. dabian de homework.. so tao ren yan.. -.-" den after tat jiu in do lo bo bian marr.. den after tat do finish ii go scan muah book den we go le.. den zhun zhun tat time we go de shi hou rain.. -.-" DABIAN LO!! den after tat jiu run lo.. den in d endd abit smaller le tat rain.. so good nia.. =X den after tat halfway thru saw sze hui.. den after tat say hi le den hi5 le jiu go liao.. =X den after tat go wait for train de shi hou.. AGAIN arrived -.-" DABIAN NARH.. den after tat we go tat shop tat inside the mrt de.. den go in buy chocolate loo... =X

den after tat go bugis lo. den at first wanna cut fringe de.. in d end tink tink tink.. hai shi dun dare leh.. bu she de nehx =X den after tat go walk walk walk.. den saw alot clothes nia. =X ii bu guan ii wan buy on monday.. =x dun care lar horr.. =X den shun bian got ahem present we wan buy... den after tat jiu see see den go bugis play arcade... den walk walk den go back tink yao bu yao cut fringe.. in d end nv le.. den say wat wait for muah kor kor de gf.. =X ii wan see his gf nia.. den zai ask her see kan kan how she tink =X iif not ask kor kor lo.. iif not ask kor kor cut le.. =x who tell him is his money marr.. so let him how cut also nvm de.. =x

den after tat jiu go buy clip lo.. den walk walk walk den go temple bai bai den after tat go muah house le.. go read magazine nia.. =X den after tat saw alot clothes nice nice nia.. -.-" dabian de lo.. =X bu yong jin.. fan zhne muah magazine outdated le.. =X wahahhaa.. den after tat play wif muah bibi.. den suddenly yeechean call mii.. -.-""" den after tat ask mii go meet her.. den ii ask got who lo... den yuan lai got muah mummy =X den after tat jiu okay lo go meet.. den ask qii pei mii go.. den we down there keep find her find bu dao.. den sua le.. ii zhi jie go gai gai liao =X go walk walk.. den see here see there.. den de sky like so dark. xia dao mii.. so after tat jiu pei qii go see mama come le mar.. den after tat ask her pei mii go dao traffic light =x

but in d end papa haven reach home hai mii so gan .. dabian de.. -.-" den after tat jiu kor kor go out lo.. den ii use pc.. weeee~ but no one online.. SIAN SIA.. dabian de.. den after tat jiu like tat like tat =X zhong zhi jiu shi like tat like tis lo.. got pplx online narh.. but in d end all offline -.-" SO SIAN.. left tat kokweii. but he say wat he on flight.. dabian narh bu yao pian wo =X weee!~ ii hen cong ming de kk. =X jkjkjk.. den after tat jiu blar blar blar.. den jiu got pplx sms mii lo.. like tat lo.. end of story.. =X jkjkjk.. veri sian leh now.. sianedd~ =X weeee~

woohoo wo yao update muah multiply.com le.. go see bahh.. weee~ but haven update narh going er yi.. =X kk ii stop here lo. todae blog long nehx.. weeeee~~~

pic pic pic =X ii'm coming.. blehh.. but ii veri lazi update lehh.. but bo bian narh.. =X wooohooo.. ii tink ii other day cai update .. =x weeeee tml 27.o3 wr wr wr =x who cares .. =X tink he also forget loo. dabian . =x who cares lan de li him..

OH YA HOR.. ii todae saw jiawwenn.. den she become so cute liao and chio.. so stylo those lo.. but alittle bit vulgar =X but in fact ii feel she quite okay narh. still got the good heartx =X andd hor =X wahahaa.. =X ii ask alot thingy narhh.. but bleh =P onli qii and mii noe.. qiii uu better dun say out.. weee~ wahahaa.. jiawen uu rawks.. stay cute and chio nehx.. woohooo..

.iLu.

8:21:00 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005

haiZz.. da0 dii iis wat happeniing?

woohoo 27 march iis the first time ii stead nehx =X wif weirongx lo.. haha.. miss the times sia.. but suan le.. onli can treasure the sweet memoriess.. bleh =P but suan le.. dun tink le.. later ii like him back =X scary de leh.. at first zhi shi tot woohoo ii like other le.. wee~ but in d end -.-" go one big roundd back to him again.. -.-"""

hmmm.. got a few date muz rmb lehh. wait ar ii muz write down =X
27 march o3 ( steadd wif weirongx )
18 april o3 ( he break wif miii -.-" )
18 Oct o3 ( steadd wif matthew )
3 june o4 ( patch? wif matthew )
18 dec o4 ( matthew sms mii -.-" )
3 Feb o5 ( Promise )

blehh =P gou bo liao horr.. =X wah seh alot thingy happen on 18 leh -.-""" 18 w0 yong yuan ai nii =X jkjk..

haiZz.. duii bu qii ii abit regret saying those sia.. but suan le.. she chio she good she nice she everythingy also got.. like tat gen hao le when uu have her =X siince she ha0 xiang also like uu.. ii ye bu guan le narhh... duii bu qii~~ andd ii wan say somethingy.. uu can't trust two the gurl the most at the same time de... duii bu qii~~ ha0 aii nii bu gu0 suan le bahh.. -.-" ya0 kaii xiin yii dian le.. bu nengx shed anii tears.. -.-"" bu gu0 wei shen m0 tears still dr0p -.-"

haiZz.... although we 5 together le.. but haiZz.. ii dunno le narhh.. ii also bu xiang zai guan liao.. yao break uu all break bahh... potato... iif uu feel like breaking iit jiu break bahhh... ii noe uu all tiredd le.. uu all jsut wan to dun wan break cuz uu all scare us angry or wat.. dun scare narh -.-" break er yi mar.. angry zuo mo -.-" crazii meh.. -.-" fan zhen dou say le ii in tis world so shii baii.-.-" but dun worry narh.. dun care mii narh. go on wif ur decision .. =D

weii shen m0 aii nii na me xiin ku.. zhen tiian dang xiin zhe dang xiin na de.. haiZz.. always see other gurl flirtiing uu... uu tiink ii ha0 sh0u marr.. suan le bahh.. nii shii bu huii liao jie de.. andd fr0m w0 kan de d0ng xii andd tiing da0 de.. alreadyy zhen ming yi qie lo0.. duii bu qii ii always say duii bu qii.. andd dui bu qii ii always make uu put up wif muah anger -.-" duii bu qii ~

never say uu lurve mii when uu dont
never say forever becuz iit make mii cry..
ii'm tiredd of all thingys
yy iis tis world so complicated..

ii'm just wanntedd be a simple gurl
wif a carefree life
but everythingy ii do
just a wrong wrong wrong wrong

haiZz bu xi guann entry so short nehx -.-" suan le ii type tong hua =X

ni ku zhe dui wo shuo
tong hua li dou shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
zhong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong
xin xin dou liang le

wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou fu nii
ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men gu shi hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie qu

nii ku zhe dui wo shuo
tong hua li dou shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
zhong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong
xin xin dou liang le

wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xinag xin xiang xin wo men gu shi hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie qu

wo yao bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xinag xin xiang xin wo men gu shi hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie qu

wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xinag xin xiang xin wo men gu shi hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie qu

yi qi xie wo men de jie qu

heh heh =X infront still got a few narh.. but ii lazi write.. =x cuz ii listen le den keep type de.. imagine nehx -.-" use one song hand type like the speed of tat song leh -.-" still muz faster iif not cannot finish one sentence =X

haha.. say reali ii dun believe fairy tales le.. cuz fairy tales arent real.. they say wat the prince and princess wuld live happi ever after.. haha in real life which pplx won't quarrel.. so mani pplx break up -.-" haha tat yy ii dont take sweet talks. blehh =P ha0 jia worZz when guys say let uu live like in the fairy tales.. *smash* bleh =P smash uu all the tot narh.. -.-" ben dan den will believe.. =X sorry ar gurls iif some of uu all believe =X kk ii dun wan say xia quu loo...

gou long liao marr =x xi wangg everythingy wuldd come to an happi ending =D including him worZz.. =X��kk endd loo.. blehh =P lazii write le.. byebye take care nehx..

saddness fill muah air..n0 matter wat ii still lurve uu .. goodd bye =D

7:42:00 PM

short entry.. blehh =P

hihi!!! haiZz.. siann noe yue lai yue du0 thingy le.. weee~ siian andd horr pplx arrr.. hen fan lehh stop telling mii wat alex like qii larr.. bu guan wo de shi can anot.. no need repeat and repeat de.. -.-" wu liao de.. he andd mii guan wo shen mo shii.... -.-"

anddd. de*** suan le bahh.. bu yong zai pian wo le.. =D from wat ii see andd hear.. ii can prove tat muah zhi jue iis correct.. dun ever care me le bahh.. care her can le.. =D ii cheng quan uu two.. jia you worZz.. =D good luck~

2:40:00 PM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

everythingy change~

20 march.. weirong andd jun nan birthday. happi birthday =D zhang da le worZz.. dun so childish arr =X

ermm... haiZz.. nowaday reali veri confuse.. ii duno ii duno ii duno... eveyrthingy change.. everythingy drift apart.. he drift.. muah frenz drift.. everythingy.. haiZz.. i'm tired of all thingy le.. perhap perhap ii shldd gone cuz everythingy wuld be simple andd ii doesn't have to tink.. haiZz.. i'm so tiredd.. haiZz.. sux sux sux tis world sux.. ii dun reali feel like living aniimore.. when ii alone ii tink so muchie yet i have no one to confide to.. ii'm so shi baii.. so so so shii baii.. ii found out somethingy but ii dun wan to write down here.. perhap muah 6th sense wuldd cum true.. ii told him sure one.. just one day =D maybe the sense iis coming true now.. ii'm leaving le.. ii'm leaving everythingy.. ii dun wan to get involve in anythingy.. perhap ii maybe sadd but ii have no choice.. ii rather ii suffer than other..

pls pplx just hack care mii iif ii suddenly drops tears.. cuz ii just can't take iit aniimore.. iis so pressurize.. everythingy de everythingy.. ii seems to lose everythingy iin just a few days time.. ii wish ii wuld gone from tis worldd.. maybe tis iis a early departure but who cares.. no one wuld care though.. maybe ii won't care tis blog animore le... cuz ii a no one to everyone.. pplx wont care pplx won't tag.. dun pity mii.. ii dun need any pity... ii hate pplx ii hate everythingy.. everythingy seems so sux to mii.. sorry iif ii suddenly hate uu cuz iis not uu ii hate onli.. iis everythingy.. live for the sake of living wat for.. ii'm tiredd.. dun feel like living already.. when everythingy just crash on mii andd everythingy seems so hard to settle andd ii dun feel like settle iit aniimore..

they say dying is not the way out but hey iis the way to get out of them.. at least when uu die uu won't need to care so muchiee... yy shldn't pplx jsut live for awhile and die.. they always say live are short.. are they.. no is not.. iis so long ii dun feel like living aniimore.. maybe iif ii still have few more years to go.. ppls godd add muah number of years to the pplx ii lurve.. ii wan them to be hapi... iit just seems iis mii tat cause everythingy to turn out like tat.. maybe maybe ii'm the one to leave.. ii'm the one who can't take all tis.. so wat for ii stay.. ii just be a burden to pplx.. iis just so badd lo.. ii dun wan to have ani retribution..

pplx hate mii and ii noe tat.. iis like those pplx bei bei or wat larr.. those weiyi those .. ii noe iit.. uu all hate mii rite.. continue.. xiang yu too.. iif uu read tis continue hate mii.. ii dun care le.. just hate mii bahh.. continue =D ii won't angry or wat de.. continue say mii wat er xin.. ii noe le.. eveyrthingy.. =D say bah say ii rebond er xin say say say.. just as muchie as uu can.. =D thankss
ii shldnt come into this world iin the first place.. ii have been crying so muchie when ii alone.. ii'm tired of those tears.. yy does iit come out so easily.. ii have been tinking so long ii can't slp at nite.. ii reali duno wat to do le.. reali.. who can tel mi wat to do.. wat shld ii do? cann? yy do pplx keep say put urself in muah shoe.. who put theirs in mine?

abt de*** the more ii dun wan say le... drifting apart le... ii seems to do nothingy.. so muchie to worry.. andd ii noe alot of thingys le... tell uu all le muah sense are getting so true ever since so mani thingy happens.. ii noe iit muahself.. andd ii just duno how to tell pplx.. iis just seems so secretive to lurve someone.. maybe everythingy wuld come to an endd.. happi memories will be in muah heartx bahh.. sweet memories always stay.. same goes as muah frens..

ii'm getting attitude every where.. ii'm tired of all tis.. when can pplx let mii off.. suan le ii dun need ani pity.. gooddd bye bahh.. =D rmb iit sweet memories still stay =D ii'm fading from everyone.. drifting apart from everyone.. ii'm just a burden to uu all.. just hate mi bahh.. ii won't cause anithingy to uu all animore le...

ii believe 03.04.05 ther's somethingy wuld happen.. ii duno yy just feeling iit.. hope nothingy bad happened.. pls.. haiZz..

bye pplx.. zai jian..

6:58:00 PM

Friday, March 18, 2005

wo bu zhi dao le.. ha0 lei

ii'm reali in a dilema.. reali.. dao di who is at the rite and who is at the wrong ii totally duno le.. ii lost muah ground le.. ii kai shi abit tong qing herr.. actually ii reali bu dong le.. ii use to push all the blame on herr.. ii use to tink iis her who wan us to break up iis her who trying to make the history repeating.. but now after everything.. ii feel i'm wrong.. iif reali break no one can make us break unless we choose tat path de..

ii'm confuse zhen de hao confuse worZz.. you shui neng help wo..

ii still rmb those times tat ii was reali so lonely.. no one noe the feeling lo... except mii andd qii.. it's always we two.. reali you nan tong dang you fu tong xiang le.. -.-" but ii'm tinking will everythingy be back... haiZz. ii bu dong zhen de bu dong.. iis she acting pity or iis iit her true feeling.. haiZz.. iif iit's her true feeling and ii treat as she acting pity andd ii reali say wrong le.. iif she acting pity andd ii tot iis her true feeling andd ii'm wrong again..

dao di yy everythingy have to repeat.. yy good thingy dun go back.. yy always bad thingy repeating iitself .. by iitself? ii dun wan another conflict ii dun wan anithingy le.. i jsut now went to read muah past memories.. iit's reali scary zhen de hen scary.. ii still rmb how ii being alone wif qii those.. den down there every day cry those.. zhen de hen lei nehx..

iif reali choose wrong path and we u turn back to last time... how ? wat will happened? again those backstabbing.. and ii still sha sha de down there tot they are innocent.. ii forgive le... ii trying to forget.. but yet everythingy seems still stuck in muah head.. ii wanna get iit off but iit's seems so hardd.. ii can forgive but ii can't forget.. wat actually wil happenedd.. ii reali can't imagine.. ii reali dun wan tink.. but yet everythingy wan a reason andd ii trying to find out the reason where we wrong where we go wrong and everythingy..

ii dun wan to lose tis frenship.. zhen de.. iits seems like so hardd to hold on tis frenship.. ii reali duno who have been muah back saying mii and backstabbing mii le.. tired iis the word ii can say le.. just hope muah frenship won't lost in somewhere.. ii dun wan.. andd pls pplx let us off.. bu guan iis who bu yao zai make tis frenship going up down up down.. so mani problem to handle.. ii guess one day ii reali wuld die.. or wuld go crazii.. ii'm done wif all tis problem le.. and everythingy seems to be upbring problem again.. haiZz.. ii can't stand le... frens? wat are frens for?? iis always going thru muah headd.. dao di ii shld believe who.. ii wan tink no more le..

dao di iis who sufferingg.. us or other or onli mi? where's the forever gone to ? they always say no matter wat onli frens won't go apart.. but iit seems haiZz. ii dun wan go on le.. tears coming alreadyy... ii already promise muahself not to shed ani tears animore.. but iit seems..........

iit just seems ......................

so hardd~

7:42:00 PM

ha0 siian arr.. say abt ytdd.. =X

ytdd woohoo.. btw horr ii 14/o3 muz say yi xia.. ii use tis blog for one year lo.. weee~ =X ii won't change diao de.. don't worry muah dearr blog.. =X

ermm ytdd ar wake up tok tok tok tok tok chat online.. den wait for laykheng come marr.. den after tat 2++ she come le.. den ii pei her tok awhile kor kor come back le.. den he wan use pc den ii go get clothes den go pom pom le.. den after tat jiu comb hairr.. =X ii scare muah hair sia.. keep qiao de.. tao yan si le.. =X woohoooo..

den after tat sit down and tok abt those pplx.. lydia ting ting and alot alot. poeifang. cheston those lo.. den after awhile jiu go bugis walk le.. den so scary leh.. we saw ting ting and lydia nehx.. den those pplx we say de at first except poeifang all see sia.. scary =X ting ting so tall le.. she still the same old her.. so cute andd nice.. den after tat nehx... we just walk out of the air con place at the mac there .. den suddenly saw cheston le.. so immediately sia.. jian gui! =X

den after tat jiu like tat lo.. ii go down play rockfever.. haiZz.. muah skill jialat le.. -.-" hate muahself.. den ii also dun wan wei le skill lan er lan fei money go train mar =X siao meh. den after tat go walk another place den walk walk den after tat laykheng need go le.. cuz go ah ma house marr.. den after tat pei her dao bus stop den ii jiu go le.. woohoo den go home cannot use pc.. cuz second kor using. den after tat first kor come back the more ii cannot use -.-' den jiu like tat lo.. forget after tat ii do wat le.. ii zhi zhi dao ii going slp le.. keep close eye. in d endd -.-"ii ask muah self do hw in d end wish alex happi birthday guo hou ii jiu zhi jie slp le -.-" jialat sia. -.-"

den todae wake up got dexter sms mii nia -.-' jian gui le.. he dou nv sms mii de.. but ii nv reply =x he horr like gui like tat leh everytime midnite sms de.. tis time he 2am den sms mii leh.. ii dou slp le =X but who cares. later go reply him can le lo..

aniwhere it's alex birthday todae.. ii shall wish him happi birthday to uu!!

happi birthday to uu. happi birthday to uu. happi birthday to uu.. happi birthday to uu!!!
muz make wish horr =X rmb rmb.. good luck for everythingy andd happi for all ur life.. =D stay cheer.. =D dun worry abt other narh.. kai xin kai xin.. =D

11:37:00 AM

Thursday, March 17, 2005

woohoo ytdd bahh

ermm ytd go sch wait for qii den nv come.. den pplx come keep ask -.-" ii rebond hair arr.. -.-" den after tat jiu go for test.. thankks for miss lau nehx at least nv force mii tie high and pin up.. den after tat jiu go liao go mac tok tok tok.. den wei kai pass the bubble gum.. den after chithao come back down there chao chao chao.. den we all nv eat le den pass back.. sorry arr.. den after tat we jiu go down cuz qii wan take money marr.. den after tat we go back lo. den ii buy one milo. den we jiu go liao.. stupidd de forget bring muah ez link .. den need pay for bus fare. dabian de.. stupidd de..

den after tat they go play lan le. den we go le lo.. take bus to east coast.. den after tat at mac change den go play rollar blade le... woohooo ii got jin bu liao.. weee~ den after tat ii fall down wif priss.. sorry lehh priss hai uu.. uu got licsense one ii no licsense de.. =X dabian narh.. den sorry leh. den after tat tat rollar blade hai pris leg the skin like going off like tat.. den after tat jiu sit here sit there buy slurpee.. den after tat go drink and sit down lo. got one guy veri funni lehh.. keep fall de.. his fall veri funni de.. iis like jump qi lai den fall de.. den after tat he go back change to bike lo.. den we also finish drinking so go the beginner there play go take pic those lo.. den after tat jiu go back return le.. den we go walk parkway awhile.. there got pet shop.. OMG OMG OMG.. ii wan pet.. ii wan tat dog.. but cost 1260 lehh .. wah sehh.. tat doggy so active so cute so white so NICEEE.. omg ii'm madd =X sorry arr cannot bring mii to pet shop de.. cuz ii will be totally crazii abt iit de. =X tat yy muah house so mani pet marr.. last time even more. .but all old le den byebye lo.. haiZz.

den down there play play den mama call hai ii muz leave tat shop.. so she bu de.. haiZz.. den after tat go buy drink den go take bus.. stupidd de take wrong side =X den endded up in bedok interchange.. -.-' den after tat go take mrt lo.. den when reach aljunieedd le.. pris sy go home.. den ii ask her come in.. den she say she jump in den after tat jump out jump in jump out lo.. so cute sia her.. den after tat qi pei mii go eat wif mama.. den ii go buy thingy den we go buy bag lo.. same bag.. nice nehx.. can bring to sch iif not muchie book .. woohoo den after tat jiu like tat lo.. den she go home den after tat ii go home.. haiZz..

ii stil hate muah hair.. yue see yue weird -.-" wan dan le..ii feel like changing hairstyle le.. -.-'' but kan xian narh.. tink give mii one month bah.. iif still weird ii go change le.. ii see like too mature le narh -.-" wan dan le..haiZz.. suan le..

Blehh =P outsider uu all duno so dun readdd.

haiZz de***, yy ii feel like we are not like the past aniimore le.. haiZz... haiZz... ha0 xiangg drift apart le.. haiZz.. ii ha0 shii baii.. everythingy also drift apart.. haiZz... gan jue seems so far nehx.. everythingy seems different le... haiZz.. ii duno yy.. just the feeling tat everythingy hao xiang bu shi yi qian le.. ii zhen xi wang we can go back to last time.. hui da0 c0ng qiann.. haiZz.. but reality is cruel de.. nothingy can go back de.. haiZz..

wei shen m0 eveyrthingy like tat de.. ii ha0 shii baii zhen de hao shi baii.. aii yi ge ren ha0 tong ku arr.. -.-" wei shen m0!! haiZz.. ha0 aii nii arr.. seems yue lai yue far liao le.. can't catch up le... ha0 xin ku arr... zhen de ha0 aii nii... suan le.. tink nii yue bu hui zhi dao bahh.. hai shii an an de xi huan cai hao... at least ii bu hui jue de ji mo or wat de.. haiZz... tink got 1 month le bahh since we so "close" haiZz.. hao lei worZz. bu guo wo hai shi yao xi huan nii.. =P bu guan narh.. haiZz.. reali felt so empty wif out uu.. haiZz... suan lerh bahh.. zhe shi fate.. haiZz..

w0 aii nii.. nii zhi da0 marr.. haiZz. i shi bu hui dong wo de xin de.. haiZz~

11:12:00 AM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

stupidd de todae go take neoprint.. ii look so omg! =X

stupidd de.. todae morning see alot msg.. one from de***.. =X d other ermmm .. -.-" forget le.. ii tinkkkk ermmm... qiii bahh.. denn ermmm.. -.-" ermm -.-" ermmmmmmm!!!! ii wang ji le narh -.-' den after tat jiu reply lo.. den in d end veri lame de.. ii go find qii they all.. den take neoprint.. quite fun narhh.. keep alot pose.. =X

pris ar priss.. ur hair nice narhh!!!!! iis nice loo.. muah hair sux narh. .no need an wei mii.. ii zhi shi jue de neater duo le.. bu guo BU HAO KAN =X den after tat jiu play here play there walk here walk there in d end 1 hour dao le ii go home loo.. so sian.. den go home eat eat eat.. play pc lo.. so sian! bahhahaa.. at first kor kor can't connect nehx.. boo de ! den ii go connect jiu connect liao.. wahahhaa. =x tiis one is call luckyy.. =X tyco de =X den after tat jiu like tat like tat play play dao now lo.. den just now amanda come pei mii go buy batt.. den saw muah hair -.-" say fringe bu hao kan.. ii dang ran zhi dao. got hole dui mar =X stupid narhh.. tao yan si le.. ii hope muah hair nicer leh =X

wah seh todae post so short ar =X.. suan le bu yong jin ii go make longerr.. bleh =P

ermmm..

like tat lar -.-" OH ii xiang dao liao kkk write msg.. =X

De***

blehh =P wahaha.. bu guan uu got see anot narhh.. btw tat tagboard zhen de uu arr. =.=" =X bu guan narhh.. uu jiu uu.. bleh =P misss uu nia.. 1 week no need see le.. weeee~ =.=" jkjk =X 1 week nv see sian liao.. wahaha =X but bu yong jin narhh.. at least can treasure last time marr.. won't go forget last time.. wahaha. =.=" ii bu dong ii writing shen mo nehx.. -.-" suan le.. zhong zhii ii miss uu!!!!!!!

Priis

UR HAIR NICE NARH.. go straighten den best le.. iif uu wan straighten ask mii go nehx =x ii wan seeeee.. =X prisss arr.. hope uu hui zhao dao ur true lurve =D hao hao treasure him and he hao hao treasure uu.. =D den live happily ever after .. =D jia you nehx!! i'm sure uu will find dao de. =D

Qii

Qii ar!! ur hair not look likke tat gal narhh.. iif pplx say de hua means they jealous marr.. jealous uu chio jealous ur hair jealous u rebond jealous ur money.. jealous u rich.. jealous uu nice jealous everythingy oof uu jiu shi le narhh.. dun care wat pplx say narhh.. they bo liao pplx =X bu guan.. =X

BELL!

bell arr long time no see le.. feel so weird =X wahahhaa.. uu anddd tat guy got contact mar =X wahahha bu guan le.. short msg for uu =P better than nothingy rite =X cuz tis holiday like nv see uu.. and is AGAIN .. -.-" miss uu nia..

POTATO.

potato arr.. feel tat horr ermmm.. maybe ii shldn't write tis here bahh.. some day we sit down and talk k.. =D iif can frens forever.. =D ii hope ..

SHANYUAN..

wahahaha. shanyuan ar.. bu yong worry for ur birthday narhh... be happi can le marr.. wei le no present er sadd.. where got like tat.. uu kai xin yi dian kk =D

ENGHUA KOR

korr arr.. thanks for inviting miii for lunch at v8. but no need narhh. .waste money later uu still need tis need tat =D thanks for iit.. you xin yi jiu hao =D thanks korr..

Tingx jie

TINGX JIE AR.. so suprise uu write testi for mii nehx.. ii reali miss uu too =D got time muz go out.. muz!

junting korrr

KOR AR!!!!!!! long time no see le.. got fat le mar =X woohoo how ur break dance? reali miss last time nehx korr.. iif stil got anii problem feel free call mii or sms mii or tok to mii bah =D ii veri eager to listen de.. =D no matter happi or sadd.. but ii hope everythingy for uu is a happi one =D
smile korr.. =D

KOK WEI
woohooo got ur msg nehx happi mar =X bu guan how uu muz go write testi for mii =X uu ar despo for testi de.. always frenster frenster.. btw cheer up. =D uu sure find ur cinderella =P =X jia you nehx !!!

ermm tink tat abt iit =X cuz tis few is the most ii close le... hahaha. =P

hai shi so short -.-" suan le write abt muah frenship bahh..

ermm maybe uu guys won't read tis.. but ermm.. ii need to say somethingy.. ii reali feel although we had been togetherr but iit seem so faake lehh.. not those hypocrite or wat.. iis just tat the feeling so fake like dun feel like sitting together and talk those le.. haiZz.. maybe reali no forever bahh.. even frenship? everythingy seem drifting apart.. memories seem so far.. do uu all rmb last time how we hide behind the HDB block? do uu ? do uu still rmb how we go the market.. how we stay back how we hide how we everythingy.. do uu all.. ii guess onli mii now still miss le bahh.. haiZz.. iis seem everythingy happen just like ytd.. andd ii feel everythingy happen for uu all seems like already thrown into rubbish bin..

ii wonder ii wonder will we still be tat close? uu noe sometimes mii and qii reali felt the same tinking.. andd iis like we reali feel like leaving tis "group" uu noe how tough iis it? do uu all still rmb how we get together.. it's not easy.. but ii feel tat maybe is ourself or maybe is other or maybe is the surrounding is breaking our frenship up.. ii can't help iit le.. even how we go help it.. uu all seems to be just letting it be break... haha.. even frenship can break.. andd a trusted one..

maybe iif ii say maybe iis someone wanna join us and then we felt everythingy seems so different.. nvm iif tat person wish we break.. andd uu guys feel like breaking tis frenship up.. break iit.. rmb.. a glass once broken can't fix backk.. even how uu put back iit still leave a scar.. =D ii'm not telling uu tis to stop uu all breaking iit.. but iif uu wan.. uu may =D cuz sometimes ii feel reali abit tired.. eeverytimes lik asking uu all go out iit seems so like bu shuang those de.. iis like bu gan yuan go out.. like force those de..

i'm tiredd of all tis.. ii'm tired for everytingy already le.. even frenship make mii tiredd.. ii reali duno wat can ii do abt iit. how can ii help iit aniimoree.. iit seems so hardd.. ii reali hope our frenship wuld go forever and everr.. but wif surrounding those stupid thingy happening. everythingy start to go a u turn.. going back to the history.. history is repeating.. ii feel iit.. ii knew iit.. nvm... ii let uu all choose the way bahh.. there's a u turn up there.. uu can u turn and off we go back to the history tat had totally spoilt muah feeling for everyone. =D oor uu wanna go straight upp..

ii let uu guys choose bahh. =D ii just follow uu all the path le.. i'm tired to choose or wat le... let iit be bahh.. nature take iit course.. but iif uu all wan to take tat step..take iit bah =D ii won't stop uu de.. =D ii'm sorry ii saying all tis.. maybe we shld find one day and we sit down and tok.. hao marr? =D hope for the better bah jiemui =D.. hope we wuld be frens forever =D

4:17:00 PM

Monday, March 14, 2005

rebondedd hair nia~

weeeeeeee~ rebonded muah hair lee.. happiii.. but look abit too mature le larr -.-" reali nehx.. dun luff nehx when uu see.. bai chii de look.. -.-" but who cares let's say todae..

ermm morning veri early wake up cuz sick a few days back den now slp dao man man liao.. den veri early wake up den bathe den pei mama go see doctor at first is her one den i also go see liao -.-" stupid de .. imagine leh ii wait so long.. from 8 ii wake up den wait for doc till 12 wah sehh.. yin liao narh muah mama..

den after tat go meet qii den pei mama eat den qi and mii go le den go chap 2 .. den is 1.30 liao mar den say wat 30 mins more come back den we go walk awhile lo den 2 come back den say wat alot pplx den ask us 4 come back.. den in d endd we go arcade play one time rock fever den see pplx play parapara.. den time seem so fast den jiu go liao.. den we go there still got 10++ mins left.. den we go walk walk den come back den go up make hair loo.. wah seh although straighter andd neater horr.. but ii hao xiang imss muah last time hair niaa.. duno which one better..

wait go sch le den let pplx see den they comment bahh.. but ii noe veri ugly narh.. -.-" suan le bo bian already rebond le.. hope for the better bahh.. won't damage.. pls pls pls.. =X ii yao hao hao zhao gu le.. cuz onli one time.. next time is muah own money le.. ii cai bu yao =X okayy hope for the better for qii andd muah hairr.. cuz we two go rebond marr.. kk qii jia you nia.. ur hair won't look like xiangyu larr.. iis different sia.. uu got ur unique she got hers... andd somethingy ii wuld like to add but not here.. =P qii next time ask mii bahh. =D kk ii go le. stop here...

everyone i lurve uu all =D muackks..

9:25:00 PM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

ahhh stupid larr.

just now read qii blog.. den see she write alex they all quarrel.. i tink i noe yy.. sorry nehx

just now write le once den error. stupid larr.. a big sorry!!!! ... DUI BU QII..

no time lee.. dui bu qii dui bu qi.. SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10:48:00 PM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

ii miss uu de*** =P. hana.. ii not onli miss de*** still miss tis tis tat tat..

haiZz.. i miss toking to everyone sia.. miss toking to shanyuan.. to kok wei.. to nelson.. to jiaqii.. to pris.. to tis to tat.... wah sehhh miss like siao.. haiZz..

still miss last time keep tok tok tok de.. tok non stop de.. bleh =P den play play.. wah seh so funn..haiZz.. tat time on sat or sunday ar.. amanda come muah house.. den sunday ii got piano marr.. den piano there got muah p6 foto.. wah sehh.. so memorable. iis like wah sehh ii miss muah class......... ii miss steven miss zach.. miss dexter.. miss randy.. miss justin.. miss cynthia.. miss meifang.esther.jun nan.. ahaha.. 4 of us.. =X

ii miss sia.. den after tat amanda cum muah house.. den go take out muah auto graph book.. wah seh ii miss them.. =X but duno can contact de dao marr.. haiZz.. bu guan narh ii june muz have one gathering liao.. reali miss them like sia.. 6/5 (2oo3) andd muah 1/3 (1997) II MISS UU ALL... uu all rawks... =D no hypocrite or anythingy.. ii lurve uu all.. andd 1E ii lurve uu all too...

kk i'm madd now.. =X haiZz... yy always mii who miss the past de.. haiZz.. i'm so failure sia.. always look back de.. haiZz... ii miss wr.. miss matthew alsoo... haha.. miss the time when we two togetherr.. although is just short.. yet alittle bit meaningful..

haiZz.. but can't go back time sia.. iif go back time ii wan treasure totally together de thingy nia.. =X reali hao sha worZz last time.. lurve them so muchie hahaha.. but iit all over~.. like duno who tell mii... uu two de game already over~ shldd play anew game and not keep stay at the same place waiting for iit to go back.. iit won't de... haiZz..

like rachel jie say de.. relationship come andd go... now ii understandd le.. haiZz.. but last time ii stil hang on dao so long.. dao tis year de some month arr.. or jan arr.. duno narhh... andd tat stupidd matthew ii still bao zhu so muchie xi wang for him to come back.. but iit just a stupidd untrue dream.. haha... but who cares.. ii dou bu guan le.. ii seem to be a part time stead.. hahaha.. always when he sian den come sms mii those.. haiZz..

reali miss dao last time sia.. alot alot alot of thingys lehh.. like last time de p6 de cca camp.. got wr. =X woohoo.. den after tat muah eye nv once change iit position.. =X keep look at him andd onli him niaa.. =X reali reali reali veri sha dui marr..

aii shang yii ge zhe yang de ren.. but ii jue de iis zhii de larr.. =X fan zhen zhong zhii ii aii shang shuii.. ii dou gan jue shi zhii de de.. cuz iis like w0 huii zhii da0 shui dui w0 ha0 shuii duii w0 bu hao... matthew ne.. haha.. last time duno when le.. yee chean still ask mii whether mii andd matthew still steadd.. haha. wat can ii say? lian mii ii also duno.. iis his choice narhh.. he wan leave.. den he leave bahh.. iis like ii feel tat although there's still feeling for him.. but ii jue de tis time abit bu zhii de iif ii continue be his PART TIME STEAD.. cuz iis like ii'm tiredd.. ii'm tiredd to lost him when ii needdedd him.. ii tiredd to findd him.. iis so hardd lehh... iis not tat ii dun wan to wait or wat.. iis ii'm tiredd..

maybe ii feel tat.. he nv once lurve mii. who noes? =X hopefullly larr.. he didd lurve mii once narhh.. once is enuff =D but now ii bu guan narhh.. ii zhi shii scare yee chean come back tell mii say.. "matthew say nii hai shii ta de stead" er yii.. =x cuz reali tiredd sia.. imagine uu suddenly need ur him. and then he just like disappear or wat.. reali sian diao de.. fan zhen cry ye cry guo for him le.. enuff le ~ =D ii promise won't diao one tears for him again.. bleh =P watever uu wan say.. say ii heartless ye ke yii.. bu guann. iif uu noe how ii feel den uu put conclusion iin iit.. iif not shun mii.. ii dun need uu.. =P blehh..

hahaha.. -.-" bai chi lehh. ii say say dao here.. -.-" siao de mii.. but reali miss narhh.. haha.. wr iis becoming yue lai yue shuai le.. bleh =P ii fa hua chi larr.. =X but bu guan.. ii dun need him back in muah life too.. =P blehh.. one time hurt is enuff.. totally a big hurt liao.. zai come one more ii duno ii can take iit anot liao.. =P ii xiang too muchie le.. hahaha.. =X

haiZz.. 6/5 ar 6/5 ii miss uu all nehx.. got time go out together go bbq =X jkjk narh. hao lame ar.. ask pplx go bbq.. den muz go set fire those ma huan sia.. =X haiZz. but ii miss themmm.. wonder how they change liao.. ii mean face larr.. sure more chio andd more shuai le.. weet!! =X

wah seh todae de blog quite long horr.. thank you thank you.. ii li hai marr.. =X jkjk .. cuz tink back alot marr.. got time de hua maybe go sms those pplx ii lose contact too le.. like justin.. steven zachh randy travis those bahh.. haha ii miiss the timee.. iif can also can ask them go out nia... ask cheston help mii can liao.. bleh =P shun bian ask laykheng come.. since she wan go out den we all together go out lo. since she also lost contact le.. ahahaa.. ii plan hao hao liao..

june ii muz go contact them le.. ii wan them back into muah life.. =P ii dun wan any to be just a passerby.. bleh =P miss them alot alot. STAMFORD 2oo3 de batch rawks.. =D ii lurve nii menn
MJR 1E ii lurve nii men too.. =D kk i'm madd.. cuz miss uu all too muchie le... becoming crazii lehh.. blehh =P

shanyuan
kok wei
zhu
jerene
wendy

those who ii lose contact le.. duii bu qii can't online.. sorry nehx.. =D zhuu ar!!! nii sii qu na li.. =X wif jerene sii ben arr =X sii qu na li =X -.-" ii mean sii1 qu na li.. bu shi sii4 qu na li horr.. =X tai xiang nii men le.. =P frenss forever leh dun forget mii hor sii zhu andd sii zhu jerene.. bleh =P

hope uu two last forever andd ever kk =D always be en en aii aii... yong yuan yong yuan ye fen bu kaii. =D already 10 month le lehh.. muz continue kk.. going one year le. jia you jia you.. =D

kk endd muah crabbie le.. =P.. byebyeee.. cya take care.. lurve all of uu. =P

4:15:00 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

aha i'm using again and again.. ii miss muah blog =X.. =X

okok~ starting from morning.. quite early wake up den reply qii .. den after tat go find clothes find 15 mins sia -.-" in d endd choose the black one.. den in d end find out so big .. den yuan lai is muah kor kor one.. den noe time change le mar den lazi le.. den wear lo.. den imagine one gal wearing like a pregnant lady like tat.. so big.. den iis lik so mani space.. -.-"

den after tat go library.. den qii tell mii sumthingy.. veri funni sia.. luff dao ii pengz.. but ii can't say.. blehh =P =X den after tat ii go borrow 4 books den we go le.. den we go bukit batok.. wah seh pathetic leh.. so mani shops.. got wat furniture shop.. got wat surgery.. got singapore post.. wah seh -.-" watever also insside.. den tat arcade horr seems so big hor.. but yet iis actually so small.. and useless.. and we nv play dao any den go down le den go dao boon lay.. go eat le.. tat eatting part reali so funni.. uu not there uu duno de. iis like ii was toking to qii abt wat ti hou ar.. duno how to spell larr.. den suddenly muah burger slide down from the paper.. den drop onto the boy plastic bag which is on the floor.. den just beside.. den muah mouth open liao.. xia dao.. den after tat ii keep look at qii. den so funni sia.. den keep up down up down wif tat mouth.. i'm not sure lar.. but ii guess ii got open mouth larr.. cuz was like omg nia =X

so funni there.. den we keep imagine stupid thingy.. veri funni jiu shi le.. den ii say sorry to tat boy.. den ii wipe wipe den tat boi say it's okay. so funni.. =X onli mii and qii noe the thingy.. AHAHHA =X funni sia. we at mac luff dao like siao.. den after tat go up to play arcade. play 3 times.. 3rd time pian qian one.. onli give mii one round for tat rock fever.. stupidd de.. den after tat ii rush go take mrt.. den we go back bugis.. go walk bugis village.. can't find anythingy to buy. den after tat we walk to OG there.. there got sell 2 buck the bracelet those again.. wahaha. =X den mii and qii go buy lo.. she buy 6 buck altogether den mii also... den at first ii wan buy shirt de.. in d end nv.. =X den iis like bai chi lo. den behind the stall iis tat nail polish.. den we go lo.. den see see... den qi buy one ii buy 2.. cuz bo bian marr.. ii seldom do nail polish those de lehh. like nv like tat.. but now buy 2 also duno when play.. cuz ii reali reali nv go play de.. bo liao lar ii go buy -.-" bo bian buy liao.. =X yy we buy altogether 3 nehx.. cuz 3 for 5 buck.. ex though.. -.-" den qii come muah house..

den after tat we make diao just now we polish the nail.. cuz monday got sch mar.. den after tat listen to song.. den after tat she go le.. papa seem so angry.. stupid de.. ii no freedom liao lar..iis like veri bai chi lo.. haiZz.. den after tat come back. sian liao.. now using lo.. so siann.. ii miss muah blog... blog blog arr.. hope to see uu soon.. bleh =P

wat iif one day ii'm gone~
will ani0ne rmb mii?
will ani0ne feel sadd?
n0, ii guess n0 one care..

iis like ii haviing n0 freed0m..
wat do muah parents wan
wat do muah kor wan
ii tried muah best in muah result..

is already muah best..
at least ii get 3A..
iis like ii felt no space to breathe anymore..
iis like everythingy is a no to them..

ii go out.. parents angry~
ii come late.. kor kor ask.. parent angry~
ii sms.. mama scold~
ii tok on phone.. papa scold~

ii use pc.. although now no haf le.. kor kor scold papa scold mama scold~
ii watch tv.. papa scold.
ii sit quietly.. they say yy ii use time to slp those but not study..
study study study..

everythingy study..
yy dun uu ask mii go die..
and there's no more study for mii..
ii wonder hows life in another world

will iit be beautiful?
will there be no hypocrite no stress?
will everythingy be gone once ii in tat world?
will iit ?

iis like ii haviing enuff..
enuff!! ii felt so stress up..
ii felt so empty..
ii felt tat no one care lo..

once ii gone..
it's gone..
they just wouldn't care
ii hate tis..

ii hate tis world..
ii hate muah life
ii hate everyone
ii hate muahself..

ii reali felt stress
ii reali do
when can ii have muah freedom
ii just wan freedom

yet no one culd give mii
ii hate everythingy..
sooner or later
ii wuld broke down..

ii not anythingy..
i'm human..
rmb iit..
ii have feelings too

iit not tat uu command mii to do
and ii do iit for uu
ii hate tis..
everything just command mii

commandd and commandd
ii hate tis ii hate tis..
ii wan to cry
but tears went dry..

when will ii get muah freedom
ii want iit back
pls give mii back
ii wan to be a child

forever nothingy to worry
forever there everythingy i wan
i just have to cry
and everythingy wuld come easily

but we can't go back time
times have been moving all along
nv iit wiill turn back
pplx say look ahead and nv regret

ii regretted yy did ii grow up
yy didn't everythingy turn out to be wat ii wan
yy realistic iis so cruel
yy can ii onli dream

ii wanna noe yy
who can tell mii
yy everythingy so fake
yy iis there so much to worry..

ii'm just a gurl..
a gurl tat wanted freedom
wantedd a carefree life..
wantedd thingys tat ii wantedd

but realistic seems so cruel..
nothingy came easy..
even ii triedd..
nothingy ii culd take..

ii do well in exams..
yet ii was nv given happiness.
given freedom
given the thingy ii wan..

wat do they expect..
expect mii to gone forever..
go to another world
and they'll be happi?

okay ii will do iit
iif ever ii can't take iit
ii wuld just say bye to tis world..
ii wuldn't wan to stay animore..

ii hate tis worldd.. just let mii be free!!

7:41:00 PM

Friday, March 04, 2005

aha.. ii using again.. but who cares =X

okok starting from todae morning.. nothing much happened larr.. den after tat jiu dao after sch den ii keep rush cuz got guide mar.. den ii rush lo den after tat ii go for guide.. after the hw tell mii wat cheryl say ii totally stunn dao loo.. iis like she did say somethingy andd then ii shoot back onli loo. -.-" stupidd de larr..

den after tat jiu come tell us tis tis tis.. den mii and huiwen cry for 3 hours ++ loo. wah seh... shou bu liao.. yuan lai muah tears so muchie de.. but nvm larr now all dry up le.. tink won't cry for few days weeeee! =X crazii lar mii.. but now everythingy settle le lar.. ii say sorry to xiang yu andd like tat loo. dun care le lar.. let the bygone be bygone.. =P wahahha.. =X but ii got somethingy to KAN YI !!! II BEI KEEP IN THE DARK LEH!!!!! stupidd uu all.. hate uu all.. =X jkjk..

den now piano teacher say wat he cannot come during sunday.. can make later mar.. at 8.30 wah sehhhh!!! qii si wo le.. ur problem marr uu cannot come.. zuo mo muz waste muah time.. okay teacher ii hate uu =X kk endd here le....

let everythingy be the past =D

7:16:00 PM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

aha!! tou tou use pc since kor kor slpiing.. =X bu guan~

ahahaha. can use pc but shii gui gui xui xui de.. =X bu guan lar horr.. =X

todae ar not muchie happened.. wiishiing sat faster come den can go out.. btw hor ii got say abt nelson celebration thingy mar =X hao xiang no horr.. nvm ii say..

wah seh his birthday although is fun but reali ke lian lehh ii bu dong zuo mo.. iis like got 10 pplx go yet horr -.-" he cut the cake at suntec de one corner.. no restaurant or wat lehh.. den cake was like -.-""""" nvm nvm.. sorry leh nelson let ur birthday so pathetic =X but fun narh.. before cutting cake we go arcade.. wahaha =X can play sia during sch day. =X den after tat jiu cut cake le.. den eat finish the cheese cum =X chocolate cake den jiu go kopitian eat le =.=" sorry leh nelson birthday go kopitiam. =X den after tat went in eat eat. stupidd qii di siao mii say wat dun ji du.. -.-" cus alex sitting beside her mar -.-" stupid larr.. den after tat like tat jiu walk to mrt those lo.. -.-" reali lame lehh mii.. actually ii can walk home de.. =X cuz veri near marr.. den after tat ii tkae one stop jiu go out to bugis le =.=" suan le..

btw nelson sorry for the starting part.. sorry~

den say todae bahh.. STUPID AGAIN . -.-" Qiiqii SHI QIAO HE QIAO HE LAR!!!!!!!!! bu shi YUAN FEN BU SHI!!! -.-" QIAO HE JIU SHI QIAO HE!!! =P blehh.. stupidd de... okay start from the day.. stupidd de ii almost cry sia fail muah english test... den after tat went to 2e tell qii they all.. den xy like abit scarstic say wat HUH!! NI FAIL AR!! -.-" den ii was like veri sad liao lo.. den she come sound so scarstic de ii totally veri angry liao zhi jie scold back ur business arr.. cuz is like i'm not toking to her.. yet she come say tis.. totally so sad liao still come say mii.. but who cares abt iit.. aha.. xi guan jiu hao liao..

den after tat stay back in sch awhile play play play.. den bell say wan go home den okay lo we go le.. -.-" den walk dao qii and bell bus stop den ii say byebye those mar.. den suddenly qii say wat ZHU NI HAO YUN!!! -.-" wah sehh ehh!!! qi si wo le.. hai come sms mii say wat " AHA.. YUAN FEN AR" or somethingy like tat -.-" SHI QIAO HE.. QIAO HEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =X kk ii sounded veri ji dong.. bu guan larr. QIAO HE QIAO HE.. =X scally he follow uu de =X but uu nv take mrt marr.. so bo bian wif mii marr.. BEN DAN LAR!! =X kk ii muz faster end le. iif not wan dan~ kk enddeedd~

xiang nii xiang si nii ~ =X jkjk =X

4:25:00 PM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

haiZz. cannot use pc.. now at lab.. hao aii nii..

aha.. now at pc lab... dun care narh.. teacher walking around.. scaryy.. miss muah blog.. miss him.. miss chatting online wif him.. miss everythingy.. ahhhh!! 3rd day er yi ii can't live thru le.. haiZz.. stupidd kor kor so maiyu.. iis like ii wan use pc he dun let.. wahsehh.. is like he's not using pc loo.. tao yan si le.. haiZz.. ytd veri funn.. cuz go for nelson celebration... aaa.. going off le.. no time write.. zhong zhii de*** ha0 aii nii =P blehh =X kk ii go le... nelson uu rawks.. sorry abt ytd. keep like dun wan go.. sorry~ i'm veri sorry~

ha0 miss uu all arr... de*** iif uu readd tis msg.. can come help mii check muah frenster acct mar =X andd watever acct.. sms mii bah =D iif uu got time narhh.. =D miss uu.. *hug*

12:31:00 PM

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